Thread 41542181

Sucking dicks edition
>QOTT: How many dicks have you sucked? Do you enjoy it?

Previous thread: >>41505702

4, and i only enjoyed it maybe once. Just not a sexual person with other people i dont think, but im a massive disgusting degenerate pervert with fucked up fantasies when alone, so it's whatever

Used to suck my own when I was younger, more flexible. Made my back hurt like hell.
As for other people’s dicks? Nada. Either I meet someone irl and I’m way too awkward to instigate anything, or I try to hook up online and invariably get cold feet and ghost at the last minute.

>>41542181 (OP)
>"i can't just whore myself out like that, my first time needs to be special"
>special time has yet to materialize in front of me

>>41542412
if you can get one, then go for it. All my casual encounters have been embarrassing or extremely unfulfilling at best

im a virgin i've kissed a girl once but i was like 12 years old and didn't actually like her. also i spent my entire teenage life in an all male private school so i didn't really have much opportunities either. there was one time a guy in my class said i looked like a girl from behind (i had long hair back then) and that it made him horny.

>>41542181 (OP)
waow what an edition
3 and yes because i like attention

>It's 2033.
>The nuclear war in the mid 2020s enveloped the entire globe in a seemingly endless winter. The skies are black with soot, and the snow below you is a mushy gray. It's hard to breathe out here, but you're almost home.
>The metro tunnels below the city you resided in accidentally became the best shelter when greed and madness ruined everything for everyone, even though they're starting to feel a little tight. You're part of a community of survivors in one of the tunnels, and you're proud that you've made it this far. You all work together for mutual survival, and the labor makes you forget the more... unusual parts of your character.
>No matter, there's nothing that can be done about that now.
>...
>You didn't want to do it, but what else were you supposed to do? 80% of the world's population has died, and someone needed to repopulate the world. You talked with a girl, and got drunk.... and when you woke up, it was done. Hopefully your kids will do this out of love someday, and not obligation.

>It's 2048.
>You now have twins, a boy and a girl.
>There was an explosion of population in the past decade, and the tunnels are a lot tighter now. Your knees hurt from the endless physical labor, you look way older than you actually are, and your wife passed away a year ago.
>Even with all this, it was worth it. The temperature above has increased, and plants seem to be growing somewhat. You got the short end of the stick, but at least your kids will live in a better world.
>"Dad?"
>"Yes, Agni?"
>"I want to talk to you about something..."
>Oh no.
>"W-what is it, boy?"
>He's shaking.
>"Dad... I don't think I want to be a man. I don't like who I'm growing to be. I'm growing taller and my voice is getting deeper, but I want to keep looking like my sister. This hurts. Dad, please... what do I do?"

What do you do?

>>41542673
>yeah me too man shit sucks anyway help me cook this rat for dinner

>>41542181 (OP)
only just barely my own when i was in my teens and i can't even do that anymore, it was okay but even when i could it was awfully uncomfortable for my back
not gay so no desire to do anything else

>>41542181 (OP)
>QOTT
approximately 12 and yeah i like it

>>41542181 (OP)
>How many dicks have you sucked?
at least eight. maybe nine, i'm not sure because i was too drunk to remember
>Do you enjoy it?
yes it's probably the hottest thing to me

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

I have never had sex nor will I ever. I think the idea of it is hot but the reality is observably disgusting. Its the closet you can get to another person without physically fusing and that sound horrifying.

>>41543106
>I think the idea of it is hot but the reality is observably disgustin
So many of my fantasies are absolutely disgusting and vomit inducing irl but make me tingly in fantasy, so i know the feel

i am a straight moid and would never suck cock, like i am legit not attracted to men except when im fantasizing myself as a hot anime girl

>>41543066
same repster, same. Maybe in another life sis <3

>>41543576
anime guys can be hot, but 3dpd. Real men just annoy the fuck out of me, especially if they're not stoic and reserved.

>>41543589
>especially if they're not stoic and reserved.
Stoic and reserved guys are the annoying ones. Not as bad as the aggro ones but pretty bad. Shy guys are cutest.

>>41543721
What about stoic reserved guys that are actually big cuddly sweethearts in private?
>captcha: nmaga

>>41543721
Naah, the ones who constantly have to try to be "funny" and "extroverted" annoy me more. Feels too try hard. Aggro is really bad too of course. A lot of shy guys come with being reserved, so that's fine.

>>41543736
<3

Anyone else here deeply relate to him?

>>41543782
No? What? Who?

>>41543742
I just associate stoic and reserved with "straight out will not talk about his thoughts or feelings even in private" and that gets irritating after a while.

>>41542181 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

Aging in this flesh prison. Balder, more masculine features.

fuck it all, cant believe men are ok with actually being men. How could anyone. Shits fucking traumatizing

>>41544037
I think I just might

>>41544222
Aging sucks for women too. It sucks less because they still get tonnes of attention, but it still sucks. The only thing that doesn't suck is being an anime girl. You can be young and beautiful for eternity.

>>41544037
Yeah probably.

>>41544351
i mean at least they keep their hair (mostly) and other bits. I want to murder the guy in the mirror and seeing old men is triggerring, anime is nice thouhg

fuck it all

yeah so like can i have divine intervention for the sole purpose of being turned into a hot anime girl

>>41544484
Maybe we should start a religion. If we all pray hard enough maybe the universe will manifest our desires.

>>41544351
If I had the ability, I'd transform this dimension into an anime world where nobody has to actually suffer what we go through. There would be negative emotions, yes, but nothing compared to the cruelty of the realm we reside in.
Nobody would be born with disabilities or things they do not deserve, everyone would age amazingly well, I'd maybe add some superpowers here and there, and most importantly, every repper from this realm would turn into an anime girl. If I had the power of a god, I'd do a better job than the current big guy.
If heaven ever has a democratic debate on who they want to be god, you know who to vote for.

