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How do I stop writing? I have better things to do.

kellypearlx

>>24520721 (OP)
The fact that young men have generationally progressed from asukafagdom (putting gum in the hair of your crush bullying due to inability to express feeling) to makimafagdom (literal sociopath who wants you dead) spells the end.

>>24520739
>Finally someone explains the generation wars to me
Thanks anonsama

>>24520731
I wish I had your problem, I'm not writing and I ain't got nothing better to do!

>>24520760
Brother, I hate this. Writing is the most humiliating hyperfixation. I want to be free.

>>24520767
Get published and see if second novel syndrome paralyses you?

>>24520767
I don't understand, how are you not able to stop? Surely you can't be that addicted to an activity which requires such focus, it's not like doing heroin

>>24520772
Nta but Joyce Carole Oates has a kind of epilepsy that forces her to write that many books

kinda enveloped by this summer depression atm

I love Amerikkka.

>>24520772
Brother, trust me you can. The last times it lasted 3 (three (III)) days straight.
>>24520771
I'm not gonna publish it anywhere. That's not even a novel, but a song and I can't sing at all fuck me.

It's just itching my feelings, and the worst part is how many times I repeat it in my head, so I lose track of time. Brothers, I'm not a writer why my brain is so stupid..........

>>24520811
Are you a spastic like Joyce Carole Oates
>>24520777?

>>24520721 (OP)
---- Solaria ----
100024
Montaigne

All modes and means of ecstasy are self-defeating,

Vary as they do by some
Weird multiple

None can discover without the knack for reflection

On one's own physique,

What suits it in terms of conditions
Loosely characterized.

>>24520828
No, I just have big imagination and poor mental health, nothing special.

I will leave fort Bastiani.

Make the world 1985 again

Oh america, the cure and the poison

>>24520808
FUCK YEAH
KISS MY BUTT
AND
SUCK ON MY BALLS

Really rooting for Pan-Earth Overt Amerikan Imperialism soon.

big dicks will rule the world

>>24520883
Manifest Destiny--over the World.

WHERE TF IS EVERYONE????

>>24520721 (OP)
Whenever I look at my hands I start to realize how strange it is that there’s something instead of nothing.

How do you even have sex? Like how do even start? Like it feels awkward and wierd.

I added a nonce word to Wiktionary

>>24520918
Celebrating Amerika!!!

Republicans and Democrats are an example of schismogenesis.

kys

Shakespeare's influence is truly MASSIVE.

>>24521035
I think you could cut a pound of that flesh without drawing blood if you aimed it around the right bit of cosmetic surgery

I heard you are here

>>24521167
I've been waiting for you.

>>24521167
>>24521186
I knew you two were in cahoots

>>24521167
I heard you are here too

>>24521167
Be more specific.

5-year-old girls are stupid.

sun bleached floaties

>>24521257
You mean be more Pacific?

>>24521284
No.

my big dick gives me motivation to live and love everything

:(

>>24521327
Spit it out.

My co-worker showed up to work drunk, tried to touch my female colleagues and told my boss it was fine because I had been yelling slurs at customers, which I never did, and no one believed him. He was fired on the spot. Funniest shit I've seen in years

>>24520721 (OP)
---- Solaria ----
100025
Dream Suites

The longest after waking I retain
Music REM conjured

Is about 30 minutes
And for scenic sights 30 years.

i wore your waves like the skin of a stone

>>24521351
wave check

>>24521353
result?

>>24521359
69420

>>24521364
what a coincidence

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZP88rsuQ0K0

I want to make 10+ babies.

don‘t mind me talking to the cathedrals

>>24521401
go rawdog then

>>24521418
You want me to go rawdog?

The girl I like is currently at her boyfriend's and is probably getting her back blown out as I am writing this. Meanwhile I am here jerking it to AI chatbots. Doesn't feel very good.

can you hear it

>>24521422
I'm getting my back blown too. I need to fix my posture.

Just admitted to myself that I have cptsd. I think a lot of anons have it.

normalize killing oneself

>>24521422
Oneitisfags get the fucking rope

a funeral in the middle of time

I was thinking sperm bank.

i was thinking slaughterhouse

we doing horrorcore lyrics now?

is that a problem?

>>24521422
time to hire a whore then

These threads should have stayed deleted. They're a shittier twitter clone. Not a single post made in this thread so far is worth reading.

>>24521474
yours the least

I hate normals.

>>24521474
how rude!

>>24521484
domestic amoeba

>>24521484
do u be shader programming or sth?

how do ppl reduce the feeling of cringe like after i socialize when i get home i have like a delayed cringe that lasts for hours and it's not even like anything cringe happened its just like this low level buzzing in my brain and back

>>24521506
makes me never want to socialize, even after sex, i can't enjoy the memory that much cuz it's just gonna trigger cringe, like if i feel bad for missing out on a chance to fuck i just remind myself it would have been a new cringe memory burned in my brain, like if u think talking to normies is cringe, imagine getting naked and having sex with them, now THAT'S cringe

>>24520721 (OP)
----Solaria ----
100026
The Color Of infinite Temperature

Is curiously like sky blue
Near sea level or where clouds

Are superb to the eye
Happy as painters wish their Muse

Would always be
And poets are sometimes.

I'm lonely and while I can say a lot about my situation I know nobody cares so all I'm doing is screaming profanities on top of my lungs. FUCK

HAIKU

bitches call me "oh oh seven"
it's 'cause my nuts hang even

>>24521518
get a job when u spend eight hours a day talking to people you will be over it when you get home

>>24521518
I like to compress instead of yap too
feels good

>>24521524
I did. Still felt lonely but just being around strangers rather being in my room.
>>24521526
you say that like I have a choice. And its not really helping.

>>24521532
>choice
you could have written a character limit post instead
>not helping
it sure is better than not putting it into words at all

i'm going to bed holy SHIT

>>24521534
micro
wAvEe

I'm not American but I'm eating McDonald's to celebrate murica birthday. Two big Macs, nuggets, fried and one shake

>>24521546
I'm also eating a burger for America. We're burger bros.

I wonder what books hung femboys read?

