Thread 41458207

>be me
>20yo boymoder, 2 years hrt, still in hoodie armor every day
>uni assigns me to “inclusive housing” on the quiet floor
>walk in first day, room smells like coconut oil and mint tea
>roommate already there, unpacking a box of led strips and plushies
>5'6, black bob with the tuck-behind-ears thing, tiny waist, voice like wind chimes
>instantly die inside because she looks like every cisf I’ve ever simped over
>guessing she's a cis lesbian
>she turns, smiles, dimple pops
>”hey roomie, I’m Junie”
>my brain blue-screens, manage a grunt that might have been “hey”
>she giggles, keeps folding tiny skirts that could maybe fit a large doll
>spend first week doing the usual: hood up, eyes down, speed-walk to communal bathroom at 3 am to avoid being seen in pj shorts
>Junie is always awake, always kind, always half-dressed in crop tops that show midriff so smooth it looks airbrushed
>every night she hums while painting her nails at her desk, toes curled on chair edge, neon light strip bouncing off collarbones
>I pretend to study but actually watch in peripheral like a creep
>start noticing things: she never changes in front of mirror, always keeps bottom drawer locked, takes phone calls on balcony and whispers “I miss you too, mom” like it hurts
>tell myself it’s nothing, just girl stuff, stop being wormy

>fast forward to midterms week
>both of us running on cold brew and spite
>come back from 8 am calc, ready to die
>door cracked, hear soft whimpering
>freeze, think she’s hurt
>push door slowly
>Junie on her bed, back to door, headphones in, laptop balanced on pillow
>screen shows a timeline of timelines—before/after timelines
>her hand is down cotton panties, moving slow circles
>other hand pinches nipple through thin tank, breathing shaky
>camera angle on screen is mirror selfie: same face, same dimple, but shorter hair, no tits, dysphoria pose
>realize I’m staring at her old boy pics
>she hasn’t noticed me, hips lifting into her fingers, little gasps syncing with the slide show
>feel my own underwear get instantly soaked, heart trying to crack ribs
>step back, floor creaks
>she spins, cheeks blooming red, yanks headphones
>laptop slams shut but too late, we both know what I saw
>”fuck, I’m sorry-” she starts
>”I didn’t see anything” I lie, voice cracking like a 12 yo
>she covers face with both hands, mortified
>stand there like statue made of shame
>finally she peeks through fingers
>”you’re not gonna tell anyone right?”
>shake head so hard ponytail whips my own cheek
>she exhales, shoulders drop
>quiet for ten full seconds
>then she whispers: “you’re like me, aren’t you?”
>nod, can’t speak
>she pats bed beside her, tentative
>sit, leave six inch safety gap
>both stare at led strip cycling pink-blue-pink
>”I thought you were cis,” I mutter
>she snorts, wipes eyes
>”I thought YOU were cis”
>laugh at same time, brittle but real
>gap closes to three inches

>evening bleeds into night
>end up cross-legged on her blanket sharing a single airpod, scrolling /tttt/ together
>she keeps pausing to explain inside jokes I pretended to understand
>every time she leans, hair brushes my collarbone, sends sparks to my whole body
>at some point she pulls up old pic: buzzcut, baggy hoodie, same eyes
>”that was T day minus 90,” she says soft
>stare at screen, then at her now: lashes long enough to cast shadows, lips glossy
>without thinking place hand on her thigh, thumb tracing seam of tiny shorts
>she goes still, then mirrors, hand on my knee
>both of us breathing like we just sprinted
>lean in at same time, clumsy noses bump
>giggle, then kiss
>first touch just lip gloss and hesitation
>second touch opens floodgates
>she tastes like the mint tea she always drinks
>hands slide under hoodies, find skin, both gasp at how warm
>somehow my hoodie is off, then my binder
>she kisses down throat, stops at trachea, murmurs “cute” like it’s a prayer
>flip her onto back, straddle, feel her hard through thin cotton panties
>grind slow, watch her eyes roll, dimple gone because mouth open
>she pulls me down, whispers “please touch me like you saw”
>shiver, nod, slide hand into waistband
>she’s slick, hot, heat pulsing against my wrist
>stroke her the way I touch myself when I pretend it’s someone else: slow circles under head, thumb pressing frenulum
>hips buck, sheets fisted
>use other hand to pop my own button, push her fingers into my panties
>breath syncs, room fills with wet sounds and tiny moans
>she cums first, whole body arching off mattress, cum stripes my forearm
>watch her face flush, feel power surge through me like prog shot straight to brain
>keep stroking through aftershocks until she whines oversensitive
>then she flips us, hand between my legs, two fingers sliding inside easy from how wet
>“good girl,” she pants, “let me see”

