Thread 41564778

QOTT1: Do you have LGBT friends or family irl?
QOTT2: If so, have you confided to them about your GD?

>>41564778 (OP)
>QOTT1: Do you have LGBT friends or family irl?
nope but my aunt is woke so ive only ever told her about it

>QOTT2: If so, have you confided to them about your GD?
yea only my aunt lol. but she wants me to come out to my dad first before i start pursuing medical transition but i havent gotten any closer to that for more than a year. its just hard when "coming out" would feel like straight up lying. id imagine itd be easier if i was something else like a lesbian or something so id have the excuse of wanting to look butch but thats not even really what i want. just feels like such a joke when if it werent for my dysphoria id be a normal cishet girl.

transitioning can't make me into someone who functions well in society so why even bother putting in all the effort

>>41564778 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

Remember: NEVER troon out.

>>41564778 (OP)
>QOTT
No and no and I wouldn't anyway. Fuck that. What would be the point in repping if I were whining about it to my family? Nobody knows. Nobody will ever know.

I'm so embarrassed of everything I enjoy/am interested in. Even if it's something cool I enjoy it in a lame way. I don't even like talking about what I like online. I wish I could replace it all with turbonormie interests so I at least have something in common with other people irl, though that wouldn't fix my personality or how I come across to other people.

>>41565286
fixes nothing

>>41564778 (OP)
>QOTT1: Do you have LGBT friends or family irl?
My sister is bisexual.
>QOTT2: If so, have you confided to them about your GD?
I have told her.

Threadly reminder that the following are the best ways to manage your dysphoria (the more you do at once the better!):
1) Butchmax
2) HRT-rep
3) Get a short, mtf femme gf
4) -optional- get bottom and/or top surgery
>>41564778 (OP)
>QOTT1
My best friend is trans and my partner is a femrepper.
>>41565286
>>41565786
HRT = good
Social transition = bad

This thread actually helps as ill be broke and homeless soon and know i will not be able to get hrt tho i wonder should i get androgel? >>41569740
I should make myself ugly and masc as not to be raped

Im turning to sex work. Everything except but piv.

>>41569756
I don't think being ugly or masc would really prevent that

>>41569766
there's gotta be at least one or two other options ahead of this

>>41569766
>Im turning to sex work
Post proof.

>>41569756
>I should make myself ugly and masc as not to be raped
This won't save you because a lot of rape is not really about looks

Why are you not transitioning, ftms can actually pass unlike mtfs, not a single mtf can pass unless they started very early

>>41573983
If you want to see this question be answered 500 times you can look up femrepgen in any archive of this board
Also that's not true

This isn't quite right for this gen cus I already got top, been on T and getting hysto next year but I pass as an androgynous guy and often feel like I should take the L and commit to flaunting androgyny like an OF ftfemboy cus I only pass as an androgynous young gay guy. I wanted to be a 6'3 Neanderthal gym bro but obviously no amount of transition can give me that at 5'3 and with my frame. Should I just give up on the idea of T and own the andropassing (factoring in that its the only thing that makes me desirable even if its dysphoric), I know ftmg would just say roid up but I have doubts and I'll never be the man I want to be

>>41574417
>Should I just give up on the idea of T
Objectively, the most productive and generally useful thing to do in your situation would be to go off T, have 2.1 kids and hop back on T after you're done.
>own the andropassing
>pass as an androgynous young gay guy
The androgyny will last a couple of years max. You could learn from cis twinks and hit the gym as soon as you see it start to expire, dwarfmaxxing for the win.

>>41574795
>have 2.1 kids
Kill yourself so expeditiously god bless my hysto surgeon
>>41574795
>The androgyny will last a couple of years max.
Yeah tell this to the 30+ year old trans guys and cis twinks I see in my area and even then I'm not saying I'll look like a little femboy uke fairy at 45. I'm also not a pedo that thinks androgyny is when you look 18 forever and twink death is past 21, the reddit bisexual gooner idea of androgyny on here is retarded and doesn't exist irl

Ate my slop scrolled my device and did nothing of worth all day

Trying and failing to give myself AAP. Just end up imagining a woman degrading me for being not masculine enough for her afterwards

Bump :3

>>41577207
Why do you want to give yourself AAP?

>>41564778 (OP)
no
also im not a femrepper

If I had my way I'd be a 6'2 gigachad and I'd be extroverted af, life of the party, constantly fucking women, maybe I'd play guitar in a band or something. Instead I'm a 5'0 autistic foidlet who is too dysphoric to have sex and too socially inept to make friends, not that it matters because I'd never get to be one of the guys anyway. I spend my days wasting away in my room with my stupid autist hobbies while I watch my youth slip away from my fingers. I wish I was less fucked in the head so I could enjoy this useless life. NGMI IWNBAM etc.