If you are a cute woman please hold my hand in your imagination while I hold your hand in my imagination. I am so lonely.

>>24521518
I'm not all that lonely, probably because I grew up in a big family centered by an intelligent, high-earning and considerate father,

>>24521570
y r u gae?

>>24521576
I grew up in empty household occasionally revisited by an alcoholic mother.

>>24521583
I grew up in a cardboard box in the middle of nowhere.

>>24521580
mhm
Wish I was friends with an argumentative & smug twinky guy...

>>24520721 (OP)
I've been watching YouTube videos about the mathematical concepts of different infinities, and I am throughly unconvinced by this shit.

The argument for there being larger ordinal infinities plainly does not make any sense. You cannot add another item to an infinite list.

The cardinal infinities argument is even more confusing to me. The diagonal argument says that no matter how many different decimal expansions you list you can always create another decimal expansion that wasn't included. But isn't that literally already the case with normal infinity? You can already always add another one.

They're making some abstract point about mapping the structure of these sets to each other. But this is not actually bigger infinities is it? It's just saying something about the structure of the sets.

Another thing I don't understand at all is why everyone relates the concept of ordinal infinities to the omega + 1 function in the fast growing hierarchy. The omega +1 function is just a recursive diagonalization thing. It's not even remotely the same idea as the incomprehensible "adding another item after the end of an infinite list" thing.

What textbook do I have to read to understand these things?

I'm so tired of woman's shit bros. They're pretty, and I like boobies, and they make my eyes and dick happy, but they are so fucking bad for everything else. Women are a trap bros. Their beauty is the equivalent of the anglerfish's lure.

>>24521604
that's why i just be gooning

>>24521592
I'm telling my mom wierdo.

Women like me.

>>24521333
I don’t know if I can trust any of this.

>>24521590
you jest but I was not kidding. I saw my father once a year, mother once a month and mother was drunk half of the time she was present, talking in foreign language and calling me the kind of stuff that lead me to having trust issues today.

>>24521606
I can't even goon enjoyably any more. Post nut clarity is too strong with me; I realize how disgusting and gross it is when I'm done and I'm just laying there breathing all heavy alone with my jizz all on my hands. What would other people think if they saw me like this? Shameful. Naw, no women or porn or masturbating for me.

>>24521619
i don't care about other people

>>24521571
alright, ready?

>>24521613
You can trust me. I love you.

>>24521604

make no sound

>>24521621
That's antisocial and radically self-destructive. You will reap the consequences.

>>24521625
ok yes please

>>24521631
self-destruct a nutsac ho

>>24521626
Famous last words.

>>24521634
i‘m about to go to sleep, so I‘ll put my phone away and imagine you laying next to me and my hand in yours until I fall asleep
good night

>>24521637
naw I'll just redirect the excess orgone to my brain or something. Kundalini type shit.

>>24521595
I know that feel, anon; and while I can't recommend any books for it I do wanna give my 2 cents on the matter: Does it matter if the argument is unconvincing as long as it's formally sound?
Take 0.999... equalling 1, that sure seems unintuitive (to me) but you arrive to that conclusion via normal algebra, and isn't that the criterion we wanna use instead of if it "feels right"? Just examine each step in the conclusion for validity and then blindly accept whatever output it produces.
"Truthful words are not beautiful; beautiful words are not truthful."

>>24521644
>Orgone (/ˈɔːrɡoʊn/ OR-gohn) is a pseudoscientific concept variously described as an esoteric energy or hypothetical universal life force.
oh ur one of those hippy woo guys huh

>>24521640
good night

>>24521650
>pseudoscientific
demarcation problem bro.
don't knock on me until you solve it first.

I'm going to interview an important old pooner, what should I ask?

I got a boner this morning. I was shifting it around like a racecar.

>chainsawman
thread ruined
if you want to post manga/anime at least post something that's good

How do women find men attractive? Do they just want the D and the other stuff is just extra?

>>24521671
>everything must be to my personal preference because I am the main character

>>24521583
When I was 25 I asked my dad about something that came to mind, about slowly descending crescents in the sky. I was 3 at the time.

>>24521668
I once saw a video of nearly the exact thing you describe.

>>24521675
men can be wonderful anon

>>24521675
Women don't find men attractive.

>>24521682
It's what I do every time, but I don't remember recording it.

>>24521675
Male physique is very kino in an abstract sort of way. I imagine women don't find this sort of thing particularly sexually arousing but they can still admire the shape

>>24521683
how?

Cult of the Orange or Cult of the Apple?

>>24521697
\/ men
/\ women

>>24521698
they get simps to move their refrigerator for them when they move apartments

>>24521697
Women have vibe-based attraction, not physical.

>>24521700
wait...hold on...

Y Men
X Women

O.M.G..........

>>24521704
maybe, but when i started hitting the gym their vibes started going my way a lot more

>>24521677
yes, mr NPC, your taste is quiet shieet

>>24521705
What did God mean by this?

I got a random Russian girl to make a personal ASMR videos for me. She said she wants to make a YouTube channel.

>>24521705
>>24521712

>>24521705
In modern bodybuilding the ideal is now to have an "X frame" by massively overdeveloping your legs. They look truly monstrous.

This guy won the most prestigious bodybuilding title kek.

>>24521705
>>24521712
.

>>24521727
Modern bodybuilding is fucked. It got fried by people optimizing for competition instead of trying to look good and healthy like Silver Era-bodybuilders and before. Look at Steve Reeves here >>24521697 and compare to the bloated Mr. Olympia you posted. Who the fuck wants to look like the latter? People will train for these bodybuilding shows and do stupid shit like get striated glutes, never asking themselves who the fuck wants to see striated glutes, much less on a dude. They'll take a billion grams of roids and starve themselves to 1% bodyfat and instead of looking like big, strong lads, they look weird and offputting and gross.

>>24521705
>>24521712
>>24521726
>>24521729
> the sex of an individual usually is determined by a pair of sex chromosomes. Typically, females have two of the same kind of sex chromosome (XX), and are called the homogametic sex. Males typically have two different kinds of sex chromosomes (XY), and are called the heterogametic sex.[1] In humans, the presence of the Y chromosome is responsible for triggering male development; in the absence of the Y chromosome, the fetus will undergo female development. In most species with XY sex determination, an organism must have at least one X chromosome in order to survive.

