Thread 40945501

QOTT: What are your thoughts on the coordinated, widespread attacks against trans rights and acceptance that are happening right now?
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I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

>>40945501 (OP)
This too shall pass.

Been hrt repping for 2.5 years now. Literally nothing changed.
Not gonna stop because I will go bald like my father.

>>40945607
you fell for the meme. no refunds.

>>40945501 (OP)
i wish rightoids died

>>40945501 (OP)
Ranma made me trans unironically

>>40945566
>And there's nothing I can do about it

That's my mantra for life. Like I'll say "This X,Y,Z sucks and I wish it were different......but there's nothing I can do about it"

>>40945533
me too. we all do. still hoping i will wake up one day as one due to quantum mustical mumbo jumbo... but am not schizo enough rn to low key belive... need to work on inducing schizo... like 5days before i pick up pack of drugs and dont feel like doin dxm... remember those times when i blasted nutmeg everyday meditated too and checked everyday in mirror if i started turning into a girl and for few days i was... but something went wrong... for reals wish it was that easy....
easiest englishvspeaking countries ti get into for extended time and get housing and physiotherapy related job? been thinking for awhile about trooning for reals... but cant in pooland near family and likes... also how to anonymoisly ask chat gpt or other ai for guidance? herd they them ais might call cops or some shit on you? use tor maybe?

>>40945501 (OP)
It's depressing but this whole world is rotten and doomed to be fair.

>>40945501 (OP)
>widespread attacks against trans rights and acceptance
this is going to sound evil but it makes the option of transitioning less appealing so im sorta glad... it sucks that trans people are used as a scapegoat and distraction as we are all being repeatedly raped by billionaires.

>>40945501 (OP)
I'm really tired of being called a degenerate groomer by a cabal of moloch-worshipping pedophiles

>>40945607
avoid fats like plague, especially pufas with worst being fish oil. look up ppar gamma connection with androgenic aloplecia. scalp bacteria eating sebum excretes shit that is vasoconstrictory. hupoxia increases dht formation, so does ppar gamma agonism. worse they make local skin hypersensitive to insulin making it soak glucose which in presence of significant androgen (locally excessive in most on western diet) gets shoved into androgen dependent polyol pathway. chuds are right aboud sneed oils but butters ae no good either. also avoid fructose due to its effect on shbg and atherosclerosis. forbreal greasy fish is the worst. fucked corners of mu hairline in 6 months terribly. horror it was. bit dumped fish and its been stablefor like 12 years now. also eat flavonoids n shiet as these decrease sebum. tea is good. pepper even more so.

>>40945501 (OP)
>QOTT: What are your thoughts on the coordinated, widespread attacks against trans rights and acceptance that are happening right now?
the idea that more people who could have had happy fulfilling lives are gonna be forced to end up like me makes me extremely depressed.
the fact that I can't go anywhere on the internet without hearing people rant about how evil dysphoric people are is also just really stressful

im taking the anti androgens but i would never ever ever ever ever troon out i promise

>repgen
>look inside
>"reppers" that are literally transitioning and talking about HRT

>>40945501 (OP)
Most of it is thanks to women

>>40945729
this is mostly due to the youngshit epidemic in my opinion, every other gen is filled with passoids so this has sadly become the trve kvlt manmoder/repper mishmash general

>>40945729
been thinking about starting some repper hrt regime. perhaps estrogen, topical ralox on nips and ostarine to keep strength to not be seen as some pussyfaggot? should end up withbprettybou andro face, dat ass but no boob or strength loss?

i wish i could transition

>>40945729
I keep telling them to gtfo but they have remained a vocal and obnoxious minority
stolen valor niggas need to go back to mmg

i've been hrt repping for nine months at this point i wouldn't go back to dry repping
it was sort of a new years resolution and it's crazy to think it will soon be a full year of hrt repping

>>40945786
congrats on 9 months of manmoding anon, now GET OUT

>>40945501 (OP)
>qott
kinda paranoid, weirdly guilty. but i'm paranoid most of the time anyway
the kicker is knowing there's very little i can do about it, whether helping to stop things going further or getting out of dodge if things cross a tipping point
to be honest i wouldn't want to disappoint my mum more than i already have, trooning would be bad enough for me as is but knowing she'd just view me as some kind of freakish, dangerous creature of lust if i went through with it just kinda hurts to think about (considering i'm mainly refusing to an hero because she'd be mindfucked by it)
i just wish, more than anything, that i was in a position to do more to help. can't shake this idea that in 40 years i'll be seen as having let it happen or something, like people sort of view german civilians in the 30s as. but then i'm not in a position to leave (in either sense of the word) and its just like. okay
idk i don't think i could do the whole apathy thing in good conscience and it's just. i should be doing more
people will look back on me as a guilty party for benefitting from this by not being thrown into camps or whatever and that's just... strangely soulcrushing. albeit probably not inaccurate
this doesn't make any sense i'm sorry it's unclear

>>40945814
silence dry repper. i've been here longer than you and will still be here long after you troon out

>>40945501 (OP)
qott: feels bad because I would probably be out by now if not. they should stop imo
>>40945729
ikr. it is funny that there are a bunch of people whose unironic plan is to be a man with tits for the rest of their life. not saying i've got it figured out but that seems to so obviously lead to transition idk why you'd keep up the repper bit

>hrt repping
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/lvTQHZev_QY

this thread stinks with hostility towards hrt reppers. why are you hating on people for repping slightly differently to you?
you don't see posts where hrt reppers are hating on dry reppers. maybe if you tried hrt repping you wouldn't be so angry at other reppers?

