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Every single fucking time I get a ban or a warning on some other website it makes me wonder why I ever bother even leaving 4chan. This place can be pretty shitty but at least here I can speak my mind. Seemingly innocuous comments land you with long suspensions almost everywhere these days. It annoys the shit out of me. We should be grateful for this place. At least here we are free.

Don't confuse the desires of your head with the desires of your heart.

Do you ever draw on your girlfriend's back and have her guess what you drew? I did that the other night but on her nipples instead.

>>24494690
Ban this mf

I feel like Musaylima right now.

I dunno what's in my head. I will regret not opening up and solving my problems. but it's just impossible. Everything is so dead.

nah
i really can't. didn't know that sucks so much. that's one of my last messages in the internet. no, i'm not gonna kms, i'm just not gonna speak again. time to close this page like i've benn trying to write something solid 40 minutes

>>24494710
>having a gf
normies leave now

>>24494802
If you saw my girlfriend, you wouldn't say that. She's a goth, not a normie.

I just get so insecure when I see my new girlfriend dress up hot and go out with her friends. She's not even dressing objectively "slut"ily: just a low neckline, little cleavage, sometimes her midriff, occasionally a sexy backless dress at an event.

Maybe it's not even the dress. I think the issue for me is that she has a tattoo of a rose on the small of her back, basically what people would call a tramp stamp. It's in too sexy a place for me, I think. It makes me uncomfortable with the fact people can see that tattoo on her there and look at her in that sensitive area even when we're around. I can't explain it, but it's too stressful almost?

It's a bit too sexual because it naturally attracts people's eyes there. I've tried to gaslight myself into thinking I'm okay with it or okay with the attention and sexual energy it brings, but it's exhausting to always think about it when she goes out with or without me.

I've tried sharing my thoughts with her in the hopes of understanding her perspective. She was open to hearing my thoughts and shared she only got the tattoo because it makes her feel sexy and not because she feels it'll get men to look at her more. I feel better that we spoke a bit about it, but I still feel uncomfortable.

I don't know if this is something I'll get over, or if this is just who I am.

>>24494814
another fucking normie

>once had a dream where some monstruous ghost woman is walking towards me
>I'm scared out of my mind, completely frozen
>she is taking her time, enjoying how scared I am and oozing malice
>we both know that she is gonna kill me when she reaches me
>when she is right in front of me, I suddenly recall old /x/ greentext about fucking ghosts
>my fear is overtaken by a surge of courage and determination
>passionately kiss the ghost while holding her
>now she is the one surprised and frozen over
>proceed to rip her ghostly clothes off and have sex with the ghost
>after sex she keeps cuddling me and her spooky ghost features are gone
I also dreamt that I was Caesar getting stabbed to death in the senate once. It was extremelly painful.uuuu
>>24494814
Well, there comes a time in each man's life where he gotta be honest with himself about how much sluttiness he can tolerate in a woman. She is who she is and you are who you are, the least the both of you can do is be honest to each other and to your own selves.
>she only got the tattoo because it makes her feel sexy and not because she feels it'll get men to look at her more
Kek, that's a very female way of looking at it. Which is normal since most women can't be honest with their "tee hee, I like being slutty" feelings most of the time.
Anyway, I suggest you ask yourself whether you feel insecure about having other men lusting after your gf (something inevitable no matter how she dresses, acts or what she looks like) or because of your gf's own inherent sluttiness (I'm not saying that she is necessarily a gigahoe, but as I mentioned before every man has a different degree of tolerance for it)

>>24494814
If she don't slave away in the kitchen 8hrs a day, she's a hoe.

>>24494814
Your gf seems like the type of girl to pride herself on her sluttiness. Not really wife material but she must be bomb in bed

Do they/them/she have a nasty case of shingles? It'll be bad if it reaches into the eye. They/them/she should get those checked by a doctor, preferably someone who isn't a transphobe.

>>24494864
How about a transfatphobe

I remember once I was in a social situation I didn't want to be in, that I viscerally hated. In a moment of decision I decided to abandon it all and ruin everything.

I'd never felt so good. The next afternoon I went out to lunch and the guy orchestrating it all called me up, and he lectured me intensely about how I'd screwed everything over. I did not care. I actually put my phone down for long segments as he continued to prate away, like five minute stretches at least where he just talked and talked and I did not listen to a word he was saying. I did not care.

At the end of the day I just have a powerful ability to not give a fuck what anyone thinks. Whatever.

>>24494833
>there comes a time in each man's life where he gotta be honest with himself about how much sluttiness he can tolerate in a woman
Y'know I really appreciate you saying that. I've tried to accept these more "sluttier" aspects of the woman I've dated (ofc not that they're sluts or anything), thinking to myself that I'm just an insecure fuck that should get over it, but it's never stopped making me feel insecure or uncomfortable.

Coming to my girlfriend's lower back tattoo, I think maybe it's time to just be honest with myself that I'm not comfortable with a tattoo like that. The question is where does that lead us: do we break up, do we stay together? All I know is I'm very uncomfortable with the attention and energy this tattoo brings. The rest is uncharted territory.

>I suggest you ask yourself whether you feel insecure about having other men lusting after your gf (something inevitable no matter how she dresses, acts or what she looks like) or because of your gf's own inherent sluttiness (I'm not saying that she is necessarily a gigahoe, but as I mentioned before every man has a different degree of tolerance for it)
I think it is the inherent sluttiness. I feel weird that she has a tattoo in a place very commonly known for its sluttiness.

Plus there's always such a constant thing of attention and sexual energy. It feels really odd man. Even if we're going out casually for ice cream and she happens to wear a loose crop top, there's this weight of that tattoo's sluttiness on me. I can't just chill because I know it's out for everyone to look at and judge. Plus I know men and I know every man looking at her is thinking she's a slut and wants her. It's just too much to deal with all the time. I just want to go out without this weird pressure over me.

I'm gonna marry a prostitute

Now you feel like no. 1
Shining bright for everyone
Living out your fantasy

I have been edging for like 6 days and still haven't cum

After reading the Edgar Allen Poe story wherein an astronaut headed to the moon in a hot air balloon trains his body to sleep in 15-minute intervals so he can routinely fiddle with the doohickey supplying him oxygen, I have started sleeping only every other night. Now it's dawn after another sleepless night. I've got a couple of hours before breakfast. Do I...
1, 6 Write
2, 7 Read
3, 8 Watch
4, 9 Game
5, 0 Shitpost
Dubs: Meditate
Trips: Lay down

>>24494833
>about how much sluttiness he can tolerate in a woman
Interesting concept. Please elaborate. Got any examples?

>since most women can't be honest with their "tee hee, I like being slutty" feelings most of the time.
Tell me more about it. How exactly are you defining "being slutty"?

>>24494682 (OP)

Ngl Nazi imagery makes me want to be the best I can be and rise above weakness. Even though I'm not white

>>24494935
shit's unhealthy af

>>24494907
Well, don't try to force yourself to be someone you are not, but also don't try to force her into being what you want her to be. It's unfair and you end up as the equivalent of someone who knowingly got into a relationship with an alchoholic while being constantly frustrated with their partner's alcoholism. Sometimes people change, sometimes they don't; that's beside the point. Anyway, If you are unsure about your feelings I would recommend for you to wait and see, especially if you haven't been dating for long. After some time you'll know if it's something you can live with or not. You could also note down your thoughts and feelings; revisting them a few weeks/months from now may be illuminating. At least you'll know for sure if this stuff has been constantly bothering you during all that time.
>>24494944
Sure. For example, have you never noticed how some guys don't mind if their girlfriend goes out dressed like a stripper while others will resent theirs for wearing anything short of a burka?
>How exactly are you defining "being slutty"?
Casually presenting herself in a sexualized manner. This can go from a bit of harmless flirting to walking around with her tits out telling guys she barely knows that she really likes sucking dick.
It kinda compliments and mirrors the male extremes I mentioned above. Basically, any relationship flows more harmoniously when the man's tolerance and the woman's sexuality more or less match. I also think that anyone who doesn't belong to any of the extremes, no matter which, won't have that much trouble finding someone likeminded. The problem is that people are very selfish and immature when it comes to this and try to force their partner into adapting to their behavior instead of being honest and going for a more compatible match.

I want to kiss my sister

>>24495322
>don't try to force yourself to be someone you are not, but also don't try to force her into being what you want her to be. It's unfair and you end up as the equivalent of someone who knowingly got into a relationship with an alchoholic while being constantly frustrated with their partner's alcoholism

Thank you. I think you're right, and this tremendous anxiety I've been feeling lately is just me trying to force myself into being comfortable with something I'm naturally not. I've tried to rewire my brain and all that, but it's never worked. I think this is just fundamentally who i am.

Thing is that this girl is really amazing and we're compatible in all meaningful ways. The tattoo is singular point of incompatibility, and since I've never been here before, I don't know if it's worth breaking up a great relationship for.

I'm not interested in changing or controlling her or anything, but would it be worth having a conversation to see if this point of incompatibility is too much?

>If you are unsure about your feelings I would recommend for you to wait and see, especially if you haven't been dating for long. After some time you'll know if it's something you can live with or not. You could also note down your thoughts and feelings; revisting them a few weeks/months from now may be illuminating. At least you'll know for sure if this stuff has been constantly bothering you during all that time.
That's fair. We've only been dating for a couple months now, and we've been very open about our preferences, and means of communication, and our key points of compatibility, and it's all been in solid alignment so far.

The thing is that I don't think she's genuinely a slut or anything. She doesn't wear too risque clothing like revealing boobies, micro mini skirts, lingerie outside, etc etc. She's a bit sweet and innocent in many aspects of general life including dating and stuff. She's had self-esteem issues her entire life due to her mum being a bitch about her skin color and weight, and only in the last 3-4 years has she felt comfortable in her skin and felt the desire to prove that she is pretty enough to pull of these beautiful dresses. And she tells me this tattoo she got to feel sexy and to feel worthy enough to pull off a sexy tattoo.

Let's see. I'm still uncomfortable with the tattoo. I genuinely think I'd be more comfortable if the tattoo was just somewhere else. Alas, she has it and it is there. I'll try and wait it out and see if she is able to make me feel loved and secure even with this tattoo there.