Has anyone tried to learn lucid dreaming so that they can be a woman in their dreams? Is that an effective cope?

>>41544559
it's a great cope until you wake up. Try to condition yourself to look at a watch, and it it "jumps around" you know its a dream

>>41544550
i think everyone not a repper from this world should be turned into hot anime girl bimbos anyway

>>41544559
i actually tried this for a bit a few times, but i always give up eventually lol
it shows results pretty fast (at least it did for me, got my first lucid dream in my first week of trying), but the problem is that it's too shaky and doesn't last long at all. most of the time you wake up within 5 minutes of becoming lucid, and even if you last as long as possible, you can't ever go further than an hour or so (about one sleep cycle at the end of your sleep), but this is almost god tier dream control, and completely unrealistic unless you already have natural lucid dreams. if you're worried about vividity, it's only about as real as your real life, if you stay dissociated all day your dream senses will reflect that.
there's also the whole "you have to wake up eventually" which might be painful, so idk man lotta effort for not that much relief.

>>41544130
Accidentally clicked on the wrong repgen and ??? What the fuck are they talking about

>>41544037
i did today but i'm still ugly and stupid

does anyone else need to decypher their emotions based on your physical response to them, like realizing having a high heart rate and having sweaty palms equals anxiety, instead of having an innate feel for them?
sometimes i go on insane, emotionally charged rants here and when i finish posting, i have no idea where that came from, the only trace i felt something is the post and nothing else. i feel completely empty.

i need someone to call me a failure for taking hrt at 30

I have a list sex since 2010 with 31 names on it and I sucked almost all of them

>>41544630
>it shows results pretty fast (at least it did for me, got my first lucid dream in my first week of trying)
interesting, but how vivid or memorable were your dreams before attempting any lucidity strats? mine aren't vivid or memorable, so i feel i'd be waiting a bit longer than just 1 week to see any results

>>41545500
>interesting, but how vivid or memorable were your dreams before attempting any lucidity strats?
not that vivid, though i usually remember an incomprehensible piece of a dream every time i wake up. i think it depends on how quickly your dreams "update", so to speak. for example, start doing reality checks every time you go through a door and see how long that habit takes to show up in your dreams. when i did this, it took 3 days.
also mind you that just because it worked once very quickly, it doesn't mean i got lucid every night after that. it's pretty random.

>battle abuse, hardship, stalking, rape and resulting child for a year
>come out the other end as a happy woman
>child support means I can no longer afford rent
>move in with my parents and immediately get told that if I dress feminine my dad will throw a fit and that I shouldnt do it

Why is life so cruel. I dont want to rep anymore please...

>>41545680
how were you rsped?

>>41545728
Was in an abusive comphet relationship with a cis woman and when I left she threatened to kill herself unless I came back to our house, then pressured me into sex after I said no multiple times

>>41545756
this isn't rape. this is you not taking responsibility for your actions. she didnt have power over you you werent trapped with her you willfully entered the relationship again. I hate people like you like dumb pieces of shit who are 20 years pld and say they were groomed.

>>41545782
nta and I don't say this often, but this is terminally malebrained on your part.

>>41545782
I wasnt groomed I was raped retard. She threatened to kill herself and then pressured me into sex against my will while I cried. This is literally rape.

>>41545804
oh no the truth is male!
>>41545813
you're in the same toilet as the ones who do. its the current year fake @metoo is out getting bent over the couch and getting fingers forced in you so rough you bleed is in

>>41544512
askion kataski
I WANT TO BE HOT ANIME GIRL

>>41545315
stupid dumb dumb failure... failure....

I bet nobody in this whole thread is actually 100% exclusively androphilic like I am.

This site is just getting worse

i only ever sucked my own penis
i have a really nice penis so it's okay

i conversely never sucked my own penis because its hideous and disgusting

i NEED to become a hot anime girl HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO DEAL WITH BEING A FUGLY 3DPD MOID

by the time I realized and admitted I had cocklust I was already old and busted sadly. I still fantasize about it from time to time but I think that ship has sailed.

Relationships are just so full of hatred

>>41542181 (OP)
QOTT: Never sucked any dick.
One kinky coworker who I told I was bi was really interested in my sexual habits.
When I told him I was basically I monk, he got a lot colder.
I probably disappointed him. And missed some opportunities.

>>41547064
Top right is the only easy mode. Would love any of the others to be easy, actually.
>>41544944
How long have you been hrting?

>>41544550
THAT'S MY FUCKING GOAT MARUKI

I'm in Japan atm and everyone is so fucking good looking and dressed immaculately. I know it's kind of biased because the ugly Japanese are probably sitting at home playing games instead of out with their girlfriends, but damn it's hard being here and seeing how good everyone looks.

i want to be hot anime girl being hot anime manhandled by a hot anime dude

>>41542181 (OP)
Zero. I thought I was bi in my teens because I lusted after some anime boys and my best friend, but then I took a masturbation break of a week and when I went back to it I avoided looking at gay porn because I was paranoid that my dad put a keylogger on my PC (he did so it was the right call). It's been like a decade since I popped a boner over a dude but I still call myself bi at work to not be boring.

>>41549085
also>>41542181 (OP) this will include sucking hot anime boy cock ofc

would you become a woman if you were a cis female but you had a HUGE clit like a jumbo swollen clit that surgery could not fix and when you got hard your cis fem pickle poked out a little?

>>41549204
well sure, lots of cis women have that already so would be normal

Anyone knows how frenchie is nowadays

>>41549204
sure, if it's big enough it'd be like being able to keep my dick while still being an normal XX woman which would be alright by me

>think women are hot
>not sexually attracted to them
>don't think men are hot (in an androphilic sense)
>exclusively sexually attracted to them
fuck this cursed sexuality man. i hate meta attraction so much, i can't even just be a faggot because gay shit isn't hot at all.