>>40945887
Because when you're a repper your identity is built on self-denial. Taking HRT is being less in self-denial and honestly you're manmoding and might even be boymoding soon, which people are jealous of.

>>40945887
i just think taking hrt and still insisting on never socially transitioning is actually braindead
if it's so bad you have to take your pills it'd almost certainly be better for you to just transition. me personally, i'll be fine

>>40945929
I completely understand manmoding actually, but it simply isn't the same thing as repping

Now I know how women must feel when trannies invade their bathrooms woman only hostels and woman only prisons.

>>40945929
>if it's so bad you have to take your pills it'd almost certainly be better for you to just transition
you are correct. however my appliance makes social transition difficult and people treat unpassing trannies bad. so i manmode. and you all should too
t. nta

>>40945924
>when you're a repper your identity is built on self-denial
sincerely i disagree because people rep for different reasons
some rep because they don't want to be an ugly tranny. some rep because of circumstances. some rep because of an ideological stance
if people rep for different reasons it's logical that people will rep in different ways

>>40945999
Your motivations don't change that you are denying your self, anon.

>>40945944
idk it's just semantics anyway and it's not like there are enough people here to get mad and purity test. i do just think the mentality of taking hrt / transitioning never feels like a particularly way to split yourself that i feel bad for
>>40945983
>my appliance makes social transition difficult
have you tried getting a new one?
>>40945971
i really don't think that's true

>>40946037
>minor spelling mistake made worse by auto correct

>>40946037
>idk it's just semantics anyway
it's literally not
MEDICALLY TRANSITIONING is not the same thing as repressing

Hons and feminists flew directly into the sun, jumped the gun and made all of the publics sympathy (what little there was) dissapear. Now they hate us. Its like that norm macdonald joke about Portland not being racist because there's no black people there.

>>40946104
if you drink alcohol to help you repress how is that any different to taking hrt to help you repress?

>>40946196
My dick works the next day

>>40946190
Cis women always hated you, but you know it's never strictly been about you being trans either.

>>40945607
You can just take finstride

>>40946190
there was never any real trans acceptance right wingers believed the corpo lip service that every faggot already knew was transparently bullshit. trans rights never "went too far" republicans just saw it as an easy target.

tfw detrans dry repper
manmoders aren't reppers imo

make me into a (real) woman NOW

>>40946196
>if you jump on a trampoline to be less bored at your house how is that any different to driving a car to get to work?

I didn't want to be one of those guys that trooned out because I was a failed male. So I focused on embracing masculinity. I didnt want to be one of those guys who was bicurious because he couldn't get any pussy so I focused on losing my virginity to a woman. Succeeding at these things did not help

>>40946569
many such cases. unfortunately cis people will not stop suggesting those things as a "cure" for gd

>>40945885
>repping
>valor
nigga, you for real? if anything repping is cowardly pussy way. especially with just using only antiandrogens, especially milder like fin. full on hard repping is not as much as less cowardly but more braindead or masochistic even.

>>40946653
I've been in the trenches mahhh nigga, take that uniform off

>>40945644
I absolutely loved it (and other GB anime/manga) so much growing up, it's what first got me into anime though not the other way around.
it's a shame I was too retarded to do anything meaningful with my feelings when I had the chance and just expected to grow out of this

I'm dealing with an earthbound spirit named samantha who keeps bothering me. How do I banish her? Any trannies into the occult who can give me some info? Apparently she hates that I repress, not even making this shit up

Not sure if I should ask here or /x/ tbqh

>>40946849
/x/ would be better but try the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram.

>>40946569
>I didn't want to be one of those guys that trooned out because I was a failed male.
>I didnt want to be one of those guys who was bicurious because he couldn't get any pussy so I focused on losing my virginity to a woman.
>Succeeding at these things did not help

In the end you're supposed to live out your existence as a woman as if you are those things, according to the LGBT community

>>40946849
sent her to me, naybe she will help me with getting away and troonin... sick of this shit but i feel time is running out and thought of living whole life as a man without at least few years as youngish woman even if presentable semihon is really crushing... cant get it out of mind since last birthday, as now getting financially better (got rid of most of debt i got thanks tobretarded grandma and schizofuck nasty uncle) it got nagging...

>>40947285
Earthbound spirits don't really "help" anyone. They just sap your energy and make you feel like shit. You're basically a punching bag for all their unresolved emotional problems.

And sometimes they just attach to you and never, ever leave.

I think I need to leave this board. It's too fucked up. I think it only hurts people mentally.

