Thread 40940749

samsara edition
>>40938062
>QOTT
do you really think you can escape?

how can i kill myself so that my body will be either destroyed or unrecognizable? i dont want anyone to see me

i will be a theyfab in the next life

i'm breaking the cycle
tonight

>>40940881
>>40940749 (OP)
What are these images from they're really cool

Am I welcome here?

>>40941496
nope

>>40941496
nyope

>>40941698
this is actually me

>>40941701
me too except the cookint part because i am stupid and dont understand cooking so i always screw it up

>>40941761
yeah me too
wish u were here so we could not cook for each other and starve and die in each others arms

>>40941777
two little runts embraced failure

>>40941796
embracing* im so sleepy

dooming too hard to inject

>>40941908
you're only going to doom harder the longer you go without injecting silly

> be me
> apply for apartment (literally me DREAM apartment)
> get invited to see it
> send over documents
> hear nothing back for two weeks
> assume I didn't get it
> stop looking for apartments, cause I only wanted that one
> buy new furniture to spice up my current place
> get call a month later that I'll get my dream apartment
> none of the furniture fits really, have to pay more for moving now
Why does it always have to be like this? aargh

btw I didn't do my injections now for almost two weeks & for some reasons my breasts really decided to have a growth spurt although I concluded that I don't want breasts if I don't pass.
So fuck it, I'm gonna go to the pharmacy and do an injection again.

i honestly dont know if i feel worse or better when i dont inject
i really am just a soulless husk with no concept of what i am

>>40942053
yeah same desu I don't really feel any difference

>>40941937
ok i did it, bled a bit

>>40941989
what makes it dreamy

he didn't say i love you this time
it's over

>>40942075
why not

>>40942097
i don't know
maybe i was annoying, or i seemed dickish when i didn't mean to be

>>40942068
- location (I live in a 4 million people city and it's central enough and 5 minutes by foot from a transport hub)
- freshly renovated, but old house (built 1900)
- ground floor, got a small yard
- not a studio, has a small bedroom
- rent below average
- unlimited lease

ok did my injection guess I'm officially retrooned, but I'll make damn sure not to tell anyone again.

fuck my stupid non-binary life

>>40942169
can we cuddlefuck in your new apartment

>>40942195
no but you may enjoy this picture of the new sofa I'm getting

i have absolutely no idea how to cope with the fact that i am a massive honbeast
its literally the only stressor in my life and i spent every second of every day considering suicide over my appearance
its crippling and has completely derailed my life and i dont know what to do

>>40942214
gay
the best part about sofas is the corner

smoking weed is definitely a net negative in life

i think i'm going to cut off 99% of the people that i knew pre-transition (before I went away for college and started hrt). Ive known some of these people for my entire life btw

manmoding with them is making me severely depressed, I can't take manmoding around cis straights this is torture and so much worse than around gays and cis girls

>>40942169
good stuff noona

>>40940749 (OP)
being born as a tranny set me back for countless lives, i won't escape any time soon

manmoding feels like this

my outward expression and appearance is so masculine that sometimes i can't even see myself as a woman anymore.

i hate everything about my life i cant handle living here i literally cant do anything in peace because of my own neuroses but im too poor and retarded to ever move out i want to scream i want to explode

>>40941496
yes

>>40941777
>>40941761
how the fuck are you an able adult and don't know how to cook. can't imagine being this useless

>>40943340
im genuinely subhuman. i shouldnt be alive, if it was 100 years ago i wouldnt be alive and the world would be better off for it

>>40943353
das rite
now go learn how to cook

>>40943362
i always screw it up no matter how many times i try

imagine being a cooklet

turned pescetarian and feel good

im an everythinglet

i like cooking one of my few classically feminine traits

>ywn down a couple of ciders and teach a moder basic cooking techniques and principles
why even anything at this point

"cooking if feminine" is probably one of the most retarded things men forced everyone to believe to excuse their laziness

>>40943479
yeah but it works out in my favor. lemme have it

>>40943433
go full vegetarian fish feel all the pain of animals

>>40943515
nah i would be more likely to drop it and i only eat fish like 1 a week anyway or sometimes months without but every now and then i like some fish or shrimps

can we do omelas child but for factory farming somehow?

