Thread 41312363

weekend edition
qott: what are your plans this weekend?
prev: >>41303946

qott: i will probably end up wasting it like i always do.

looking in the mirror and crying, same as every day

whats the consensus on insecure male bottoms with breasts

bi women love that shit

>>41312495
what if i dont like women

>>41312557
ion know about that playa

>>41312476
do you have a feminine or masculine face

i wish i wasnt a homosexual so bad

>>41312584
homosexual love is purer

>>41312589
is that why they put their dick on anything that moves?

>>41312603
straight men put their dick in anything that moves too

straight men put their dick in things that dont even move (dead bodies)

>>41312603
shut up dyke

the only issue in my life is my masculine lack of hips. that is to say if i started earlier i would be a passoid and have a boyfriend and be happy but i repped too long. i understand that it’s my fault but actually i should be a woman and this hurts very much. i am not excited to be a gay man the rest of my life! and if i ever want to date another tranny they’ll probably make me top

also my breasts look really nice

>>41312589
homosexual love is poop stained

i'll never look how i want to
i'll never be what i want to be
i'll never be married to someone i love
i'll never be satisfied with my life
and that's not okay, but i don't know what to do about it

>>41312803
liar

as far as i'm concerned, ALL love is homosexual.

I'm nonbinary but not the good kind of nb so it doesn't matter :/

>>41312581
masculine

>>41312476
they make for good simps who fall in love with people who will never reciprocate it

my ex boyfriend was my entire world even though he just used me for the novelty of having sex with a tranny and then threw me out when he got bored. as a troon you can give a man everything you possibly can, but it will never be enough because he will never see you as a real woman and you can't give him children.

>>41313242
the earlier you realise this the better because you can't ever change it

>>41312363 (OP)
Goon while I pretend I’m paying games in call with my bf(he wants to fuck a real woman)
Iwnbtt btw

>>41313242
>>41313256
what if you can get a gay man?

>>41313283
that doesn't exist past the age of 30, no male worth loving can look past his need for children

Being trans is for real females and young people
Being a girl is antithetical to living as a man for 20 years with nothing in your head resembling gd
I hate my being
My bf is abandoning me
I’m so sick

>>41312363 (OP)
>qott
i’m going to a concert tomorrow! my one friend was gonna go with me, but he’s actually going to a music festival with a couple of our other friends that day instead. i might see both of them and a couple other friends tonight though, it’s unclear

>>41313288
i dont believe you

>>41313356
its true

gay men don't want troons, they want barely legal twinks. I'm literal human garbage.

>>41312363 (OP)
>qott
just studying and working
gotta grind now so i can dilly dally harder later

if you have plans i dont think you belong here

i thought about getting a gay top bf but even the top still usually want to play with your penis or suck it or even bottom once in a while, most gays are versatile even tho they have a preference. also i dont look 100% like a guy i look like a inbetween genders thing, i have a bit of boobs a longish hair etc i dont think a gay guy would be that interested in me.
theorically the only group of guys that would be interested in me would be bi top guys, but they also like cis girls and like they're a lot prettier than me, theres no reason to choose me over a cis girl unless you want to do something with my p*nis and i would hate that :(

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i will die alone i will die alone i will die alone

>>41313399
yeah, I pretty much gave up the idea of ever finding one and do my best to suppress the want now. it's hard but I can recommend it

>>41313408
no lol

i will find love, we will live in the woods, we will feed the deer and the birds and the bees and the critters and basically we will be happy forever and die in each other’s arms

>>41313397
not even solo plans?

>>41313397
I have suicide plans

>>41313452
this would be my dream. but im 22. i dont think i can find a guy to do that now. i will still need to live at least a decade in the city before getting a guy to move out to woods with me

>>41313485
i have a woodsy job so hopefully i can lock down a blue collar fag (he’s allowed to cheat as long as he comes back for supper)

>>41312363 (OP)
getting ready for the day and fixing to leave for a flight. hoping its okay

i want to fuck bugs

>>41312363 (OP)
i dont have any plans because nobody wants to spent time with me

>>41313605
i look like that but i'm also gay and chinese

nihao fine shyt

jennifer tilly is so hot :/

fingers? in *my* ass?

>>41313797
it's more likely than you think!

most men are more feminine than me

>>41313701
speak a little chinese for ‘em, nona

>>41312363 (OP)
>>qott
stay inside isolated from everyone like usual and engage in my autism cope interests (mostly revolving around music)!

>>41313885
making music? listening? a bit of both? you should go to concerts, especially if you like some smaller, still touring bands. i go to concerts on my own all the time, and the tickets are usually 10-30 dollars

im going to get ffs and then post pictures of myself on twitter and say omg i'm so ugly i need ffs so bad...

