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Assuming Christianity is true, would you say you are going to Heaven or to Hell when you die, anon?

>>24502200
I know places in the kingdom are secured for me and my loved ones.

>>24502195 (OP)
Jews destroyed this possibility.

Jews have spread lies that

1. Iranians are number 1 sponsor of terrorism. No Jews are. Iran fought Jew-backed ISIS and Al-Qaeda.

2. That Iranians have no ancestral connection to Pre-Islamic times. Kikes like BAP and others did this.

3. That Iran and Persia are different. It has been called Iran since Pre-Islamic times.

4. That Iran lost all elements of its pre-Islamic culture. No, many elements still persist like celebrations and certain literature.

5. That Iranians hate White people. No, there are a lot of Jews from Iran who attack whites and then Iranians get the heat.

Now Israel wants to slaughter Iranians on the magnitude of Gaza, if not more.

>>24502200
Heaven

>>24502195 (OP)
>>24502200
>>24502203
I am never going to worship a Jew. I would rather pick a philosophical AND antisemitic German or Greek and worship Him instead. I wish nothing but death upon all Jews.

>>24502223
Okay foreskin eater

I want to jettison my physical body and go on a journey away from this world. I want to leave my life behind and fall into a world of delusion and escapism. I want someone better to take my chance at life, my prospects, my opportunities. I intuitively sense these are dangerous thoughts but the desire remains.

it may be cringe, but i would classify myself politically as an accelerationist nihilist. ofc, i wouldn't say this to someone irl, but I really just don't care what happens in the world, and the thought of things getting exponentially worse excites me. In surrounded by people who claim to have strong political convictions, but they just roll over and let things happen regardless. They may do a little protesting, but nobody is drawing blood or making real sacrifices for their convictions because they are merely performative.

>>24502227
Jews would never talk about worshiping a German or Greek antisemitic philosopher.

Why did God make me?

When I am asked if I am religious, I reply I am afraid of God.

I'm abdicating my responses to this thread.

I am stoned and watching a YouTube video explaining the symbolism of Hieronymus Bosch's The Garden of Earthly Delights and I am kind of panicking.

I used to love watching movies. It was my only source of escapism from a life filled with horrible school-life and a monotonous existence. I maintained that hobby for a long, long time.

Now that I have reached mid-20s, I can’t seem to complete a movie in one sitting. There are times when I get bored and take 2 or 3 days to complete even one film. It feels sad to lose passion for something that made me happy, something that was my only companion when I was a lonely teenager.

I could never get passed the idea of jesus saying not to love this world, but the older I get and the more I learn, the more I begin to feel more comfortable with the idea

The second you drop the pretence of ideology and no longer allow it to hijack your judgement, you see the world naked for what it is, and suddenly you feel alien.

Satan is the God of this world, and human civillization is nothing but people puppetting people puppetting people puppetting people all the way up and all the way down no matter where you look and what "side" you pick, and all are being puppetted by the God of this world. The puppet master. The lord of lies

Please, lord Jesus, cut my strings and have mercy on us all

When I was a tiger I allowed myself to die of hunger.

Have you noticed how some types of gay people have to make the entire world revolve around gay sex? Like they can't just happen to be gay in addition to whatever else, they're *gay* gamers, gay Catholics, gay writers, etc. And everything they do or say ends up centering on genitals and gay sex in some way.

this but it needs weed

>>24502345
For what it's worth, homophobes are the ones who make homosexuality a big deal and defining characteristic of everyone who happens to be gay. I guess some gays just own it

My 12 year old cousin came over and hung out and I showed her what 4chan was all about. Also she started browsing inane YouTube shorts and, man, even at my older age, it brought back all those feelings of being the uncool kid in High School, since she kept watching Prom videos and high school comedy clips and shit.

>>24502345
That's just how men are, so what do you expect from a sexuality that's all men, all the time?

>>24502231
>classify myself politically as an accelerationist nihilist
You must be 18 to post here.

They've taken over the country. These past few months have been a nightmare. At this point I just want to give up on everything and become a drunk. I feel like crying.

>finished reading novel today
>during the last 20 pages, an absolute stunner of a girl sat near me, facing my direction, so my attention was diverted; had to reread pages constantly
>6 hours later: wait, how did that novel end again?
>can't remember
what the fuck, never happened to me before. I usually ruminate on a novel after I complete it for the rest of the day but I can't even recall how this one ended because I was so unfocused, goddamn it

ENTANGLED

I'm losing my mind.

I think some aliens from Saturn invaded Earth and they are manipulating mankind.

Let me tell you why.

Ok, first let's start with blood libel. Medieval Euros claimed this. Jews are well known to be number 1 in human and child trafficking. Ok, that is not a conspiracy. What about andrenochrome farms? If that were to exist, then it is sensible Jews are involved in it.

Now what about poisoning Euro wells? Many medieval Euros claimed this. Well we have direct evidence Jews have poisoned Palestinian wells.

Ok, so now we know that poisoning wells and blood libel have truth to them....

Now what about spreading the plague? Look at attached image.

Maybe not all Jews are human? In Jewish esoteric texts it is claimed yhvh's abode is Saturn. Jews wear cubes on head. Did you know the North pole of Saturn is cubical, that is hexagonal? Do you see the coincidence? Saturn, black cubes, hexagons (like star of David)

Our knowledge of astronomy was weak in the past. How the living hell did Jews know North pole of Saturn was cubical? What is going on?

>>24502619
Also look at this... Mossad wants to kill us all. This is not human.

I'm losing my mind. They have effectively taken over this country. Almost every.conspiracy about them is turning out true. Maybe they aren't even fully human.

I am NOT in love. I'm just thinking about one specific woman 24/7.

>>24502462
You shouldn't show women this website. There's a lot of misogynistic posts.

>>24502640
Don't worry, I warned her to ignore the bitter losers, especially because she wanted to check out /adv/ for whatever reason lol. She just mainly looked at pictures though.

>>24502631
>>24502640
>>24502640
>>24502651
Shut up shit up
We are all gonna die. Wake up. We won't survive upcoming decade. There are dark saturnian forces at wlrk

>>24502660
This isn't the schizo thread, anon.

