Thread 41091908

When I was 14 I used to lurk here every day after school and considered transitioning but ultimately decided not to.
Now I'm 25 and an ugly fat depressed bicel.
Did I make the wrong choice or the right choice?

>>41091908 (OP)
congrats buddy you bricked your life

>>41091908 (OP)
No.
Make yourself less ugly fat and depressed then get married and have children.

>>41091908 (OP)
You only ever get one shot at life so you kinda fucked up
Not the end of the world tho. Just start now

>>41091908 (OP)
>25
You're young and you can easily change your fat, depressed and incel life with some effort, no need to put yourself over hell on earth just because you browsed this shithole a decade ago.

>>41091908 (OP)
>Did I make the wrong choice or the right choice?
post a picture comparison of you then and now

>>41091908 (OP)
same i used to hang out in a skype group here and i was jealous of trannies but they were also strange and alien to me, i decided to be a femboy and hit the wall at 19

>>41091929
>get married
people who rush into this live miserable lives
>have children
LOL

>>41091908 (OP)
You may want to start transitioning before you also go bald.

>>41091908 (OP)
wrong choice i did the same thing. 24 now and feel so upset about my body even tho i get compliments. Should've learned ab diy and spent btc on that instead of deep web weed in hs. Should've been more chronically online and browsed trap threads and other gay shit to find out what trannies are and what hrt was sooner.

>>41092510
do it now retard

>>41092510
lol i knew about trannies and hrt since i was 14 i still repped until 25

>>41092516
ive been on hrt for a year and a half it just hurts to think about what couldve been and like my lilac crest is wider than my waist / as wide as my ribs but hurts knowing i couldve had hip growth and actually been hot instead of just mid pretty

>>41092928
my iliac crest is not wider than my waist

14, the magical age when all this becomes a problem and the carefree sense of normal boyhood that existed at 13 gives way to confused gay bullshit.

Yeah I became gay and got GD at 14 too and its been there ever since.

>>41092972
yep, though i was slutting myself out online since before that to cope with being bullied.

>>41092269
what happened at 19 so suddenly

>>41091908 (OP)
i was 13, got groped a lot by older boys for acting faggy and reading warrior cats
spent a lot of time on trap and camwhored a bit at the same time
maybe possibly could have gotten hrt or at least blockers from parents w/ enough begging but probably not
didnt troon, got into religion at like 14, stopped camwhoring, switched to /pol/
got old and fat
trooned at 22
ive got ffs booked but i shouldve been a youngshit
how can i possibly cope with this

>>41092983
lol i remember distinctly being really into some fantasy book series because i had a crush on the main character, good times good times.

I managed to become a moderator on an alt chan when I was 14 and my first bf and the troon feelings all kind of came at the same time and it was kind of nuts, I think I kind of needed to learn how to be a man I think if I was a youngshit I never would have outgrown all that bullshit that came out.

>>41093008
literally the year before i was just the science fair kid who wasn't even very faggy and afraid to use the internet, shit was fucking wild

>>41092983
I'd hope online moderation would be good enough to stop 13-14 year olds from camwhoring. Jesus Christ.
I hope you're doing okay now, anon.

>>41092978
idk ive never liked the way i looked starting at like 14 but i think 19 was the real age where it finally set in that i was starting to look like a man and not a boy, beard shadow not going away after shaving, my eyebrows being thick, my jawline getting wider. by 23 i was balding and just looked like a man and i was using being a twink to try and cope. i fucked myself by not trooning as soon as i first started questioning at 14, if i did it by 17 i might have been ok.

>>41093019
im ok, nobody ik irl knows about any of that and nobody involved in it is coming forward obviously so it doesn't follow me around. it did convince me i was groomed into trooning for 8-9 years though and now i wear size 11-12 womens' shoes so kms

>>41093034
lol wtf i grew a mustache when i was 12 and i was afraid to shave it because "what if i look like a girl and i like it too much"

>>41093044
lmao as soon as puberty hit my legs and arms got covered with thick dark hair and i began using my moms bic razors to shave my legs and arms weekly

>>41093062
i was afraid of any of that kind of self care stuff and i made fun of men who actually tried to look good because I think on some level I knew "well if i shaved its because i am a tranny, therfore my friends who shave are doing it to be queers and therefor they are FAGGOTS"

>>41093070
people openly made fun of me at school because they noticed id shaved. i decided to act out and was openly wearing makeup at one point. i hated myself so much i didnt care lmao

>>41093078
being a coward pays i guess, i feel a little guilty i feel like i kind of betrayed all my future tranny bretheren who actually had the balls to go for it

>>41093088
i was a coward too really, in hindsight that was the time to experiment, ill never see any of those people again. but thats hard to understand when at the time its your whole life

Right choice. I made the wrong choice and let me tell you. Just get offline and forget about all of this shit. Even if you can look passable it's not a good idea. One reason is you will always be paranoid about getting clocked. The second and most important aspect is that our government isu sing you as a scapegoat and fomenting hate towards you and it may end up becoming a legal battle for your rights or maybe even worse. which you may not care about now but when you do gain things to care about in your life it will add incredible stress to every day

Just stay as you are and pick up some new hobbies or something and try not to think about it. Get off this wretched internet

I had a huge opportunity to transition that lasted 4 years and I never took it, I felt so stupid after I lost it definitely that I repped for over 6 years, it wasn't until I came out of college that I took the dive, I was 25 almost 26 when I first decided and although I stopped 5 months in(for stupid reasons) it kinda helped in stalling masculinization.

Do not repress, it never helps.