Thread 40866051

General for all nonbinary, intersex, questioning, and friends.
QOTT: What is your favorite arcade game?
QOTT2: Have you ever won a competition or raffle?

you can only be enby if you are attractive, otherwise its very cringe, but the same goes for being trans in general

qott1: love me some taiko
qott2: maybe once or twice but never anything significant
>>40866061
i am extremely attractive but i still respect people who don't look as good as me. ugly nbs are heckin' valid too, okay?

>>40866051 (OP)
>qott
groove coaster
>qott2
yeah I won a sports competition in like 1st grade but I was sick when they were giving the medals out and gave it to another kid, after that they couldn't convince me to compete anymore.

>>40866051 (OP)
i love arcade fighting game cabinets. when i was in osaka there was a whole building with thr best selection of them. super fun stuff , unfortunately i went to japan totally solo so i had nobody to play against

>>40866051 (OP)
>QOTT
THE KING OF FIGHTERS '97!!!
>QOTT2
I DONT THINK SO!!!

i feel melancholy and nostalgia deep inside for a time i never knew

Here's what we won at the arcade

GOOD MIDNIGHT NONBINEYS new nonbiney music out NOW picrel

>>40866051 (OP)
>QOTT: What is your favorite arcade game?
i don't play a whole lot but i always liked Dig-Dug and Mappy when i was younger. Galaga is also fun but i'm no good at it or really anything else...
>QOTT2: Have you ever won a competition or raffle?
when i practiced martial arts i was very good, at least relative to the other kids i was practicing with. i used to win almost every in-dojang competition held lol
i am no longer practicing any martial art but i do wish i were. i miss taekwondo and i would like to try something new, like tai chi, even if people think it's a joke.
>>40866309
>I was sick when they were giving the medals out and gave it to another kid
this is so wack wtf i wouldn't want to compete after that either
>>40866389
yay new figurine!!

>>40866061
>X can't be Y
>because being Y would be cringe for X
why are you assuming X can't be cringe? you're reasoning is flawed. you seem to assume cringe can't exist. but i can. and i will.

good morning nonbineys

boy I sure do hate waking up

>>40869361
god same. at least it’s friday.

>>40869548
I never know what day it is anymore
>t. hikkineet

How do you realize that you are enby? I think I've always known but there is no language to describe my experiences

giney or non-giney??!

>>40869672
I tried living life as a woman, didn't feel right. Tried living life as a man, didn't feel right. Thinking of myself as "woman" or "man" felt wrong. Came to the conclusion that I am genderfluid/agender. I used to stress about trying to be binary, always feeling like I just didn't fit, ashamed for feeling GNC. Eventually I accepted it and now I happily switch between masc and fem as I please

If you want to “be” non binary, you are establishing a third gender. You either observe binary gender norms or you do not, you cannot become non-binary but you can decide that there is no binary and the categories subscribed to by others are illusory, or at the very least, artificial. Such is my ruling on the matter

>>40869819
TRVTH NVKE

nothing like chocolate milk to cure a headache

>>40869819
really weird mental gymnastics but ok

>>40869819
Being nonbinary is just seeing this pseud take for the rest of your life in perpetuity. Thanks for nothing, dorks.

enby is cope, there is only men and women. i think we are best described as failed men/women

>>40870099
>we
You can't sit with us.

>>40867146
here she is

i could reaally go for an energy drink right now fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

work is so boring today

>>40869672
>can't really associate myself with men
>women don't fit either
>certain aspects of my body give me dysphoria
>but certain aspects of the opposite sex's body I also definitely do not want
pretty much

>>40869672
>be trans fem
>ask myself if I feel like a woman
>no
>is it just internalized transphobia?
>no
>would I still be trans if I was AFAB?
>yes
That was my thought process

>>40871740
I feel you. I'm out of my meds, so all I can do is sit in my chair via decision paralysis and executive dysfunction. I'm so useless

>>40866051 (OP)
I WANT 2 PLAY LE UM JAMMER LAMMY ARCADE GAME
i likw the arcade spirits VN, unfortunately i dont think there are boutique arcades like picrel in the UK its all shitty seaside coin game arcades

does anyone have autoimmune issues, arthritis, fibromyalgia? i am really depressed and struggling today my pain is so bad . i wish i was normal .