>>40945729
deceitful groomer pinkpillers? in MY general?

>>40945501 (OP)
Entirely the fault of insane trannies and those who encouraged them. Defending rapists and WAX MY BALLS types and making a big deal about them being misgendered in jail and whatever, what do you expect.
And next up is gay marriage getting repealed, thanks a bunch you self absorbed lunatics

>>40947469
>I'm one of the good ones
See you in the camps nigger.

>>40947476
please i need them to make camps so i can finally die please

>>40946196
It’s called manmoding

If you're eating ice cream is it Man a la moding?

I feel really disgusted by the idea that I'm supposed to be proud of my dick. I literally have hangups about being too big lol

>>40945501 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

>>40947792
i have a small dick and it has honestly never bothered me in the slightest
on the other hand my height or the width of my shoulders makes me want to cry

>>40947904
it seems like most of the "reppers" here already are

>>40947904
then what? half of us are manmoders

>>40947792
cage until you atrophy

can't even tell repgen to take their hrt anymore. game's gone

omg guys i malefailed constantly today!! i'm such a silly little hrt repper :3

>>40947904
you probably told this mf to take hrt too. blood is on your hands.

>>40947995
i need to self immolate

>>40947995
BVILT

I mail failed (Didn't get my letter)

>>40947923
It's just when I have to listen to guys doing their dumb fucking status symbol dick measuring contests I feel like I just want to get rid of mine. It's like I'm not allowed to be into guys with smaller ones even though I am and I really don't care that much and I don't have that kind of worldview

>>40948017
I shouldn't have laughed

I'll never be trans because I'm very much concerned with the size of my cock (rip it atrophied on hrt)

>>40947904
make me

i hate being a male submissive bottom

>>40948208
hot

forcefeming submissive reppers

>>40948397
That is what they want.

>>40948413
Which is why it will never happen.

>>40948397
now we're just doing gooner fantasies lmao

>>40948397
ngl i often fantasize about being gently "forced" or in a way nudged/allowed with push to to troon

>>40948427
femrepper who forcefems me because she gets off to the idea of a male being more feminine than her

>>40948397
probably my biggest fantasy and also the one i find most shameful

>>40948208
>>40948427

The problem is also all of the expectations that come with it just all of the stereotyping and objectification.

>>40948427
Yes. Want Renamon to top me then cuddle me in bed.

znaturalizujce mnie prosze

>>40948397
>>40948427
>>40948441
>>40948443
>>40948459
>>40948477

>>40946849
>get into an altered state of consciousness (high as shit, deep meditation, overwhelming pain/elation/sadness/anger, etc)
>while in this state of mind, decide on a (very much arbitrary) ritual and verbally imply that doing it will influence reality a certain way (for example, saying "i will cast you out in YHWH's name, unclean spirit!" and then spend a couple of hours repeatedly reading the psalms while walking around the place this spirit shows up the most often)
>after this, you should feel exhausted and possibly dissociated. go hug a pet or something and move on with your life, try to not obsess over this.
>profit
thank me later.

>>40948542
Yea no this kind of fucked up shit is just repfuel

>>40945729
if it makes you feel better i'll probably be rounded up and sent to the conversion camp for taking it

>>40948632
this

why don't the reppers just forcefem each other

>>40948632
its not actually real you silly billy

>>40948685
If reppers had balls they wouldn't be reppers.

>>40948443
need this

>>40948397
I would fold so easily if someone did this to me irl, which would be bad because unfortunately I'm a repper for a reason

>>40948397
please why won't someone do this to me?

>>40946849
earthbound mentioned

>>40948397
why do i need this so badly? why do i lack the agency to do it myself? why do i need the plausible deniability of someone forcefeming me?

>>40948698
this. :( you need to grow valls first ri get them cut out...

:p

restocked on enough alcohol to last the whole weekend, bye guys I'm gonna go be temporarily not miserable

my agp cope porn is making me sad instead of helping again

For those of you that need to know this. Women also have to shower before sex to not smell

>>40950407
showering wouldn't be so bad if I was in a body that wasn't gross to see naked

>>40950204
zdrowie! get soundtrack to this too. remember these times when i came home with backpack full of rotgus and was alternating between sobbing to music and sperging on /tttt/... currently not drinking and waiting for pay so i will get some crypto and buy some (alot) druggos. drinking is not best as thickens waist and reddens face. its mostly vanity that made me stop desu.

will hrt give me a female skull and female bone structure and female body proportions and a functioning pussy and a voice typical of a woman and make the pain stop asking for a friend

Take hrt and the desire to transition goes away. Realize I'm just a loser

Feeling 0 dysphoria recently, but on the other hand I feel extremely ashamed about everything I've been through. Well, no one was there to enlighten me, I had to overcome everything alone, so I'm able to forgive myself. I always found gender ideology to be somewhat arrogant and stupid and I only cared about aesthetics. But now I see that even the passoids look uncanny up close.

