Thread 41319603

post things that happened to you becuase you were trans

>>41319603 (OP)
>wake up
>be trans

>>41319603 (OP)
When I was in high school this guy who regularly called me slurs volunteered to help with lunch and found an old picture of me pre transition while doing it I guess and when I saw him in class he started saying shit like "Are you sure you're not trans? I saw an old picture of you" (he'd asked me before already) and I tried to "prove" it but he didn't believe me

>>41319603 (OP)
i didn't go to college and now i'm a neet with no prospects.

>>41319627
lol when I was a kid a guy used to insist im a girl (idk why he was bullying kids), I got pissed, showed him my dick to prove im not a girl and he went silent, hope it traumatized him lmao

>>41319697
but nona, he was right

>>41319703
indeed he was.. if only I had listened

>>41319603 (OP)
things that happened to me because I'm trans
>got into relationship with best friend
>got my dream job cause now I look more androgynous i fit the role they needed me to be
>stopped dissociating long enough that I could actually focus on bettering my mental and physical health
The thing is though, this happened 3 years into transition. Things got worse before they got better. Many dark paths could have taken me. Now I feel safe from myself and ive properly grieved the things that i lost. I do fear violence now in ways I didn't before. But I've managed to avoid it thus far

>>41319697
What's up with kids in school being able to tell your faggotry better than you can yourself? I got called gay all the time until I got better at hiding who I am. My first college roommate kept grilling me about it all the time as well.

getting estrogen for the first time <3 <3 <3

>>41319799
yeah the boys who bullied me in middle school would call me a lesbian and well,

bump

>>41319603 (OP)
irrational fear of men that i dont know
i mean, i could probably make an educated guess that id have ended up with a better life overall and id probably have a partner too, but those are speculative.

>>41319697
I had a girl come up to me in high school and ask me if I was a boy or a girl. I got mad (this was before I started feeling dysphoria) because I thought she was being a bitch and said, "I'm a boy, ok?!" and then she apologised. I then felt like crap because I realised she was seriously asking

Ik people r just going to tell me that this did not happen so I attest to this is a non-fictional horror story. When I was in my 8th grade morning art class I was in the back end of the room zoned out doing my own thing however these guys encircled me and one began to touch and squeeze my thighs with his hands touching also my crotch whilst they all were making a joke of asking me if I "enjoy that kind of thing" and this was before I ever was actively transitioning or anything I just had long hair.

>>41320302
This happened to me for half of 7th grade every week in physics class. Though it was only one guy and he'd alternate between doing that to me and chatting with the girl next to him on the other side

>>41320315
Honestly, I think straight men are more obsessed with gay shit than actual gays

>>41320326
Idk about obsessed, but they seem to know what we are before we ourselves do and they get right to work punishing us for it

One of the first times I went out with friends presenting femininely I got drunk and wandered out of the club and got sexually assaulted by a group of Asian guys who groped my (flat) chest and tried to pull my dick out. One of them held me against a wall and another one jerked off onto me. I wanted to scream but hadn’t voice trained and was scared that suddenly using a male voice would make them violent. Eventually I managed to push them away and run back to my friends and I then just broke down and didn’t leave the house for a couple of weeks.

>>41319793
>3 years
Ive been transitioning for almost 6 years when does anything ever get better?

>>41320343
That's horrible nona, I'm sorry that happened to you

>>41320354
Yeah, it probably delayed me socially transitioning by at least a year, it was really traumatic. It did teach me an important lesson about safety early on, though, which is the silver lining. I don’t do retarded stuff like walking out of clubs at 1am on my own now.

when i was 11 a boy used to make fun of me and told me i had a pussy instead of a dick

i was going on a nightwalk a couple years ago while honmoding and slightly intoxicated (i was a massive unfathomable retard during early transition) and on my way back i got followed home by a guy on a bike who used said bike to fence me into the sidewalk while riding next to me and asked me questions about whether i want to smoke crack or if i want my dick sucked. he didnt do anything further and i got home safely but i was so scared and when i finally got into my apartment i had a nervous breakdown that i'd been holding in the entire time
he asked my name at one point and i told it to him and for the next few weeks every time i thought of it i imagined his voice saying it and it made me want to get a new one bc i hated it so much but i ended up pulling through. i've been told it's a pretty name and im glad i didn't give it up

>>41320343
where do you live? in some middle eastern country?