Thanks goodly for sharing your thoughts, my friend. It's helped a lot.

worst /wwoym/ in living memory

>>24494833
>Dream sharing time
My rabbit psychopomp stabbed a guy in a market for his lung (She's a medical rabbit and we were shopping for lung shaped things like mushrooms because she says they help lung problems if you eat them but then she wanted some guy's lung)
We got in trouble for starting a knife and sword fight and I had to explain to her people would be upset because she stole someone's lung, and we would have to hide from people with swords. The market police were like the shadow Foot clan in TMNT so they could appear out of shadows, and my rabbit complained about hiding because all she was doing was stabbing mfers coming out of the shadows with swords when my plan was supposedly about not stabbing people.
So we went to return the guy's lung in hospital, but it didn't look properly attached when the rabbit was done sewing, and I said as much, so she filled up the unattached bit of the lung with jam, which I am dubious about working
She said they'd never suspect us because rabbits cannot eat jam. Apparently returning the lung made it a no harm no foul situation to everyone else. Or the jam put them on the wrong track

>>24494682 (OP)
Did they change the file size limit? I swear it used to be 4 MB but I just tried to upload a 3.4 MB image to /tv/ and it said the file was too big.

ME AND MY FUCKING GUN

It's too hot to think. I'm using an ice pack as a pillow trying not to feel the boiling inside my skull.

>>24494682 (OP)
saw a crow being harassed by a blue jay earlier this morning

why do blue things always have issues with black things?

>>24495448
It's cause they clash. It would be even worse if one were plaid

>>24494682 (OP)
Truth is 99.99% of the people on this planet are unworthy to suck on your cock.

>>24495487
Idk at least 15% are highly skilled and deserve a way to show their talents

>>24495487
>>24495491
For me I'd say it's more like 20 percent

>>24495394
Suck off a shotgun

Silicon and carbon are only substrates for intelligence, if our bodies are physiological for us, then sand is physiological for computers. What else can house intellect or pattern matching/creation?

(A) Plasma-Based Intelligence
Concept:
Ionized gas self-organizes into stable structures (e.g., ball lightning).
Where?
Stars, fusion reactors, or lab-created plasma vortices.
Evidence:
Plasma shows primitive "memory" and self-sorting behaviors.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AHpGJiUMKhc
do u feel like this song is crass depressionploitation? i mean the guy literally a rich rockstar who spent his life moping around the hippest neighborhoods

>Trying to mend
>My depression
>Seeing the end
>My depression
>I'm blurrin' the sight
>My depression
>Try as I might
>My depression
what did he mean by this

>>24494682 (OP)
I hate my dad. I hate that useless passive piece of shit.
I hate my mom. I hate that lazy liberated feminazi.

>>24495589
>do u feel like this song is crass depressionploitation?
yes

>>24495612
time to grow up maybe

>>24495612
Is there anything worse than realizing that your father is a coward?

>>24495634
realizing that u inherited his personality?

>>24495498
I wasn't including the elderly or children.

>>24495634
I wouldn't say he's a coward. He doesn't kill spiders, he catches them alive and throws them out the window. He used to go to work by bike, even when it was storming outside. What else? When someone annoys him, he has no issue telling that person that he's a piece of shit, or even denounce him at the local authorities over minor issues just to piss him off.
My issue with him is that he's a total loser who never achieved anything in his life.

>>24495634
My children will know this one day

>>24495498
yeah but you a ho bby

I ordered Darn Tough socks and Thinx underwear last night. The socks are coming today. I'm going to wear them every day.

bought some sneakers today, feels nice

cromede

>>24494682 (OP)
I'm not religious in any way, certainly wouldn't call myself someone who is slowly being drawn toward any one belief system at this point in my life, but I have been noticing something recently- that sort of synchronicity / Baader-Meinhof 'I am seeing this more recently and am thus thinking about it more' situation in relation to biblical passages. I have been thinking a lot about a film called Dead Man's Letters that sort of ends with a post-nihilistic birth of a new religion carried forward by the children left in the wake of the apocalypse, and the passage "When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things. For now we see through a glass; darkly." keeps echoing in my mind. I am not entirely sure what it is in relation to. I feel like I am dimly aware of some stormy green horizon of awareness some of us look toward as adults but never actually reach- it has this horrifically revelatory second-awakening forebode to it, like how the awakening associated with pubescence- when you relatively suddenly gain self-awareness and the world begins to be illuminated in new, often quite staggering and oppressive ways- can seem quite a tragic and terrible situation in retrospect, looking back on childhood as a charmed fantasia without the same depth of concern that would come later. It's like I am experiencing some prefiguration of an impossible metamorphosis that would feel like being woken up by a bucket of icy water being dumped out on me- all my nerves screaming and my mind reeling to orient myself to the waking, lucid world in a confused, overwhelming instant. But it's not something that exists. I've tried LSD a number of times, I remember an impression I would come to get when under the effects of that substance- after extended periods without having touched it- that I had only just opened my eyelids again after months or years of sleeping through life, and was now able to interact with the world and conceive of things in this boldly energetic way that is usually utterly locked away from conscious potential, and certainly those impressions were and are incredible to me and speak to the power of this substance, but this is not at all what I mean. The acid experience is, when viewed soberly in retrospect, rife with the juvenile, twacked out nonsensicality and compromised awareness / behavioural control you might associate with less entheogenic substances- so it's not that that I'm thinking of, even if the mere thought of my experiences on LSD makes my heart beat faster and perks me up a bit like it's something I'm sorely missing. No, not that. What I'm talking about is sort of like the feeling I got at the end of Beyond Good and Evil, where Nietzsche welcomes his dear readers to his new wilderness of Dionysiac pagan mysteries, or in the heights of Moby Dick, where I genuinely felt that Melville was reaching into some reservoir (CONT.)

>>24494814
She's going to cuck you boyo

>>24495742
(CONT.)
of thought basically untouched by mankind- I have described it to myself as like 'crooked lightning'. It's madness, but it is madness wrought on the knitted brow of genius. There's a man called Grothendieck, a genius, who, according to the mathematics crowd he was tethered to, lost his fucking mind and began babbling about his own concept of dreams and the problem of evil and everything else under the sun then went into seclusion and wrote tomes and tomes worth of still unseen thoughts on the most essential aspects of the spiritually intense world he became subject to later in life. I want to read his later works in English still- most don't yet have translations or aren't publicly available- but even now I get that feeling from him. I have this profound suspicion that there's something like a threshold that one can cross in the internal life, and once it has been stepped over, that person is now a visitor to a strange, new land, filled with new shapes and grander vistas than anywhere they had been before, and that this is what I am dimly searching for, but I don't know where it is, or what path might lead me in its direction. All I know is, there seems to be something more to this human endeavour- something frightening, and beautiful, and awe-inspiring beyond our current comprehension- and if there is anything in this world that can redeem it from meaninglessness, it is found there. To return to a thought I set aside much earlier when writing all this, I have found myself quite inexplicably struck by the awareness that when I read certain biblical passages, my subvocalization takes on a completely different timbre, cadence, and feeling to my internal reading voice when reading anything else. I can best describe it as sounding like a completely tranquil stream. Calm. Lucid. Without other noise. I don't know what this says- quite possibly "here you will find what you seek". I do not honestly believe that Christianity is the answer. It may just be a stepping stone on the way to higher knowledge or understanding. I don't know. I now want to read the bible though.

After I was done eating my food I noticed my normal plastic fork was missing a couple prongs. And my plate was clean, no fork pieces on it. I guess I should chew better next time.

>>24495385
>would it be worth having a conversation to see if this point of incompatibility is too much?
Well, it depends on what you would talk about. I mean, she already talked with you about the tattoo, right? She gave her reasoning for it and It was there before the two of you met and it's not going anywhere so unless there is something else that needs discussing I don't see what you expect to come from it. I think that you are feeling very anxious about this whole issue and anxiety makes people simultaneously doubt themselves and act in panicky and rushed ways. A general rule I use for myself is to not make any relationship related decisions based on fear, no matter which. Not saying you should do the same but anything that makes you feel trapped naturally clouds your judgement. Just take things easy and give it time. You don't need to make sense of your feelings all at once. She is a nice girl, you like her and it seems like you have been communicating well and are honest with each other.
>She's had self-esteem issues her entire life due to her mum being a bitch about her skin color and weight, and only in the last 3-4 years has she felt comfortable in her skin and felt the desire to prove that she is pretty enough to pull of these beautiful dresses
That's more common than you think and it's unfortunate that women try to regain their self-esteem by sexualizing themselves. An ex of mine came from a similar background and the first thing she did after she got hot was buying a bunch of revealing clothes that looked like lingerie and wearing them all the time. By the time we met each other she wasn't doing that anymore but it still upset me to know she used to. Still, the relationship lasted a few years and we didn't break up because of anything related to it.
>Thanks goodly for sharing your thoughts, my friend. It's helped a lot.
I'm glad to help. I had to go through this kind of stuff and figure it out by myself so it's nice to help others.
>>24495402
I imagined this whole dream playing out like an animation. Why do you call the rabbit a psychopomp? Has it appeared before?

>>24495743
Women do this.

>>24495751
>Why do you call the rabbit a psychopomp
Because she tells me things in dreams and we go on adventures together and because we're all already technically dead on her timescale (She would be very old and dead many times if she existed in time, but right now she's pretending to exist in time so she can possess a stuffed rabbit toy and we can be friends)

What's with girls wanting to pop your pimples, clean your ears, wipe off dirt on you? I barely know her personally and in front of others she keeps offering to clean me which makes me feel self conscious. I decline it most of the time, especially pimple popping which is gross to me. I've known a couple girls like this in elementary school and middle school as well. I guess I'm not a very hygienic person. But a bro has never offered to clean me. Why are some girls like this?

It's just the dress rehearsal rag

>>24495801
If she'll clean your pimples she'll clean everything for you bro. That's straight up wife material.

The nothing matters crowd sure cares enough about not losing power

>>24495812
I don't know if she's actually romantically interested.

https://youtu.be/ncufspI_d60?si=pgX1Ofa_edJKu5gQ
https://youtu.be/P9_lfUAzw8I?si=oZDjuRreIgAly9Bi
https://youtu.be/h1aqxgVoiPw?si=DL2A6-awpyr9fwAW
https://youtu.be/5ubBBt8Y3Sg?si=QZHc0NjzCbux5vhF
Eggs, coffee and apocalyptic folk

>>24495853
Amoebas are very small

How many more symbolic deaths
until the final one,
how many more grand betrayals
until the final one –
or is the end of it all just another illusion?
Why program biological death then, to toy with? To evolve faster,
to invest energy for the long term?
Is there a sufficient amount of times my mind will be twisted,
is there a number to reach?
Can I accelerate it’s process somehow?
Can I make the ultimate sacrifice
and gain the final amount of resilience possible?

There aren’t enough neurons for the amount of questions I wanna ask – so maybe no answer can be given that would satisfy this silent madness I call my life.

Can I at least be blessed with enough energy renewal to go about my days or will I have to deal with this lack of zest for eternity?

I guess I must know these answers so I can adjust the rhythm of my own, authentic entropic dance with the cosmos.

Maybe the ends are justified right now because this whole tomfoolery is everlasting!

