Thread 40820221

live tulpa reaction edition

(someone had to make a new thread, the other one hit bump limit)
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QOTT: do you think your dysphoria is genuine or just BDD?
QOTT2: what do you think makes you malebrained?

I really hope that we can all try to be nicer to each other this time around <3
>>40820221 (OP)
Threadly reminder that the following are the best ways to manage your dysphoria (the more you do at once the better!):
1) Butchmax
2) HRT-rep
3) Get a short, mtf femme gf
4) -optional- get bottom and/or top surgery

If anyone wants an emotional or physical punching bag. I'm here for you :3

>>40820221 (OP)
Should I even get a girlfriend if I just know I'm a miserable, hairy, unkempt, top only/touch adverse, paranoid, misanthropic, piece of shit butchmaxxer who's probably going to either kill myself or take shots one of these days anyway. I should definitely find an alternative so a real human woman doesn't have to deal with my shit and can be with an actual confident butch, right.
>>40820266
Are you a bot? Considering how instant your posts are. God I miss the IP counter.

>>40820315
Hairy, unkempt and top only are far from bad things when you are a butchmaxxer :3
Besides, while I certainly cannot speak for all butch lovers. A partner that I can care for and help live her best butch life sounds pretty great. It would make me feel needed and helpful. Confidence is very attractive, but total confidence in all things 24/7 just seems like it would make you a boring person. Some vulnerability and weakness is human.
>Are you a bot?
Nah. If you check my the previous few threads for that post, I have actually been kinda late to the mark.
I just happened to be checking things at the right time to get in early.

I thought about making a new thread and man I really should've been the one who done it instead of Bicy out of all people making one.
>>40820315
No, you should not get a GF. If you get a GF theres a chance you will hurt her but theres a greater chance you will be the one that gets hurt. People see weakness like a predator sees prey.
A lot of the stuff you described can be worked on, regardless. I know dysphoria sucks but don't ever risk your life getting with someone who will probably exploit you while you are still vulnerable.

Get on that gymcel self improvement grind.

>>40820396
>People see weakness like a predator sees prey
>don't ever risk your life getting with someone who will probably exploit you while you are still vulnerable
While I know we are rare. There are those of us that are just not emotionally capable of doing something like that to a partner :3

s/shutter/Anonymous/g

>>40820396
I lift, run, box. So that's not a problem. Its more the mental illness crap that's a problem. I don't want to inadvertently give her my unresolved problems that I may or may not ever resolve like dysphoria, just cause I'm lonely, you know? Feels shitty. Even if deep down, that's all I really want. Gf cuddles.
> People see weakness like a predator sees prey.
This is true. Girls are too cute for me to see as predators lol, but its true. I am thinking of just waiting till I'm 30 and have a career and such (I'm fairly young). But by then it might be too late or some shit. I dunno.

>>40820448
>just cause I'm lonely, you know? Feels shitty. Even if deep down, that's all I really want. Gf cuddles.
Real. I feel that.
>>40820448
>I lift, run, box.
Also hot.
>>40820448
>But by then it might be too late or some shit. I dunno.
Actually from what I seen it feels like the people who finally find "success" in life (stable career, a girlfriend, etc) are in their 30s. Maybe it's just due to where I live but istg it's like all the lesbians near me are in their 30s+ only wanting to be with other women the same age as them.
Just gotta be patient I guess. Its hard, but all that waiting and effort youve put in will be worth it one day. Thats what Ive been told, I wish I was in a better spot myself so I can be more reassuring.

>>40820221 (OP)
>>QOTT: do you think your dysphoria is genuine or just BDD?
its both but i have the tranny type of bdd that plays off my dysphoria and makes me believe that my body is more femminine than it really is
>>QOTT2: what do you think makes you malebrained?
interests, fetishes, predisposition to violence, individualism

jarbicyt makes me feel less insecure about my art because if she can post and not feel embarrased about it then maybe things arent so over for me

>>40820685
aww her art isnt so bad. Shes actually pretty good, if only she would focus on her art more instead of yaknow.

>>40820396
>Bicy out of all people making one
heh... i just wanted to take this as an opportunity to bring more attention to my tulpa :3

>>40820685
huh... that? do you mean thread picrel or something i posted earlier... either way, glad you feel less insecure thanks to me hehe

>>40820715
>instead of yaknow.
wat....

>>40820748
>i just wanted to take this as an opportunity to bring more attention to my tulpa :3
You have a cute tulpa :3

>>40820755
heh thanks >w< i love her a lot... her name is january btw

>>40820777
You should post more of January :3
I wish I had the dedication to make a tulpa. But since I already personify my stuffies and have OCs, I think that part of my brain is already engaged.

>>40820715
>aww her art isnt so bad
its bad from a perspective of someone who knows more about art than her. but if youre one of those "i cant even draw a stickman!" people then yeah ig it can look good to you, but as a creative im really snobby about my craft. to me if art isnt doing anything new, if its not experimental, if the artist is not breaking and rearranging their own boundaries - its garbo.
>huh... that? do you mean thread picrel or something i posted earlier...
both

>>40820748
picrel is Birdie.
why did you post her? lol

i keep forgetting that birdie is like 21 years old and not a cringe 15 year old white teenager

>>40820794
>I wish I had the dedication to make a tulpa
does tulpamancy actually work or is it a meme. ive tried it when i was a teenager and i wasnt actually able to manifest a semi-independent hallucination or anything. ive had to manually imagine that shit the entire time and it never talked unless i "made" it talk with a conscious effort

>>40820857
It is 100% possible. It just requires a massive amount of dedication.
I tired to do it in my early 20s but ultimately gave up. It was just much more easy for me to project personalities onto my plush friends and OCs. I figure that gives a similar reward for much less effort. Plus I can actually hug my plush friends :3

this thread brought back the memories of me genuinely, very seriously, and earnestly trying to create a tulpa when i was 13 because i had no friends and i was that desperate (still haven't managed to make any friends since)
i got as far as trying to "palpate" it so i could visualize its form before giving up. never again

>>40820884
> It was just much more easy for me to project personalities onto my plush friends and OCs
ocs are like a cheatcode for reality bc at some point in my life i realized that i can just live throgh my ocs and that the world outside of my fantasies doesnt matter

5 days.... 5 days left for me to decide if I want to kill myself or not. God, I remember when it used to be around 90 days. All that time past with nothing to really show for myself, just been indoors inside a NEET recluse as always.
And yet I guess thats not alltogether true, I learned music theory, learned some programming, improved my art, learned for about myself, finally have control over my diet.

August 30th is such a special date for me. It was the date of a character's creation 10 years ago, a character apart of an art project that arguably helped me during the darkest chapter in my life. When I die, I will become him. Yet I don't know if death is worth it. I'm admittedly scared of death because I don't know what's gonna happen to me.

I keep asking God for a sign. I keep asking God to give me a reason. Sometimes I feel alright until I realize I actually have to leave the house at some point, thus interacting with people and being seen, it makes me want to shut down all over again.
How could God blame me for feeling this way when the world is genuinely so fucking evil? I even tried looking up NDEs last night and the first "testimony" I saw belonged to a dude featured on a podcast who's personal channel shills "hydrogen water" as a magic miracle cure. Like what the fuck, what the fuck is wrong with people. Why do I have to exist in such an evil world? Im not a good myself either, even though these past years I try to be. I put in so much effort in everything and I feel like I get nothing out of it, nothing that says "yeepp, life is worth living".