>>41320377
UK, so yeah

>>41320388
ToT and by asian you meant indian? Thats how they're called in the uk for some reason

>>41320397
do you really think it would be a pack of chinese guys or other east asians?

this is a very long greentext but i want to tell it again because of how disgusting it was

>be me, last year
>19 y/o aussie trans girl in the closet
>no hrt, no nothing
>was feeling particularly shit this day
>self-harm thoughts high
>decide to contact a mental health hotline
>be anonymous, or at least try to
>tell them that i'm trans and dysphoria is getting too much
>conversation is going well, very affirming
>express thoughts of wanting to cut
>they ask for my address
>i know that they're going to send people to me at this point so i just tell them fuck off and log out
>i had already had one police incident from hotlines.
>few hours pass
>think i'm in the clear
>it's the afternoon at this point
>people knock on the door, i think nothing of it and hand a sibling the key to unlock the front door, parents weren't home
>i overhear police interrogate my sibling about my hotline messages
>they don't notice me and i nervously go back to my room. hoping they just leave us alone.
>they continue walking through the house and eventually get to my room and knock
>i say nothing laying in bed facing away from them.
>there was no lock on my door, so they open it
>they realize that i was the one who was messaging on the hotline
>they reassure me that i'm not in trouble and that they're just there to make sure i'm ok.
>i still say nothing, hoping to be left alone
>they tell me that if i don't comply i will be physically taken out into the ambulance
>the tone of the officers is completely opposite of the hotline, very aggressive, misgendering me and completely disregarding my identity and why i feel this way in the first place
>this makes me more uncomfortable that what i already was.
>i stay stubborn
>officers take me by the arms and legs and drag me to the ambulance
>my body goes into flight or fight mode
>it's no use and i am taken onto the stretcher into the ambulance
cont.

>>41320403
yeah... that's what i imagined
but them being indian makes it 10x worse

>>41320408
>while being restrained, a male police officer places literally his entire body weight directly pushing his knee into my testicle area
>the pain was so intense that it was one step less than just fucking raping me
>i finally decide to submit to their authority over me and stfu
>at the hospital
>nothing really crazy happened there
>i wait until 2 am until i am finally able to call my parents to come pick me up
>weeks pass
>while reflecting i decide that what that male officer did was sexual assault
>i file a formal complaint to their police department
>more weeks pass
>letter in the mail for me
>"we didn't rape you and there's nothing you can fucking do about it faggot"
>mfw

>>41320397
What does ToT mean? And yeah, they were Indian or Pakistani, I’m not too sure which. I think basically any time either myself or my friends have been harassed or touched inappropriately it’s been them. It’s funny - even in very left-wing spaces, girls will tell each other if there are a lot of guys like that on the dance floor. The thing is, I have a lot of Indian friends who are super nice, but they’re like second- or third- generation. It’s the dudes who come over here after watching loads of porn featuring white women and just think Europe is a massive orgy. They’re shameless.

Tried to complement someone’s Ita bag today and she literally asked me upfront “Are you a tranny?”

This one hurt deep because she had queer pins on her bag and seemed very progressive. I don’t know what happened after that because I went full dissociation mode but when I think about it my head starts to hurt, so I can’t imagine it was good.

>>41319603 (OP)
got a bunch but the funniest one I like to tell people is about the day of my FFS, one of my first instances of public direct harassment.