>>24495857
The potential combinations of neural connections in the human brain are larger in order than the number of atoms in the known universe
So there are technically more things to be dreamt of in philosophy than exist in heaven and earth

Today I went to the office, just like every Wednesday.
I had lunch and some beers with a friend.
Got home at 16:00 and realized I don't have any real friend.
Guitar learning progress is pretty good.

I don't care that you're a mentally ill slut, I just want to have sex. I hate this.

>>24495875
Er, shouldn't the sex bit be easy in that circumstance?

A hyper-woke brown socialist from a wealthy secular family is on track to becoming the mayor of NYC and right-wingers are busy crying about sharia law because he's a barely-practicing Shia Muslim. God, we're so fucked. These people don't even understand what the real crisis of their society is.

>>24495898
who cares about New York City. those yankees can elect Ron Jeremy as mayor for all I care.

broken bruised forgotten sore
too fucked up to care anymore

>>24494682 (OP)
I can't write anything insightful on my phone. I can write by hand, I can type on my keyboard, and thought flows easily and I can express myself in an articulate way. Then I try to make a post on my phone and I have to do this gay little double thumb wiggle for a minute and I just can't imagine somebody has ever put an intelligent idea into words in such a faggy and unnatural way.

Has anyone here read Ambrose Bierce?
Is he up there with the other great short story writers or just an afterthought?

>>24495947
He's very funny

>>24495898
I really hope they defund the police, make it obsolete then we can start killing dsa dorks and nepobabies. Zohran voters lust would make a good kill list

For the upper-classes, art has always been a proxy for morality. Why yes, I exploit my workers and bust up unions and don't mind if the result of having my taxes lowered is that people starve and have to live on the street, not my problem. Besides, I listen to Schubert and read Dante and donate to the local art museum, all signs and proof of my humanity.

>>24495952
What about his horror stories?

>>24495612
The death of my father was so sharply excruciating that the subsidence of that pain, around 6 months on, gradually gave way to a kind of mild, sustained euphoria. In longer result and retrospect, say about 2 decades, I was mad at him for dying young as he did, at 59, as much from health declining for no reasons of his fault, as for despair over all of that. Some of my favorite memories of him is searching conversations about automation, music, natural history, and gossip about the personalities and aptitudes and doings of people in the corporate echelons he worked in by day. I loved him most for never lying to me about fucking anything important, not even the exact circumstances of his own mother's death.

>>24495966
They've been redone so much that you're probably going to find a lot of them familiar. There's a lot of you're already dead but he does description well. I think most of the ways they suffer is exposure since published, but part of the problem is you can expect a kind of punchline ending. He does at least wrap them up more unlike Lovecraft but again a lot of the endings are you're already dead/ghosts did it
Comfy but not as comfy spooky as if you were a contemporary and had never seen it done before

I need to work to make money but I have no skills or education whatsoever, could teach english but need money to take a test for the certificate

Is the reason drinking rates are dramatically down for this current generation of youth because they're already on medication which alleviate the typical reasons and mental ailments which generally lead to consuming alcohol? Why drink at home when you've got an SSRI? Why drink when going out when you've got Xanax? Why drink for recreation when you've got marijuana?

Or are they actually going a better job of taking care of their bodies and exercising self-control? No need to drink when you can endlessly scroll TikTok and YouTube and rewatch The Office?

>>24495958
In the longest run, I find that it's not so either/or. Indeed, I find the current class of tech billionaires artless almost beyond belief, Indeed, even Louis XIV supported Moliere.

>>24496012
Nobody leaves their house anymore.

>>24495751
>Well, it depends on what you would talk about. I mean, she already talked with you about the tattoo, right?
I was hoping to talk about my perspective on her tattoo placement and on how it makes the attention and sexualising oneself and just constant sexual energy of it all bothered me. Honestly, I don't know what would've come of it other than just her understanding my perspective. In our previous talk, I was mostly trying to understand her perspective on the tattoo.

But there was a moment when she told me that she feels completely safe and secure and loved in our relationship when we're out and about. She then asked me if I feel the same, to which I took a moment and said I did not because the clothes and tattoo made me feel insecure and anxious as if she were looking for other men's eyes and looking for other potential partners. She said she understood and would do her best for me to feel as loved and secure in her presence as she didn't in mine. So I guess I was hoping that telling her that I'm just uncomfortable about the tattoo and that that's just who I am would somehow move us forward in that direction. I have no idea if it will, but no other woman in my life has been so open about wanting to understand me and help me and be considerate to me and my feelings.

>think that you are feeling very anxious about this whole issue and anxiety makes people simultaneously doubt themselves and act in panicky and rushed ways.
That is an excellent rule, and as someone prone to anxiety I shall adopt it for myself.

>Just take things easy and give it time. You don't need to make sense of your feelings all at once. She is a nice girl, you like her and it seems like you have been communicating well and are honest with each other.
Do you think there are any behaviors or traits I need to be aware of in her when evaluating the matter of compatibility? She is the first girl I've been with of this sort, so I'm honestly just figuring shit out all for the first time.

>By the time we met each other she wasn't doing that anymore but it still upset me to know she used to. Still, the relationship lasted a few years and we didn't break up because of anything related to it.
How were you able to deal with the upsetness of knowing this about her past? Were you able to get over it? if so what did you do that helped? and if not, why do you think so? did her having this past impact your view on your compatibility and possible future together?

>I had to go through this kind of stuff and figure it out by myself so it's nice to help others.
Thank you, anon. Every other fuck I've spoken to has responded to me like a foid or redditor and never given me real considerate, addressable advice. You are the big brother I desperately needed. Cheers my friends.

>>24496012
>Why drink at home when you've got an SSRI?
For a start, SSRIs are chastening in the erotic sense, compared to even being drunk off your ass. As for marijuana, I find it tedious in the long run, sensuous as it is in the short. As for opiates, even low doses of those, sustained over a few months, give me nightmares and mild twilight hallucinations I'd rather do without.

Meow

>>24496043
I enjoy quite a lot of privacy and quiet from where I post, but get out much as I like. it's almost ridiculous how well I know the nearest dozen of my neighbors, and the nearest 60 miles of my surroundings in a more geographical, commercial, and historical sense.

>>24496137
I hate catgirls. Go away.

>>24496143
Good to hear that you are engaging with the world. I am happy for you!

I think my dealer's phone is off

>>24495898
Pro-Israel rightists are so disgusting that they disgust me more than leftists.

>>24495898
Mamdani is most likely a plant of Jews. This is like a new type of false flag.

He is:
>Indian
>a caricature far leftist defund the police idiot
>Shia (the probability of that is already rare)
>Suspiciously "won" during kikes kvetching about needing a new 9/11

Jews have changed up their strategies. There is no way any of this is organic.

>>24496170
>Jews have changed up their strategies. There is no way any of this is organic.
I heavily suspect this as well, similar to Trump's "unplanned" criticism of Israel that serves to distance him from MIGA accusations, while not altering pro-Israelisms in policy.

I just want to off myself, everything is shit

>>24496143
*For instance there's a 10K square foot antique store/museum about 15 miles from me that has big heavy cabinet on the 2nd floor with about 20K of amazingly detailed stereoscopic images in it, recorded mostly between about 1920 and 1930, mostly in Europe. Do those people even know how amazing valuable that is?

Do you feel like a burden?
https://slatestarcodex.com/2014/08/16/burdens/

>>24495985
Thanks anon

>>24496160
Wish the same for you. Can't say it's always been easy, but at least it's almost always never been desolate.

>>24496253
Np, they are fun reads, but some of them are like, I have seen this movie reskinned four times

I just became fascist last night.

Anyone want to come with me to my trip from Tierra de Fuego to Alaska?

She sucked out my kidney stone.

Honestly at this point there's so much shit going on, so many misfortunes and disappointments coming at me at the same time, it even stopped bothering me. When tragedy repeats it becomes comedy. I guess this is just life for me now. Just hang on until you die.

I can't take it anymore
I'm gonna buy a fucking machine and a bunch of girly clothes and a chastity cage

>>24496316
Sure, I'll come. But only if we get to go in a straight line.

Scaruffi had a point. The state of music criticism is abysmal compared to other art forms.

>>24496450
geowizard?

The internet is probably the worst thing to ever happen to civilization if we are being honest. Far too much human activity that would’ve otherwise gone to building and acting in the physical world has been sublated by the internet.

>>24495898
it's because the democrats always try to force these horrible candidates no one wants. that's how we ended up with deblasio too. remember the nyt and all the democratic "power brokers" wanted that lesbian from the city council to be the first woman mayor, but the voters were like nah we're good. same thing here. hell the reason trump won twice is because the democrats are scared to actually have a fair primary and always try to force some awful candidate that no one is enthusiastic about.

>>24496475
The internet was fine when it was just teenage boys making flash cartoons and sharing music. When boomers, little kids, and women joined and started flooding it with clickbait, travel vlogs, and hot tub streams, and social justice crusades, banning everyone over Islamaphobia or saying the word nigger, it went to shit.

>>24496475
it's worse than that. so much worse.

>>24496475
I've wasted thousands of hours doing nothing on this shit and have repeatedly been considered gifted throughout my life, I sometimes wonder who I would have been if the internet hadn't existed. Perhaps the same, just idling away on wood carvings or fiction.

My parents are starting to think I'm crazy because of how I talk to the cat for entertainment. I'll come out into the living room in the morning and there will be the cat, staring at me with loving, unassuming eyes, and I'll start running through my usual cat-chphrases in a playful, singing voice, "Aww, is that you? You know you can't sit there and stare at me -- you can't! You really can't!" and as the cat continues to sit and stare without moving an inch, "That's it, if you keep staring, you're done! You can't! Fine, that's it," and I walk over to the cat, grasping its head like a claw, as it continues to stare, "You can't! That's it, I'm killing you, I'm killing you, if you keep staring I'll crush your skull." It still hasn't taken its loving eyes off of me. "I'll end you! Three, two, one, I'm crushing your skull, it's all going black, it's over!" No response. "Sigh, stupid kitty," and then I walk back into my room and right before I close it, the cat mad dashes into my room through the slight opening -- how I haven't ever hit it with the door, I don't know -- and we hangout for the day, and dialogue like that continues through the day.

You can't sit there and stare! You can't! Stop staring! Stop starting! Did you know you're a cat? Betcha' didn't know! Betcha' didn't know! Stupid kitty" as I pet it all around, lovingly.

>>24496490
It actually shows that NYC has been gentrified completely ironically lmao

There are people who can purposelessly entertain themselves and be content and those that cannot.

>>24496475
It's only bad because anglos and jews allowed brainlets and thirdies access to it.
T. Thirdie

Older women are better 40+. They have experience.