GD aside I dont think I was meant to be the opposite sex. That would imply I was meant to be anything. If I was meant for something I just wish God would listen to me and give me the one thing I ask for the most. I know I sound like an ungrateful child but why allow for such evil to thrive yet refuse to grant me my one little wish that wouldnt negatively affect anyone?

>>40821228
At most my wish would negatively affect me, but I wouldnt care. You can argue "well God cares about you" and yet why does He think I can handle all of this without any true reassurance?
This is an ARG by the way. I'm just playing a character. I don't mean anything I'm saying, lol.
Im just goofy fujo hating Shutter. Im so silly and goofy. Everything is so fun and silly. I am so happy and carefree.

>>40820927
when i was 13, i loved ufo lore and honestly believed most of it.

>>40820221 (OP)
>QOTT: do you think your dysphoria is genuine or just BDD?
Bdd and gd are pretty different things so I'm pretty sure its GD
QOTT2: what do you think makes you malebrained?
Not a thing.

>>40820826
i literally just picked that and then forgot why mid type LOL

>>40820835
i think hes like mentally stunt at this point, but for some reason i feel the same and i get scared people think im actually that cringe lol

>>40820857
honestly it just needs enough delusion i think. that is how january exists at all

>QOTT: do you think your dysphoria is genuine or just BDD?
I don't think there's a clear difference
>QOTT2: what do you think makes you malebrained?
The fact women fucking hate me, I have 1 friend, and I got diagnosed with autism very early on

>>40820221 (OP)
>QOTT: do you think your dysphoria is genuine or just BDD?
I think I don't have true dysphoria, just the resentment for the female biological and societal roles caused by my tendency to look for patterns in human behavior and finding the female patterns shit across the board. I'm sure that deep down most women feel the same and would become biologically male if given a chance.

>>40820221 (OP)
>QOTT: do you think your dysphoria is genuine or just BDD?
I've felt this way since daycare when I didn't have a real understanding of anything so it's real.
>QOTT2: what do you think makes you malebrained?
Can't relate to women, typical male autist interests, no matter how hard I rep I cannot get rid of my male brain and it shows. When I tried makeup I had a woman ask if I was a femboy because "you're just so much like a guy".

God I just love being a man so much

>>40823438
youre in the wrong gen, go here >>40776664

I need to engage in terminally fembrained self harm behaviors

i hate my life i wake up and instantly think of all of teh bad shit that happened and is gonna happen in the future

>>40823937
Try going to bed super early, at 9 or 10 am, and waking up early. I found out I wake up a completely different person.

>>40823958
that doesnt work when you have actual problems in your life

>>40823969
Want to share?

>>40821240
shutter maybe you could get a new discord by getting a new email. you know hanging around on 4chan isn't going to make you happier. i'm sorry i said weird shit about my family last night.

>>40823976
im legally mandated to visit my psychiatrist really soon and i wanna make that my last visit because im tired of being under a microscope but my piece of shit mom is probably gonna tell her that i was being violent when she was provoking me and if i try to explain it no one will believe me because im CRAAAAZYYYYYYYYYYY

>>40820221 (OP)
QOTT: do you think your dysphoria is genuine or just BDD?
It's almost definitely just from trauma and also sexism.

QOTT2: what do you think makes you malebrained?
I don't think I'm very male-brained, but I hate most women and can't relate to them. I hate almost all men too though. I've got autism and sadomasochistic urges and thoughts, heavy on the sadism.

>>40824040
also i was noted to have a "tendency for manipulation" so thats also gonna be used against me. amazing

>>40824040
I remember you. Still you could benefit from waking up early, especially when your mom is still asleep if possible.

>>40824040
if you can't refrain from violence, you do need a psychiatrist.
>inb4 provoked
if you know you are being provoked and can't ignore it for the purpose of moving out, once again, you are at least somewhat mentally ill.
the next time she provokes you, just start filming her on your phone. calmly. don't argue, just keep filming.

>>40824095
>Still you could benefit from waking up early
probably. but i gotta quit substances for that bc im pretty sure that theyre causing my insomniac tendencies and im not doing that theyre one of the few joys i have in life

>>40824125
>if you can't refrain from violence, you do need a psychiatrist
yeah no shit, but in a situation like this its not gonna help, because im forced to be in a state where i need to conceal those desires rather than deal with them.
>the next time she provokes you, just start filming her on your phone
i did that, when i pulled it out she always stopped acting like a bitch and pretended to be confused and offended. "omg youre in psychosis. youre in psychosis. this isnt normal filming people isnt normal. youre in psychosis youre gonna kill me". and doing it discreetly is really hard bc i think i gave her paranoia related to being filmed (she also has mental issues theyre just unadressed) so even when im not doing that she still goes like "ARE YOU FILMING ME? ARE YOU FILMING ME? SHOW ME YOUR PHONE. YOURE FILMING ME. DELETE THOSE VIDEOS. YOURE FILMING ME YOU HAVE A PHONE UNDER YOUR TABLE". i do still have a few wideos of her yelling at me but theyre short and lack context and taking into consideration that my characteristic has "prone to manipulation and twisting the truth" in it those recordings can look like i was the one provoking her to make her look bad

>>40824259
try the sound recorder app? that could work.

>>40824272
shes hyperparanoid around phones now lol. i do have a burner phone but shes semi aware of it now. ill see what i can do

>>40823630
>I need to engage in terminally fembrained self harm behaviors
Man I wish I had fembrained self harm behaviors to rely on. I tried cutting before in the past just to pretend to be fembrained.
>>40824023
I know, and yet I want to isolate myself. It's a vicious cycle.
I try to feel like everything will be okay < I try to socialize < something goes wrongx, usually something weird or out of my control (like being mistaken for a kid irl) < I shut down and go deeper into isolation.
>>40824136
Sleep deprivation is so addicting, its like a drug in itself, look it up. What substances do you take?
>>40823438
Real.
>>40824259
How old are you? I know this sounds fucked up but you need to leave, regardless of what it takes.
I went homeless living on the streets just to get away from my psychotic mother. The thing is if shes abusing the system like that your life is in physical danger. I understand its not easy but Im physically disabled at 4'9 and still managed to do what I did. You NEED to open up to a case manager right away too because chances are you dont even have to be living on the streets, you can go to a shelter. Its just at the time I didnt know there were services or anythin like that.
My mom committed welfare fraud (Medicaid and SNAP) in my name, SSDI fraud, and back during Covid I never gotten any payments from stimulus checks because she committed fraud in that too. Never really got in trouble for it even though I reported her and at least got my SNAP back, I was living in another state at the time so I wouldnt be on the streets. She did get arrested before for tax fraud tho.
Yeah the system will probably fail you in not giving you justice BUT at least now Im not under her thumb, I have my independence. Which is the most important thing you can have in life.

Theres a way out, its just youll have to make sacrifices. Youre gonna die anyways. Why not die risking it all for a better life?

>>40820221 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

I really can't be a moid anymore, I gotta exchange bodies with you... how much would I need to pay you to get a chance to do that unironically?

