Thread 41395187

I used to try to be as masculine as possible, I worked out a shit ton to get more shredded, I was OBSESSED with having as much T as naturally possible
And the second I crossdressed and saw myself for how feminine I was this was all gone, now I want to go on E
I thought I was just compensating other things with this obsession but now I feel like I was just repping
When I found some Tgirl influencers some of them had the exact same story, they "tried to be a man"

>>41395187 (OP)
No, it's obviously counterproductive. The only succesful repression path is to not give a fuck how masculine or feminine you are, at all. Works for me!

>>41395187 (OP)
Not all probably, but it's certainly very common.

idk if it happens to everyone but i think its quite common

>>41395187 (OP)
yes. i still try to, i really really really dont want to think about it

Only lil fags are obsessed with the "T"

>>41395292
what is the "T"?

>>41395187 (OP)
Yes I went down that path 2x unironically, first at 16 and then again at 17-19. I wanted gender dysphoria to just go away, and I wanted to be accepted by people and to live a normal life free from it. Thing is it doesn’t go away, it literally just gets worse and worse.

Hypermasculinity is just the beauty standard for men aswell. As a buff guy I got lots of attention from men and women, I also had a pretty wide bidelt and was tall, and of course with that you’ll be treated with lots of respect.

The main reason I repressed was because of friends and family, and partly due to god and not wanting to go to hell, but I realized it’s just cope.

>>41397801
What ended your repression

>>41395187 (OP)
sort of? ive defiantly done some cringe performative masculine things to try to like being a man more.

>>41397858
I decided it was not for me, what's the point of containing living as a man. I was already feminine, since I was a kid, and being a man just alienated it. I was also super quiet because I sounded gay. It was just one big cope.

I was literally at a library, turned 20 that day, and was depressed living as a male, and realized that even if I'm caught I dont care anymore. So I was like you know what, decided to order hrt and started taking it. I already knew all about hrt and dosages and stuff since I was like 11/12.

No I did not

>>41397801
You got lots of attention because you transcended the standard. I think a reason a lot of you troon is because you have a standard for masculinity most guys don't even meet, and you feel you can't make it because of that. T is important for many reasons, standards of masculinity are important, but look around at the average guy, the standard isn't so stupidly high.