>>24521729
>RVCA
my boi got good taste

Why so many gays in this thread?

>>24521745
y r u gae?

>>24521733
If you ever see one of these guys in person they look insanely impressive. It's like being around a gorilla or something, its hard to describe the presence they have.

I agree that it looks disgusting lol but you can't really just make bodybuilding a beauty pageant. It needs some actual objective metrics which is why they focus on size and conditioning and completeness.

It's also insanely unhealthy obviously

>>24521726
>>24521729
I feel like I'm taking crazy pills. How did no one except me ever notice this?

I have 3 choices for today: 1) goon to loli, 2) read Mein Kampf, 3) watch Thunderbolts*

>>24521777
Seek help.

>>24521777
Thunderbolts is horrible, Mein Kampf is whatever, I'd goon to loli if I were you.

>>24521790
seek help

>>24520731
Play video games and join the cultural zeitgeist revolution we are undergoing.

HAS NOBODY NOTICED STRANGE SYNCHRONICITY BETWEEN THE HUMAN FORM DISTINGUSHED BY SEX AND THE SHAPE OF THE CHROMOSOMES THAT DETERMINE SEX? IS THIS NOT INSANE? WTF IS HAPPENING HERE???

>>24521800
I never noticed.

>>24521780
What do you mean by "seek help"?

>>24521726
>>24521729
Bros LOOK like just LOOK at this! Like, what, like, are you guys seeing this? Like, I'm not the only one right? Right?

>>24521808
talk to a psychologist. you are having culturally unacceptable thoughts.

>>24521806
Me too! UNTIL TODAY.....

Everyone who knows I'm into German Idealism automatically just assumes I'm a nazi. Amusing really.

>>24521817
well are you

>>24521821
No I'm a God-King-Hive-Mind-Absolute-Statist.

>>24521626
Unless you clearly identify yourself I have no choice but to assume that this is some random stranger maliciously fucking with my head.

>>24521812
I agree. No one should ever watch Thunderbolts.

>>24521838
You're loved by people you've never met. I know because I'm one of them.

>>24521856
Thank you. Nta btw.

>>24521868
You're welcome.

>>24521856
Do you mean this in a general “I love all human beings” sense?

>>24521881
Not them, but that can only be said by a Jesus figure or someone vapid

>>24521897
Yeah, I don’t fucking know what going on at this point. I probably need to take a break from these threads (and possibly this entire board) before I lose my mind and my thoughts begin to resemble pic related.

>>24521906
I'm just a random person. There are not many dots to connect.

>>24521809
This isn't satire guys. I'm actually serious.

>>24521912
Then why are you posting things like >>24521626? Stop.

>>24521917
I want you to tell me why you posted a frowny face.

>>24521906
You'll never know the intention of the people in this thread because this is the internet.
I don't mean that in a "don't get scammed" way but more like once you internalise that you'll worry less.

>>24521922
Why should I tell a random person who’s clearly trolling me anything?

should i play metal gear solid?

>>24521930
I'm not trolling you. I'm concerned about you. Tell me now!

>>24521933
You do not know me. You are not concerned about my well-being. You are trying to antagonize me with faux-concern because you think it’s funny. Fuck off.

>>24521710
Suck a fucking dick like your God awful Manga taste faggot

>>24521938
I don't think it's funny. I saw you post :( and told you to spit it out. You're making me angry.

>>24521947

Okay, if you were just curious then you should’ve been satisfied after I directly told you why I was sad, so why would you even think to respond by sating “I love you; you can trust me”? Like, a normal person who isn’t trying to mislead and upset other people wouldn’t do that. Why the fuck would you say that you love me and that I can trust you in response to a random forum post that you have no reason to believe was written by anyone you know? That’s so clearly trolling. What is wrong with you? Like what fucking motivates you to do this mean-spirited and deceptive shit?

There is no existence more cucked than that of an Indian man in a conservative household
>Can’t date without causing a serious crisis in the home
>Parents promise to arrange marriage, nothing comes of it
You all might not have it easy but at least your successes and failures are yours. I don’t even get to try

>>24521963
>after I directly told you why I was sad
I went back and read your response. Sorry I misread what you wrote. I thought the "this" in your post was referring to me saying "spit it out." This was all a big misunderstanding.

IN GOD WE TRUST

>>24521932
It's not long, it's a cornerstone of video game history, and you'll understand all the meme lines that people spout. Go for it.

>>24521619
That's your problem for jerking off to gay shit. Sucks to suck, buddy.
Man, I'm so happy I'm not a neurotic goy unit with crossed wires that keeps wanking to things he simultaneously hates and I can only get chubs from exclusively the most aesthetic and sofisticated representations of female eroticism since my own immediate subjective tastes are by default aligned to the axiological triad of the True, the Good and the Beautiful! Hahahahaha

Listen to music to clam your soul.

>>24521984
Okay, so you weren’t actually the person who posted >>24521626?

>>24522032
yeah i'm thinkin based

>>24522063
I did post that, but what I was saying is that you can trust me in regard to telling me why you posted the sad face emoticon. That's what I meant. I'm not going to use what you say against you because I'm not a manipulative person.

>>24522070
But why the fuck would you say that you love me? What is wrong with you? There is literally no reason for you to post that response outside of trolling and being manipulative. You aren’t funny. Fuck off.

>>24522076
I wasn’t trying to be funny. I just wanted you to feel comfortable opening up to me. You mentioned that normal people wouldn’t act that way unless they were trying to mislead or upset someone, but I’m not a normal person. Everything I’ve said has been honest. No games, no hidden meaning. Just the truth. (｡◕‿‿◕｡)

>>24522087
No, you aren’t being honest. You’re deliberately being misleading. Why should I open up to you about anything? Fuck off and stop making fake and deceptive posts about how you want to “confess your love to someone who posts ITT” and all of this shit to troll people and give them false hope. You know exactly what you’re doing, and it’s incredibly mean-spirited.