>>40820221 (OP)
im mtf but i lurk here because being surrounded by a bunch of deranged psychotic men is comforting

>>40825234
YWNBAW

>>40825234
IWNBAM

>>40825251
mogs me

>>40825251
not realistic, mtf doesnt have enough self harm scars

>>40824385
>Sleep deprivation is so addicting, its like a drug in itself
its amazing. i like it better with additional stimulants tho, makes you manic
>What substances do you take?
just alcohol and nicotine atm, the basic bitch substances. i dont have access to anything else rn. i think the alcohol fueled insomnia thing is hereditary because my mom used to crack half a bottle of whiskey in a night because it "made her not wanna sleep"
>I know this sounds fucked up but you need to leave, regardless of what it takes
i know. i used to have a plan but it depended on me being a microceleb and doing commissions, but thats not an option anymire because i purged all of my social media for reasons and i no longer have people offering to throw money at me for drawings
>You NEED to open up to a case manager right away
my aunt is helping me with that shit rn, we reconciled recently because she felt bad for treating me like a nuisance when i was a kid. shes kind of the only person in my family whos not an idiot, problem is that shes still a rich white woman whos so above me in her status that its crazy so she has naive conceptions about how the system works and thinks that doctors always have your best inteerest in mind. ive thought about asking to live with her but thats some deranged leech crackhead shit. imagine you just started talking to your mentally ill blacksheep of the family relative and shes arleady asking to move in with you.

>>40825469
this was most likely drawn by a pooner the art style is very fembrained in subtle ways

>>40825152
>I gotta exchange bodies with you... how much would I need to pay you to get a chance to do that unironically?
anon do you want to become worlds first tranny man scientist and attempt a cross sex brain transplant?

>>40825573
>tranny man scientist
tranny mad scientist* freudian slip

>>40825573
No I'm just coping
Would you switch bodies with me

>>40825717
yeah

i like archieving media. i like downloading all of my favorite songs, youtube videos, movies, even fanfic. i dont normally read fanfic because i dont care about fandom, but i have this one author whos fanfics i read purely because i find their writting style fascinating, so ive archived all of their stuff. idk why im doing this, i guess im prepoaring for some weird schizo doomsday scenario where all of the internet shuts down. i guess it makes more sense when i do towards niche music bands and artists/content creators online, because those are more prone to getting lost to time. half of my favorite artists deleted their socials

>>40826816
>zoomer discovers normal people as they were circa 2004

>>40826835
ik that this isnt a new concept retard. ive been doing it for years

>>40826865
yeah me too. i have seen media get deleted or paywalled so i download all the youtube videos i love, the music, everything.

>>40826816
this just kinda gave me a reason to live sorta.
like wow.... once i get a job again, now that im not a stupid ass addict who drawns her disposable income... i can buy harddrives and usbs, fill that shit up with collections. i can finally buy that Spongebob CRTV and an Xbox 360, a Wii, a 3DS, and electric guitar. I can start collecting VHS again. Actually be able to buy electronics to take apart without fear.
Get my hair cut. Buy better clothes because all mine are torn and all that.

Damn... Spend my money going outside places too.. I dont know where but it could be any place. I could go visit some random non tourist small town just for fun.

>>40827133
my plan for when I get money was to actually first invest in buying a bunch of fake IDs with various ages and names but all with my face.
Just because. I fucking hate, HATE giving anyone my ID. I hate people knowing who I am in general. Especially with this AI age verification stuff rolling out, nows the best time to invest.

>>40827133
> i can buy harddrives and usbs, fill that shit up with collections
ive thought about buying a cd player and ripping my favourite songs onto cds. or mayeb getting soem of the official cds even. luckily a lot of what i like is trash from the 80s that no one but me cares about so its not gonna be expensive. i feel a little embarrased about my physical media fetish i feel like its retarded and lame

>>40827396
I think it's pretty cool. I'd probably read about it for a while

>>40826816
its good practice and it keeps you self reliant. ive downloaded obscure 1950's polish tangos with 3k views uploaded in 2008 only to come back a few months later and find the only upload set to private or deleted. ive been archiving music for about 15 years and some of the songs i have you straight up cant find ANYWHERE anymore.
slowly doing my favorite youtube series right now because i seriously doubt the internet as we know it is gonna stick around any longer. paywalls, ID verifications, payment processor blocks. the smart ones are going to take what they can get and go back to the fucking dark ages. meanwhile the lazy and stupid will stew in their own digital filth.

>>40827635
>the smart ones are going to take what they can get and go back to the fucking dark ages
genuinely praying for the downfall of modern internet. internet was never meant for normal people it was built by nerds and social outcasts for nerds and social outcasts. we need to go back, we need a fresh start

>>40827679
ya i was writing about the normification of the internet few days ago in relation to new web and the like. i sincerely believe that instant accessible internet is causing some kind of never before seen neo-psychosis in the general populace, all while bringing down the entire thing to their fucking level and making it unusable to the rest of us.
>genuinely praying for the downfall of modern internet
god i fucking wish. realistically though i dont see the instagram/tiktok/google sphere collapsing anytime soon. people have been ground down to the point of being barely sentient advertisement recepticles. with any luck all the cool nerdy stuff is gonna go underground and take a modicum of effort to access while the normies run wild burning their neurons out.

i feel like losing it and shaving off all my hair because its outgrown and unkempt due to me not being able to afford a haircut
but my roommate is like "nah dont do that, women never look good with a buzzcut" and its like shit man. i need a job. idk how weird id look with no hair like that. yet if i get a job and get monies i wouldnt need to cut it.

>>40829611
Just go to great clips or a barber's

>>40825251
Neither will you KEK

>>40829675
A man? Yeah i know.
Im not a delusion pooner who thinks she can become something shes not. I am above that thankyouverymuch.

>>40825234
this thread is good to read to become more comfortable with masculinity and be more happy with being male and accept yourself as a man

>>40829655
I have no moneyyy. Literally zero dollars in my bank account, lawl.

>>40829694
Ur not a woman grow up

>>40829705
Ikr this shit is gas

Aka /depressedmoidsindenialgen/

>>40829714
>4'9
>big ass, med tities
>sounds and looks like a 14 yr old
>"youre not a woman"
Ermmm I think otherwise.

>>40824846
Nah they're too busy being autistic about their "tulpas" or whatever they call their imaginary friends, let em

>>40829705
Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you

i just come her for female socialization

>>40829705
go to repgen >>40776664 oh wait shit thread died, make another repgen idk

>>40829763
we were having an argument over bpd fujo faketrans poons on the previous gen

i do like my tulpa better though

>>40829734
you do know that this thread is intended for repping afabs right

>>40829978
I think they know and are calling us men in denial

>>40829905
You should tell us more about January.
Tulpa stuff is always interesting and much better than much of that last thread :3

>>40830039
im shy talking about her hehe but well shes a really good artist and has a lot of interesting ideas for projects that i sometimes steal... one being a webcomic about a "human" and an alien from another planet going to earth on a mission and meeting a bunch of people but im not gonna give anymore details.

i liked that concept too much. so sad i guess i kinda fucked that up.

i need you all to be my boyfriends or i'll die of sadness

>>40829978
analrape knows that, he's an ftm.

>>40820221 (OP)
someone just kill me nooooowwwwwww i dont wanna be a trip anymore

>>40830587
i hate you and you're annoying and wrong 99% of the time but you still need to be my boyfriend asap

>>40830611
noooooooo i hurt my tulpaaaaaaa i need to get killed and never come back here

>>40830640
you'r tulpa can be our girfriend it's fine okay

>>40830587
You are nice a nice poster anon :3
>>40830611
A bottom fujo seems like they would make the absolute worst bf. Likely a nice friend tho :)
Give me a tall, muscular, hairy, masc hrt butch dyke bf any-day ^_^

>>40830652
No shes only MINE you freak, stay away from her

>>40830663
nnnnnngfffgghhhhh keep going i'm close

>>40830640
shes not even real why do you care

i will lowkey affirm darby's delusions if he poons out and becomes my boyfriend

>>40830692
...i care about other reasons possibly related to my digital footprint. And the real person i was projecting her onto

>>40830708
sorry im taken bro

Well at least the femrepper thread is being shat up by a girl whos self aware shes fembrained and not really "dsyphoric" and a MTF. I expect this behavior from you people.

