Thread 40764678

i want to detransition so bad but i'm also post op and it's like what is the point if i'm stuck with a fucking pussy between my legs.
i keep thinking i'm going to do it but it just never works and everybody keeps on acting like i'm a girl even when i try to wear androgynous clothes. and i can't even act like i'm a man when i know i don't have a penis. and how could it solve my problems IF I STILL HAVE A FUCKING PUSSY AT THE END OF IT ALL

>>40764678 (OP)

you get to try ng+ this time as a pooner

>>40764678 (OP)
Sorry but that's hot...

>>40764690
even being a pooner sounds better than this
>>40764776
please don't say that i hate this i wish i could be a man

>>40764678 (OP)
they got you man
they clipped you like a house pet

>>40764807
You can be a man with a pussy I'm just into it fr

>>40764843
how can i feel like a man when i have a pussy. it wouldn't even solve any of my problems since they mostly have to do with how shit people are to us
i need to be a real man

>>40764850
Idk find someone who respects it ig but I'm a boymoder so I vaguely get it

>>40764850
it's more to do with like lack of medical care and not allowed in bathrooms and stuff like that

>>40764678 (OP)
time to poonmode bro

>>40764678 (OP)
Suuuuuure

>>40765251
how is the OP post erotic

>>40765270
>Oh nooooooooo I have a "PUSSY" now and everyone thinks I am a woman I am forever stuck and will never be a man ever again oh the humanity
Are you stupid ?
Actual detroons don't talk like this, they endlessly whine about le heckin mutilation and axe wounds. This is just some John 50 writing out his forcefem fantasies.

>>40765301
i think it's because i don't really want to be a man i just know it would be better for me
so it's hard to go on about mutilation i'm just mad i can't even go back
also see my filename
now is anyone going to help me or are you just going to make fun of me

>>40764678 (OP)
I want to laugh at you so hard for being such an idiot but on the other hand I think you're just going through some doubts and regret just shut the fuck up take a hit of weed and the fuck down If anything see a professional therapist to deal with your issues You've gone this far you might as well just deal with it and live the rest of your life as you are

>>40765416
>you might as well just deal with it and live the rest of your life as you are
that wouldn't solve any of my problems

>>40765270

Nothing posted a anonymously online is real, it's a collection of self serving POV accounts, trolls, lies, LARPS,or propaganda. in the case of 4chan people go on here to vent and post outrageous things that often completely contradict what they say and do in real life, just because venting and role playing another person is cathartic and helps sometimes.

AT BEST what you can find in places like this are "based on a true story" accounts that blend some accurate facts with fictionalized or dramatized narratives.

People HAVE to get this through their heads. Many regulars use this website for years and decades, posting all sorts of shit. It's shitposting for entertainment. The indulgent replies they get are the entertainment. I personally wouldn't trust anything until I met the person on discord and spoke with them in depth and could evaluate it for consistency and credibility, ideally with some supportive documentation.

>>40765768
do you want a picture of my pussy or something?

>>40764678 (OP)
Hot, fucking a post op detrooner into submission and making them a woman again is my fetish

>>40765784
Yes

>>40764678 (OP)
why do you wanna detrans?

>>40766638
that's not at all what i need
>>40766739
because i hate my vagina

>>40764678 (OP)
Honestly man that's sad but I also do not know how did you back off after getting that far. History of mental illness? I know a friend who detransed when he was going to almost get srs his first year of hrt, it's kinda crazy and he says it was because of mental illness.

>>40766777
i've been transitioned for over a decade it' s just i'm realizing everyone hates us and my vagina is a liability in like medical situations so i'm wanting to go back to being a man

>>40766766
>because i hate my vagina
was it a botch job or did you just realize it's not what you wanted?

>>40766828
neither
my vagina works fine and i wish i could just be a woman
but i have problems with peeing (and always did so it's not a srs thing) and the fact that i'm post op makes dealing with doctors 10000x harder
and i don't get hrt either even though like everyone i have managed to see says i need hormone levels to help my bladder

>>40766800
Oh so you are not a dude, you are just a woman trying to learn how to be a dude. It's fine, do as you wish.

>>40766900
i was born with a penis! i wish i had it back

>>40766766
>that's not at all what i need
Its exactly what you need, being held down by a real man while he fucks your designer vagina and gives you some gender affirming good girls

>>40766907
I get why you wouldn't want a vagina, I feel like I do not really want one either sometimes, but what does that have to do with your gender? Do you remeber how to be a dude? Do you remember what it implies?

'Cos I don't.

