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It is hot and I spent the day sitting about in my gf's underwear.

A chickadee just came in my window and I want to get my phone so I can take a picture of it but I know if I do that it will fly back out. It is exploring my house and I am hoping it will come and explore me before leaving.

>>24507213 (OP)
I walked through darkened streets, begging for the devil to talk to me, to see a witch, anything. I only communed with drunkards and prostitutes that night.

You ya'll all think I give a rat's behind about what yous think about anything at all? I have super-duper autism powers and my disease makes me not give a rat's fat ass about nothing that you think matters in fact. It's all inconsequential to me these things that are important that are unimportant from my mental perspective in my mind. That's all that I have to say about anything on the matter, that is that it don't matter anything at all; that's the rub, that nothing be mattering.

>>24507423
tldr: I missed the point because autism.

I am fascinated by Mount Athos

>>24507423
Reading Faulkner?
>>24507502
Monks are admirable folk.

I don't see anybody say much about the sadism and quasi-necrophilia in Confessions of a Mask, only that he is gay. As a necrophile, I am confused. Are most people not disgusted by this? Serial killers are always made out to be abhorrent. Is the average person secretly attracted to death?

Lately I've been struggling to speak—a chasm's appeared in my vocal register—all communications between 21 and 99 dB have been rendered inoperative, I assume it's all the crying. Under my current condition I've been forced to communicate by alternative means; smoke signals, alphabet soup, sky writing, icing the tops of cupcakes, dream insemination and gifts of hair products are but a few of my mediums. Mundanely, I've found that despite my great efforts I'm just as incapable of genuinely expressing myself as before I could scarcely eke out a whisper, the words come but the sentiment does not flow. But this variety of impotence is not uncommon here. I've found that for myself anything resembling my own contentment has been rendered unapproachable for so long that my orgasmic back-up has accumulated into a class-g threat, and I know that the moment I consummate my own desires I am going to die. No matter how hard we both try I cannot be induced into speaking of anything beyond the usual pleasantries or in the vaguest terms about myself because I know that the moment I step past this threshold I will never be able to stop myself again.

I love her—I hope that she can love me too and not just my face.

>>24507631
Degeneracy is inherent with homosexuals. That he was gay meant that he being being into other freaky shit was a given.

i was so busy working on my masters last year i didn't get a chance to chill at all but this summer night walks through the city are back on the agenda, so fucking comfy

the girls who like me are always the sort who i’d consider way out of my league. plain sort of girls kinda hate me almost instantly. like they see right through me.

i had different theories about this
a) what really makes me good looking is my eyes … and girls who are more alpha might look at your eyes more?,
or,
b) girls enjoy emotional rollercoasters. i’m kinda antisocial. if you’re dismissive to a good looking girl they might even like that a bit, like it’s part of the game. for someone not that attractive it ceases to be a game.

but i voiced all this to someone recently and she was like … er, yeah, your behaviour (whether i knew it or not) was probably instinctively totally different towards girls you’re into and ones not do much. i was rationalising with black pill stuff but it turns out love wins.

>>24507734
I attract a weird subset of girls. The only ones who have invited me to their home have been grannys and preteens.

https://youtu.be/DDIMiqxFLIo?si=V7Jq0znWgAk30ACB
Writing and composing a song. Harder than it sounds. Too many rhythms than don't fit the lyrics but I don't want chop lyrics to fit the sounds. Divergence and atonality maybe dissonance

My actual needs are so fucking funny

My girlfriend is genuinely the only reason I'm alive, which I'm starting to resent. I feel like if it weren't for her I could be out of my misery

Why do I keep writing things that people love, but that can't get published? Why have I somehow managed to please everybody EXCEPT editors at publishing houses and literary journals?

Drank 4 beers today and got a nauseous kind of dull headache. Think it might have been the Sun since I was sitting outside (my face got pretty burnt d'oh). Thinking of jacking off now that I'm home.

>>24507213 (OP)
Possibly the worst image ever selected for these threads.

Wish I could sing like a girl: can't. Wish I could sing like Jeff Buckley: can't.
Can sing like me;--but does the world want me?

>>24507213 (OP)
Hearing my neighbor's huge family (like 7 kids) blast off fireworks and cheer and laugh together through my wall has made my normal amount of somberness and melancholia much worse, I don't mind it though it's pretty cozy

>>24507849
Dumbfuck op is a dumbfuck

>>24507849
Shit's kinda spooky, just a lil bit.

I'm the worst human to ever exist.

She can't really give me what you can, not anymore.

Wish I could remember anything from when I read The Savage Detectives aside from I enjoyed it and it was comfy, but I couldn't really tell you what it was actually about

Warning to the kids. Stay the fuck away from porn. Don't be an absolute retard like me.

I've generally been a very anxious insecure person in my relationships, like weirdly insecure/inadequate about my partners' pasts, exes, sexual history, sexual deviancy/behavior, their clothing, possibility of cheating, etc etc etc, despite all of them being completely normal girls with completely normal wants and histories. Logically, I understood there was nothing to be worried about, but emotionally, I've lost so much peace and sleep worried and insecure and anxious. I've tried journaling and using ChatGPT to navigate my feelings and going to therapy and sometimes speaking with my partners about my insecurities and all that but I've still felt anxious and uncertain.

At the very same time, all the porn I consume is hotwife, cuckold, swinger, cheating (male and female), hot past, captions about partners talking about their exes, humilation, white penis humiliation, BBC porn, partners wanting bigger dicks, cucked by friends, partner cheating on vacation, partner cheating on nights out, etc etc etc, and I've never made the fucking connection that this sort of porn consumption is what fuels those insecure thoughts and feelings I have in relationships.

I think it started over a decade ago in college when an ex girlfriend once mentioned that she had sex with black dude and it hurt when they had sex. I tried to play it cool but I felt so inadequate and insecure about it and I happened to stumble upon BBC cuck porn and somehow watching that soothed some part of my young insecure mind and perhaps made me feel like I had some control in these feelings of insecurity. Unfortunately, I think that slowly developed over the years into an unconscious habit loop where I'd feel insecure (for whatever reason) and then jack it to hotwife porn to feel some reclamation of control and/or some sort of release of anxiety and then feel okay for a few hours and then feel insecure again over the exact same thing since my mind was in that exact same environment of thought and feeling.

Having realized this last week, I created a new porn reddit account but this time I only followed subreddits about nice, normal, passionate porn between couples that love each other. No cuck shit, no extreme feelings, no emotional shit, no dynamic with infidelity or humiliation or inadequacy or anything. I got off purely on the feeling of love and connection and passion for my girlfriend. And guess what, I feeling fucking great. Those feelings of insecurity have really mellowed and I'd say they'd completely go away when I give up this cuck porn habit. Plus I feel much more connected to my partner now and feel extra lovey dovey to her all the time.

I can't believe it took me over nearly a fucking decade to understand how this fucked porn habit of mine was ruining my peace and perspective in relationships. Just use your imagination to imagine your partner. Godspeed.

>>24507886
What did you do?

>>24507849
The guy who only posts paintings should be the one to make every one

>>24507900
Failed to get a gf.

>>24507904
If that's a crime, then I'm Adolf Hiter

>>24507907
I consider myself worse than Hitler, considering he got a wife.

>>24507886
They are all whores so it doesn't matter anyway.

