Thread 40956680

The most amazing feeling in the world is love.

If you don't have it, why don't you go find it?

Who want me

Lol

im ugly so love isnt possible

>>40956680 (OP)
You're right, thankfully I only need self love. people would just hold me back.

>>40956680 (OP)
all the boys have girlfriends, all the girls have boyfriends.
i am going to die alone

Love isn't a right, It is something that is given or received arbitrarily.

>>40956680 (OP)
I feel hideous inside and out, I fall asleep to the fantasy of falling in love with someone, but I feel like I’ve been isolated for so long that I’ve become so emotionally and socially damaged that I’d be a bad boyfriend to and guy or girl

>>40956680 (OP)
no one loves me back
>>40957926
pic goes hard, looks like an album cover

>>40956680 (OP)
some "people" can't feel the power of love. simple as. :/

>>40957940
me too do you wanna go out

If you saw my picture, you'd know why

>>40957986
no one is ugly

>>40956680 (OP)
nope its death and you will discover this soon. you lover will forget about you and so will everyone.

>>40957963
we are both too mentally ill for relationships you know this

>>40956680 (OP)
I'm a straight pooner, no love out there

>>40956680 (OP)
nobody will ever want me

>>40958002
yeah but i dont want to die never having tried

>>40958034
so true, I tried once and he left me and I regressed completely, all the healing during that time was undone and made worse, be careful anon

>>40956680 (OP)
because no one will ever understand me
every relationship ive ever been in they wanted me to "work on myself" and "get better" or whatever
they wanted to kill the real me and replace it with a soulless husk with no personality because they were too comfortable in their sheltered world and couldnt stand the thought of someone who didnt share their shallow ideal
someone who was hurt in a way that could never be fixed
what if i like being this way?
what if i want someone who loves me for who i am and me the same even if it destroys us in the end...?

>>40956680 (OP)
Because the only people who will ever love me are degen chasers who cant accept the only reason they want trans girls over real girls is because of my dick and actually theyre just gay

>>40960157
I'm a chaser despite the dick not because of it

>>40956680 (OP)
i'm too shy and retarded to know how

>>40960510
me too

>>40956680 (OP)
>The most amazing feeling in the world is love.
Incorrect. The most amazing feeling in the world is manic euphoria, and since I'm bipolar I get that for free (as long as it doesn't turn into manic irritability instead...).
I've been in love. It's nice. But "feeling so amazing that anything you do feels like a lifetime accomplishment and you literally can't remember what sadness or pain feels like" is way, way fucking better.

I should kill myself

>>40956680 (OP)
cause i'm gonna kill myself eventually lol
like it's a fact i've already completely internalized and it doesn't make me sad anymore.
i wouldn't want get somebody attached to me romanticalyl --- assuming anyone would want to love me which is a pretty big ask lmaooo --- just to end up suiciding anyway. that would be kinda selfish and mean don't you think??

I would like one (1) girlfriend please and thank you.
t. Chaser

im not capable of receiving love or giving it in a romantic way or maybe even a platonic way, anyone who wanted to love me would need to have a detached love because i dont even know myself, or whats real at all, im unpredictable and grow an insatiable rage at others and myself at the drop of a hat. i also dont want to be touched or talked to for weeks on end at my lows which also could hit me any second. sometimes im normal and rational but am i capable of making up for who i was before, when those times will keep coming again and again forever? would i even wish that on someone? i have lots of love but i dont know who to give it to or how :/

lump (love-bump)

I’m too insecure, about my weight, body hair, appearance, and personality. I am working on it by exercising and stuff. but I’m worried that all this emotional baggage will scare off anyone, I fall asleep to the idea of falling in love with a guy or girl and healing from all this self hate but part of me just always feels like I’ll bring them down

>>40956680 (OP)
I'm subhuman trash.
Not even trannies want me.

>>40956680 (OP)
Real love doesn't exist outside of fiction, so why bother?

>>40956680 (OP)
Because I'm a submissive top and women universally hate that.
I wish I was gay.

>>40956680 (OP)
because i lost it and i'm pretty damn sure it'll be rare to find someone like that again

>>40956680 (OP)
everyone already has it, we just need to realize it

>>40956680 (OP)
don't have a car, place, friends, health, or knowledge of the local language, and I'm in my 30s
gotta fix some of those first, but the glimpses of love with the ex were nice

>>40960162
same

>>40956680 (OP)
Why should I? Eat dirt

>>40956680 (OP)
my puppy of 15 years died in my arms yesterday.
I had it, I had the brightest love of all and now it's gone. I hope she visits me in my dreams sometimes.

>>40956680 (OP)
>just go find live
okay

>>40956680 (OP)
I need to be a better person before I saddle others with my own bullshit - in terms of morals, wellbeing, finances, etc. I don't think I'll ever realistically be good enough to meet my own nonsensical standards of "being in a healthy relationship with another person isn't actually abusing them by subjecting them to your presence", though, so it's basically a non-starter. Sucks, but no biggie, and probably a net positive for the dating pool anyway lmao

Lord knows I'm trying.

I was supposed to have a date today, but she texted yesterday saying she "had a really rough week" and "realized she wasn't in a place to be dating anybody right now."

Sure. Guess that explains why she was only replying to my texts every two days as well.

That's the third match in a row where we planned a date but they cancelled before it happened.

Bi and Pan cis women are the fucking worst. They put zero effort in and expect you to move mountains for every second of their all so precious attention because you're still by default "the man" in the dynamic as far as they're concerned. They'll discard your tranny ass on a whim but they'll ride or die for the lumpiest sack of flab and body hair in a wrinkly t shirt and jeans of a man every time.

I'd go t4t at this point, but I haven't met one nearby that wasn't a socially inept clocky autist. Unfortunately I can't shake off my last few standards; such as "Doesn't look like an NFL linebacker in a dress" and "has touched grass in the past month" and "Doesn't text me with 'Hewwwoooo *UwU*' first thing".