Thread 41600237

retarded deadend autist loser edition

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qott: accomplish anything this week? this month? year....?

Lmao it's so funny how trannies are obviously just incel nerd men who watched a bit too much porn.

Real women don't debate the pros and cons of different Linux distro a.

>>41600257
how come?

>qott
I accomplished eating cheese cake

>>41598732
>I have no idea who u are tbqh
Do you remember Phienchen? She was dating a chaser that had a midlife crisis and trooned out a few years after COVID. They broke up and K*t has been prolific since then. She's a psychopath that should be avoided at all costs and the scat spammer.

>>41600220

i run alpine on my laptop. it sucks and has a shitty battery, every mb matters. i compared docker instances. on real hardware, the difference would be more dramatic. someone said “it just works,” so i shifted the conversation to reliability. unlike void alpine is widely used in production. i think this is a good indicator of stability. i only mentioned how well debian has worked for me. it wasn’t really related to the prior conversation.

>>41600370
>Phienchen
What a disappointment, another one who just teased me to just be a straightoid who threatened to seppuku if her bf dumped her.... This is the worst timeline and I don't know why Im still alive

goodnight, hope you all have a good day/night/sleep.

>>41600393
docker...?

seriously considering ending it all. i can't do this anymore femanons
>8 years on hrt
>tiny nonexistent tits
>hairline fucked by mpb from age 16 pre-hrt
>hypothyroidism keeps me fat despite starving myself
>overly sensitive skin means i can't have hairless legs. always get strawberry legs or ingrowns. always
>no matter how much i try, my voice always sound like the stereotypical tranny
>brow ridge
>big nose
>absolutely horrific incel-tier profile
>nails keep breaking and curve down weirdly so i can't have cute painted nails
>fucked hairline means i can't have cute hair just generic long "guy hair"
>tall asf so can't find girl clothes that fit easy. i'm fat anyway i would look ugly
>huge feet (size 13) so no fem shoes either. feet are wide and have fucked up nails anyway
it's absolutely over for me. it's either manmoding and detransitioning or death. i really don't want either but clearly this tranny shit hasn't worked out for me. how the fuck do i cope, sisters? i'm tired of seeing other girls or passoids mog the fuck out of me. i will never EVER be a woman. i will always be a freak

>>41600439
sleep well

stop pedro posting plz i beg of thee

if you have a penis or ever had a penis, you are a male. simple as!

>>41600517
at least you have self awareness

genuine question:
If all amabs who consider themself women are trans women, does that make people who get to that conclusion through DID or schizophrenia equally valid? What about people who are gaslit or pressured into it?
I know that sounds like a gotcha or something but i dont have a motive here im genuinely not sure what the answer is

>>41601853
Who cares the end

>>41601864
i mean yeah it's a bullshit hypothetical, I know. But I do think it has genuine repercussions on identity and whatnot. Usually, people don't consider the person schizophrenia makes them "themselves", once it gets bad enough. But accepting all affirmations of transness includes that point in time in which someone isn't "themselves".

>>41601853
No. Some people are born with a predisposition to get a heart attack caused by birth defects, and others get a heart attack by od. They're not the same but the end result looks the same.

>>41600237 (OP)
>accomplish anything this week? this month? year....?
ya I'm becoming pretty successful in my life pursuits, I had someone make an off hand comment that I seem smarter now.

>>41601853
I think there's a difference between disingenuously claiming to be a woman, or redefining woman in such a way that men can be women, and literally actually believing yourself to be of the female sex. most transwomen are acutely aware they are not female

>>41601911
Nobody past puberty thinks their body doesn't need transition. Actually thinking you're a man means you are a man. That's the difference.

>>41601911
I fail to see how a schizophrenic couldnt genuinely believe they're a woman due to a schizophrenia episode

>>41601938
I am saying they could, but no transwoman genuinely believes they are an actual woman who is identical to and indistinguishable from a "cis" woman

>>41601954
This is just mental masturbation. Nobody without a mental disorder thinks they match an abstract definition they don't perfectly match. That doesn't mean they don't think they're actually women, the definition is just wrong and agreeing with it is lying and feels like lying.

>>41601954
i guess i dont see why the distinction is really important in this particular scenario

>>41602010
I don't think transwomen think they match an abstract definition they don't actually match

>>41602033
transwomen are able to report that experience dysphoria that is a result of an accurate appraisal of their male body. the hypothetical schizophrenic would be literally delusional as he would not believe that he was male in the first place. one is aware they are not a woman and feel distress because of that, whereas the other holds a delusional belief. From there, transwomen may try to rationalize their way into womanhood but in doing so betray that they are aware that they are not women. One is delusional, and the other is not. There may be some level of delusion if the transmission thinks that being a transwoman makes them identical to a woman, but I haven't met any like that

>>41600237 (OP)
>qott
i played dnd for the first time in a while

>>41602050
>No gay person thinks they actually love someone of the same sex
>No gay person thinks they can have real sex with someone of the same sex
>I'm gay and I know it's not possible because I know I'm really straight and gay is just a lifestyle choice
Most gay people would say you're just confused and your experience doesn't match theirs. At worst they would rightfully accuse you of being straight pretending to be gay to seem more interesting.

>>41602099
I think you are retarded and either not understanding what I'm saying, or are pretending not to bc you don't have an actual argument
I accept your surrender

I lost my pp in nam

>>41602290
when was the last time you made a friend irl? you have been posting for more than a decade and nothing seems to ever happen to you socially

>>41602306
Within the last decade i had 3 relationships, made 5 new close friends, and got a new job what are you on about?

>>41602321
>3 relationships in 10 years
ngmi

my job really seems to want me to quit

>>41602321
whore.