>>24496611
'experience' is such a meme for relationships and sex

Now, if you wanna say they're more sophisticated, make for better conversation, okay, I can give you that, but I'll never get people who say nonsense like "oh I want an experienced girl." What does that even mean? A girl who won't have qualms about giving a blowjob and eating your asshole, I presume? I've never had a problem getting a girl to go along with my fetishes, then again mine aren't gross and demeaning, just weird.

>>24496616
>I've never had a problem getting a girl to go along with my fetishes, then again mine aren't gross and demeaning, just weird.
What are they?

My heart is full of love, my head is full of thoughts and my cock is full of cum. Which one will spill first for her?

>>24496630
The big one is somnophilia. Basically I just ask if they're cool with me doing stuff to them while they sleep and they always say yes. Even had times when I told them this the first time we had sex and they pretended to be asleep lol wasn't quite the same but I appreciated the effort

>>24496636
That is actually a decent poem. Reminds me of Brautigan.

>>24496068
Well, it seems like you already discussed it. I don't know what you expect from insisting on that subject. It will sound like it's a part of her you feel intense dislike towards and depending on your behavior she may even interpret it as a confrontation and an ultimatum to laser the tattoo off. It's the kind of conversation that can easily derrail into you throwing all accountability about your feelings into her, saying something that can easily sound like "I dislike this thing that's permanently attached to your body, this is a problem and you have to solve it."; or at least be perceived as such. Keep in mind that your gf already has someone dear to her criticizing something about her skin. Her mother made it a sore spot long before you came into the picture. She will easily get hurt if you bring things up without any tact.
>Do you think there are any behaviors or traits I need to be aware of in her when evaluating the matter of compatibility?
Well, I can't know what would be a dealbreaker to you. I would say to watch out for bpd women since naive nerds are their prey, but if she is bpd you will know. No reason to get neurotic and suspicious about it, it's far from subtle. I personally suffered at the hand of extremelly needy and manipulative women who egotistically transformed me into some kind of metaphorical pack mule: expected to shoulder the burden of all their lives, woes and neurosis included. That's more a reflection of my own weak spots relationship-wise and of personal boundary issues unresolved at that time.
>How were you able to deal with the upsetness of knowing this about her past?
I didn't give much of a fuck since it was in the past and we were fucking a gazillion times a day. It's hard to feel jealous over small stuff that only exists as an abstraction when you are lovey dovey and concretely fucking her every day.
>if so what did you do that helped?
Well, she regreted it months before we even met and she told me in depth about the issues that made her act that way. I guess I just felt compassionate towards her, she went through a ton if bullshit when she was young.
>She is the first girl I've been with of this sort, so I'm honestly just figuring shit out all for the first time.
Intimacy is hard for most anons since, for all the slurs and kys' people say here, in the end a lot of us are very fragile and emotionally vulnerable. Emotional vulnerability is hard and you found someone who sounds like she gives you the right environment for it, being kind and caring towards you. If I had to give you one advice, it would be to always go for a relationship where you feel safe and heard. Nothing worse than feeling like you are walking on eggshels with your significant other. Oh, do beware lovebombing. That isn't subtle either but it's very effective on anons.
>You are the big brother I desperately needed.
Do the same for someone else when you become a 30 yo boomer. Meanwhile, try to treat yourself as you would your own son.

i can't believe i don't have a normal lighter in my apartment i swear i had one but all i have his one of those weird long ones for lighting candles i don't want to smoke weed with that

I guess I'm supposed to be more assertive and take the girl that is trying her hardest to give herself to me this time. This situation gives me an intense sensation of deja vu, I'm going to do my best to learn my lesson and perform this time. I might not ask her out tomorrow but I'm going to get closer than I've ever gotten before.

>>24496751
if u have to force urself to get pussy ur basically just gay dude

i feel kind of depressed for someone reason luckily i have a lot of weed maybe that will help probably not but

i hate how much harder art is than programming

>>24496764
music/painting/poetry/prose?
I find that expressing what I'm attempting to create can help me nail things down.

>>24496760
uh true but fuck you, im struggling a bit here women have thrown themselves at me my whole life and ive wanted literally none of them wait i think i might be gay wtf

>>24496772
music, 3d modelling/animation. like i can program anything if i just grind enough but like when i try to do some 3d modeling i work on it for like an hour, look at it like man that's corny, and close without saving. if i did that with programming i would fail at that too, but programming u just keep writing code until the shit works and if it doesnt then u debug it. idk man. i think i need to just keep working on the same project continually until i finally whip it into some kind of shape.

>>24496777
As opposed to deleting things I'd probably take your existing functional methodology and apply it to your artistic pursuits despite it not necessarily applying. I find that all skills and techniques translate from one medium to another at the very least retain copies of your work to analyze for the purposes of figuring out your pain points so that you can start somewhat accurately determine where things start going sideways. For writing my poetry my only really valuable transferrable skill was VOD reviewing so I would walk myself back through my writing process to try to pinpoint where I made the most gains and why, and what about my poems made me feel good or bad and from there I developed way more direction in my art. Also, playing with your dog helps.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ijoyeEsxt-Q
jam

>go outside
>see people happily socializing
>feel like an outsider
>someone tries to talk to me
>i can only mumble and look down at the ground
every time

>>24494937
I need to read Poe again

I believe that people with ADHD are getting just as high off their stimulants as a 'neurotypical' would be, but all the language around the prescribed medication portrays it as simply providing a method of focus and corralling of a racing mind. Coupled with the fact that if you so much as hint that you're feeling high off your medication, you're now incredibly suspect in the eyes of doctors and at risk of having your prescription pulled. The whole idea that stimulants don't affect people with ADHD as a recreational drug is bullshit.

I was diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome years ago. Apparently it's "high-functioning autism" now. Anyway, apparently there's a great deal of similarity between this condition and schizophrenia. Honestly, I believe it. Sometimes I feel a certain kinship with schizos.

I honestly sometimes think I would have gone full schizo and lost my mind years ago if I didn't pray the Rosary every day. The power of Christ and Our Lady helps to keep me centered amid all the troubles, external and internal, that would tear me apart. The Rosary charts a path I can walk amid all the things threatening to destabilize me.

>>24496965
I hope to find this with my personal use of tarot or a ritual system of my own. I'm happy the Rosary has worked for you.

>>24496972
Well be careful, man. That magic stuff, it will expose you to things that are hard and cold. I know you can end up at the feet of strange gods that don't love.

One of the biggest reasons I'm happy to be a Christian is that I know that God loves me. Christ loves me. Holy Mother Mary loves me, and so does St. Joseph, and Sts. Peter and Paul, and all the saints. All the great multitude. It is a great communion of love, a love that transcends life and death.

Be careful that whatever you get deep into, that it loves you. There is no substitute for love.

>>24496984
Thank you. I wasn't really considering love in this. Only some form of guidance in an attempt to escape from a prison of anxiety and depression.

>>24494682 (OP)
One day it will be revealed that most of what is considered moderation/glowies on the internet was really just a complex algorithm attempting to prevent social rot. There was never anybody there. The algorithm would bunch people together based on tastes and interests and it was assumed that they at least knew of eachother. Instead people just used it as validation to crawl farther into their own caves and justify their lifestyles. They fell in love with the algorithmic understanding of themselves, seemingly nextdoor to eachother but hermetically separated. People will view this time as a sort of tragic preamble to the real information age.

Should I read Solaris or The Third Policeman after wrapping up Dunc Messiah?

>>24494690
>At least here we are free.
It's a bit freer than normie sites in then way you can say nigger or whatever but the tranny jannies ban you for saying anything they personally diagree with lmao. The hack confirmed this

A year from now you're either going to be my girlfriend or hate me.

configuring a bot to reply to every one of my posts with a compliment and praise

>>24497210
I gotta admit, when I saw that chick in the music video for Pavement's Harness Your Hopes, I was bewitched for a few days.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w2Ww_O3ceKU

>>24495678
What's your idea of achievement? Sounds like he has personal convictions. He had children and isn't a pushover. He's better than most men, anon. Take it easy on him.

>>24497374
She's super cute.

>>24497210
a year from now on you will be a rotting carcass that committed suicide over a girl cheating on you.

>>24497459
Only time will tell. Her last boyfriend killed himself and she still hates him, so both our predictions aren't mutually exclusive.

Pro-choicers are vermin. PRO-CHOICERS ARE VERMIN. They are reprehensible. Abortion is the great moral choice of our time and they have chosen incorrectly, to their eternal damnation. Wipe them out. Exeterminate them. Annihilate them. It is no more than what they deserve. They are thoroughly evil and vile. They are subhuman. I have never met a pro-choicer who ever dissuaded me from this position. All of them are filth. All of them are babykillers, without fail.

>>24497462
>Her last boyfriend killed himself
You know I was taking a piss when I was typing that but if that is true then fucking hell you might actually end up dead lol.

>>24497467
>taking the piss
That's dark banter, even for this website.

The happiest time of day is when I'm dreaming about you. Oh how I wish I could just live there, or go back in time when we saw each other. One day we will be together again.

>>24496660
>Well, it seems like you already discussed it. [...] up without any tact.
I understand. Honestly, I just wanted some sort of solution to my immediate feelings of anxiety. My anxiety has recently morphed to such a point that even looking at a photo of her dressed pretty (not even sexy or anything) makes me anxious. Honestly, I don't even know how this happened. A few days back, I couldn't get my hands off of her and could not stop looking at her in public. But today I'm scared to look at her photos because it triggers some feelings of insecurity and anxiety within me. I keep thinking of people looking at her tattoo and feeling lustful towards her and her secretly liking it. I keep thinking what if in the future she decides to dress in something super risqué like lingerie in public or a super skimpy bikini (even thought she's stated that's not what she's interested in).

I fully realize that this is my problem and that there's something wrong with my head. She has repeatedly stated that she only has eyes for me (I think some part of me is afraid she'll leave me or is looking at other guys) and that our sexual and physical connection is the greatest we've both had in our lives (I have some sexual anxiety here because she is the most beautiful girl I've ever seen and some part of me is scared she'd want to hop on some other dick). Idk man, I don't know what to do to put these heightened feelings of anxiety at ease. I just wish I could reach that feelings of being completely secure and loved in her presence, the same feeling she said she feels with me.

Honestly, I think I should get off this site. Every time I've shared this insecurity here or on other boards, its always been anons telling me I am or will be cucked or that she's a slut whore and telling me all these things that I didn't know I was worried about but sorta start worrying about because I'm already in an anxious, vulnerable state of mind. I just want to live a comfy peaceful life with her without any of these anxieties or insecurities or worries.

>watch out for bpd women since naive nerds are their prey
True. This happened to my brother when he was 18. Lovebombed to hell and beyond by a bpdemon. she tried fucking with him too by lying about being pregnant too. Fucking cunt. Glad you made your way out stronger.