>>24502662
There's nothing schizo about anything I am saying..answer these

Think logically

1. Fact: Jews claim Saturn is yhvh's abode. This is in kaballah.

2. Fact: Saturn has northern hexagonal/cubical storm. They wear cube on forehead.

3. Question; how the fuck did they know in ancient times Saturn had a cubical storm?

>>24502671
I need to double check what scripture Jews claim Saturn is abode of YHVH, but if is a fact that I verified in past.

>>24502660
Maybe so but I'd still like to have sex before that happens.

Not sure if I'm gonna get any reading in tonight but I hope I do :>

big dicks will rule the world

>>24502811
just hire a hooker

God has been listening to my prayers to a rather incredible degree. And not just on small things, on big things, geopolitical things. I have literally prayed for big shit only for it to come to pass weeks and months later. Sometimes even days.

And yet He won't get my fucking book published. Go figure.

https://youtu.be/aJpQwaqi6RY

Literally crushed at the thought that I'll never be the guy to hold up signs for this woman.

I used to be in favor for monarchism/aristocracy for /pol/tard tradlarp reasons. Now I have looped back around to being monarchist from a liberal, anti-political/ideological perspective.

>>24502200
Literally no one thinks they are going to hell

>>24502195 (OP)
Do you need tinder gold to filter by race? Asking for a friend.

>>24502979
I used to be in favour of liberalism from a liberal perspective. Now I have looped back around to being liberal for /pol/tard tradlarp reasons.

i failed to buy bagels yesterday looks like it's ramen for breakfast again

>>24503158
oh wait i forgot there's a place that sells fresh bagels on my block maybe i should go outside

>>24503158
>>24503159
go and get 'em anon

I'm going to try and max out the character limit quickly because I'm bored and procrastinating. I used to post on imageboards when I was in middle school and high school but recently began to reacquire the habit and want to stop. I'm finding that most of the posts I make serve to make me feel intelligent regardless of their superficial merits. However, I don't know what else I would post. I tried to be funny a couple times but otherwise, I'm fundamentally an intellectual sort of person and most of what I'd choose to say in response to anything reflects my philosophical positions that I use in writing. There is certainly a constraint to that description though, that I don't talk about philosophy or any controversial opinions in real life at all. I only know how to have the conversations I'm used to with a few family members. Aside from that, any courage, depth or authenticity from me in a real scenario is incomprehensible to me. Into my young adulthood, I'm increasingly steadfast in living like a secret, stealthy hermit. I don't want to be a human being. I don't want to smell human nature. Expressions of emotions all just sound like infantile whining to me. Fundamentally, I'm agreeable; naive and cowardly; I avoid hurting feelings like one avoids moving cars, but in reality, I'm also apathetic and in effect, I'm agreeable very passively, not cuddly and confectionery. Inanimate objects gaze back at me serenely and impeccably. Ancient hunter-gatherers knew that the inanimate world had a face, a character. That's animism. What they didn't understand is that the face doesn't waste its energy with irrational feelings, doesn't say words, doesn't chatter, fuck and fight. The face of the inanimate is pure and alien to language. Every subset, permutation and transformation of the stone has its own identity, utterly pure and inherent to providence. There is no sloppy human noise with a wet, slippery definition for every little thing. Being pervades honestly. In that sense, an infant understands something that we don't: the absurdity, the vividness, the tenuous instantiation of boundaries, the despawning of the present moment. Our memories enslave us to narrative determination, to specificity, to passions that sneakily skew us down a long road. We experience them in the present and they pretend to be the past. I remember a boy in preschool who could have ended up my friend today if I was more expressive but the thought of that is awful. What do you degenerate zoomers even do when you get close to each other? I always imagine they often hold their phone in their hand and show the other something on their phone, expecting a reaction. If you get comfortable, do you flash wierd porn at each other? The thought is as repulsive to me as the smell of rotten fruit. The old days wouldn't be much better though. I'm American. We're only polite out of half-baked, consciously dishonest habit. It's a very incoherent model of manners, and then we're just obnoxious.

>>24503230
Nicely written.

>However, I don't know what else I would post.
How about those genuine interests of yours?

They say the masses (or the crowd, herd, etc.) are like women. Which means they can be raped and will probably enjoy the whole thing

>>24503276
Really, anon?

I remember once as a youngin' reading on the internet that touching one's face is attractive -- like finger on your lip and chin, that kind of thing -- so now I do it often when around attractive girls. It probably just looks effeminate and lame but oh well, it's ingrained.

Every woman I've ever been with has had a boyfriend at the moment of meeting me and shortly after no longer possessed one. I've fallen in love with another woman and have ended up in the same situation, she has a boyfriend and she wants me to take her away from him. She's been waiting for me for a long time, I can't help but feel as though I'm in the same situation again for a reason but I really don't know what the lesson I'm trying to learn is.

>4chan anonymous reminds me of horniness
>Think of qt crush who is probably only vaguely aware I exist
Damn you 4chan
>>24503230
>alien to language
>Anon hasn't learnt how to talk to rocks
You're missing out, bro, some of them knew dinosaurs

damn it's almost 11 and i didnt take a dump yet i totally screwed my shit schedule this weekend

>>24503494
same but with fapping

did u notice how when bernie was on joe rogan last week and rogan brought up gay marriage bernie immediately changed the topic

>>24503575
Good riddance. Leave that TIRED OLD TOPIC in 2008 already!! We are SICK and FATIGUED of all of the gay marriages. We the goyim want to discuss CELEBRITY SEX TAPES and BRAINWASHING.

Smoking or Edibles? Why?

For me edibles are scary. I've had very bad reactions.

>>24503716
neither, drugs are for losers

>>24503716
use a vaporizer. But if weed is scary to you, you shouldn't do it. It's not supposed to be like that... ur doing it wrong.

TTR (Trump Tausendjähriges Reich)

You know what I really think i'll finish that book.
Nobody may publish it, nobody may even read it, but it'll be out there in the Akash like all the ones I love.