>legs fall open, hoodie bunched under head like halo
>she curls fingers, finds spot, world narrows to her rhythm
>other hand pinches nipple exactly how she pinched her own earlier
>crest hits fast, vision whites out, cum with high squeak I’ve never made before
>she keeps going until I sob, then gentles, kisses tears off temples
>after, we lie sticky and shaking, led strip now stuck on soft lavender
>she traces circle around my areola, whispers
>”wanna shower together before RA does rounds?”
>nod, cling to her like she’s the last lifeboat
>under warm water she washes my back with peppermint soap, kisses each shoulder blade
>return favor, palms gliding over hip dips I used to hate
>both soft again but keep kissing anyway
>sleep in same bed that night, legs tangled, her hair in my mouth and I don’t care
>wake up to morning light and her fingers already lazily tracing my slit
>round two slower, mouths tasting like sleep and secrets
>realize housing lottery didn’t screw me after all
>sometimes the universe gives you a passoid roommate who also wants to kiss your trauma away
>we never close the door when changing again

how many times did you jerk off writing this

>>41458304
zero

>>41458207 (OP)
Oh goddess it's so sexy. Do you have an ao3 where you write like this?

>>41459895
Some suggestions:
> Boymoder is an mtf term. I don't expect a 'slit' on one of them and the ones that do doesn't get wet.
> Mtf aap of her own pretroon body? Especially a *passable* one? Most mtfs you ask would be disgusted of those pictures
> This is female writing, female pov and the twist is the protag is transmasc, seriously?
> "kiss your trauma away" - show, not tell, sis.
Please write the full version.

>>41460000
>Boymoder is an mtf term. I don't expect a 'slit' on one of them and the ones that do doesn't get wet.
by 'slit' i meant her asshole but i see how that could be confusing
> Mtf aap of her own pretroon body?
i just thought it was funny lol
>protag is transmasc
no the protag is mtf
> show, not tell, sis
yeah i agree that line sucked i shouldve removed it. im sorry for letting you down ill do better next time :(

>>41458236
lmao was she really jerking off to her own transition timeline? You should've called her an agp pervert and left

>>41462094
she was jerking it to her boy pics which is aap which is fembrained imo

>>41461966
> im sorry for letting you down ill do better next time :(
No, nonono. As erotica, it was very, very sexy and I throughly enjoyed it. Probably you wrote this to get critique from troons here, and become a better writer.
> i just thought it was funny lol
Yeah, but not pretty realistic:
> be you
> be amab
> you have a sexy body
> You however are female, and thus disgusted, and I *mean* utterly disgusted about your body
> So you sacrifice friends, family, and social capital (double points: saying "I miss you mom" like it hurts, so you even emphasized her loss) to troon out
> She's a luckshit, so she passes
> Then she becomes a flaming lesbo (?) or at least bi
> AND jerks off to her pretroon body?
> Aggravated: Her *fucking timeline*?
So an mtf aap *chaser*? Yeeeeeeah...

> both stare at led strip cycling pink-blue-pink
Clueless protag is clueless

> shake head so hard ponytail whips my own cheek
Okay: 8 am calc, ready to die
Okay: boymoder... still in hoodie armor every day
Otherwise, you need a pretty luckshit face, or boymode hard.

> lashes long enough to cast shadows
Typical ftm writing, eyelashes cause ftm dysphoria. But afaik, they don't grow on hrt.

> that was T day minus 90
Day T-90, or Day D-90
To avoid confusion, use a more fembrained term, like: *It was taken 90 days before my transition/HRT/(first shot of) E*

> her hand is down cotton panties, moving slow circles
That's how you jerk off post-op. You might have forgotten she has a shaft. If she has a micropenis, that's okay. If she wants to pretend (dysphoric), her hands would be *over* her panties

> she never changes in front of mirror,
A passoid girlmoding mtf? Unless she was brainwormed and boymoding, but even then no.