I got invited to this bbq by my next door neighbor and agreed to attend since it’s right outside our building and I had nothing going on. Thought there would be more people there but it was my 70 yo boomer neighbor, her 28 yo daughter, and their 2 friends. We sat in a circle and they passed around a blunt lol. I didn’t smoke the blunt because it wasn’t my thing and I kinda just sat there staring into space because I couldn’t think of much to say to this group who already knew each other pretty well. I did reply with safe answers whenever they asked me some kind of question or made some remark when that included me though. Didn’t sperg out or anything but I realized I’m just pretty boring and don’t know how to include myself into conversations unless someone starts one with me. Thought I’d do better because I’ve looked up how to act socially, and I’m physically fit and don’t dress like a weirdo but I guess not. Not really sure what to do though because this has always been my nature. Probably gonna be the last chance I get to talk to anyone because I don’t have any social hobbies and my lifestyle doesn’t enable me to meet people. I’m not gonna pretend to give a shit about dancing or whatever on the off chance I could meet someone in a dance class or whatever

>>24521978
Arranged marriages sound so bizarre to me even though I know they have also existed in the premodern west as well. Imagine meeting a woman who is for all intents and purposes a complete stranger to you, and the entire subtext of your meeting being "if things go right, I guess I'll have no choice but to keep nutting in you until you get pregnant". You could argue that the subtext of western-style dating is the same, that you'll have sex if things go well, but there is a plausible deniability to it at least, that you might just be there to have fun, and also that both of you are there because you want to be there. With arranged marriage, you have neither excuses.

>>24522101
I get the feeling you’ll never quite believe me, no matter what I say, and that’s alright. I meant every word though, especially when I said I wanted to confess my love to someone who posts here. But if that kind of thing stirs the waters a bit too much, I’ll hold back on the love talk in this thread. Wouldn’t want to cause any trouble... if that's what you don't want.

>>24522119
No. You didn’t mean it. You don’t “love” a random stranger on the internet in any meaningful way, and you know damn well that saying “I love you” has a specific and emotionally loaded meaning that goes far beyond offering general emotional support and encouragement to someone you don’t personally know. And if you actually loved a specific person you know irl who posts ITT, then you would act like an adult and tell them so directly instead of vagueposting here to amuse yourself by giving false hope to people who are lonely. Go away.

>>24522032
It's not the porn that disgusts me. The women are hot. The sex is hot. What disgusts me is that when you are done you see how much of a disgusting loser you are alone, with your jizz-leaking shrinking dick, in your sorry state of post-nut clarity.

>>24522126
You don't think you can love someone based on their posts? No one truly knows 100% of another person, but you can still love them for what you do know of them. I do love people for what I know of them.

>>24522129
Idk girls watch videos of guys jerking off. If you have a nice body it's quite possible they would just find it arousing if they saw you in that context. Do you think girls are pathetic and gross when they masturbate?

Not that I'm telling you you should masturbate. Its a totally pointless activity

>>24522139
>Do you think girls are pathetic and gross when they masturbate?
Yes

>>24522102
same

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4nCrSQVCVA

One of the most active write your thoughts threads, on the 4th of July when everyone is with their families and friends

Man you guys are losers

>>24520721 (OP)
today is July 4th. was supposed to have a barbecue but slept in.

>>24522207
My friends were terrible people. I'd rather have no friends for the rest of my life than hang with those demons.

>>24522207
>everyone is american

>>24522207
Some of us live in Canada??

>>24522207
I'm not a loser. I just lack friends, family, and any semblance of ebullience in life.

i think i'm gonna pack this one hitter, go on the back deck and rip this one hitter, and then come back in and shit post the night away i mean u got any better plans?

>>24522233
t b h i don't even really like weed i don't really like anything

do shrinks have a word for when u have a low level cringe buzz in your back like 80% of the time? like when i'm about to die i can be like well at least i'll be free from this cringe

I lack self-control. If a girl teases me, then I might go to jail.

>>24520721 (OP)
My mind has been in a very deep and dark place lately. One of my lady friends is about 20 weeks pregnant and is planning to name the child after me.

That's all said and done. But when I was reading Gantz chapter 373, which is one of her favorite mangas and inspirations in life, I noticed something very particular on how the alien said the female character Reika would be reborn 18 years from now along with the clone Kei as her child. That always got to me thinking about a potential underlying Jocasta complex that she might've had in the series. But when I got to thinking on how often I saw my mother in her with her constant infatuation of having a son and getting pregnant to just "get over it" and not spoil the last of her eggs into her mid-30s, it got to me thinking if she, the friend, had anticipated this the entire time. Or if I naturally am predisposed to come across women who develop an overzealous infatuation with me, contrary to what their estrus cycle or what their friends and family think. Who knows.

Bottom line, you can argue I'm reading too much into it. But I have to wonder if [some] women feel so deeply into men for no reason. It's very abstract.

>>24522271
*Or what the internet or 4chan thinks about women.

>>24520721 (OP)
---- Solaria ----
100027
The Lives Of The Stars

A scale model of Alnilam
The size of a pea

Would instantly render any room vapor
Yet last minutes at that.

You could get a month or so from our sun
Shrunk down to football size

And yet see a thousand Romes rise and fall
Before Proxima converted thus

Runs down to the planetary coolness
Fireflies are used to.

>>24520721 (OP)
damn this board is so dead bro its only 11pm but i might go to bed im bored

Lighting candles at 5am because my lighter died, making cinnamon sugar tortillas because why not when high at the point

wait did trump's bill really cap student loans at 50,000 dollars a year? libs on suicide watch lol

can i follow this ultra degeneracy while still being a philosopher king that helps save the world? unironic question

>>24522356
no, lol
nobody with such a one dimensional idea of femininity has anything of value to say about the world

>>24522344
Lighting cigarettes intermittently, at 11PM, while too drunk to make anything you can't convey except by keyboard. Sonorous assorted detonations are underway, since it's the 4th of July.

>>24522384
As holidays go it's pretty spectacular.. Christmas is quite nice too, in the right circumstances.

