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>>24534404 (OP)
I graduated last month and have just started this job as a university lecturer (on a year's probation). I was walking through the halls today and saw a small stone on the floor. Without thinking, I kicked it as hard as I could. It flew down the hallway and slammed directly into the shin of a senior professor. It was way too late for me to pretend it wasn’t me or make a run for it. He just walked off.

I’m trying to remind myself that people who use and hurt others typically don’t change. They don’t see their actions as something uniquely bad and shameful, because for them, that kind of behaviour is normal. It’s just another one of many instances throughout their lives when they’ve treated someone else cruelly because it seemed to be the most convenient and expedient path forward. The impact their behaviour has on the other person doesn't even register as something that should be taken into consideration, because they’ve turned off a part of their conscience. They do these things because they’ve gotten away with similar behaviour in the past, and have perfected manipulative and avoidant strategies that enable them to avoid ever having to apologize and face the fallout of what they’ve done.

I want to live in a world where other people are trustworthy, where you can rely on them to say what they mean and to be honest. I want to live in a world where there is a sympathetic explanation for the hurtful things that people do, and where they eventually come to regret their behaviour and feel genuine remorse and try to fix things. But I don’t live in that world, and I never will. The simplest explanation is the truth: they don’t care, and they’ve moved on without a second thought. I need to find a way to stop hoping that things will be fixed somehow. If I allow myself to hope, I’m only deceiving myself.

I feel so alone these days. 4chan doesn't help anymore. My world keeps shrinking and my thoughts feel trapped in my head. I have no way to give them a proper shape. Usually I just write stuff on a journal, but I wish someone would read it sometimes. Maybe give me some advice, maybe just reply in any way. Feels childish.
I feel lost. I don't know what I'm living for. I alternate between feeling anger aimed at nothing and no one in particular, and this sinking feeling of being mediocre and subpar on a genetic level. I am well aware I'm not a genius, or talented, or special in any way. I am well aware that I won't even be a historical footnote as much as a mere statistic. I can't create, I can only appreciate greatness through my dulled senses and my insufficient mind. I'm already dead and gone. Nothing I do feels meaningful, and even though this should be extremely liberating, I feel paralyzed. Everything feels painfully pointless in the face of my inescapable doom. Everything feels either childish and ridiculous, doomed to a terrible and unimaginable end, or completely out of my reach. I feel so angry and I don't know what to do with this feeling. I don't know who to aim it at. I can't escape it anymore. I'd say I keep wasting my time, but am I really? I don't have anything to do with it, even though every second is precious. Every second driving me closer to old age, disease, mutilation, death.
Beneath all my distractions, beneath my puerile hopes and dreams, beneath my coping mechanisms, there's a black, bitter, aimless hatred that makes my head spin. And below that, there's just naked terror and despair.

>>24534543
How long have you been feeling this way?

>>24534563
can i ask you a question?
do you come to these threads often? or is this a one-off?
there's often someone who replies very sincerely to these stupid annoying posts that appear (almost word-for-word) at least a dozen times in every single one of these threads. i'm wondering what saintly prerogative drives someone to entertain these god awful posters.

>>24534567
I'm not that poster, but I do look at these threads sometimes. Dismissing someone who is clearly feeling existential despair and needs someone to talk to as stupid, annoying, and god awful is a bit sociopathic of you.

big dicks will rule the world

>>24534578
it's very honest of me i think.
on the other hand, those particular posts feel particularly dishonest to me. when someone’s really going through something that serious, they wouldn’t be framing it in a way that reads so constructed and melodramatic. i know this.

>>24534488
I want that too. But what if I’m one of them?

>>24534591
Hiding behind claims of honesty doesn't preclude your attitude from being sociopathic. And no, you don't know that. What other motivation would someone have to write and post something like that, beyond genuine unhappiness and the desire to be seen and acknowledged by another person? And just because you aren’t capable of expressing intense feelings in an articulate manner doesn't mean that no one else is.