>>41458207 (OP)
pretty good, thought protagonist was ftm for a second but overall it’s really sweet, unashamedly adding this to my collection

>>41461966
> always keeps bottom drawer locked
That's a clear and present opsec risk especially when pranks are possible (such as in a college dorm). If she's passoid and girlmoding, she has nothing to hide. E and injection kit has far better places to hide in an opsec safe way, and if she has any other safe place than the dorm, she'd build her hrt around it (EUn needs only 10 min/mo to do, and in the meanwhile the kit can be hidden in a very safe place. A kit can be hidden in a cored book, a hdd caddy, a mouse case or a dvd jewel case on a clean, opsec safe way.)

>”I thought YOU were cis”
>be me
>20yo boymoder
"You pass".
"Lol you don't hon."
How romantic. If she wanted to say you pass, she'd have she/her'd the protagonist since day 1 or waay before midterms week, which is a clear and present opsec risk for the protag.

> neon light strip
Set in the past or the scond world?

> but actually watch in peripheral like a creep
And Junie doesn't notice, and the protag, worried about opsec waking up at/staying up til 0300 hours to shower doesn't notice her back, and Junie doesn't notice that back...
... And she survives until midterms with 4-5 hrs of sleep a day, Goddess she's good.

>feel my own underwear get instantly soaked
Nooo, she doesn't. Not unless she's afab. Precum is a few drops, an erection is far more noticeable.

> then my binder
>”I thought YOU were cis”
Double points for Junie calling the protag a turbohon
No fucking way someone's cispassing with a binder to an mtf well-versed in the latest /tttt/ brainworms. So at best she'd thought the protag was a girlmoding ftm, optimally a luckshit mtf egg.

> then my binder
That's a huge trans flag thus both uncomfortable (mtfs start prog after 6 mos-1 yr, so her breasts are still growing) and a huge opsec risk. (So protag, and not Junie needs to lock her bottom drawer where she keeps her binder, female underwear and any girlmode clothes/makeup/accessories)

>>41461966
> stops at trachea, murmurs “cute” like it’s a prayer
Translation: Nice adam's apple, HOOON

> the way I touch myself when I pretend it’s someone else: slow circles under head, thumb pressing frenulum
As far as I remember this was pretty hot, but I'm post-op, maybe a preop mtf could lector this? Post-op, our clit is the tip of the glans.

> keep stroking through aftershocks until she whines oversensitive
Depends, but as far as I remember, amab bodies doesn't really have that good of an aftershock tolerance

> hand between my legs, two fingers sliding inside easy from how wet
> amab
Maybe, Junie's hand is probably wet from cum and precum. Asses and neovaginas usually don't get wet, especially not for continous penetration. Ymmv.

> before RA does rounds
Unless it's a catholic school, or under a trump trans ban or something, they aren't in trouble for simply having sex. It's college.

> wake up to morning light and her fingers already lazily tracing my slit
> amab
Nope. Buttcheeks maybe, between the cheeks not without aking the protag, the anus definitely not.

>>41463515
>>41463366
>>41463190
>>41461966
> yeah i agree that line sucked i shouldve removed it.
No, that line is great, but a but unexpected, SHOW the protag traumatized before telling that her gf kisses her trauma off. Make her earn that line.

> transphobia
Being forced to boymode due to brainworms and/or transphobia is little t and continous. That means she'll compartmentalize during, and will crash after.
Valid if you show her low self-esteem (boymoding, brainwormed, double points if malefailing, triple if junie actually boyremoves her) however her loss should be a bit more present.

tl; dr:
Believable trans erotica is hard.
You nailed the erotica part without a doubt.
The trans part... is a bit off.
Write them cis les and you're golden.

Obvious chatgpt is obvious

>>41463607
i wish i could get chatgpt to make stuff like this

>>41463894
No through the frontend desu
> docker-compose up sillytavern
> Get an openrouter account
> Get usdc (same as you pay for your e with)
> ???
> Generate erotic lit
> Unlimited therapy at 1% of the cost of what you pay for your therapist.

>>41463607
Where desu?
The greentext was written legit (all-lowercase, shitty punctuation grammar errors, esl mistakes, plot holes)

>>41463607
what makes u say that? i cant tell this is ai

>>41463945
>>41464024
Not gonna tell you how to improve your botnet Sammy boy

>>41464524
>>>/g/
A cancerous place where (You) belong

>>41464592
>WHAT??? YOU'RE NOT SPOONFEEDING ME?!!! REDDIT!!!! REDDITTTT!!!!!!!!!
lol