Rn i am zoinked out of my mind. Who wants to argue. Who wants to fight. Im probably gonna be awake for the next 8 hours unless I crash.

>>40830738
well i love blonde mtfs too so at least you have good taste even if you are dumb as a brick

>>40830711
i also care about my digital footprint, but unlike you i do the bare minimum of not posting selfies, not posting information about myself or my hobbies beyond the surface level, and lastly not being a fucking tripfag so that all of my information is scattered across different threads and boards and isnt nicely compiled under one alias. very cerebral, i know.

is this a good time to confess that i accidentally confessed in confessgen with my trip instead of anonymously because i accidentally reloaded the page and the trip reappeared in the name field when i had previously removed it and i feel like a huge idiot

>>40830757
jarby is into hons and manmoders though

Actually no i take it back, bicy stop shitting up the thread and ill turn you into my cocksleeve you fucking whore
Ill draw you getting fucked by me.

>>40830812
>stop shitting up the thread and ill turn you into my cocksleeve
no thanks not into dat

>>40830827
Exactly.

>>40830827
I am :3

>>40830772
>is this a good time to confess that i accidentally confessed in confessgen with my trip instead of anonymously because i accidentally reloaded the page
its ok you dont need to lie. we all know that it wasnt an accident and you just wanted attention

>>40830849
LMAOO

no i genuinely feel embarrassed though this is what being a trip truly means isnt it

>>40830869
>no i genuinely feel embarrassed though
you couldve deleted it and no one would care, but you didnt, and then you came back to femrepgen and talked about it to drag attention to it. this isnt how embarrased people behave. or maybe youre just that mentally retarded and think that people in this thread are your friends

>>40830903
wait you can delete it? LOL oh well not like thatd change anything anymore

>>40830903
>or maybe youre just that mentally retarded and think that people in this thread are your friends
:(

Ohh yeah already drawn the outline of how its gonna look, you ready bicy? Working the sketch rn baby. Two images! Theyre make a comic when combined. Youre such a dark skinned baddie too, bicy mmm mmm mmm. I love me some dark skinned women.

>>40820221 (OP)
question for female reppers.

like the men, but the opposite, risking things is inherently manly. but you seem not to risk anything at all. which is feminine, petite, unbecoming of a man really.

therefore the most affirming action you could take today is taking a risk.

is it just me and the two namefags rn

>>40830968
this post is retarded on three multiple levels

>>40830978
no

>>40830968
>like the men, but the opposite, risking things is inherently manly. but you seem not to risk anything at all. which is feminine, petite, unbecoming of a man really.
>therefore the most affirming action you could take today is taking a risk.
thats bold of you to assume. I risked my whole life many times to get where I am today. Pulled myself up "by the bootsstraps". Im party rocking, rocking party, Its some real shit, man. REAL. SHIT. Nothing you dont know, probably. Or would you want to know? No? Yeah. Real shit, actually.
A lot of people are bitches in society, but theres a lot of fatigue when you go through so much. The inside becomes the outside, outside becomes the inside. W/e. Im surprised to be alive, surprised to have made it this far lawl

this should be called slopgen

>>40831057
yeah. really.
I complain about fujos being boycrazy whores, everyone spends the rest of the past thread shitting it up with their femoid nonsense reeeing screeching pissing themselves lawl
next thread gets made and no matter how much i try to shift it back to dysphoria, all these whores wanna do is continue on being boycrazy cocksluts.

ill give credit where credit is due, its mostly jarbicy this time. not random anons.
fml anons i cant even think right now. my mind aint working.

>>40831202
well you seem normal, like a supreme type of gentlemen, carry on

>>40829705
dont worry im in touch with my masculinity and have become a friendlier more well rounded person for it. still 7+ years socially transitioned.
>>40825368
i am going to forcemasc you using everything ive learned about male culture and theres nothing you can do to stop me

>>40831202
>shitting it up with their femoid nonsense
dude youre the femalest person in femrepgen be quiet. like just by your typing style alone i can tell that youre a chick. the only person who talked about males this whole thread is jarbicyte and even then it was about her retarded tranny tulpa

>>40831260
>unironically using "the way you type" as a clocky gotcha.
was reffering to the old thread, something tells mee what I said struck a nerve for you to respond in such defense. it never fails to amuse me witnessing the seething of these women.

>>40830944
Jarbi noooo… I’ll be your friend.

>>40831425
>unironically using "the way you type" as a clocky gotcha
no cis man writes in such a unqiuely femminine quirk chungus way (unlesss hes a repper) and you know it
> something tells mee what I said struck a nerve for you
yes it struck a nerve because the whole thread you were actively feeding the discussion and responding to every post that called you molested or annoying, but now you sit on your ass and claim that you "try to shift it back to dysphoria". you gotta knock yourself down a little bit man stop acting like youre femrepgens main character.

>>40831842
I'm not the main character, my friend. Never claimed to be. I just see myself as better than all these women who try to talk about the men they like in a femrep gen because I am objectively better than them, anyone who does not talk about that sorta thing in a femrep thread is objectively better than the ones who do.
If you'd want to not have me come across as the main character then do not treat me as one.
I find your insistence on "knock me down a peg" as endearing.
>no cis man writes in such a unqiuely femminine quirk chungus way (unlesss hes a repper) and you know it
Nah, I don't really obsess over peoples writing style, it's the context that matters to me.

>>40831968
my friend

>>40832042
kek

>>40820221 (OP)
Repping is becoming pretty comfortable for me desu. I’m starting to doubt if I ever really felt dysphoria. I know I do and did but it’s becoming a lot more easier for me to ignore. I’m not sure how I’m repping so well I think I was just faketrans and to begin with

>>40830968
Yes
Because
I am not a man.

>>40831968
We had multiple threads that were mostly image spam of attractive men and women in the past and no one cared, stop patrolling this thread to try to maintain its purity or whatever. You're the only one so obsessed with this subject matter here. If a thread is shit or too man focused for you wait until the next one because it usually won't be, people are allowed to talk about other things here

>>40833683
Shutter has that /clg/ mentality that developed from necessity, kicking perverted men out of a lesbian space. Sometimes it goes overboard, policing the presence of bisexuals or generally "don't talk about X", so that's what she's used to. I know because I'm a /clg/ oldfag and have played the same game.
But you gotta realize this isn't a lesbian chat and the unspoken rules are different for a reason.

>>40831968
>I just see myself as better than all these women who try to talk about the men they like in a femrep gen because I am objectively better than them, anyone who does not talk about that sorta thing in a femrep thread is objectively better than the ones who do.
this isn't the dyke central, im so sick of gynephile whinning in this thread. no youre not better than anybody for not being straight, get over it. if youre allowed to hornypost about how much you wanna get fucked by women then others are allowed to hornypost about men. desu youre kind of more "womanly" than androphiles because they are usually tops and want to dominate men meanwhile you wanna get pampered and fucked in the pussy

>>40833895
I do understand that, there have been threads where I felt one topic was annoying or being too focused on and I get the urge to make a thread more "on topic", but the solution to that is just fucking off for a bit or starting a new discussion that you think is more relatable. Inevitably topics change which is why the older threads were more about lesbian stuff, then we had the AAP image spam threads, threads where people talked about cartoons or other random shit, threads that are mostly arguing like the last one, the few threads before that were more about dysphoria and general mental illness. No one minds our namefags when they're just chill and talk about their own shit rather than freaking out over other people talking in the thread for dysphoric women to talk, if people posting twinks is that upsetting then wait for people to stop talking about twinks instead of getting triggered because the thread being 90% one person freaking out is shitting it up more than a few people taking up some bumps by talking about cute boys

>>40833895
I mean, things shift here over time. It was not all that long ago that we were a majority lesbian general. We were basically just a less terf-y and more honest extension of clg.
For whatever reason, things have just shifted during the year and we are now majority bi.
>>40833979
I think Shutter is really the only one who has been complaining. I wish we had more lesbians like before, but there is nothing wrong with the bi and androphile posts.