>If I had to give you one advice, it would be to always go for a relationship where you feel safe and heard.
Great advice, my friend. I always wanted to be with someone that makes me feel like this, and I have found her. She is also so kind and loving and she is amazing with children. This tattoo really isn't a big deal in the grand scheme of things, I'm realizing, as I'm typing this shit out, but I just have to figure out a way to manage my neuroticism.

>Do the same for someone else when you become a 30 yo boomer. Meanwhile, try to treat yourself as you would your own son.
How beautiful, my friend. I shall pass it on. Godspeed.

I really want to start smoking cigarettes but my moral conscience is too strong.

>>24497510
Why?

Only give cigarettes a try if you know you don't have an addictive personality. I've smoked a good few cigarettes socially but my body has literally never wanted to try it again.

>>24497519
Because it's relaxing, has social and cognitive benefits, reduces anxiety, and may be an effective substitute for my inveterate nail-biting.

I don't believe in the propaganda that smoking is especially addictive. It's less addictive than coffee is.

The problem is I know it's bad for you and it's quite expensive. And my moral conscience is too strong to the point where I don't even drink.

I've been having extremely powerful dreams that make me think I may be close to death, perhaps due to some apocalyptic collapse caused by Jews, Freemasons, and oligarchs.
I keep seeing quivering planets and sometimes civilizations on them. I think rebirth or transmigration applies on a planetary level like the mind's karmic imprints and tendencies influence what planet one is reborn onto next. Maybe it's because I have no attachment to humanity that this happens. Sometimes flickers of colors appear that I have no words to describe. It's kind of purpleish.

>>24497525
>I don't believe in the propaganda that smoking is especially addictive.
I know a lot of people who smoke and none of them are chill "I can stop whenever I want" smokers. Those people are a tiny, tiny minority. All the smokers I know get jumpy if they're deprived of cigarettes for a prolonged amount of time (ranging from 15 minutes to 2 hours, depending on the person) and the majority will straight up admit that they're addicted. And trust me when I say that after a certain point, you no longer smoke because it makes you feel relaxed, but because you can't relax if you don't smoke.

>>24497541
Ok, I get headaches when I don't drink coffee. I just ignore it for 1 day and then the next day the withdrawal symptoms go away and I don't need coffee anymore. I vaped for a while and didn't even feel any withdrawal symptoms when I stopped.

>>24497547
Well yeah cigs don't work like that. Almost like they're more addicting or something.

>>24497549
Then why did I get no withdrawal symptoms when I stopped vaping? The claim is that nicotine is the addictive element which is shared with vaping.

Basically I think it's propaganda and smoking is only possibly psychologically addictive, in the sense that its nice so people want to keep doing it.

>>24497555
>Then why did I get no withdrawal symptoms when I stopped vaping? The claim is that nicotine is the addictive element which is shared with vaping.
Vapes don't have the same ingredients in them as cigs. As a matter of fact, pure nicotine is by far the healthiest option out of every way to consume nicotine.
>Basically I think it's propaganda and smoking is only possibly psychologically addictive, in the sense that its nice so people want to keep doing it.
You sound like you've never met an actual smoker in your life. Someone once told me that if they go too long without smoking, they get a feeling like if bugs were crawling under their skin. But if you want to start consuming cancer sticks, go ahead.

>>24497563
>pure nicotine is by far the healthiest option out of every way to consume nicotine.
Nta, but pure nicotine is not good. Nicotine is a poison, and you can build a tolerance to some level, but you can overdose and die. It's one of the reasons why tobacco cutting is dangerously because green tobacco can deliver fatal nicotine loads through skin contact. The nicotine is reduced in cigarettes and loose tobacco because it's dried, but, outside of tobacco farming, people using nicotine replacement methods while trying to get off cigarettes are one of the most common causes of nicotine poisoning.

>>24497570
Dangerous*

I've never read one of Tao Lin's novels but I took his advice and started keeping a pot next to my bed to piss in instead of getting up to use the bathroom when I wake up in the middle of the night. my sleep has improved dramatically, I'm falling back asleep within 30 seconds of pissing. sometimes I don't even remember pissing, I just wake up to a pot full of piss in the morning. I have so much more energy throughout the day. my workouts are improving, I'm performing better at work, people are telling me I seem happier lately. thank you Mr Tao Lin.

>>24497637
>getting up to use the bathroom when I wake up in the middle of the night.
Isn't that a sign of diabetes?

>>24497643
i know diabetics piss frequently in general, but in my case I'm pretty sure it's just from drinking a lot of water. I just had blood work a couple months ago and I'm fine.

Bog cog dog fog gog (and magog) hog jog log mog nog pog sog wog ZOG
You get it yet??

>>24497655
>No tog
>No balrog
Illiterate American detected

>>24497563
I think that feeling is because of societal shaming and propaganda. If there were a massive campaign against coffee you'd see coffee addicts giving their testimonies and talking about how they get these irrational cravings and can't live without it. The moral conscience is strong.
>>24497570
You can overdose on caffeine. Nobody cares. You can overdose on alcohol. Very few people care. You can overdose on water. Nobody cares. Your reaction is a result of propaganda.

>>24497660
>Your reaction is a result of propaganda.
No, it's a result of stupid people giving themselves heart attacks from ODing on nicotine replacement products.

>>24496495
It’s not about the content. It’s about the time sink. This literally isn’t real. Its only product is discourse. Discourse basically doesn’t matter. The key to success in life for zoomers onward will be the degree to which they can remove themselves from a lifestyle of non-stop internet discourse to allow the time and attention to be able to actually do things. Let’s not even mention how much has gone into building software or internet stuff that could’ve been building in real life. Maybe we’d have beautiful buildings everywhere if all the software programmer tech bros were working in architecture and civil engineering instead of writing code and shitposting, ya know? The only thing we will have eventually is the legacy we leave in the real, physical world and at this rate, that legacy will exist mainly online (so not at all really). Imagine if the Romans had existed mainly online and didn’t build roads in Britain or coliseums in Africa. Would we give a shit about them? Almost certainly not.

>>24497663
Stupid people have ODd on water

I like women that look like little boys and little boys that look like women.

>>24497693
Some very intelligent people (Bruce Lee, Virginia Woolf, Percy Shelley) have OD'd on water as well. Only midwits avoid OD'ing on water.

By sharing it like that maybe you’ve become a vocal minority.
A troublemaker of sorts.

Naming something out can never be detrimental if one is actually in tune with it’s reality. The Mephistophelian aspect and the Holy trinity are but the sides of a same coin.

You feel hostility because you haven’t yet recognized you can extract useful strength from the gravitational force of it’s essence. The beginning of wisdom come through the Fear of God, or something. The real purpose for this weight isn’t to crush you, but finding leverage within it.

>>24497693
Yeah and I warn ecstasy freaks about that too, because they're likely to listen to dumb advice too

>>24497510
Cigs are literally less harmful than vapes.

My neighbor's cat that I wanted to befriend, that would sneak into my backyard and outside my window almost daily? I think they lost it :( I saw some "lost cat" signs nearby at a distance and it kinda looked like it, plus I haven't seen the cat in weeks.... nooooo :(

Just read the farmers' protest scene in Houellebecq's Serotonin; damn!

She's teased me so much I was leaking... She made me read her the catalog of ships, and then we played Achilles and Briseis...

>>24495742
The Great German Philosopher guy tells how the human course has three stages: start as Camels (Beasts of Burden), Lions (Freedom of Pursuit) and Children-like (Return to being spontaneously authentic to our passions, now with more clarity).

The first one starts when we are required to find a job and / or leave the care of parents. Then we afford the means to express the liberties we desire to strive for. Finally we return to that period of life when everything was lighter, which means the weight of responsibility, freedom of choice and every other burden becomes just another catalyst to a more integrated form of self-expression coded by DNA (Nature) and shaped by society (culture). 

In terms of this awareness you speak of, attention can be a tricky fucker to deal with. You see (ha), in order to our perception not become overloaded with irrelevant stimuli, our brain decides to ignore a great part of what our eyes sends as signals - framing it as noise. Some core-traits of reality become obscured by this process, so this illuminated new way suffers from dichotomy and is always accompanied by lack of light also. 

We like to think we enlighten ourselves when we reach adulthood in comparison to pubescence, but - in reality - we just choose to redirect our attention to different aspects of rightful living. The shade that obscures our capacities for reason just start to happen in more subtle ways because now we're immersed in societal norms that one must not deviate so as to not pay hefty costs now that we can't claim innocence. Nietzsche calls these the False Idols we must contend with but not sacrifice ourselves towards pleasing them.

>>24494682 (OP)
---- Solaria ----
10021
The Faun

I've no use for
A superyacht or any kind of site

Artless as the modes of ecstasy
You can't see while.

Read a comment another site,
>Average purity of street cocaine has increased from 16% 5 years ago to 85% today [where I live]
hot damn! Who wants to go in on a g of blow with me?

>>24497877
British govt compiled research and said vapes 95% less harmful than cigs

>>24497974
The thing that turned me off drugs is the same thing that turned me off casual street sex. It's always the kind of loser kids without much personality trying to be cool. That do it.

>>24497984
That's not wrong, but the problem with your analysis is that legitimately cool people do those things too.

>>24497977
That's some retarded bullshit. Sure cigs damage your lungs, vapes give you popcorn lung, basically turning you into a dysfunctional retard.

>>24497988
That's some retarded bullshit. I only know losers tryna be cool who do coke. Psychs and MDMA it's about 50/50.

>>24497993
>I only know losers tryna be cool who do coke
Are you sure you aren't thinking about meth? Maybe you just know the wrong people.

>>24498001
Nahh the few people I know who do coke don't score high on the coolness pyramid.

>>24497989
Public Health England writes that the association has come about as "some flavourings used in e-liquids to provide a buttery flavour contain the chemical diacetyl… However, diacetyl is banned as an ingredient from e-cigarettes and e-liquids in the UK."[39] The UK National Health Service's website states that "vaping does not cause 'popcorn lung'".

>>24498015
Good argument. However, humans have been around fires since before they were humans. We are genetically evolved to inhale smoke.

>>24497954
In my experience, the human course is variable beyond all possible belief, which is to say expectation. on whatever scale considered.

I can't stand how so many liberals, leftists, and progressives criticize and mock lower-to-middle class conservatives and Republicans who support slashing government assistance programs and cutting taxes on the rich because it's, as the former love to label it, essentially voting against their own economic interests, and the reason the former believes the latter does so is because of wishful thinking and hope that they might one day become rich themselves. Is it that hard to fathom that some people might believe people ought to keep more of what they earn by cutting taxes, even if they themselves don't benefit from it? That too high of taxation on anybody, regardless of their wealth, and giving out too much free stuff to citizens, regardless of their need and poverty, might be flat-out unethical according to their beliefs, and it has nothing to do with personal economic benefit?

