>>41097396
please don't despair, I know how much it fucking sucks to socialize, and I started out p much fully mute in the new social spaces I entered for a really long time until I slowly opened up more and more until I made some really good friends. I still struggle greatly with meeting new people and esp being in public, of which he's helping me with now little by little.
I met him originally through a very niche game, I'd recommend maybe small tight knit communities, less new people to be scared by, and if they're chill and let you be mute but hang out with them, once you do start opening up you'll be apart of that tight knit community which will make it easier to form closer bonds with people. If they aren't comfortable with you being mute move on, as they aren't worth forming bonds with
I know this will probably fall on deaf ears, but please, at least consider how you could maybe try it, you won't meet a boyfriend if you won't meet people. I thought everyone hated me, that I'm too much of a freakish thing to be liked, and honestly I still think that about the general public, but please at least try, and if not, I hope you find your wishes however they may come to you