I don't understand the larp that all the gynephile femreppers are super masculine. All the actually masculine women with dysphoria are either butchstacies that would never post in a thread like this or have already transitioned. I rep and post here because I am too feminine to ever be taken seriously as a straight man. At least there's more leniency on gaydens for having feminine mannerisms.

>>40833993
>I wish we had more lesbians like before
this is what im talking about though, this gets brought up every thread like okay we get it there used to be more lesbians in here, its not anybodys fault that the only people keeping this gen alive are androphiles

>>40834042
In my experience that is not totally true. There are still plenty of dysphoric masc butches left who still rep.
What I agree with is that they don't really post here. I think we had one or two a while back, but they seem to have moved on.
At this point I mostly still post here for the company and because there is still the odd gynephile still here that I can some times talk to about my love of masc butches.

>>40834042
>I don't understand the larp that all the gynephile femreppers are super masculine
its whar shutter forces herself to believe in to cope with being 4' 9", dont mind her

i just remmembered the bulddyke poster on T who had to break up with her gf bc she was becoming too manly for her tastes. wonder what happened to her. i think about recognizable anons from these threads a lot is that pathetic

My fantasy isn't so much that I want to be a girl so much as I want to be a 6'5 switch sex goddess with a baseball bat cock, wide hips and tits
Starting to wonder if my "dysmorphia" is just coombrain

>>40834109
I still maintain that them breaking up was a good thing. Her gf sounded super shallow.
Seriously, imagine having an ultra masc butch on T and complaining that she was getting 'too manly' of all things.
That anon deserved a gf that would value her for who she is.

>>40834109
I want the shrug emoji anon to talk about her shadow work magic shit again.

>>40834082
Yeah, I wasn't trying to say that masculine ones don't exist, they're just not the only type of gynephile femreppers and it's unlikely that a lot of them would post here.

>>40834110
Yeah that's just coombrain

>>40834110
Wrong thread?

>>40834125
>Her gf sounded super shallow
i wouldnt call her shallow but if youre someone whos not attarcted to men or extreme masculinity in women then your partner looking like a man can be a turn off. neither of them was wrong in their feelings

>>40834143
Seems like it.
But it has made me curious as to how many posters here wish they had a baseball bat cock.

>>40834161
i wish i had a normal cock. id wipe out millions for the chance to become 6'5 tho

>>40834161
only in some sexual power fantasy as that seems bothersome in reality.

girlfriend who isn't my girlfriend frequently refers to me with masculine words/pronouns and i can't tell if it's making me feel better or worse. what do

>>40834183
>6'5
I wish I were 6'5. I wish I were 6'5 SO BAD OH MY GOD

>>40834209
ask her to stop?

>>40834236
i know right. being short makes me feel like i never grew up because i keep seeing literal 14 year old taller than me meanwhile im stuck at the same height ive had since i was 12. it makes me feel worthless and like nothing that i do or say matters because i am child sized

>>40834244
if she refers to me femininely i'm gonna kill myself. when she refers to me masculinely it only makes me want to kill myself 50% of the time. so i'm thinking my options are either i let it rock or i go full hermit and stop talking to her.

>>40834295
what about enbycoping do think you could handle being a “they”?

>>40834236
>>40834263
I kinda get that pain, just from the other side of things. I may already be short, but my mother was only 4'10 and I would kill to get down to the height she was.

iwnbam. fuck my stupid woman life it's so over

>>40834322
> 4'10
not even cis women want to be 4'10 thats a humiliating height to have

>>40834376
Dysphoria gotta dysphoria I guess.
I'm 5'4 and like how short I am. I guess my brain just associates being short with being happy, so less height = more happy.

>>40834388
>so less height = more happy
im a simmilar way so i guess i get it. i oftentimes wish that i was like seven foot tall or smth, even tho that would be impractical. its like a hypercompensation for all the years spent as the sex i dont want want to be. if i was an abnormally tall woman like 6'6-7'0 i think repping would be less anguish-inducing because at least then i could revel in being taller than 99% of men on earth and id constantly get commnets like "omg youre so huge i thought you were a man at first lol". this is so pathetic why am i writting this out

>>40834161
i wish i had a cock no matter the size even if it had to be caged it would still be a cock

>>40833979
Shutter wants to get pegged? ROFL

>>40834082
>muh dysphoric masc butch

That's called a man

>>40834367
Kill yourself or grow up and take your shots faggot

>>40834949
Mentally ill women are women

>>40834940
she talks about getting dommed by older women and fucked in the poon a lot lol. reminder that this person thinks that shes quote "too malebrained for this thread"

>>40835001
Oh so she is a fakepoon lmaooo I can't believe the no dysphoric hefabs are pretending that repping is hard on here

>>40835015
>so she is a fakepoon lmaooo
idk maybe her dysphoria is real on some level, but she lacks self awaraness to realize that shes just as fembrained as the yaoi tunapoonas she hates. just in a different way

Unironically how are you so lucky to be born female? I was born male and I can't stand it

>>40820221 (OP)
As a tulpa myself, the average tulpa you meet online is a narcissistic asshole who only cares about their "host" and never develops a sense of self. I'm not saying all tulpas are trans or some garbage like that, but you guys suck to be around.

>>40835266
why does your host allow you to use the inetrnet youre gonna get them put into a straitjacket

>>40834958
i'm waiting for my mom to die before i kill myself. my dad died a few years ago in an accident so i don't want to make her lose somebody else.

Again proving my "you all are a bunch of stereotypical women" by being catty gossipers to each other about lawl
I keep catching these dubs, man. I just keep catching them. I don't gotta say anything except point it out.
>>40834949
>Im MEANN, grah. Heckin badass. Im a dude who just dont gaf. Im THAT bitch, doods.
God it gotta be awful to look like a man without T but still behave like a stereotypical mean girl. If pooning out is so beneficial why do you still insist on being a bully? Happy confident people don't feel the need to do that. Wheres the "trans joy", my friend?
>>40834367
You just made it to the first part of the journey. Acceptance is how you heal.
>>40834209
Just communicate. I know I know, easier said than done. But just straight up ask her "why?". Then agan it seems like your issue isn't with her. Maybe you should break up, but don't cut her out of your life. I don't know her but if she seems caring enough to cater to you like that then she clearly sounds like she loves you in a way. Yet if youre struggling mentally, sonetimes relationships aren't what you need atm. Potentially healthy friendships are always beneficial though.

