My stupid birthday is this week
My mental health deteriorates significantly this month as the days lead up to my birthday.
It makes me more suicidal than usual. I end up doing even stupider shit than usual.
I cannot be trusted with alcohol.
I find myself drinking as copiously as I did prior to starting hrt and then I throw up in the toilet and my throat burns from the hydrochloric acid.
Hydrochloric acid causes everything to taste sweet for a short while because of how low it's pH is, but I digress.
I become even more of an attention-seeking troon than usual this month.
I call hotlines (usually don't no matter how bad it gets), schedule more appointments with therapists, degrade myself by wasting time in anonymous chats, post here...
It's really bad. This month is really bad for me.
I should do something humiliating like posting a picture of myself on my birthday like a good little masochist.
My mental health deteriorates significantly this month as the days lead up to my birthday.
It makes me more suicidal than usual. I end up doing even stupider shit than usual.
I cannot be trusted with alcohol.
I find myself drinking as copiously as I did prior to starting hrt and then I throw up in the toilet and my throat burns from the hydrochloric acid.
Hydrochloric acid causes everything to taste sweet for a short while because of how low it's pH is, but I digress.
I become even more of an attention-seeking troon than usual this month.
I call hotlines (usually don't no matter how bad it gets), schedule more appointments with therapists, degrade myself by wasting time in anonymous chats, post here...
It's really bad. This month is really bad for me.
I should do something humiliating like posting a picture of myself on my birthday like a good little masochist.
