Thread 41322708

I want to detrans. Boobs make me feel weird and shots every week till I die is hard. But I am going to freak out if my hair starts falling out. I don't want to be a man or a genetic abomination. I wish I never started and just internalized the disphoria better.

Anyone in a similar situation want to vent

>>41322708 (OP)
>Detrooning because needles hurt
Lmao

>>41322708 (OP)
>shots every week till I die is hard
you're lucky you don't have diabetes
lots of people have to take injections more often than you do, or they'll literally die

>>41325727
>>41325736
u guys are gonna bully me into continuing T_T

>>41326046
Just do your injections, it takes less than 5 minutes

>>41326057
Ive been doing it for 2 years and Im not socially transitioning, so Im kinda just growing boobs and taking shots every week to curb aging in a way I dont like?

And what if the world ends and I run out of injections D:

>>41326102
You can just choose to socially transition at any point. If the world ends you can still detransiton then rather than doing it now for no real reason. Or you can stockpile enough hrt for the rest of your life, its not that expensive with injections

>>41326102
People have been saying the world is gonna end soon for 2000+ years and we're still here. I've lost count of how many raptures I've lived through. Also, you can drive yourself crazy whatif'ing over everything
>what if grasshoppers had machine guns?!?

>>41322708 (OP)
>>41325736
this and also you can just buy undecylate. i do my injections monthly. 12 injections per year is barely an inconvenience

>>41326433
>undecylate
where do u even get that ive never seen it for sale anywhere

>>41326514
astrovials and voix celeste sell it in europe. pretty sure open gate makes it too in america

>>41326433
>undecylate
wtf do you get good levels with this? and at the end of the month? I went from Ev to Een just cause its longer halflife

>>41322708 (OP)
based
tho my fell out decades before this shit, i can newer ever pass unlike you retard intersex-looking freak
it's dysphoria btw. internalize and tell the twinkloving "totally" cis chasers that want to rail you later.

>>41326525
>do you get good levels with this?
yeah, when i switched i started on 40mg/month which is on the high side just to be safe, because my previous EEn was giving me really poor levels for some reason. my bloodwork came back at 350pg/ml at trough, i lowered the dose since then.
i do my injections on the last day of the month, easy to remember. at such a large interval you don't even really need to keep track of your injection spots to rotate them, i just pick a spot wherever on a random leg and check for any lumps and inject

>>41326123
Its just vain at a certain point!! Im 27 anon! I shoulda just learned to deal with twinkdeath like an adult x_x

>>41326368
I overthink too much and thats definitely what makes me want to stop. I just think about, all the trash Im making with these shots, how I could be hurting my natural hormonal system, how the gov could literally prosecute me for being trans. Blehchchchhhh

>>41322708 (OP)
injection isn’t hard tho

it’s literally fun

>>41326699
i KNOW its not hard its just intense to have ur entire hormonal system rely on if you stab urself with drugs

>>41322708 (OP)
If you are having doubts then you should postpone transition. I paused transition a year ago, and still sporadically take hrt but I'm basically fully detransitioned at this point.

>>41326770
>still sporadically take hrt
Why? Im in a similar situation and keep having mixed feelings

>>41326737
yea but like ok?

would u acc rather be a man?

>>41326824
because I feel like it helps me mentally. at least, when I'm in a depressive episode it can sometimes get me out of a funk. Sometimes it makes things worse though, so it's not like its a miracle drug. Not sure if it actually does or it's placebo. Have one vial from when I detransed over a year ago.

but it's been awhile and I'm just trying to get through this depressive episode on my own and think I'm gonna try anti-depressants. up to you. you gotta choose your own path in life. only you know what you want

>>41326914
>you gotta choose your own path in life. only you know what you want
real

>>41322708 (OP)
im lowkey having the same feelings after 1 year and a few months, but then I remember how I felt under a man, and I don't know, it felt like a golden cage, now this is also weird because Im not out socially, so it feels like another type of cage. Im having constant doubts but I'm not able to stop which is very weird, then I remember when I look at myself in the mirror and all. I was also kinda culture shocked when I visited Japan and saw all these effeminate men, but then I realized I was just jealous of how small they are not their actual care free clothes. Idk if that makes any sense but yea

>>41327535
>but then I remember how I felt under a man, and I don't know
>it felt like a golden cage, now this is also weird because Im not out socially, so it feels like another type of cage.
God yeah I relate. Its like deciding between my self esteem or feeling comfortable with my actions to achieve that. Neither of which Im truly comfortable with. I still get extremely jealous and bitter when I see other trans people and women in general.

>>41322708 (OP)
HRT OR DIE

>>41329220
we die anyways nona

>>41326102
This is why i have a compounded self supply of estrogen for 300y lol
Thank you Xi

>>41330052
Does it expire or lose potency at some point?

>>41330052
im too stupid for that. Also yeah does it go bad ever?

>>41322708 (OP)
gluteal intermuscular injection supremacy

>>41330801
how do you sit

>>41322708 (OP)
I detrans then a few years later retransed, because society makes you feel like shit doesn’t mean you are shit. Can you see yourself happy as a man? Or do you just think you will be more comfortable if you repress?

>>41330987
>Can you see yourself happy as a man
No. My mom gave me a lot of her trauma with men and that made me feel horrible/disgusted with myself as a male and doing anything seen under the light of being "male".
Being put in a box where my behavior is seen as a product of my sex makes me want to swiftly kill myself. Not in a dramatic way, but in a way to just acknowledge that, yeah, I can't be anything other than a male and I can't change how that affects people's perception of me and my behavior.

>Or do you just think you will be more comfortable if you repress
I think it will make me feel less like a liar at the very least. Or less vain. But it comes with its own mental anguish of decaying like a man. And having a male libido always made me feel so insecure/gross with myself but I probably do have genuine trauma when it comes to sexuality.
I shoulda went to a therapist yesrs ago but even now, I dont know where I'd even start to talk about my problems.

>>41331051
I’d say you probably shouldn’t detrans, it sounds more like the reason you want to detrans is fear of bigotry deep down. If you detrans you will probably regret it a few years later and feel like you lost time.

enjoy your baldness and beard stubble retard lol