Thread 40824906

>Bought estrogen
>Keep it in a little cardboard box
>Never use it, only sometimes take it out to look at the vial
>Been like this for a year
Why am I like this

>>40824906 (OP)
inject it you pathetic faggot

>>40824927
How will I forgive myself afterward though?

throw it away if you were trans it would have been used by now

>>40824906 (OP)
i dont even get how you can do things like this
the only thing ever holding me back from transitioning was it not existing
how did you grow up your entire life until now with all of this info on how to cure yourself available yet you do stupid shit like that

>>40824962
I want to but I spent $100 on it, I feel obligated not to throw it away
>>40824990
I probably have trans OCD instead of being a real tranny

>>40824906 (OP)
omgg use it asap it feels aamzingg ;)

>>40825005
toss it if you inject it you're gonna feel sad and probably do something stupid. you're just a normal man probably with some issues go talk to a therapist.

>>40825013
I doubt I would feel anything besides the injection hurting
>>40825025
I had one, I refuse to go again

Just take it

>>40824962
I agree, op just get rid of it or use it as decoration at this point.
either you are too pussy to go through it, or u felt like u needed it but when u got it u didn't feel the need anymore.
that is fair to feel and isn't bad to not transition if u feel alright with your body

if you can stop watching porn for a month take it if you cant dont

>>40825035
I can't bring myself to do it
>that is fair to feel and isn't bad to not transition if u feel alright with your body
If only
>>40825067
I don't touch myself unless its to clean at this point

>>40824906 (OP)
If you wanna take it you can. If you don’t you don’t have to. If you start taking it and decide you don’t like it, you can stop. If you start taking it and decide you like it, you can continue.
This isn’t nearly as much of a predicament as you are making it out to be.

>>40825034
i wasnt going to reply bc yes ik ur full of doubt but also i want you to consider that the other poster here is right. u r making this out to be a big thing - to me that means its repression. maybe you disagree, but noone stresses out about this like people who are actively repressing it.

>>40825216
Not OP, but personally I stress out about it because I’m a genderfucked enby and T and E both have a fair number of drawbacks for me. I have tons of E on standby in case I ever want out of T, but there aren’t any easy answers in my case.
That’s not to say OP isn’t a repper, but everyone is different, y’know?

>>40825254
ya thats fair but like if someone has just been sitting on it for a yr its not like they are learning MORE about themselves by not trying it out at all

>>40825271
True. It’s also pretty wasteful. Vial oil goes rancid eventually.

>>40825159
>>40825216
I feel like growing breasts is a big deal and not something I should take lightly

>>40825341
Breast growth is usually slow and reversible in its early stages.
You aren’t going to get F cups overnight. Most people don’t even get anything bigger than an A cup after years on HRT.

>>40824906 (OP)
if you don't inject it now, one day you will reach out to open that cardboard box and you will see your massive, veiny, hairy forearms and you will feel repulsed.
You will hold the vial, and feel a deep sense of remorse. A pit will fill your stomache.
As you stare into the vial, you imagine the person you could have been. You try to cry, but you can't.
You feel empty

>>40825341
why online order a bra and like a cute sweater or something lol just look at ur silhouette neck-down and note what u feel or smth idk.

ur gonna have to bridge some of ur fear here and experiment if u ever actually want to try and explain this pain to yourself. good luck either way!

>>40825367
So I could try it for a few months and be fine if I stopped? Nothing permanent?
>>40825381
It would be pretty hot to strangle myself with those arms though, I think.
>>40825383
I'd feel really weird wearing a bra.

i kinda think about hrt like i do about killing myself, i know whether i do it or not it doesnt matter, so theres no reason not to do it and also no reason to do it. i cant think of any real reason not to, life is an experiment so why not run it into the ground? why be normal? the older i get the more i understand thos people who tattoo their eyeballs and get devil horns installed

op posts like a coomer

>>40825633
I also think that way, at least a bit. I want to rope.
>>40825658
Sorry

>>40824906 (OP)
Simply posting this implies that you're vexed at yourself for not injecting.
Would you rather regret action or inaction?

>>40825615
>It would be pretty hot to strangle myself with those arms though, I think.
Reppers with aap are built different

>>40824906 (OP)
vaxxed?

>>40825843
I don't know, I have never been good at foresight so I won't know until the future happens
>>40825851
Tbf if it was someone elses arms I would be happy too

>>40825896
>I won't know until the future happens
That's why you try stuff out

>>40825615
No anon don't listen. Estrogen will make you infertile.

>>40825999
I just don't know
>>40827143
Why would I care about that, fatherhood sounds terrifying

>>40825615
For a few months? Probably not.
>>40827143
Infertility is usually reversible, especially if you don’t take E for long. A few months is very, very unlikely to make you permanently infertile. Generally sperm production starts back up 3-6 months after stopping HRT.