>1
Idk pacman? Space invaders?
>2
One art competition in elementary school.... besides that I can't remember much

I was thinking about my dysphoria recently, and the topic of gatekeeping....and I think we should've gatekept being non binary from the normie tiktok girls... I'm sick of seeing fem ladies wearing pride flag shit on them when they're basically cis and have 0 dysphoria

>>40866051 (OP)
My favourite cabinet game of all time is probably moon patrol. I loved the simple music, and the cool parallax background. Pretty sure it was the first game to use that.

>>40872143
>>40872571
thisssss. i tried being a woman and even girlmoding and it just felt off and i felt like i was trying to force something . i’m not getting off my hrt or not getting ffs but i’m not gonna say i’m a woman if i don’t feel it

i wish I had a job

>>40866051 (OP)
>QOTT
chunithm is really fun
>QOTT2
I won pub bingo once
>>40866061
guess I'm cringe then
>>40869672
I think I'm kinda just too autistic to get gender

>>40869672
i never really fit into male spaces, and even after transitioning mtf there was always a disconnect with women; i was still putting on an act and feeling kinda disingenuous. just as i was when i hung around men, but not to as serious a degree. even if my body was more aligned and i could actually walk outside and talk to people and have fun now, i could never really call myself "woman", even if thats what the world generally sees now.
when i was a kid i would get really infactuated whenever id see gnc characters on tv, or id make up stories and headcannon certain characters as male+female just because it made the most sense. it probably started then.

bmup

>>40866051 (OP)
There's no such thing as "non-binary".
>What is your favorite arcade game?
Maimai. Tires your arms out afterwards though.

my birthday is soon so my family is probably gonna ask what i want for it. problem is that i will probably kill myself a few weeks after my birhday so idk should i even ask for stuff if i have a suicide date planned

Good morning nonbineys

I'm in love with an enby but they never talk to me anymore so I never got a chance to tell them how I feel :(

>>40880495
Why did you guys lose touch?

>>40866051 (OP)
qott: been playing a lot of gitadora lately. i love popn and ongeki though
>>40866137
taiko is so hard
>>40866061
i was attractive as a guy, idk if i am as a boy/girl thing
>>40879689
everytime i walk by the maimai cabs it sounds like a firing range. people smack the shit out of those things lmao

>>40880580
I think I didn't make a move fast enough and they dropped me out of frustration

>>40880663
Ah... Well, better luck next time

Just some self reflection. on hrt for nearly 4 years. been through a lot of phases of questioning about how I am how I should be, what's nature, what's nurture, what's a self I'm trying to project, what's a self that emerges naturally, what's a dysphoria cope, what's me coping with how the outside world treats me, whats people pleasing/ molding myself to how people want me to be. I haven't really come to a conclusion on where I am with all of it. I think if I was more passing or I had a different job, I'd probably just be a woman. But then there's so many properties of me that are more masculine in my personality and ways I find comfortable being. There's also ways I find comfortable being that are feminine. And it's all just kinda really mixed up. And now people are getting kinda confused and frustrated with the fact that I'm not there yet with my self understanding. I know I like being on HRT. I know I have dysphoria around masculine traits and features. But then idk. There's aspects of femininity that feel uncomfortable for me to embody too. I've spent so much time in transmed spaces or around somewhat transmed friends that I've internalised some of that thinking and under that lens the way I naturally am is extremely confusing. I think I might just be a run of the mill non binary person or just like a trans woman with some masc leanings or maybe I'm just an autistic man on hrt. Like I have no idea what's going on with me. People naturally perceive me as just some attractive androgynous thing these days. No one is under the impression that I'm not amab, I think at least. Rarely people just think I'm a cis woman. I've had some people think I'm trans masc too. But generally speaking most people perceive a dude or an unpassing trans woman. I don't want to publicly come out or anything. I like just being how I am. If I state that I'm anything in particular, my looks and behaviour will be measured against that particular set of gendered traits and I don't want that.