It's no different than rich people who support raising taxes on themselves to support government programs, thereby going against their own economic interests, because they think it's morally the right thing to do, only in reverse. Sorry for the political post, this one has always bugged me. "They only support that stuff because they unrealistically think they'll be rich one day and don't wanna be taxed when they do, they're being tricked by the rich!" is such an uncharitable view, and I think charitability for other's beliefs is a paramount virtue.

My neighbor turns 18 tomorrow. I'm going to her birthday party.

>>24498107
What "ethical" belief is there that says that it's evil to make it so that a billionaire can only have 1 yacht and 2 summer homes so that starving people can get something to eat?
In reality working class rightwing people only vote for rightwing parties because they hate foreigners and trannies. The right pushes the cultural issue to get their vote.

>>24498107
Oh, and I say all that as someone who agrees with the progressive position on such matters. I'm just saying, let's be honest about the beliefs of those who disagree with us and their reasons.

>>24498124
>What "ethical" belief is there that says that it's evil to make it so that a billionaire can only have 1 yacht and 2 summer homes so that starving people can get something to eat?

Is it so hard to believe some people think people are entitled to what they earn, no matter how large a number it is or their wealth status? "They worked hard, played it smart, did the right things to get into that position, why is anyone else entitled to it?" Pretty understandable to me.

>>24498129
Nta, but some of my favourite fantasies of capitalism come from those ideas. The idea of "hard work is rewarded" falls flat upon even basic examination: white collar workers generally believe their education was harder than the blue collar work they purposefully avoided as too physically taxing and financially unrewarding, but both groups hear "hard work" and assume it must mean their level of work. They don't think
>Hey I had a TV to watch for several hours as a kid because some other kid was dying of health conditions caused by their 16 hour shift mining rare earth minerals, maybe I got granted things purely based on luck that other people can't even dream of attaining
People can justify anything to themselves, and they always believe the lazy or greedy person is someone else. Usually they believe the lazy and greedy people are the least advantaged, because people like to believe the people at the top got there by levitation rather than stepping on a mass of anonymous dead workers.

It's too hot to read
It's too hot to lift
It's too hot to game
It's too hot to fap
It's too hot to watch stuff
It's too hot

>>24498161
Well, the hard work was getting there. And hard doesn't necessarily mean taxing and laborious, it can also mean difficult and complex. If someone wanted to make more money, they should have taken the steps to get there. Instead they're using the government to take from those who did. These people don't have an issue with some people being much better off than others. And as for welfare and the like, people have ability to achieve the means to feed themselves by getting a job; leeching off the system, that is leeching off of people who are working hard and being productive and earning that money which gets taxed to fund these government assistance programs, is the gravest sin.

Again, not my positions, this is just how these people think. All my point is is someone can feel this way without having been tricked into thinking cutting taxes for the rich and slashing government assistance programs, from healthcare to welfare to food benefits to free housing to all manner of similar subsidies, is somehow in their economic interest, and rather they are voting according to their moral positions, something those on the left accuse them of lacking. Are SOME of those people tricked? Sure, there are those who are fooled into thinking their taxes will be cut a substantial amount, that somehow they'd benefit more from trading no more government assistance for a meager tax cut, and for those people I feel bad, and fuck conservative media and politicians for fooling them. But those who are voting their morals? Hell, those you are voting their morals even if it harms them, eg "I'm not entitled to free money for food, money that comes from taxing others; I should be earning it on my own"? You gotta kinda respect it.

>>24498129
Billionares do not earn their vast wealth. They loot if from those who work from them on the grounds of investing capital itself.

Capital btw that comes from their friends in the banks who lend them money borrowed from people. Or their inheritance. Or fiat currency from their friends in the government which is just monopoly money. It's a giant scam.

>>24498197
>*work for them

I have the opportunity to potentially marry a girl but she's not beautiful at all and has a shy personality and has very few friends despite being a really nice girl. Am I really desperate and lonely enough to take this that far

Motorik

No wasted beat, no drifting sway
Just perfect loops of sound and speed

>>24498197
Cont.

And even if the venture fails and all the money they've risked drowns. Still a bankrupt capitalist will live a far richer life than the average construction worker. Despite owning nothing on paper. They can simply fail and get back up owing to their position and their friends in high places.

>>24498187
Working class white Americans don't usually taste true poverty. If they did, they'd be voting democrats too like the hordes of spics and niggers who do.

>>24498187
>No no it really is hard work
>Please ignore the second I could not do something which is hard and a paid service, I used money for it instead of hard work
I'm not saying it's your position, I'm saying it's always mental gymnastics of someone who knows better. You don't get into the top 10% without some education on inequality, and 99% of that top 10% think it's someone above them who's the real exploiter. It works not just looking down, but looking up as well.

I'm ugly and proud!

>>24498197
Well, again, people on the right don't view the system as broken or as a 'scam,' it is what it is. So, earning money is simply a matter of utilizing the system to your own ends, that's it, none of the rest matters. And rich people do a very good job of that, through some combination of smarts, hard work, and networking, stuff not everyone can do, so why shouldn't they be able to keep what they can obtain from the system?

>>24498205
West Virginia? If you don't wanna be poor, find your way out, don't rely on the government to do it for you by taking away from those who earned/obtained it themselves. Again, I'm personally on your side, just saying there's a coherent moral framework which supports the other side,

>>24498211
It could be smarts too, and risk-taking by investing capital. It's a fundamental disagreement as to what "earn" means in the current system. These people I'm talking about think so long as what you're doing is legal, then you're just playing the game of the system well, and are entitled to what the system spits into your bank account, which is tantamount to what you've earned, no... fuck I'm having blank moment, whatever word you'd use when something has an asterisk about it -- no [word here] about it.

>>24498211
>>24498225
no qualifications about it*

:p

>O Virgin Mother, daughter of your Son, more humble yet more exalted than all other creatures. Chosen to fulfill the eternal plan of God, you brought nobility to our human nature such, that He who created us did not disdain becoming one of us. And so, within your womb the flame of love was rekindled, whose warmth brought this Rose to full bloom in peace everlasting. ---- Dante’s Paradiso – Canto 33

How is the Virgin Mary "daughter of your Son" when speaking to God?

YOU ARE DESTINED TO LIVE
DESTINED TO LIVE ON THE STREET OF SHAME

>>24498286
Great song, album and artist

>>24498294
brofist

>>24498225
>so why shouldn't they be able to keep what they can obtain from the system?
This question contradicts their earlier statement that "it is what it is". If this was a natural immutable state of things then the question of what the rich should or shouldn't be allowed to keep wouldn't arise. The fact that we can ask this question begs the opposite question as well. Why should the rich be allowed to be rich just by the virtue of doing the things you said they do? It's a function of the system that something like this is even possible by doing those said things, but it is also this very system....which rewards cunning, dumb luck, networking (a word for class discrimination) , and plain exploitation.... that is being criticised. The criticism is on the grounds that it breeds poverty, misery and trauma especially in a world where housing and food crises can be easily solved if not for this system.

>Again, I'm personally on your side, just saying there's a coherent moral framework which supports the other si
I believe that a moral framework should be justified by standards that exist outside it. I would be all for rewarding hard work, smarts whatever if it was an outside entity, lika a God doing the judgement and the field was levelled for everyone. And I also abhor the idea that the world should be a race to escape poverty. A rat race whose participation would make one the corroborater to the existence of that poverty in the first place. I don't understand what moral framework can justify such a state for the world.

So a view at standards that exist outside the framework, like say material outcomes is necessary. Otherwise we'll just end up in a circle with the system justifying itself through its own logic

I heard it felt good but I didn't imagine it would be like this. I fucking ahegao'd like a teenage girl in hentai.

>>24498225
The people at the tippity top are welfare queens like those on the bottom. They use government largesse to enrich themselves. They may not be using their gibs to drink themselves to death on a stoop but they're not independent mavericks who bootstrapped their way into wealth. A financial system that does not reward productive work that generates real prosperity will eventually collapse. A thousand tiny leeches all over your body? You'd bleed out same as if a top of the foodchain predator came by and ripped your trachea out. I see the ultra wealthy and the welfare underclass both as rent-seekers who want to take more from the system than they'll ever put in. They just play the intellectual/social hand they're dealt, but they're both scum in their own ways.

I'd like to live in a nation where people had a value system deeper than money money money. Life doesn't get better for anyone when money is the supreme value. It rots people's souls, makes the built landscape look like cookie cutter trash, destroys the environment, and turns people into interchangeable envious little golems who know nothing but chasing after money.

Money should be a means to an end not the end in and of itself if you don't want to live in hell.

The world is collapsing into a competency crisis. Why I don’t know; demographic collapse of high-IQ societies, environmental toxins, cultural / societal degradation (upstream), fundamental limitations of humanity, I have no idea. Likewise I have no realistic solution. Things which used to be difficult but doable are now virtually impossible. Complex, high-investment developments which used to be undertaken constantly are now rarely launched. Failure is becoming commonplace in every field of complex human endeavor. We’re collapsing into a new dark age, and I have no clue how long this one will last — maybe forever? Will Lovecraft’s sentient cockroach people which replaces humanity in the future become reality? Or will there not be any new form of intelligent life and we’ll just be another pile of bones littering the universe for some other sentient life form to wonder about the Fermi Paradox?

>>24498345
I suppose what those defenders would say is a free market capitalist system is a somewhat a natural order of things when people are permitted economic freedom, that is its justification.

>Why should the rich be allowed to be rich just by the virtue of doing the things you said they do?

Because they've done X thing whereby people have given them money by choice in return for some service or goods they provided.

>I believe that a moral framework should be justified by standards that exist outside it.

I think for these people all the justification needed is can people do something about their lot in life via the system, and the answer for the large majority of people is yes. Those born into poverty can become well-off or even rich by working hard and making the right choices in school and then in their job, and those with wealth can lose it all by making poor decisions, as opposed to, say, an immutable, fixed caste system or rigid feudal system. Oh, and does it, by and large, reward work and punish sloth, and again, yes.

>>24498375
Well, money is a proxy for other things; power, property, possessions, success. Money forces people to interact with the system, else you'll starve and live on the street, which according to these people is precisely what ought to happen if you don't work. And I don't think all of these people I'm talking about think money is the supreme value, only that people are solely entitled to what they earn from the free market system, and not the government redistributing wealth.

>>24498417
There is no real free market system. The government redistributes wealth many different ways, not just through social welfare for the underclass. Regulatory capture. Lobbying. It's not a footrace where the best and most productive win. That's a childish fantasy. When you have a privately held central bank which can print money out of thin air corruption trickles down not wealth.