>>41314100
imagine it backfires and you get replies of “i dunno, the areas that ffs can improve already look really good, you need help in other places”

>>41314137
as if anyone would have the balls

>>41313288
>no male worth loving can look past his need for children
Disgusting
How can anyone plan for children in this economy ? unless u are both making 6 figure its impossible

>>41312363 (OP)
>qott
get high and finish silksong

trannyslop

>>41314310
yes, you are

>>41314285
Agp

How do you know if your CIS? Is there a cis test?

i should have been a boy

>>41314285
hell yeah, getting high!!

>>41314342
I am cis but I take hrt for my fetish

>>41314374
based

i will find a cinnamon roll but i won’t eat it
just like in my dream

He abandoned me again

>>41314436
and its your fault

>>41314436
hurts right?

>>41314424
i would just eat the cinnamon roll, personally

>>41314475
i like the ones they have at fairs but you can only get those in hardware stores here for some reason

>>41314455
I know
If only I was cute and had a vagina and wasn’t 99%malenrained
>>41314464
Sheering winds of flesh eating dustmites
As if I never felt anything before

she doesn't hold my hand in public

need hrt repper bf

>>41314521
Hi

>>41314521
why does everyone wants to date a trans woman they can misgender and torture

>>41314488
that’s really strange. i just really like cinnabon, so i usually get one when i go to the mall

>>41314497
i went on a date with a guy who didn’t mind going into public with me but i minded a lot
he was a sex pest so i had to stop talking to him
wish he was normal

>>41314555
sex pests are so hot

>>41314595
it was when it was towards me but he had a bad wrapsheet…
i’m not talking to guys who’ve done bad things to other people that’s way over the line

i have a very low tolerance towards male leads but i dont mind much watching movies with a moid protagonist except for dicaprio, he just unbelievably pisses me off. every time I'm forced to watch a film with that guy makes me wish for a male genocide

of course he was a sex pest. an honest decent man would pick a cis woman

>>41314531
I’m ok with torture sbd I have low self esteem I’m chaser bait atp

>>41314672
gay people exist!

My fantasy is getting with a girl who cis passes and who tortured me until I agree to cut and harm myself and them go to the court to change my name back and detrans before sui

i'm an idiot for even trying. i should have known it was too late
every time i see myself it fills me with dread for my future
only detransitioning will end my suffering but im addicted to estrogen and i cant make myself stop

>>41314676
:/

>>41314683
same i was crying all morning but then i remembered i did this for myself and not others and cook myself something comfy and look at the trees outside my window. old woman max or die

>>41314531
its all im good for

>>41314694
:3

>>41314699
i dont give a fuck if anyone else on the planet sees me as a woman
i simply am not and can never be female
literally all i ever wanted was to be comfortable with myself and i feel and look worse than ever
i have failed myself in every way and i don't know what to do

>>41314721
make soup

>>41314728
:/

yeah keep whining and crying
it feels much better than anything you could ever do for yourself

well i cant do anything do now because i have to wait for the estrogen to leave my body don't i

>>41314521
no you dont

>>41314743
let me just rearrange my ribcage and face

>>41314743
trve reppers here don't want to listen

come out in middle school
>get abused online and socially ostracized
come out at 18
>get raped
get on hrt at 21
>you have to come out hon you have to be a gurlllll

>>41314770
better get grinding hon

i wish i had a bf to hit me on the face and in the stomach

>>41314796
wya ill make it hurt

>>41314796
i'd be happy to beat the piss out of you

desejo de sulista

what's so wrong about torturing small animals

>>41314796
mami plss deja ese orgullo

>>41314776
listen to what
what life changing advice do you have to offer

i don’t want kiria to be hurt :(

>>41314829
well as long as you keep it at roadkill sonny don’t go putting no fags in barrels now okay

ela é brasileira, sabe se defender

kind of sucks that even if i manage to make something out of life and get a boyfriend and stuff (i wont) i missed my chance at experiencing a good age gap

>>41314891
it’s not as fun as it sounds they just yap about their fiance

>41314804
uhh brazil..,.,
>>41314805
:)
>>41314809
kkkkkk vsfgnfdhos
>>41314871
its ok
>>41314890
não é verdade :( not really true :( i never got into a fight in my life
>>41314834
como?

