Im currently going out with a super cute sweet girl. Everyone in my life keeps saying its beyond obvious we're going to go long term and that this girl is absolutely in love with me but I cannot for the fucking life of me understand it. Ive posted about this before but I just cannot wrap my head around the concept of how anyone could possibly be that in to me.
The girl herself said that with the first date she honestly was expecting just to get some free steak but found me to be much more than that, but I just dont understand it.
I keep running the math in my head but weird introverted girl who spends her time looking into the darkest bits of history and super sweet cheery girl who loves making silly paintings and takes life as it is just doesnt add up in any possible way.
But I have literally nothing to offer so theres no way she could possibly be into me for resources and she loves to hear my autism rants. I just dont get it.
I hate that I am incapable of receiving love because of how broken I am by the world.