I had a dream where I went to hell and instead of feeling bad I felt a terrible exhilaration and horniness but irl I'm basically asexual but I masturbate daily for the dopamine/oxycontin fix by asphyxiating myself.
In the past when I was abstinent from touching myself for months I had sexual fantasies about shooting myself in the head or jumping off a building. I also had a wet dream where I was being dismembered.

I'm a cat.
Meow.