>>41314911
i think finance (but more like the socioeconomic factors that affect the markets) is vaguely interesting so i wouldnt mind
even if i did find it boring i could probably turn it into something humiliating because im too stupid to understand which i would kind of like

>>41314931
>i never got into a fight in my life
oh im sure

reminding myself that i had my youth ripped out of my hands and there's no going back

I was never a woman. I don't know. 23 years of my life just felt like nothingness, does that count as anything

>>41314951
no you didnt, you wasted it yourself

its funny that 4trannies are stereotyped as all super racist when this is the only tranny space i can interact with non english speaking trannies. i feel like all the other platforms heavily sequester users based on location and language so i end up just seeing British and American trannies.

>>41314931
good it's good to stay out of them they make me hurt afterwards

Damn u niggas are determined to make this the most depressing thread possible ……

>>41314970
yes

>>41314946
yeah i was never the type of person to like fightings. its so dumb to throw hands at someone for disagreeing with you or etc. the only valid reason would be self defense but thank god i never got into a situation where i needed to do that
>>41314951
same :( i lost 4 years of my life from 17-21 its so sad :(

>>41314970
you've never been on /repgen/ then have you?

life IS depressing.

whats the plan when the meta attraction phase ends

>>41314987
asking for yourself?

nyckel hair length detector is my homepage

>>41314796
ill hit your stomach but ill also misgender you and make you top

i play ethnoguesser so i can combat euro centric beauty standards in tranny spaces.
> noooo babe your brow ridge is <1.5std for your ancestry its your check bones that are clocky :)

>>41314941
i assumed they meant fiancé, as in someone you’re engaged to, not finance

>>41315026
oh
yeah that's more likely

>>41315015
>ill hit your stomach
ok ^___^
>but ill also misgender you
ok ^___^
>and make you top
oh pls dont. i cant even do it anymore desu ive already lost..... size down there and it cant stay hard anymore (thank god)

>>41315033
dumb tranny

>>41315037
sorry

>>41315015
no

>>41314975
just like me fr

Getting fat to feel better then immediately regretting it

>>41315061
post tummy

i have venus tummy

oh fuck i’ve got a migraine that’s definitely gonna make me puke in a couple hours

i dont deserve to be happy because im fat

>>41315064
my iliac crests are small and i have a lot of stress so it just looks like the tummy of an angry alcoholic manlet

i deserve to be fat because im happy

I'm fat and happy

iliac crests mean nothing when you have fugly hip dips :(

>>41315107
hip dips are actually very feminine and sexy you just dont see it

>>41315115
me when i lie

urgh

>>41315115
all the femininity comes from breadth

>>41315123
i think every part of a woman is beautiful as long as you have love in your heart. im a gay man though

i got zero hip growth only a bit of fat redistribution but the hip bones are in the same place as they were pre hrt :( i thought i would be able to get some at 21/22 but yeah mine were fused earlier i think. also after 11mo i dont think they will change if so they wouldve already changed a bit

i wonder how many of the semi-recognizable anons are pulling double duty, and how many are actually multiple people doing the same bit. are punk hair anon and iliac crest anon the same? how many people are bumping threads past the bump limit?

>>41315140
dont be greedy

>>41315146
who is punk hair anon

>>41315146
im the only real poster and everyone else are bots making fun of me

>>41315152
oopsies, autocorrect, i meant pink hair anon. there was someone like 2 weeks ago who kept posting about wanting to dye her hair pink

>i got raped
>im a rape victim
>i dont pass so i deserve it
>also i got raped
>i got raped
>i cant stop thinking about how it derailed my life
>also when i got groomed and then swore off anything queer for years but i was a child so that’s different because i wasnt able to defend myself but i shouldnt have gotten raped as an 18 year old adult human male i should have fought back and claimed my space

>>41315146
>bumping threads
>past the bump limit
you sound like another schizo I know, accusing everything of being a bump...

i bumpmode from time to time t b h

bump

>>41315149
? my body is shit. 18in bideltoid 15in biacromial at 5'6 and a 32in underbust. if i had hips it would balance a bit but yeah only surgery for me

i was supposed to be a youngshit

>>41315146
i run every single fed bot in here for 26/hr

>>41315225
my dad asked me when i was 15y if i had "gender problems" when i dyed my hair blonde and ended up looking like a girl :)
i was too scared to say yes bc he asked in a non-friendly way so i said no and they made me go to a therapist where i lied about these things and repressed for two years until coming out to them at 17y, only to get hrt at 21y almost 22y :(

>>41315203
no i mean the people that literally reply “bump” or “bumpmoder” as a joke

finally detransitioning it feels like a huge weight off my shoulders

>>41315276
we had similar lives and also similar measurements. you have better hips than me though so fuck off and die

>>41315297
lol

>>41315276
wow me too probably going to kill myself about it honestly

>>41315309
ill remain suicidal and bitterly jealous of real women but at least ill look normal

>>41315306
>>41315314
i wonder what wouldve happened if i had say yes. realistically thinking knowing my parents and how HRT works here in brazil, i would probably not be able to get HRT at that year, but they would make me go through psychologists for a year and i would probably get access to hrt at my late 16y or 17y. the worst scenario there i would believe i would only get hrt at 18y, but still anyway, it would be better than what i have now.

