Thread 40768142

Any other autistic trannies? I mean actually autistic, not meme autistic. How does it affect your life? For me, I think being an autistic tranny has made my life worse because lots of people think I am weird. Partly because of the autism and partly because of the transness. I struggle a lot to read social cues especially, and can never tell if anyone wants to actually be my friend or is just being nice, which is less of an issue since transitioning because it seems like no one wants to be my friend or be nice at all anymore.

>>40768142 (OP)
I have it and I fucking hate it. I'm a jobless loser who can't socialize for shit, so I'll most likely die friendless. Being autistic is bad enough, even mild autism, but throw being a tranny into the mix and now it's torture.

>>40768142 (OP)
>>40768162
same

all trannies are autistic, that's why they transition
they view gender in black and white
i.e. males have to be chad and masculine and no deviation is permitted

>>40768142 (OP)
if you aren't childhood diagnosed you are fake autistic

we dont have normal lives.
i have a pretty wild life.
i'll never have a normal life.

>>40768170
why talk when you have no source to back it? Gender dysphoria doesn't stem from autism bud.

>>40768184
it most certainly does
you only claim to have gender dysphoria when you want to do something antisocial you cannot rationally justify otherwise

>>40768176
Dumb take.

>>40768187
what does that even mean? again, you have no credible sources, you're just talking out of your ass.

>>40768162
Yes, me too. This is pretty much how I feel as well. I wish I could have a job and some friends.

>>40768142 (OP)
>>40768162
>>40768166
>>40768180
I don't (pretty sure), I've just got a metric fucktonne of trauma, and I live in a society that doesn't really know what to do about that, but I really want to be able to support you better. I keep meeting neurodivergent people and I can see the loneliness and isolation it's putting you in and I want to make you feel included and welcome. I also think it's unfair that neurodivergent people are denied intimacy because they fail the social tests.

That said, it can be a real struggle to talk with and connect with you. Sometimes you say things that hurt my feelings, and sometimes my own trauma makes me act in a way that isn't nice to you. I want to get training to support you better and make my little piece of society better for you.

>>40768142 (OP)
It's isolating. The few friends from when I was a dude looked for any opportunity to ditch me when I trooned with enough plausible deniability that it wasn't cause I'm a weird autistic tranny. I have a lovely (Also real) autistic tranny gf, but she's pretty much the only person I see outside of my very highly specialised and niche work. The people who respect my work who get close to me immediately disengage when they realise I'm an autistic tranny. Unless they want to fuck me. Then they try to get really close and it's hard to get them to leave me alone and I have gotten used to being very blunt with these people now. Sometimes older autistic men in the same line of work talk to me and give me their time because we can get in deep about the work. All of them just call me a guy even though I have tits but I just don't police them on it cause I value the company and sometimes I get to work with them on stuff and I'm afraid they'll leave or stop respecting me if I assert myself. I nearly got fired at one of my jobs because I had a meltdown, and then this one guy who specifically said he's uncomfortable with me cause I'm autistic tried to go around my back and use that to get me fired so he can have my position. I basically had to suck it up, kowtow and let him try my work, while apologising profusely and masking really hard from now on and then after a few weeks of shouldering the work I do he cracked and I just took it back over and he started working on some other arm of the project to win points with the project managers on that one. I think I make everybody uncomfortable, if I didn't pour decades of insane attention to detail into my work I don't think I'd have any people who'd want to talk to me at all except chasers and poly transbians. It's hard to make friends with trans people because I don't want to be poly, and my relationship is mono and I want to keep it that way. All those people see me as is a potential sex object.

>>40768170
That's actually just dumb. Most type 1 autistic people struggle to recognize gender, with the sense of gender permanence (boys become daddies and girls become mommies) not developing until late teens early 20s.

Also you don't seem to know that a third of transgender people are non-binary.

>>40768142 (OP)
I'm not really trans, more of a femboy/twink (although I hate hearing those terms used by normies IRL) but I take bicalutamide to block the harmful effects of testosterone. I don't really feel like I fit anywhere. I'm too edgy for normies but I'm not a crazy nazi like the chuds and I like trannies but I'm always kinda worried I'll piss them off because my political views are so far removed from the left-right spectrum. It doesn't help that I don't have a lot of normal interests. I was diagnosed with aspergers when I was like 8 or something.

>>40768176
the school put me in the special needs class and told my parents to take me to the doctors to get me diagnosed and then my mom took me out of the school because that offended her and she took me to a spirit healer because apparently she could deal with the idea that her child is possessed and not with the idea that i could be autistic or have anything genetically wrong with me and then the spirit healer diddled me and then when I went to the next school they filtered me into the special needs group and I resisted and would throw tantrums to get them to stop giving me help and eventually they took a less invasive approach with me and then my brother started calling the special needs room at school the retard box cause him and his friends would make fun of the disabled kids for being "deformed" so when I went to the next school, and they filtered me into the special needs group again, I threw more tantrums until they said they were gonna call my parents and I told them they couldn't do that cause I didn't want my parents to hit me so they didn't and then eventually they realised if they stopped trying to put me into the retard box I'd calm down and then I was just a retard for ages and eventually I went and got diagnosed with some help cause I was too retarded to do it on my own. Anyway there's more than one reason why people might not get a diagnosis when they're young. You sound like a normie

>>40768219
idk what to say but ty

>>40768170
If anything people with autism tend to adopt gender critical views because xy chromosomes=man xx chromosomes=woman makes way more sense than a nebulous belief system based around immeasurable internal feelings. It's not necessarily about belonging to one social box or another but having a body that fits your goals. It's true cis men can be feminine but testosterone makes that harder and harder. HRT means I don't have to deal with that shit if I don't want to.