>>24534602
well, i'm not hiding behind honesty, i'm standing on it. think it’s imperative to be honest, especially when something feels disingenuous. not every curated outpouring is a cry for help, and not every eye-roll is sociopathy.

>>24534543
The meaning of your life isn't decided by the Big Things you do but by what you do on average, what kind of person you naturally are. Maybe you don't create Great Art that defines an age, but you spur on someone who does, simply by happenstance and because of your natural attitude. Maybe you don't uplift millions from poverty, but you naturally lend a hand to those in need, simply by nature. Don't let your own judgement of yourself define your life, or at least, take it with a grain of salt - we are often both our worst enemies and blind to a great deal of our own natures.

>>24534638
>Big Things
>Great Art
Capital-U Ugh

>>24534543
we all feel like that

>>24534591
Everyone has a different personality, is that a hard concept for you to understand? You can't possibly be this autistic, you are just an spiteful freak that feels envious, grow a backbone

there’s no one in the uk who dislikes this song https://youtu.be/s4oZdUV-G-Y?si=H6lVZ1AfR7XfmhvU

tfw it's been 20 days since I've stopped drinking

>>24534803
quite telling that you're throwing insults now.
but personality doesn’t automatically make a dramatic, theatrical wall of text genuine, does it? often, people perform despair instead of feeling it. the question isn’t whether it’s dramatic, but whether it rings true; it’s about being honest about what feels real and what feels staged.

>>24534828
I'm drinking right now

>>24534828
Going for a full quit or a measured break?

See the 60 IQ schizo fent addict homeless nigger lying there surrounded by rats?
He has a more Authentic life than you.
Therefore, he mogs you.
He won, you lose.

>>24534849
Drinking coffee.

>>24534871
Irish coffee?

>>24534488
Do you have any online Aliases. I would want to talk with you. Steam? Discord? anything.

>>24534843
You're a drama queen yourself, and since I have a lot of good faith, I assume it's a product of the personality one develops when one is gay, and not just a larp.
I'm not the one you were replying to.

>>24534872
No, I just put chocolate milk into it.

>>24534864
>Authentic

>>24534874
from the outside, it might seem like i'm staying within the realm of critique while you’re doubling down on insults - all while claiming the moral high ground.

>>24534563
It's been a couple of years,

>>24534591
I did say I'm very bad with words. Don't you ever feel like that? You just got a lot of shit going on inside, but you can't let it out in any meaningful way? But I get it, the "scream for help" in post format is lame. Actions speak louder than words, but I can't use words and you can't see my actions.

>>24534638
I feel I'm being honest when I acknowledge I am less than great and just average. I think I'm extremely frustrated at being mediocre and just not having something else. If even a post comes off as insincere then well, I'm kinda fucked aren't I?

>>24534886
No, you are just being spiteful, i am treating you they way you deserve to be treated

>>24534891
well from what i know (actually know), real sadness shows itself as stillness and near silence in your front garden ... this world now unfamiliar. if someone were to even think twice about post it here (out of reckless abandon or very young age), it'd be blunt and straightforward. not pleading.

>>24534860
hopefully the former

>>24534900
and that is that.

I have progressed to norwood III vertex

>>24534404 (OP)
---- Solaria ----
100028
July Superlatives.

Even the sidewalk dazzles like snow in some places
And the trees glitter with a certain subtlety

Too suave, sensational for art as such
Or even industry in sum.

Desire is suffering, and life is desire. The desire not to suffer is suffering, and to suffer is to live.

>>24534952
What does this means? Why do you post it every thread?

>>24534960
he posts different poems every other thread. i don't know what this means.

>>24534960
I can't tell you.

>>24534404 (OP)
I just finished Shadow and Claw of Book of the new sun.

Should I read Sword and Citadel right away or another book. Is it normal to do that?

>>24534979
Read the next book in the series you're reading.