>>41602108
Your argument is retarded and you got made. Saying they don't really think they're women since they're not exactly the same is exactly like saying homosexuals don't think they're having real sex since it's not heterosexual sex. Shit people used to say too. Can't actually be married since it's not a heterosexual marriage and they know it's not heterosexual. Bigots are stupid.

>>41602337
>>41602349
Lmao
Nah my first was 7 years, then another one for 2 and the last one got lockdownd'd
Been single for 5 years tho so whatever the new year brings eh

>>41602408
>only dating 3 people
>single for 5 years
ngmi

tummy tummy is ouchy ouchy )':

>>41602515
Not gonna make what lmao

>>41602515
>>41602553
that’s true, it’s dumb to say that to Ayden while it has been over for a while already

>>41602553
Herpes

>>41602598
>>41602603
Idgi lmao, sounds funny tho

>>41602613
I wish i had someone to talk to other than you

>>41602804
hi

>>41602804
Sounds depressing

>>41602825
painfully

>>41602846
Maybe you should fix your life? Get out there, be social, ya know?

>>41602888
Looks painful
>>41602905
Idgi

AAAA

>>41602938
painfully

hurt people hurt people

there got it all done, should be good for a while now tbqh
hope ur all having such a lovely n wonderful day, full of surprises and ppl flattering u tbqh
it's all about the small things in life u know... like the microbiota and the gut flora ngl

Hello, does anyone else feel cold more easily? I've been wearing a sweater for a while now, not to hide anything, but because I genuinely feel cold.

>>41603101
Yeah
Idk used to not feel cold but since last winter I'm feeling p cold whenever it gets a bit chilly
>>41603014
Cringe
>>41602992
Maybe don't do it

Hahaha that would be so funny if a MAN in close to his 30s didn't have any supportive envieronment growing up and joked about changing his gender and having a tiny little girl living inside him when he was a teen and now in old old old age he starts realising that maybe he wasn't meant to be a man and always felt disconnected from straight and even gay cis guys and it's hard for his to imagine himself as a big buff dude wearing masculine fashions and he sees a woman in dress when he thinks about clothing and now he's gonna ponder if he can transition at this old age and be a girl. I'm not gonna make it sisters.

>>41600237 (OP)
>qott:
I'm the least everyday functional in the family, but I've tried and partially succeeded in making up for it through academic success and fame, which the others don't have

>>41603101
Yes, the winter and beginning of autumn are always too cold. I think landlords may turn the radiatorwater on only in late autumn, so it gets warm enough for a little while until it gets too cold to weigh it out again

>>41600370
huh really, sorry that happened ig
kinda funny tho, I predicted chasers would transition, kinda shame everyone else left tho and reminds me of something edie said about thread dating
>no mercury to giggle together at agps with their amazon drop shipped clothes
>no ufufu to tell me to play nice w/ the hons while giving them the side eye
>no edie to laugh about it all and chit the chat
>no anna to mellow things out
oh wells, at least I have ayden to cheer me up tbqh
>>41602408
lockdown relationships were wild tho, speed running 'find out if they're mentally unstable' tbqh
>>41603101
I only feel cold or burning hot, really depends on what my immune system is doing
I go to sleep needing to wrap up warm and then wake up boiling hot at low temperatures
>>41603210
aww, but it could be worse anon, u could put it off for longer and have less to salvage tbqh

>>41603210
You can be an old fashion shemale

>>41603261
Didn't have a lockdown tho, we were both ems so we just didn't have time and energy
Should've used a better way to describe it lmao

man you guys are terrible at acting as females

>>41602359
no it's not, that's a false equivalency
having sex is a broad thing, being a woman means being an adult human female. transwomen are not female, ergo they are not and cannot be women

>>41603285
oh yeh, that makes sense

>>41603326
Funny it didn't take long for you to repeat the chud talking point verbatim.

>>41603362
that's not a chud talking point, it's literally the standard radical feminist definition

>>41603386
And that distinction is important which is why you start with a weasely post. It's all so tiresome. Just say the catch phrase and move on.

my bowels are so oily right now seriously it's like defcom 5 levels of sharting risk and it's fucking annoying. been to the bathroom 6 times just in case and then it's a false positive

>>41603454
you're the weasel trying to pretend transwomen literally consider themselves to be literally identical to and indistinguishable from actual women. that's not what being a transwoman is, being a transwoman is having dysphoria over being male. if you literally think you are female, you would just call yourself a woman rather than a transwoman, and you would also be categorically wrong and literally delusional. srs doesn't give to female sex organs, it just rearranges your male sex organs to look somewhat like female sex organs do. performing femininity doesn't make you a woman, because being a woman isn't about how someone looks or acts. masculine women are still women in the same way that feminine men are still men. even if those feminine been have all the trappings of socially constructed ideas of femininity, they cannot be female and so cannot be women, and that's ok! I'm not saying traveling shouldn't try to alleviate their dysphoria by taking hrt or whatever, but neither should they entertain delusional thinking that reinforces misogynistic attitudes and societal expectations, or ignores or degrades women's rights

>>41603634
And there it is. No real question, just mansplaining and unfiltered derangement, chud going mask off. You can be a man and nobody would argue with you about that

>>41603678
you have no argument dude, you're not engaging with my points. name calling doesn't make what I'm saying wrong. it's ok for transwomen to be men, but trying to act like they are interchangeable with women is flat wrong. why not go to reddit, I'm sure you'd fit in a lot better there.

>>41603712
Yes your precious arguments that you actually care about even though you have no self awareness. Just saying the meme gets the job done much faster and doesn't come across as so desperate.