>>40881060
>I like just being how I am
That's all that really matters, anon. You don't owe anyone conformity, you don't have to use labels, just do what feels right for you. I spend many years constantly questioning myself and trying to live my life for the sake of others. I'm 26 now and finally feel comfortable with my gender identity after social transition, HRT, fighting with myself to try and be palatable... And for what... People who didn't respect me in the first place? I wish you peace today. Hugs

>>40881116
Thanks for taking the time to read and respond anon ;.; you're right, it makes me feel happier to hear that. I think I just need to keep making choices that feel natural to me rather than worrying how it's going to be recieved. I think a lot of my behaviour and ways I present are a combination of both reacting to how I'm recieved, but also what emerges naturally. And I want to just prioritise what emerges naturally. But I think if I do that, I'll honestly be quite similar to how I am now, just without worrying about it so much.
Had a fight with my girlfriend the other day cause I did some stupid immature shit while she was going through some more serious stuff of her own, and also just made her feel smothered with my attachment bullshit. But yeah she was just saying I need to sort out all my personal stuff, which I do. And one of the things she said was I need to sort out my gender stuff. And it's true, I do need to sort out my relationship with it because I do spend a lot of time worrying about how other people are interpreting me, and I do live a bit of a strange double life. But I think if I'm being honest with myself. The way I solve that isn't coming out as trans or non Binary or whatever. I think just being unapologetically myself (unless it's actually unsafe to do so) is what i need to do. And maybe I will decide there's labels i want. Or new ways I want to present that I've been hiding. But yeah. Anyway she's lovely, she really cares about me. I'm just kind of ruminating about it on here for a bit before I go and get on with my work.
Hope you have a nice day anon, I appreciate you.

>>40878242
>>40881060
felt

>>40881181
<3

bump

i LOVE it when creepy old men holler and honk at me it's so AWESOME and totally not *WEIRD AS FUCK*

>>40881060>>40881181

god i relate so much

i want to kiss a pretty girl T_T

>>40869672
as (most) people here ive been attached to the internet since a young age, and ive found that the absolute disconnect between your physical self and your digital presentation to be what fascinates me the most with the internet. i do not really regard my "self" as my physical body, but rather my lived and emotional experiences with others. because of that, ive found no attachment to gender as i find its intrinsically tied to the physical self.

>>40866051 (OP)
oh ive been here while visiting in florida. it's full or fun games

i have been napping more. don’t know how to spend my time alone. good thing happen bad things happen but i wish i had friends to cherish my life with. esp the end of my 20s which have seemingly just come and gone

>>40886866
30s is a strange time anon. I wish you luck finding connection, finding new ways to love yourself and foster a zest for life even when isolated. Healing whatever hurt has yet to heal and finding meaning that you have yet to know or that you had forgotten. I wish you most of all contentment. Take care. May the future friends that find their way into your life count themselves lucky and may you cherish away the days together gleefully! And may each day until those golden days come, be spent wisely, in joy and preparation for the difficulties of joy to come

>>40887693
i’m only 27 thankfully. i have plenty of time to still enjoy my twenties i just hope i can have some friends saunter into it like i did when i was 21.

>>40885453
the internet was real freeing as a kid for that reason. i would come home and i wasnt boy or girl, i just was.
also i love this film so much. so unsettling but so so familiar, i swear i could even recognize specific places. certain scenes felt ripped out of some long forgotten cloister of my memory.

I think my boyfriend is mad at me but maybe it's just my bpd idk I don't wanna wake him up

>>40889233
You've probably already woken him up. But if you can find it in yourself to self regulate until it's a better time to receive reassurance from him, then do that. It's hard tho anon. When the nervous system gets wired like that. Wish you luck just in general. Not an easy hand to be dealt.

>>40881060
>>40881181
holy absolutely fucking real oh my god

>>40880734
Yeah :(
I really wish things would work out with them somehow, they're so beautiful and so cool and smart

Good morning nonbineys

didnt brush my teeth for a month so theyre back to rotting

>>40891354
mine are all cracked and broken from gurning

>>40881060
>my looks and behaviour will be measured against that particular set of gendered traits and I don't want that.

this is the root of it all to me, whenever someone asks me if im trans i resist it. i mean technically i am? i take the hrt and it feels right to be this in some way. but if i say yeah im a trans woman i feel like suddenly im subject to an evaluation of how good i am at being a trans woman, and the exact same happens if i say im not trans, suddenly im being measured by how much of a man or what type of man i am. its all just very uncomfortable and i just wish i could say to people that i just prefer to be androgynous and you see me however you see me.