Seeing girls eating salami at the deli is so sexy.

>>24507694
Did you leave your wife yet?

>>24507694
That's some pretty good writing.

I'm starting my Twitch channel in 2026. Right now I'm scouting for artists to make banners, avatars, brb screens, emotes, website, vtuber models, etc.

>>24507213 (OP)
I am a wretched creature. The only times I can quote beautiful things is to highlight their ironic constrast to my situation. Not to mention I cannot make anything beautiful myself. I cannot even write.

>>24507944
Your writing right now. If you mean write well. You're writing is already masterful.

>>24507944
out of curiosity -
what other kind of posts do you make on this board? ever argue with people?

>>24507948
Stop with the lowercase. I'll beat you up for that. I'll conk your head and drag your body out of the cave you live in. You will live in my cage, forever ever. Every day you are assigned an essay, and if it's not punctuated properly you get a punch or two, good lickings too. Your butt will bend backward.

>>24507953
discord mod energy

I woke up this morning with a frappucino in my hand

>>24507810
Because they don't need to put their money on their opinion.
Not that those people are dishonest, it just makes you think differently

>>24507708
which city

I'm impregnated with big ideas, like impregnating a girl I'm interested in. Been thinking of her but she ain't of me but no big deal, I guess. It's only very painful inside of my head, thoughts. Goes away after several months.

>>24507996
should be impregnating dem pussies instead

>>24507948
I don't post on this board very much, I do not read enough. I mostly just mope here because I don't like to impose upon my friends. Very rarely do I get into an argument.

>>24507213 (OP)
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8gIo3hvQyew
I found my new bookfu youtuber

People selling books are seriously obtuse man, pretty much the only page I want to see on a preview is the fucking CONTENTS page, yet they'll photograph every irrelevant intro page except that.
It's been done so much I'm starting to wonder if they're doing it on purpose.
Look at this
https://www.ebay.com/itm/226645670621?itmmeta=01JZ07GFP4M6REBK3JCNJMVDFX&hash=item34c5227add
What do I need to see pic related for?

Do young people still go the 4chan?
I feel like the userbase for 4chan has gone up in the past 10 years. I'm not as edgy anymore. I used to be able to hang out in r9k and not get bothered by the unhinged people there, now I roll my eyes or just flat out wish these blackpilled people would die.

/lit/ really is /pol/ lite isn't it? i went on /pol/ the other day and it's basically /lit/ but skipping the part where everyone pretends to read

>>24508365
The reason why /r9k/ is so aids is because teenagers have completely occupied it, 7-10 years ago the average robot was a White guy in his late teens / early 20's

Why do people suffer for no reason?

>>24508365
Maybe not on /lit/, but I go to /vg/ and /r9k/ sometimes and it seems like they are either adults that are mentally stuck at 15 or there are indeed newfag kids joining their ranks.

>>24508397
>The two enemies of human happiness are pain and boredom. - Schopenhauer
Because for most people, boredom follows

>>24508365
>Do young people still go the 4chan?
Not really, I think the last influx was during 2015/16 and it's otherwise the same people who used to be here since early 2010's or earlier.
It also explains the behavior here.
People who used to be lonely young losers but with still a glimmer of hope 15yrs ago would let off steam by being edgy and witty on 4chan.
But now they've grown older and have become genuinely bitter and unhinged, which is why everyone's so hostile and will reply with 'kys' and profanity even to the most innocuous reply.
You can't tell a nigga nothing nowadays and he'll lash out at you.

>>24508414
no a bunch of new ppl definitely came on /lit/ there were never these lame genreslop generals before, sffg general, grrm general, worldbuilding general? get this shit out of here, this board is completely taken over by plebs now

>>24508417
>grrm general
implying these guys aren't all 30+

>this board is completely taken over by plebs now
It's worse everywhere else. this board is the most mature by far, even if it's still garbage.

>>24508419
>implying these guys aren't all 30+
ya i mean game of thrones was relevant in what like 2012? i think that was the last time i heard a normie at working talking about it

>>24508407
Why should boredom be suffering?

>>24508421
oh wow game of thrones was on tv up to 2019! wow mind blown, i guess i stopped hearing about it cuz the white guy with a pony tail at work switched jobs

>>24508365
It's crazy how much literally everywhere online has degraded in just a little under 10 years. 4chan becoming popular amongst zoomers as the "heckin incel / femcel website!!!" + third worlders being given complete unfettered internet access has rendered this place, and everywhere else, borderline unusable

Probably its not for younger people anymore. When I go to /pol/its always the same faggots pushing their insane pettheories about the bible/Hitler nowadays. The general of my country consists mostly of blogposters and a low iq schizo spammer. It reminds me of other imageboards were at some point only the completely insane but dedicated people remained at the end.

>>24508444
Meant for >>24508414

Year 2021
My girlfriend has left, and I can't contemplate any future without her. I jump out the window of my uni dorm. I fall down the building and plummet. I close my eyes and crash down there, hammered like a sack of meat against the pavement. Something hot runs around me and I can't stop gargling.
I wake up in my bed on the next day, sweaty. My heart racing hard. The memory is muddy, and while I am at this point unsure if it was a dream or not. I do remember my stomach heaving and the very real sensation of meeting ground.

Year 2022
I wanted to see water, but it did nothing for my melancholy. It is strangely comforting to know this is all going to end. I take a deep breath and plummet down the rocky cliff, right next to my uni dorm.
I wake up shortly after in my bed. It is raining outside. The rain is torrential. My mother calls. She wants to see me. I do not respond.

Year 2023
I meet a blondie who wants to die. We hang out, eat pizzas, watch shrek movies. I tell her that no matter what she is going to do, something will prevent her from dying. I tell her that some forces beyond comprehension are calling these kind of shots. She does not believe me, but does not say anything.
A few months after, she overdoses on pills. I was not around. I receive a call from one of her friends, who got worried and entered her open apartment. She gets saved. I visit her with croissants at the psych ward. She's drugged out of her mind, but is happy I'm here. She is allowed to take a cigarette outside. I look down from the sky and see her smiling at me.
She moved cities afterwards. We did not keep contact.

Same year of 2023
I tell my mother that I would have already killed myself if I could. She snorts. I decide from that point on to never tell her my feelings again.

Year of 2024
My mother laughs and asks me jokingly if I still want to die. She is the only one to smile in the room. I do not respond.

Year of 2025
My mother calls and asks me why I don't want to talk to her anymore.
I don't talk to anyone about my tendencies. No matter what happens, it never seems to be my day.
There is something in the air that I can feel. I feel the urge to get closer to God and even pray sometimes. I don't know what kind of fate awaits me; I don't want to escape by death anymore.

All my life my brain has been locked in the mental equivalent of "I have no mouth and I must scream". Endless turbulent emotion and broken monologue, but not a single thought that can amount to anything cohesive, constructive, useful or even indicative of some kind of personality. No amount of fictional and non-fictional experience has changed this. Even writing this required revising and use of a tone that is too formal, and still doesn't convey the severity of my inability. I wish I wasn't subhuman.

>>24508462
>My girlfriend
stopped reading right there, take ur normie problems to instagram

and they rode on

>>24508468

>>24507213 (OP)
I should really add all of my unread books to my Goodreads TBR.

If you had the opportunity to say something to the whole world (everyone would understand, all technicalities taken care of), what would you say?