Damn I hate stimulants. Holy fuck. How do people take roids and stinulants at the same time? All this talk about "muh workout, bro" wym. The tolerance happens so quickly and if you were to skip days of not having it the afterffects of having low tolerance are so shitty once the crash hits. I don't even take roids, I just have higher androgens than the average foid yet I find myself still struggling after all these years to handle the effects it has. I had to stop weightlifting because I couldn't handle the sudden spike. If God gave me thos distinctly female body why would He curse me with hormonal problems? At least I don't have PCOS or Endo but still, idek what's wrong. The fact so many men joke about "welcome to the male experience" too to me, nah man. Your body is made to handle that stuff. Mime isn't.

i need ftm attention
one of yous needs to poon out right now and be my boyfriend

>>40836197
Luckily there is a thread full of those people where you can get such attention way easier

>>40836171
>stimulants
What ones are you taking?

>>40836228
i tried suicide baiting but no one responded to me
i think they're all eeping

>>40836171
>discussing an annoying namefag is catty gossiping
if we were all cis men you wouldnt be calling us that

>>40836248
Are you male or female?

>>40836285
which do you prefer

also imagine calling someone catty when you were the one spamming regina george gifs in the previous thread kek

>>40836296
I can't be your pooner bf I'm just curious

>>40836315
>regina george
who?

>>40836319
i'm nonbinary

>>40836371
i don't understand. male or female?

>>40836248
Yeah instead of doing that maybe just ask them a question? (Don’t open with a yes or no one, that’s doesn’t promote a conversation). You can also post pics of yourself but that will probably also result in negative attention, not sure if that’s what you’re looking for.

>>40836171
How is that bullying holy shit offended much

>>40836284
Obviously, this shutter nigga grasping at straws to make xirself feel better kek

>>40836430
shutetr just deflects without ever addressing any of the points. when you call her unpleasant to be around she gets smug and calls you fembrained and reddit for not being able to handle her meaningless venom, but the second she starts getting the same treatment she cries about homophobia and bullying. terminal victim complex

>>40836371
Big fan of chudgle

>>40836495
me too

>>40836315
>spamming Regina George gifs
Yeah, replied two times to extremely catty responses making fun of you. Lying and exaggerating about me just proves my point. I get you know that no ones gonna look at the old thread to verify what you said but come on, lil dood.
>>40836284
I'd call you faggots instead. That's something catty fags do.
>>40836461
>Obviously this shutter person is grasping at straws. Right, ladies?

>>40836628
>youre not allowed to talk about me OR make fun of me OR disagree with me, or else youre a woman/catty faggot
very malebrained. youre so not like other girls

>>40836048
Same probably

>>40836461
>>40836628
the ultimate battle of who can be more cringe and lame

>>40836713
Nah, it's just all of your claims against me have to do with DARVO BPD monsense. I'm shitting up the thread, I'm the one being self absorbed, I'm the one acting like a mean girl while you all are innocent and pure as you laugh about women who get SA'd and tell GD suffers to kill themselves. Then laugh because somehow that's being easily offended yet being utterly o b s e s s e d with me because I complained about fujos shitting up the thread with how much they love yaoi boys isn't.
It's terminally fembrained, very catty behavior. Again lying and putting words into my mouth only proves me right. Only female fandoms act like this, lawl. Only the most gender conforming women act like this.
Are you gonna go play with your barbie dolls and talk about OTPs, lil dood? Gonna squeal about One Direction and Love Island along with Rupauls Drag Race while sharing instagram leftist memes? Personally I find your femininity yet stubborness hot. I love women who fight back.

>>40837020
do you like clone high

>>40836910
I hope I win just for the sake of winning.

>>40837020
>I'm shitting up the thread, I'm the one being self absorbed
yes you are self absorbed and you are shitting it up because youre the one who brought up that mentally challenged fujo debate again for no reason at all because nobody was talking about yaoi or twinks or their cocklust. no one cared to continue that discussion, i was happy talking about ripping CDs and other relatively niche hobbies. crazy how you dont understand this

I try to be less misanthropic but everything in life makes it hard

>>40836371
me to

>>40837032
hi italian anon

>>40837099
>youre the one who brought up that mentally challenged fujo debate again
actually i happened to mention it like once before she brought it back up again so i probably started it lol

>>40837183
>actually i happened to mention it like once
you dont count youre the threads retard. the archetypal village idiot who jerks off behind the bushes.

i realize the timing is not ideal, but i only wanted to say how stupid it is that i can't be sexual with someone who i'm into and who seems to be into me because of this mental illness. if i were male, i would be on grindr looking for a twink to frot with but life is cruel.

>>40837245
watch out shutter is gonna chastise you (a female) for being female

>>40837227
>youre the threads retard. the archetypal village idiot who jerks off behind the bushes.
LMFAO pretty accurate i guess

I miss obsessively picking my skin I should start doing it again

>>40837099
>nobody was talking about yaoi or twinks or their cocklust. no one cared to continue that discussio
Very easy to debunk. I do belief that obsessively posting about me for two whole threads because I called BPD fujos who started off the thread obsessing over yaoi twinks/boymoders stereotypical females is a form of caring. I hit such a nerve. And I keep hitting the same nerve it seems.
>>40837032
Never watched it. I know of the original, never watched the reboot. The whole Gandi controversy was lame.
>>40837173
Real. It's hard not to hate both sexes at this point. And sex as a concept. Weirdly enough looking into nature does not help, it only adds to the frustration. Life is the definition of absurdity. I want to be a buddist but instead I am a Chuddah.
>>40837258
I can't ever get mad at you, Bicy.
>>40837285
Nah. I mean I understand that euphoria, but nah. Its no better than cutting. Or picking out your hair. I wish I could wrap the area you pick at with bandages and soothe your anxious worries.

>>40837334
Rip my namefaggotry. I love mobile.
>>40837259
Honest question: why? Why the headcanon? Is even there a reason? Who's the blue haired guy btw. Who's the unibrow person.

>>40837334
>yaoi twinks/boymoders
They are completely different. A boymoder is an insecure grumpy creature. A twink is angelic and wicked and if he knows he is pretty, watch out. Twinkwatching keeps me going.

>>40837334
>Very easy to debunk
before you posted your og post the only thing that comes to what you decribed as "whores being boycrazy" was jarbycite with her tulpa psychosis.
>I do belief that obsessively posting about me for two whole threads because I called BPD fujos
people keep posting about it because you keep dragging it
>And I keep hitting the same nerve it seems
because youre full of yourself and thats annoying. ive arleady talked about it. youre not the patriarch of this gen you have no authority to dictate the rules. i find twinks revolting and even i find this annoying. youre obsessed with men in a very distinctive and mentally ill way. stop it

>>40837353
blue hair = confucius
unibrow = frida
my headcanon is chaser jfk and mtf confucius

>>40837386
boymoders can be angelic creatures too, they just dont have enough self confidence to reveal their true selves

>>40837453
i will never look like this

>>40837436
>i find twinks revolting
Can I genuinely ask why lol not upset about it but the wording is very intense what disgusts you so much about them

>>40837492
probably that theyre men since shes a man hating lesbian

>>40837436
> youre not the patriarch of this gen
who is then?

>>40837505
no one is, this thread is like one big rat king and we're all gnawing at each other

>>40837492
>Can I genuinely ask why
men trying to imitate femminity is revolting
>>40837505
no one is thats the whole point of imageboards like this. total useranarchy

>>40837528
> imitate femminity
some of them are just faggy like that

>>40837528
>men trying to imitate femminity
nigga what? how do twinks imitate femininity? and why is femininity something uniquely reserved for women anyway? why can't men be nice to look at? do you want everyone to be fat and hairy and unfuckable?