>>24498417
>is can people do something about their lot in life via the system, and the answer for the large majority of people is yes
That's a fantasy. People like to think the system is not weighted in their favour when they succeed, but socioeconomic mobility has been dead for decades. Sure, Jim might study slightly harder than Bob their next door neighbour, but neither is leaving that band, nor are their children. Bob can do okay in school and get a stable job and maybe it's not as good as Jim's job starting out, but if one works in an office, the other will too, and, what's more, their kids will too.
>But Jim studied harder and is therefore smart
Jim is in a period of grade inflation, which coincides with the decline in socioeconomic mobility since the 70s. Jim got an A that's equivalent to a 60s D, and he got that A so he could feel he worked hard and was rewarded, when what he actually got was a rubberstamp on maintaining the status quo.
It is like a fixed castle system or rigid feudal system. Sir Jim has inherited his A from parents who got their A under the second generation of grade inflation, and they probably think they earned that because their parents got no As they just got to move out to the suburbs when it looked like social mobility might let the underclasses acquire homes and schooling nearby
Daily reminder NYC still has de facto segregation in schools, and Jim or Bob would never be sent to the kind of school where studying might teach you about limiting access to resources. Because Jim and Bob are always going to schools where they're rewarded for any work, even substandard work, while their future uber driver went to a school where doing any work means you ran out of learning resources pretty quickly.
Credentials are more like royal warrants than you'd like to think.

>>24498563
>castle system
Caste*
Autocorrect, sorry

Im plagued by ruminating thoughts. When they were at their worst a few years ago I resorted to SSRIs (zoloft) because these thoughts had become self destructive. I lasted for about 6 months before I couldnt stand the side effects anymore. It cleared my mind but I basically became emotionally mute. Also stomach pain, jaw clenching, and erectile dysfunction along side.

These ruminating thoughts have started to return, not as bad but it just makes life miserable. The only other 'medicine' that works is drowning myself in escapism, mostly just slop youtube videos.

>>24498659
try working out and taking long walks
also drink plenty of water

>>24498659
Look into Zen meditation if you aren't the athletic type, or even if you are. The whole point is to keep your mind from wandering by cultivating an emptiness that will allow you to focus on the present and expand your awareness of your surroundings.

>>24498674
I do both already but I guess theres no harm in doing more thanks for the advice. Having an audiobook has been nice for the walks
>>24498693
ill look into it

>>24488242
Just to report back
I met with my old friend
Turns out facebook's messaging doesnt work, the arguably mainest of main features doesnt work on that piece of shit website, when you send a message sometimes it says its delivered even tho it never was
Anyway, we met up and the dude basically trauma dumped on me how he abandoned his parents when they were financially struggling not to get evicted and he wanted to have better life for himself. I cant stop thinking about how its kinda fucked up to abandon your parents to pursue your career and finish school and to be more successful in the future.
So yeah, be careful what you wish for, i wanted to find a new friend and i got trauma dumped on

I think this the first time where the idea of suicide was not a escapist fantasy and I have actually considered it as a serious option. Today I saw myself searching for reliable methods. Probably won't do it though, the primal instinct of self preservation flashed up and interrupted my plans, but because of the fact that many have killed themselves before me, you know this safety measure is not foolproof. I don't know when it'll switch off.

> have ambitions for my life
> getting older quicker
> inwardly know none of them will be reality
> this current trajectory is probably the best I’ll have
> get really depressed
Man. Fuck.

>>24496950
ADHD is not real. I mean just pay attention and focus lol.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6r7dL3bZXQ
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRiSeYxaVCQ

>>24498848
Tiny puffer fish tryna be big and scare off the human that's gonna suffocate it :3 I hope it worked

>>24496950
>>24498845
I fucking wish ADHD wasn't real.

>>24494682 (OP)
assniggers from outer asteroids

>>24498855
The person who took that photo died recently. Apparently, it was a pulmonary edema.

>>24498873
>They tried to be a puffer fish
Historically unwise for humans to attempt

The truth is I'm addicted to the cycle of cPTSD stress and anxiety that locks me in this permanent inertia - if I don't do, I don't suffer beyond the suffering I already understand. It's my own personal hell.

I want to start by telling you honestly and openly that I am mentally ill, and the very act of expressing why I became that way—and how I plan to cure myself—is impossible for a person with my special illness to do. But, swimming against the current, I am going to try to do it anyway.

The most difficult part of articulating what it’s like to have your reasoning poisoned is doing so without sounding like you’re mentally ill—which is exactly what you are. The second most difficult part is that, if you really manage to articulate it all, you must explain why exactly your cogent and lucid grasp on its inner workings does not in any way alter your behavior.

What I mean by having your ‘reasoning poisoned’ is roughly what it sounds like. It means that you are irrational in your conclusions, but completely convinced that the rationale which got you there is sound. The end result is that you can never actually determine whether your reasoning is poisoned when your reasoning is poisoned.

That all seems pretty circular, and it is. It should come as no surprise when I tell you, then, that my special illness is an obsessive compulsive aversion to lying, combined with the delusion that I am always, always doing it anyway.

There are cute snapshots one conceives when ‘OCD’ is brought up. One imagines Dixon Ticonderoga pencils in very neat rows with millimeter sharpnesses. One imagines pristine calligraphy on notebook paper that never crosses the blue line. One imagines white marble countertops and the disembodied caucasian hand that cleans them with a disinfectant wipe.

What these images belie is that OCD is, in fact, a state of total psychic chaos. In spite of appearances, the obsessive compulsive sees even impeccable states of order as complete bedlam. Tragically, no state of order is ever sturdy enough that it can withstand all possible future calamity, and it is just this state which would finally, finally, give the sufferer restitution.

>>24499037
So here’s where the problem begins: everything I’ve just said is, essentially, a lie. It does not convey even one one-billionth of the landscape of the sufferer’s psyche. But, because I’ve told you that I suffer from the delusion of dishonesty, you can continue believing that I’ve communicated what OCD actually is. In this sense, I’m even more guilty of telling a lie. You can presume that, because I’ve laid all this out, I must, on some level, know that I’m not lying at all, and it’s just the disease talking. And by being self-aware and telling you I’m lying, even though I’m not, even though I know I’m not, I have again told a lie. So, it turns out, it is absolutely guaranteed that I’ve told a lie in the course of this paragraph.

I hope I’m making clear how complicated this gets.

>>24499041
Have you tried actually lying? Something simple like
>The sky is green (assuming atmospheric conditions have not made it so where you are)

Im reading about theories about life after death.

Which general does that belong? Fantasy?

>>24497486
Well, it's good that at some level you recognize that you have issues and are being neurtic and paranoid. I would recommend therapy, with the addendum that some therapists are incompetent, just like any other kind of professional. I would avoid psychoanalysts unless you find a really good one. It's a field that requires a great deal of smarts, intuition and insight and unfortunatelly most of the people attracted to it are midwit pseuds who fail these criteria.
Also, stop feeling guilty over your thoughts and feelings. You recognized that they are distorted and you are trying to work your way through them, that's enough. Guilt does you no favours behavior-wise. It's only useful as far as it makes you aknowledge that you are fucking up. If you read a bit about recovering addicts you will see that guilt never helped them remain sober, it usually made them spiral and fall out of the wagon hard.
>Honestly, I think I should get off this site.
You should at least avoid the bait, politics and hateful threads. You know what to expect when clicking stuff like "what are some books that portray modern relationships?" or threads with social media caps in the OP. You also should not be sharing personal stuff you are sensitive about in a place where at best most guys will take the piss out of you and at worst vitriolic incels will foam at the mouth at the idea that somewhere there exists an anon who isn't a miserable, feminized, "never-try" husk of a person.
>am or will be cucked or that she's a slut whore and telling me all these things that I didn't know I was worried about but sorta start worrying about because I'm already in an anxious, vulnerable state of mind
Look, you already learnt that if you put a fork in the power outlet you're gonna get eletrocuted, so no reason to keep doing it. Avoid any kind of conversation about relationships on social media, even the normiesphere is 90% grifters and unhappy people trying to bring everyone down.
>she tried fucking with him too by lying about being pregnant
This happened to me. Took me years and a decent gf to get over it.
Anyway, good luck man.

chronic jaw pain is unbearable
to think i might suffer with this shit for 60 years of living is just dreadful

>>24499037
You know how your dream makes sense while you are dreaming but you realize how nonsensical it was after waking up? That’s because parts of your brain are deactivated when dreaming. If parts of your brain is damaged you will suffer from cognitive issues but because you have no other point of view but through your own brain it also seems normal to you — just like when you are dreaming.

You already know the solution. Go to a doctor. They’ll run you through a diagnostic questionnaire, then either set up a specialist or prescribe drugs on the spot depending on how common the issue is. The drugs are necessary to force your brain chemistry into a more normal state which will in turn put you in the right mentality to pursue longer-term treatment. I’m not your parent so I can’t force you to get treatment, all I can do is let you know that relief is in reach.

I want. I want it so bad. I want to descend into the pit where lies the sleeping death of thought. The mouth of obscenity. The fruit of Lilith. The opening of the gates to one's mortal enemy. The surrender. The passivity. The filling of self by other. The forceful entering. A submission complete.
Love is selfless. God is selfless. Self-emptying is the image of divinity. The image of the devil is the image of the self reflected into the self. The I crushing the I with its enormity. The serpent biting its tail. Wheels inside wheels. The idol of the self.
The final self-consumption is beyond the reach of desire. Sleep is like this. It cannot be reached willingly. To finally be consumed is to be consumed by another. The impressing of the will on the world turns to the impression of another will on the self. Many souls are whipped by strong winds above chasms but do not yet fall because of this. The inverse of love?
I want. I want to be taken. The smoke of my want burning rises to the halls of the soul above. Heaven is reached by a certain violence, but the perilous self-consuming soul has hells gnawing within it, warring, marching, drums beating

>>24499542
Are you seriously back at it again with your absurdly pretentious and histrionic homosexual ramblings? Just make a fucking Grindr account already.

idk why i smoke weed i mean it's ok but like a just blazed a tiny bit of tree and went for a walk and idk man

did u see this? on a 4k monitor with airpod max its legit p sick imagine making sth like that right
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pilme9tCBJw

no but u know what i was thinking was among other things how comfy new balance fresh foam x 1080s are ok they are kind soft so maybe u sacrifice a little stability but its like walking on a warm ice pad i don't run in this t b h but for walking they go comfy i would say

>>24499542
>>24499561
hell u can browse sniffies without even making an account lol plus it's pride this weekend just go into the city

Someone please help me remember the name of that young Asian Australian guy that /lit/ used to relentlessly shit on like 3-4 years ago. He's got a round/chubby face, highly pretentious fashion sense, and I think went to Monash University. At the time he had written two bad/mediocre books, one of them being on some dystopian school or some shit. The cover was a silhouette of someone wearing airpods.