>>41315327
lmao

>>41315348
at least you had a chance i came out when i was 13 and they laughed at me and told me j would grow out of it and then yelled or gave me the silent treatment whenever i brought it up again. they also cry bullied me at 18 until i was convinced i was abusing my parents by trying to get hrt and not talking to them literally every day sk i moved back home and repped

>>41315362
whats so funny

boring

actually i think i hate my parents and my rapists and all the forces of satan pretending to be real (that inclodues you)

i think i’m stranded :/

actually i think i hate myself for not having a back bone i think i dserve it i should have been drstroyed i should have hhnng myself i should have

actually i hate when it’s not about me and itMs never aboht me because im ugly and my brain is broken from dysphoria and i cant do maths anymore and also i cant read anymore and also i cant sleep anymore and also whiners are fags or smthn

>>41315433
same. i shouldve had fighted harder. saying i would kill myself, cutting in front of them, etc. i tried to play the calm "i know what im doing, believe me please, i know best, etc" trying to be reasonable but i shouldve had been crazy about it so they would know that it was life or death thing for me

>>41315467
too true

>>41315467
>fighted
lol

>>41315389
:(
*hugs*
life is so shit sometimes. we were teenagers, god sorry for not being able to fight harder against our own parents

>>41315222
idk if i should believe that on paper i have better measurements 17.5 bideltoid 5'6 and 30-31in underbust but i dont feel like it

>>41315532
are you mocking me though

>>41315541
yes i am kill yourself

>>41315546
no i dont think i will, you arent real

i have no hips and i must fuck straight men

when I'm high I can feel like a woman

im only a manmoder because i refuse to put any effort into my transition

>>41315541
? why would i? i really dont get it sorry
>>41315538
ffs you guys saw one unity of angle frauded pic of mine. if i were pretty dont you guys think i would be attentionwhoring on social media like a regular cis or trans girl? and even in that pic you can see how my shoulder to hips ratio is bad

>puts in effort
>token hon of the cis friend group
>woke boyfriend asks to bottom

"successful transition" is a matter of capital

>>41315703
its also true. i saw a video today of a brazilian trans influencer who had 2 rounds of FFS on brazilian facial team. thats like +150k reais (+30k dollars but thats a lot for us). i mean, its really not a fair game lol

I feel so disgusting for wanting SRS and feeling like a woman and having to live like this every day all the while knowing that I'll never achieve it

>>41315769
i look like this

>>41315786
really? my hip shoulder ratio is much worse

I have hairy kneecaps

another day of yearning. Not sure how much more of this I can take. I wish I could afford ffs so bad so I could get a bf/gf but even then my personality is just repugnant.

Suicide is inevitable

anyone here know cars?

I'm a 6'2 man and if you don't call me a woman and let me in the bathroom I will beat you up

cars in my ass

i could have been such a good gay man

>>41315816
that's crazy, i'm 5'6
>>41315817
and i look like this

guys help me in such a faggot I find this picture hot I did just go ahead and do it

I look like an anorexic weakling with kinda soft skin and earrings

>>41315829
yeah and she has the same underbust as you

>>41315842
giwtwm

>>41315801
I know this but I can't do it

>>41315817
i’m serious my car won’t start

I will do it over the course of the next 5-10 years. Slow decline, maximum suffering until I tap out in some dark hallway from drug overdose. I deserve no better.

i feel like the way i act and my manners are malebrained... is there a way to fix this

Everyone who sees me just things
>GAYGAYGAYFAGGOTFAGGOTFAGGOT
but no one has ever thought of me as a woman

>>41315877
nyoo

>>41315877
yeah be hot

>>41315877
No

>>41315873
before I kill myself I want to make a will or something where they will be legally forced not to give me a grave, a funeral and to just throw my body in a trash compactor somewhere and forget it
I am some kind of glitch, I don't belong in this world

Malebrain isnt bad
Unless u are trying to pass for female

If I kms I won't leave any note or anything I'll just die

>>41315933
>when the manmoder worries about being malebrained
buddy
we have bigger issues than that

>>41315907
>>41315925
:(
>>41315933
it kind of is because i dont want to be a male !

