Thread 40937052

I ruined my life with drugs and alcohol before I could even get on hrt.

If any young person sees this, don't do drugs and take your hormones early.
If you have thoughts now they'll stay with you forever, atleast for mtfs.

Stay away from narcotics and alcohol they can blind your dysphoria, but they won't get rid of it. Once you sober up you'll remember how miserable you are..
If you believe in god and are afraid of god frowning upon you, I can't tell you anything but I don't understand why god left me with such unresolved feelings.
The religious answer I got was to repress them or go against them
It only made it worse.

Do what you feel would make you happy
It's not noble to torture yourself nor are you being honorable by doing so.

<3

>>40937052 (OP)
you have a good starter point ryan. just do it now
but yeah you're right i went through the same thing. to other repressanons out there if you're 15y and dysphoric and you do nothing to fix that you will probably be a 20y and even more dysphoric and depressed

>>40937161
>>40937052 (OP)
Hons

>>40937052 (OP)
since when did u start taking your shelved hrt ryan?

Yup, it never goes away completely and if you manage to get rid of it temporarily if will come back stronger, it also gets worse with the years.

>>40937481
This
I should've started at 13 when I was sure of it.

>>40937052 (OP)
ygmi, youre a great person and im sorry to hear you repped for so long i repped too

Does the dysphoria go away after full transition?

>>40937516
I'll never know but when each step alleviates it, recently took a big leap and it changed my life, I still get sad for love stuff but doubt that'll ever go away, but everything else is bliss.

>>40937052 (OP)
Thanks so much, beautiful<3

>>40937516
I don't know but it's definitely to take hrt than torture yourself.

>>40937052 (OP)
Why is there cum on your mouth?

>>40937516
I haven't finished my transition however I've been on e for 5 years and it has certainly lessened it, I used to have breakdowns and panic attacks when looking at myself in the mirror and had to take drugs. that hasn't happened for a while now, I still feel dysphoric but now sometimes I can look at myself in the mirror and it'll cheer me up

am i just not trans if i got way worse after starting hrt? ive never wanted to kill myself so badly

>>40937176
>>40937052 (OP)
is this the same person?

>>40937052 (OP)
eyes really are the best facial feature, and physical feature overall
and it's not an opinion, it's just pure fucking fact, and it's not even close.

ryan my beloved...

>>40937052 (OP)
but drügs are fun >.<

>>40937052 (OP)
can i take drugs after i start hrt for say a few years

>>40941707
you can always take drugs. they don't discriminate

>>40941806
yay

>>40937052 (OP)
Ho boy I can recognize those far away eyes. I remember having them. Good luck anon, shits hell but you can make it.

>>40937481
tru. supression seems to be directly linked to interference with funtioning. the more fucked up and occupied with obtaining and hiding or gooning it the better... opiates and escapism is nice one. drinking turns into sobbingfest often... but gotta keep blasting brains when repping or i start going mad. other way is inducing low key ocd about some topic and rabitholing.

>>40937052 (OP)
I would literally murder people for your face instead of mine.

>>40937516
its manageable

>>40937052 (OP)
OP, get laser/electrolysis and thin out your eyebrows.

it's over

>>40942353
You can have it. you can have everything

id drag my poon toob through broken glass for you bro

>>40942509
Bro...
>*Brings out packers*

>>40942512
shieeet i needed a new one anyways the dragon lizard one was getting old

>>40942519
dood... This is gonna be awesome dood

>>40937052 (OP)
How can someone this ugly post their face here?

>>40943358
Should jannies delete this thread?

>>40940473
How is this related to the thread

>>40937052 (OP)
>this is the person telling us we're all gonna make it

>>40943934
What does this mean

narcotics (narcotica) means opiates. weed, amphetamine and likes arent narcotics... and yes they work lile charm. still dumping booze or drugs is easyshit walk in a park when compared to dealing with that trannie thing.

>>40945706
stfu nigga

>>40937052 (OP)
you have eyes that see dead people

>>40946559
soft beautiful eyes*

>>40947926
More like eyes that didn't bear the seal of solomon

i was taught to accept my ftm nature very late in life but i keep going because that's what i have to do

>>40937052 (OP)
Send more selfies please, you’re very cute

>>40937052 (OP)
you have very beautiful eyes but there is cum on your lip :/

>>40949447
how late

>>40937052 (OP)
you look like a corpse

>>40950200
67

>>40950233
You're a 67 year old ftm?
What is a 67 year old doing on 4chan

>>40950200
retard

>>40937052 (OP)
Such a shame what autogynephilia does to handsome young men like you

>>40937516
No

>>40937052 (OP)
>>40937052 (OP)
fuket, rare simp moment:
this person's eyes are so pretty and sweet and bright and glittery and soft and gentle and appealing and loveable that I would accept them as whoever and whatever they are and I would absolutely do my best to please and protect and guide them and I would be their fruity little faggot boyfriend if they were cis M in full view of the public or their dominant masculine hetero-straight man that sees her fully and only as a woman and her peepee wouldn't even exist in the depths of my psychology not even for a second or if they wanted to be weird asexual cuddlebuddies I'd tuck my huge fat dick back and out of the way just to be able to in the morning wake up to those beautiful gorgeous green-ocean emerald eyes

>>40937052 (OP)
Raping blogposting fags like you makes me happy
Now bend over

>>40952175
what? what are ya giving me that look for?

>>40952233
Not OP

if thats you you pass better than me and i never took any drugs (at least not a lot) and ive been on hrt for a while. so stolen rep valor desu

>>40951721
are you drunk

>>40952708
>rep valor
New term

>>40937516
No, it's self hatred it doesn't go away but it becomes so much less with hrt

>gets a hangover because "muh drgs"
>"ImA TrAnNy nOw!"
get a grip. go to the next mental fakulty and take 4-6 weeks off. and get a gf

>>40953531
I've been posting on this board for the past 7 years

>>40953548
7 years wasted

>>40937516
in my experience after 4 years not really but it's not as bad as it used to be