>>24534996
rogger

>>24534934
It's not sadness or depression what I feel.
"Despair" as I feel it, feels like I come apart. Like I am a shivering membrane standing between two unknowable voids and nothing else. I don't feel like that right now, but the possibility is always there.
And then there's this hatred that goes by levels. I hate being mediocre, I hate the place I live at, I hate what my life has come to, and I hate the world. I don't enjoy things anymore. I thought I could find some solace on the act of creation, even when it was just for me, even when I decided to just be honest and forget skill, but it never comes out right. It's not that I want to be a great artist, I just wanted to be honest with myself, but instead of seeing honesty, I see a marked lack of skill and higher "soul", if you could call it that. I don't feel better, I feel worse because I see reflected at me my realization of just how pedestrian I am.
Yet I feel this growing restlessness day in day out. I got no one to talk with and even here I feel less and less welcome (not because of the users, but I just feel a growing distance between me and everything else). At least I got these crumbs of an interaction to distract myself for a while, like I've been distracting myself for so long, but in the end I just can't run away from this anymore.

>sun goes down
>previously normal thoughts drift to how horrible life is and suicide

why is that?

>>24535010
what you should feel is ... common decency, this was unbearable to read.

>>24535014
for me it's the exact opposite, things start to make sense when the sun goes down and it's close to bed time

>>24535032
Engaging with people like you is the worst use of my time. I wish I could say I'm glad that despite finding my posts and these threads unbearable, you're still here reading and replying, and you'll still be here tomorrow and the day after that too to complain, but it really doesn't matter at all.

>>24535066
very noble.

/lit/ has concluded another one of my bi-monthly threads about the state of liberalism and the west and it is more clear than ever to me that i am literally the only person on here that knows about how the world really works

I should do something with my life

>>24535275
You're already doing something with your life. It's a low bar

>>24535123
oh ur the midwit boomer who keeps making those lame af deneen threads huh? it's clear to me that you don't know shit

>>24534864
30 years from now when someone makes a movie about internet losers fake our lives will seem authentic

i had the weirdest farts all day like a tiny drop of fart would occasionally escape my ass but i didn't feel like i needed to rip one made me hella paranoid all day when people walked past my desk

>>24534949
Is that a wh40k planet?

When I was religious, I would spend the most time praying for the people in hell. Nobody deserves that fate except the one who sent them there.

>>24535571
>Nobody deserves that fate except the one who sent them there.
themself

I've been very ill at heart lately. I don't know why. Nothing significant has happened in the last four years, and this week hasn't been bad either. I'd usually indulge in my obsession of the moment and forget all about the outside world, but right now, I find it hard to focus. One moment I'm locked into a useful thought, the next it feels like someone is pushing my head underwater. I want to feel numb and focused, not keep reminiscing about happier times with my exes and family. Why now, brain? What message are you sending? It doesn't matter if I reach out to anyone, I can assure you, brain, of this: nobody will find solace in our presence.

Then another thought strikes me sharply, "What if everyone is thinking the same thing? When was the last time you put yourself in someone else's shoes? Why is it that you think no one needs you?" it asks. I am pretty sure I am no one's sun, dear brain. It's been years of silence. They would have come to me. You say they are proud. Maybe they are. But I've burned myself so many times with the same people. Trying again would be folly.

Now silence. Now you get it. Good. I will focus on the task at hand. You understand you need to rest. Companion, I'm glad we talked. See you.

>>24535014
because you should go to sleep
we night owls appreciate night time for what it is: a time for relaxation, focus and appreciation of the quiet things.

>>24534488
Most of those people are very internally fragmented and live in constant contradiction. Some of them are chaotic, with the fragments swirling around and bumping into one another and producing flare-ups of shit behavior a certain % of the time, but others are even worse: their internal fragmented state has congealed into a kind of wonky spiky blob that is pleasant or normal from some angles, awful and evil from other angles.

For example I have a coworker who is simultaneously a nice, funny man, great for banter, genuinely a dedicated and passionate worker who deeply cares about the people he's responsible for helping every day, but he's also arrogant, incompetent within a specific band (so that he routinely fucks over those people he's supposed to help, by "passionately" giving them incorrect information and being 110% certain of it with NO possibility of criticizing or correcting him), and worst of all he's vindictive and petty when someone ticks him off, to the point he'll try to ruin their lives and feel utterly justified in doing so.