>>41603745
how do I not have self awareness
I'm trans and have a level of self awareness of what that means than hons who demand access to women's spaces while ignoring the reality of their own maleness

bros, ngl, having not read any of your back and forths besides a quick glance over, i can tell ur bost lost faggots who need to detroone and live ur fag life as god intended cause ur ngmi

>>41603794
trannies are fags

im shitting myself right now!

drama when

>>41603817
same

>>41600237 (OP)
>qott
yeah
with 4 kids to take care of there's no shortage of things that need doing
and then we're also helping family move
busy week

SHAG ME DAVID SHAG ME!

brap

Ever forcefem your friends?

What food should i order?

>>41604703
better to be busy than bored amirite

>>41605217
exactly
and it's nice to feel somewhat productive

naz get the hell out of here you dead beat dad and go raise your fucking kid god you suck ass

>>41605110
fried pickles

>>41605110
a lia smegma sandwich

mmm savory

I stealth pass fully but am a mentally ill retard who can't do anything

I have multiple rich women and men that just want me to be a housewife for them but then I feel like I'm living this masked placating where I pretend to like them just for the living situation

I'm on autismbux/$1000 a month SSI, multiple mental diagnosis, and no license/severe agoraphobia, and I just want to live in a small place with some other mentally ill terminally online trans girl that is similar to me, eat food, go on small dates, and exist together comfortably until we die

I don't want to live a traditional life and it's all so tiring

>>41605884
>bait

>>41605884
you don't pass hon

>>41605884
>I don't want to live a traditional life and it's all so tiring
maybe you could be a pilot or a bank robber or smth

my highlight of the week was k@t posting mono's pig dirty room and that mono pisses on the bed
big news

>>41606092
don't shame bedwetters, it's a symptom of mental illness

>>41605994
nah it's a real post unfortunately, I kinda just wish I were dead instead

>>41605998
ok

>>41606013
did you read the part about my ssi / disabilities, that aint happening

is it really that unbelievable? my post was genuine

Should I just suck it up and do chores for some person I don't really love just so I can live a comfortable life?

>>41606397
no, find someone you love. poverty sucks but faking affection is intolerable for people with empathy.

>>41606397
usually rich ppl want you to do all the busywork and also be a pincushion for their sexual desires. and when they get bored they toss you aside for someone younger
it's not worth it and it's not a lasting situation

>>41605434
kys blobby

>>41606412
I wish finding love were easier

Being a "conventionally" attractive trans woman/stealth passing would be living life on easy mode if I had a less broken brain, instead I'm over here passing over options that other trans women would literally kill people for

It all feels so stupid, I'm not dysphoric but I'm definitely broken in every other aspect

I'm too terminally online to ever be with people even kind of normie adjacent

>>41606478
paige shut the hell up and go draw some shitty picture like a special needs retard mouthbreather

>>41606511
so you're dooming about wanting one thing instead of the other?

>>41606588
Yes

I would rather be a clockable woman in love and able to work/exist normally and have friends and a normal life than whatever the hikikomori neet but cute hell I currently am

>>41606629
repper mentality

>>41606725
so what do I just need to lock in or something? my medication can only help so much when my general energy levels are like 2.5/10 the average person with my anemia and other issues, and I've been terminally online spending 10-20+ hours a day on my computer for almost my entire life, I don't know how to adapt to life

like the solution for reppers is transitioning and doing their best

Ngl i wanna ride a cock
Hypothetically speaking ofc

>>41606856
whoa lewd

>>41606856
same ngl

>>41606788
go for the type of relationship you want and don't feel bad that it's not normal

>>41606972
heh

I accidentally turned into an unhinged maniac. Im legit like a hard-core sadomaso and not even in a sexual way I just like watching people suffer and I enjoy suffering because I deserve it.
I should probably kill myself before I get any more evil but I think its already too late for that. I want to tear down everything, not just myself.

boo

>>41606856
what's your sexuality nowadays ayden

>>41607204
try calling me something mean

>>41607216
Covering your face with masks glasses and banks doesnt make you any less of a freak steve. Stop wearing that butt plug around your neck and get some real jewelry. Youre fucking disgusting. Stop taking selfie at the fucking convention center you narcissistic trashh.

>>41607204
have you tried being NICE?

>>41606533
here you are, milord

>>41607256
It's boring. These humans exist for no purpose at all, chatting around in circles to keep their retarded mouths from ever falling silent. The only sounds they make that mean anything are screams and tears.

and a bonus one
pls give me attention

>>41607254
you can't harm her because the necklace is pink tourmaline that grants 10+ def against bitter hons

>>41607216
Honestly idek
Maybe just starved for relationship so that's why I'm leaning more pan
Or maybe I'm too attached to the label lesbian
Idk

>>41600441
i hardly know er ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

>>41607371
you're a retard if you don't know that words are just screams and cries hammered into more palatable shapes
every communication is a different shade of pain, recollections of things that hurt and things that ward. each thought is underscored by the animal desire to be free of pain, each sentence written to express, however obliquely, our suffering

>>41607391
this is erotic asphyxiation right?

>>41607456
p possibly

>>41601853
i think the answer to this question lies in how they engage the view of themselves with the world outside.
do they change their clothes to feel more womanly? do they change their bodies to feel more womanly? do they engage with the world in a way that feels womanly?
if no, they are not trans, they just fancy the idea of womanhood

>qott
i'm working on a lil blender render for a yt vid, picrel

>>41607254
It's an airport baka, and it was 2023 I think masks were still required then, thank you though I hope I could fulfill your sadomaso a bit

I look pretty different now, I think most of all I'm just fat otherwise I'm chillin
((I have lost 60lbs in 6months though yay))

>>41607256
nicecore nicepilled nicecel

>>41607398
true but I'd never call someone a hon

>>41607433
I thought you detransitioned from MtFtM? Are you MtFtMtF? Hmm, or what's happenin?