>woke up at 6 in the morning, my surgery was at 2 but I couldn't get back to sleep

>decided to watch some nana to calm myself down for a few hours and take a shower before I headed off to a carrefour to stock up on food for after surgery (I did my FFS trip solo, so couldn't have anyone that'd do this for me afterwards)
>get back at 11 after a shower, decide to head to the pharmacy after unpacking
>at this moment I started getting a really big panic attack, wanted to back out but decided I'll go out anyways
>literally as soon as I step out of my apartment in Paris some old french woman just says
>"tu es un garçon!"
>I'm just visibly shocked and awestruck, but I kinda just start laughing and keep on going about my day

I think the universe gives you things like this on a platter to force you to try more lol

>>41320426
ToT is a crying face lol

>>41320449
Lmfao, that sucks but is also funny. How have things been since FFS?

>>41320453
Ooh, sorry I’m dumb, I thought it was an acronym

>>41320449
Waow I want to get FFS in France too, can you please give details? Where, how much, how's the before and after

>>41320430
>she had queer pins on her bag
Allies support the quirky kind of trans (flamer drag queens and spicy cis women), not the icky predatory kind of trans (dysphoric transexual)

>>41319603 (OP)
Nothing too bad just awkward and unpleasant stuff. I’m MtF, 37 and transitioned at 21.
>TSA feeling up my penis wondering why the scanner tagged it
>Getting rejected by every boy I fall for
>Getting misgendered
>Doctors and medical staff being shitty
>Nurse yelled at me once for lying about being a woman and said I need to be upfront about that stuff even though my medical chart said male
>Getting clocked by half my LGS and being misgendered by them, confusing everyone prompting them to discuss it and expose me to more people

>>41319603 (OP)
Nothing because I would be a gigaogrehon and I have the good sense to manmode. Its hard, and my life is worse for it because im virtually unable to meet people IRL, and I lost most of my friends due to many years of alcoholic meltdowns. Even so, at least I can exist in public with no one paying attention to me or bothering me. My mental health is so bad that Im barely hanging on, and the pressure of being a 6 feet tall gigahon would make me shut down in a week or two or even cause me another Crohns disease flare. Im also bald and dont make enough to really afford a good wig or a hair system.
When youngshits wonder why some of us continue to manmode, this is why. 6 years hrt btw ;}.

>>41320498
>>TSA feeling up my penis wondering why the scanner tagged it
I have so far always successfully avoided that by walking up to the groping lady and asking what could possibly be the problem in my deepest man voice, acting confused. They always let me go unmolested after that. I'm not American though, maybe TSA is just more eager to assault people than our safety personnel

>>41320459
eh it's okay, my surgeon (Qassemyar) was great but due to my face shape at the time, and how work afterwards made things like my nose stick out, I think I may want a little touch up in the future. either way I'm trying to just trust the process as I'm only 5 months after FFS and I've heard a lot of the worries you get are just due to swelling. I don't really get misgendered in public anymore, and have cases of men coming up to directly flirt with me which has been scary but also funny desu. I think my eating disorder is mainly holding back my results shining through but I'm taking things one day at a time. either way, even if it doesn't make me pass 100% I'm 10x happier that I've gotten it out of the way and can start living my 20s.

>>41319603 (OP)
My entire childhood

>other people determined since before I was born what kind of person I need to be, and then proceeded to attempt to indoctrinate me to be that way
>literally before I was even old enough to know I was alive they had me in a blue onesie and my sister in a pink one and gifted me fucking football shit i wasn't even old enough to know or care about
>asked for help when I was getting bullied and got told to deal with it myself "that's what boys do"
>left to fend for myself at all times
>had no friends because I couldn't connect with any of my male peers and girls didn't want me around because I was a boy
>literally grew up with the world telling me basically nobody is actually on your side and even your "friends" will stab you in the back and nobody will protect you
>I'm still fucked up and have lived my entire adult life completely alone because you can't count on anyone else and people don't like me because I'm not a traditional person of either gender
>also I've only ever been attracted to women which means I didn't even think of myself as having a LGBT community behind me, the gays didn't want me because I was a "straight guy" growing up and the girls didn't want me because I was a "guy" and again like I said I could never connect with males to any degree.
I'm an extreme introvert and independent to a fault because that's how I had to be to survive.