I admit, I would probably say something a bit cheesy like "This world is a beautiful place. Look outside your window, talk to your friends, notice how the air feels on your skin." I would want to say something nice and hopeful, to maybe make the earth a bit happier for a moment.

Or maybe I'd read a passage from one of my favorite books.

i was just watching a crazy ass brawl on twitter where a bunch of urban youths are beating each others asses including bodyslams on the pavement and baseball bats and the whole time there's an ice cream truck playing that fucking ice cream truck music in the background i'm like holy shit those fucking ice cream trucks never stop my god then i notice it's in my city and i'm like ohh well ya of course it woudl be fucking asshole ice cream trucks.

>>24508545
I'd be curious to see how many people would kill themselves if I told them to.

>>24508552
Would you just say a plain "kill yourself" or would you try to conduct a reasoning that would convince the most amount of people?

fucking can't get a job or a girlfriend in this shithole
if it will keep on happening I'll off myself

Woke up to my girlfriend getting ready for work, I kissed her goodbye and put a T-shirt over my eyes to block out the light and fell back asleep. Woke up again at 10:30 to friend calling me, he is moving out of one student house share and into a flat across the road from me with another good friend of mine who has been studying abroad for a year. Got up, gulped down my Methadone and heard my flat buzz. He arrived throwing up and shitting from borderline heatstroke as he is hungover and has been moving half his stuff into another friends place as he doesn't get his new keys until tomorrow. I give him iced water and chocolate and he rests for a bit while we watch the new Sam Hyde show episode on Boomers and I briefly smoke my a pipeful of Peterson's Nightcap. I then shower, and once dry and dressed I begin helping him unload stuff into my flat. Once its done we head back to his house to fill up the last car-full and its hot work in 30c heat. I help defrost his freezer and clean it out while he cleans his bedroom. Once done he leaves me outside with his antique wooden tall lamp, office chair, and desk that we are to lash to the roof of his car while he takes the keys back to the estate agent. While he is gone I sit in the office chair and read my newly bought copy of Suttree, as I finished Blood Meridian a few days prior. A paki drug dealer pulls up on me as they often do in these Student areas and runs over the plug of the lamp, popping it with a crack and bang. He and his girlfriend apologise before asking me the usual "do you smoke weed bro" I reply with the usual "no" and he ripostes "sniff ket, coke?" I say "not anymore mate" but before I can finish speaking, his business card his been thrust into my hand and away he flies. My friend returns to the bad news and shrugs it off stating that he'll just rewire the plug. He has brought Twister Mini Ice lollies and we share the box while lashing the remaining furniture to the roof. We set off back up to my flat so he can drop me off at mine. He plans to leave the rest of the stuff in and on the car while he stays on the sofa of another friend in a quiet cul de sac where he thinks it unlikely his car will be robbed of his furniture. I have now returned home and read next to the fan for a bit, am now doing some 4chan lurking/posting and I intend to play some Dragon Quest I on my SNES and CRT until my girlfriend is back and we'll cook dinner, watch the Sopranos and have a hot sweaty shag.

>>24508388
>>24508405
I'm not on r9k now but I do remember what it was like 10 years ago and I don't think I would hang around that now.

>>24508414
See I remember 4chan always being very aggressive and edgy. I actually think it's been less that way because the userbase has gotten older. Age mellows you out. Both the incel and the anon that became normie.
>>24508426
Third worlders really do drag down the quality. Replacement by browns in the country is often talked about but the online space is even further along. Imagine an internet dominated by Indians, Africans and Asians (not japanese)
Nightmare

How do you guys feel about the year 2018? Good or bad? Fairly detailed responses please

I want to exist under the sun. I really do.

>>24507213 (OP)
I'm a Christian and I pray and I don't feel God listens. Intellectually I know that God loves me but I don't feel it. I don't feel that he is with me. I see no hope for myself. I see no hope for the world. Everyday little children are raped and butchered by the same people who tell us what to do. The Devil gets to do what he wants only because God allows it. Any bad thing that happens is because God gives permission for it to be so. I'm sick of all the suffering. This is like a jail. Where is God? Why doesn't he say something? Why does it have to keep on going? It's been 2000 years. Fucking end it already. Make it all stop. End it

>>24508684
For me personally it was fine but as a whole I think it sucked.
Woke (hate that word) was still going strong, news was all about drumpf.
I can't even think of anything interesting that happened that year, Me Too happened I guess.
But overall it was just more of the same, except worse. Housing crisis got worse, Immigration worse etc etc.
In media it was all Marvel stuff as well. K-pop got huge.

Nope, not a good year. Unironically I prefer the covid years to that, by a lot.

>>24508684
it wasn't bad, I think I was mostly jobless that year, fired one time, but it wasn't a bad year I think

>>24508545
Democracy doesn't work, death to liberalism, death to the united states of america

>>24507894
Loss, writing and the passage of time. There are other themes but these are the main ones. Bolaño said it was a love letter to his generation and you can really feel it while reading.

time to get lit lit lit

>>24508703
I don't think anyone ever answers. I've been pleading to the devil to come and meet me (or anyone really (I just chose the devil because the other one doesn't fancy appearing himself much) and I never encountered anything out of the ordinary. Only transexual prostitutes, drunkards, stray dogs, cats.
I'm kind of bitter about it.

>>24508684
IIRC I was homeless for a good bit of it, as in couch-surfing. Was fun though.

>>24508557
No, I'd just say kill yourself. If it's just a voice that everyone will hear in their heads, that's bound to set a few people off.

how'd it get so big?

>>24508849
Blood

Random memory bomb: was working in a restaurant as a waiter/server, and I was dropping off this liquor drink to a table of a guy and his baby in a booster seat, and I think I put the glass kinda in the middle of the table, too close to the baby, and the guy said something like "whoa, don't put alcohol in front of my kid like that" and I thought he was joking so I laughed and walked away. The dude ended up complaining to my manager! That baby was too young to do anything for itself, much less drink a shot! Argh! Luckily my manager was cool and knew I had a nervous laugh and didn't mind, but still.

>>24508911
Small kids grab things. The problem isn't the alcohol, he'd probably been reamed out by his baby momma for doing the same thing because she saw a glass bottle near the baby, and the guy got it mixed up. Same thing with teapots or hot dishes or cutlery, do not ever put them near the baby.

>>24508919
It was a baby that couldn't do anything for itself! I wouldn't have done it if it was even a toddler that was reaching around and doing things. But fair enough, fair enough, you're right.

>Chinese lady from the casino called me a vampire in Chinese
You have no idea how many life ambitions this has fulfilled for me

>>24508920
They have an instinct to grab anything they touch, and they only lose it once they get into the stage where they want to grab shit out of curiosity.
It's why newborns will death grip your fingers

>>24508920
Also, once they get something in their hands, their fave way to work out what it might be is to put it in their mouth. Babies are just tiny dangerous retards, it's why their parents are always exhausted and on edge

seems like a schism is occurring in the nazi community.

You are either a first worldist, pro america (pro israel) neo nazi

or third worldist, lets work with muslims and commies who are anti israel nazi

>>24508929
>>24508940
You were the guy, weren't you? I kid, Nah, you right.