>>24503716
i liked the idea of edibles at first like u can just eat one whenever even it's a no smoking space it doesn't smell etc. but in practice it sucks ass man last time i ate an edible at 10pm it didn't kick in for TWO HOURS that's longer than waiting for lsd by the time it was really hitting me i was in bed don't get me wrong i got pretty blazed and all but idk man i'd rather smoke its way better also i like the smell of weed t b h

logic pro is the best daw but the color scheme is so ugly it makes me not want to use it that weird green plus a medium gray is like what the hell? i thought apple had this super design taste idk man

My edgiest position is: no human being deserves compassion, every parent has agency and thus choose not to bring another human to earth. Ignorantia iuris non excusat but for human suffering

>>24503853
No parent deserves compassion, but if a person doesn't have any kids yet, then their suffering is a tragedy.

>>24502232
>Jews would never lie while astroturfing
alight

>decide to finally watch apocalypse now
>discover that Copolla made three fucking cuts of it
>oe of them even has a new ending aparently
>can't ask the nerds on /film/ about which one should I watch because for the last two weeks /tv/ gives me an error message whenever I try to post
Fuck.

what have I become
my sweetest friend

>>24503975
There's a documentary out called Hearts of Darkness about the chaotic shooting of it

A last bite of hashbrown just as the Diet Coke was carrying me towards the unreal

>>24503975
is the ending really different? the "redux" one just has extra footage like after that show with the playboy bunnies there's a scene where they hang out with the soldiers and then later there's a part where they find some french colonists still living in a plantation deep in the jungle, i think those were both cut or heavily truncated in the original cut, idk about "the final cut" which is ironically the one i have a copy of on itunes cuz i copped it for $5 one day but never got around to watching cuz its like 3 hours long

>>24504020
>never got around to watching cuz its like 3 hours long
This is why nobody remembers the ending, it is very much a journey

>>24503998
Johnny Cash basically usurped that song from the original writer/singer. It wasn't even his intention or anything. It's just his song now.

>>24504028
But seriously Hurt by Johnny Cash is a great cover.

>>24504032
Speaking of. I once knew a guy who hated Johnny Cash with a deep passion because he essentially outshined and took the spotlight of some local group in his area at the same time.

I consider burger flippers to be more heroic than doctors, firefighters, lawyers, etc. How often do you see a doctor? I haven't seen one in like 15 years. But I eat fast food at least once per week, couldn't do that without burger flippers.

>>24504052
flip yo own burger

>>24504052
keep going like that and you will be sucking a doctors dick for a heart transplant.

>>24502982
Accept Jesus and believe, shrimple as that.

I want to fuck sabrina carpenter

Funny how anything exciting in life involves death. Why did life mean by this?

>>24503998
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2B6bJOQfTmY

Little white American goth girls scurry from me. My very presence quakes in their boots as they vacate areas near me. Soon, an overweight foreign man shall take their place.

>>24504085
i have never heard a sabrina carpenter song and i don't intend to

>>24504125
I don't like her music, just wanna stick it inside of her

>>24502195 (OP)
Irritating or frustrating as I find some circumstances in my REM dreams. they're generally pretty rich in terms of personality, faces, places, and even music sometimes. About once a month I awake with something remarkable playing in my head, but have no adequate technical experience to write down or play with given the proper equipment. About 30 minutes after waking, it's gone utterly, try hard as I sometimes do to maintain it in internal auditory loop.

>>24504151
Hum it into SoundHound?

>>24504166
Some of the melodies I could be captured that way, but the basslines that go with them couldn't possibly be conveyed that way. This is not to mention the issue of timbre: Imagine a synthetic combination of pixicatti, stereo chorused guitars, and mandolins. Jazz also has a certain tradition of reflecting, via brass. a certain briefly honking or intermittent train or car horn effect reverberating off of big buildings. Synth pop is so replete with effects like it, it's impossible to summarize, never mind analyze.

Would you eat one of my gallstone?

>>24502249
"And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Rather fear him who can destroy both soul and body in hell."
Matthew 10:28

My nickname in the CIA was Harry Butthole.

#1 streamer for hackers right here.

>>24504217
I dub you Boring Cunt.

>>24504210
>Recognised pizzicato
Bullshit better

>>24504234
Nicknames don't work as well when it's anonymous messages.

They communicate in plain sight. You probably read their posts once and don't even know it. They make threads that follow certain patterns, according to a schedule they share between different agents. The mesaages look like normal posts, unless you know what to look for. Once you know what you're seeing the sensitivity and importance of the information being transmitted can be shocking. I don't know who they work for or why they use this site. I'm not sure I want to know. They make very few mistakes. They are paranoid and if you find a trail leading to them it will be gone the next time you look. Curiously enough, they all seem to be real people with genuine interest in the topics being discussed, even if they are also passing obscured messages within it. I've seen them keep discussing mundane or even obscene topics long after passing the daily end-of-message code. I've seen them on all boards, but mostly /a/. I think I understood a message once, enough to partially decode some other patterns, and its content was unbelievable. I posted a partial decoded copy somewhere else and it was deleted and scrubbed from all records and archives within an hour. A couple days later a thread I made was targeted. The posts looked normal to an outsider but the message was clear. Now I just observe. I have a treasure trove of partial decodes in a Mega folder and a dead man's switch for them but it's not enough. I buried a hard drive full of them in a place only I know. I emailed encrypted copies to secure addresses. It's not going to be enoufh and I know it. Somehow, from what I can tell, these people are generally on our side, and that is perhaps my only saving grace. The only reason I haven't gone missing yet.

>>24504242
What the fuck do you even mean by recognized in this context? The ambiguity of syntheses is pretty obvious.

>>24504257
and I take you can't give an example or they will shadow ban you or something?

>>24504257
They want you to shoot up a gay bar

>>24504257
So long as you realize you shouldn't base any action, feeling, or opinion on anything they do or say it doesn't matter at all. General paranoids stagnate since the memory of what they did before is foolproof

>>24504257
More evil would be more precise with manipulating people who are actively engaged in a sort of activity that doesn't shut them down so bluntly. Though if you are already generally paranoid (which varies, since delusion can lead to worse results) that becomes harder. It only seems to happen if you have already something in life and get the attention of a large company or the government

Today I strongly felt the caveman instinct to rape.