>>41549851
Yea? Well, my boyfriend is super hot, and lets me dress up as a girl when he fucks me, and calls me by the feminine version of my arm, and loves loves loves me a lot.

>>41542181 (OP)
>QOTT: How many dicks have you sucked? Do you enjoy it?
sucked 39. Enjoyed all except one (said he was hung. he wasn't and couldn't get hard. the rest varied from a nice, gentle suck to a forceful facefucking.
50 guys have sucked my cock. all did a decent job.

>>41549620
still a pedo

>>41549851
So real
I am waiting for daddy Elon to hook my brain up with his neural chips making me normal
hopefully within a decade or so

>>41548885
maruki did nothing wrong

>>41542181 (OP)
Two. I gagged and threw up both times before it even really started because I'm bad with unfamiliar tastes.
I'll never have a patient partner to work through it with kek

>>41549851
Sexually attracted to women, don't like having a relationship or sex with them because my brain isn't wired for being a man in a straight relationship (duh)

I wish I was attracted to men so bad, but no amount of porn (2d or 3d) or gaslighting, or anything else has made that happen. It's all just fantasies based around scratching other psychological itches. Wonder if the HRT/pills would've helped with that if I wasn't such a repfag. Oh well, fantasies it is

>>41544037
why? I will never be a cis woman

>>41550659
don't you want to be a man with come tits pointing in opposition directions on your giant ribcage?

>>41542571
is that you anon in the pic.

>>41550783
Someone like that posting in repgen (unless they got lost...)? anon please

>>41550783
no wtf? im a repper why would i look like that

Remember, if you rep you NEVER have to deal with the subhumans known as ftm

>>41551102
Why would I deal with them if I put on the dress?

>>41542181 (OP)
I've sucked this one chaser off
Im still his side hoe

I want an actual relationship but I feel like i have no way to meet people.

>>41542181 (OP)
One. About a year ago. His cum tasted so bad that it put me off sucking cock. I gagged on the taste and texture and have never done it again. Strictly a top now.

>>41549085
>iwn date a kind nerdy muscular man who sees me as a woman and holds me like that
god gave us the gift of imagination so we could suffer psychic damage when reality does not match it. damn you demiurge!

>>41550895
tbf last thread we had a girlmoder posting selfies talking about having a repper stare

>>41549851
I'm into men, but I know better not to trust men

I resisted the urge to order HRT but I'm already getting new year's blues about not transitioning...

>>41552187
sounds like a skill issue ngl

>>41552201
+1 upvote

>Start doing skincare as a cope
>Face looks a lot better but it's kinda uncanny
>Like I've got a weirdly androgynous face in some ways but not in an attractive way
>Beard shadow and other masculine things like that just stand out all the more prominently now
>Brain starts screaming that it's not enough and I need to troon and/or I'll never make it look at how uncanny this is I should give up and be a pizza face
I just can't fucking win.

>>41552881
>men with good skin: "I'm basically a woman"
You're retarded.

>>41553075
I am retarded, but no, the androgyny has more to do with my face shape, eyes, and mouth, not the skin. Stuff even my family has told me about. The skin just makes shit like beard shadow and brow ridge look worse to me, and that triggers my tranny brain.

>>41551291
How did you meet him?

>like long hair
>also pull my hair out when stressed (which is often)
ugh

>>41552881
sounds like you're probably quite attractive
androgynous features balance out a face whether masc or fem
keep up the skincare and you will grow to love your face more over time nona

>>41553623
I don't know, the problem is that taking care of myself was supposed to be a cope that helps me rep, but instead it's made me want to transition more.

>used to goon to my own soft pale body
>years later and I'm scarred with self harm, acne and hives, stretch marks, etc
I really should kill myself

youtube keeps giving me lingerie ads

>>41553719
Youtube has started trying to make me watch trans streamers and political channels. Which is funny because now the front page is some mix of Tim Pool or some other fucker I used to watch religiously talking about "insane tranny does x!" next to videos like "tgirl plays rimworld!" It's absolutely schizo, which is fitting for how I feel at this point.

>>41553645
i totally get it. it's confusing.
plz keep looking after yourself either way <3

>>41553820
Seems a lot like /lgbt/

>>41552881
I wish I had good skin, always been dry as fuck

>>41553944
Truly a microcosm of the war within ourselves.

>>41544351
>You can be young and beautiful for eternity.
Cybernetic body modding is going to be epic for this reason.

>>41554238
and we're going to be long dead before it happens, or so mind broken we no longer care

post your most controversial lgbt take.

>>41554437
shouldnt be allowed to get married and adopt children

note: this only applies to same sex couples

>>41554437
I think there is a legitimate issue of social contagion with aydens and afabs legitimate need screening and restrictions on their access to affirming care.
That said if I felt more comfortable being enby or something as a man I'd probably do that as a cope knowing I'll never be a woman and can't transition but it's close enough, so maybe I'm entirely wrong

been on tramadol all day

repressing is all good, trooning is all good

ur all good people i love you

>>41554437
A lot of it just stems from bullying and harsh gender roles.

>>41554557
I love you too
Do opioids cure dysphoria?

>>41554437
Gay men are genderless and soulless. No masculine charm or feminine beauty

>>41554640
yes i just feel warm and fuzzy and nice thoughts about everyone

i cant believe im a tranny, one life and im a tranny. but its ok. im a failure and a loser and its ok. i embrace being a tranny like i embrace my death. i love destroying myself. i love to dispel all my illusions and fall into the abyss. hit the limit of my psychology and ability to understand myself. i love everyone, we are all in this together. call me a disgusting tranny freak as i love you with all my heart

>>41554437
i hate ftms as they started out with what i want, yet still decided they'd rather fuck themselves up looking like fruity framelets rather than just be female
even that aside, ftms have it easier when trooning out, as a lot can pass decently well, while mtfs only pass about 1% of the time with even the upper echelon of passing trannies still looking like men wearing female skinsuits
also you shouldn't be called she/her/whatever if you don't pass in at least BOTH appearance and voice, which discounts about 99.95% of all mtf trannies

Any pseudo-dysphoria reppers here?