Nobody needs to know I am really really really trans and have been repressing and moulding my identity to fit social expectations for as long as I can remember because I don't want them to feel like it's their fault. I'm just a coward failed male.

im retarded

>>41315998
hi retarded i’m gay

>>41315697
i would be a cutehon at least

my personality wouldn't be repugnant if i had ffs

27 was waaay too late

>>41316016
same

>>41315968
>i dont want to be a male !
Too bad you are male

time to pop the hood and stare blankly at my car’s innards

>>41316094
wuts wrong with it

im not male

malebrain and fembrain arent real no one gives a shit how you act or what you do as long as you look pretty in photos (ie like a young CIS woman)

made the month and now?

>>41316105
Oh you got xx chromosome ? why u in da man moder thread for males

everything? the battery i guess works, the stupid dashboard ipad turns on, but the engine doesn’t

straight woman > gay ftm > gay man > lesbian > straight man > straight ftm > straight mtf > gay mtf >>>>>> asexual manmoder

>>41316118
bored

>>41316114
you make it 2

>>41316113
trv but y r u capitalising cis DOE

>>41316114
reward yourself with a cold one

>>41316113
t. least autistic tranny

luv drinking
'ate sobriety

>>41316120
how does this even happen

>>41316130
u cant get away with being a cute twinkhon you have to pass pass

i'm a driiinker
i'm a smoooker

>>41316130
star wars reference?

didn't like any of the scented candles at the store :(

>>41316151
cute twinkhons are god’s gift to the earth

>>41316136
my life would be so much easier if i was severely autistic like most trans people are

>>41316148
i don’t know. every once in a while the car’s been taking a sec to actually get the engine going when i start it, but since it always started and never showed any problem lights, i just kept trucking

>>41316161
proof?

>>41316171
is there any flickering on any of the electronic on ignition?

>>41316186
i just tried to start it and there were like, clicks as i tried?

>>41316162
Same
Being a sperg sucks
Worst of both sides

>>41316218
open hood and check batt again
use gloves when u remove the connectors cuz there's likely gonna be corrosion around them
if theres any take the batt out and take it to autozone or oreilly something like that n have them test it
if it's fine theres a small kit with grease u can buy to clean around the connectors otherwise they'll tell u if it's dead

>>41316261
unfortunately i’m not anywhere near home, so i don’t have any way to remove the battery. i guess i’ll have to call someone for a tow or jump?

>>41316185
Fragment 2: Dialogue about rejection of marriage
When will what I have asked be known?' Salome asked.
"When you trample on the garment of shame, Jesus answered, 'and when the two become one, and the male with the female are neither male nor female.'

i cant believe the roman pagan elites and the jewish pharisees have ruled our world for the last 2000 years just to obscure jesus the tranny chaser

>>41316285
yes

>>41316321
damn. thanks nona!

your soul don't like your body?
we'll help you free it!

>>41316287
that's not in the Bible

>>41316359
not any of your nicene texts, no

and Jesus said unto them, "truly truly I say to you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a passoid to enter the kingdom of God."

>>41316374
gnosticism is a bunch of mumbo jumbo that's got nothing to do with what Jesus taught

why is my chin so strong it looks like a bad prosthetic
breathing through my nose growing up fucking ruined me

>>41316393
idk about this jesus guy anymore, that’s not cool…
can he turn my water into hrt though?

>>41316406
>pacifism
>charity
>sex negativity
>apotheosis
‘gnosticism’ is exactly what jesus taught

>>41316418
all passoids go to hell

>>41316434
that’s mistranslated from the king louis version

>>41316434
damn, i’ve gotta see them in hell too?

>>41316432
you're glossing over the fact that gnostics also believed that God the Father is some kind of demon, that this world was created evil from its inception and that there's all sorts of esoteric teachings not in Gospels bro just trust me bro you gotta get initiated into my cult dude or you can never achieve gnosis

>actually the real jesus wanted you to obey rome and jewish merchants
>yeah and have kids!!! Lots of kids
>”where does it say that”
>oh in the jewish section of the book
>”wasn’t that nullified by christ? isn’t the teaching of the church that old testament law only served to create the conditions for christ’s arrival?”
>no! you have to fight and die in my samsara! you have to worship material things and the works of humans hands!!!
>”I have not sown children for the archon,* but have uprooted his roots and gathered the scattered members. And I know who you are! For I am one of those from above." 'And so the soul is released. But if the soul is found to have given birth to a son, it is kept down below, until it is able to take up its own children and draw them up into itself’”

>>41316454
manmoders are rewarded an eternity in heaven for their strength

bruhhh too much reading though

>>41316467
isaiah 56 proves this

all your cult trash is the same worthless shit to me

>>41316018
so was 21

>>41316460
what does this jesus guy say about smoking reefer

i cant open jars

>>41316489
idk but he does say you should eat his cum because that’s the true body of christ also he says the priest (me) is his vicar so

i will NEVER get laser i will NEVER get a haircut i will NEVER put effort into my appearance i am a MAN and i will act like one until the day i die