Why is the captcha being so fucky today? Are we under another DDOS attack?

>>24502195 (OP)
I feel like this board is nothing more than a dumping ground of ego chasing wannabe intellectuals all sniffing their own farts. Between the endless philosophy dick measuring contests, who read the most influential and meaningful works or goofy ass convos like these endless Christian threads that pop up as bait and/or shills. It's like the "No Fun Allowed" meme for reading. You have to be a miserable literary cunt to be here. I just want to read a fun book, fantasy or whatever and maybe talk about it.

>>24504348
You could always make a new thread.

Does Penguin always state it when their edition is an abridged work, or could I order something and realize I'm reading abridged halfway through the book?

>>24504348
>it's another "anon complains about exactly the type of poster he's being" post

>>24502200
I am 100% going to (capital H) Hell, anon.
I regularily use pretty depraved Hentai and have lustful thoughts on teenagers without shame. I would really like to fuck a 15 year old girl one day, just to know what it feels like.

>>24502195 (OP)
Deus Ex was wrong about Area 51 being the center of all global communication networks and data. If you changed Area 51 to Israel, then it would be 100% right.

https://youtu.be/QZrlfBE6UI4?si=L1jmX6vzRKaem_Te

Evil has already won. There's not much we can do at this point.

The Jews were behind the bug band

there is a unifying truth to all religions and mythologies. it is nature teaching us the fundamental truth of the cycle. death and rebirth, destruction, resurrection, winter and spring, blooming flowers, sex and death, Shiva, Jesus on the cross, Demeter... It's all pointing to the same unifying truth... you will die and be recycled

>>24504390
I fucked a 15 year old once but I was only 19 so it wasn't as taboo as it could've been

I shouldn't be allowed write strongly worded letters.

It's reading time
1, 2 screenplay
3, 4 roman français
5, 6 historical nonfiction
7, 8 audiobook
9, 0 dictionary
dubs start something new
trips play vidya instead

>>24504348
Shut the fuck up and go cry about shit posting on reddit faggot. We got WAY more than enough shitposting cancer here

>>24504390
Go to confession, then.
Way worse people post here. There are actual killers and pedophiles and rapists who have posted in these threads.

There is nothing shameful about wanting to fuck a beautiful young girl... it's what mother nature intended. Whatever shame you feel is just a subtle trick of mother nature to make it feel even better and more taboo. She just wants us to fuck and reproduce... to pollinate, by any means necessary.

>>24504556
Yeah, no. The only will at hand is my own. I am not an animal. The momentary pleasure of sex does not outweigh the consequences of its circumstances.
I say this and I'm not even a very firm believer in the modern age of consent.

>>24504547
I'm stone cold killer. I killed cockroaches, spiders, flies without remorse

I saw a honeybee taking a rest on the pavement today, I hope nobody squished him

>>24504562
I've killed at least 3 people and I feel no remorse whatsoever.

>>24504561
You are an animal.

Your low stakes internet circus doesn't investigate bad people, freak.

None of (You) are going to make it

Propaganda I'm not falling for: asian girls

>>24504584
I already did faggot

>>24504577
All abortions?

>tfw shitskin
>live in Britain and only speak English
>tfw never had a gf

Anyone else like me?

I don't think about race often and simplify it as additional ugliness for myself, but I did think about it today as a further nail that cements my loserdom and guarantees that I have no hope in life.

>>24504595
Sure (You) did, buddy

>>24504600
Why are you in Britain?

>>24504595
>not a Sisyphean
ngmi

>>24504579
No. The only reason anyone makes this claim is to argue for animal behavior through sophistry.

>>24504584
I'm in the process of making it.

>>24504613
>I'm not an animal!
later
>*takes a shit*

>>24504613
Alright buddy.

>>24504616
What is an animal?

>>24504562
How was the experience?
Not asking for details on how you did it, but how did you feel? Express yourself, I give you permission.

>>24504483
I should be, and I have, and I’ll do it again.

>>24504645
Only if you're charging 150/hr anon

>>24504634
What you are

>>24504697
*sigh*

>>24504654
I wrote it for myself? Who would I be charging

>>24504711
That's an animal noise you just made

>>24504634
you are lost in a maze of semantics. im listening to mother nature.

>>24504717
>he doesn't give himself money out of his own paychecks for working on stuff for himself
ngmi

if u do a nyc /lit/ meetup u should do it in hoboken that shit is paradisiacal on summer saturdays beautiful view of the city from the green parks on the waterfront and a whole mile long strip of bars and restaurants teeming with activity when the sun goes down, to be a normie in hoboken must be very heaven

I'm a member of the Invisible Hand Society.

>>24504739
The invisible hand groped me

I detect a Ubangi in the fuel supply.

>>24504721
>he
>himself
hmmm

what's a good twitch to watch while i try to sculpt a thing in zbrush

Do you like Bach?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8qpaKo84HQ

>https://www.nytimes.com/2025/06/27/opinion/trump-budget-big-beautiful-bill.html

ohhh NOW the libs care about the national debt! lmaooo the nyt is such a joke. i mean they're not wrong but where was all this fiscal concern during the biden presidency when he blew up the debt so that we spend more on debt service than the military?

>>24504775
I recommend watching Zebra.

>>24504802
that's a dude on twitch?

>>24504803
It's one of the names of the red and gold plasmatic entity. Also known as Ubik.

I've figured it out. Finally.
Everything occult, Gnostic, heretical, protestant (not just in the Christian sense), esoteric, everything hermetic, everything alchemical, all of it... the true cause behind it all is dudes wanting to have gay sex. That's it. No moral law or revelation from God raises such opposition as that for which Sodom was burnt.

It’s Canada Day weekend and people are setting off fireworks. I always feel so sad at times like this.

>>24504824
Or just sex in general. Remember, when Luther broke from the Church he forsook his monastic vows, and then convinced a nun to forsake HER vows, and married her.

>>24504859
>canada day weekend is the same weekend that pride month peaks with a bunch of dionysian gay parades
uhh i see

>>24504874
My city’s pride parade and celebration was like a week or two ago afaik, so I just assumed the fireworks and stuff going on tonight was for Canada Day, because often when it falls early in the week it’s celebrated the weekend before.

my socialism? national. my procedural outcomes? manipulated. my history? conceptual. my geopolitics? clearpilled. my heart? closed to pity.

why didn't pre-collonial Africans invent the wheel?