>>40837546
>do you want everyone to be fat and hairy and unfuckable?
probably yea considering most bitter losers want everyone else to be just like them

>why is femininity something uniquely reserved for women anyway?
though id agree something like this could be the reason a lot of trans women are pushed to present hyperfemininely in order to pass, might be a society thing but idk i just dont think it should really be that way. feminine dudes should be allowed to exist in theory but with the current climate of politics and fucked optics especially for trans women maybe its best that they cease to exist momentarily since a lot of them hate twinks too, but i think its mostly due to ignorant people who refuse to see the difference between a feminine twink and a trans woman

>>40837546
>how do twinks imitate femininity?
look at them
>and why is femininity something uniquely reserved for women anyway? why can't men be nice to look at?
i think that men who are femminine look shitty and it makes me want to hit them. this mainly comes down to jealousy, if i was a man id be really masculine (visually, i dont care whether my behavior is masculine or not, i think its neutral most of the time) in half traditional half sleazy gopnik type of way. its annoying to see real men wasting their manhood on being a faggy little bitch.

Wish it was socially acceptable to wear a face mask all the time but I don't want to look like one of those paranoid perma-COVID people

>>40837616
>its annoying to see real men wasting their manhood on being a faggy little bitch.
being a gopnik is a waste of life.

>>40837616
>its annoying to see real men wasting their manhood on being a faggy little bitch.
Understandable but that just makes me wish I could fuck them more. Though it really depends how feminine and in what way, too far and it's just kind of off-putting but naturally pretty feminine guys are hot.

>>40837656
i arleady live in filth and abuse alcohol everyday i dont care. if i was male id be one of those deeply repressed slavic men who fuck bottom of the barrel sluts to reaffirm their masculinity

>>40837616
>look at them
i wanted to say you're jelly but you beat me to it. anyway twink is the superior male form. there is no shame in wanting to be one as well, it's just common sense. too bad twinks represent peak masculinity (due to their bone structure being highly visible) which is completely unachievable to an afab.

>>40837713
You can get up and clean your room at any point in time. You can stop drinking too. Unlike dysphoria, all of that is your choice.

>>40837728
>You can get up and clean your room at any point in time
i dont want to
>You can stop drinking too
why would i do that
>all of that is your choice.
nothing is our choice human beings lack free will

>>40837754
>using determinism to justify a smelly ass
Go shower. Go vacuum. Go clean your fridge, it's a good place to start with the clutter.

>>40837525
Nah Im just vibing.
>>40837546
>associates masculinity with "being fat and hairy".
That's not how that works. Being fat is onions behavior. Being fat is the worst thing you can be in life. Being hairy is the second worst thing but only if you are a legbeard. I do agree tho twinks aren't intentionally trying to be feminine, its the trannies and boymoders who do that.
Still its cringe as fuck to lust affter men who lust after men. Birthcontrol brained.
>>40837646
Im the opposite. Face masks suck when worn wear long term, it gets moist. Idc if people think Im a Covid nutter.
>>40837728
Trvke.

>>40837775
i shower i just barely clean because ive stopped caring

>>40837789
Caring is not something that comes to you without your input. Get the fuck up and start cleaning. If you're a Slav, night is great for doing stupid shit for hours. Very peaceful.
Fridge. Desk. Clothes. Shelves. The floor.

>>40837616
starting to think at least 50% of the cross sex gender roles policing that's happened throughout all of human history is a repper phenomenon stemming from anger over "wasting" the opportunity for the preferred role. Especially in parent-child relationships

>>40837809
>Get the fuck up and start cleaning
dude i dont wanna do that how many times do i have to reepeat that. im fine with living like this
>>40837819
yeah probably. part of the reason why reppers should never have children

>>40837819
honestly that makes sense because if i ever repped myself into giving birth and being a mother i would probably end up subtly feminizing my child if its a son since i myself wasnt able to transition into what he was born as. if its a daughter i think i wouldnt really gaf because i dont like dealing with females and i would probably neglect her just like my mom did with me lol

>>40837809
>If you're a Slav
Are you a Slav? Because if so thats hot.
>>40837819
Do you think your parents are reppers? Sometimes I wonder if my mom was bi. Or if she would've been a tomboy. She was raised catholic and went through a lot. We were all accidental and I feel like the happiest Ive ever seen her was when she didnt have to pretend to be mother.

>>40837845
>im fine with living like this
No, you're not. You are used to it and don't remember how good it feels to exist in a spotless apartment.

>>40837877
>Are you a Slav? Because if so thats hot
Please learn to read.

>>40837886
>No, you're not. You are used to it and don't remember how good it feels to exist in a spotless apartment
youre probably right at some level, but atp ive constructed my identity around being a bydlo lumpenproletariat and giving that up feels disingenuous

>>40837896
can you teach me : (

>>40837968
Re-construct your identity around based Shurik grindset and go clean.

>>40836628
mm yummy danish

anyway why are you guys always arguing in here. who gaf

>>40838051
Nothing else to do

>>40837809
>If you're a Slav, night is great for doing stupid shit for hours. Very peaceful.
i don't think this is exclusive to slavs.
but i am half slav so maybe it's instinctual to me.

>>40838063
r e a l

>>40838001
i cant because shurik is sensitive and has that soviet pre 90s naïveté in him that is not tarnished by the horrors of the modern world. i gotta start danila bagrov modding

>>40838102
You are wrong. Shurik is unfathomably based and meets every challenge with dignity. He recovers from every hurdle and his mental fortitude is unrivaled. More importantly, he tries to think positively. It's a skill you surely need. Shurik wouldn't tolerate a messy flat. Be like Shurik.

>>40838153
thats true but he has an untainted soul and i dont

>>40838185
Do you think he hasn't seen enough shit in his life? Dude has dealt with crime and poverty. The trick is, every time his soul is tainted, he takes a mop to it. Be like Shurik, anon.

I wish it were possible to become a biological male

anyone read any good yaoi recently

Hi! Haven't been on all day.
>>40834110
To be honest, I'd also like to to be a tall trans woman with a huge dick. Maybe just for a bit. I think I'd be too bored trying to be a normie man. Worm beside me right now.

>>40835168
i was child molested and neglected and bullied

how do i go back to repping after 6 years on t? i havent gotten surgeery yet but im super hairy. still look like a woman ofc

>>40839601
X to doubt

>>40839601
Stop taking it and shave.

>>40839601
You don't.

>>40839601
>I took test away from men who actually need it and now I want to rep
Lawl. Lmao even

>>40839665
All trans men are women, pooners post here because they want to be with their afab sisters.

>>40839601
just shave. Hell, go so far as to look at troon spaces on how to effectively remove body hair since most female spaces don't take into consideration high T's effect on body hair.
Write down everything about yourself, your hobbies, your interests, your taste in clothes, what you want to wear (but never tried wearing), and your values in life.
I can assure you nothing has to do with your biological sex even if you are in the .01 percent of females into something, you are still not the only female, you're just different and thats okay. Even if youre some Gayden, youre still heterosexual. Men are not off the table. If you have bottom dysphoria, CBT is perfect for exposure therapy. Everything takes little by little. Every progress made is one foot above the other.
For instance, clothing. When I first started repping I tried to dive head first into feminine fashion because I thought the girls looked hot and I wanted to be like them so they'd like me. Yeah well that backfired, a lot of money wasted. I tried various styles and again a lot of it turned out to not be my thing. You gotta learn to love your gender non conformity instead of trying to hide it. Same logic applies to everything about yourself. Becoming a "man" will not fix anything because that would imply biological sex can be changed and it can't.