>>40951620
looking uncanny really isn't that bad when you consider the alternative

thinking too much again, time for another cerveza

>>40948698
good thing i got my balls removed so i can still post here

anyone else take estrogen but repress being a bottom. i never want to have sex in real life, its too degrading

maybe i can cope by being a flaming homosexual ; )

>>40951836
me im 23 and i will probably never be physically intimate with another human being bc brainworms

>>40951798
lucky
they're so nasty I hate mine
you can't post here though

>>40951975
same

>>40951991
i'm sorry :( it's rly nice being flatter down there i hope u can get rid of urs in the future

also im a 2y hrt repper let me be. stop the persecution of hrt reppers !!

>>40951836
yeah, I can relate but I know it's just internalised homophobia or toxic masculinity and the shame of someone seeing my body in that position.
I could get over it and I really regret fumbling a tranny top who was into me over it tbhon

guys stop bullying hrt reppers ill cry because estrogen has made me emotional

where is babydollanon

>>40952189
i also turned down an opportunity for that same thing. ive just accepted it though. i dont have the drive to put in the effort to bottom, and i dont think i would feel safe giving my body like that to someone i didnt trust deeply. im not cute enough for it anyway.
i wish i could kill my sexuality and never be bothered by it again.

I can't transition because I've already had top surgery from trying to earlier in life

>>40951963
ehh... its just not the same. the more fem i am the more fem i want to be. i try to act as masc as possible to keep the girl feels away.

i don't need to transition, i can just live through and skinwalk all the tgirls i follow on twitter before i kill myself

>>40948602
I think I was able to make her leave by begging her to go into the light and move on. I hope to God she took my advice.

>>40945501 (OP)
qott: i think american republicans are unequivocally evil and that i need to get the fuck out of this country as soon as i possibly can

also i'm killing myself within a week

asphyxiation

it's just a matter of which day

some people dream of doing great things and sometimes theyre even brilliant enough to change the entire world
meanwhile my only aspiration is to not be in immense pain and discomfort at all times

>>40952385
in a way i get it but then there is too hard rep zone which causes hard rebound. being harsh on yourself is especially bad. like mental attemts at killing it or "her" within you... just dont. or you will end up hysterical and wull need to calm down

>>40952621
just take hrt and manmode until ffs

>>40952676
i am

>>40952680
hey so you aren't me and replying to someone without indicating that you aren't the person the other was replying to is weird

anyways, i don't really see much point in it when i've been depressed for so long and haven't done anything productive with my life. i just cannot envision anything going well for me because of my history of not doing anything for ages at a time. i just want to end it before i waste any more of anyone's time, money, and patience

>>40952724
>i just cannot envision anything going well for me because of my history of not doing anything for ages at a time
sigh... how does one becomes doer instead of whiner? answer might save us...

>>40948542
i just remembered how old this fucking image is, i think i first saw it like 12 years ago

I HATE WOMEN

>>40952724
same anon, its so brutal because i want to do all these things and then i remember i havent done anything actually useful or productive in almost a decade and im not likely to start now. my own personality fucks me over every time

>>40952786
i love women. i get along better with them socially.

>>40953053
gross ass flamer

I just want the BODY of a woman. That's pretty much it. Big boobies and a fat ass that my husband smacks. Is that so wrong?

>>40952676
just kill yourself holyfuck lol

>>40953104
nah, men are tryhards, women just have their gossip and cattiness at times. also depends on type of men, blue collars would be rather bad, smarter occupations rather okayish on average.

>>40953133
I will after ffs tbhon but that's my shining light at the end of the road

taking hrt is fucked up because it softens my face and i start to feel kinda like a twink and i like it but then i remember it also gave me tits so now im too weird to be a cute guy and way too masculine to look good as a woman

>>40945501 (OP)
>AGP has taken over
>all my fantasies are me as a troon bottoming for a man
>5’5”
>in shape
>if I transitioned I’d be a very late transitioner (not Susan’s place though)
>despite age I could still pass since I pass when I would get dolled up

What can I do? I’ve tried dating people and the AGP just comes back and ruins the relationship. I lose attraction to the person and in the end just realize I want to be a tranny.

I wish I could transition but I'm 6' with wide shoulders and a strong back

>>40948397
god i wish that were me

>>40953104
im not even gay (some minor meta attraction but i can't imagine myself being with a man unless i was female)

im gonna hrt twink genderfuck max i think. i feel so satisfied looking in the mirror and looking kinda androgynous even if i know ill never pass ever. fuck it

what was your experience in school? i was in an all boys private catholic school and hid in the bathroom a lot

>>40953558
i know what you mean. two masculine guys together is repulsive. it literally triggers a disgust reaction in me
a few things help me though. being an hrt repper. growing my hair long and looking after it properly. learning how to do some basic make up
femboying it up and letting a man do what he wants with me is one of the few things that relieves dysphoria and let's me continue to repress

>>40953789
i used to play the piano so i was allowed to practice at lunch breaks. that music room was my sanctuary

>>40953789
why do asian men pass even as asian women

repgen has gone man

>>40953789
Asian men are BVILT for BWC

12 months I lasted this time until the inevitable "stay holed up in bed for a week from feels" kicked back in again. It's slowly getting longer and longer before "blow my brains out" fantasies kick in... so I guess that's a positive? Still completely incapable of living a normal ass life though, and the very best I can hope for is finding a little bit of comfymax through online RP, other terminally online activities.