>>40943546
evil!!! im the same way with dairy and eggs though

i eat a lot of meat even though i know its bad. my ass is not escaping samsara

>>40943560
better beeing able to realistically stick with it you can always go further eventually
i just view it as my new baseline

>>40943612
true

should i detransition to get a gf then after 6 months start taking hrt again

>>40943640
no that will probs wreck your mental health

>>40943640
do it

i wouldn't even have to stop hrt to get a straight female/ gay male partner because there's literally no way to tell i'm anything other than a cis man

https://picrew.me/ja/image_maker/2659930
make one c:

>>40943732
it's litruhlly me

hi frens :3~

>>40943640
NOT gonna work

>>40943353
I’m the only verified subhuman itt
The rest of you are ultra normies with interesting lives

coffee with oat milke goes hard

black coffee makes me hard

coffee w/ a little steamed whole milk or black, anything else is gay

>>40944060
you are just in the closet cuz you never tried it

hayden christensen was hot in the prequels

>>40944090
all the "barista" type oatmilks are filled with literal canola oil (gross!) and all the regular oat milk can't be heated very much before it starts to cook and separate (also gross)

>>40944060
>coffee w/ a little steamed whole milk
ok fag

>>40944117
you dont need to cook it just pour some hot water over the nescafe gold and after you dump in the cold oatmilk to cool it down

>>40944124
a good cappuccino >>>> whatever you're drinking
>>40944132
>nescafe
opinion discarded

where are my basedmilk latte chads

if you were lactating would you put a squirt in your morning cuppa /mmg/?

I just said to myself out loud
> I look like a fucking boy-/manmoder bullshit thing
and just started laughing, but at the same time I noticed that I prefer it over how I looked before...
wtf is wrong with me?

>>40944140
I only drink black coffee, sorry I coffeemog you

>>40944153
i bet you drink shitty oxidized supermarket beans, or worse, k-cups

>>40944140
>t.

>>40944178
yes i'm a hoffchad, what of it?

>>40943887
no
i have genuinely done nothing with my life, not even online, and i dropped out of school as a friendless loser at 16

>>40944184
its the same as beeing an audiophile
>yea bro i absolutely do need this gold cable you just dont understand

>>40944224
i don't spend that much on coffee gear. it's literally so easy and not that expensive to make massive improvements over what most people drink, you can do it with a $30 pourover or a $30 moka pot which is literally the same price or cheaper than most pod/drip machines.

>>40943795
>>40943863
>>40944277
nft

>>40941698
are there any more manmoder memes like this
>>40943170
he looks 50

>>40944285
and what about it

>>40944298
idk

>>40941496
you look like one of these white women in racists crashout compilations that gets posted on tiktok

i'm taking hrt at 30 someone make fun of me for being a complete and worthless loser

now jerk off your worthless penis

>>40944445
>i'm taking hrt at 30
same this thread is only half fakemoder passoids

that’s not very ladylike!

>>40944468
are the fakemoding passoids in the room with us right now

>>40944485
>>40941496
yea probably

>>40944485
if by "the room" you mean this thread and every other mmg then yeah

>>40944492
>>40944493
take your meds aunt

I think I got blocked :(, what did I do wrong this time

>>40944558
this is worse than the last one

>>40944558
you dont look like that though

>>40944558
>chad jawline
>its an oval
fakemoders are so far removed from masc features that they cant even draw them correctly

>>40944468
yeah i failed at life

>>40944558

i feel personally attacked by this photo

>>40944558
im skinnyfat though

rogd general

it was definitely not rapid

>>40944558
fuck off

hallo fellow coffee snobs

>>40941698
this is me

>>40945167
i knew when i was 5

>>40944558
lmao that one faggot looks exactly like this

>>40945851
based baratza enjoyer

>>40945958
half the gen looks like that

>>40945958
which one?

>>40946057
chuddy?

>>40946063
ok most of it but chudlines missing

>>40941496
I'm going to commit suicide

>>40946081
also long hair and not short hair

>>40945997
i dont look like that

tbqh I think the strongest convincing factor for me going back in HRT is the sweaty mansmell. I LOoOVE it on other men, but I hate it on myself.
What a weird thing to be dysphoric about

>>40946169
>What a weird thing to be dysphoric about
valid i hate moidstink (glad you like it on others tho)

I am 6'2

men smell like shit

oh no I'm an 8/10 man waaaahhh I'm forced to be an attractive man nooo how could this happen to me
kys

im a petite, beautiful, and unclockable 6'1 goddess who has no issues in her life that she would otherwise have if she were one (1) inch taller.