>>24504984
they didn't have horses?

>>24504990
wrong answer.

I remember a vision I had of Her one time. I disappeared, and only She remained. I witnessed Her, through Her, in the void of space, endless stars and galaxies and nebulae floating past, countless aeons condensed into mere seconds at Her pleasure, infinity from its base to its summit, leading back into itself, infinity infinity infinity, until finally all that space and star stuff collapsed into a ball of gentle light in the palm of Her hand. Silence. You can have moments of meditation where the mind is still and not a thought arises, but this silence was deeper than that. So quiet. Inky darkness extended just beyond the light in Her hand, and she leaned in close to it, a loving smile, causing a sensation so powerful i could barely withstand it, feeling like I'd go mad... the light exploded in Her hand, and back to all this.

official thread theme
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YxpEa6U2ccI

>>24502200
That's for the good Lord to decide, but I feel saved. Just because of a very powerful religious experience once when I needed it most.

i hope i didn't cuck my protein powder by putting it in the fridge when it was 100 degrees out cuz my pantry isn't air conditioned when i just made a shack the container started getting condensation on it, i hope it's not going to fuck it up, luckily that was cheap protein not the good stuff that costs like 40 bucks for two pounds

say, speaking of fitness, i wonder if /fit/ has any good general threads like they used to have the feelsbar and it was way better than this thread

i'm actually thinking about getting into watching tv, well not really watching it, but just like having it on in the background while i do sth else, i feel like if i had sth long and boring on my other screen like star trek or some shit i would be able to concentrate better on my main screen cuz if i need a dopamine zap i can just look over at the tv monitor and then look back at the thing i'm doing instead of like opening up this site and looking at all your bad posts

>>24505033
>>24505049
We don’t need to hear your every thought. Go somewhere else.

>>24505051
rude

>>24505049
Something I've been doing recently is having a TV show I've seen a million times before on mute while listening to classical music.

Almost six months.

>>24505057
yeah i used try putting classical on but there's too much dynamic range even some seemingly mellow shit like chopin five minutes in the guy is slamming the keys and breaking ur flow like damn this is no study beat

>>24504997
i work with a trans chick who looks exactly like that lol

im watching the hit 2013 thriller 'Now You See Me' right now. the threads on /tv/ making fun of how much Indians love this movie always cracked me up. Woody Harrelsons character, a washed-up mentalist, was reading The Savage Detectives in one scene. this intrigues me. why did they choose that novel of all nkvels...

>>24505094
>Woody Harrelsons character, a washed-up mentalist, was reading The Savage Detectives in one scene
Huh, really? Never noticed that. Might watch that movie right now, I've been in the mood for well-made but mindless fun movies. The last two I watched in the past couple days were Lucky Number Sleven and The Prestige.

>>24505094
i almost watched frances ha last week but then i realized i am not the mood for a quirky nyc movie

>>24505099
it hits the spot. you and I are on the same wavelength, anon. I want to watch the prestige now.

there are so many bad movies from the 80s and 90s on bitchute i think i'm gonna watch some

Nueromancer is a really cool book. A lot of novels are good or great, transcendent, whatever, but not a lot of novels are cool. Celine comes to mind as cool. I've read nueromancer 3 times over 2 decades, and it's still uniquely cool and stylish.

>>24504985
God bless you, anon.

im thinking bout getting into the Civil War. Might start with Ken Burns.

>>24505164
Get into the Eastern Roman Empire.

>if ur fond of sand dunes and salty air
we all heard that groove armada song right but i didn't know the og version was such a banger

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tqc2QAqtc2g

>>24505164
Hes a southern sympathizer and it's unwarranted but hes a good storyteller. That pbs documentary is gold.

>>24505166
hmm, that's tempting too

>>24502195 (OP)
---- Solaria ----
10022
Assorted Superlatives

A level field dotted by cloverhead millions,
Faraway fireflies playing where

Exceptional trees that afford the privacy they require
To be seen by their mates or me.

A kind of mother, beyond conception
by which one rides dreams

Of or during day or night
Or Personality.

I hate this job and can't wait to be fired

tv might be the best board. they are just so funny over there sometimes, hehe

>>24505223
What job is that? I deliberately got myself fired out of four jobs. The first was with Avery Dennison, the second with with Montgomery Ward, the third with LS Ayres or the May Company, the fourth one I won''t mention/

I will tell you how it looks from the outside:
These are the front ends of things that come to be through human interaction. There is nothing original about them, the brain is probably hidden deep within the cracks, it thinks against me and many others, i don't know why, i dindu nothin, but that is not the point, is it? Other parts are more visible at simple sight, that is what i mean by front ends, you might see "assholes", you might watch "hands" making odd contraptions, sometimes a "mouth" might try to bite you, and i know this because i was inside, but it puked me out, or maybe it shitted my out. It is not an analogy, it really happened.
It pulses with satanic energy. This is nothing new, everything is satanic nowadays, but this is relevant to point out because many of their hands think there is nothing satanic about their ways, and that they are wrong is obvious, just look at its pussy, it bites, too! It bites a lot.
It is really scary to think about it, the proportion is grotesque, to the point it has all the strategies possible, i try not to think much about, i have been distracting myself playing a video game called deadcells, it is pretty lame.

>>24502195 (OP)
This board is equivalent to reading the Dedication to the author page in some books...

>>24505292
>dindu nothin,
You are a cunt.

>>24505309
you are... food! a tasty cracker, yummy!

>>24502195 (OP)
Last night, I flew out of the train, wrestling aginst a security lad trying to get his grip on me.
With gigantical strength, I liberate myself once more from what are now two security lads getting their final grip on me, pressing my face against the concrete floor.
'Signature refused', reads the paper given to me by some other officer of the modern system, 45 minutes later after the police had arrived.