Six months. What the fuck is wrong with me?

>>24522440
6 months ago, I was in jail. There were big guys with tattoos who beat me up every hour, and all they gave me to eat was moldy poop with dead spiders in it.

I've felt my brain getting zoomerified.
I can't stand even a second of boredom anymore. Help me. Tasukete friends.
Like I feel physically restless when I'm bored. This is fucking awful.
How do I non zoomerify my brain?

Why were the what's on your mind threads shut down?

>>24522478
I don't see why you need to do that, sir.

>>24522494
Because it's causing me problems while focusing on literally anything.

>>24522467
Did I ask? Take your disgusting shitposts somewhere else.

>>24522499
Change your perspective.

>>24522502
I answered your question.

>>24522518
No, you didn’t. It was a rhetorical question directed at myself. You lack reading comprehension.

This is guerilla ontology.

I dance for about an hour before going to bed every night. Try it, girls and men. Put on music and dance.

>>24522566
I cry for about an hour before going to sleep each night. Introducing such a change into my current routine seems unfeasible.

Recently I have become convinced that my sense of self is unreal.
The first reason this happened is because of an argument. We have our sense of identity when waking, but when we dream, we seem to be variations of ourselves, or even different people entirely. The only thing which unifies the various people we are when waking and when dreaming is the perspective, or the personal horizon, or the raw ability to experience, which contains the senses of identity, memories, thoughts, and so on. Your subjectivity, at its most fundamental, is independent of everything else you perceive yourself to be, because it is prior to all of that, and necessarily so.
The second reason is because I experienced the detachment between identity and awareness. Several times, actually. It starts with my hands feeling oddly heavy. Next I lose feeling in my legs, then my chest. My head starts feeling very heavy. I then feel a strong sense of vertigo, like gravity is changing direction, and finally, a sense of something breaking. At this point everything being reported by my senses seems to be a projection onto a movie screen, not something I identify with myself. I then turn my attention inwards, and have the sense of seeing the back of my own eyeball, in a way - I notice the origins of my own thoughts, seeing them as external things. Finally, all experience (including the experience of thinking) detaches, leaving me with awareness of my own awareness and nothing else. Eventually, I randomly snap back into my body, sometimes losing a bit of time without any memories from the gap.
Are Buddhists or Hindus right about the self? I'm not sure. I definitely don't experience any grand unifying oneness with Brahman or supernatural insight during these episodes (though using the words "I" and "experience" in this context doesn't seem right). I've had a couple episodes where a vestigial part of me felt like it could move "sideways" and slip into the sense-identity-experience of someone else, but when fully myself this seems like schizo nonsense.
On a side note, I have had a very hard time telling the difference between my dreams and my memories lately. I have to think about the events that preceded and followed each memory and make sure they make sense, or find a physical record of the event in question. I've also had the experience of a dream-memory-self "bubbling up" from inside me while awake, where the person I was during a remembered dream floated to the top and was superimposed over me for a second. So far I'm still fully functional and (by all appearances) sane but this is a worrying sign.

>>24522572
That sounds bad for your eyes.

>>24522578
I’m sure it is, but it really can’t be helped.

>>24522575
You're real to me :)

I just got really embarrassed about my entire existence for a moment. Like I pictured myself walking somewhere I go all the time and thought surely I must look ridiculous doing this. It's passed though.

>>24522575
>The second reason is because I experienced the detachment between identity and awareness.
May be caused by trauma, like so many things.
You could read research on dissociative disorders

There is something which justifies the rest of existence, all its agony and hurt, in the dying screams of its splendor, in the calm moments of the morning sunrise, and the quickening pulse of the blood

I read your posts. I see you.

>>24522712
There's another general on this site where someone said the other day they always know which posts are mine O_O

>>24520721 (OP)
Some one who is too much of a dogmatist is not for the practical humanities like anthropology or sociology.
You can't have good research when everything must be twisted to fit some forgone conclusion.

>>24522720
You're a good boy. Write more posts for us.

>>24522676
Sure, I guess, but I haven't experienced anything traumatic.

I've heard that people are overly suspicious of each other in this day and age. It might be the case we need to see the noise, not the signal.

>>24522726
I just made another in the other general :)

The universe is a verb not a noun

>>24522758
Dictionary says it's a noun.

Nine Inch Nails is the best band of all time

>>24521832
close enough to most people
isnt it

I find it kind of funny how puritans are caricatured as these weird sexless prudes when almost every famous american puritan who was married had like 8+ children according to their wikipedia pages. So evidently, they were anything but undersexed. In fact, they probably had more sex than the average married couple in our hedonistic modern age. They just didn't believe that sexuality had any business leaving the confines of the marital bed.

>>24522356
no

>>24522766
/lit/ is a classical board, anon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KNBfBbJzh2M

>>24522775
You know as well as I do that's not what most people today mean by 'sex.' They're talking about quantity of people, exploring one's kinks, and wish-fulfillment.

new tactic for alleviating anxiety: I imagine some of my fictional inspirations and real heroes and think, "would this guy be worried about this? no" and it's actually been working well so far.

Our flesh craves sex because reproduction is a form of biological immortality. Each generation represents a temporary triumph over the omnipotence of death for the generation before it, defiance in the face of undefeatable entropy, life in the face of death. That which is subject to ephemerality can't help but yearn for eternity.

>>24522796
unfortunately my inspirations aren't fictional and were all probably more anxious than i am

I consume all of my shit in English. I don't give a shit anymore. Fuck those retards. This national language was not the language of my ancestors. So why should I care about being a traditional man? Fuck this shit. I'll be a metropolitan without any remorse. Between two foreign languages I choose English.

it's like 5am i woke up at like 3:45 and listen to some shitty audible podcast called "the burnout generation" that i thought would put me to sleep but being a podcast not an audiobook it's of course designed to be an attention magnet that keeps u engaged, annoying

mouth edges
the air already knows

I am so depressed. Everyday. I'm a cute girl with nice tits btw.