>>24508942
Nah, i'm too retarded to be in charge of another retard, I just don't want bad shit to happen to my fellow retards

literally sitting here and crying
everything is so depressing atm

>>24508941
>Anon doesn't know second world is commies

>>24508941
First one is my minus the Stalinism

>>24508941
First one is me minus the Stalinism

Told this girl that I've been getting sexual with over text that there are some days when I just don't feel like masturbating, even when I look at her nudes (I did tell her that they always turn me on when I look at them and that her body is very attractive) but she's convinced herself that me not wanting to masturbate every single time I see her nudes means she's not attractive and that I don't find her attractive. She's on her period, so that might be playing a part, but damn, man.

Someone come over and make me some eggs, please, I'm feeling lazy but I'm starving.

>>24508966
Why would you tell her that... fake it and lie and flatter, everyone knows that.
>Oh yeah, I can't keep my hands off myself when I see your pics, babe

>>24508979
I don't lie. I'm honest to a fault.

>>24508986
lol you remind me of this one ex I had that would constantly say, "Y'know, you're by far the most attractive guy I've ever been with/dated," and I would just say "thanks :)" and move on, because she, as much as I liked her, was not close to the same for me.

But in hindsight, I probably should have said it, haha.

>>24508992
I wish a girl said that to me. I wouldn't be able to handle it. I'm not good with compliments

>>24509004
Wish I could let you and other anons borrow my looks for a couple nights. Don't worry, some girl will look deep into your eyes and say that one day, I know it :)

the futility of everything

i'm j-j-just tryna' get based

>>24509008
Eh. I wouldn't want to be anything but myself.

I was talking to this girl online and she said I'd make a good boyfriend, but I was lying to her the whole time. Then I said goodbye before shutting the computer off and went to bed.

>>24509049
Begging zoomers to stop e-dating.
What a waste of time

Can someone help me? I was watching a TV show and the characters started quoting some Yeats, and one of the quotes was,
>Sometimes my feet are tired and my hands are quiet, but there is no quiet in my heart.
And I googled it and I found the same quote on Goodreads, but I can't find what poem it's actually from. And Google's AI overview suggests it's not even from a poem at all!
>The phrase "but there is no quiet in my heart" is not a direct quote from any specific Yeats poem, but it echoes sentiments found in his work, particularly in poems that explore themes of unrest, passion, and the contrast between external peace and internal turmoil. Several sites on the internet have used this phrase, attributing it to Yeats, likely inspired by his poems where such contrasts are prominent.
Whaaaaat!?

But we all know these things are prone to hallucinating, so, uh, can someone help me find the source of this quote? Is it even real!? please and thank you

oh sick apple music just dropped an all time replay mix

>>24509012
> A wildly anarchic satire of urban guerrilla warfare in which a band of leftist radicals inadvertently become puppets of the West German government, which uses them to justify its authoritarian policies.

lmao sounds based

>>24509069
The frame I posted is better than the film itself, but it's still enjoyable and worth watching if you're into that era of satirical arthouse films.

>>24509059
NTA but I have zero interest in women from my country, so I've got no other option.

the cloak the boat the shoes

wagging tongues of watches as their mechanisms sort the hours

China can hurt America badly by simply disrupting the flow of meds. Imagine all those people who got hooked to Xanax, Adderall, prozac, etc. going cold turkey?

and of course the wagging tongues of talkers prance also

>>24509080
What cunt tree?

>>24509086
they're already pinching us on rare earths, but when trump tried to get alternatives via ukraine and greenland democrats had a melty

My body's hunger forces me to eat; it creates desires it is unable to fulfill; it produces a smile on my face that is not a reflection of my emotions; it sheds tears for a sadness I do not feel. This body is not me; it is merely a disobedient dog that I am forced to take care of, but I am unable to cut the leash without ending myself.

hit 'em with a bang bang, a schwing schwing, a shanghai.

>>24509086
Those are from China? They are getting revenge for the Opium Wars with all the fentanyl they're selling to the cartels which makes its way into the US.

>>24509090
Australia.

Imagine living in Australia and thinking there's no decent women around.
What other place do you think has better women?

>>24508966
>>24508986
There is a difference between being honest and saying everything that is on your mind. Did she ask you to masturbate at a specific time? Why was it even something you talked about?

>>24509111
>decent australian women
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jCxgUPFVFkA

I exist in perpetual motion; from one grinning interaction to another, the rolodex of minituae regarding the people I know flicking endlessly.
I know peace only in the dead of night, when my brain screams for solitude and I indulge it with glowing screens and repeating notes.
I wake from too-little sleep and go again, same clothes, same morning routine, same bus with the same driver.

>>24509112
She said that when I masturbate tomorrow she wants me to do it to the stuff she's sent me. I told her that if I feel like masturbating, I will. She took that as her body not being enough to make me want to masturbate every time I see it. I tried to explain but nothing worked.

>>24509117
Not bad. A little more work and it could be very good.

>>24509115
Ah yeah, women are all like that nowadays

>>24509111
Any East Asian country. Australian women are loud, brash, in your face, and they hit the wall REALLY quickly. And I'm not saying that all women from those countries are perfect angels and that none of them are like that, that obviously wouldn't be true, but a vast majority of them aren't. And it's not even just a personality thing, I'm not one of those weird white guys that are like "Oh my god, I like Japanese women because they're so quiet, and kawaii, and submissive" That shit is gross, I just think that Asian women are very attractive.

How do I start cultivating my thoughts?
I feel like an NPC because I don't seem to have thoughts.

I just don't know what to do with my hair anymore. Thinking about taking a picture and posting it on /r/looksmaxingAdvice for, well, advice.

Also, on that note, is it just me, or as a result of social media, is like every young girl nowadays looksmaxxed? They literally all look so perfectly tailored and groomed, it's insane.

>>24509128
But you'll have slanty eyed kids!
I'd aim more for the mestizo women. They can be traditional as well and the kids will come out looking (semi) european.

>>24509134
i saw this crew of young dudes coming back from pride in nyc and they were out of shape and had scruffy almost beards, i was staring at them with disdain as they walked by and its like it's not cuz i'm homophobic it's cuz u look bad holy shit hit the gym and shave that shit offff what the hell, gay dudes in the city are all ripped and groomed to a tee, that little crew must have been from the burbs

>>24509137
Right. Like I fortunately have a very attractive face which carries me, but man, if I could find the right hair style, it'd take me to another level.

>>24509139
I'm a norwood 2 vertex

>>24509136
I don't give a shit what my kids look like (I mean, I'd prefer them to not be ugly, since everybody knows that pretty privilege is a real thing.) Also, I don't dream of a traditional household. I don't want to be the only one working and bringing in money, I'd have to work so much harder in that case. If you want a nice house and a fancy ring, you better go get a job, too.

>>24509145
o-oh, I see.

The girl with megalophobia when I whip it out

>>24509080
>NTA but I have zero interest in women from my country, so I've got no other option.
same but town

I'm not even gonna brush my teeth tonight. I'm so tired. I'm just gonna piss, wash my hands, and jump in bed.

At the new mall, airing King Kong,
I beat Kim Jong, at ping pong.

I always end up saying "notice me, senpai."

I'm on the verge of suicide I swear
I wasn't made for this world and id be better off dead
I swear I can't take it anymore

>>24509234
Can I have your money first? But nah, as someone who plans on calling it a day at 40, at least give it some more time, anon. You've still got time to turn things around, see things in a new light, become inspired.