I genuinely feel like I don't know what I actually look like anymore. every time I look in a mirror it feels different and offputting

Is there any chance I’ll be happy if I start transitioning? I’m 25 so I know it’s already over but I’ve done everything I can to change myself and be a normal straight man and it just isn’t possible. I hate being a tranny and I hate being attracted to men but at this point I give up I can’t fix it and I can’t take pretending anymore. Is there any hope?

>>41555250
You could just be a gay man

>>41555250
We all hate being trans we just do it anyway

>>41555067
i want to murder the person in the mirror

>>41555250
i mean i trooned at 25 after being seriously suicidal and while iwn pass i did get a lot happier and it went a lot better than i expected. but i had nothing to lose really

>>41542181 (OP)
30 or more. Yes.

Why can't the World Economic Forum forcefem everyone?

How do you know if you're actually trans and want to transition? I absolutely love how I can look in feminine clothing meanwhile when I'm just a normal cis dude I'm neutral/a bit sad with how I look. But I wonder if Idon't see what I'd like to be, but rather who I'd like to be with. Kinda like how some dudes transition because they want to become their girlfriends/exes/women their interested in. I really wish I could look into an alternate reality where I do transition and see how it affects me.
>>41554904
Seems fairly common in here. Sexuality and identity are very complicated so it makes sense for some people to feel somewhere closer to the center of two extremes. Or maybe I'm just projecting like an asshole.

>>41542673
explain to him there is no more hrt and he realistically has to rep or commit suicide. however YOU aren’t actually in this position so get on hrt

>>41556151
Hey you don't know, maybe the post-apocalyptic society has gone back to the ancient ways and you can drink pregnant mare piss.

Turn me into a hot anime girl RIGHT FUCKING NOW

>QOTT: How many dicks have you sucked?
I've only sucked one dick, but I lost track of how many times I've sucked it a long time ago.
>Do you enjoy it?
Probably.

wtf is a repressor

>>41545315
Is very normal go have a hose phase hook up 5+ times a week for a few years then get married uwu

>>41542673
cut his balls off ASAP and start scavenging for hrt, after she's old enough to fend for herself I'll valiantly sacrifice my life fighting a zombie horde or whatever to protect her at the first available opportunity

i want to become a hot anime girl I DESERVE AT LEAST THIS MUCH
being a tranny would not be an acceptable substitute

>know I'm an ugly man who will never pass
>transition anyway because minimum positive affirmation broke me
>I'm an ugly troon who will never be a woman
>detrans and rep, this time with breasts on my male body
fuck

No point in living if I weren't born female

>only ever goon to fantasies of bottoming as a woman
it's so over

>>41557902
Someone who is on hrt and girlmoding

>>41542181 (OP)
>qott
none, and I'm somewhat surprised by the amount of ppl claiming they sucked their own here. mine is way too small for that to even be remotely possible.
>>41554904
me I think, I'm fairly sure my dysphoria is caused by psychosis or some other mental illness. I think I've always felt somewhat uncomfortable fitting into the male role in society, but it never gave me so much discomfort I'd consider trooning (but to be fair I only learned about trannies when it was way too late for me anyways).
Recently it's gotten a lot worse, and I strongly believe that it's caused by some other mental disorder, I simply share too little of the common symptoms, feelings etc. actual trannies have.

Post results, it takes about 15 minutes:
http://openpsychometrics.org/tests/FSIQ/

>>41560760
before or after my brain drain sissy hypnosis session?

>>41550557
TRUTH NUKE

>>41560760
i think the verbal iq is biased since i'm not a native english speaker (tho to be fair the whole iq thing is biased)

>>41542181 (OP)
> How many dicks have you sucked ?
5, all of them being trannies (mixed between hrt / not yet on hrt)
> Do you enjoy it ?
Yes, but the thing i enjoy most is a tranny making me suck her dick

>>41560991
giwtwm

>>41544559
Tried doing this after I saw someone on /x/ mentioning the same thing, but all my attempts ended in failure or in lucid nightmares.

Hair was getting too long so I cut it short again, don't even care anymore. I wish I could have long hair that didn't look like shit on my male skull but that just isn't possible.

>>41561056
it's actually rly not that hard, i'm a gigahon and i managed to do it, so can you

you only have to find an irl community, and you will inevitably eventually meet some chill trannies who will be down for it

>>41561115
I was a semi-passing twinkhon and I never found a local community tbhon

ITT: a lot of cocksuckers apparently

>>41561165
damn what's next? traditionally feminine hobbies?

I would suck his frog, if you know what I mean

I cant believe how long its been. Ive felt this way since like 4th grade

why does this hurt so much? they're only thoughts, so why do I feel physical pain?

I feel like my algorithm is determined to show me men being miserable and woman being happy, so i just play videogames and go to bed thinking about how nice things could have been if i had been born female, i really think my gender is the only aspect of my life i’d change if i could everything else is fine is just getting tiring to be male in this world

>>41561284
Because they aren't only thoughts

After every shower I inspect my face in the mirror and its insane how masculine my face looks. I couldn't even be a feminine man if I tried let alone a woman. Its just so tiresome.

>>41561624
I think my face is okay but god when I snap a pic of my profile or tilt my head up or down

>>41561284
The brain processes emotional pain the exact same way it does physical pain. In a mental sense, one is not less real than the other.