:p

I spotted some near passoids who were taller than me recently. Sights like that make repping a real chore.

>>40954219
height matters less than your build tbhon

She's a brick
Da na na na
HON

Saw the most gorgeous Eastern European woman. Long blonde hair, ponytail, short, cute voice

I want to be her I want to be her I want to be her why cant I be her why cant I be her kill me kill me let me die please

>>40954279
It helps that they were with some real women that were that tall too

Do I buy a bunch of sissy clothes (again) and spend a couple of day dressing up before i feel repulsed by my existence and bin them and cry?

>>40954733
I do that with make up sometimes

good morning and happy college football saturday

>>40954733
what do you mean by sissy clothes? just normal female clothing or like fetish stuff?

>>40954840
>just normal female clothing
This... but I'm a man....

>>40954862
yeah why not? i wear women's jeans and stuff all the time

AGP crossdresser interview a lot of people here could probably relate to https://youtu.be/p7uXL4wlruE?si=3UAs9Sp_jrN0fEGK

>>40945501 (OP)
The diaper threads are gone cause we are scared of public perception. That's how bad it's gotten

should i take hrt to avoid balding

i want my 20s back

>>40955349
Just take finstride

>>40955349
yes, then become my wife

I want to transition I don't care if I don't pass I don't care anymore
but the world has gotten too scary, too hateful

>>40955503
I don't think most people will bother you just out of the inconvenience it may cause them but yeah, it's an unfortunate time

CHINESE GOVERNMENT ARGUES SECURITY CAMS ARE OFFENSIVE

>>40955393
yeah

>>40955427
what if i want to be a woman
>>40955444
i'm too ugly for that but what kind of girls are you into

My face is so fucking ugly. My body might have hope but this fucking face.

>>40955791
opposite really. I need ffs for sure but I could and have decided people with angle fraud photography so there's promise I guess?
that said I'm a 6'2 ogre with an asymmetrical ribcage and forward jutting neck

>>40955791 #
opposite really. I need ffs for sure but I could and have deceived people with angle fraud photography so there's promise I guess?
that said I'm a 6'2 ogre with an asymmetrical ribcage and forward jutting neck

>>40953789
I basically just spent the whole time disassociating from reality until it was over. It was pretty lonely, I was never bullied I just ignored everyone and they ignored me.

>>40954907
I've never crossdressed before in my entire life

need a new cope. starting to get really numb to the self-hatred even when being as hard with it as i can lol
i know i already have low emotional affect or whatever it is idk but atp all the self-berating sessions are only making my chest hurt (which i took as an improvement at first but now it doesn't do anything but that which sucks)
tried bruising myself repeatedly while doing it a few times but it's not really helped at all (annoying really i'd have thought it'd help but no dice)
>noooo you're going to give yourself a heart attack or something stopppp
have heard this a couple of times before tbdesu, i'd genuinely be interested to know if it's true considering it'd be really funny to die of a heart attack from hating myself too much lmao

i'm going to try hrt. good night and good luck, repbros.

>>40956087
<3

>>40955936
I think a stroke is more likely, which you obviously wouldn't want to survive. Actually, a stroke could cure your dysphoria - people can entirely change after brain trauma like that.

i cured my hrt repper gf's dysphoria by bruising her ass and accidentally inducing a stroke

>>40956189
thats dumb and could never happen, if anything if thats your only hope wouldnt hitting your head or something intentional better?

>>40955690
Well that's not possible

>>40956248
it could happen but yeah, you'll probably just be functionally retarded or paralyzed or something. Read up on it, people can have their entire personality change

abusing your ex repper gf after you forcefemed them and you're envious they pass

everyone wants to forcefem you as a repper until they find out you're not a twink that already looks like a girl

what would happen to your penis if you were balls deep in Ranma's pussy and you spilled hot water on him?

>>40956467
Real. Like we are repping for a reason

>>40956488
sounding

making your repper bf cry by calling him cute when he's wearing his amazon basics japanese schoolgirl outfit

>>40956467
im a twink but i dont look like a girl

>>40956517
penis in penis?

>>40945607
>>>/lgbt/omg/

>>40956604
i've seen it
it was beautiful.
the receiving party not so much :/

>>40948542
reading that gave me a euphoria boner

:p

:^)

I desisted hrt hoping I go bald so I can never entertain transitioning again

>>40956189
hm yeah that's probably not ideal being a physical burden on my immediate family is probably like the one thing worse to me than the idea of trooning lol
>>40956248
>hitting your head
i can confirm very mixed results, if only because i used to slam my head against walls all the time as a kid and the brain damage i got as a result of it doesn't seem to have fixed anything
weirdly i suppose that brings up the question of whether tranny shit started coming up before or after the brain damage but it was before (according to family testimonials at least i remember basically nothing before the age of like 17)
i will admit i was a really badly severe autist back then though. and like i can actually mostly function now so i suppose some good might have come of the whole brain damage thing. but really all i can confirm i got from it were really dilated pupils all the time

can we kill man*** general?