Another person I know is a wonderful interesting quirky woman, wealthy creative type, always reading and making new friends because she's so charismatic, who is also an NPD perma-resentment headcase. She lives in constant misery because she can never figure out why 60% of her day is normal nice interactions with people where she's genuinely trying to be a decent person, 20% is stewing in resentment over minor misperceived sleights because she's in hyperdefensive hypervigilance mode scanning for "threats," and the other 20% is her blowing up unnecessarily at strangers, friends, family. Slowly but surely people quarantine her and limit their interactions with her, so she's miserable because none of her relations go very deep after a while. But she'll never figure it out either, because if you try to criticize her at all, you get the same mix of 60% surprising openness and honesty in listening to your criticism, 20% resentment stewing (you can literally see it on her face as it "builds") and building up a counterattack, 20% inevitable freakout. She's stuck in this cycle forever because she just loops all possible criticism back into the cycle.

Most users and manipulators are the same. They are fundamentally not happy people. Happy, healthy people don't want to dominate or use others. I'm convinced of this. When you are internally "in order," you naturally want to help others be in order to, and on their own terms. Only fundamentally weak, divided, confused people want to dominate.

>>24534404 (OP)
My discord's resident footfag is hitting it off with a girl that enjoys reading his multi paragraph sperg texts about Dune and Gundam. I'm happy for the guy, but for the life of me I cannot wrap my head around how he's able to pick up women and I'm not. The guy works as a fry cook, so it's not a money thing. I'm in significantly better shape, so it's not a looks thing (indecently this guy is bi and has drunkenly hit on me a couple of times). I've tried talking to women like a normie and with a dash of autism and still get ghosted the second I actually ask them out!

>>24535672
no one is reading this chatgpt slop dude

>>24534460
Take it as a lesson learned. Only kick stones when there’s nobody or their stuff about.

>>24534543
This reads like a tfw no gf post. Have you tried working on yourself or getting out there and meeting someone who you share your thoughts with?

>>24535687
He knee-jerk took this criticism >>24535032 as being below him so it’s unlikely he’s going to learn to actually … take a second look at himself (from a sensible state of mind).

>>24535680
Thanks a lot.

Cecí n’est pas le paradis

>>24535679
i did read it, it is not chagpt, you imbecile

>>24535679
yeah I know it’s very impersonal and generic and contextually unaware but chatgpt is actually a bit of a better writer

>>24534828
I quit smoking and vaping just like that a few months ago just like that without even trying even though I was vaping constantly. I recently bought some cigarettes and so far don’t seem to be getting addicted again I’m hoping I’ve overcome my addictive side of my personality and this is just a temporary measure whilst I’m going through my stuff and whisky I’m living alone temporarily and it gives me something to do. I don’t drink at all anymore and don’t do any drugs either even though I was a daily weed smoker for a while. It feels clean and right, I want natural (or more like supernatural) highs now and I’m working on getting them.

>>24534956
Surely it’s not fulfilling your desires that’s the cause of your suffering. Maybe you need some more realistic desires for now until you can meet your bigger needs.

>>24535716
>>24534828
that’s me a month clean from alcohol and cigarettes. not to worry though it’s payday today haha enjoy your wednesday ;)

I only care about the grand scheme of things

>>24535721
>Maybe you need some more realistic desires for now
Or better yet, to desire not to desire or to want not to want.

>>24535793
the fucking trite people in this thread come out with man

i was just browsing some gameplay no commentary's on youtube looking for sth comfy to get from the steam sale and youtube recommended me this turbokino

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q0cMYvWzt7M

>>24535014
why do you think all of the most terrifying monsters (vampires, werewolves, ghosts etc.) are known to lurk in the night? because night is when we are away from god's love and warmth.

>>24535833
so god is the sun then

>>24535849
not necessarily.

>>24535852
no, we just only feel him and his warmth when the sun is up. by coincidence.

