Thread 40844695

i am a repper but i feel my soul is femenine and i live my "womahood" under a very spiritual len. anyone else feeling like that?

>>40844695 (OP)
yes but I'm also not repping, hope it works out for you and you don't spiral because you're not actually doing anything about your femenine soul.

>>40844695 (OP)
i trooned but i feel as though my soul is irreparably male

>>40844695 (OP)
i think people have always treated me as a girl growing up, and i've always been treated as my mum's daughter instead of her son.

but don't rep, your body can be better for you

>>40844736
>>40844789
i am way too old to actually start transitioning. i also want children of my own one day and freezing is not an option

>>40844832
how old is way too old? are you in your 20s or like, 50s?

>>40844846
23

>>40844863
get over yourself

>>40844863
I KNEW IT. girl be serious.

if you keep repping in 10 years time you'll kill yourself and say you wished you started while you were still young. starting after you turn 18 is hard for all of us, but 23 is still on different tier to starting over 30

why isn't freezing an option? is it because of where you live?

>>40844939
>>40844896
i dont know if you realize how masc i look. i will never, and i say never, will look like girl

>>40844971
you dont look as masc as you will at 30 cis people have second puberty too yknow

>>40844939
freezing isn't an option because id like to go all natural. i have a profound OCD so i cant trust my cum to others

>>40844974
wdym second puberty

>>40844978
you continue to masculinize/feminize your entire life. second puberty is a bit of a misnomer but it gets the point across that there is still more masculinization that happens between early 20s and early 30s. yeah your bones are fucked, join the club.

>>40844971
it's hard to pass if you start after 18, i won't pretend otherwise. but reppers learn the hard way just how bad masculinisation keeps getting as you get older, it doesn't stop at 18. there are a lot of options in between "stealth" and "no-hrt cis man", and your dysphoria would prefer you picked any of them, instead of letting yourself fall to the bottom of the ladder.

>>40844976

oh, ok. i get it. i have extremely severe ocd too. it delayed me starting hrt and it's really painful.

but, if this is stopping you transitioning you should put all the energy you can into exposure for those worries. i find it hard, but sometimes with a lot of effort i can break even one of my worst compulsions...

>>40845051
i will always try to reach femalehood in secondhand. i will never have an uterus or breastfeed. i will never be a mother

>>40845482
me too. i cried about it for days when i was a teenager, it was actually how i realised i was trans. reading pages for infertile women helped me cope though... it still hurts me a lot, but, it's possible to accept it

refusing to transition is different. it can't be coped with and you can never accept it. it will weigh on every action you take, continuously, forever. waiting to start hrt is just denying yourself relief

>>40845540
i am ok being a male even if i dont feel like it. maybe. wanting to be a girl is just in the back of my mind all the time

>>40845034
i am going to kill myself