>>40891447
the only person i tell im trans is my therapist. even my trans friends i prefer to just not be seen as trans bc it becomes a competition both in my head and around everything. like im some how failing to them? idk

The pain and fatigue never stops
I wish I had health insurance

>The only people on this board who I can deeply relate to post in the enbygen
lol

>>40893903
maybe yr enby anon

nya

>>40895144
I'm wearing my cat ears and tail and a maid dress to the club next week

>>40895898
based

>>40895981
Thanks I'm very excited, but also worried about bumping people with my tail lol

>>40895898
go to a cat cafe and say you want a position

>>40896431
I actually did want to submit my resume to a quiet little anime store but it's not happening

>>40889107
super cool to see another fan of this film on here. its that foggy-yet-familiar feeling that makes worlds fair so magical, it just gazes straight into your soul and demands your attention. i hope life is kind to u anon

are nb chasers a thing

>>40866051 (OP)
waow i love arcade games, so much i work at an arcade
QOTT 1: Tales from the crypt pinball. I liek it so much i bought one to be in my house

Im mtf i just came in here to be autistic ab arcades

you all fucking type about your feelings too much.

>>40898772
meow

good morning nonbineys

there is a cool show on friday but its far should i just stay in bed

you are all bastards but I like the cuts of your jibs
>>40885453
>>40889107
>>40897813
curious about this movie, I shall watch without learning anything and see what's what
>>40899991
a pleasure to see a glegle I made in the wild
>>40900829
goob morning

>>40901653
You should go, anon. It will be fun

>>40866051 (OP)
>QOTT
Snowbros! Followed by Tumblepop
>QOTT2
I won a raffle one time when I was 5, got a cute duck shaped bread basket

Bupo

>>40903515
i look like this and do this

is there a way to get an androgynous voice or is it doomed to sound dumb no matter what?

>>40866051 (OP)
Is this Arcade Monsters in Florida? Which one?

QOTT: Time Crisis 2

>>40903756
Well aren't you just heckin cute and valid
>>40903814
Depends on your throat hardware

>>40866051 (OP)
yo momma

>>40903966
me...? heckin' cute and valid...? you shouldn't have... >^<

>>40904054
You just lost the game

have you drawn yet today enby-chan?

>>40904310
i have art block

>>40904404
keep at it FTM eater u got this

>>40904310
i can only draw straight lines in perspective, sometimes

>>40906338
Can you draw a hypercube

>>40901707
hope u enjoy, its a real visceral glimpse into reality, very low budget film too which i rly like
>a pleasure to see a glegle I made in the wild
omg thank u for your service, i post MT glegtrot whenever i can

>>40904310
havent drawn in years but i do music daily, mostly folk songs
https://vocaroo.com/1obEFVJ6QvpU

Am sad. I have cabin fever and I'm extremely lonely. I wish I would just die in my sleep

>another boring weekend
at least i’ll be starting a new job soon

I don't know what the fuck I am anymore

>>40908591
Same (but positive)

I'm in a really good place right now where women perceive me like a prince, men perceive me like a princess, and the one girl that I love enjoys me being a little bit of both

>>40910504
Adorable

i shouldve cut my hair to my shoulders instead of chopping it all off...

>>40911702
Oh no hair anon... Are you ok..?

>>40911797
i am fine... but hey! ive discovered that i dont like really short hair! itll grow back, and ill try keeping it at mid length.

>>40911807
Good good, I was going to say hair grows back... so I'm glad you are not freaking out or anything.

The human body is disgusting. Our bodies converge on one of two fates, a doughy cowlike woman or a hairy apelike man. Why would anyone want to be either of these things? I wish I was an alien or a robot. The only real happiness anyone can have is as a child before your body begins to single you out from the others.

good morning nonbineys

>>40912344
True

>>40912344
>I wish I was an alien or a robot.
same

>>40911702
yeah I also had my hair messed up at a hairdresser right at the end. The next morning I girted myself with righteous fury and went at myself with my razor comb and scissors

>>40910504
that's magical anon, I'm lucky to be in a similiar place.I think self acceptance and support of a loved one really helps us emerge from a chrysalis of other labels pushed on me. I do think that many others just don't understand me though outside of that.
Maybe you need to do the same?(or just wear a hat)


I've also been feeling deeply introspective about self identity and expression and I come this year to the realization that my own inner self and presentation is what's important, it doesn't matter what labels people attempt to place on you as human nature is to label.forgive the narcissism here but boy/girl? no I identify as human.
I think perhaps coming to term with that is what has been most helpful as I age (33 now).