>>41582662
Have you ever looked inside yourself and thought that maybe you are not really trans? That for some reason you adopted this belief of being born in the wrong body as a cope, and it made you feel better? so you kept reinforcing the thought that you are trans, since so many other people are doing it right? That the rest of your brain was rewired to accommodate this belief instead of reality, and now you can never truly be happy, because you are so deeply out of touch with your own person?

>>41584823
You only had to post this once

>>41584901
The more people wake up to this lunacy the better.

>>41585007
You are retarded

would any femreppers like to take their frustration out violently on an mtf who would just go limp and tear up

>>41585023
Aye bb you wanna see my dick?

would femmemaxxing and living vicariously through a butch girlfriend work

>>41584823
Is there any reason you posted it specifically at them?

Can cis women on testosterone post if they've given up on transition
>>41564778 (OP)
>1
I have a lesbian cousin that's at least 25 years older than me
>2
Absolutely not

>>41588288
I think the average person here is fine with hrtreppers

>>41584823
i'll never poon out so doesnt matter desu

Why not just be a very butch lesbian without taking testosterone?

>>41590242
You can just be a very butch lesbian AND take testosterone.
Butches and T are a match made in heaven :3

>>41590255
>Butches and T are a match made in heaven :3
Second truest words spoken on this thread

Daily reminder: the perfect poem is from a femrepper (Anne Sexton) and it's called "Is it true?"

>>41592377
The world needs more butches on T!
It should be a social expectation for modern butches! :3

Once a week everyone who posts here dies

>>41595857
It is a really weird phenomenon, especially since it seems to happen on random days rather than anything predictable.
Thankfully it seems there are a couple of us willing to keep things bumped until everyone comes back :3

Cluster Cs were made to be owned by Cluster Bs :3

I'm agp but read these threads in the hopes I can change my agp into aap and become a malebrained femrepper by proxy.

Who else drunk as shit
>>41564778 (OP)
>QOTT1
I have one (1) leabian aunt who I haven't seen since I was 8.
>QOTT2
Girl cmon

>>41600038
im a femrepper and apparently agp ur probably not gonna make it

Potential wives in this thread?
If you get pregnant and raise a kid with me, you'll have to repress permanently.

>>41600367
I would prefer a femrepper bf to make me their wife and try really hard over and over again to knock me up :3

>>41600679
do you like animation memes

>>41600689
I already have a femrepper bf who I love and plan to marry :3

>>41600693
good for you but do you like animation memes

>>41600701
I'm not sure what you mean.
So I'm going to say no.

>>41600710
that's okay
i hope you and your boyfriend get married and live a long and happy life together

Are you doing NNN, femreppers?

>>41601647
My femrepper partner is.
I support them doing whatever they want. But it is also kinda frustrating.
Still love them tho :3

i don't know where being gay ends and wanting to be male begins. curse of autism

>>41601658
>i don't know where being gay ends and wanting to be male begins.
I have something similar lol. I can't really separate my desire for women from being a desire of being their male partner for them. Is it something similar for you?
>curse of autism
How is it an autism thing?

>>41601656
>My femrepper partner is.
Oh, good for him lol.
I personally thought of doing it and though it was going well for me, but yesterday I got a few hours alone and one could guess what happened. It's for stronger people, I haven't been able to complete this challenge since I learned how to jerk off properly...
>I support them doing whatever they want. But it is also kinda frustrating.
How is it frustrating?

>>41601682
>Oh, good for him lol
Once he explained his motivation for doing it, I kinda got it. I support him in it, even if it is fun to tease him about seducing him into failing.
>I personally thought of doing it
It's really not for me. I'm a creature of simple pleasures.
As long as I keep things to a healthy level and do not over indulge, I'm happy :3
>How is it frustrating?
My partner effectively committed to abstaining from lewd things for a month.
I have an intense emotional connection to them and consider them to be the most attractive person on earth.
As someone that has not committed to abstaining from all things lewd, it just makes things ever so slightly difficult for me.

>>41601647
forgot that was a thing; have been rubbing it out, will continue to rub it out

i've been talking to this mtf for a while now but lately i've been seeing a lot of art of people laying with their head in between a girl's thighs and it's making me want a cis gf because i can't really do that with a tran because i don't want a penis to be in my face and it would probably also be uncomfortable for her if i laid my head on it :/

>>41601810
I mean, if you really liked her and wanted a future with her, you could just hold out until she got srs.
In the grand scheme of a relationship, it seems like a pretty minor thing.

>>41601818
she doesn't want to ://

>>41601820
I'm pretty forgiving with mtfs. But if they don't want srs, I think that crosses a line. She may not even have real dysphoria.
I would cut her and go get a mtf worth your time.