>>24509234
Man has two options when an idea pops up in his head. Act upon it or write it down, you already made that choice

>>24509105
It's not fentanyl, it's fentanyl precursors which the Mexican organizations (Sinaloa Cartel mostly iirc) prepare into fentanyl inside Mexico. And to be frank the chinks could just sell it directly to Americans and have the production happen domestically. But the Cartels won't let them. Being principally logistics rackets and all that. Everything else is secondary to drug logistics. Though they also do slavery.

>>24509152
Having two working parents is ass though. I had it for about 2 months and I'm happy to be the only one making money. It just brings confusion. Who's cooking? Your modern wife won't want to do that. Cleaning will take a backseat since she'll be tired and that means she'll be more annoyed as well.
Meanwhile my wife does all the cleaning and cooking. If I help out by cooking one day or doing the dishes it's all extra and appreciated.
Not to mention she can just stay home with the kid instead of dropping him off to get tossed around by some black woman

>>24509246
>Organizations such as the Sinaloa Cartel and Cartel Jalisco Nueva Generación receive fentanyl precursors from China that are then synthesized within clandestine laboratories into finished fentanyl at scale. China-based precursor chemical manufacturers ship precursors from mainland China by, among other methods, mislabeling the products being shipped and using containers and other packaging to mask their illicit contents.

hmm tru

https://www.justice.gov/archives/opa/file/1318011/dl

>>24509261
CJNG has territory in China according to Wikipedia.

>>24509274
Probably just contacts and maybe a token group in some port. The China side of the fent trade is obscure as fuck.

ME AND MY FUCKING GUN

>>24507213 (OP)
I couldn't find your thread because I searched for "thoughts." Please consider this in the future

Gf is pestering me about getting a job and working on my career etc. Frankly its a bit annoying.

POV: you just made an effortpost on my board

>>24509433
tfw no gf

>>24509433
What is it with loved ones and not wanting to see you homeless and broke? Like Jesus just leave me to rot

>>24509194
same but universe

>>24509080
You're projecting self-loathing onto your countrymen and this self-loathing will affect every relationship you get into, e- or IRL

>>24509447
Of course she means well. I just dont fucking know what to do.

>>24509446

What is it even like being with a women. I just cannot fathom the experience.

>>24509137
>got a sniffle so decided to skip pride
maybe I'll see you next year

Meow. I'm a cat.

>>24509134
Minox , fin, keto shampoo

>>24509470
I haven't read Natsume Sōseki's book yet but I'm looking forward to it. I'll be reading a French translation and look forward to reading the original Japanese once I've learned Japanese.

>>24509464
yeah, me neither, although I'm not a v.

You know what I hate more than cancer? That's right: rorks. I fucking hate rorks. We all do. Genocide all rorks you see, remember that. Dead rorks!

>>24509470
https://youtu.be/CY7t8ow2gOM?si=FST1sEQaj_xFg0Ry

I wear my penis on my sleeve.

For once I'm happy it's windy af where I live because it helps mitigate the heat. 91F becomes more manageable when you have the wind to cool you down lol, especially since I'm wearing a beanie so my hair doesn't go flying all over the place, which is normally a bad pairing in the heat.

>>24508480
topkek. Which book?

Delouse my brain.

>debating an anon
>they respond with a bunch of greentexts picking apart my post sentence-by-sentence
Debate dropped. This is exclusively used as a device to avoid confronting the post's main idea.

Major milestone: pissed my bed at 26 years old.

>>24509723
yeah fuck that shit even when it's not a debate i'm not trying follow a bunch of microthreads

>>24509728
so which extremist ideology do you subscribe to?

>>24509736
nta but I pissed my bed even in college due to the combination of a medically small bladder and autism strong enough to make me ignore my body's peeing signals; I've only stopped wetting the bed because of my bladder getting stronger over time and still wake up absolutely bursting.
for me it's proto-Christian libertarian-economic fascism
>>24509470

I get it now. Trump is the Mule. Trump is an individual that nobody predicted, that nobody can control. The Mule can manipulate everyone's emotions. The Mule plays with you as it plays with everyone else. The Mule's purpose is to disrupt, to destroy, even if he himself is not aware of it. The Mule is the lighting that strikes The Tower and destroys it, sending its dwellers into chaos. There is an almost providential characteristic to the Mule. Trump is protected by providence itself, as if his existence is necessary for the cosmos.

>>24509800
Who am I?

>>24509813
i get it now john gotti is the mule john gotti is an individual that nobody predicted that nobody can control the mule can manipulate everyone s emotions the mule plays with you as it plays with everyone else the mule s purpose is to disrupt to destroy even if he himself is not aware of it the mule is the lighting that strikes the tower and destroys it sending its dwellers into chaos there is an almost providential characteristic to the mule john gotti is protected by providence itself as if his existence is necessary for the cosmos

>>24509728
I once pissed my pants when I was walking home drunk. I stood in front of my door and fumbled the keys and then couldnt control it any longer. Granted i drank a shitload of alcohol that night.

I felt like shit last night. Yesterday I had been awake since about 3am and sat in the Sun for quite awhile drinking beers with a friend in the afternoon. Started feeling headachey and vaguely naseous. Then later as I was falling asleep I was listening to The Great God Pan by Arthur Machen and despite how awful I felt, it was pretty comfy nonetheless. I feel great today tho thank God.

>>24509065
>https://gutenberg.org/cache/epub/49611/pg49611-images.html
>OLD WOMAN.
>Sometimes my feet are tired and my hands are quiet, but there is no quiet in my heart. When the people see me quiet, they think old age has come on me and that all the stir has gone out of me. But when the trouble is on me I must be talking to my friends.
You're welcome.

I now understand how incest can happen between brother and sister.

>>24509900
Much appreciated :) I guess that's what I get for having never read any of his plays, even though they make up a modest amount of his repertoire. if you ever find yourself in Portland, OR, I'll buy you a cup of coffee or pink lemonade (on the walk home from the bus, I passed a classic kid's lemonade stand at the park -- $2 for a medium cup worth! but I like to support the kids) to show my thanks

The audacity and entitlement of boomers can never be overstated. They grew up in probably the best time to be alive in the US, at least top 5 empires of all time, you lived a good long life as a lawyer that advocates for things that hoards wealth from the youth, and with supporting your antisocial version of bootstraps culture because your dad fought in WWII and is simply an invincible man to you, and since your life is coming to a close anyway, as a final fuck you to the future you don't plan on inheriting or have ever meaningfully contributed to, you just casually get out of your car to kill people upset about mining operations destroying the environment, you oppress the kind of energy that wants to truly improve a government that actually represents the will of most people (because today it is insulated in the billionaire bubble). The more I think about the psychology of this man the more hateful it makes me. Whether through theatric bureaucratic voting, AI, or dictatorial mass psychosis, representing the people's will is what a government strives to do. This lump of shit was fed lies by the up and coming billionaires directly into his lumpy lead pissed brain.

Checked out Murakami's Wind/Pinball and man, already almost all of his tropes are there lol. The only thing missing is the magical realism/supernatural elements and uncanniness, but the rest is all there. Still, I'm enjoying it. There is one issue I have with it though and it's one I have with every Murakami novel I've read: women like this don't exist, they don't act this way! Anyway...

On second thought I did order a copy of The Great God Pan, and I'm only 2 chapters into it, so Imma put down the audiobook and wait for my physical copy to come. I realized I had listened to over an entire chapter while passed tf out without even noticing.