We're getting the marriage license tomorrow... Wow

what part of lgbt is nb?
oh wait.... it isn't

>>40913563
the t and/or q babycakes

>>40913603
>the t
but you don't transition, you desist
>q
isn't a part if lgbt

>>40913644
go back there

>>40913644
huh i guess the three years of hrt was for nothing :p lolz

>>40913644
>but you don't transition

>>40913682
>>40913693
did you get sex change surgery? no?
then you're not trans. you're cis.
oh you want to shit talk sex change surgery? that makes you transphobic because you don't think sex can be changed.

you're not lgbt. you're off-topic. go back to tiktok with your rogd trender obnoxious rhetoric.

>>40913725
>oh you want to shit talk sex change surgery? that makes you transphobic because you don't think sex can be changed.
nonny is fighting the voices in xer head

>>40913725
By that logic most binary trans people aren't trans either.

>>40913760
correct. transvestites are not transsexuals. non-ops are congruent in sex. that's why they don't pursue a sex-change. wearing a different outfit doesn't alter your phenotype.

>>40913772
Read the board title.

>>40913782
i dont my see non-binary.
huh.

>>40913790
part of transgender
notice the "gender", not "sexual"

>>40913802
in order to go somewhere do you not need a starting point and an end point? if you havr no definitive end point, did you go anywhere?

no srs, no transition.

you're not some new special gender. you're just an asshole. you're cis. you're congruent in sex. you aren't seeking to be a eunuch or a nullo. you keep your sex characteristics as assigned at birth because you're congruent in sex.

>>40913725
urr right ... I took hrt recreationally u_u

>>40913845
>you aren't seeking to be a eunuch or a nullo
GO BACK

>>40913845
>if you havr no definitive end point
I do though. I defined it myself.

>>40913845
You must be a blast at parties.

>>40913847
cosmetic is not the same as medically necessary.

body builders shoot up steroids. varbies shooting up anavar and tren until they can crush watermelons with their thighs. are they suddenly men because they can bench more 4 plates? no.

men take finasteride and minoxidil all the time. does it make them another gender? no.

men take lupron to treat their prostate cancer. does it make them another gender? no.

>>40913847
i would argue that your facetiousness exposes the truth. yes. you did take hrt recreationally.

you try to play it off as being sarcastic like you really think i'd do all of this for fun? yes. you people are cancer.

ignore that bad faith retard xe's wasting our bumps

>>40913906
>bad faith
projection. your side argues wholely in bad faith as you contort the meaning of words to conflate your narrative.
are sex and gender not intrinsically linked?

Nonbineys, say one thing you love about yourself !! Don't take the hate bait, let's spread some positivity

>>40913925
>are sex and gender not intrinsically linked?
no

>>40913938
groomer stop grooming!

>>40913947
defend your stance.

how is gender not an expression of sex?
gender is to phenotype as sex is to genotype. gender isn't an outfit you put on. gender is the expression of your gametes. if clothes did not exist, how would you know what gender someone is? their genitals. meaning gender is binary as there are only two healthy expressions of sex by means of phenotype. penis and vagina. wanting to have some third intersex option is akin to wanting to be sick. factitious disorder (munchausen syndrome). you're not trans, but the glorification of trans people in media has lead you to want to be trans.

>>40914003
>defend your stance.
no

>>40914019
because you can't
because no one told you the correct counter argument or defense
because your movement isn't founded in medicine

>>40914061
do you like animation memes

>>40913725
I cut my weiner off and glued it on backwards

>>40914091
>this is transphobia

nb's are the whiggers of the trans community.

>>40914116
Uh, that's transsexualphobia and transsexual community. Transgender isn't valid.