>>41601829
yeah fair. appreciate the input.

makes me wanna kms knowing ill never look like picrel

hi giys just carved this other guys name on my leg whats up

>>41602877
whats the name

>>41602892
he he he...

i love femreppers <3

>>41564778 (OP)
>QOTT1: Do you have LGBT friends or family irl?
i dont have friends and all of my family is cishet
>QOTT2: If so, have you confided to them about your GD?
no friends but i was outed to my family against my will when i was 12. theyre weirdly chill about it tho mostly because me wanting to be a man is the least corncerning thing about my mental health. i also feel like they kind of gave up on me after my first visit to the psychiatrist so their standarts for me are exceptionally low, they know that i am incapable of being a normal person. i feel like theyd treat me better if all i had was GD and i wasnt a mentally unstable high school dropout

>>41601647
ive been essentially castrated by antipsychotics but anyone who participiates in NNN is a retard. if youre not a 16 year old boy and youre still engaging in this you should be ashamed of yourself

>>41598068
i knew a bitch with dpd and i think she imprinted on me real bad and constantly drew me art and had panic attacks whenever she sensed slightest disapproval from me. lowkey miss her sometimes i was absolutely batshit at the time so i started exercising her limits and seeing how much of my shitty behaviour she could take before breaking. at some point she had enough of me so we dont talk anymore i really miss the back and forth i had with her like keeping her on her tippytoes and shit but i also genuinely liked some of our convos. had a simmilar situation with a chick who had bpd + avpd and another one with just bpd. it feels good because they idolize those they perceive as confident and outspoken which in turn makes you more confident and outspoken its a symbiosis

I just measured my cup size for the first time in years and I need to kill myself

>>41601647
I do that year round

>>41604334
Wow, that's cool

>>41603943
>if youre not a 16 year old boy and youre still engaging in this you should be ashamed of yourself
Why?

Free euthanasia for all repressors would fix me

>>41604086
>it feels good because they idolize those they perceive as confident and outspoken which in turn makes you more confident and outspoken its a symbiosis
literally this. i love adopting, like, anxious submissive prey animal types because existing in relation to them makes me even more able to be the outspoken decision-maker to fill that gap, and they love it because it obviously benefits them. it really is a symbiosis.

>>41604086
>>41606436
I'm glad that people agree with my take on cluster Cs and cluster Bs.
As someone that is basically a cluster C stereotype with very pronounced DPD, I have always been hopelessly attracted to cluster B traits. Their confidence and ability to just effortlessly lead is just so addicting to me.
My femrepper partner has not been diagnosed with any cluster B condition, but they certainly have some traits - things that on a basal psychological level make me just want to endlessly worship them :3

>>41605582
>finding a tall bridge, a nice high speed traintrack, some body of water, a place to tie a rope is free.
>complaining someone doesn't do the actual sui for you.
kinda fembrained, don't you think?

>>41606581
just grow the fuck up already.
t. diagnosed cluster b with zero confidence

>>41606685
1. Using "fembrained" as an insult in the foid general for foids
2. I unfortunately have people who care about me so I can't do it anyways
3. If I do it im certainly not doing it those ways

>>41606706
I much prefer being the anxious, subby prey for my femrepper partner :3
I'm sorry that you lack the best cluster B traits, seems like you got ripped off desu.

>>41606706
you're just a prey-type cluster b. it's ok though, i can prey on you. do you need me to tell the waiter you wanted no pickles?

>QOTT1: Do you have LGBT friends or family irl?
Yeah he's FTM but the ok kind because he's autistic bordering on schizophrenic and doesn't care about any norms

>QOTT2: If so, have you confided to them about your GD?
Yes, he understands me

>>41606742
1. it might be ironic, don't you think?
2. based and/or i'm sorry
3. good thing, i mean the train thing is quick and easy but will make the train drivers life worse

>>41607085
I mean I'm of the opinion fembrained and malebrained are mainly made up on this board and don't matter but I think it would make sense for many femreppers to be fembrained as that is one reason someone might rep though there are many
Yeah the methods you listed would work I just think the idea of fucking up and it being unnecessarily painful or god forbid failing and having to be taken care of to be horrid and it would be best to keep it a generally private matter. You cant do it without traumatizing someone in some way though, sucks.

>>41607179
imo fembrained and fembrained is how other people interprets things given an expected social norm
when i had my suicidal arc(s) the ideal was to find a way to completely vanish, maybe leaving some note that i'm fine but want to be left alone, then taking some painless drug.

i think lesbian sex could heal me. if my body was accepted and even wanted by a woman maybe something inside of me would click into place.

sometimes I wish I could somehow give my body over to one of you people, though I'm 30 and haven't really treated myself well physically speaking
I wish all reppers can find peace somehow

why are you dumbasses repping? unless you're 4'11 and have 50 inch circumfrence hips or live in like south sudan or something you're a faggot

>>41609299
>>41574036

>>41609299
wwnbm

>>41609299
>>41603426
5'1 btw

>>41609885
what is your W:H ratio

>>41606706
prey:
hpd, bpd

pred:
aspd, npd

>>41611263
As someone with dpd. I consider myself the queen of prey :3

>>41611263
bpd is pred pretending to be prey

>>41602407
Why Wilbur soot ?

>>41604321
I have a DD it makes me wanna fucking . Throw up everyday

>>41611263
>>41611369
i think bpd can go either way