>>24505313
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QA19NDIfXaQ&list=RDMM&index=27

Great, now my YouTube Music app on my phone is full of Gen Alpha shit music because I let my 12 yo girl cousin listen to music on my phone. I opened it just now and was like "the fuck are these quick picks" till I remembered lol

>>24505317
Last night, I had a rather unusual and long dream. I suppose the most memorable episode in it involved two big blonde chicks who more or less abandoned me in the middle of a sprawling resort There's a lot more that came before and after, but who has time to tell any such thing in detail?

>>24505317
>With gigantical strength, I liberate myself once more from what are now two security lads getting their final grip on me, pressing my face against the concrete floor.
So you're liberated or they're pressing your face against the floor? Sounds like they're happening at the same time the way it's worded, y'know?

Looking for advice adjusting to my wifes new partner

Mass, indescribable amounts of "ND" seems to be the only solution

>>24504824
Get your mind out of the gutter

>>24504746
Nasty

>>24504453
Don't you think it would be bad PR for them not to do that? Just a random thought.

>>24504325
That's me everyday

Today was such a waste. I slept from 1am to 6am, took my daily meds, then slept from 8:30am to 6:30pm, what a joke. But since I wanna try and keep my sleep schedule consistent, now I've got to take some benadryl so I can try and sleep by 1am, because I won't get tired naturally until 6am, and this means I'll have only been awake for 8 hours total today, 2 hours of which was spent waiting for my morning meds and coffee to kick in. Terrible. Better luck tomorrow.

>>24505493
My brother in rape.

HEAD LIKE A HOLE

i wonder why the fuck the most powerful people on earth are satan worshippers when im a new atheist who think this is all bullshit. can they all be retards? but they have like 130+ IQ and sociopathy

how would it feel to wake up as a siamese?
I think it would be strangely comforting to know that whatever happens, you're always with someone, in both the good and the bad. you don't even need to say something, this person has seen it all with you.

I'm a very disconnected person. I'm being weird maybe. I just wouldn't mind sharing my burdens and taking someone else's

What does revised edition mean here?
Has the language been changed?

>>24505936
> The finest of all Conrad's tales, Heart of Darkness is set in an atmosphere of mystery and menace, and tells of Marlow's perilous journey up the Congo River to relieve his employer's agent, the renowned and formidable Mr. Kurtz. What he sees on his journey, and his eventual encounter with Kurtz, horrify and perplex him, and call into question the very bases of civilization and human nature. Endlessly reinterpreted by critics and adapted for film, radio, and television, the story shows Conrad at his most intense and sophisticated.
>The other three tales in this volume depict corruption and obsession, and question racial assumptions. Set in the exotic surroundings of Africa, Malaysia, and the east, they variously appraise the glamour, folly, and rapacity of imperial adventure. This revised edition uses the English first edition texts and has a new chronology and bibliography.

>>24505739
it's all rumors...

>>24505739
The sociopathy is the point

For the daughter of Caterina Gattilusio.

Yesterday a friend showed me an instagram picture of someone I had a crush on during highschool. She is single and looks almost the same. It's funny, I invited her on a date back then and she said no. Then she started feeling jealous because I moved on instead of beta orbiting her. Of course, that was ten years ago. Who knows how she is like nowadays. My friend said I should hit her up. How? With a smoke signal? I don't have social media and don't plan on changing that. Still, I keep thinking about her.

If I don't get engaged to and life a happy life with my oneitis nukes are going to drop

If I don't get engaged to my oneitis and live a happy life with her nukes are going to drop

Hate wins. Nothing wins

I am in her dreams. I am in her subconscious. She sees my shadow in odd angels. She's raving and screaming my name

>>24506191
I am her, but I'm a he, and you're not her.

Why are the Jews doing this to me

>>24505253
Customer service, aka a punching bag for angry boomers, like a fucking pajeet

>>24502195 (OP)
Thought experiment.

Your hypothetical girlfriend is going out for a friend's bachelorette party, and the theme is slutty college girl.

Would you prefer:
A) Your hypothetical girlfriend is hot
or
B) Your hypothetical girlfriend is ugly

>>24506311
Suicide

>>24506311
I'd much much much prefer ugly
All of my previous girlfriends have been not conventionally attractive and I've always been at peace whenever she went out partying
But my girlfriend now is super conventionally attractive and I've a nervous wreck whenever she's out partying without me

>>24506311
I'd rather my girlfriend not go at all.

>>24506333
Your girlfriend will go. Now choose.

>>24506311
But anon... I'm gay

>>24506311
It sounds like my hypothetical girlfriend makes bad choices about who to associate with, so we broke up

>>24506336
I'll go instead.

>>24506348
Okay, this time it is your hypothetical boyfriend going to a strip club. Now choose.

>>24506354
No. You are gay and thus not allowed into their bachelorette party. Your hypothetical girlfriend is going. Now choose.

>>24506353
Nigga just fucking answer

>>24506364
We broke up

>>24506358
>>24506356
Dude we're not going to participate in your weird cuck fetish fantasy. Find somewhere else to post this shit.

>>24506311
I'll go with letter G) Grim.

>>24506353
based

the culprit:
the RAPED and the WICKED

>>24502195 (OP)
I feel like I am an observer to the global chaos unfolding in front of me. I feel powerless to stop it. I can only watch

>>24506311
an incontinent hairy witch with breast cancer

Call 988.

Too dead to feel alive and too alive to be dead. Truly the worst position.

I'm at war with myself. All I think is comfort when the only times I've actually felt alive where in times of challenge.
I'm checking some real estate and I keep imagining having my own place, spending a Sunday evening at home comfy while reading and listening to music, and while most of me longs for this, it still feels like giving up, like there's much more than that.
I'm not 20 anymore, and while I can indulge in escapism as much as I want, there's always a brief moment of clarity where I ask myself "Is this really what you want to do with your life?".

Remember the forgotten.

>>24502195 (OP)
I'm getting weird ideas recently due to my newly found interest in specific topics. There are inconsistencies and weak points but i try to resolve them without damaging the CORE idea which is the fact that History should be understood teleologically. I also believe that the end-stage is the unity of everything with God. This might be achieved through the so-called digital singularity. This might mean that the new bodies we are given by God would be the undying machine-augmented bodies. one of the major issues with my current ideas is that it's too driven by SCI-FI, a possibly incomplete/mistaken understanding of Hegel and the fact that understanding and studying History teleologically, can easily fall into a mechanical(?) understanding of history, where we can't actually learn anything about how to guide/improve history, or even fatalism where studying history itself is borderline meaningless and worthless.