>>24535859
the sun is a conduit

>>24535861
convenient

>>24535867
you sound mad.

>>24535869
yeah furious

>>24535531
what could be the origin of these weird farts? they just keep coming luckily i'm chilling at home now but it's like everyone often there will be a little bubble of fart slip out of my ass

I don't feel like making another translation thread, so can someone tell me if this is a good translation/collection?

>>24534404 (OP)
I’m always surprised Serbians don’t get more hate

>>24536029
What's a Serbian?

>>24536033
it’s like this thing camgirls sit on

>>24534404 (OP)
I don't love her or even want to be with her but the idea of her with any other man makes me sick- why is this?

anyone else notice the lowercase negativity tranny is back in woym?

why the FUCK is it raining so much my ten day forecast shows rain every single day it usually doesn't even rain in july ngl starting to get PARANOID about cloud seeding

>>24536086
Stop bitching and enjoy the beautiful rain

>>24536084

99% of fiction is essentially biography. So why don't writers read more biography books?

The american transatlantic slave trade was the most successful eugenics program

>>24536099
bruh i need to go to the store and buy groceries but it rains every fucking night after work

Chaos paves the way to freedom

I might just move to Moscow, fuck this westoid life

>>24536120
how so?

i'm going to try a life hack where i take a massive dump before bed so when i get up in the morning i can just slam a coffee, shower, and bounce. i had a roommate who used to do that i think it was better. the only problem is on the weekend if u go out on friday night ur gonna have to take a shit in a sketchy ass bar bathroom know what i mean.

>>24536118
only in the sense that a writer cannot truly invent anyone or anything, can only edit experience. and that's where it should end. writers who make things up are better than autobiographical writers, or writers who put real people on paper. and by paradox, the more closely a character resembles a real interesting person, the less interesting he will be in a novel.

>>24536139
imagine falling for russian propaganda this hard

>>24536145
>writers who make things up are better than autobiographical writers, or writers who put real people on paper. and by paradox, the more closely a character resembles a real interesting person, the less interesting he will be in a novel.
Why? They say truth is stranger than fiction.

>>24536147
What the fuck are you even talking about?

>>24534595
What have you done that makes you think you’re one of them? At the very least, you’re engaging in self-reflection, so that’s a good start.

>>24534873
Yeah, I do, but why exactly do you want to talk to me privately? Is there a reason that you can’t just respond to my post in this thread? I’m not just going to give out my contact info to an anonymous stranger without you offering some sort of context or explanation first.

>>24536161
that sort of writer simply isn't DOING enough. central characters are meant to do more than just go around being close friends or relatives. they are vehicles for the author's self-discovery or self-criticism.

>>24535571
The position of most churches is to pray for the souls of basically everyone. There is no definitive way for anyone to know who is in Hell and who is not (though some people like Judas are almost certainly there).

>>24536193
Judas wasn't all that bad. He didn't betray Jesus out of malice and goes on to hang himself in an attempt to ransom the life of Jesus.

>>24536195
I think the tragedy of Judas is that Jesus likely would have forgiven him had Judas not fallen to despair and killed himself before the Crucifixion. Bulgakov (no not that one) wrote an interesting book on him called Judas Iscariot: Apostle-Betrayer that explores a little bit of a different angle than the standard "he wanted money" story.
At the end of the day we can't know for sure but the odds don't look good, especially considering the numerous woeful things Jesus says about Judas throughout the Gospels.

I wish I was a woman; but, alas, I am too old to transition without completely maiming a good portion of my inherent attractiveness.

>>24536210
Robert Graves in King Jesus portrays him as a tragic intellectual that turned Jesus in to provoke a violent rebellion against the Romans (not expecting that they would kill him).

>>24536220
That's actually pretty much Bulgakov's theory about him. In his view, Judas was trying to "force" Jesus to reveal His divinity by putting Him in a situation He could not get out of without either dying or using divine aid, and Judas despaired because he didn't understand why Jesus would just let himself be led to death the way He did.