I get being lonely though

>>41607643
Lmao what

>>41607643
wasnt it originally ftmtf back in the old old days?

>>41604807
Who's this

>>41607443
>hammered into more palatable shapes
>every communication is a different shade of pain, recollections of things that hurt and things that ward. each thought is underscored by the animal desire to be free of pain, each sentence written to express, however obliquely, our suffering
It is still boring. Just like all the stupid shit you said. Retard.
>>41607610
Jesus christ you disgusting pig I didn't ask for gore photos. Something verbal doesnt mean anything at all to me. Maybe sharpening a metal straw and sticking it into your carotid artery. Words words words. Fuxking do something entertaining

hello again.

>>41607660
Idk I forgot the sequence of events, my b

>>41607673
yeah I type too much that's facts

>>41607722
No worries never detransitioned lmao

do you tuck or wear loose pants and let your dick hang in it?

>>41607204
>>41607673
have you actually made anyone suffer? when was the last time you made yourself suffer?
i have a sensory modulation disorder, so i do a lil ritual self-harm on an as-needed basis to cope with emotional or physical stressors
i would also recommend a yoga routine as an additional stabilizer, if this is your behavior as well

>>41607731
this you?

anyways
whats everbody doing tonight are you gonna do anything fun/comfy

>>41607768
Nah

>>41607758
maxi or midiskirts only, i'm stuck in the 60's

>>41607786
I get it

>>41607765
cutting is nice

>>41607792
I don't

>>41607781
downloading pillars of eternity on my laptop to see if it can run it, which would be nice bc then I could play it while in bed
feeling depressed also
may get food

>>41607798
its literally you though

>>41607807
It's literally a random ass screenshot lmao

>>41607793
wait i thought you said it wasn't sexual?
if that's the case, just find a goth babe you'll give you lil cuts in bed
bdsm is a whole nother thing, and requires a partner to communicate your needs with

>>41607781
I was playing arc raiders but it gives me panic attacks

>>41607829
ok I won't do it to you

>>41607781
cozy blender time, may f around and make a song to go with it

>>41607765
Typed out some shit but seeing so many words made me angry so I deleted them. It doesnt matter. None of this shit does.
I just got bored and punched the wall and ripped the skin off my 2nd knuckle to answer 2nd question at least. Pouring boiling water over my fingers feels good too.
All those cuts and you could've gone for the throat and saved the work

>>41607883
tldr

>>41607781
Eating a spicy chicken melt and watching youtube

>>41607204
How does that happen?

>>41607781
driving round night city, counting down the hours at this point

>>41607883
if you're truly a masochist, you'll be able to feel joy at even the slightest amount of pain
here's a trick i learned from someone in the community: start by pinching the skin on your forearm with a clothespin, and add progressively more clothespins as needed.
this way, it doesn't leave a mark, and no one will worry or try to "fix" you + you won't have a big gaping hole in your wall

>>41607781
Relaxing a bit, maybe dying my hair again
Idk

>>41607925
flight not cancelled yet! yeeeeee
>>41607976
wat color you doing??
>>41607907
ummi post sammich
>>41607872
post render i bet its cool
>>41607842
how is that game and why panic??
>>41607806
eet somethin maybe with a cookie too

>>41608021
Just dark blue again, touching it up n stuff

>>41607956
patching drywall can be cathartic
>>41608021
it's pretty good, the game loop is addictive and the balance of pvp and the danger of the ai makes every round interesting. I get really anxious because I'm creeping around looting and there's alot of suspense trying not to be seen before extraction and I start shaking lol.

>>41607956
>start by pinching the skin on your forearm with a clothespin, and add progressively more clothespins as needed.
Thats too boring

>>41607837
it isn't necessarily sexual but it can be if it happens to be

>>41608021
I have a Swiss roll I bought at a Japanese market I'm going to eat

As a bisexual cis man, what if I start dressing up in women's clothing and wear make up and lipstick and painted nails? Am I one step from transitioning? I have no interest in taking HRT or neovaginia and I am not trans and generally average mid built man, but there is something alluring about it. Is this that AGP shit I keep hearing about, or that debunked myth?

I also really really really love trans women who are huge muscular bodybuilder types. Very masc pretending trans women, but girly.

I'm going to get high

>>41608021
I'm gonna make cheddar broccoli noodles with the spicy chicken instead but I'll go make it now so I can give you a pic

>>41608345
I transitioned to be a woman idk about all that shit bro you do you

>>41608514
>getting high
Giwtwm

god love is the best drug out there
nothing cures BPD like genuine love

>>41608021
Cheddar broccoli noodles with spicy fried chicken
My bowl of slop

>>41608828
Genuine love is probably the best feeling in the world, yeah

>>41608514
>high
what method?

hungry but the hospital food is so gross. at least they are pumping me full of opioids

>>41608904
I have a bong with some really nice flower I picked up in Chicago, and some decent edibles

I'm gonna take 1 edible and a few hits

>>41608345
if you don't want to be a woman, then you aren't
simple as
but it does sound like you at least want to be some kind of nonbiney

>>41608124
perhaps small, controlled cuts
but i really do recommend finding someone irl you can relate to about this. even if it's not a partner, it's important that you know you're not a freak for feeling a feeling

>>41608841
that looks like fantastic slop, i just made quiche and pasta for the famiddly, but i won't be posting pictures bc phone broken :<
how is you high? i'm boutta smoke and make some chiptune

>>41608828
love is nice, but like any drug it can be overwhelming
i prefer yoga for my bpd

is grim Fandango any good

>>41608961
Chiptune? Based
I kinda wanted to get into some production, probably jungle or something https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z9e8CPULjW4

>>41608982
It was good the last time I played it (over 10 years ago)

>>41608959
that actually sounds pretty fun, i should work on getting a weed script as i meet the criteria

>>41609047
Yeah I love getting high it makes me want to die less

idk it's been weird. dont know why i wanted to be a woman but am fully detrooned now trying to work on my mental health. this thread was never good when i was here but it only got worse. think its finally healing but probably but am not going to stick around and find out.