>>41561624
I have the facial structure of the German bad guys in war movies

what I hate the most about being a man is not having cleavage

>>41561165
god forbid a man have hobbies
>>41561624
i'm genuinely considering getting another bedsheet to put over my bathroom mirror so I don't have to deal with it. feels like it'd be more depressing though

>>41561624
I spent 2 years almost completely avoiding mirrors and covering my face with a mask whenever I went outside or was around other people. I miss coronachan, made repping much more tolerable.

I wish I were a woman

Feeling better since detransitioning. I feel like ssris have helped.

Lost my job
Lost a tgirl I've been seeing for almost three years now
6'1 and 32 and simply never able to pass
I have enough money to get by for maybe a year but after that I'm actually done

>>41563617
I feel worse but it's not a debilitating destructive kind of worse so by most respects I'm better? I'm never happy but I'm also not attempting, which I was when I was transitioned

>>41563646
What'd you work as? Surely you can find something else within a year
Trannies are nothing, you can love again

>>41563617
Hoping that ssris will fix me.

>>41559869
>try to jerk off to solo girl stuff
>end up always imagining and fantasizing about being them

>>41564398
jesus christ i will not touch this fucker with a ten foot pole. actual psychosis.

>>41564426
>Who Made This Trash? | The New Norm

Ironic.

>>41563617
>>41563758
good luck bros. i've been on effexor for a few months and it's helping a bunch

>>41564426
i have no idea who you're replying to but i just checked out the channel and holy shit, this is the kind of person i genuinely hate even though i try my best not to.
>not even a hon, just a feminine dude
>pseudo-intellectual video essays
>no voice training
>constantly talks about tranny topics

like god damn how do you live like this? are these the consequences of being too open-minded and saying "everyone is valid"?
is this even a tranny?

>>41564636
They're a detrans repressor and the original video was them talking about how they're starting to transition again
I thought it was funny but it's just sad so I deleted the post

>>41561165
>if a repper shitposts a thousand times and sucks one dick people don't call him a shitposter

>>41554904
pseudo-dysphoria repper checking in.
I don't know what to make of my life any more, *something* is going on even if it's not being transgender specifically it's clear I have a few screws loose. Right now I work long hours in a dissociated haze and occasionally cd on the weekends with tasteless agp outfits.

>>41554904
Right here, I'm a very mentally ill cis man who convinced himself that he wants to be a woman.

>>41554904
i'm a nondysphoric repper

What are repchads drinking tonight? I'm drinking shots of straight vodka. Also, I saw someone violently puking in front of the liquor store in their car with the radio blaring, just felt the need to mention that.

>>41568717
nothing sadly, I have too much to do tomorrow

I've had feelings of sadness about not transitioning and giving it a try but now, few weeks later they're kind of gone.

Sure I don't like who I look in the mirror but that's normal, I'm not attracted to men. I just look okayish.

Idk what happened that suddenly I don't care about transitioning. I think it happened when I was gifted some lingerie. I always thought it would be fun to get gifts on throne, but now you have this requirement to wear it, and I don't like that feeling. I'd get something similar if I transitioned I think, this requirement to look feminine ALL the time. It's a scary thought, I don't think I could do it. It wouldn't feel like me I think.

But I also hate myself so I dunno, well lately I kinda don't feel anything about myself. Just numbness, indifference

>>41568067
I also just let weeks go by, I don't crossdress but I do present as trans online. I like the attention it gets me, more people are willing to talk to me, like my nudes etc. but I often feel like I need to drop the act. But I'm worried I'll lose all the benefits without all the negatives (social transition)

Anyways my hair somehow got thin in one year, or it felt like it got thin over the course of 6 months, since I started working in a factory. I'm slowly approaching 26 so maybe that's also the thing.

Oh well.... I'll just let myself age, I don't think I'm a woman, I don't want to put the effort into being a woman, I think I just want to be someone interesting and trans women were the thing I clung to, I always liked how they looked and all their hobbies. But I'm too stupid for computer science, coding, fighting games, etc. I'm a extremely boring, numb, dissociating loser who only plays multiplayer games and can't form his own opinions

>>41561115
Yeah they'd be down because most are men who never had this attention or sex and now they're hypersexual transgender women.

>Also fuck, I've sucked one dick, my ex's, trans girl on hrt, miss it but it hurt my jaw cuz it's massive

it always pains me seeing you all when i feel this was me barely a year ago. please get on hrt things do get better even if its slow

>>41569757
I don't think I need hrt, i just need irl friends which are impossible to get because I'm so socially awkward and therapy for my depression which I've been delaying because I'm worried it's a waste of money plus don't want to be given an anti depressant that makes me even more emotionless and numb

if i was a hot anime girl my life would have been perfect
literally all of my problems would be solved if i wake up as a hot anime girl the next morning

>>41570301
Not even cis women look like anime girls, what are you on about

>>41554437
As long as you push the top and bottom pornbrain meme shit, I will never respect any of you as people

I wish I was an anime boy who had the ability to turn into an anime girl

>>41570375
i just know being a hot anime girl would fix literally everything wrong with my 3dpd moid life
no point trooning i just rep and rotmaxx until i become hot anime girl one morning

>>41570375
No shit. Men can't be women regardless so we may as well aim as high as possible.

>>41569757
I dont want to be a tranny

I DON'T FUCKING WANT TO BE A MAN

>>41542181 (OP)
>QOTT:
zero obviously I'm KHHV until I reincarnate
why are other reppers such whores wtf

>>41570690
if I fell into the Nyannīchuan I would sell my hot water heater immediately and happily take cold showers for the rest of my life

Why are there so many genderbending anime?

>>41570830
theres not enough THOUGH

>>41570830
overworked Japanese salarymen just want to relax in an escapist fantasy world
what's more relaxing than becoming a cute anime girl?
>picrel: This Is Screwed Up, but I Was Reincarnated as a GIRL in Another World!