>>40766844
>i wish i could just be a woman
so was this just a bait thread to make everyone go "nooo don't detransition" at you

>>40766922
most detrans wish it were possible but know that it's not
>>40766917
men are supposed to have penises and i don't have one it's a major problem.
>>40766916
i'm not going to be tricked by this again

>>40764678 (OP)
maybe you should have listened to people telling you not to transition

>>40766933
>i'm not going to be tricked by this again
Yes you are, you're going to put on some cute underwear, a dress, fix your hair up and then you're going to take some dick by a real man, something you never where.

>>40766933
But you already are a woman, you say you've been trans for over a decade, you even got a vagina. i do not see the problem besides your rigid thinking of ''men are supposed to have A and do B and women are supposed to have X and do Y''.

Is it passing? Is it loneliness? Is it a sense of failure?

I've thought about detransing to as an experiment, as a ''what if?'', but I transitioned so young I would have to learn almost from scratch what is being and acting like a man. And for what? Personally, to also have that experience, a more complete life experience, but that's just stupid. I wonder what's like being an adult guy, not a little boy (which I do not remember much of either).

You know what I think? You were too weak, you could not handle the pressure of transness, that's fine, though still funny that despite that you got so far.

>>40766960
a guy told me my hair looked nice the other day even though it was in like the most basic ponytail
i don't want to wear cute underwear my pussy juices might get on i
i don't need to take dick i wish i had a dick!

>>40764678 (OP)
same situation, post op as well, the social aspect of everyone seeing me detroon is also embarrassing, just stuck

>>40766987
i don't have hormones and my vagina is a problem medically? is that not a problem?
if i was a man the world would care but since i'm some weird tranny woman i'm disposable.
but even though i want to transition back into a man it's hard because like you say i don't have the slightest clue how to be a man or any men's clothes or anything. and my body makes people think i'm a girl even if i try to be androgynous. and then it wouldn't even solve any problems because I'D STILL HAVE A FUCKING VAGINA
do you see my problem?

>>40767006
Your problem is that you were too weak to transition, got scared and want to go back. Do as you wish, though from your arguments it seems being a woman is the easiest answer, why can't you acces HRT? Trump bans?

I am not from the US soooo I can't really help with that idk

>>40767002
yeah i don't even know how to handle that my friends would all tell me to stay a woman and like i'm sad to say having sex like >>40766916 wants works.. but only for like a half a day
i want to withdraw from the world but i guess that's not healthy. it might be my only option
>>40767027
officially no but i imagine the political situation drives prescribing decisions in other ways.
desu i don't have any doctors anymore and when i call i get screened away by the receptionist. even wanting a pcp is impossible. i have bladder problems too which they're now blaming on a lack of hormones (although all that long predates that) yet i can't get more. it's so messed up.
and i'm sure if that doctor ever moves/quits/whatever i don't get another. that's what happened to my pcp and gynecologist.

>>40766988
You dickless dumb faggot. You're going to take dick and you're going to like it.

>>40765251
>emphasis on the inconvenience of obligatory seated urination
lmao

>>40764678 (OP)
its ok anon lots of people think mtftm is hot

>>40764678 (OP)
Have you tried a prosthetic dick or strap? I recommend the vixskin royale.

>>40767111
it is really fucking annoying how i can't stand up like a regular guy

>>40767050
>wants works.. but only for like a half a day
So i'll dick you down twice a day, no problem. Hope your new pussy can take it

>>40767168
idk im pre op and i haven't peed standing in 8 years so it just seems like a ridiculous thing to me

>>40767173
it's been a while since i've had that (my old bf was more horny) but i know it can
THIS ISN'T WHAT I NEED THOUGH
the point is to become a man who doesn't have a pussy not to get my pussy filled
>>40767182
now imagine your vagina is the root of all your problems in life and yet you get reminded ten times a day how you're just a dumb woman who has to sit to pee

>>40767305
Well its not like you can undo it. Best case you can pay for phallo out of pocket $300,000. And you still have a frankendick. Its better to accept the things you cannot change. You need mangina affirmations not magic dick surgery that doesn’t exist.

>>40767305
>the point is to become a man who doesn't have a pussy not to get my pussy filled
Should've though about that before you got your pp inverted. Now you have to get fucked like the bitch you are.

>>40767305
>it's been a while since i've had that (my old bf was more horny) but i know it can
So if you get fucked often enough you're happy?

How do you even get far enough to have the surgery and then decide to detrans, don't you usually get it after years of hormones and social troonsition?

>>40767341
Not necessarily you can top with mouth and hands and strap. Theres no such thing as biologically built to bottom.