i am 5'8 and i live in burning envy of petite beautiful unclockable 5'7 goddesses

i'm 108 feet tall and made out of iron and bronze

>>40946212
There are no 8s here

>>40946237
thats sick bro

>>40946257
who's a 7

>>40946257
yea only 9s and above

>>40946257
june is an 8

>>40946274
just lying now

>>40946274
out of 100

>>40946279
>>40946280
ew

kisses u

As a femfag, I'm an 8/10, but as a woman, I'm not even on the scale. They're why I'm a genderfuck

cope

I will never be a woman and that's ok :)
I will die alone and that's ok :)
I don't deserve love and that's ok :)

>>40946274
shiet nigga im a 5 at best nowadays T______T 87kg, no more piercings, halfway through tattoo laser removal on my hands and neck so i have grey smudges all over :/ grim

>>40946506
can I suck your penis please

june is pozzed

>>40946512
sure thign, add discord: yungAr4n

>>40944558
LITERALLY me

>>40947201
fakemoder

trip on bee

>>40943170
Fug, I feel like that desu

i think binding is making my ribcage bigger

>>40947253
but do you look like that doe

17 year old male moder that looks 36

27 year old troon who looks like a 30 year old dude

>>40947326
Dunno, maybe?

im so sick of walking men through the steps of asking me out. Despite being a 5'4 grade A malefailure, I end up being the dominant one in every relationship

how do I use this to my advantage?

i will become employed
i will get laser
i will get ffs
i will get implants
i will find peace

I will get drunk
I will jack off
I will shitpost
I will cry
I will sleep for 16 hours at a time

>>40941698
me as fuck. why am i so tired though?

>>40948318
thyroid problems

why is the manmordium so quiet

>>40948715
because all people do here is complain about their measurements

>>40948762
sometimes we bitch about other aspects of our lives

im a woman who has into inject 3ml of fluid into his leg

xister same

im such an ugly woman

im an ugly man

i want to be groped

I'm a he/him masc butch woman

same until i see a mirror

i'm a he/him strictly androphilic lesbian

Im a guy, when people see me they think "thats a guy with long hair", and I know they think that, and I think thats ok, because thats what I am. I just kind of see myself as a perpetual teen boy, except I have tits now. But dont worry about that

manmoders should be forced to have short hair

>>40948081
(you)ing myself but
I've sort of accepted that I have to groom my men into being the dominant BF I want them to be. It takes a lot of patience and training to turn a meek, nervous boy into a strong and assertive man, but its worth it

bisexual lesbian

i want to date a hon that i see as a man but then i might as well date a man that sees me as a hon

any manmoders into bodybuilding and lifting

>>40949313
yeah i love lifting weights, i obsess over bodybuilders and i used to use steroids during my repper era. muscles = beauty

>>40949336
detransition then

>>40949313
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/SHxrVpJ0sjI

>>40949362
what's lifting got to do with gender?

>>40949336
You wanna be my gf

>>40949412
no that's gay

>>40949482
why

mm4mm

>>40949502
sorry but i'm for cis cock and muscle butt only

>>40949530
o sorry

I have tastefully small femboyish tits

sex with uzi

agreed
i'd destroy that they/themussy

ffs will save me

i want to live out my aap yaoi fantasies but nobody gets it

good kid, m.o.d.e.r city

there is no place for yaoimoders like us

I have uncomfortably large and conical trailer park trash milf milkers

>>40949941
Post

popped a xan now i'm feelin like Jordan Peterson

Can you really hide your boobs with a sports bra?

>>40949968
dead?

>>40949976
its just a bit of gyno

sucks that i don't deserve love. oh well need to learn to get used to it

>>40949976
no you need a binder
even that doesn't work very well for me

just buy a bra

>>40949984
go sully some other website you evil rat

i look like a catamite and i have aap

>>40950121
me too

imagining cute scenarios again award

sodomite > catamite

>>40950050
fuck off

>>40950167
lmao?? repper

>>40950182
no I'm a manmoder

I am the Fred Phelps of manmoding

let someone close to me take their anger and frustrations out on me again award

>>40950195
then get a bra

>>40950209
why

>>40950262
because is better than binding??

>>40950290
but it doesn't compress breasts

manmoders should be forced to get top surgery

>>40950502
you have a lot of hate in you

>>40950505
it's for their own good

thats fine im a honmoder

manmoders should be forced to get breast implants

decisions to make tomorrow

should i take hrt

does anyone have the methschizo/moistschizo/shotaschizo/cutieschizo wig pics from when xe was smoking meth with mado from /mtfg/?