>>41609151
no way, it would probs take another year without incidents to heal tbqh
glad ur doing well now tho

>>41608932
sorry about the hospital fod, do they at least give you the little packet of tony chacheres to sprinkle on top ?
also
>grim Fandango
looks really cute! but i'm almost certain it would be hell to navigate

>>41609009
ooo, i did f around with jungle for a second, i highly recommend using famitracker or fasttracker like myself. they're great for chiptune, but they're also what the og jungle producers used in the 90's when they couldn't afford a professional DAW (like prodigy)

>>41609151
hi bye, hope everything works out for ya. maybe we'll see you back here again someday. the internet in general can be pretty bad for people working on their mental health, so i hope you get some relaxing time in the real world

>>41608841
>Genuine love is probably the best feeling in the world, yeah
it really is, especially after years without
feels like mdma lmao

>>41609066
give 2mmc a try
absolutely amazing

how do you guys do drugs without struggling with addiction or running out of money

Just gonna use my bowl the bong is in another room

>>41609224
Sounds fun~ looked it up. Wish I had someone to do drugs like that with rn

I'm probably going to get Ketamine from my psychiatrist (she brought it up to me first)

>>41609211
Ugh

>>41609321
Weed can last awhile- and I get my edibles for free by abusing a coupon code on a site for the last 5 years.
Other drugs I just do if other people have them I suppose

>>41609321
don't do drugs that are addictive?

>>41609356
how do you not do all the weed you have immediately and make your entire life revolve around when the dispensary opens and closes

>>41609321
the solution to both of those is to only do it with friends, cheaper and more accountability

>>41609224
>>41609356
never, EVER f w designer drugs. that's how you lose your teeth

>>41609365
like what
I've even had the addictive urges with mushrooms of all things, I haven't been able to use a substance without getting addicted to it to don't degree

>>41609393
then you should probably not use drugs. pot isn't addictive for a lot of people, same with some stimulants. alcohol is one I avoid.

>>41609367
Some days I get so high I can barely form a thought, others just enough to not feel the pain. Idk, I would say I'm not addicted but I get high almost everyday.
I don't really have money but the free edibles come in clutch.

>>41609393
Mm I love shrooms but I limit myself to once or twice a year with shrooms, feels too good.

>>41609391
I'll try most things once for the experience- but only if it's with someone else that's done it before; not gonna fw fenty or heroin or something though

Imagine falling asleep in someones arms
VGH

>>41609321
i think some part of it is certain people are hardwired to get addicted to whereas the reverse for others, just roll good on your stats i guess

fun fact you can't get chemically dependent on shrooms because recurring doses stop working basically immediately!

>>41609450
too much effort, I fall asleep too often for that tbqh

>>41609475
it's a dumb thing to abuse. the right way to take it is to fast for 24 hours and take a dose large enough to astral travel to the place where the multidimensional beings show you stuff that changes your perspective on reality for the rest of your life.

>>41609445
yeah that's the conclusion I've come to but it fucking sucks sometimes
especially bc my mother drinks every night, my sibling gets high every day, and yet I just have to face life sober. bleh

>>41609465
why couldn't I get a good roll on anything
fuck

>>41609475
I didn't say chemically dependent, I mean behaviorally I was having trouble spacing doses out enough to even account for the recurring dose effect, I just felt compulsive urges to drastically increase the dose to compensate. I could barely manage a week break let alone two. it's pathetic

>>41609475
glad I stick to once or twice a year then, that shit still hits crazy style

>>41609509
im not even approaching cool enough to hero dose
>>41609535
take it easy i'm not bullying anon i just think that's a very forgiving/gentle attitude for a drug to have for its audience
>>41609536
they're a nice treat once in a while but needs to be small dose ykwim

>>41609566
yeah I only take like 2300mg / 7 squares of this https://www.schedule35.co/us/products/hazelnut-chocolate/

>>41609535
a cunty DM insisting on roll 6d20, in order, no reroll?

hope everyone is having a lovely evening tbqh
spent the evening passed out twice, and also reading a decade or more of unread messages from guys that were obsessed with me since 2010
chat, would u be flattered if u found out someone built a bunker to save u from the apocalypse or happy u didn't fall for it and get dissected???
maybe I should talk to them, the last message is from last year...

>>41609321
>or running out of money
never have money to begin with
if I had control over my finances id probably waste alot of it on drugs
but simply i am poor
poverty keeps me moderating

>>41609566
I'm not cool I just put whatever some gives me in my mouth

sad because my mother told me i act like i don't want a job, even though i've been applying to jobs since april of this year.

>>41609598
>lovely evening
definitely gonna be eventful
kiddies are having a sleepover bringing the total children in this 2 bed apartment to 6
we cramming in here like tuna

>>41609593
ok i rolled 16 3 20 16 5 19 hah not bad

>>41609681
thumbnail looks like a boob

>>41609674
honestly though
who fucking wants a job
oh yes please I'd like to sell long stretches of my life so I can do painfully meaningless work for piddling pay

>>41609684
you are pornsick

>>41609598
Don't do it or you'll be forced to put on the lotion and get the hose

>>41609684
pls showe bobb

>>41609447
i mean, a good rule of thumb is, the further from nature it is, the more irreparable harm it can do to your body.
this isn't true for everything obvi, don't ingest cyanide, and also some refined drugs are fine or even essential, like e or insulin. but in general the more refined something is, the worse it is for you