>>40767375
I’m convinced its actually 100% cis men that just want to not have a dick for some kind of freudian vagina complex fetish so they troon and then get a pussy then find out they can’t stick their pussy in another pussy and mald forever.

>>40767382
>Theres no such thing as biologically built to bottom.
Op is LITERALLY surgically built to be a bottom.
Lol

>>40765251
i agree with your statement, brazilanon

>>40767334
what is a mangina affirmation
the other posters on here are calling me a woman
>>40767341
i'm not a bitch just because i have an inverted penis
>>40767366
i don't want to say it like that but maybe it's easier to believe i am loved
>>40767375
it's like 10 years but eventually you get fed up
>>40767382
it's not the same as piv and i don't have the mental state to top anyway
>>40767386
i don't even like girls SO WHY DID I TRY TO BECOME ONE???
>>40767394
sadly true

>>40767397
If this is who I think it is you should get out.

How did the ffs go tho ? I was trying to send an email to ykw but forgot the number combination in the address

>>40767403
Why the change of heart then? You've been at it for so long your basically never going to be cis again.

>>40767403
A mangina affirmation is a series of statements you can repeat to yourself to normalize your mangina. Repeat after me
“Lots of men my age have a vagina”. “Vaginas are manlier than penises are”. “My vagina is handsome”.

>>40767490
literally none of those are true
>>40767438
i've explained it in here but basically the stress of having to deal with it got too high
literally all my problems are connected to it in some way

>>40764850
It's ok.
Your penis is still there!!
They just shoved it into your pelvic cavity after sawing it open into a fillet o dick!

>>40767517
yeah and men don't have penises in their pelvic cavity

>>40767508
Well no plenty of cis fags are getting vaginoplasty these days. They usually get better results too which is funny. Also vaginas are built with far more robustness than dick and balls which are fragile and easily broken. Pussies are designed to push out babies and neopussies are built like tanks. I can’t speak to how handsome your pussy is but its probably not like a little quirky pink flower like a proper womanhole.

detransitioners are the dumbest people on the entire earth
OP sounds like a cis woman who wants to be a man because she subconsciously believes women are inferior. 0 desire to be a man, just straight up hating being a woman
>I wish I have a big and powerful penis, not this stupid vagina
lmao

>>40767524
Well, detransitioned transwomen certainly can.
You transitioned into a 3rd gender and now you're stuck, sorry.

>>40767538
>Well no plenty of cis fags are getting vaginoplasty these days
name 3

>>40767546
that just sounds like 90% of ftms

>>40767538
you've never seen my pussy i hope
i wish i could believe it's more powerful and strong than an erect cock but that's not true. having sex proves it clearly.
>>40767546
i do hate being a woman and i could've been a man but i was dumb and gave it up

>>40767550
Theres like at least 15 on xitter and more every day.

>>40767575
post one, I think that's very based
I wanted to do that before actually accepting I was trans

>>40767570
I think you need to experience falling off a dick during cowboy and snapping it in half. Seriously those things are built like the triangle shirtwaist factory.

>>40767579
This is a blue board I’m sure you can find your own vaginaboys without mommy’s help unless you’re an illiterate drooling ape.

>>40767561
ftms want to be men at least
>>40767570
>i do hate being a woman and i could've been a man but i was dumb and gave it up
yes exactly you hate being a woman but you dont want to be a man

>>40767584
I'm just curious because I've only ever heard of it happening twice
but I'd be casually curious enough to click a twitter link

>>40767581
i can handle it being called cowgirl lol
but also please tell me that's not possible i'm scared
>>40767589
i've said as much
but i know it would be better if i was a man. i'd be accepted and wouldn't worry about politics or anything. but now i'm fucking stuck like this.

>>40766844
>and i don't get hrt either even though like everyone i have managed to see says i need hormone levels to help my bladder
which is to say you aren't on hrt? im confused.

>>40767590
nta
i know sissypussy_
but im pretty sure xer is trans idk

>>40767607
yeah i ran out and can't find a doctor willing to see me once they find out i'm post op i become "too complicated"

>>40767600
You can do it with anal even I’ve broken like 3 dicks because the guy pissed me off. They are so fragile. You can also bite them and they hate that. Thats not even including the balls like you can tap a guy on the balls firmly and he’ll fall over. Dick and balls are a weakpoint.

>>40767600
yes anon im pretty sure you would have an incredible time living as man!!

OPs problem would go away if she just stopped being a retard and diyed instead of whining on 4chins

>>40767620
oh well that's really not good you should have a primary hormone or your gonna encounter serious health issues. it might even relate to your peeing problem. look into diy if you can't find a doctor.