Gender relation arguments are weird. It's always putting around the inherent differences between men and women everyone knows obviously exists while pretending they don't. All sides of the debates do this. The dissonance of living in a society where you have to obviously know about those difference and act on it while simultaneously pretending you don't know and selectively not acting on it brings so much retarded tension.

>>24510082
While I feel you, I think recent generations often forget what 'work' means, what it literally represents, and that is the ability to make a living, to sustain oneself, to keep one's family alive, and to further one's pursuits of the good life. So, blocking someone's capacity to make it to work is putting yourself in opposition to all of that, and that's why some, especially boomers, become what may seem irrationally angry. Suppose someone living paycheck to paycheck ends up getting fired because they're late as a result of the protests? They lose their apartment, now they're on the street with nowhere to put their possessions and food, so they lose all of that too, and that's without them having kids. My point is it's more complex. So when people choose jobs over the environment, it's not always as simple as 'le greedy rich people,' it's also regular people trying to survive too.

That said, clearly that guy wasn't living paycheck to paycheck, so his crisis was entirely symbolic rather than actual, so yes, what an abhorrent human being, but I get why a lot of people react to highway blockers with what might seem an excessive hostility.

I need to find my own style. I hate current fashion but I don't want to dress like a boring old guy either. I want something that screams this guy will kill himself at 35, something disinherited aristocrat, something tragically romantic, a doomed dandy if you want

>>24510115
>someone living paycheck to paycheck ends up getting fired because they're late as a result of the protests
That is something boomers do. If getting to work is made impossible because the ground splits open and now there's a great crevasse between you and your building, a boomer is more likely going to fire you for not being the great individual his dad was. Protesters aren't perfect moral beings though I mean if these protesters stopped a bunch of doctors from getting to the hospital where my son is about to die and if it weren't for the hold up then he'd get to live I'd hate them for it. It's a rude way of getting your voice heard maybe getting shot made it louder to the people who think they have to get exploited for a living.

>>24510110
No one says there are no differences between men and women. The question is about inferior treatment and separate rights and disparate social roles.

>>24510135
It's called a cravat

>>24508925
Do you look like Alucard or Nosferatu?

>>24510196
>inferior treatment and separate rights and disparate social roles.
These debates are constantly approached from an angle of not knowing or pretending not to know why or how the inherent differences of sexes ground it. People will acknowledge the biological points and how they lead to innate behaviors, roles, and expectations, but then fiercely debate and flip flop depending on if they feel a certain part of it is advantageous.

>>24510226
No, Chinese vampires are different, but they tend to share the skin tone of Kurt Barlow

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p2RW8HWNY8M

I'm finished.

>>24510460
I'm Brazilian

Getting bored with me current book.

>>24507213 (OP)
I should spend more time in /film/

I have an innie.

>>24510639

>>24510649
Don't lick it.

Whenever I enter a room, all the cockroaches run away. They don't like me :(

OP here. Let's be real, gen z (and even millennial) women are basically cultural parasites. They don't discover music; they inherit it from their exes and secretly enjoy rap songs about fucking and sucking BBC. That's just how it is. Do you honestly think they dig through music for quality? Of course not. Culture? Music? That's background noise to them. What really matters to them is money, drama, blacking out at parties, dating rich guys and eventually cheating on them with some random nig. Facts. So when someone asks if women genuinely have good taste in music, the answer's obvious... it's just a phase.

My dreams are just my past anxieties. They don't predict anything.

>tfw i will never live in a small i down soviet apartment bloc with a slav qt

>tfw i will never live in a rundown soviet apartment bloc with a slav qt

Yup, turns out my theory was right, haven't shit for almost 6 days (last Wednesday) and now the constant anxiety is back. Note to self: try and shit at least every 4 days from now on. Just took a laxative, hopefully I can get something out before I have my appointment in the morning.

>>24507899
wild, how often did you masturbate tho

What is it, like what exactly exactly is it, that makes a man and woman gravitate to each other?

I'm autistic and I wonder about this often. What's stopping a man from living his entire life with just his bros or a girl with her sisters? Is it just the potential of sex? Is it a societal expectation? is it some hormone shit?

>>24510838
I could go on about the outcomes, but I'm sure you're already aware of those. It starts sooner than that. It's more like the way you feel when you're starving and look at food, pure magnetic attraction, chemical processes telling your body and mind to go after something and possess it.

My /lit/ confession. I commonly make threads about the same 2 books and argue with myself in them. This is because I am genuinely obsessed with the topics discussed in the books and have been oscillating between different viewpoints for my whole adult life. I’m unable to come to a conclusion about the ideas discussed in those books, few people today are, which is why I constantly invite discussion about them on here to help further a consensus about what our future in society will be.

>>24510932
schizophrenically based

Any and all art obsession is praiseworthy

There's something interesting to be said about the symbolic connection between technological dysfunction and impotence, but I can't quite piece it together yet...

>>24510832
trvth nvke. Constipation and being full also makes me anxious. I've been constipated for all my life so when I started eating two kiwis with each lunch it was life changing

>>24510977
>so when I started eating two kiwis with each lunch it was life changing
??

That helps? I've started taking a daily stool softener with the laxative for when I actually want to go, and it's been working, but I don't like the idea of not being able to go naturally without the use of meds.

>>24510981
Of course it helps, anon, kiwis are full of fiber

>>24510992
Interesting, I'll pick some up next time I'm at the store. How do you eat them? Just straight-up?

>>24510996
I scoop them with a spoon. Some people also eat the skin, specially of the kiwi gold (yellow kiwi) variety. If you don't like kiwi you can eat other fruits or vegetables high in fiber

>>24507217
It's almost 4M, neutrally cool indoors, and I'm listening to this for about the 30th time since about 2006.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QA19NDIfXaQ

>>24510801
My dreams tend to the scenic, and are pretty spectacular when it comes to architecture. Sometimes I wake with amazing music playing in my head.

>>24511043
I suppose they get most elaborate in places like malls, industrial complexes, and high-rise hotels.

>>24511043
Same, I dream of huge cathedrals, of kilometric waterfalls, of organic beautiful cities, of strange towns, of abandoned factories with overgrown vegetation.

Another common theme in my dreams is running away from someone, mowt often the police. I'm always running away from authority in my dreams, for me, it is somehow amusing.

If every aspiring writer on /lit/ bought each other's books, we'd all be successful! :D

>>24507213 (OP)
>send poems to a bunch of publishers I found online, a pure act of desperation
>four days later, one of them answer me
>they are enthusiastic about it, that's nice
>their email ends with them asking me to pay 1500 euros to get published
What the fuck is up with these fucking scammers? Fucking self publishing seems less costly.

Lamb offal sandwich for dinner

For fuck's sake, the one time I let a spider I see on my bedroom ceiling live and go about its life, not 30 minutes later my worst fear comes true and it ends up crawling on my arm. Luckily it crawled downward so smashing it with my other hand was easy, but come on! What if it had been poisonous and bit me! I could be in real trouble right now.

>>24511132
Damn, sorry, anon. Are these just random publishers you had never even heard of before? I would just stick to the reputable and serious ones.

>>24510832
Nigga just eat more fiber i.e fruits and veggies. And if you can handle a little spice that helps with the digestion as well.