>>40957406
i will not allow it!
marry me and stuff so i can make sure you don't do such stupid things!!
>>40957456
idk? *shrug*

>>40957481
I didn't pass on hrt

>>40957406
In my late 30s now and the Norwood has hit me like a fucking truck. It's not completely gone, but another 3-6 months and it will be. You can still cope with wigs btw. Not me, I'm dying like this.

>>40957582
I really didn't expect how fast it would happen. One day I was a beautiful twink. The next Norwood 2

>>40957611
iktf iktf

Pray we get character customization in the next life.

>>40957554
let's talk on discord and you posting pics for me to decide?
jk ofc

and... i mean i'm really joking and will never get on discord again.

>>40957437
>because i used to slam my head against walls all the time
did that too left bloodstains few times... does nothing, not even proper headache was given. duh. i toobremember littlenof past. afaik i wore mom heels as very little everyday then at like 3 years i stopped eating and nearly died, had ed of neing very picky eater for years after, was unrulyvas 5-7 uears and was given antipsychotics, later bevame religilis retard thanks to retard grandpa... then started drugs (at beginning it was duster everyday from 14 yo) and transcendental mediataton, lucid dreams and went nuts. its been blur, madness prolly not far from madhouse i was... seeing slit pupils on people and thinking that lizardmen are after me.... blamed masculinization on reptilians... nail to coffin was that i onve mediatayed and asked who is fesponsible for bad stuff/matrix and saw seven lizardmen standing in circle, and few weeks or months later found info about them on internets. mind=blown... telepathically comminicated with goddess and shiet, huffed duster everyday and did 900mg of dxm at weekends and even during schoolweek not that rarely... was too schizo for mu good...

:^)

>>40957727
post disc
>>40957737
oh...

>>40957975
my tag is norwood11

Least mentally ill general on /Lgbt/

>>40957975
you wouldn't like me anyway, not even i do lol :D
all my disc "friends" hate me so much right now, and so on... ;_;
>>40957989
cringe!

i'm genuilnely like 50 yo soon. not mentally, but eh, disgustingly? idk... :O

>namefag groomer
many such cases

>>40958060
will you groom me i missed out when i was a teenager

>>40958087
where are the groomers please i need

grooming a repper must be so annoying

>you wake up dizzy and feeling weird.
>you drag yourself out of bed and peer into the nearest mirror, revealing that overnight (somehow) you transformed into your desired body.
>there's a note stuck in the mirror. It reads "i did the body transformation thing, but i was too weak to alter the past. as far as the world and the goverment is concerned, your old self vanished and you suspiciously popped up in his place (good luck lmao)"
>you check your documents, and they all have stayed the same. the new you has legally no identity now, and nobody will believe you if you tell them who you once were.
what do you do?

>>40958216
piss myself

>>40958216
Just be happy. Don't need to fix everything first thing in the morning

I would just like to say: there is a way out. I remember being in these threads years ago obsessing over transition. If you're here, resisting these thoughts by your own volition, you're probably not trans. Trans people actually know what they are, and wouldn't fight the idea of being the opposite sex. That is what you need to understand. If you keep calling yourself a "repper" and posting on this thread you will never ever get better, because your mindset hasn't changed. You need to stop believing that deep down you're female (you're not) and you need to get hobbies.

>>40958272
Yeah I don't believe your story because I tried that for 20 years and it didn't work.

>>40958199
We're strong enough to stubbornly live in misery and despair, we're strong enough to resist grooming. Simple as

>>40958272
I have hobbies. I go outside. I talk to people. I'm on year 17 now and every so often during my weekly period of doomfeels I come back here to cry.

>>40958216
be incredibly happy and then fake amnesia to everyone except my family

>>40958378
what if I said pretty please?

>>40958477
the only thing you can groom a repper with is de-aging pills, body modification machines or brain transfers+lifelike androids

pretty please won't cover, not even with sugar on top

It's kind of hilarious to think about. Repressing wanting to be a woman, which in itself often involves a lot of repression in our culture.

>>40958503
we live in a girlboss era lbr

>>40958272
>You need to stop believing that deep down you're female
said no repper ever. the idea that true trannies are somehow women in men's bodies is super weak because nobody defines what that even means. at best people call it the soul being misaligned or something esoteric and weightless outside of the realm of ideas, with no objective fact to back it up (if that's what you're getting into).
the best evidence for any of it is picrel, and even then it shows the tranny brain is just androgynous at best, which tracks, if you had a "manly" brain you wouldn't think of calling yourself trans in the first place. it doesn't mean trannies are actually women in some occult brain function, or that brain sex is defined somewhere in specific (if such a thing even exists).
besides, the feelings don't go away that easily, even if i know the truth that there is no "female soul" inside of me or whatever. i rep because i know i won't ever pass, and i think playing to my body's strengths will be more advantagious to me in life. i still want to be a woman every time i wake up and i don't know why, but this is alright, i guess.