>>40767625
look i know they're weak but breaking three dicks is impressive.. wait is this a trick to make me glad i don't have one?
>>40767627
youre making fun of me because i've admitted to riding dick. i have a fucking pussy what am i supposed to do when i'm horny? it doesn't mean i can't be a man
>>40767632
that won't solve my other medical issues down there and being post op is like a major problem for finding care
>>40767645
i know that's what they told me. then i was like well if i need estrogen and you're a doctor... and she was like no that's too complicated. but you can look at constructed vagina and that's okay?

>>40767659
>youre making fun of me because i've admitted to riding dick. i have a fucking pussy what am i supposed to do when i'm horny? it doesn't mean i can't be a man
larp

>>40767608
looks like they have boobs

>>40767659
You literally said the doctors told you getting on hormones would fix your bladder control
Come on

>>40767666
what are you talking about? i've had a pussy for half a decade of course i've had sex in every imaginable position it doesn't mean anything
>>40767671
and followed that up by saying they won't give them to me
>do this and it will help
>oh no i can't help you
>good luck
see how fucking demoralizing that is especially knowing that logic isn't applied to any other female patients

>>40767668
yes she is on HRT
she used to call herself a cis gay bottom crossdresser and posted a tweet once saying that she got srs not because she has dysphoria but because she wants to be fucked more or something like that
she also implied multiple times that she is just trans

>>40767710
That's why I'm telling you to diy dumbass

>>40764678 (OP)
You don't have a pussy. A plastic orange isn't an orange.

>>40767710
>of course i've had sex in every imaginable position it doesn't mean anything
larp

>>40767725
kind of hard when they give me such mixed messages
i need estrogen yet apparently not enough to be prescribed it. and it's not like i haven't looked and come up short for other sources.
>>40767737
dude why do you doubt me? most girls have had plenty of sex. are you an incel or something?

>>40767736
No but genetically modified oranges grown in greenhouses that look taste and feel exactly like a naturally grown orange is not only the same non-semantically but infact better.

Cute little one liner though I'm sure you read it on twitter.

>>40767779
You're either retarded or larping, order astrovials or some shit and shut up already

>>40767779
>dude why do you doubt me? most girls have had plenty of sex. are you an incel or something?
open femrepgen, see how they talk about their experience having a pussy, and compare it to what youre telling us
lmk how it goes

>>40767869
what's your point? they don't like having sex? good thing i'm not a femrepper.

>>40767910
yes anon they dont like having sex with their pussy because they absolutely hate it
lmao

>>40768027
okay but a lot of them still have sex just like me. it's the only way to deal with being horny.
also i'm not a femrepper i'm a detrans mtf so it's a different thing since they're women and i'm a man.

what's the problem?
just get a short haircut and stop wearing dresses and call yourself alex or something

>>40767659
you should see a new doctor or diy I said it in my last post and you ignored me.

>>40768069
dude they're just going to think i'm a lesbian
>>40768071
because it's not practical believe me i've tried and it doesn't matter anyway since when nobody cares about you what is the point in fighting
this is why i'm going to be a man

you literally want to ruin your life for a fetish. you should just kill yourself because you will always be a cucked self sabotaging retard.

>>40768399
I understand it can seem bleak but your bones are litterly gonna crumble without a primary hormone.

>>40771576
do you not remember the part where the doctors are like actually no it's not important enough to prescribe?

>>40766987
> but you already are a woman
no, we're not. we will live this life forever as an amab. there's no treatment in the world that could fix that.
trooning works for some, doesn't for others (too much self-awareness)

>>40764678 (OP)

This is why MtF SRS is so hot. If they regret it, they can never return to a normal man.

>>40764678 (OP)
Honestly I understand where you are coming from. Not exactly the same situation, but I am also post-op and verge of detransition. I can't handle the stress of being trans in public, I've basically become a shut-in, so I've heavily debated detransitioning so I can exist in society again. But after surgery it's just sort of pointless, I'll always be a freak to people either way. Wish you the best, assuming this isn't actually a larp.

>>40772036
i am op and yeah this is my problem. i can detrans but like what does it solve if i've still got a stupid pussy

>>40772275
how could you ever let it get this far? i'm so sorry

>>40768045
You’re a monster.

>>40767394
But strapons are superior, except for the peeing maybe.

>>40773034
how are they superior i wish i had a cock

>>40772275
If it makes you feel better I can call you a big dood while plapping you in the infertile surgery cooter!

>>40764678 (OP)
Why not detrans and become gay?

That way you can be a man that bottoms with his pussy.