>>24511179
Well, naturally I used to only go #2 every 3-4 days, and now I take a daily med that gives me constipation, so you do the math. I talked to the doctor at the clinic last time I was there and he said ideally, a person should be going as often as you eat meals! I told him that's insanity! More like 1x for every 20 meals for me, haha.

>What we need is not a hermeneutics but an erotics of art ---- Susan Sontag
lifechanging quote

>>24510836
I'd say about 2-3 times a week, and nothing too weird like autoasphyxiation or death grip shit. Just normal jacking off.

Maybe that's why I didn't pick up on it being a problem earlier -- it's relative infrequency and normalcy in execution.

Update to this is that I've completely stopped looking at cuck/hotwife porn, and only used my imagination or at most my gf's pics to masturbate. And my mind is much more sound, much more grounded. I'm so glad. You truly are what you consume.

>>24511265
How can one person produce literally only garbage? I was reading an new introduction to a book I've read a billion times before and thought
>What the fuck is this retarded bullshit
Only to see the name Susan Sontag at the end of the introduction.

>>24511294
What book? And idk I like her essays

I'm tired but I don't want to sleep because I think I'll have another nightmare. Frequently having nightmares is a terrible experience, you suffer if you stay awake but you suffer if you sleep. I'm always reminded of some terrible or embarrassing past event whenever I dream. Dreaming has actively made me a worse person. I didn't have a rape fetish until I had a couple of wet dreams where I molested women out in the woods. They told me years ago before I first started regularly doing nofap that it would keep me from developing weird fetishes and give me a healthy outlook on relationships and sex. Before I did nofap I masturbated exclusively to vanilla porn. It was only when I started abstaining from porn did I start having dreams and later fantasies of sexually assaulting women. I wish I could be blessed with knowledge in my dreams like some people are. I wish my dreams could be mystical and enlightening. Instead my dreams only put me back in the same spergy embarrassing situations I try so hard to forget, or conjure some grotesque terror, or turn me into a monster. Sometimes when I'm awake I can't tell if I'm dreaming or not. I used to disassociate a lot and I had another disassociative episode not too long ago. I kept pinching myself and counting my fingers to make sure I wasn't dreaming because I've read that you can't feel pain in your dreams and your hands look weird when dreaming. I'm tired of being awake but I'm also tired of going to sleep. I wish everything in my life would just go perfect for once.

>>24511306
Good writing. Your misery is our art. So at least you have that going for you. I hope you find happiness, peace, and comfort in your life some day, anon.

>>24508545
>what would you say?
linnnngannnn gule gule gule watcha linganguuuuu linganguuuuuu

>>24507899
Why cant people stick with cute girl + big bobs? I never needed to see weird fethises or kinks or whatever the fuck.

>>24511147
I tried both. I’ve never heard of this publisher though so I can’t be really surprised.

Today marks the three hundredth day since I was released from jail and life ever since has been serene and hollow and I have abandoned all my friends for reason I can name and I move between gratitude for this small death and nausea at the waste of time. I have lived vividly before and I have contracted venereal diseases that have been blessings for they have delivered a similar function to castration. On certain days in winter as it is now I wake and I spend the whole day in bed with my big book and little book and speaker and the music I play is solemn or luminescent in turn and I go outside from time to time to smoke or to take a shit. Beside my bed I keep a bottle of vyvanse and this is illegal in my country and no one knows I take it. Some days I take seventy or thirty or fifteen milligrams and some days I take none. Outside I hear voices and sirens and chainsaws but I have no part in the procession of life that marches blindly towards its random outcome or ordained destination. Some days I lie in bed at night and all my tiredness leaves me and I dream of an incarnation in which I am not born a coward. I have a strong mind but a weak memory. I worship men I have never met and I have never met another as ambitious as me. I long not for death but for annihilation of the degree that only rare individuals in history have ever achieved. If things remain as they are I intend to ordain at a Burmese monastery at the age of thirty or kill myself in a beautiful and clean manner such as fire.

opinions on Limp Bizkit?

>>24511382
we don't get their type of raw masculine expression these days

>>24511179
eat zero fibre

How long is left till I snap

Is it just me or is the word "esoteric" becoming opposite of its definition. I'm starting to see everywhere I got on the internet. Its becoming a buzzword in my eyes which is polar opposite of what it means.

>>24511599
everything gets distorted these days I think

I feel like i've given myself brain damage due to stress, chronic illness, and working absurdly long soul crushing retail shifts.
I used to be articulate, creative, and intelligent and now of the last 6 or so years I am strangled by a persistent brainfog. I can barely hold a coherent thought and can barely read and think . I've shut myself off from everyone because of this. I am exhausted by everything and I feel like a drained husk hald the man I used to be and could have been. I often wonder if I some how managed to give myself brain damage

My injured toe smells like a dead animal and half the nail wants to come off. I just soaked it in some warm salt water and poured some peroxide on it (Yes, I know you shouldn't do that because it can also damage the good cells, but what's the worst it could do at this point?). Let's see what happens.

>>24511628
Supplements for vitamin D3, zinc and B12 should clear your mind.

>>24511628
Don't do >>24511654 until you get a blood test (esp because the zinc and b12 can stop each other's absorption or cause the same symptoms as deficiency in an overdose). And it's always better to fix it with diet, but depending on the chronic illness, anon might be right that you could need supplements

>>24511628
And to add to my devil's advocate trips, a lot of function is a case of you use it or you lose it. Start learning a language and repeating the irregular verbs to yourself at work or take dance classes. Force yourself to be interested in talking to someone at the bus stop and think about what they say.

>>24511653
>Me telling anon about nail bed damage weeks ago
Uhhuh

>>24509008
Dude you talked to her, you must not have that good looks.

Meawhile I've been on some MILF's radar; never really talked to her, we just happen to walk our dogs in the park.

She fell in love I think (can tell by the way she looks at me).
Now the thing is I haven't been to that park in month. Last week I went back, and surely I ran accross da MILF with her cuck husband. Deep resentment, that's what I saw in her eyes.

>>24511682
Oh, you remember, cool. Well, I drained the blood from it, and it doesn't hurt or produce stinky liquid anymore, but like I said, half of it wants to come off and it's a little smelly.

>>24511306
>Last dream I had was about not being able to find my room number in a hotel with bizarre architecture run by potential communist witches
Does this count as being blessed with knowledge?

>>24509464
I am asexual now. That's how it's like.

>>24511712
asexuals don't exist

>>24511697
Seriously you need to protect it from further damage (lambs wool) and probably see a podiatrist (they can make a shield for it if they need to or otherwise limit further damage) It being infected is obviously not good for other reasons like you can get septicemia. Pls stop being retarded

>>24511715
Exactly. I turned down every offer I've had since then. Also I want to kill 10:1 or even 100:1 (eros/thanos pulsions ratio). As I was digging a hole for my cat this morning I felt the urge. When I poured the cat into the tomb with my parents, they were crying. I felt nothing. Head crushed by the garage door.

>>24511666
>because the zinc and b12 can stop each other's absorption
Where did you get this info from? I know zinc and copper can have strange intereactions but I can not see where b12 and zinc supplements can interfere with each other.

>>24511716
I suspect the nail is going to come off. I don't think that the half that is lifted is going to reattach to my nail bed. The cuticle also isn't reattaching to the nail.