>>41316489
absolutely nothing, but in Genesis it says all plants were made for our use

just jorked it and came a little. guess my levels are fucked

>>41316501
looking into it

>>41316513
true and same

wait is nothing supposed to come out

i like to pretend im an ftm pretending that the bottles of beer i drink are my phallus

>>41316538
you should never nut unless it's in my mouth

dubs and I'll skip my injection

>>41316569
check these

>>41316569
rolling

>>41316538
only pre. it should be clear if your levels are good. mine was cloudy :( i dont want to be a spirohon again

triple a will be here soon, whoopty doo. imagine if i wasn’t genuinely braindead. that’d be nice

>>41316554
wya

>>41316351
ey b0ss
less get som bussy tonite

>take prog for one week
>hair thinning
>bo
>thicker facial hair
>white cloudy discharge
>really nice looking boobs
it’s over

is 2 weeks on prog 2 weeks off a meme?

>>41316609
le dutasteride

dht is satan's influence
the pure of heart are immune to it

>>41316623
im on dutasteride but prog has a backdoor to dht without 5ar

>>41316623
tried dut and all my hair fell out when i wasnt balding before

>>41316630
so what’s the move? i thought dut was the plan

>>41316623
Same happened to me but it never stopped even on Dutasteride without progesterone

>>41316640
powers puts his patients on bica for it but i have no access to bica

>>41316624
if you only knew how true this was

>>41316609
Same thing happened to me did it stop after stopping the prog? It didn't form me. I've been on dutasteride and it hasn't helped.

>>41316656
yeah the first time it happened stopping prog made me look better. but i had to get a lot of laser again

tfw id be bald if prog wasnt so expensive

>>41316594
they had my make and model and the fact that it was likely a battery issue on the report, why did they not bring the right battery!?

>>41316632
it does that then comes back

sulten

>>41316575
>>41316576
i did my injection you evil whores

>>41316632
>>41316642
i was so confidently wrong

>>41316693
ftm who cycles dutasteride to maximize shedding

>>41316695
now do mine

>>41316708
gimme your thigh

>>41316698
In what so I've lost track of who is who.

>>41316722
in saying that dut would save them from the dht backdoor

>>41316714
yes maam

>>41316722
hey thats my name

>>41316744
i wish posters here were dudes like that
in reality it's just fem twinkhons/women

>>41316744
i look like right minus 250 pounds

>>41316771
this nigga gay asl

>>41316771
>in reality it's just fem twinkhons/women
theres a very wide gulf between those

>>41316771
im moided but skinny

>>41316807
im moided but fat

>>41316771
no wahmen most here
those are bait

>>41316793
28
estromale (gay)
germany
i weigh 145 lbs rn :(

>>41316803
i'm the only actual man here

>>41316807
>skinny
disappointing
i recommend SS plus GOMAD

>>41316810
cute

>>41316793
>asl
50/M/Ohio

>>41316816
>28
>estromale (gay)
>germany
>i weigh 145 lbs rn :(
wtf thats literally me

>>41316771
bro I'm literally just a man with boobs and soft skin

>>41316816
I WEIGH 150 PPUNDS BECAUSE I AM BASED

i want a girlfriend

>>41316829
goncern
do you enjoy your life? i do not

>>41316831
i have no boobs and i must scream

>>41316839
how tall are you? i am six feet and from a land down under

>>41316841
i have a boyfriend

>>41316841
hi

>>41316845
5’7

>>41316845
>goncern
>do you enjoy your life? i do not
wouldnt be here if i did

one year on hrt and i still cry and pray that ill just stop being trans instead of putting in any effort

>>41316609
sometimes these effects stops after a few months (like 2 or 3). but i get not wanting to risk it

183lbs and it's all in my ass and thighs
>>41316847
hello

190 lbs and it's all in my beer gut

>>41316864
im a top btw

where did maeve go

>>41316859
theoretically could the dht do permanent damage to my body after 2 or 3 months?

>>41316858
4 years hrt and i look more masc than 3 years ago because i stopped putting in effort

>>41316853
i wish i were small too

>>41316855
makes sense
are you from a big city? it is impossible to suffer in cities but i need a job to move. do you think you can change your life while being gaydead? i feel it is too late

>>41316868
waow basedbasedbased

beer

second straight month where i’m pretty sure i’ll be able to pay off my credit card in full and then i have a sudden hundred dollar car expense :)))

>>41316868
can i see

if i were not old and ugly i would sell my body for money

jealous of androphiles fuck my transbian rapehon life

>>41316901
>are you from a big city? it is impossible to suffer in cities
nope, i live with my parents in a village even though i do have a job lol
>do you think you can change your life
categorically impossible desu best to just stay in your comfort zone as much as possible

>>41316939
im an androphile rapehon

>>41316952
how does this even work

I'm going to get a tee with I'm sorry for being white written on it

>>41316952
you cant rape men

>>41316968
you’re brown.