>>41320525
>I'm 10x happier that I've gotten it out of the way and can start living my 20s.
holy ropefuel
aaand how much was it....?

>>41320498
That's been 16 years, you transitioned in 2009? How?

>>41319793
what job did you get and also how did looking andro help? is it like one of those big company things for like hiring people who have less representation in the role or smth?

>>41320482
Once again affirms that theyfabs are ontologically evil.

>>41320302
I had a guy in my class in high school who used to always feel me up. I had no idea what to do so I just sort of nervously reciprocated. I was kinda into him anyway I guess. Later another guy tried to jack off in my mouth when I fell asleep at a sleepover. Tried to force myself to be into girls after that and it didn't really work. Now I live my life torn between wanting to fuck a guy and wanting to run away any time one displays any sign of arousal because I'm terrified they'll do something disgusting to me. idk if this is anything to do with me being trans because it was before I was out. Someone will probably say it made me trans but I knew I was trans before all that

>>41320417
how are you going to compare ur balls being fondled by a knee to rape... grow up

>thread full of women's stories of being harassed/assaulted for the first time
a lot of these stories didn't happen because you're trans; they happened because you're women. be please safe out there nonas. cis women aren't crazy paranoid man-haters, we just know what it's like.

>>41320924
Men absolutely get less respectful and more aggressive when they clock you as a trans woman. You can see the moment in their eyes

>>41320924
I expected ropefuel, and ropefuel I got. Didn't expect it to come from there being so many passoids though

>>41320594
in entertainment. very specific. couldn't be replicated.

>>41320591
I realized I was trans and spent a long time looking for someone who would prescribe me HRT. I found a doctor about an hour away that was well known for doing so. It wasn’t that long ago, but no one knew what the fuck it meant to be trans so I had a lot of explaining to do to everyone lol. I remember feeling like I was paving the way in my hometown and my circle online. A lot of people I knew in real life and online transitioned after me and asked me a ton of questions before they came out.

I remember thinking how lucky the girls of the future will be when being trans is more accepted. I’m honestly heartbroken to see so much hatred towards us instead. Sure there are more resources and more of us to bond with, but the hate for us is at an all time high and they seek to take everything away from us. My poor youngshit sisters, I’m sorry it’s not better.

>>41321613
>but the hate for us is at an all time high and they seek to take everything away from us
Nigga people used to beat trannies until they were hospitalized. The only hate you're getting now is slurs on the internet and annoyed stares irl. Get out of here.

Poon experience
>Switch schools in 8th grade, get gf that breaks up with me because I’m a poon, get questioned by popular girl and have to come clean because of rumors being spread, now group of popular girls know I’m trans. Caused a few weeks of random people asking me questions/sending rape threats about it on Instagram
>Friend group from same middle school stalk me trying to find my birth certificate and ask my mom about my gender
>Guy at lunch table asks if me and my friend being together (we weren’t) made the guy a faggot and slapped him. Was way fatter and taller than him at the time so I punched him and ran away with my friend, only time Ive fought back
>Switch schools again 10th grade, a parent notices me and sends huge text to groupchat with all parents warning everyone to stay away
>Goes to doctor and he asks to “check what I have down there to be sure” even though he already knew (been seeing me since I was a newborn)
>Goes to mall by myself at 16, walks into women’s restroom, old lady yells at me and basically pushes me into the men’s, I say fuck it and go there. When I’m coming out notice 2 guys follow me to parking lot, they catch up to me and beat me up, I was severely underweight so no chance at fighting back
>Aunt makes me sign a contract saying I will go to conversion camp
>Aunt offers me money if I don’t cut my hair and turn catholic
>Other aunt pulls corner of my pants down at family reunions to “check if I’m wearing girl or boy underwear”
>Talk to theyfab at college about turning into a femrepper because society hates trans people and he says “you might be nonbinary or genderfluid”
>In college class teacher starts talking about gender, group of guys a row behind start blaming me for it
>Therapists asks if I’m going to change my wardrobe as a step in my transition when I already only have shit from the men’s section
Many say being a poon is lonely and it is, but that’s not a downside for me so I won’t list it