>>41568717
it's morning now technically but I'm drinking some red wine

>>41569757
I did that for years. There's no point if you won't pass and advising otherwise is abuse

>>41569757
It won't

>>41570870
I want to do daily routines as a hot anime girl

Is swallowing really supposed to be a big deal?
I'm really into CEI, and through lot of time and tries have desensitized myself to it. I don't know if it's because mine is not a lot and bland, but once you overcome the mental barrier it's really not gross at all.
Kinda disappointing because now It doesn't turn me on as much.

>>41549851
>>41550644
Same.
I fucking hate my sexuality so much, and on top of that I'm also autistic, so it's hopeless to ever satisfy it.
It's like having a broken leg that cannot walk at all and also causes chronic pain. Pointless and a biological mistake. I wish I could remove it like that leg, one of my biggest

>>41549851 #
>>41550644 #
Same.
I fucking hate my sexuality so much, and on top of that I'm also autistic, so it's hopeless to ever satisfy it.
It's like having a half developed leg that cannot walk at all and also causes chronic pain. Pointless and a biological mistake. I wish I could remove it like that leg, one of my biggest resons to troon out is to solve that if is even possible.

being able to live as a hot anime girl should be a human right

>attracted to women and only interested in men in terms of forcefem
another one for the list of why I'm not really trans and shouldn't transition

>>41571173
just be careful not to get too carried away...

>>41570695
If you don't get on some regiment of fin+ minoxidil, skin care or just hrt you're just going to keep getting older until you wake up 40, balding, and still watching anime girls who are 14 and saying "wow she's just like me uwu"

>>41570746
me neither anon

>>41570702
If you're born as a man and want to transition you can at least be somewhat delusional, that is if you want to put in the effort to transition

You might not look like a cis woman but you'll look more feminine and sometimes you might trick yourself and that's sometimes enough I suppose

>>41571386
i dont want to troon i want to be reborn as a hot anime girl

>>41571410
Then get a vr headset, full body tracking, and just live inside vr ig

>>41571383
i wont (be careful)

haha good thing I'm a repper ugh

Ok I'll admit the only reason I am repping is because I am a perfectionist, so I am deathly afraid of being a hon, but I would have an above average start considering I've had women tell me I look like a woman, and dudes. There's just things about my body that don't look womanly, and that scares me from trooning. Like I have an insane frame, like the upper torso of a professional swimmer. But honestly I shouldn't worry about all that because I don't even want to look exactly like a woman, I just want to stay twinkish.

I think after 2 years of repping I might move on boys

>>41572790
Repping is a liminal state.

>>41571337
A tatsumaki cosplayer just made me want to die, is not fair even if i try i’ll never have nice hips or a real vagina, women’s body can become whatever they want but my male body is just garbage no matter what i do it always feels horrible

Listening to your friends rant pretty much every single day about how they hate trannies AND women out of nowhere sure is miserable I tell you what.

>>41572790
can't tell if you mean trooning, leaving repgen, or suicide desu

>>41572940
Its even better when they know youre a repper but do it anyway

>>41572953
That sounds intentionally cruel on their part rather than just being a generic bitter right-winger without a girlfriend desu.

I keep lurking social media accounts owned by youngshits to torture myself.
It's all my fault. I could have started DIY in my mid teens if I actually bothered to think about that, but I didn't. I could've told someone about the thoughts and maybe gotten the treatment I needed, even though that would be almost impossible to happen. What matters is that I never tried, and now I rot, because the time has already passed me by.
I deserve this fate, and I need to get over it.

>>41572940
>having friends
I'm too miserable for anyone to want to talk to me

>>41573004
It's okay, all my friends would hate me if they knew I was a repper and can't stop talking about US politics so it's not much better.

>>41572949
youre not going to magically remove years of trauma from your brain. you can pass and live the life you want at best but even the stealthoids and passoids on this site are depressed. being a tranny means youre cursed. this doesnt mean kill yourself it means youre really no different from a kid in gaza in regard to this world's views on you

as a detrans repper I feel so bad hearing about others making the same mistake
>I'll be happier as a hon freak pariah! I was born to be a creepy hon - that's my authentic self!

>>41572968
My family had way too many problems when i was a teen, if i had started back then i would have only made things worse

Nowadays everything is good, my family loves me and we have enough money to live comfortably for years, looking at it this way i guess im in a good timeline, i get to just be a guy with a nice life, if i had transitioned i’d be a homeless troon or i’d be dead already

>>41573122
Same I probably would still work retail.

what flavor redbull do repgen drink? i like juneberry and the original ones

>>41573041
proof?

>>41573825
I don’t drink anything like that, im way too uncomfortable with my body i don’t want it to get even worse

>>41573004
same, im so miserable that my only unique quality is being depressed. i cant talk to anyone normally let alone make friends since im so boring and have no personality or hobbies
kms

>>41573825
I only drink coffee usually, idk if I've had redbull without jaeger before

It's so fucking over, iwnbaw, living as a male is pointless

>>41573845
the only proof you need is that I presented for years and never got gendered female

at least I look like leo in titanic

so basically being turned into a hot anime girl is the only way my life would improve

i regret trooning out and taking hrt and all that, not only because it doesnt work, but because being a tranny is just trash in a lot of ways, but seriously what was i supposed to do? just hate myself and my body and spend my life not able to look at myself in the mirror let alone have any relationships and be constantly grimacing in every social interaction or being percieved by another person? this mental illness is fucking trash.