Gf wanted to do anal, now my ass hurts...

>>24536284
That's what you get for shoving your ass in her pussy

>>24536284
My heart is beating super fast.

>>24536218
No trannies look good. Passing is a myth. Trannies are a subtype of flamboyant gay man. No normal person will ever accept them and no man who isn't specifically into some weird degradation fantasy about raping a man in drag wants to fuck them.

I'm trying to figure out the best way to pluck the hair off my balls.

>>24536033
Jews on steroids

>>24536033
A Serbian is a Russian who got lost in some mountains and remained full-blown meme Russian while the regular Russians back in Russia evolved into dissilusioned nihilistic Russians

>>24535520
I’ve been posting the threads for years and the imbeciles on this board are still going with the “2 more weeks and the West will collapse” gimmick. My interpretation of an increasingly paranoid, militaristic and ironically illiberal liberalism is the correct one. Banging on drums that the end is near or that any show of force “isn’t real liberalism” is pussy shit.

Remember the sedevacantist anon who used to post on this board? He would freak out over Pope Francis and claim Vatican II was the death knell for Catholicism and the west and use the phrase "50,000 foot view" a lot. The dude was practically convinced any second the church would start putting on pride parades and running abortion clinics.
I hope the election of Pope Leo made his head explode.

>>24536352
just pull it out fast

Quite drunk right now cause I got girl problems.

I'm thinking about women, but not in a weird way. I'm thinking about women with names like Theodora, Antonia, Zoe, Irene, Anna, those kind of women.

>>24536562
How do you feel about Wilhelmina and Eleonora

>>24536565
They're not Greek names.

Flirting with a VTuber who is livestreaming.

My sister is staying at my place for a couple days. The other night she knocked on my door and asked if she could sleep on the other side of my bed since it was getting too hot in my spare bedroom and mine has an AC unit. I said sure and she curled up and went to bed.
It was nice. Not on some weird shit though, it reminded me of when we were both kids and used to hang out together 24/7 and sleep in each others' beds all the time. I forgot how much I missed those times.
In the morning she was already up. Apparently I'm a terrible sleeper who turns sideways and kicks people in his sleep.
The experience made me reflect on notions of closeness between siblings and how cold most of my familial ties are most of the time. I barely ever hear from my other siblings, parents rarely hugged me as a kid, haven't spoken with my cousins in years. I maybe value my family relationships more than I should because I have few relationships at all and it makes me sad when those relationships seems to go nowhere. These couple days have been really warm and pleasant in comparison and I'll feel the loneliness a little more keenly when my sister has to leave again.
Be sure to treasure your siblings if you have them, anons, especially if you're close. Not everyone gets to have that kind of thing and one day you might drift away without realizing it's happening.

>>24536596
My sister is a bitch.

>>24535675
the secret is grandiosity

>>24536535
it‘s always girl problems huh

>>24536599
Sorry to hear that.

>>24534460
lmao

> and have just started this job as a university lecturer (on a year's probation)

congrats!

>>24536607
Yeah...

I read a book called Lest Darkness Fall a long time ago the same year when it was first published, and I still remember every detail in it.

I am a modern woman. I choose to ignore the fact that I am extremely privileged to get attention "by default", and in turn, ignore the humanity of those interested in and around me. I even complain about it. Being alone is just an option for me and so is being intimate. For my own pleasure I casually fuck around, without regard for anyone else - I am a free woman you see! Free love and everything! If I don't like someone I just ghost them, without kindness or courtesy, why even care - if I'm not attracted to them, they are subhuman scum, they may as well not exist! I don't even care about the feelings of my future partner (my history is none of his business, right?), descendants or the future of the world, if I even want anything disgusting like this. I might even whore myself out and no one dare criticize me (and without consequences, right?). I love receiving attention and hate giving it, but that's just right. I pretend to care about others sometimes when it suits my interests or desires. Why would I care about theirs otherwise? I can coast along just fine studying how oppressed we really are. I am a proud feminist because men are evil at their core. Every single one of their desires is wicked and rooted in selfish desires. They should suffer (also from my and my besties' emotional sadism, how fun!) and follow all laws, die in wars for me and do only what is in my interest. When I fuck up, get sick, need support of any kind, they shall provide for me, but not like humans of course, only like slaves. They deserve nothing whatsoever for doing anything, for building the world around me, and they shall pay and suffer for the consequences of my decisions, this world is only about the divine feminine after all. And only we define what love is.


