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>i didnt even know we had medical weed
we do! apparently its the good shit too but i wouldnt know about that im still getting it off the street like u too x)
was mostly just being tongue in cheek with the medical part!
mary jane is my doctor who visits twice a day. she comes and treats my anxieties and my post traumatic stress disorder <3
>are u planning on ffsing or srsing nona?
ive been on hrt for 5 yrs, stealth for 4, am post BA and ffs, soon to have srs. i wanna kill myself tho bc its not enough and it's never enough and my very soul itself feels like its been torn from my body and yet i have nobody! to talk to about it!
im too unwell to get healthcare on my own and i dont go outside very often. life has been very hard on me and despite how on paper i should be this successful and happy girl... in reality... i just feel the same crushing weight that i felt before hrt. before ffs. before i could pass as who i am.
sometimes it feels like im irreperably broken. perhaps its less of a feeling and more of a truth? i havent been present in my own life for a really, really long time.
i wanna go get some tattoos of kintsugi so that i can show how broken i am inside, on the outside. i dont have any scars from self harm you see because i just dissociate, but i want to express my pain in a similar way. just more artsy because i was always worried about spoiling my body with messy cut marks. makes people look like barcodes lol
i hope my next reincarnation is better than this one. im getting my gun licence soon.