>>40950794
do it faggot

>>40951136
what if i'm 30 and stupid

>>40951150
I was the same when I started, now I'm 36 and stupid but I have tits

>>40951161
how do you hide them

>>40951161
how much hrt do you have btw
i only have a few vials

do you guys put prog up your butt?

is it possible to cut your tits off at home i dont want to be a tranny any more

i was supposed to be a woman its not even up for debate
they thought i was going to be a girl before i was born and then i came out as an xy rapist but growing up i still thought i was a girl and i liked all the girl things and all my friends were girls and even when puberty hit and my self was annihilated i was still a limpwristed faggot failed male
and i pleaded with the ppl around me to let me transition but i couldnt till i was in my 20s and now im a fucking horrific looking castrato rapebeast
am i allowed to cry about it? am i allowed to say that it wasnt fair that my chance at womanhood and by extension entire fucking life was stolen from me?
all i can ever think is "it wasnt supposed to be this way" and i know thats going to be the last thought i ever have when the muzzles against my temple and i pull the trigger

Transitioning is so dumb if you know you won't pass. But I like hrt so fuck.

>>40951473
what does hrt even do
pls convince me to actually inject it at 30

>>40951525
Makes skin and hair soft. Lowers aggression. Grows small boobs. I'm 36 and went back on them. Lower dosage this time. Some of my anxiety and back pain linked to anxiety went away

>>40951573
i'm worried my anxiety or aggression would actually increase on hrt
>Lower dosage this time.
did you get your levels checked

>>40951636
Well my new doc says under the tongue is a lower dosage because it hits you harder. I was doing that with the normal dose last time. I'm going to request to switch to shots in November when I get my blood test.

>>40951677
sublingual is a pain because you have to do it like 3 times a day i thought

>>40951685
Just twice.

>>40951691
are you taking 4mg a day?

>>40951701
2mg. Starter dose I assume

>>40951708
yeah i just thought you were doing more since you restarted
i'm going straight to injections

>>40951636
>worried my anxiety or aggression would actually increase on hrt
both did for me and i've been going insane for a while

>>40951722
its a big fear of mine
how bad did it get for you and did you learn to cope

>>40951740
nta but ive been on hrt for a year and ive never felt worse in my life, relative to being dissociated prehrt and feeling nothing at all
im always suicidal, anxious to the point of physical pain, and constantly on the edge of panic from both external stressors and from ocd bdd shit since i cant be a woman
ive gone thru therapy and tried medication but nothing has helped me cope. i rawdog every day hoping it gets better because if i quit estrogen i will 100% kill myself (i tried many times before)
of course ymmv. hrt helps plenty of people i think im just very very unlucky

>>40951740
i burned all my bridges w everyone and spirled into drugs and sh for a while
i'm more stable now that i'm working towards something and have someone to vent too but i think moving to injections/mono helped a lot since my AA was kinda raping me too

>>40951781
i'm kinda worried about doing that
i guess i'm ok with burning the bridge with my family in the long run but in the short run it would hurt
as for burning the bridge with my employer i like getting paid

got drunk and had a crash out yesterday. I should not be allowed to access the internet or leave my house.

>>40940749 (OP)
none of us will ever escape

>>40949976
probably not if you actually have big ones but they help me hide my stupid pointy cones

i actually hate my body so fucking much
i can't imagine not wanting to kill yourself because of how you look some people are handed fucking everything

starving myself as if its going to make my skull any smaller

>>40951795
just keep it contained to friends
but if it happens it’ll hit too hard for you to control anyways

I turned myself into a tranny, Morty! Boom! Big reveal: I'm a tranny. What do you think about that? I turned myself into a tranny! W-what are you just staring at me for, bro? I turned myself into a pickle, Morty!
>And?
"And"? What more do you want tacked on to this? I turned myself into a tranny, and 9/11 was an inside job?
>Was it?
Who cares, Morty? Global acts of terrorism happen every day. Uh, here's something that's never happened before: I'm a tranny. I'M TRANNY RIIIICK!!

