>>40932483
cause i havent got tested in about a month until yesterday and had some seriously fucked up experiences. and just to be safe and not hurt anyone, i took myself off the market for a bit.
and when i get my labs back, i'll know what i can do.
>>40932493
that's good, i drop guys if they get defensive about me wanting to know if they're safe, for my own safety.
cause it means they dont care about my safety and thats one of the important things i look for in people.
idk alot of people interpret me as a sexy person and offer me alot of different things.
i barely have a sex drive, but im a sexy person.
so people always come up to me.
yeah i have alot of insecurities and voids in my life and pretty traumatized and damaged.
its obvious sometimes when my anxiety kicks in cause i look like an abused person and i have to hold myself.
but then if i feel okay, i come alive and everything's good.
i can go from being great, to getting anxious, and snapping out of it pretty fast, usually with laughter or if someone says something funny.
it loosens me up lol
even last night i kept looking down the street to make sure no one was coming to hurt me.
and sometimes people will come up to me and they know my name, and i have 0 idea who they are and its scary.
cause i dont know how they know me.
the girls get it. i havent met a girl that doesnt get it yet. but some guys really cant read my body language and its so obvious that im not interested or uncomfortable or getting crippled by anxiety and they just dont pick up on it or they like it.
i've been staying with dudes that are chill and safe and they dont do anything bad to me. no sex, no hard drugs, and always keeping an eye on me.