>>41319603 (OP)
this wasn’t even terrible but just like v ordinarily frightening and dreadful

>14yo in French class
>deeply in the closet
>first day
>we have to make signs for our desks w names and male pronouns
>hate this
>keep “losing” the name card
>keep having to make new one
>french teacher catches on and asks me what’s going on
>overloaded w shame and fear of being out
>give her non answer
>stop losing sign and resign to being [deadname] il/ils
>want to kms
>i hate “allies”

>>41320924
you think you know what it's like but you really don't tho
where is your rape story?

>>41321958
All women know a rape story, either theirs or someone around them and that should be enough to understand
Embrace womanhood instead of distancing yourself from it. Of course every story is different and nobody not even other victims will know what it was like for you, the point is it's still rape and we have to stand up against it *together*.

>>41319603 (OP)
When my uncle knocked my door calling my name, while I was masturbating with Dildo. He lived room near me and I legit panicked noticing he was able to hear it and was down bad to me. I stopped masturbating and try not to think what happened that day but it still gives me shiver to my spine.

>>41321684
Fuck off

>>41319603 (OP)
So much. It's why I don't tell anyone anymore. My trust in anyone to not hurt me is non existent

>>41320430
What if she has those pins to make trans people think she is an ally just to lure them so she can insult you as soon as you talk to her?

>>41319603 (OP)
cant have kids so eventually every bf has left me
>>41319611
ya

>>41325713
Tell

>>41319603 (OP)
When I was still a repper I went to the airport bathroom, it was full so I was waiting for one of the stalls when this REALLY big guy stops me out of nowhere and says "This is the men's bathroom" when I replied with "yeah, ik, I'm a man" he laughed a bit and looked me for bottom to top, because he said that the rest of the men in the bathroom started giving me odd looks so I left terrified
Not sure if this counts as I was pre transition and I'm still waiting for hormones...

>>41320343
GRIM...
the Asian bisexuals were out ladyboy hunting
They really think you have no recourse/support from society so they just do whatever

>work in factory
>Guys find my old insta i forgot about
>Pics of me in a dress
>They show everyone, even my manager
>Everyone ices me out after that. No one looks at me or talks to me anymore
>Realized i was trans after this happened

>>41325792
They're right unfortunately

>>41325791
>I'm still waiting for hormones...
DIY DUMBASS

>>41325909
I LIVE IN A THIRD WORLD SHITHOLE (desu that's not the problem, I'm just scared of messing up because I'm stupid)

>>41319603 (OP)
I got confronted by security guards in the men's bathroom several times and feel obligated to use the women's bathroom now (mtf btw)
A drunk woman once chucked an aluminum water bottle at me and hit me in the leg
A friend stopped talking to me

>>41320343
Just be glad that happened to you rather than in their country, police in the UK have the resources to investigate such matters. If they forcibly had sex with a woman in their country, it is unlikely the police would have caught them

got raped by boys at my school for being girly, but was kept in the same school anyway. it was an all boys school so i spent my whole childhood being sexually retraumatised, totally socially dysfunctional, and i couldn't even come out because i didn't realise i wanted to be a girl because i didn't know a single girl. it was torture. just a constant miasma of discomfort, isolation, and wishing something was different

i came out at 14 but was told i couldn't transition. i diyed a bunch of times but kept getting stopped. i never ended up being a youngshit. a waste of a life. 22 years of torture now.

someone removed my testicles, another removed the skin from my forehead, and then someone else sewed bags on silicone under my chest.

>>41321825
anon im sorry this is fucked up