>and you need to get hobbies.
this is true though

>>40958512
Total bullshit propaganda. Looking at FTMs, I don't believe that.

>>40958347
>>40958394
Not sure why your first reactions is to deny my experience. It worked for me.
>>40958528
You're right, I'm not a repper. I know I am not trans because I feel male. I have a male brain and I just used to have a mental disorder telling me that I needed to transition because I "didn't fit into the male gender". By "believing that deep down you're female", I mean believing you would fit better in the female gender and believing that if you don't transition you're living a false life and not accepting your reality.

>>40958713
Not denying your experience at all. You made some generalizations and we gave our experience that ran contrary. Glad you found a way through it though.

>>40958272
I can't le mindset myself out of intense agp/autoandrophobia

if you're reading this then you need to drink alcohol
now

>>40958791
It's nearly 1 am and alcohol makes me nauseous. Maybe tomororw

>>40958800
that's literally still early and the nausea comes later so you don't have to worry about it rn

>>40958809
tomorrow babe, tomorrow

im not womanlike or female in the slightest neither in my mind nor physically. i just dont want to grow up and be a man with all the negative associations thats all. i want to be cute, i want someone to take care of me and like me just the way i am. i want to enjoy my own appearance. i dont want to suffer any more.

>>40958962
i know the feel, that's all I've ever wanted.

I cant control the dysphoria anymore after being outed

I think I got over my tranny thoughts, and I've detransitioned, but I'm just left here wondering was I ever really trans in the first place? I don't know. But I guess no reason to dwell on it

>>40958962
I don't know. The way I see it I think women are still mentally imprisoned in their own way. Everyone is.

>>40958962
typical male desire

>>40945644
Same. Learned about it from cousins so i found it online. Fapped so hard and stayed for the story

>>40959435
>typical male desire
-siddartha gautama

Stop gooning your fucking freaks, you aren't women, you can never be women, you're a mentally ill porn addicts dman who's managed to convince himself he's "transgender"

You're a fucking disgusting stupid freak

The biggest evidence I have that repressing works is people who posted online about wanting to be a woman, and then years later they are using the same account, no longer talk about those things, seem comfortable in their masculinity, but now they are a husband and have kids. It really goes in the face of the whole John 50 narrative. There is hope for some people.

>>40952380
Indecisive much ?

>>40952396
I wish i could still date tgirls but they will notice my chest

>>40945729
this is hrt repper erasure

>>40945887
because hrt repping is fucking heaven

>>40959573
i don't think it is. i mean maybe if you are ok with being a man with boobs and broken tiny pp

>>40958216
i would start crying

I don't really have any interest in dating anyone

>>40959573
its not

>>40959596
>>40959645
fair enough

>>40959435
True.

>>40959471
The feelings predate my use of tranny porn by 11 years

>>40959471
and you'll never be a real man fgt

brb i gotta go put on a bra and jack off in the mirror after a long day at the oil rig and plowing my hot wife

>>40959785
My life is similar to this joke

ive wanted to be feminine since i was like 11 years old for some reason but 30 now so im a fake trans rapehon and i need to repress until im dead

playing video games and self inserting as female characters

>>40958791
ne. drank diainfectant at work weednesday and thorsday. drunk like a skunk. not good, but i work as ohysio but at pecuilar moldy den of drunkards and fuck ups losers and wackos. legendary place in around my city, for good and for bad.... int tuesday will pick up my 3mmc, coke and ket and on thursday ibexpect nep... there will be some schizocoping with ket... and sperging. expect to be entertained... or annoyed by me. gotbidea of using ultrasound machine to nonsurgically flatten browbone, and make feet slimmer and girlier... it is ised to treat bone spurs and can weaken bones... wonderful dangerous knowledge i have due to my trade... or it wasnt coincidence idea appeared in my mind, maybe i am walking path i was ordained niw, maybe i got even more scramblebrained.
>>40959471
weak... agp is there in spiritual aspect too, when libido shrinjs it shines bright, swueezing teras, keeping up at night, making me mad. and there is autoandrophobia thing. gooning can distract from it... fucked thing is i havent gooned with dick in like 3 years it will be be now? got some bids from taking estrogenics in past, tried touching myself north and not even whenngooning on flakka every moment i couod did my hand ventured south. had to go to work with sore nips ;/ beware of it. its like there is no going back from this.
>>40959083
if people at tour job and neighbours know then its game over for you. no returnbfrom that. i a way yoir "dishonored" forever. in our culture its offence tgat cannot be forgiven, no redemtion from that. you will never be seen as real/proper man again. might as well troon. should. or youvwill be stuck with all bad repper stuff and more than half bad tranny shit. people you know look at you. dont tell me you dont feel it in their eyes. your giga faggot to them and coward too if you keep repping.