>>41316951
>nope, i live with my parents in a village
same lol. south or north germany? what kind of job do you have?
>best to just stay in your comfort zone as much as possible
i still try to do stuff that's not easy (even though i fail and fail again), but im running out of energy tbhon

>>41316966
im almost 30 but still think 20 year old men are hot

>>41316980
i wish i got raped (masc4masc)

>>41316983
yea lol

i wish i was wealthy so i could live in a good enough apartment and pay for healthy food

i should cave my skull in with a hammer

>>41316980
watch me

there's actually zero difference between a cop and a doctor

>>41317073
i've been thinking about becoming a cop

>>41316987
>south or north germany?
south
>what kind of job do you have?
im a research assistant
>i still try to do stuff that's not easy (even though i fail and fail again), but im running out of energy tbhon
thats good shit, i ran out of energy before even starting desu, hardest thing i had to do was coming out to my parents like 5 years ago or smth

>>41317110
>south
same wtf
>im a research assistant
that sounds very cool! is it STEM or something else? i'm glad you're doing something useful. i have no accomplishments since dropping out of uni.
>hardest thing i had to do was coming out to my parents like 5 years ago or smth
glad you managed to, are your parents fine with it? my parents get me liking men but they don't approve hrt but we never talk about it so it's fine
> i ran out of energy before even starting
but you can hold a non-trivial job, that's something

>>41316878
permanent? i dont think so. DHT affects body hair and MPB, but both are reversible

stop flirting

flirt harder

flirt to a reasonable degree

what do i do if i burnt myself the fuck out and transitioning made me worse

>>41317246
start running

>>41317157
>is it STEM or something else? i'm glad you're doing something useful.
so it is stem but i would be careful to call what i do useful lmao
>are your parents fine with it?
moms supportive, dad tries to ignore the whole thing but thats not how it started, they used to both be very opposed to hrt. i did diy for like a year before they talked to my therapist and stuff and after some time came around and then i had no reason to hide and did it legit. in retrospect it was pretty embarassing stuff especially considering what ive done towards transitionig afterwards (fuckall). hope yours come around though its not like it does all that much anyways.
>>41317210
its called networking

tfw no bf 6

>>41317312
>i did diy for like a year before
still diying more than 4 years in lol
my therapist threw me out because i did not want to stop. are you still in therapy? i feel therapy and psychiatry never really worked for me, maybe i'm too menthol or too dumb for it to work.
im glad you got it all sorted and do it properly, good to have proper medicine and doctors
>especially considering what ive done towards transitionig afterwards (fuckall).
relatable
even though i don't think my plan was to ever transition, i'm just gay and mentally ill

i'm drunk again I'm getting stronger

>>41317374
what stopped you from getting on legit? did they not want to give you the indication letter? But i agree that therapy just isnt doing all that much for me, i mostly just did it because of the letter and i stopped once i had it. maybe if i gave it a real chance it wouldve helped but then again therapists expect you to leave your comfort zone occasionally which im not willing to do.
>good to have proper medicine and doctors
It does make things a little easier but then again the doctors arent doing a whole lot besides making absolutely sure my E isnt too high. But this way i never run out and detrans every 6 months because i keep forgetting or procrastinating ordering new stuff. what kind of hrt are you doing btw?

>>41317479
>what stopped you from getting on legit
basically no one ever wanted to treat me and said i should talk to specialists but i never bothered to like spend six hours traveling just to have someone tell me i'm to mentally ill/perverted to get hrt anyway
>what kind of hrt are you doing btw?
switched to EEn injections, ran out for a while and had to do oral E2, before that I used transdermal E2 patches plus CPA. how about you? i think they only really prescribe transdermal E + cpa in Germany, right?

>>41317521
>never bothered to like spend six hours traveling
think there was some guy in ulm that hands out tranny diagnoses via one remote session, forgot his name tho. just in case you ever feel like trying to do legit.
>how about you? i think they only really prescribe transdermal E + cpa in Germany, right?
transdermal + lupron, gettin that expensive shit. i think they dont wna do cpa in general because of prolactinoma at my clinic. i did lactate on cpa when i diyed so thats fair i guess.

why am i not a woman

I’m literally a freaky man
I am not supposed to be here
I had no signs or tells if being trans growing up until my 22 birthday when I decided to come to this board
I’m sorry to everyone I ever interacted with
Wtf hahaha
I ducked up my whole life by obsessing over this suit for 8 years. And despite that I still live as a man and hrt did nothing on me.
It’s over. Suicide will absolve me. I’m not even human anymore.