Another idea in a similar vein i have is that Knowledge flows like a river through writers and their subsequent students and the students students and that ideas are Darwinian and kill each other, until we reach the absolute knowledge - which is unity with God. An example of the river-like and darwinian attribute of ideas is this: If i read an author (Hegel for example), I absorb the main TRUTH tenets that were filtered through him, and through Kant (who was an influence on Hegel) who also filtered previous philosophers/writers, until we get to Plato who also filtered the pre-Plato philosophers. through this continuous river of knowledge, more and more of the TRUE knowledge preciptate and the lesser and untrue ideas disappear. and example of the darwinian character of ideas and knowledge, is that If I read Author A, whose ideas are more thoroughly filtered, and an opponent read Author B (whose ideas are more primitive), the ideas that I produce (in all aspects, wether it's political, social or economic or even religious) will defeat the other guy's ideas, and this will be evident in why certain countries win and others lose.

>>24502195 (OP)
Today is the anniversary of sorts of the day my first wife committed suicide. What is strange is that now I'm happily remarried and there's nothing I feel like I'm missing out on but apparently I've never gotten over her, at least not subconsciously. I picked a hell of a time to cut back on drinking. Thanks for reading my blog.

>>24506692
I don't know what to say.

Why does it have to be so hot outside :( it's gonna get up to 88F!

>>24506670
Who?

just seen an earthworm today for the first time in what feels like decades.

made me think - it might say something about where i live now, or the kind of life i’m leading. less dirt, more concrete. less wandering, more routine. or maybe the world really is changing. soil’s gone dry. fewer worms. subtle, silent shifts you don’t notice.

it was a big fat one too. dried dead in the hot sun today.

kind of bleak. a big earthworm, probably ancient by worm standards, crawling out for whatever instinct drove it - only to crisp up on the surface. emerging from deep underground just to die in the open, in full view. it felt like a symbol of something. the past surfacing and not being able to survive the present. or nature poking its head up in a world that’s no longer made for it. you don’t expect to feel anything about a worm. but.

it’d thrown in the towel halfway across the pavement and decided the sun could finish it off. big day for the worm. first sighting in decades. last day ever. symbolism feels heavy-handed in films or novels, but it exists in real life nevertheless. in fiction it’d feel written. life doesn’t care if symbolism is overused.

it came up for air in a world that’s moved on. like the past surfacing and realising it doesn’t belong here anymore. a flash of my childhood making one last appearance and immediately regretting it.

rip

>>24506692
It wasn't a suicide, I killed her

>>24506717
>just seen an earthworm today

>>24506717
Ever heard of Earthworm Jim? He was based on a real earthworm.

>>24506730
>>24506732
when you come to /lit/ with your small crisis you get what you pay for

Need to get in on some of that Saudi oil money. I'm willing to write a long epic poem which glorifies the regime and provides an inspiring mythos for their origin for the right price. hmu MBS

Managed to eat three whole meals in a single day in a year at the least, several at worst. The first two were pasta with yoghurt, the third was bread with a bunch of sausages and eggs shoved in. I've had many attempts at eating three meals so far but they all managed to fail either because I randomly felt like not bothering or had a sleeping schedule fucked to high heaven and then the 18th layer of hell, and therefore not allowing my stomach the leeway to put more shit in it.
Also, I woke up early today only to end up blowing like 6 hours on porn. Yeah.

there she goes my beautiful world

If I had a cent for every time a lolcow or somebody close to a lolcow had parents of wildly different cultural and ethnic background, I'd be a millionaire.

Like that's not to say that everybody should keep to their own but the results seem to be inevitably disastrous when the crossing over happens between people with backgrounds that have nothing to do with each other. Euros can make it work among each other perfectly fine, but anything euro mixed with anything non-euro seems like an aesthetic and mental disaster in the making.

I'm naked. I'm writing this naked

>>24506717
wormposting

>>24506717
I haven’t seen a worm in ages either

>>24506736
A good bout of existential dread is just another Sunday to us

>>24506780
not a *good* bout i shouldn't think

Kek BBC is super mad about punk group calling for death to perpetrators of a genocide
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yqrAPOZxgzU
Daily reminder they banned Lydon for calling Saville a nonce

>>24506825
>Daily reminder
millennial alert

>>24506842
Oh no! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R6GDdKrQ8EI

>>24506675
your god is a fag

These are the YouTube channels I'm subscribed to.

>>24506846
i liked sex pistols for a two month period between transitioning from blink-182 to guided by voices

>>24506868
Sorry to hear about that

>>24506854
dryest lineup imaginable

>>24506871
understandable for a 16/17 yo imo, i was just lucky to outgrow reddit music taste quickly

>>24506881
>Caring about Reddit
Really sorry to hear about your disability again, didn't realise it was that bad

Ugh, I'm having a bad hair day :/ What causes this anyway? The hair drying in the wrong position after a shower, perhaps? It lines up just the way I like it every other time except this time since I last showered. So weird. Hopefully when I shower tonight it fixes it.

>>24506891
Scientific principles, I guess.

>>24506897
Ah, so it isn't the devil doing this to me? Or God??? :O

>>24506901
Might be hair gremlins, have you left any postage stamps out that disappeared?

>>24506891
I wear my hair like this.

>>24506903
dozens

>>24506907
Well, so long as you're not going on or near an aeroplane anytime soon, you should be okay, but stop feeding them

>>24502195 (OP)
Starting the army tomorrow.

>>24506923
Best of luck. Why did you sign up?

>>24506924
Concerned about Israel

>>24506924
It's obligatory in my first world shithole

>>24506926
Oh fuck actually in Israel lol

please break my heart

>>24506926
Civic duty is based, anon. Hope you have a good time, learn some valuable skills and life lessons, and come out of it a better man and better prepared for life.

History removes all the boring parts.