Install Gentoo and read while compiling

>>24522877
yeah ok dude

mic pumping asmr
look it up
pls come back to thank me and give me (you)
pls i really need (you)s
I getting really desperate

Femanons, why do you come here?

this would be a perfect time to smoke weed and then go back to bed but i don't want to have to go outside but if i eat edibles it won't kick in for hours and i'll be asleep by then

Are blowjobs dirty disgusting activities? Are they bad?

\(UwU)\

Why she delete all her posts?

>>24522886
to annoy people with half-wit bullshit about books I kinda read

>>24522885
Why do people listen to this? I thought ASMR was something you fall asleep to. Is it white/brown noise? Do people sit down and listen to it on its own?

>>24522902
to jerk off anon, to jerk off.

>>24522888
just do it girlie

>>24522903
why would i jack off to some chick slobbering all over her microphone when i can just watch a video of some chick getting gangbang bukkaked by huge cocks

>>24522908
you wouldn't get it

>>24522903
There is some that seem to be jerk off material, but some of them just seem really out of place. I can understand jacking off to weird things as they need not be explicitly sexual, but I struggle to see why it would be such a big thing.

Love Me
Love Me
Say That You Love Me
https://youtu.be/Urmvg54hldk?si=Sidt5Yh4urHKknSP

>>24522901
Too cute. :)

>>24522777
classical music is for faggots

Ohio girls > everywhere else girls

>>24521942
chainsawcuck appeals only for zoomiefags, and you just proved it. kys

>>24522921
got any recs for me to skim and then act like I understand the essence better than the author themselves?

>>24522951

>>24522953
I already read that tho, any others?

>>24522954

>>24522960
gotcha, I‘ll be back in about 2-4 business days

>>24522966
ok good luck lol

>>24522968
thanks
what will you be reading?

>>24522970

>>24522973
nice, lmk when you unlock wizard mode

>>24520721 (OP)
I grow more pessimistic of the status of Race Science the more I read about it. Is it even a salvageable science? Or should one just incorporate whatever is recoverable into some other discipline?

>>24522992
>I grow more pessimistic of the status of Race Science the more I read about it.
Why?

>>24520933
Yu gotta fuck her right in the pussy!

Femanons, how does it feel when he first puts it in?

>>24523020
go back to atoga idiot

>>24523023
ok but how does it feel tho?

>>24523024
go ask your mom

>>24522877
Ywnbaw btw. Like, ever.

>>24523025
ok so you're obviously not a femanon
just an angry person

>>24523027
I am tho

>>24523028
we don‘t need another general to be turned into a sausage fest anon

>>24523033
it's too late for that now anonlet

>>24523039
I can easily slip back into the void
buh bye

>>24521422
And suddenly i am vindicated never allowing myself the room to try to feel romantic love for someone

>>24521474
Th exercise is not for the reader

>>24523020
pretty much like this

>>24522207
Independence Day isn’t Christmas. But yes I am a loser

>>24522356
Only if it kills millions of people.

I want to self-insert as Tatsuya and have a Madoka-oneechan. I also want an audience that loves to hear about relationships between boys and their older sisters.

>>24522775
Puritans got in trouble in Europe because they were pro-sex freaks. They kept telling people God had made sex pleasurable because he wanted us to marry and have lots of kids, and everyone else thought that was the devil or an accident

>>24522973
I read that three years ago

>>24523111
tfw never had an older sister

>>24523184
well ok then

The future philologists puzzling out the cultural and economic worth of the concepts
>Good idea for a t-shirt
and
>Put it on a t-shirt
in their contemporary lingua franca and mode du jour

>>24522886
I’m lonely, and it’s a maladaptive coping mechanism.

>>24522886
I need someone who understands when I make an obscure joke

>>24523446
same.
hit me up in my dm's.

>>24523467
ok tell me one

>thread theme a banger for once
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SILVQpqmH7U

>>24523471
I'm not your dancing monkey

>>24523469
No.

>>24523474
fine then.

>>24523475
ok.

Femanons, how do you feel about manons?

>>24523502
Kind of the blandest of Leonidas' offerings

>>24523503
I am a readlet and I have no idea what this means.

>>24523504
are you a search enginelet too?

>>24523505

Why is apu so darn cute?

>>24523512
manons are a type of white chocolate which the Belgian chocolatiers Leonidas make as their signature chocolate

>>24523519
Thanks. Now I have more knowledge.

Manons, how do you feel about femanons?

Who wants to argue with me? Like not about anything in particular but just to be angry with someone.

>>24523531
I like the smart and cute ones. I am not sorry I am lookist and brainist.

>>24523533
yeah, have a go at it
idiot

>>24523538
understandable

>>24523543
Hey, is it alright if I call you retard for argumentative purposes?

>>24523533
I tried to think of something but it works better when something shows up in the wild that makes me seethe spontaneously.
This is often how I make social faux pas IRL and work myself into corners

>>24523554
yes ofc, don‘t hold back
moron

>>24523557
stfu faggot ;)

>>24523561
Very kind of you mental midget

>>24523565
Quid putas te dixisse, misera bestiola? Scisne quis ego sim? In summo ordine legionarum Romanarum educatus sum et in innumeris expeditionibus secretis contra hostes Imperii interfui. Tria centena hostium propriis manibus necavi. Doctus sum in arte pugnae silvestris et arcus meus mortem fert silentio. Tu nihil es nisi lutum calcandum. Te delebo cum tali arte ac diligentia qualem hic mundus numquam vidit. Dum loquimur mandata dantur nuntiis meis qui te iam ex umbris observent. Oculus tuus non videbit diem crastinum. Ventus adest pro nihilo te paratum. Ego ubique esse possum. Interficere te possum septuaginta modis antequam primam preces tuam finias. Non solum artem mortis calleo sed et imperium habeo in omnia tela legionis meae quae ad tuam perditionem converto. Si sapientiam habuisses linguam tenuisses. Sed non potuisti et nunc poenam lues. Furiam meam super te effundam sicut aquae Rubri Maris. Submergeris. Mortuus es puerule.