>>41317625
i know you want me to kms for being annoying but we could build a real life together if only you let me in

why do people use "manmoder" to mean
>she/her girlmoding passoids and hons
>girlmoding "boymoders"
>reppers and other literally men not even on hrt

bumpmoding

>>41317653
did you know that we are past the bump limit, friend?

whats that?

huh?

why does the faceapp genderswap filter make your eyes bigger? someone please tell me that's not actually sexual dimorphic

im so ugly and smelly and i havent showered in awhile

>>41317679
lol

>>41317650
i dont want anyone to kts (kill they self)

>>41317679
if you set it to male and use the long hair filter it also makes your eyes bigger and chin smaller

>>41317650
Id make a terrible husband
Sorry
I set my eyes in suicide when I was 12
Since then my fate has been this

i just want to marry somebody to be old with and then one of us dies and the other dies within a year from heart break

>>41317679
its basically the only thing it does to me but its enough to make me look like a girl when i dont pass irl :(

>>41317625
If you're in the UK we could make a suicide pact?

shot 3ml of the lena juice don't know where i am

>>41317719
this is the most impossible thing to ask for in this life

>>41317757
Mood

>>41317757
i dont care i will have it. i just need to get attractive, get a good soul, magically grow my hips, read all of the western canon, have a garden full of rare plants, become five years younger, and learn how to talk to people i haven’t already known for years before i turn 30

>>41317745
Nah I’m not close

>>41317553
>think there was some guy in ulm
oh yeah, one of the referrals i got would have actually been also in ulm but it was some endocrinological clinic i think. abt the remote stuff, i heard some endos nowadays refuse treating you if you if you got your indication from certain doctors but no idea
>i think they dont wna do cpa in general because of prolactinoma at my clinic
interesting. my prolactin was pretty high on my last blood test (like 65 microgram/L) and i definitely have blurred vision and that kinda stuff, might have fried my brain lol
lupron sounds interesting
also never lactated on cpa, but my gp asked me about it, kinda awkward

>>41317770
you dont need a checklist of stuff to offer other people to make them love you youre worth loving just because of who you are

injecting estradiol recreationally as a cis g male

>>41317652
im literally a man on hrt

>>41317770
she's >>41317802 right

>>41317811
that's what a manmoder is

I'm cisgender and transsexual

>>41317824
same

gaylor swift
discuss

>>41317802
>>41317814
shut up bitch

imagine being a 30 year old bottom

I’m just cis
Didn’t do my shot this week
Didn’t feel like it
I’m not female or a woman in any way
I’m not trans
I shouldn’t be here

>>41317847
ok tranny

i missed another assignment becauze i spent all night crying about my bodyvaward

>>41317839
well that list sounds insufferable anyways so choose something else that isn't pretentious? mf hoe

>>41317865
is it pretentious because i mentioned books? why does that bother you

>>41317839
Don't let these people fuck with your head like that. It's not worth it.

>>41317855
This doesn’t work anymore
I’m just attention whoring by replying anyway

>>41317914
ok tranny

>>41317903
fuck you

>>41317882
it's an obsolete medium for pseuds simple as

>>41317882
it's vapid and shallow
dork academia things to aspire to

>>41317917
All I’m saying is your factually wrong and will continue to be wrong
I’m leaving

>>41317924
>>41317931

>>41317946
ok tranny

>>41317920
midol now

>>41317953
nta but fuck you

don't have an eyeroll reaction pic strong enough to convey my disgust at that

niggas isnt even allowed to jokingly mention the western canon no more :(

also to the nigga who posted some wes montgomery clone noodling on yet another 12 bar a few weeks ago and tryna pass it off as something to aspire to you a BUM and yo bitch should expose you

>>41317983
Bloom was a fat retard and he's dead. if it's supposed to be "the Western Canon" then why is it only a smattering of the west's foundational writers followed by a bunch of novelists from the 19th and 20th centuries? he can't he even do a good job of being pretentious.

>>41317924
>>41317931
dumb illiterate tranny mad she can't read the hungry caterpillar

my hands are super masculine

>>41318009
there's more to life than reading dork
some are good at uhhhh ummmm at at uhhhhhmmm

dubs and i take prog again

dubs and i drink myself to death

dubs and i shit on myself

dubs and i whip it out

>>41312363 (OP)
new >>41318084

i hate myself why are my hands so masc

Hey we all are non-women here