>>40768142 (OP)
>lots of people think I am weird
>I struggle a lot to read social cues especially
>it seems like no one wants to be my friend
I think you sound cute and pretty cool.
I'd hang out with you.
>t. twink w/ high-functioning autism

>>40768142 (OP)
i once met someone on the autism spectrum and they go through moments of anti socialness and just bad mood makes it hard to be around them

>>40768389
Autistic people are a lot easier to understand and read if you're also autistic.
I probably have as much problem dealing with neurotypicals as you do autists desu.

>>40768142 (OP)
yes
its makes my life pretty terrible desu
i feel like everyones in on a big joke that idk about and like whenever i go somewhere public everyones watching me and judging me every move even tho that makes no sense. ppl will ask me like is that all you have to say and ill literally not know what im supposed to say or supposed to do in so many situations and so many people have gotten mad at me because of it even though i cant help it and ive embarrassed myself countless of times because of it. and some guys will find it cute until the moment they actually have to put up with it and they get annoyed/mad and i lose them. so yeah

>>40768192
>>40768142 (OP)
every tranny is autistic. I've met a lot of trannies and they've all mentioned having the tism.

>>40768749
It's usually just shit like "oh I'm autistic because I like Paradox strategy games and anime". They don't actually know what it's like or their autism is mild enough that their tics don't alienate them.

>>40768858
>>40768749
people who just make blind assumptions anger me.

>>40768142 (OP)
im pretty lucky that my autism is pretty mild, but being both autistic and a tranny id a nightmare. i can't read people socially well enough to tell if i pass or not, and as a result i have no idea how to act. i can never tell if people genuinely want to be around me or if they're just being polite, and i never wanna reach out to anyone because i dont wanna impose
the only person i talk to irl is my bf who i was lucky enough to be able to meet online and immediately be genuine with. when that layer is removed i get better, i just don't know how to mask as a presentable person without becoming a stilted robot, and people will judge every awkward autist action extra harshly because everything is malicious when a tranny does it

>>40768170

Black and white thinking isn't one of the main symptoms used to diagnosed autism though it's primarily a social communication disorder. Black and white thinking is more of a BPD or OCD thing which a lot of trannies also have.

>>40768187

Couldn't you just say the exact same thing about autism though?

> How does it affect your life?
I’m not sure if this is caused by the autism, but I find that I am super empathetic and unable to confront people. Throughout my life, this has taken a huge toll on me.

> I let kids bully me a lot as a kid because I was very hesitant to tell on them. Not because of the potential harm from getting them into trouble, but because I didn’t want to be seen as the ‘bad guy’.

> I have a really hard time sticking up for myself and expressing what I want which has ultimately led me to expressing no form of femininity and hard repressing. For example, I’ve just let my dad pressure me into getting a hair cuts for the past 8 years and I would just give in :(

It’s scary as well because it makes me a lot more vulnerable.

Sensory issues:
> foods and taste
Honestly, this is where my autism affects me the most and makes me the most weird in social situations no matter how hard I try to mask.

I'm an absolute sperg when it comes to social stuff, but I atleast have my lines prepared at work. Unironicly love my job, being a cleaner who is left alone 99% of the time.

Also has anyone here tried microwave rice with chopped up chicken burger and Honey onions sauce? Its amazing

Also since when does this shithole site have a fucking timer for posting. Haven't posted here in years

>>40768142 (OP)
Sorry im only meme autistic. Irl im normie passing ladyboss big dick chadess

>>40768170

While it's true the trans-identity tends to be caused by autism, I would say it's caused by the anime obsession that autists love.

desu, troons are overwhelmingly autistic, which is why I (an autistic man) have fun talking to them. we're kind of on the same page.
I don't get real women. They're weird, and they get mad at me whenever I try to say anything.

>>40768142 (OP)
Heavy social masking like I don’t speak unless spoken to, I don’t make eye contact, I learned the less invested people are in you as a person the easier life is to exist,like have no frens and work every day of the week, can’t have time for autistic interests when most of my time either getting ready for work, driving, going to work, basic survival needs and sleeping. Like life can be manageable when you don’t really live, and now I can hold in crying until my bathroom breaks and eating lunch alone in my car

>>40768142 (OP)
Every thursday I have to eat the same meal OR ELSE.

I have very specific things I like talking about and no one to talk.

I am very picky about audio quality in music, I find most shit unlistenable. I've also realised most normies do not pay attention to the instruments and think the main thing is the voice and lyrics.

I study history and anthropology and as a result I've started my own cultural investigation on normies and their values system. Still have little because it takes time.

I cannot make eye contact, I barely remember faces because I never look at people.

I am really good at stalking both irl and online, I've met other autists who are also good.

I cannot stay still, I am permanently moving some part of my body except when I am lying down and about to sleep. This was not a problem when I was a kid tho, not sure where it came from.

I am also a stealthoid so normies let me in in their normie shit, every interaction is a study opportunity.

>>40770930
that shit felt like reading a tragedy, please get better

Good morning, I hate autistic people.

>>40771008
be kind. We have suffered.

>>40771001
I’ve been doing this for a while, like a decade of this type of life, I think for some of people, myself, it’s the best I can do to be a functional person