>>40758014 (OP)
Yes. Generally it is a form of autistic dissociation as well as projection of positive traits onto women and negative traits onto men. In fact most transbians fall into this category.
>>40759006
Your self-loathing makes you incapable of imagining yourself even as a Chad so you're dissociating from your negative traits by projecting into the female role which you fixate on because of pornography.