Oh, why is the world around me falling apart?

>>24536635
If you havin' girl problems I feel bad for you son
I got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one

>>24536658
you are a vapid faggot and your complaints are skin deep

>>24536666
>t. intellect devourer

*pukes*
Ahhhhhhh, much better.

>>24534828
You will never get over drinking if you count days of not drinking

>>24536139
Almost everything fucked up from the west is even worse in Moscow + Russia specific shitshow

I was gonna crack open my book at 1 o'clock but it's almost 2am now and I dunno...

When I was just a little kid, my dad cheated on my mom a few times until my mom finally divorced him. But my dad stayed close in my life.

Now that I’m an adult, we can hang out as friends. When we have a few drinks, he tells me his personal feelings. Above all, my dad regrets losing his father-in-law as a friend as a result of the divorce. That was my Grandpa. He was an old school working class guy. He was a carpenter, who also restored classic cars, and painted art of his own. He was an incredible guy. On the other hand, my dad’s actual dad, my other Grandpa, was a mean, grouchy and lonely old man.

TL;DR: My dad screwed up with my mom and it cost him the father he never had

>>24535801
That's how it's supposed to look. The most serious things must seem laughable to the greatest number of people.

>>24536777
That is very uninteresting

>>24536829
Yeah, I would imagine so. Sorry bortha

Am I the only one with hundreds of unread books? I buy books I want to read and end up neglecting all the books I brought previously. Now my bookshelf is so overwhelming. I am unsure whether I should just get rid of 60% and begin again or whether I should actively attempt to read everything and stop buying new books.

>>24536781
the last refuge of the self-serious
>you don’t get it
no it’s just awful

>>24536225
>>24536220
Borges' short story 'the three versions of judas' is another interesting portrayal of him

>>24536835
>Am I the only one with hundreds of unread books?
No?????

I've reached a level of scrutiny with what I read on the internet to where the internet has started to become no longer a useful source of information. I'll spend several hours a day browsing news sites, 4chan, and reddit, reading thousands of posts with hundreds of facts and opinions and explanations and corrections, yet because of my skepticism, my bulwark against fake news and bots and mis-and-disinformation, I internalize none of it, so it ends up being several hours of completely wasted time. "China is gonna Z in a year because of A, B, C, and D, and historical processes of E, F, and G..." neat but I can't be sure you're actually an unbiased expert, so I forget all that information as soon as I'm done reading it so I don't end up believing and repeating something demonstrably false, so why have I spent the time reading it? what a waste of time. I should stick to reading books instead. I miss when I would learn stuff from the internet.

Anyone else know this feel?

>>24536882
Oh, one more example: the amount of competing explanations for why the 2008 financial crash happened, I simultaneously know everything about it and nothing about it. Someone asks me at a party why it happened, since I don't know who to believe, I answer I don't know... then why the fuck did I spend all that time reading about it!?!?!?

fuckin' Russia man, ruined my ability to learn

>>24536850
Précis it?

>>24536852
That makes me feel better, Rajesh. Thank you. I need to break the habit, though, I used to consoom books when I was a wagie and neglected them on my shelf.

Listening to Bladee as I imagine mass deportations. Europa's spirit is rising.

>>24536891
are you talking about the moon goddess, Europa? or are you German or Romanian? Europa isn’t used in English.

>>24536902
You are one pedantic cunt.

>>24536904
you tried to sound clever by using elevated language, but ended up sounding wrong. that kind of thing is particularly offensive to me.

>>24536849
The rabble can't convert, only individuals.