>>40914130
listen:
no one cares if you're a transvestite. it's the push for legal recognition on unfounded grounds that is receiving pushback.
you don't need the same legal accomodations as a transsexual.
hence, you're seen as k fed with cornrows.

>>40914168
did you have a stroke there?

>>40914202
do you think the hoff twins should have a free pass to use the n-word?

>>40914116
>whiggers
underpriviliged white kids growing up in majority black neighborhoods? I guess I can see how that's analogous to nonbinary people within trans culture but it's not like it's their fault

>>40914207
who?
You come off as more and more like some 15 year old from /pol/ larping as a concerned tranny.

nb ideology is founded in regressive feminism. where progressive feminism thought a woman cutting her hair short and wearing men's clothes didn't invalidate her womanhood, nb's think it makes them an entirely new gender as a result lf societal shaming.

>>40914494
true also bump

i want to dress like this in public but i'm too much of a coward

>>40917034
I dress like this in public and I get stared at a lot of people look horrified sometimes but I know it's just cause they can't handle my swag

help im in a good relationship and doing well in career but the urge to dress in feminine clothing and look feminine has once again resurfaced and has done so IN FORCE. my girlfriend did my makeup the other night for the first time (I had mentioned being into that before I met her) but I'm not sure how she will respond if I push it further.

I don't feel like I need to be a woman and have masculine interests but god damn am I upset when I see cute dresses and such in stores and public. What do?

>>40898588
...what would you even be looking for, if you're chasing... lmaooo

>>40917174
Honest to God, buy cheap makeup and cheap fem clothes before you dump a bunch of money into presenting feminine.
Start off in a safe space with safe people who want to see you blossom :-)

>>40917203
that's why i asked
do people who chase nbs exist, and if so, why?

>>40917265
i got chased down a dark alleyway once

>>40917212
thx I did a little bit in another state years ago in an alternative scene but it's been quite a while

maybe I'll hit up the thrift store or tj maxx or something

>newly aware of nervous system stuff and how the body responds to stress and all that after a very long time of being a disembodied, traumatized husk
>pursuing new therapy to try and give my bpd the boot and get into some sort of functional recovery
>from prior therapy ive got a fairly realistic handle of my narrative of my past, starting to wrap that up and get on with learning techniques for dealing with it all and the wounds/beliefs it's all left, and the maladaptive copes its left me with and how it's impacted me neurologically and starting work on reprogramming that
>spend time going over everything in the session giving the new therapist a rundown of whats up
>gender stuff comes up as an aside
>more than anything else that came up, there's a really fucked relationship there
>have small upsetting epiphany about the root cause of my gender issues
>not sure what's real any more and what's just manifestations of trauma bullshit
>don't wanna desist hrt
>also I think (surprise surprise) coming on here might actually be having an impact on my mental health and relationship to my gender
It's weird cause like so much of the narrative in general is constructed from your perception of experience. I could just tell myself I'm a trans woman and commit to that narrative tomorrow but it feels like it would be disingenuous. Being a man at this point feels disingenuous too. But being some other in-between thing, which best describes what I am right now feels weird too when I consider it in the context of everything.
Anyway I'm glad these are the problems I'm hung up on right now. Happy to be up maslow's hierarchy enough to be in the comfortable position of deliberating existentially on my identity. Do you just construct a self? Do you just let a self emerge naturally from what feels the most comfortable? Cause what if what feels the most comfortable is coloured by a tendency to faun and alter myself for the comfort of others? Does a truthful answer emerge eventually?

>>40913725
>loudly shadowboxing the scrambled noise in your head
>were the obnoxious ones

i got this for my partner do you think he will like it ?

>>40919556
Idk, he some hyper masc Sweaboo? i was one of those once and I'd have loved something like this

>>40919634
he really likes wolf

>>40919656
Based wolf enjoyer
I bet he'll be happy with that

>>40919682
yay i wanted to give him a thoughtful gift but wasn't sure if cis men like jewelry

>>40919697
Yeah dudes love wearing cool little things their partner gets them.

>>40917034
how much of a coward do you have to be i feel like that's a look anyone could pull off

>>40869672
In every functional way I'm a trans girl, but I still feel sexually male and I feel that my lived experience of being male is an inalienable part of my identity. Hence why I consider myself bigender.