Almost forty days since I started playing the piano. Feels good man. Since then I have gone back to the gym and started developing two other skills. It started all the way back December 31st. when I had a moment of calm among my neurosis and realized that not only I had to try, I also wanted to. Or maybe it started on that first week of January, when I decided to finally learn french. Or during that quiet night on March when I felt shame about having wasted another day and cracked a book open at 2 a.m. as a way of making it count. Maybe it was during all those times I skipped one of these activities for a few days and still pushed myself to get back at it, again and again. Maybe it was when I aknowledge to myself that I was given a bad hand and raised among cruelty but that it didn't condemn me in any way to a sad life as a husk. Maybe it was when I looked at my fears, depression and self-doubt and realized that those things are alien to me and were assimilated from external sources, ones which didn't have my best interest in mind and shouldn't be heard. Maybe it was every day when I went to sleep feeling sadness and grief while thinking of myself as some hopelessly wretched creature tied to a bleak fate. Maybe it was because despite that I always tried again the next day. Maybe it was when my horrible, gargantuan fears got a little bit smaller day after day.
I still struggle with all of those things today, but I am thankful. I feel alive, even if it's a small and fragile kind of life.

>>24523572
lol I can't even read Latin but I can tell what this is.

>>24523576
that means I win >:)

>>24523467
What I wouldn't give for a girlfriend who makes jokes about obscure /lit/stuff.
Fuck it, what I wouldn't give for a female friend who makes jokes about obscure /lit/ stuff.
Fuck, they don't even need to be female.
Fuck, they don't need to be a friend.
Fuck.

>>24523583
post examples of obscure lit stuff

>>24523562
¯\_(ツ)_/¯
If you want my favourite fear then it is the fear of making a mistake

>>24523590
AHEM, you started this sentence without correct capitalization despite using correct punctuation otherwise
>>24523576

>>24523589
esoteric kantianism

>>24521726
sauce on her?

>>24523600
You have to solve a riddle first.

>>24523590
You will never be perfect and always live in fear of making a mistake. ;)

>>24523604
nah fuck that

>>24523589
Considering that the most /lit/ irl discussions I had in the last five years or so were with my gf blaming her parents for "being unable" to read or a model I dated commenting during a trip to the bookstore about how she had all the colleen hoover coomnovels and giving me the fluoride stare every time I showed her a very famous classic, at this point I would be content with anyone who knows that Bolaño is a person and not some hispanic dish.

>>24523595
oh, are you the guy that suggested I read Reinhold earlier?
so tell me, you seem to be interested in the concept of emerging consciousness and where it emerges from, and it‘s implications on reality, what‘s your take on what‘s the source of the emerging consciousness?

My estranged father apparently died and now the government wants me to pay for his funeral. What a joke. Hadn't seen the guy in over a decade and now they expect me to shell out four fucking grand to have him put in the ground? Are you serious?

>>24523611
Hey to be fair to women they're gonna mishear it as bolero and think it is a jacket

>>24523607
no sauce for you then

>>24523614
dying is expensive
>>24523611
because of nazi literature?
>fluoride stare
kek

>>24523618
nta, I want a riddle but idgaf about your gooner sauce
just give me the riddle

>>24523623
Him dying should not be my problem. He didn't give a fuck about me while alive, why should I care about him, now that he's dead?

thinking of calling a hooker

Thinking of taking a nap

I hate these threads and I hate all of you.

>>24523632
yeah, it sucks, but not much you can do about it

>>24523635

>>24523616
To be fair I actually knew a /lit/ woman back in 2018; probably the smartest woman I have ever met. She was also amoral and hopelessly addicted to popular self-help books. She constantly flirted with me and one of our uni teachers despite being in a relationship and the last I know of her she was part of some richfag's scam centered on selling pre-built properties in the shitty parts of town to the poor.

>>24523636
I'm dirt poor, so hopefully I can convince big daddy that I can't afford it (I genuinely cannot) and they pay for a Pauper's funeral.

tfw it's been 17 days that I've stopped drinking

>>24523612
Consciousness is a continuum. It is ever present, under different names like laws of nature, chemical reactions, biological functions, and at a certain degree, self-consciousness. But I'm still not certain about anything on this topic. Much reading to do still.

>>24523647
oh yeah, you can definitely do that if you can prove you can‘t afford it

>>24523650
Proud of you, Anon. Here's to 17 years.

>>24523650
congrats anon, good job

>>24520739
Makima is shit tier too. Unfortunate bad taste.

>>24523626
What occurs once in a minute, twice in a moment, and never in 1,000 years?

>>24523626
What walks on four legs in the morning, two legs in the afternoon, and three legs in the evening?

>>24523652
Knowing how stingy my country is, this is going to be an ordeal, I already know it. Goddamn, even in death, that man continues being anything but a positive force in my life.

>>24523664
Too easy

>>24523650
Based. Keep going, man.
>>24523661
I'm so bad at riddles it hurts. The strange leaps of logic necessary to solve them have always eluded me.

>>24523651
I mean, there probably will never be a definitive explanation or answer, so it‘s all more or less speculative anyways. But it‘s fun to think about. How are you liking the magic book so far? I‘ve skimmed it a bit and as far as I could tell, it‘s about how focus and faith gives it weight and thus basically makes it real in a way? Like a self fulfilling prophecy. Or whats your take on it so far?

>>24523669
What has three legs in the morning, three legs in the afternoon, and two legs in the evening?

>>24523661
the letter m
>>24523664
human

>>24523672
ok now that's better

>>24523677
>the letter m
son of a bitch
I know you googled it but it is what it is
you want the coom sauce or not?

>>24523684
i didn‘t, but I already knew it, lol
good one tho
no thanks, you can keep it

>>24523670
>>24523657
>>24523653
thanks

>>24523591
That wasn't me.
>>24523606
I can only say that this is true and it sucks.

As for my counter argument, mock discussions are pointless! No one will learn anything.
It reminds me of those hamfisted debating exercises where you get some assigned some idiotic position without merit and have to argue for it.