Just realized I've fucked up all of my injections and got myself too pissed off to try doing them again tonight I'm such a fucking retard I hate myself. I can't be a woman right I will never be a man I can't even hrtrep right

>>40839730
>I can't even hrtrep right
Hrtrep is a meme and I'm sorry you got tricked into doing it. The people you got that from profit while you suffer. And besides, injections are hard for anyone so it really has no reflection on who you are if you "mess up". I can understand the pain though considering that stuff costs money.

>>40839694
>Says afab unironically

wow now I totally take you seriously, anon

>>40839778
Would you rather I just say female? The word I use doesn't change what any of us are.

>>40839816
>Calls trans males females
>"Us"

This is actually funny

>>40839840
You're delusional which is unsurprising because you're a pooner. It's fine though, I love you all the same, sister.

>>40839858
And you're a retard broski

>>40839730
>tfw no hrt repper gf to help with her injections :(

>>40838973
these arent exclusive to women though tbdesu. men can go through that too

>>40839601
just call yourself a woman, people would probably hardly believe otherwise aside from the voice but always remember that taking t doesnt make you a man unless you say you are one

>>40839771
I didn't get "tricked" it's my own fault. If there were a (cheap) testosterone pill I would have taken it a long time ago, but basically the only other form that gets covered by insurance is gel and it's objectively bad on all levels

>>40839921
i wish someone could help me with injections if i ever actually decided to transition but i feel like im gonna be such a pussy that ill probably stick to gel or something. i have an irrational fear of air embolisms but also dont even know how to do an injection at all

>>40839840
I can promise you, no transition will ever not make you a bitter loser. HRT will not save you. After all even for pooner standards you pass, yet you not only need to tear down women as a whole but tell reppers who aren't as fortunate as you are to kill themselves even though you could go on and live your presumably adult pooner life freely without question.
You're just a self hating female behaving in an obnoxiously NLOG female way. You think being le edgelord makes you a guy yet all you act like every other NLOG femoid out there, lol.
You can't change your sex. YWNBAM. I don't even think you are old enough to use this site.

>>40839915
It's okay to be a woman nona.

>>40839947
I;m saying doing any of that, any T supplementation, as a form of repping is a meme. None of that will help if you are repping. You have a better chance at injecting E when it comes to making you feel better than you do T, or even stuff like Anavar. Not saying it's easy to get but I'm just saying it's better than the former.

>>40839983
I get the fear. I was terrified the first time I did my own injection. But I got comfortable with it pretty quick and honestly really like helping my best friend (also trans) with her injections.
It would be amazing to have a hrt repper gf that I could help out :3
If only you were not a fujo bottom :0

watching fight club rn want to jack off

Vent post that I just need to throw out into the wind so feel free to ignore but I highly regret taking testosterone. I love having a monster giga clit and jerking off with it and all the that but I hate the other effects. Trooning out has done absolutely nothing to help me except make my life worse cuz I’m severely comically unpassing but I transitioned kinda young so I was delusional and did it anyway. I have the most hyperfeminine body you can think of which is cool ig except I have now a voice that sounds weird and makes me just seem like a gross tranny freak. Everyone “they/thems” me and I don’t get taken seriously at all. Atp I have more dysphoria over transitioning then just being a cis woman cuz IWNBAM so my options are to either be a hot normal looking woman or an ugly mutilated dyke woman with induced pcos which one would I choose??

>>40839730
Every pill option needs a formal diagnosis to be covered by insurance in any way fml. I don't want to talk to a therapist but I can't stand dryrepping at this point. Everything is too expensive. It's been over an hour since I tried and failed and I'm still pissed at myself and I think I fucked up that entire vial

>>40840269
It was extremely hard to appreciate the artistry or whatever when watching fight club for the first time because I kept getting ridiculously turned on

i miss him

Helping a femrepper with her hrt!
Hugging a femrepper!
Cuddling with a femrepper!
Cooking nice food for a femrepper!
Giving a femrepper a massage!
:3

>>40839771
>Hrtrep is a meme and I'm sorry you got tricked into doing it
its only a meme if you care about having a normal life and arent committed to being a social outcast.

>>40840279
anon they dont make tetsosterone in pills that shit rots your liver. they only do estrogen in pills

>>40840617
Jatenzo isn't the same it doesn't mess with the liver

>>40840625
why the fuck do doctors orescribe trannies the injections then and the poondosing testosterone gel that can spread to someone else if you bump into them or touch them. this tranny shit is pissing me of why couldnt i be a man

>>40840663
Jatenzo is also like a million billion dollars for 30 days so that's partially why, also injections are just the gold standard for good levels. But I genuinely will take anything at this point other than injections (because I am too stupid and mess them up) or gel (awful)

>>40820221 (OP)
>QOTT
i think it is, i generally feel good about the way i look as a woman (as in i look like the kind of woman i find attractive). that plus how easy it was to accept that starting t would take me from looking like a slightly above average woman to an ugly man-woman thing.
>QOTT2
i'm very nonchalant and detached from everything. not so much in a depressed way but moreso in a buried under layers of irony way. pretty easy for me to shrug things off and move on and then point and laugh at ppl who actually care.

shutter can you make another discord with another email

I'm not allowed to kill myself because I would just find a way to fuck that up too

I'm still so mad and I don't have anywhere else to post shit I don't know what to do with my life at all everything sucks

>>40837245
Can I frot with your hole

>>40839932
>>40839615
>>40839618
>>40839633
>>40839665
i dont want to be a woman.

>>40841686
You always will be and never stopped being one

>>40841686
ok then enbycope or go to >>40837957

>>40841333
> and I don't have anywhere else to post shit
real

im back into an era where drawing makes me wanna start cutting off my fingers

>>40841872
same

>>40842034
what are your thoughts on mtf elliot rodger

Can I post here if I got groomed by a femrepper as a kid

>>40842064
would be funny because he kinda looks like kalvin garrah if he was amab

>>40842124
kalvin unironically looks more masculine

>>40842192
KEK

>>40842192
she doesnt. its something about the eyes. like kalvins eyes make it clear that shes female. elliot looks beta but still phenotypically male i cant explain it but thats how it is

>>40842686
for a second i thought you were she/her-ing elliot and i got excited but then i realized you were just misgendering kavlin. baka my head

>>40842192
sad because kalvin has hormonally depooned for a while and looks like shit
>>40842686
kalvin is the ftm with the most masculine eyes ive seen, that and his jawline are his most masculine traits. if you think those eyes are feminine youre actually retarded, those are predator eyes, not afab doe eyes. elliot unironically has more feminine eyes than him

he still doesnt pass nowadays though. hes gained so much feminine weight due to not being on hormones, but if he went back hed pass again

>>40842686
might be the head size, definitely not the eyes tho

>>40842714
Do you have a newer photo of him?

>>40842775
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zr3f5McHTXo&t=1s
its bad. he still has masculine eyes though, but literally anyone with eyes will just see a butch lesbian

>>40842818
holy chonker

>>40842108
are you looking to get groomed again?

>>40842192
anybody else here have a wide ass boxy face like kalvin's or just me?

>>40842818
Damn the teenage girl voice isn't helping

>>40842818
he looks like dream LMAOOOOO

>>40842901
Why weren't you clogging today's threads as much as usual?
I missed you

>>40842916
i was clogging the board as usual just in different threads and then igot excited because [REDACTED] posted a drawing so i had to calm down for a few hours

My mom and godfather described me as feminine when I asked them if i had more feminine or masculine energy. They're wrong though, I wish there was a way to definitively show if your brain is more masculine or feminine. Is this a thing?
They are literally wrong, I have to ask people among my generation because they're over 60 they don't get it.