Thread 40790511

No cutters thread? :c

i cut myself for the first time in years a few days ago :(

>>40790529
Oh no why? :( what made u relapse? :<

>>40790537

i've been on estrogen a while now and it's helped me stop disassociating. i just started remembering how fucking terrible my life is and how terribly it got fucked up and how dysphoric i am and i've just been having a huge breakdown for a whole month. i've been sobbing non-stop, can barely eat or sleep, keep having nightmares.

eventually i just couldn't take it any more. but it felt so good. i was able to study for my exams a bit after, so i kind of want to keep doing it until they're done.

>>40790567
I undertand, I'm going through something similar rn, I'm sorry you are going through that anon, I hope it gets better, hugs :(

>>40790529
>cut myself for the first time in years
light work, quit while you're ahead. it's not too late for you

>>40790654
>>40790661

i know i shouldn't do it. but, it really does make me feel so much better about myself. part of me hasn't moved on since i was traumatised at 15 T_T

I did it for the first time a few days ago, then again yesterday. It honestly felt like a weight lifted off my chest because I've been debating back and forth for so long on it that its long overdue. Now I need to catch up for lost time & cuneiform a lifetime of bullshit onto me

anyone else think their blood smells yummy?
my blood smells creamy and a bit spiced its a little sickening but i kinda like it too but i only notice when the cuts start to dry up when its fresh it smells less strong

>>40790905
i like how my arms smell metallic after i do it

I wish my lawn was emo so it would cut itself

CHEER UP BOSNIAN KID

>>40790905
god i miss the smell of my own blood so much, sh for a while was like the only thing in my life that brought me any euphoria. but i can't do it anymore, its so destructive for me and my life---so even if i miss it i can't cut again

>>40791558
>god i miss the smell of my own blood so much, sh for a while was like the only thing in my life that brought me any euphoria. but i can't do it anymore, its so destructive for me and my life---so even if i miss it i can't cut again

This thread is now a cutter thread.

>>40791566
im like really DARK and fucked up and TWISTED. you just couldn't get me bc ur not as fucked up as i am

>>40790511 (OP)
I only cut when shits really bad. I kinda feel bad about having huge scars so I only do it where its covered by underwear. Now I've got a couple fat ass scars on the sides of my ass. Idk I hate people worrying about me and I feel like big sh scars are the best way to do that. Even if I do kinda like doing it.

couple days ago idk

>>40791812
This is how I cut too, but i do it rarely last time It took like a week for it to actually close. I probably should've gotten stitches( it would probably be good if you did too honestly, but im not your mom.)

>>40791834
dont need stitches not deep enough
and i think they wouldnt let me leave if i went hospital

>>40791812
CHEER UP BOSNIAN KID

>>40791860
Its a gaping wound, its typically best that those get stitches. If you dont atleast make sure you clean and bandage it atleast. You dont want an infection. You're probably right that they would keep you but that might be a good thing long term honestly though.

pawsome cut thread

>>40791879
do you really need stitches if theyre only styros?

>in b4 cut deeper
i know i know im working on it!!! stfu!!!

>>40791879
ive got super good at dressing wounds its part of the process to me
andand if my future partner ever gets hurt i can take good care of them i hope like be a nurse to them

This is from a few days ago, first time i cut in a couple months

>>40791911
It might be a good idea. If you dont again keep it clean, (use soap and water not alcohol or hydrogen peroxide. It kills your immune cells with intterups healing) change your bandage every 12 to 24 hours. Atleast promise me youll do that?

>>40791919
I agree. Most of peoples arguments against self harm are either aesthetics or infection related. I get its not a great coping mechanism, but alot of the downsides can be mitigated.

gonna cut again today, last couple of times I wanted to I just procrastinated for a while or got distracted with something and didnt cut. I was almost convinced i wouldnt want to do it again if i stopped for a while

>>40791913
why do you cut yourself like youre preparing salmon

>>40792815
what?

>>40793385
why do you cut yourself like youre preparing salmon

>>40793385
they asked. why do you cut yourself like youre preparing salmon. its a good question.

>>40793468
>>40793487
ok yea idw what either of u mean by this i ASSUME u mean why i cut like idk all over the place?

>>40793507
I've never had salmon what does it taste like? you seem skilled in that field.

is there a better way to cut with eyebrow razors? i can only manage a tiny scratch with it and id like to go a bit deeper to see more blood

>>40793544
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>>40793569
press HARD
removing the guard helps 2 but thats a pain in the ass 2 do everytime u cut
get those shtwt famous japanese beauty razors
make sure its the pink handle ones those dont have a guard but b careful they r hella sharp like 1 swipe beans sharp

>>40791574
i keep a cutter like nevada (cutter like nevada)

>>40793605
if i press hard it swipe too slow so it almost doesnt cut at all

>>40793614
sounds like ur blade is just dull
i did these >>40791906 with an eyebrow razor and they bled pretty well
maybe multiswipe? (that hella hurts tho)

>>40793614
cutting slow looks p scary tho i saw this girl on twitter do slow cuts and it made my arm hurt
https://x.com/bai347312/media

some real interesting creatures out there

>>40793647
>being a girl with mental illness makes me a creature
holy fuck total normalfag death

>>40790511 (OP)
I cut myself for the first time in a few weeks last night
usually it's because of some emotional shit like "nooo my boyfriend broke up with me" and like after I've used that outlet I can get over it
but like this time I genuinely think my life is about to get even more worse and maybe a permanent solution would be easier
after I finished cutting I felt exactly the same as when I started

>>40793647
kys moid

i havent had razor blades to cut with since the start of the year and i've been freaking out wanting to hurt myself. have been digging into my legs with my nails lately. I was busting open the disposable razors i used to shave and using the blades to cut before and had to swap to a kind that i cant do that with i know i shouldnt go back but the release would feel so nice right now

>>40793657
>>40793702
whats wrong with being a creature

threads like these make me feel like relapsing i dont like it

>/lgbt/ - Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, & Transgender
>hurr nooooooo this board is about muh culture not about lgbt stuff waahhh let me be offtopic
KYS

>>40796206
getting better is boring anyways you should relapse anon life is more fun this way

>>40796226
i dont like feeling like this, its not really worth it i think

>>40796206
maybe report it then for being off-topic instead of bumping it retard

>>40793544
I mean the cross hatch pattern you do