How can one even BE a tranny, like how does nature even have this bug? Or is it a feature?
Seriously fucking annoying shit.

kino der toten

> be me
> tranny faggot
> it's over

i have nothing to live for except the thought of surgeries that i am years away from affording that may not even help
i can't go another day with this face it hurts so bad

You should try to stop focusing on things you can’t change (right now)
You have plenty of time

>>40953004
i don't have time, i'm 27, i'm going to die of old age within the next 3 years

yay

lets talk about something positive

what do you guys do for work!

im unemployed

i get yelled at (retail)

>>40951473
> get on hrt
> doesnt pass
> forced to manmode
> terribly depressed and sad

> not on hrt
> t continues to ruin you more and more
> terribly depressed and sad

this is the hand we're dealt ig

at least getting on hrt prevented me from kms but this whole ordeal sucks

do you think my feminized appearance is making it harder for me to get a job in traditionally masculine fields

i watched moonlit winter yesterday and now im having a minor crash out about being a manmoder

fuck, im nothing more than an hrt repper

ffs will save me

why does reddit keep showing me bald men who shave their heads

youre so bald

im so ugly

I'm a translator

>>40940749 (OP)
hi

>dont smoke weed
>feel good
>smoke weed
>feel awful
i wish i could fix this

>>40953571
just don't smoke weed?

>>40953449
hi

on september 6th let's all go to mcdonald's and ask why i am so bald
the look on the workers face will be awesome!

im not bald though

i am also bald thoughever

i have lots of hair on my head
and my face and my chest and stomach and back and ass and shoulders and arms and legs and knuckles and toes

when does body hair growth top out
im trying to gauge if my hair has actually gotten thinner or if im just delusional

>>40953897
3 months? idk

>>40953831
it didn't for me

i get suicidal whenever i feel bloated

>>40954106
whenever im suicidal i do things that make me feel bloated
but being bloated also makes me.suicidal

i guess i really am bisexual
too bad i’m tired of sex now and it doesn’t matter to me anymore

>>40954503
samsara

i can haz cummies?

I wonder if I'm just a boymoder sometimes

IMMUGLY

are you really?

is anyone here actually a boymoider

>>40955240
all the boymoders in here are too delusional to realize they are

i'm a moidmoider

gay chud

>>40953054
I'm already ruined. I'm peak masculine

ok it's not over

I feel like I've lost all my friends and the only people left are people who view me as a sex object

do manmoders put themselves down as men to find dates or what like how do i do online dating

>>40955605
lmaooo nobody tell her

i know someone that looks like that!

>>40955611
rude :(

is the secret that im forever alone now?

>>40955644
yes sorry nona :(
you prob attract chasers and if youre sufficiently autistic you can hon out and be a transbian but otherwise this is it forever

>>40955605
don't listen to that other anon, you can still pull gay guys just fine :)

>>40955655
hmm
>>40955696
i choose to believe you

okay but genuinely how are you supposed to deal with the manboobs? surely any gay guy would be disgusted at the sight, not even mentioning being on hrt at all

>>40955858
hrt does nothing though

>>40955858
IT'S CALLED GYNECOMASTIA AND IT AFFECTS 35% OF MEN

i may have to date trans men exclusively

it's ok to fuck fish
because they don't have any feeeelings

>>40953195
> ffs will save me
> pio will save me
> prog will save me
> ...

not that im making fun of you, bc im in the same boat but yknow ToT

>>40955956
mocking me

>>40955978
deserved desu

>>40953747
only if we all also pay in lioncash
>:3

nothing will save me

>>40952228
hey unc, what's that syringe full of testosterone doing hanging over you?

>>40951264
yes erry night unless I'm lazy then I swallow it but I worry it metabolizes into allopregnanolone or something so I try not to

>>40951169
I gave up on that lol

wore a tight t-shirt yesterday with my boobs showing a nice silhouette while walking around the city.
nobody gave a shit, end of story.

I want to fatmaxx but I know that the fat will come back in the male places because fat cells take 10 years to die

the day i get called unc i think i will genuinely cry

>>40956084
based
being a man with tits and soft skin is alright

would it be weird to try and date a theyfab if im not at all attracted to women

>>40956112
every day i don't get called grandpa i sleep with a smile :D

>>40956146
call me weird or something but if you like them maybe you'll learn to like their body

>>40956169
that’s a promising angle for conversion therapy

im back transvestite brosx

>>40956778
stop using that word, we're literally not that itt

CaLl Me GrAnDmA

>>40956819
not the thread

>>40956820
you call yourselves men ergo...

I am my own husband

>>40940749 (OP)
new >>40956895

>>40956258
nah, just demisexual things...

>>40956855
and? I'm not crossdressing I just have boobs

>>40957097
can i feel them?
i just love touching hard masculine men :D