>>40960143
derp.me. codeine/morphine and skyrim. kinda bugged by excessive violenve, but i can play it with family around without raising suspivions plusbits elder scrolls, great worldbuilding and aesthetics. for real being some altmer mage whore (hundert of years of being beautiful woman, just imagine oooh) traveling tamrielnwould be great.

around 10 years ago i was out with my dad, we saw a tranny. ofc it was a fucking 40 year old tranny who just looked like a man in little girls clothes. now i imagine him finding out im a tranny and thats what he'll think i am. every normal person thinks a tranny especially a lateshit tranny is a fucking weirdo creep lunatic. god fucking help me

>>40959573
repping is hell so hrt "reppers" do not exist confirmed

>>40960194
Im not that drunk yet I gotta catch up to you
>dishonored forevor
Luckily just my friends know, but I do still feel the awareness and the looks sometimes

Would the pleasure you would get throughout your life as a woman be better than all the pleasure you get from consuming gender-altering things and masturbating? It's a good question.

>>40960223
playing cyberpunk and realizing i would be a corpo rat in exchange for a gigapassoid body

the world-spirit has deliberately orchestrated events to make me unhappy including making me a repper

>>40960622
I started to have an anger towards the universe that reached its peak last year. I simply came to the conclusion that all the events in my life were perfectly calculated to torture me (Including me not being able to date the girl I identified with the most throughout my life, me being a repper and my best friend a passoid). It made me pretty regilious, in a bad way. Nowadays I no longer feel this revolt, I am simply apathetic.

>>40960542
This realization is the specific reason I rep

>>40960719
why

>>40958102
of course! you're the groomee in my heart!!

would a trans girl date a repper who she knows is a repper
would anyone

>>40960867
when I imagine alternate universe me who got to be a trans girl she would absolutely not date a repper lol

being drunk like this would be so much more fun if I was a woman

felt how giant my shoulders are and I wanna scream but I'm too drunk to actually care so I'm just chill with a deep sadness

>>40960729
Freedom comes from strength. White collar jobs suck

>>40960143
need to do this rn I think but I dont wanna screw up my save

>>40960143
WHY DOESN'T SKYFEM WORK AHHHHHHHH

>>40960942
trve freedom is being a neet

>>40960899
i understand

>>40960622
I'm extremely malebrained, but I can't let go of the idea of being feminine no matter how hard I try. Even though I obviously know that being a man is overall better.

>>40960942
i'd rather be a neet woman but if a company could turn me into one i'm willing to sign up
>>40960969
would you rather be a male neet or a female wagie

>>40958216
Pass out from excitement as my mind whirrs to life for the first time in years and I start imagining the utter freedom to finally start my life on my own terms.

I think being on /lgbt/ has made me way more misogynist

>>40960541
Yes? Moreover, how about the peace, relief, and sense of being able to move on? Consuming gender-bend stuff and masturbating is ego-dystonic and literally just shitty forms of coping with a shitty reality.
This is like asking "would it be better to stay a drug addict because you never escape your miserable life, or have a genuinely fulfilled life at peace."

Not that I don't get the idea a little bit like, there is a certain pull towards the darker side of life but, why is it always masturbation stuff in discussion? I do in-fact masturbate to cope, but I also do all sorts of other shit. Feeling like I'm defying God and stewing in my own wrath towards life itself and hating everything while drinking misery like wine is infinitely more addicting than masturbation. I would easily give up all things sex related for something kicking to smoke or a more fashionable struggle narrative in my mind ala "I'm literally the protag of this film" any day.

>>40960622
>>40960716
Do any of you want to form a theist anti-religion cult together. I'm looking for others to passively spill enmity towards demiurgic circumstance with. Serious offer.

>>40959503
I did try? I was trans for 4~ years

might take hrt just to reduce my libido
waking up with an erection every morning is so gross

>>40960967
try offline... ther is some weird shit with updates. also maybe try validating files. why they make it hard. all these updates are just pain in ass and i am tech-retarded. its just frusttating, especially when you planned happyvevening playing and you cant get it to run. fuck steam!
>>40961487
gnosticism is real close to jow view it since i stopped being christkek... adding some Sophia/ le divine feminine stuff to it might be good cope, just dont go full ordsr of Aphrodite heh... in few days i will have home for myself for few evenings and nights as neighbor goes on a trip cause some family baby has baptism and i will need to take care of sensotive dog... thinking abit taking some frocks with me to dress uo when high as kite...
>>40961452
pity drinking is worst in this regard, but in a way saves you from freakout sigh if not my fucked up familly burdening me financually in my 20s and not being psychotic in late teens/early tweens i would be free now.... also fuck relogion, any abrahamicnone i cannot have anything but burningnhate to these.

>>40960541
i wouldn't be a shut-in, old ass lonely balding faggot idealising death if I was a woman, so of course it would be better.

nta but there are a lot of old shut-in women too

>>40962198
maybe, but that's after 4+ decades of rampant socialization

:p

:p choosing your poison

bump

bump
fuck trannies

like Mithridates I am immune to the poisons I seek in the depths of despair
I will never transition

new thread
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