>>41459390
I think you ultimately have to accept that whoever you are with will necessarily have to find you attractive for being a tranny. The important distinction is that they don't love you BECAUSE you're a tranny, but they love that you ARE a tranny. They love that you are special and different and have changed your life on your own terms to pursue your own happiness. They love your body, and they love the way it is unique. I think coming to terms with being transgender is something that is necessary. I don't mean glorifying it, but rather just accepting that it is what you are, although not necessarily WHO you are. I don't know. I still feel bad that I just can't be a girl, however that comes mostly from not passing, not being biologically male. What makes me happy is being feminine and happy and beautiful. I've come to find that I don't care if I'm born male or female, it only matters if I'm able to do that to the best of my ability. As it stands now, I'm a boymoder, I need FFS. It makes me sad that I can't assimilate and just be a girl, regardless of what's between my legs. Being able to be just as beautiful and capable as any female even when I'm trans and was born male is honestly like an achievement to me, it makes me proud of myself. It's something to shoot for, not something to feel ashamed of. Life would be easier if I were born female, but I also wouldn't be me, and I think I love the person I'm becoming.