History repeats the old conceits
The glib replies the same defeats

>>24506936
only someone who’s never been in the army could come out with this

>>24506934
That seems invasive and hard to fix. How about a foot?

You ain't nothin but a ground hog
Cryin all the time
You ain't nothin but a ground hog
Cryin all the time

Elliot Page is my waifu.

Why do Israelis think the moon is an egg?

I’m not like you guys
I’m not like you

our breathing has got too loud
show me the bathroom mirror
we’re taking this way too slow
take me away from here

>>24502195 (OP) I don't get it. Why would I share me thoughts with a honeypot? Who do you work for?

>>24502200
I'm neither baptized nor faithful to Christ so near-certainty hell. If it's a gay, new-agey "every nice person hecking gets saved" Christianity then still likely hell - I'm a pretty awful person.

This clown was like, "really I'm never here. I'm never doing this. People don't see me. I sell people the idea of being a clown." I was like buddy I see ya just fine and honked his nose honestly pretty hard

>>24507073
I used to be a clown. I wasn't that good because you have to have traumatic events in your life like being forced to watch your wife get butchered by immortal creatures at night in a town like Carcosa that's located in some sort of parallel universe.

>>24507101
Sometimes the gentlest fall breaks the acorn, I have heard.

>>24507073
For a few years there was an anon who kept doing clown green texts, I enjoyed them but most of /lit/ ignored him. Haven't seen him post in awhile, wonder if he is still around.

Joyce Carol Oates once wrote that “Loneliness is like starvation: you don't realize how hungry you are until you begin to eat.”
I wish I had never experienced closeness with you. You can’t properly miss what you’ve never had.

>>24507172
Properly missing something is better than improperly missing something.

t. absence nazi

Does anything of worth ever get posted on /lit/ anymore? Seems to be retarded a circle jerk these days.

when I was in the waiting room I noticed that there were drawings of Stitch from Leo and Stitch. all I could think about was that girl I used to date Vyktoria, she used to like that movie. ohana means family. family means no one gets left behind
or forgotten

>>24507179
Stop being pedantic. The word “properly” is informally used to mean “completely” or “fully.” This board would be a better place if you were absent.

I peaked in middle school.

As she lies with him she dreams of me.
Why doesn't that bring me any comfort.

>>24507250
How do you know that? She probably doesn’t think about you.

At the roots of the earth under black mountains
Beneath strange skies in the light of dead suns
In the shade of pale dreams of unknown sleepers
Beyond onyx gates to the cities of dead gods
In the court of unspeakable dread names
I will hold you close and love you still.

My 12 yo cousin is so brainrotted, when she saw some of my books, she thought A Visit from the Good Squad, and when I asked her why, because I thought it was a pretty good title, she said because she took it to mean A Visit from the Gooner Squad -_-

>>24507385
she thought A Visit from the Goon* Squad was a really weird and poor title*

goddamn!

>>24507337
The way she looks at me.
The way she always shows up when nobody else is around.
The way she pokes and pries into my mind at any chance she gets.
The way that she tries so hard to know me.

>>24507411
You’re delusional.

>get challenged to spell 'Aggiornamento' on the spot
>only spell it with one 'g'
NOOOOOOO--

Whenever I hear someone mention Heaven's gates I think of the group who made an unhealthy decision.

Since the beginning of this year I’ve had constant suicidal thoughts. I don’t know what will help me. I’m honestly just tired of being alive. I hate myself so much.

>>24507417
Life would be easier if I were.

>>24507672
If she likes you so much then why is she in a relationship with someone else?

>>24507701
She's been seeing him for 4 years, I ended my relationship with my girlfriend of 3 once I realized how I felt about her.
I haven't told her that I've left my girlfriend yet, she never speaks of him unless to speak ill of him.

Warning to the kids. Stay the fuck away from porn. Don't be an absolute retard like me.

I've generally been a very anxious insecure person in my relationships, like weirdly insecure/inadequate about my partners' pasts, exes, sexual history, sexual deviancy/behavior, their clothing, possibility of cheating, etc etc etc, despite all of them being completely normal girls with completely normal wants and histories. Logically, I understood there was nothing to be worried about, but emotionally, I've lost so much peace and sleep worried and insecure and anxious. I've tried journaling and using ChatGPT to navigate my feelings and going to therapy and sometimes speaking with my partners about my insecurities and all that but I've still felt anxious and uncertain.

At the very same time, all the porn I consume is hotwife, cuckold, swinger, cheating (male and female), hot past, captions about partners talking about their exes, humilation, white penis humiliation, BBC porn, partners wanting bigger dicks, cucked by friends, partner cheating on vacation, partner cheating on nights out, etc etc etc, and I've never made the fucking connection that this sort of porn consumption is what fuels those insecure thoughts and feelings I have in relationships.

I think it started over a decade ago in college when an ex girlfriend once mentioned that she had sex with black dude and it hurt when they had sex. I tried to play it cool but I felt so inadequate and insecure about it and I happened to stumble upon BBC cuck porn and somehow watching that soothed some part of my young insecure mind and perhaps made me feel like I had some control in these feelings of insecurity. Unfortunately, I think that slowly developed over the years into an unconscious habit loop where I'd feel insecure (for whatever reason) and then jack it to hotwife porn to feel some reclamation of control and/or some sort of release of anxiety and then feel okay for a few hours and then feel insecure again over the exact same thing since my mind was in that exact same environment of thought and feeling.

Having realized this last week, I created a new porn reddit account but this time I only followed subreddits about nice, normal, passionate porn between couples that love each other. No cuck shit, no extreme feelings, no emotional shit, no dynamic with infidelity or humiliation or inadequacy or anything. I got off purely on the feeling of love and connection and passion for my girlfriend. And guess what, I feeling fucking great. Those feelings of insecurity have really mellowed and I'd say they'd completely go away when I give up this cuck porn habit. Plus I feel much more connected to my partner now and feel extra lovey dovey to her all the time.

I can't believe it took me over nearly a fucking decade to understand how this fucked porn habit of mine was ruining my peace and perspective in relationships. Just use your imagination and imagine your partner. Godspeed.

>>24507893
there's a new thread, anon
>>24507213