>>41609465
>>41609535
i don't believe addiction exists, at least not how people describe it
i've been to countless 12-step meetings in my life, and the single most common cause of addictive behavior is "lonliness". any time someone "acts out" it's because they were alone, whether for 5 days or 5 minutes.
human are social creatures, ithink what we call "addiction" is really just a natural consequence of being alone, either physically or metaphysically, and having nothing else to do. it's really less about the drug or action itself, and more about the social circumstances which give need for stimulus-abuse

>>41609681
hey, looks like they might be alright

>>41609735
if someone is a severe alcoholic and stops suddenly they can potentially die, sounds like a mechanism to addiction to me

there's numerous obscerved mechanisms for addiction, the whole "its just loneliness" is unscientific claptrap

>>41609735
idk dawg i thought addiction was weakness of character till i smoked a cig then i learned the troof

>>41609762
>>41609746
nah meng newborns suffering from withdrawal if their mum did drugs are just a lil lonely lol

>>41609678
oh no, I hope u still manage to get some sleep before they wake up again...
>>41609700
yikes, what does that even mean tho???
>>41609735
>>41609746
there are definitely homeostatic effects, where the body adjusts to try and balance out, change the situation and it's not good or change context and u might od on a regular dose
then again, there is also definitely research on agency narratives, and a perceived lack of agency with addiction is associated with worse treatment outcomes
so it's kinda both an internal mechanism and a reinforcing social permission structure tbqh

reminds me of that one story where the guy decided to try heroin on a whim and disregarded several hundred people warning him that was ill advised

>>41609823
how did it go

>>41609834
he was strong willed so the addiction took him immediately and for a decade

I still need to see the trainspotting sequel tbqh
is it any good???

>>41609746
of course there is a chemical component to a chemical addiction, but that doesn't mean there isn't a psychological component. some addictions are entirely psychological, like gambling, or self-harm. to deny the need for therapy/community would be as retarded as denying the need for methodone
it's not just lonliness, but if an alcoholic only drinks with friends, they're far less likely to develope the sort of dependency to requires withdrawal treatment

>>41609801
this, but there's not much you can really do to treat the internal mechanism outside of the emergency scenario. for most people, it takes a psychological change following any psychiatric change, and even then, we live in a societyTM that encourages isolation and by proxy creates the need for addictive behavior

>>41609853
not bad

I punched my leg a bit earlier bc I messed up in a video game and now it's a little swollen and feels like it hurts a bit and will probably be a little bruised tomorrow or whatever
wtf is wrong with me

somtime i get so angy..

>>41609876
I could go on and on about perspectives on interventions and the fuzziness of invasive vs non-invasive interventions tbqh
suffice to say that all disorders are networked and related to the environmental context, and the looping effects of sickness narratives, what it means to have disorder x or addiction y
like how rehab often fails cos the context in which it's treated and which it's done are dissimilar
>>41609914
this is what they meant by video games are bad for ur health ngl

>>41609931
y
>>41609914
pat, you probably have more going on than just the videogame

>>41609972
idk who pat is but yeah I do
it was a single player game anyway, one called v rising. big over reaction, but it did feel good getting hurt a little bit

keep postinggg cmon do somethingggg

Chasing in mtfg should be legalized

>>41610067
whose feet are you seeking anon

>>41610053
idk what I should post I'm just chilling
come hang out with me

>>41610073
Only the most soulful soles lady

>>41610074
i'm going to elfis house on sunday thank goobness

>>41610053
well, I got myself some new books, to help me think more logically and not be so stupid the whole time tbqh
I might start working thru those ig
>>41610067
I thought like a significant portion of modern mtfg was just transitioned chasers anyway???

>>41610098
Transitioned chasers? You mean failed males?

>>41610120
I mean, whatever terminology u like???
maybe that's u in the future??!?!?! lmao

>>41610127
Hey no recruiting I came here in peace

>>41610083
have funn

>>41610155
you're thinking about it

>>41610155
ppl used to cry I was too mean to their chasers, I don't think I would actively recruit any ...
just think it's funny and at this point with a sufficient lack of caring funny is all that matters tbqh

>>41610158
>>41610183
See this is how your KIND works, you gang up and bully. I will not stand for it.

I am an evil bully, run in terror

>>41610209
I'm not bullying u, if u transition after being a chaser I will always look down on u tbqh
I will be like 'anon remember all that chasing u did... u just became ur own ideal gf... sigh u freak...' and none of that will stop u
cos we all know this is leading to u dating a girl and stealing her estrogen or edating a girl and asking where someone can get hrt as a joke

>>41610247
Lots of ifs... I think you are having this convo with yourself. You freak.

>>41610262
no amount of projection will change it, that's why I could never stand chasers, they've got no game unless ur absolutely desperate tbqh

Hmm feeling lonely while high is cringe

imagine being a troon and looking down on someone haha

>>41610318
but u seem like u have plenty of friends, maybe u just got too high???
>>41610322
imagine having no self respect tho
I noticed the intense self-depreciating and slurs is all in now lmao

>>41610366
Online I have motion but I don't have any irl friends rn unfortunately- but I have in the past yea (diff state), I want some cool irl trans friends

>>41610366
you've been paying attention!

>>41610391
oh yeh, I get it, moving to different areas or between jobs can be like that
usually just have to do stuff, I kinda want to get into the lgbt art scene here but just no time tbqh
>>41610394
I try to keep up with the trends u know

>>41610449
doing stuff noooo,, I want the perfect friends to appear out of thin air instead

>>41610531
or in a puff of smoke iunno

>>41610545
true... true......
I think I'll try and vc with a pretty girl

>>41600237 (OP)
>qott
Yes. A lot actually.

