Thread 41036566

Quitting drinking is so fucking hard. My emotions are completely fucking random. One minute I'm anxious, the next happy, the next bored, the next horny, the next so depressed I don't know if I'm going detrans or kms.

I don't think I'm going to make it to be seriously real.

>>41036566 (OP)
This is very normal nona, please hang on. I've been trying to quit again as well. The longest I've gone was 4 years, and I can tell you all the bad feels more or less go away. You look better and you feel better.
I'm lying in bed hungover right now, and I seriously hate this shit so much :((. Such a waste of life.

i was never a long-term chronic alcoholic, more of a binger who would go on benders sometimes, but i've found smoking weed helps with that urge. obviously it's not ideal but it's better than alcohol

>>41036684
>all the bad feels more or less go away.
How long tho?
With smoking I had the rule of twos, 2 hours, 2 days, 2 weeks, 2 months, 2 years.
What's the rule with drinking? How long does it take before sober is my new normal.

>>41036726
I'm not replacing one addiction with another. I smoked weed for 15 years, I don't want to go back to that.

>>41036754
Its hard to say because improvement is not linear. You may have periods of feeling great followed by an extrenely bad day or two. Really sobriety is less about the total time spent sober and more about how you survive the bad days.
But I would say after about a year, you're generally out of the woods. Typically the first year is considered "early sobriety" sorry if that feels haunting.
I suggest you find a very firm reason for not drinking any more like a relationship or an activity thats not possible to engage with if you're drunk or hangover. If you drank while playing vidya and shitposting, stop doing that too. If you had drinkong friends, those have to go too.
I belive you can make it <3.

>>41036822
>drinkong
Drinking* lol
Also yes anyone suggesting weed or lsd is fucking retarded.
God im so hungover rn I regret drinking so much aaa

>>41036566 (OP)
why would you ever quit such awonderful thing

>>41036822
>But I would say after about a year,
A YEAR?!?! I haven't even been drinking that long!
>I suggest you find a very firm reason for not drinking any more
The reason is my health. I've got so much swelling in my ankles right now that it's actually painful. My body can't take this.

>>41036822
Does it count as being sober if I drink once a month only socially? I used to get drunk alone almost every day and cutting down this much has been a big step, but I don't want to stop completely forever

>>41036963
Same desu. I just want to go back to a normal healthy amount of drinking with the situation calls for it, and not this sweating it out till 5pm every day.

>>41036980
I think you can definitely do that if your problem drinking hasn't even been a year. I've been drinking most of the time since my early twenties and stopped this year at 29, and I'm really not getting any cravings now. I stopped in April, it was hard at first but I'm doing good for now. I only drink at bars or clubs and don't keep any alcohol at home and that helps a lot because its expensive this way and I also don't go out that much

>>41036963
I mean the goal is to stop thinking about alcohol as a big valuable thing and rather seeing it as a jailer who locked away your joy and only allows you a short vidit when you drink. The point is to escaoe tjat prison. You were able to have an amazing time as a child without any alcohol, and theres no real reason why you cant now.
Anyway, I am speaking from a position of someone who is horribly addicted to the stuff and has been struggling for a long time. I'll never be able to drink casually again, but even if I were, I wouldnt call that sobriety, no.
>>41036872
Thats great news Emily. Its probably going to be easier then.

>>41037010
>short vidit
VISIT
My head hurty >~<

>>41037000
It's not so much the cravings, it's the emotional rollercoaster that I'm clearly numbing out with alcohol.
I think it's HRT that's actually fucking with my emotions, but the alcohol was masking it, so when I take away the alcohol my nervous system stops being numbed and the emotions are now way stronger than I'm used to.

>>41037010
I never truly got dependent on it I think, never got to the point where I'd get the shakes. I just used it to cope with bad feelings in unhealthy amounts. I'm hoping the coping mechanisms I learned will be enough to keep that behavior away in the future and I can drink like a normal person. Seems to be working so far but its only been 6 months

>>41037030
Ah, in that case I think its even more important you try to stay away from alcohol for now. The way your emotions work now, you have to adjust to, its normal with hrt. But you won't ever fully be able to do that if you instead just numb them with booze, that's a recipe for long term addiction

>>41037040
I don't think I can do this.
I don't have anything to drink tonight, but I can't imagine actually managing this long term.

>>41037072
What exactly are the feelings you're having trouble coping with? For me, early on hrt I was crying a lot over just about anything, but that was actually a welcome change from the pit of despair and numbness I had before

>>41037109
So my air fryer beeped and that bothered me even tho I'm hungry
So I went out to the airfryer and the frozen lasagne wasn't heated all the way through but I still felt good about myself because I was getting closer to guestimating the correct settings.
Then in walked back in here and immediately felt suicidally depressed.
Then I put the show back on and felt nothing at all.
Then I saw that you're replied to me and I felt good that someone was recognizing my struggle.

And that was all in the space of like 2.5 minutes. dafug am I supposed to do with this?

>>41037170
Honestly you probably need to just sit with it for a while. I'm guessing you were really dissociated before hrt and didn't feel much of anything? That wall has come down and you don't know how to handle the flood yet. If it really stays unbearable you should get a therapist if you can and if you feel like you're gonna hurt yourself because its so much, maybe drinking isn't so bad an alternative. But I really do think you're gonna have to just weather this. You say it hasn't even been a year and you were avoiding it for that time by drinking. Try giving yourself two weeks without and seeing if you get better at feeling emotions, I'd be willing to bet you're gonna get better

>>41037217
Okay 2 weeks I can do. No drinks till sunday fortnight. Yeah that'll work.

>>41037217
Thank nonny.

>>41037225
That's great to hear! You're on the right path with that, I'm sure of it

>>41036566 (OP)
Em i think you have bigger problem to take care of, like your massive brickhon body

>>41036566 (OP)
that's just the sober experience

>>41037010
>you were able to have an amazing time as a child
speak for yourself. were any trannies happy as kids?