>>41576002
have you had any relationships after transitioning? I never did and only became more miserable tbhon

>>41576021
i have, i cant deny its nice but you eventually hit a wall. im still the same person, a relationship is just like a drug where two people trick eachother into thinking their life has meaning. i probably should have tried to function better on my own. im probably on the path to being in my mid 30s and a failed tranny thats not a man or a woman and doesnt know how to be either and will never be seen as either.

i had everything i needed to succeed in life. ok home life, not too broke, not abused, not disabled, and i still fucked it all up.
every night it gets harder to keep going

I want to lie in bed next to a repper, I'm so fucking horny for reppers I've already come 6 times today and I'm not satisfied, I just want to give a repper a back massage and grope and finger their ass. I'm not interested in trannies, just reppers

>>41573825
I don't like energy drinks

>>41576653
mfw reading this while lying in bed :o

>>41576653
My gf be like

>>41576653
you're literally just like those faggots into John 50 sissies
gross af dude

>>41576653
uwu daddy my repper bed is too cold! won't you help me warm it up? <3

>>41573825
红牛 tcp

>>41576653
genuinely curious as to what could compel someone to want to post this. was it difficult to land on 6 as the number of times? did it come to them spontaneously or did they just have the concept of posting something horny and had to workshop it?
>>41576002
do you at least feel better for having tried?

trannies unironically spread a mind virus.
>if you don't troon now, you'll regret it for the rest of your life
>you will never be happy as a man
>you'll never know if you will pass or not if you never try hrt
>the pain will never go away, give in and become a failed in-between thing (not what you subscribed to be, but that's all you're getting, and if you complain you're a disgusting faketrans agp freak)

no different than bible thumpers that say you'll go to hell forever if you don't convert.

I wonder how many seemingly normal people are reppers of some kind, and just never talk about it. Like some massive unspoken agreement that everyone agreed upon independently.

>>41578338
This is what I'm worried about, everyone says to try hrt, but I'll never go back to looking like a man then. I feel like I'll hate my body even more if I'm this in-between thing. Because I've seen so many trans women naked online, when you see their backs, their hands, shoulders etc. they read as male, the clothes they wear uncomfortably stretch to fit the body they weren't designed for. I don't want that.

But then again I might as well try since I don't like my current body anyways, but first I have to lose weight

>>41576559
Have you had therapy, I'm curious everyone tells me it would fix my life

straight trans women are ego dystonic homosexual men

>>41576002
Do you still prefer life as a trans person than a repper.

Im pretty sure I'm not trans otherwise I'd have intense dysphoria and a need to transition. I think I just want to stop being a boring male, and to look pretty.

But what's stopping me is this thought that as a trans person I'd have to put way more effort into my appearance just to not even pass or barely pass.

And idk if I have the energy to put in that effort.

Do you prefer having constant anxiety about being clocked and not passing, or did you like being a repper more?

>>41578338
judging from my own life experience I'm pretty sure they're right desu

i want to be a hot anime girl and be a bimbo cheerleader for hot anime dudes

>>41576653
please don't touch me

dear reppers i need advice. if my friend has said a bunch of times he wanted to troon out and whatnot like consistently over years but has kind of shut up about this the past 2 years hes been dating a cis girl, do you think i should do anything as his friend? when i bring it up he says he still wants to in the future but that seems really silly to me. things are so different compared to when we were younger and both repping. i got on hrt a while back and life is like radically radically different now and i feel bad at the idea he's just as depressed as ever and hiding this

>>41579482
it is normal and healthy to want to find yourself attractive
you can begin putting the effort in now. you can become an attractive man. learning to give a shit about yourself as a man will only help things along if you later decide to transition.

>>41580133
your friend will probably figure it out some time after their relationship ends
just be your best self around them imo

Finally got prescribed an ssri. I have high hopes that it will get rid of my trans thoughts, since I'm a fakerepper either way

>>41578875
I'm fairly confident that a majority of men regularly consider what life would be like had they been born as women instead, with at least 15-20% of all men regularly wishing they were women/had been born women. The bottleneck is either at (not) knowing you can transition at all or your only exposure to trans people being mainstream media which destroys your capability to just see them as normal people methinks.
I don't think these men rep consciously, they simply live with this constant feeling of not being quite complete or feeling slightly off and out of place for most of their lives.
no clue what the numbers are at for women

>>41542181 (OP)
whatever number this post ends in is the numer of ones ive sucked
but in truth, 3 so far

how do I get over her knowing I'll never look or be with anyone else that's as pretty her

>>41578338
Yeah I agree with the other anon, all of these have been true so far for me in my 30's.

>>41580439
The only thing they ever did for me was take away my ability to orgasm so good luck.

How does one kms, I really don't want to live anymore

>>41580890
My plan has always been to drink 2 litres of whiskey then go for a swim in the ocean.

Sorry I won’t fuck you 5 years move on or a violent tragedy is going to happen all I need is to wait till you’re alone longer than 5 minutes self defense reality is you aren’t entitled to people you’re not a psychiatrist you’re a power tripping bitter freak x2

>>41580890
why not troon out if you gonna die anyways

Jewish janitors will ban people bumping repgen but man moder general gets a pass you’re a fucking autistic loser id wether ghost everyone & become a manic loser Lol

>>41580933
It's easier and would end this suffering immediately

Self defense bad !
Favorite self defense guns? :p

High IQ General thread repression requires intellect , restraint Lol

>>41580890
I actually can't stand it anymore, what do

>>41580947
mp shield plus

i feel empty and i dont enjoy being alive

i want to repeatedly slam my head into a brick wall until i collapse but i can't give myself brain damage i need enough dexterity and resolve to rope
can't tell anyone what's really going on because it'd raise the chance of intervention. i'm a disgusting neet freak totally reliant on redneck evangelical parents at 22 who could never ever possibly pass anyways. i need to put myself down. no more dissociation or whatever, no more ideation, no more drowning my sorrows in vodka, masturbation, video games, and social media. i need to end. for everyone's sake.