>>41610573
glhf

>>41610669
ty it seems I'll be successful

>>41600237 (OP)
>qott

I've began networking with the church in last month. Met a Franciscan monk and told him straight up im a queer. He just smiled gave me a hug texted me some resources and encouraged me to visit the Paulist Center and st. Anthony's shrine. Been going to therapy weekly for almost a year and learned some of the same stress compartmentalizayion techniques therapists teach police which makes me feel cool like. I've done a lot of other stuff too. Most of my life I have been angry all the time but now I am content being just silly and weird christbol. I will probably continue networking RL was invited to something cool tomorrow morning but will probably stay home and watch saturday morning cartoons. <3

>>41610449
stop by your local coffee shop, if there aren't artists hanging out there regularly, you're sure to find some cool fliers or something

>>41610318
make some music if you're feeling down! think about the people you'll be able to share it with c:
i just made some sweet drum and bass, since you mentioned jungle
>>>/wsg/6023366

>>41607204
Please seek an angel or something silly and loving that looks cool

>>41610867
true and real, well I signed up for an art course at the college cultural center and they've been hanging our weekly work up like a mini exhibition
I also signed up for a fashion illustration course, but they cancelled due to too few sign-ups... very sad...

feeling suicidal

I wish this place was less dead it used to be so active

>>41610867
Maybe I don't have any of that setup yet hehe

>>41611309
niggas love old mtfg more than they family

>>41611572
I'm just lonely hehe I want ACTIVITY

Hi though maeve (:
Also goodnight

im so depressed
30min after waking up and im spiralling so bad already, every fucking day

I get paid on Monday. I believe that I will purchase a Victorian inspired blouse. This is the real prize however. Oh I must save for this.

>>41611630
yeh the thread has been on life support for months at least
gn
>>41611687
ehh, looks kind of costumey and cheap material, I would shop around tbqh

I hate morning people. And mornings. And people

>>41612104
sametbqh

sailor
if you still want to make the suipusher pay
let me know
you were right in December
I'm sorry I didn't listen to your warning

I'd be okay with trannies if you weren't all so fucking ugly and fat and weird. Why is it so hard for you to just be normal and pretty?

we're having fun again?

paige stfu

>>41612631
Shhhh don't cry little sissy shhhh

Don't cry those sweet little sissy tears shhhhhhhhhh

>>41612631
ur ok brother?

Suipushing isn’t even a real concept lmao. Just close the tab lil bro

I'm just a dude pretending to be a woman and society says, yo that's cool & normal keep doing it and i'm like ??? what? lmao aight sure lolz

>>41612675
Please let me fuck your boypussy

>>41609211
>it really is, especially after years without
m*no never gave you real love huh...

>>41612777
ofc not
she talked about navy 24/7, full rent free like obsessively, and this all was just a "victory," to her
as in "navy lost" blah blah
that was the only thing she cared about

>>41612842
You're not a victim. Stop.

Nicholas, you FOOL! You are not worthy. You are simply not worthy of my love.

>>41612866
legit no difference pre/post ffs
rough

Why do trannies have such big manly penises? If you were really wk.en you'd have smaller remote feminine penises.

I hate that since I trooned out i had to give up being far right, I hate that in queer spaces irl being a leftist is a purity test

I just want to be able to be a tradwife and get plowed by my husband, dragged to an Orthodox or Catholic Church service every Sunday, get bent over and plowed, but noooooo, I'm forced into queer spaces because of my biological misfortune, and "camp" is mandated

right wing spaces I can't be in after 2016 because Trump decided "trannies are the focus now"

both sides of the political spectrum decry efforts to change biological sex through science, right wingers cry affront to God, leftists say that's internalized transphobia

I can't win

>>41612842
That's why she cheated on you and abused you too.
>she talked about navy 24/7, full rent free like obsessively, and this all was just a "victory," to her
as in "navy lost" blah blah
LOL

>>41612896
are you gonna post any candid or post ffs pics of her? otherwise she will just keep denying it and say you're a liar/jealous/cheater

botched ffs btw

Should I give tinder another try?
So far I averaged 1 message every 2.5 years

>>41613003
Do you prefer botched or unchanged?

>>41612992
I might have in some older recordings
she always made sure to not be in the picture when I took selfies

>>41612985
very likely yes

>>41613016
Last time i tried it the thing was useless, if you just wanna get dicked just try grindr.

>>41613146
Tried that too
0 messages in 5 years
Tinder was the most "successful" app lmao

>>41613157
Even though you are stealth? That's shocking. Men usually want to fuck any woman even if ugly.

>>41613166
Idk maybe I'm not attractive by local standards ig

>>41613157
lotta troons get banned from tinder these days

>>41613016
probs try something else, since u can't see likes it's useless if u only see a few messages a month but 100 likes

>>41613211
Only if you cheat and use the women category instead of the trans one

>>41613235
i think it's automated after certain number of reports

>>41613227
>few messages a month
I got 2 in 5 years across like 6 apps lol
>try somethings else
Like what?
>>41613211
Never got banned

>>41613103
>I might have in some older recordings
I'm curious to see.

>>41612992
>>41613103
actually I do yes
need to cap them from clips first

>>41613243
her was made for women and taimi was made for lgbtqia+
so maybe either of those if u are looking for that
happn shows u who is closeby and then u can reject them all and wait to play guess the crush where u pick one of 4 or skip
if someone u picked loves u then u can talk to them

>>41613298
Tried her too, tinder was the most successful tho

>>41613309
it was taimi for you tho

>>41613298
taimi is nothing but hons and chasers

>>41613255
based

>>41613309
huh maybe its different in some areas, I got 5 messages on tinder vs hundreds of likes, and 30 messages on her
>>41613340
yeh kinda, it's p shocking and wakes me up seeing thomas or robert or hank the 60yo balding and bearded woman
but I also talked to some artists on there that aren't tho, just didn't keep talking

>>41613327
>taimi has like 120 people in my age group in my area
>60% are male and probably gay
>leaves like 50 potential people at best

I mean i don't think it'll work but maybe I'll add that to my list when I give dating apps another go
>>41613375
Idk maybe you're attractive
I got like 0 messages on the other apps but 2 on tinder, both never went beyond them saying hi and then never replying again

>>41613386
try bumble?