>>24523637
No, fuck you. Fuck you and every last retard who blew in here from xitter or who knows where. The original idea behind these threads was to WRITE, that is, put fucking EFFORT into writing about one's thoughts, to practice writing in prose or verse and improve one's skills, not to shit out a million posts about the most banal bullshit ever conceived. Scroll up and look at this thread. There's no effort here, just endless fucking retards so brain-fried from DUDE WEED LMAO they think anyone gives a shit about their all lowercase ironic nonsense posts. Fuck you. You and your kind are a plague that drives the collective quality of the board straight to the bottom.

>>24523711
Chill, people need a place to vent. How about instead of throwing a tantrum you write a good post instead?
Be the change you want to see or something lmfao.

>>24523671
so far so good. He's defined magic as purportedly efficacious ritual performed outside the jurisdiction of dominant religious authority, and performed privately as opposed to publicly as liturgy. The privacy and secrecy of magical ritual leads to the mistrust of it by the ignorant public, except insofar as they can use the magician to their own benefit as a sort of professional provider of magical services and consultation on their behalf. Now he's going into the attributes of magicians and especially their nervous constitution, similar to the concept if the spirit medium, and how some are born with it, others develop it through other factors during life, like initiation into a magical order, or severe psychological stress. Good stuff really.

>>24523723
>nervous constitution
does he explain what exactly he means by that? like the alignment with a certain frequency (for lack of better word)?

>>24523715
>Chill, people need a place to vent
No they fucking don't. There's no law that says people need a place to post stupid trifling bullshit like this thread is fucking filled to the brim with.

>>24523740
There is also no law that says I can‘t. Thats the beauty of artistic freedom, people can just claim every post is experimental poetry or prose. What you gon do bout it?

>>24523727
Kind of, honestly, it's funny because he's basically describing what today gets classified as mental illness, schizophrenic/autistic characteristics: socially awkward, makes people feel uncomfortable, jittery and jumpy, very asocial, 'epileptic' fits and ekstasies, cataleptic states, the list goes on and on.

I am here, but I wish I wasn’t.

>>24523746
yeah, I‘ve heard about cultures that see these people as seeers, mediums, prophets, etc
basically powers, not handicap
but that opens up a whole box of crap for /x/schizos to claim them choking their mom for vacuuming at 10am on a saturday is because they are a very special guy thats just too sensitive for this world and nobody understands them (read, does what they want and never compromises their comfort)
but it is an interesting concept, I mean, if consciousness is actually emergent in the way Reinhold or Kant suggests (amongst many others ofc), then that suggests that consciousness created snd thus shapes reality, which means faith and focus would have the power to influence and change it, iow making magical thinking real

>>24523756
yea you get it
follow me on X

>>24523762
wat

>>24523766
lol twitter

>>24523743
>What you gon do bout it?
Rightfully call out all you faggots for the 85 IQ cattle you are.

>>24523788
I will never recover.

>>24523772
I think you scared her away anon

>>24523795
I tend to have that effect on people.

>>24523795
I just don‘t have twitter

>>24523788
boo hoo

>>24523808
Understandable. Honestly twitter is pretty gay I just use so I can kind of form community with like minded people. I like /lit/ one million times better but I never really know who I'm talking to or if it's even the same person. But maybe it's better that way since you always start fresh with every interaction. And even on twitter nobody really gives a shit about what I think anyways.

>>24523820
I have nothing against it, I just never got into using it. I do appreciate the anonymity, I find that sometimes conversations can get a bit recursive when you know you are talking to the same person. Almost like you build rapport over a topic and then you get a bit constricted by that. You know, in my mind you are now the esoteric kantianism guy from lit, but we might be discussing a totally different topic together on another board and we might never find out. We might get tied up in a total slapfight. Thats a bit funny to me. Then again, maybe I am just mentally ill and avoid any kind of social interaction that isn‘t strictly anonymous and come up with elaborate copes to make it sound a bit less pathetic.

Make a new one

My little brother died last week. A fucking drunk driver killed him so badly my parents won't even allow me to see his body. This honestly really makes me feel like I should just die as well like what's the point now. To make matters worse, earlier today, I just sharted in my pants and undies.

>>24523861
I'm so sorry bro but this post made lol so hard right now. I'm sorry for your loss bro, I'm sure your brother loved you and thought you were funny as shit.

God I love this stupid board.

413 replies
I've never seen one go on this long

>>24523850
We are all mentally ill and pathetic on this blessed day.

>>24523723
which book is this?

>>24523883
this one
>>24522973

>>24523880
That much is true.

I'm currently reading The Map and the Territory by
Michel Houellebecq and the last part is so drastically different and edgy, pretty cool how he got himself brutally murdered in the book

A phd in synthesizing cocaine from readily available otc medicines.

>>24523960
nice
>>24523945
nice, you read anything else by becqy yet? I have annihilation in my list

>>24523967
>you read anything else by becqy yet?
yeah, I've read The Elementary Particles long time ago and also Submission and The Possibility of an Island

I haven't pooped in 7 days. Still no urge.

>>24523975
which was your favorite and why?

>>24523978
check yourself at the clinic

I miss her.

>>24523991
honestly they're all good and hard to compare them, I'd say that TEP is his most accessible and easier to read tho

>>24523993
Naw this is normal for me.

>>24523978
Foid moment

>>24524001
I'm actually a guy. Why would it be foid-related?

>>24520721 (OP)
How's the army life going comrades

>>24523997
Yeah, I‘ve heard that, maybe I should start there
thanks!

>>24524004
nta but because foids sometimes eat like birds, which does not produce very much poop

>>24524005
Good

>>24524013
nvm just pooped. All better.

>>24524016
What's your function?

>>24524022
congrats!
>tfw poop every day

>>24524027
Rifle polisher if you catch my drift

>>24524036
So just a regular pleb?

The world without love would be a better place actually

I just want a woman who is asocial. They don't have to be anything else or look a certain way.

Sprinkling a little bit of coke in my coke.

>>24523987

Semper Fi

I just wanna fuck

>>24524076
asocial how?

>>24524104
Doesn't like to talk to people.

>>24524108
not even you?

>>24524111
Never mind.

Bros...

>>24524119
wut?

>>24524126
My sister wants to put highlights in my hair and other makeover stuff, I guess.

>>24524135
Just let her, you have fewer chances in life to do things with your sister than you think.