High IQ

>>41581211
if i weren't retarded i wouldn't have repped

I AM NOT A CHILD
PEOPLE LEAVE ABISIVE HOUSEHOLDS AS TEENAGERS ALL THE FUCKING TIME
MY BRAIN HAS DEVELOPED ENOUGH TO BE CAPABLE OF INDEPENDENT THOUGHT FOR QUITE SOME TIME NOW
I HAVE DONE ABSOLUTELT FUCKING NOTHING FOR YEARS
IF I CONTINUE LIVING I WILL CONTINUE DOING NOTHING UNTIL I AM KICKED OUT AND AM BURDENING SOMEONE ELSE OR AM ON THE STREETS
THERE IS NO SAVING ME BECAUSE I AM CHEMICALLY INCAPABLE OF SEEKING HELP
SO THERE IS NOTHING LEFT TO DO BUT DIE
THE END

>>41580933
what if I did but it didn't work
>>41580890
look up studies on attempt vs success methods, or how male and female suicide methods differ. Pick the one with the best stats

>>41581270
The problem is that I feel like I can't actually do it while the parents are alive

>>41580890
idk if I can directly link it but there's a lot of press about the british attempting to ban a forum on this topic
>>41580933
i'm already so full of seething self hatred there's no chance it helps

>see cute t4t transbian on x
>day ruined

I miss wearing push up bras and having cleavage

>>41579482
i mean as a repper all i did was think about roping and have horrible spirals every time i look in the mirror

now as a tranny i still dont like how i look but at least i dont do that so much anymore. i got feminine enough to cope.

i dont know, maybe there was some other situation or circumstances where i would have been ok

>>41582427
>think about roping and have horrible spirals every time i look in the mirror
this was my experience as a trans woman. as repper I'm miserable but I'm not trying to be any different either so who can I blame? as a tranny I could only blame myself and my circumstances

>>41580933
nta but i tried, now as i expected my horrible measurements and uncanny body still make me look extremely male and i have the same terrible pain as before, really how does one kms because i need to

>>41583263
how tall?

>>41583371
5'7, worse then 90-95% of males and 99.9% of women in shr bideltoid and waist. im literally just a brick

>>41580617
this is such massive cope and i am really truly sorry you believe this. i hope you can find glee and euphoria in your existence instead of endless ennui

I’m so fucking glad I finally woke up and realized I’m a man and my gender dysphoria is a lie. Fuck trans ideology, there’s a reason why 90% of people that believe they have dysphoria are permanently miserable even after transitioning.

>>41583475
several statements can both be true that youll probably never actually vanquish the trauma of male socialization, you CAN pass, and you CAN be significantly happier by orders of magnitude. its weird that all 3 of these can be true

>>41583475
assuming this is right (it isnt), what should someone like me who has actual dysphoria and is still miserable while transitioning because i dont pass should do?

>>41583263
if you go with pesticides make sure it's industrial in Minecraft. I tried with some garden store variety and it wasn't lethal. afaik household bleach is similar

i have my moms witch face ill never be a cute anime girl. why couldnt i have a hot bimbo mom so id be born a twink

>>41583500
But you will never find enlightenment, because your unconscious beliefs (i.e., gender dysphoria) are preventing you from achieving inner bliss.
>>41583517
Literally just start practicing meditation.

>>41582480
idk being a repper is miserable because there is no way out. you feel horrible and arent doing anything about it. maybe its an illusion in many ways but just knowing i can take my anti androgens and they push me away from what makes me feel so awful is relieving.

>>41581201
you should just parasitemaxx, being a neet loser freak is ok. you never asked to be born. drag them all down with you i say. fuck everyone.

>>41583538
for me it hurts more to try and fail than not. I'm an ugly man but I'm not trying to be anything else so that's less upsetting
I would be paralysed all day and self harm when I was trans but now I'm more mellow and productive

People coming here with some self-conceited declaration of "No I figured it out I beat it this time!" are all funny because they'll come back eventually and get back to bemoaning without admitting that gym coping or whatever it is they did doesn't work.

>>41583533
come on thats not a solution, be serious meditating wont fix anything

>>41583538
>there is no way out. you feel horrible and arent doing anything about it
idk if I'm just too depressed to have a real perspective on this but I feel like doing things to help myself be more productive without transitioning helps? trying to lose weight, form better habits, etc and not just wallowing in it still gives some amount of satisfaction without having to go to the extreme of transition
granted I have been having insane mood swings and have relapsed on basically every bad habit recently which is probably not convincing evidence

>>41583691
Don’t knock it til you’ve tried it.

day x of waking up as a man instead of a goth woman with a subtop trans gf

For the uninitiated, any human can achieve enlightenment/inner bliss, regardless of genetic and social predispositions. meditation allows you to discover and analyze the unconscious beliefs that are keeping you miserable.

>>41583853
Name one culture with mediative practices that wasn't subject to violent conquest
The real world wins

Sometimes It's just over, and no amount of effort or rationalization or cope or anything will fix it.

>>41583879
nta but does japan count? they adopted buddhism in the 6-7th century and they actually resisted two mongol invasions 700 years later.

Is she ready to know my frustration?
What she slipping inside slow castration
Im a riddle so strong you cant break me
Did she come here to try try to take me

I'm attracted to the deceptive pics of my trans phase I kept and it satisfies my AGP enough to know it was once me
t.now bald repper

>>41583547
considering this since employment makes stress and therefore troon thoughts worse. genuinely got bombarded with them today bc i got reminded on how i will never get to grow old and have children with a husband who loves me

>>41583879
The west must fall.

i think getting into this shit might be a nice way to channel my agp angst. it would also keeps me from looking at my face in a reflection which is nice. and since its a costume i wont get ego dystonic probably.

>>41584321
yeah it's basically the closest we'll ever get to looking cute, you basically can't fail at that if you buy the high quality stuff and stay at a healthy bmi
really expensive though

>>41584321
Kigumaxxing is the way, if I had the money I'd do it.

New thread:
>>41584482
>>41584482
>>41584482

>>41584321
Not even kig can hide massive shoulders though.