>>41613391
Tried that too

>>41613401
is there some obscure austrian thing you can use? or maybe just an old trip to talk to who's dtf? that used to be an easy way to get laid way back

>>41613386
I don't think I'm attractive, maybe ppl are desperate, but I'm not, so I just got fatigued and didn't feel like dating iunno
I should have probs done it more seriously ngl, so I feel like it should work for u if u really want to meet someone???
iunno maybe widen the search to like 200 miles lol

>>41613255
Do you have them now?

>>41613401
>>41613386
>>41613309
It’s weird because you're hot honestly. Do you say that you had srs in bio?

>>41613424
>austrian apps
Not really, the big ones are the ones i already tried
>trip dtf
I'm the only trip left in the area
>>41613440
>I'm not attractive
Idk seems you are
>widen the radios
I expanded the radius to like 500km already when the lists emptied out lol
Got as far as seeing polish and italian people lmao

>>41613455
>hot
Ty but maybe just not by local standards ig
>srs in bio
Nah since coworkers and stuff might see the profiles
The profiles were fully stealth

>>41613459
mamma mia!! better start learning italian tbqh

>>41613459
Christs it must be so dry out there. At this point all you could do is find a hobby group and try to meet people irl.

>>41613485
Godo
>>41613490
Had a hobby group, seething retard outed me there so I rather stay away from the hobby
Not really time for any group hobbies anyway, not to mention too shy anyway

>>41613507
out of ideas then sorry fren, i heard its rough out there even for the cis normal types

sup

>>41613523
No worries, current plan is to be useful for society until I retire, then off myself rather than growing old alone
Maybe I'll give dating apps another shot, maybe it'll work better this time around lol

>>41613551
would you want to get a pet? even tho i acknowledge thats old cat lady energy could be nice to have something to come home to

>>41613562
Don't have time for a pet like a dog, allergic to cats

>>41613576
could see you with a lizard of some kind

>>41613551
Would have been easier if you kept the dick.

Why do trans look so ugly? Whenever I see one I say "yuck"

>>41613581
Sounds neat but they're expensive a f in upkeep and wouldn't be very pet-able

>>41613589
I prefer having a functional vagina

>>41613609
they're less expensive than you'd think, my sis has a bearded dragon and he's quite sociable and petable. Dude will just sit on your lap as you play games

>>41613551
nah ur cute and know how to take care of ppl
>>41613595
reminds me of the papers on disgust and mating strategies I read a few months ago

>>41613626
Ohh dope
I'll look into it
>>41613627
Ty, idk probably just the local taste that's different then

>>41613651
when I went to er I fell inlove with every single doctor, nurse, and trainee ngl
but maybe it was the drugs ...

gaping my bussy right now it's a big gape too :3c any1 want in? :3ccc

Why do you poop from your butt if you also want to put penises in butt? Won't poop get on the penises when they go in your butt?

>>41613719
Post pic please for the love of god post a pic

>>41613718
Probably was the drugs lmao

>>41613453
I'm being threatened with certain violence to stop me from posting them
tho in time...i just have to take some measures to protect myself right now

should i take my e this week?

>>41614125
yes pls ty

So, where is the stuff?

>>41614053
Mono is so fugly she threatens to physically assault you if you post unedited pics of her? HAHAHAH

>>41614186
but im scared if i fuck it up...
needles scary...

>>41614053
You're clinically insane so either you hallucinated the pics or imagining you're in danger. Classic case of schizophrenia.

>>41612924
it's internalized transphobia to NOT change your body, wtf are you on about. also i know plenty of "trad" leftists, if by "trad" you mean catholic

>>41614253
just do subq anon it's not risky just spoogie first couple times

>>41614053
Ahahahahahahaha o lord

Mono I thought you're so sexy and beautiful, why are you having a complete meltdown when your victim is willing to show the truth?

>Pay EVERYTHING to someone for YEARS
>They are your victim now

>>41614642
>Pimp beats up prostitute and cheats on her
>BUT I BOUGHT YOU GIFTS AND GAVE YOU A ROOM, HO
>YOU ARE NOT A VICTIM

valid

>>41614678
Perhaps she could have chosen another career.

>>41614701
Loverboy grooming method

i want an autumn themed background but im having trouble picking weh

>>41614642
>>41614261
fuck off blobby

Can the real victim please stand up?

salam alakum
praise the protestors
protect the police

and happy caturday

lia shut the FUCK up already you fat fuck god damn you're FUCKING annoying

help me find a good wallpaper anon

i once visited /w/ and returned with this thing [picrel]
now i think it isnt verry good idea for my wallpaper

>>41614294
did it, ty!
am i a good girl now?

>>41615680
done

I like kat and have no desire to insult her or get involved with drama
@072

I like transsexuals

>>41615923
fag

Managed to push myself out of depression bed to dye my hair and study some pharmacology
Go me

>>41616040
congrats anon that's a good color on you

ngl mtfg peaked with lilpoggersbro during that game award stream

looks like someone was sent to the shadow realm baka

NEW

>>41616040
am proud of you fren
>>41615821
yes good job and keep it up, try not to give into scare
>>41615825
sigh

>>41615825
unironically my wallpaper for past decade+

>>41616410
no

>>41616474
>>41616474
>>41616474