>>24499600
waldoon dude is human cringe even that wacko dude from chicago is like weird enough to like fade his cringe vibration to like low level background radiation but waldo its like a cringe tazer right to your spinal chord

>>24499612
bruh can i put "like" in the spell checker so it puts a redline under it ugh

>>24499612
WALDON. I was gonna say I thought his name was Melvin or something of that sort. I knew it was some poindexter shit. Thanks, time to see if he has achieved anything since I last browsed this shithole

youtube shorts suck so much ass they always have some bullshit attention bait this as the thumbnail i mean i like the internet but i don't need to have my attention fucking assault any time i try to look at sth holy shit its getting grim out there

it's 12:24AM is it too late to make coffee i don't have to work tomorrow why not

hell yeah it's almost that time of the day to get in bed and listen to an audiobook until i fall asleep infinite comfy choices what shall i listen tooooo

>>24499690
wait i just remembered it's 12:40 friday morning new music is on apple music let me see if sth good came out

>>24499698
nth much that caroline polachek song was the only real banger atm

Execute Charlie Bravo 4 4 2

>>24499627
they call him waldong becuse he has a big one

I never post any of my serious writing on /lit/. It would feel like throwing it way. That being said, sometimes I feel like posting some of it —like the nice haiku inspired by a gif of rats driving a car in an urban landscape.
Still, I won't post it. The rats shall remain my own.

"I love you alive girl, I will show you with my body, and my lips and my eyes, very soon"

I love you, alive girl.

I love you, my alive girl.

I love you, ALIVE girl.

I love you, ALIVE GIRL.

I LOVE YOU, my alive girl.

I LOVE YOU ALIVE GIRL I LOVE YOU ALIVE GIRL I LOVE YOU ALIVE GIRL NOT DEAD ALIVE.

Jews have no Buddhanature.
They are insentient and blind, guided purely by a spirit of destruction and deception (druj), which even many of them have openly admitted.
Jews are incarnations of Angra Mainyu.
This means getting rid of Jews is an act of purification in this world: Humata, Hukhta, Hvarshta.
TKD is the highest expression of Spenta Mainyu and asha.

BLOOD FOR THE BLOOD GOD
YOG-SOTHOTH WILL EAT HIS FILL

I like when girls talk about babies. It gives me a tingling sensation. The same tingling sensation when conspiracy theorists talk about pseudoscience.

>>24496950
Some, sure. But I've seen people take Adderall or some other upper and immediately become tired, those people legitimately have ADHD.

>>24499849
lol

>>24499633
If you are on desktop, you can disable them altogether with a script on ublock.org.

My parents are going to the beach on Monday evening and spending the night, so they won't be able to take me to the clinic to get my two weeks worth of medication I go for on every other Tuesday. So, looking it up, means I'll have to take a 150 minute walk+bus trip there, however long the line is, then 150 minutes back home. Fuck me. Whatever, it's my life, my problem, my responsibility. At least I'll get some reading done.

Getting hit with a wave of depression mid fap is such a defeating feeling

>>24499633
It's getting really bad. It's been rough seeing everything I liked on the Internet mutate into garbage designed to mindfuck everyone into consumer slaves with no attention spans.

>>24499933
I remember one time I jerked it to a wholesome VN and I imagined that the love interest I was pursuing was real and that she told me that she loved me as I came inside of her, and it made me so fucking sad I almost cried. I went back to anal gape porn after that.

>>24499928
How old are you anon that you need your parents to go with you

today I am wearing my NIИ t-shirt

>>24500030
He needs them for a ride, Anon.

>>24499164
Thank you for this conversation, anon. You have no idea, but it has been tremendously helpful and grounding to have someone tell it to me straight. Screenshotting this.

Hope you find your wife and have many healthy beautiful children soon. Godspeed.

Has anyone here tried constructing a mind palace? Is that a real thing?

I know talking fast is sign of a high IQ, but I've always wanted to learn to speak slowly like they do in the movies. It just feels too slow in practice, y'know? Like I'll lose the attention of the person I'm talking to. But I should try it.

>>24500121
>talking fast is sign of a high IQ
Is it really?

Would you marry a vampire girl?

>>24500297
No, she sucks

>>24500297
Yes.

>>24500297
I would feel lucky as hell. A part of me desperately wishes that vampires exist. Finding a qt eternal wife and living forever with her sounds perfect.

When I was on heroin, I had tons of friends and women. Now that I'm sober, I have no friends and no women. Hmm.

>>24500355
most of those friends and women were probably shit

damn i ran out of bagels now i either have to have pizza or ramen for breakfast

>>24500355
that's the real appeal of drugs it's basically like a subscription social network that you pay for one bag at a time, i was sort of the same as a teenager in a college town, i knew "everybody" which is to say a big network of all the druggies and in a college town these range from losers and ex-cons to privileged professors kids, etc. but once i moved to the city and quit all that shit, i became extremely solitary.

>>24500401
before being gay became mainstream it was probably the same way, a clandestine social network

>>24500401
Not only that but people liked me more. Now I don't even know how to talk to people.

>>24500365
Half and half.

>tfw unlucky at cards and unlucky in love

woah the stock market hit a new all time high but i thought the tariffs and ww3 were supposed to kill stocks not to mention interest rates are still sky high lmao

>>24500064
https://artofmemory.com/blog/how-to-build-a-memory-palace/
Yes. It's a technique to order information in lists and tack it to visual mnemonics. It's not that interesting, but it's useful for memorizing high volumes of information quickly. The site I posted has postings from memory palace enthusiasts.
You can use video game levels if you don't have any real place that lends itself to being photo memorized.

life is a lot better with a woman.

>>24500507
Neat. Do you use it? Is it that useful? is it worthwhile?

>>24500523
said noone ever

don't mind me, just tryna' get based

>>24500560
Not really. I used the technique to memorize some poems just to try it out after learning about it, not had any reason to use a larger memory palace, and prefer using alphabetical peg lists.

I think in the coming decades, possibly through the next century or two, communists and weirdly, orthodox Christians, will start to be seen like Nazi/Fascist sympathizers from the pre-war era are now seen.

>>24500159
It correlates, yes. It's very rare to find a dumb person who speaks really fast.

>>24500523
LMAO. It's a mixed bag. You want one and then you don't once you get one, because you learn she's going to try to squeeze you for all you're worth and nag you relentlessly. But they jiggle and cook sometimes.

I saw a homeless person today. It made me appreciate all the houses I own.

I am most attracted to small, cute, flat-chested women

>>24501305
With an innocent and curious personality, likes stuffed animals, and has a snaggletooth

>>24501305
u gay

>>24501384
Enjoy your fat slobs in silence

>>24501475
That's rude, anon. That's like women who dismiss all men under 6'2 and brand them midgets.

I told ChatGPT to recreate Guitar Lessons by Balthus in an anime style, and it did it.

>>24501475
Liking fat women is patrician. You wouldn't get it.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Noid#Chamblee_hostage_incident

every once I awhile I will download skyrim and a massive sex oriented mod pack and I will masturabte to the fantasy of being an immensely powerful wizard with a harem of slaves who travel the world with me doing quests and raping and enslaving people... I was thinking about doing it again but im trying to retain my precious bodily fluids... the source of my power and energy.

Why the fuck am I so scared to spend money on the one thing I really wanna do? I have over $100k in the bank between savings and an inheritance from my grandparents and I'm planning to travel for a few months to see most of the places I wanna see in the world while I'm still young. I'm planning to spend around $15k which would give me enough savings to live on for 3-4 years without any income. I've been trying to push myself to just buy my plane ticket the past week but I'm too scared to. Wtf is wrong with me?

>>24501656
Do it before inflationary pressures eat the money anyways

>>24501656
>150k savings
Nigger invest in something. Buy gold, you don't want to have just cash in times like these.

filthy drug addicts outside my apartment. I wish them the worst.

>>24501656
lol if u put that in the coreweave ipo back in the spring u would be up to like $300k rn lol but if u sell before holding a year u would get taxed as ordinary income so that's 200k income of which the democrats are gonna take 65k leave you like 130k still more than double

>>24501722
>clean and fairly well groomed individuals minding their own business
lol if that pisses u off u should see the insane homeless druggies that are crawling all over my neighborhood, we keep getting gentrified but until they bulldoze the "low income" housing on the next block, the drug dealers will keep 'em coming

Went fucking crazy for about two months but I've finally managed to go back to nofap. I feel a lot better now.

>>24501384
If you don't immediately see the appeal of tiny women you can manhandle and of delicious flat chests you can tease and nuzzle your face into, I fear you might be the gay one.

>>24501305
>>24501343
It’s giving predator. Genuinely weird as fuck.

>>24501782
>tiny women you can manhandle
That's all women.

>>24501822
>It's giving
Shut the fuck up, zoomoid.

>>24501886
Shut the fuck up, you nasty little nonce.

>>24501822
How is having a preference for women being a predator? Just because I don't like fat chicks?

>>24501822
>it's giving predator
cool

>>24501899
No. Nothing wrong with preferring slim women. It’s weird because you listed a whole litany of traits that in combination are associated with prepubescence and childhood.
>small
>cute
>flat-chested
>innocent and curious
>likes stuffed animals
>has crooked teeth

Like mf you are describing a child. And this:
> If you don't immediately see the appeal of tiny women you can manhandle and of delicious flat chests you can tease and nuzzle your face into, I fear you might be the gay one

makes it all the more creepy. Find God.

>>24501923
>Like mf you are describing a child.
He's describing the ideal Japanese woman.

crazy how easy it is to recognize people based on mannerisms, for example, karl marx often says "various ways"

knowing and intentionally changing your mannerisms will make the surveillance state view you as multiple different authors
i fear this will become cataclysmic for surveillance with the rise of ai

Bump

Allow me.

Name your price. There are younger more unfamiliar people you would likely have more fun with. I doubt you enjoy keeping this up these days or are you just keeping up appearances?

>The only cure for being sad is to learn something
-Merlin

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M44LZ5qsabg

>I want to eat you.
What did she mean by that?

>>24502014
She's a zombie and/or cannibal

>>24502014
hot

I'd love to know your thoughts for once not just chasing shadows. I don't believe you at all.

>>24502136
Go ahead and ask.

Do you guys ever feel tempted to lose your sanity? Become retarded, slip into delusion, or lose all contact with reality, because you wouldn't have to worry about your real life anymore?

>>24502174
I feel tempted to not lose my sanity, but I lose it anyway.

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