>>40767910
>they don't like having sex?
most of us dont. too humiliating. femreppers on average have more dysphoria than actual ftms

>>40771849
Definitely part of some of my fantasy.

>>40773063
Always hard, as big as you wish.

>>40772275
Listen OP, you need to accept that there's nothing to be done about your current situation. What do you expect people on 4chan to do? Wave a magic wand and make you regrow your dick? Sometimes you can't always get what you want. Sometimes you make mistakes you can't come back from. That's life. This is who you are now. Maybe for once in your miserable existence you should recognize that some of your problems are your own fault. Your actions have consequences.
Or, more realistically, you'll completely ignore this truth and continue screaming into the void until your eventual suicide.

>>40773114
Its sad. He could become a big strap daddy or a fuckable pussyeunuch for a hot gay guy but he’s too chickenshit about his vagina complex to realize he’s still a man.

>>40773114
i think hes just venting hes not looking for a solution

>>40764807
>even being a pooner sounds better than this

you are a pooner OP with pooner lips and pooner mouth and pooner gash. you will wear pooner fits and try to be tall but in the end everyone knows what you are ywnbam

was that enough to help you finish
if you need more i can write more

>>40773135
you're not very kind are you.

there's people posting who seem to be having a rough time and you guys are like sharks with a bucket of chum

>>40773154
She has literally asked for a solution several times.
>>40773135
Autism often causes that kind of rigid thinking. It's why being a tranny is often comorbid with autism, they get a random thought that they want to be a girl and it gets stuck in their brain.

>>40773114
so i just have to be a pooner now?
i'm only 5'6" too it's not tall enough to be a man i hate this
>>40773211
i do want a solution i know i can't grow a dick but maybe i can get a packer or something

>>40772275
I fell asleep, sorry for late response. It's terrible to hear another stuck in the same spot. I want to at least add my thoughts here for you, but I type really slow so just going to bump this before it gets archived.

Be a man and stick by your decision

>>40764678 (OP)
If I got the surgery and wanted to detroon, I would just stay trans desu. I'm sorry but you already got the surgery so there's no going back...

>>40772275
Re-reading through the thread while not half-asleep, I see our situation is pretty similar. I started transitioning in March of 2016, had SRS late 2020 and been grappling with the idea of detransition for most of this year. My considerations are definitely not from a "I am not trans" viewpoint but rather I don't think I have the mental fortitude to live with the societal repercussions. If I am not wrong, your messages read much the same way. So after bottom surgery you now feel like the escape route from the social isolation has been taken from you.

Personally at this point I am leaning to detransition not being the answer, but I haven't fully shaken the thought. If I was to detransition I would still feel like an outcast. Those that I still have around me are going to look at me strange after nearly 10 years of transition just suddenly stopping when they know my feeling about my gender. Those I lost aren't suddenly going to change their minds about me. Those I meet are still going to think I look weird with the mix of sex characteristics I will still have after detransition; and if I manage to hide those traits, people I would be intimate with will still have to overcome my anatomy.

I am starting to see this a lot like people on antidepressants. They feel better but hate the side-effects, but after so long they forget what life was like before them. I am 10 years removed from the worse part of dysphoria, I don't truly remember what it was like. So now the "real" issue is the social isolation cause dysphoria is so nebulous again. It can feel absolutely maddening feeling like you are the only person who can't tune out the onslaught of what other people think of you, that you are the only one self-aware enough that can't delude themselves into feeling actually like a woman. [1/2]

>>40772275
>>40774996
I do feel like the best way to move forward is dealing with the mental fortitude. There will always be those who hate or look down on trans people. It's very easy to let that overwhelm your view of everyone, that everyone has those thoughts and the few that accept you are just being polite for xyz reasons. I've been trying to work through decoupling my self-worth from others and learning that not everyone wants to see you burn. There is no easy way out of our situation, we were dealt a shit hand, but therapy seems to most likely solution. [2/2]

>>40774996
>>40775075
that's kind of.. it's really hard to commit to detransition since it's not going to solve any problems but when the news has like five stories every day about another way to discriminate against us AND i regularly experience this kind of shit in real life. The fact that I have like friends or a partner doesn't help when i'm alone and feeling bad about this stuff. IBut I also don't know if I have the..strength..to actually detransition. like just wearing pants and a loose shirt clearly doesn't help because people still treat me like a girl. and I don't REALLY want to be treated like a boy. i just wish I didn't feel like I deserve it.

>>40775640
Yeah, I absolutely understand. This is a real shitty time.

>>40764678 (OP)
>what is the point
to be a man, i'd assume? you're in the same position as someone pre-transition, you have nothing to lose anon.
i am sorry for your circumstances though