>>24507213 (OP)
Talk to me as I am sleeping
Hold me while I'm dreaming
Honestly I could just breathe you in
Met you when my heart was bleeding
I'm constantly feeling
Drifting through an endless reverie

Rate:
There's just something so alluring about the idea of self-defense vs. criminality. On the one hand, it seems like a cut and dry story about a good and innocent, hard-working person defending their life and property from a miscreant trying to take for their own selfish gain. But on the other hand, you have a story of the essence of humanity. It's the story of war that goes back thousands of years, two forces battling against each other, ready to put everything on the line to defend their values. Does it not set your heart aflutter to think of the circumstances of which to turn seemingly normal men into beasts of prey? To turn a normal day laborer, husband or father into a warrior? Or to turn a mere ne'er-do-well mired in banal vices into a ruffian, a pillager of the modern era? To have the red strings of fate gnarled so suddenly, and for the shears to rear its blade so close to the threads?

>>24511737
OK, so the whole nail is nearly off.

>>24511843
Once it's off, I'm going to soak it in warm saltwater, dry it, then wrap a bandage around it. I'm going to go to bed pretty soon, so I'll leave the bandage on overnight.

tfw didn't drink alcohol for about 13 days already

I walk outside and I see hebe cunny! Hebe cunny everywhere! Raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaape!

>>24511871
I don't know why you're doing this, but if it's because you're trying to go sober, good job, you're nearly two weeks in, keep going.

>>24511881
yeah, kinda, I kept having these awful headaches which the alcohol didn't help with at all; I also get them when not drinking but way less often

>>24511898
Proud of you, anon. You should be proud of yourself too. And get those headaches checked out if you haven't already and if you can afford it (don't know where you're from.

>>24511778
typical mutt fantasy.
try to be original next time

>>24511898
just stretch more and you will stop having headaches

i WILL read Gaddis' The Recognitions next without getting distracted by another, easier to read novel like I've done twice now

just burbed

>>24511932
>not farted

>>24511863
I've taken as much off as wants to come off. The rest isn't lifted and is perfectly healthy nail. I'll leave that alone (granted, it's not much, but it's some) and let the nail regrow from that. Gonna soak it for a little bit longer and then wrap it up.

What's the name of that Asian guy with the glasses that /lit/ used to obsess over?

I can't remember and it's bothering the fuck out of me.

>>24511990
nvm got it
waldun

>>24511909
What did I do wrong

I have 2 goals in life. 1) Have a fish n' chips (technically fish n' French fries) dinner, and 2) have a harem of teen girls who love me forever like a brother and a husband.

>>24512051
convert to islam and open a kebab

>>24512051
How teen are we talking here?

thinking of watching a movie

I cannot listen people talk for more than 5 minutes I get really annoying because I don't care about anyone has to say

>>24512073
At least legal in some countries

>>24512099
Very broad spectrum, but I'll let it slide.

>>24512094
I hate external noises for long time in general, not just other voices

>>24512091
Check out, You Were Never Really Here. It's short and awesome.

>>24512113
I've already seen it but thanks, I'm actually looking forward to her new one, looks interesting

>>24512091
Watch Brat (1999)

>>24512165
I'm russian so I think I've seen it quite a few times on tv when I was real young, so I'll watching smth else

>>24512181
Watch Alien (1979)

>>24512181
Hmmmm, check out, Signs (2002).

>>24511733
It's still inconclusive but the likely cause is it blocks methylmalonyl-CoA synthesis, which is why higher homocysteine levels in zinc supplementation too (as folate replaces the role of b12)

Kek
>Be me
>Crossing road
>Technically pedestrian crossing
>Traffic can drive through but they're meant to yield to pedestrians
>They have to take a couple sharp corners and drive between bollards at a snail's pace
>Cross road
>Driver starts yelling
>Eventually turn around
>He wants to yell at me to keep my eyes open
>I did check before crossing because some drivers and bicyclists like to take it at full speed until the last minute on this corner
>This guy didn't indicate
>He's pissed because he tried to drive full speed right in front of a bus
>He's also half out his window to yell at me while driving in pedestrian area
They're always the people they're warning you about. I think he's counting on his car taking down a pedestrian and the idea a bus could take his car easily made him aware there were bigger monsters who have right of way, since you're cutting across their lane on an actual road to drive through crowds

>>24512296
reread this twice and I'm still lost

Basil II the Bulgar Slayer of Eastern Rome vs. Kaloyan the Roman Slayer of Bulgaria

>>24512300
The pedestrian area runs along side the main road. He's trying to pull across lanes of traffic to drive the access route for vehicles marked out within the pedestrian area. If you want to drive in that area you're not the one with the right of way, the pedestrians are. To get to this area, he pulled across the meridian in front of a bus, when the bus was just driving on the road and doesn't have to yield to people who want to drive onto the pedestrian area. He had a moment when he realised he had to slow down to pedestrian speeds after dangerously pulling in front of a bus, and got mad at me about it, because if I wasn't being a pedestrian in the pedestrian area, then he could have gone 50 through the area you need to go 5 or less and been less scared by the bus

>>24507213 (OP)
It's never "In the good actualization society we strive to reuce the world's population to X to guarantee a decent lifestyle for most if not all" it's always "It's absolutely imperative we make everyone live as meagerly as possible so we can raise the planetary carrying capacity to 30,000,000 and feed infinity pointless refuse".
The Good is always actualized by cutting your balls off and subsisting on moss and and a sliver of stream water.

I wish my sadness had a cause.

>get interested in new author/philosopher
>find out what kind of people fanboy for them
>immediately lose all interest
fuck this shit

>>24512508
New

I can't mentally decouple homosexuality from the bourgeoisie. Like of course, working class homos do exist, but they seem like an entirely different breed from the bougie bundles of sticks. Flamboyant, aggressive homosexuality seems like an entirely bourgeois affliction.

>>24512279
ok? regardless if its true or not, you can just take zinc in the morning and b12 before sleep or vice versa.

>met new woman today
>she's cute and our conversation flows well
>start getting all kinds of romantic daydreams
Fuck, fuck, fuck. Being an emotionally starved autismo means flirting with delusion at any positive interaction.

>>24512545
That is not the OP that you are replying to.Thank you forvthe Advice Anon.

SUBOPTIMAL

caducifoliate tree
orchard gnaw teeth bone yard macht create crows bandage
these the words of marriage healthy sane and fine and all other crap dice load shoot dice ashen she dies, she shoots
and in any other and in any other way it does not follow
this is just what I wanted to say when having seen it from afar, life, treacherous cunt she is, she maimed me
but not vulgarities and not ill thoughts sprung from the deep veil of Solomon, or do they?
and the answer is always no a rotound no

this is sadness, the ball and slave, and
there
is no other way to put it
it has grabbedd you and grasped you by its proboscis tail,
it the apex theatre
the predator of gullible men
and you just cant
you cant
cant do anything but touch stare, and try to draw a contour of the border of the world itself, and -- uninspired
you dance away the loads of shit descending rainfall glass so evil to the touch, so sad, so cadaverous corpse, this you know all too well

poems of yore, dreadful bores, you know well the truth
the sign of the sign --

it is the moon what is it

>>24511333
Same when I wank I take the cute girl with nice boobs.

>>24511654
most supplements are entirely chemically produced and have no relationship to the benefits produced by fresh food. you should get your nutrients from diet.