>>24536882
no because i don't get my news from infotainment engagement farms

>>24536835
ya i buy three and then read one so even if i'm reading the unread pile just keeps growing

>>24536935
quite ironic of you to invoke the ‘individual,’ which comes from a latin word that implies coherence and integration. indivisible.

>>24536952
ya

>>24536959
meaning an individual is the unit so small it can't be divided unlike a group or even a pair

>>24536971
you’re still missing the point (deliberately?) - it doesn’t just mean smallest unit. individuus meant something whole, integrated. you’re using individual to mean ‘set apart’ or ‘above,’ but the word doesn’t support that.

>>24536987
an individual is not a group. you are stupid. have a wonderful day.

>>24536946
What can I say? I like internet community and social groups that allow for medium-depth posts like 4chan and reddit. I get all of my world news by browsing /r/worldnews and you can get analysis and worldwide sentiment by browsing the comments. But yes, these comments are filled by competing interest groups and individuals with conflicting ideologies trying to convince and shape the world. Hella Israeli and Indian astroturfing groups on there, for example.

>>24536997
being an individual implies membership

>>24536998
>I get all of my world news by browsing /r/worldnews
it's so grim that people like you exist

>>24537004
no, it does not. maybe whatever proto

>>24537005
I used to use the News app on my previous iPhone and spend a good amount of time daily reading that but too many of the sites and sources are paywalled now, so I don't anymore. So sticking with a community curator option like /r/worldnews provides me with the important global stuff + the entertainment of commentary from 'ordinary' people. Plus reading domestic news has become too depressing.

I know, I know, I should spend more time reading books and perhaps the Arts and Culture and Book Review sections of a handful of prestigious and respected outlets, but meh.

>>24537005
and they post here as well. bleak.

>>24537010
>but meh
reddit already influencing your vocabulary

>>24537018
For news, reddit is far, far better than /pol/.

>>24537020
tru

>>24537022
sooooo... that's a thing!

>>24537022
>For news, reddit is far, far better than /pol/.
that's like saying for eating dinner the toilet at grand central station is better than a port-a-potty at a construction site

>>24537029
?

>>24537032
What's a better one-stop mobile-friendly site for learning anything important happening around the world while I eat my breakfast and lunch? Where I can see updates regarding the Invasion of Ukraine, the Israel-Palestine Conflict, Trump's moves on the geopolitical stage, seismic political changes in foreign countries, and everything in-between and related?

>>24537034
Didn't you just say that all this news you're reading makes you none the wiser?
Follow individual writers/reporters on specific issues.
Once you found someone who is reliable and has decent predictions then you're set.

>>24537029
lol

>>24537043
The objective, factual news is obviously still useful. It's the analysis and commentary I have difficulty trusting and learning from, leaving me in a state where I cannot confidently state or even learn anything. News about an economic recession, someone comments about the benefits of state intervention, someone replies with how state invention during the Great Depression prolonged it, then someone else replies to that by stating that's wrong and state intervention did in fact help end the Great Depression, I read it all and I'm left none-the-wiser, and when someone asks me in the future what I think about the subject, all I can say is "I don't know." Sad.

>>24537043
>>24537049
Oh, to add: but since I love learning and reading about things, the reading of those comments is still entertaining, and of course, I still learn about the current event initial news.

>>24537049

>>24537053
lol of course, but my point is ideally I would be learning from those comments. This is how most people on the internet become informed these days, by bits and pieces they pick up here and there. Only I can no longer trust any of it, so none of it becomes internalized. Or to put another way, the amount of information and answers I read in these posts daily, I should know the answers, I should be able to confidently state a position with factual points to back it up. But now I trust none of the facts, so I cannot.

>>24536959
The anon who replied to you isn't the one you replied to, that would be be. Looks like you took your refuge in semantics.

I'm surprised I haven't yet seen a TV show which references and uses the end of Moby-Dick in some sort of allegorical or illustrative monologue by one of the characters. It's such a powerful ending if I remember it correctly, with a striking image.

>>24537078
it's common practice in philosophy to take the simple scientific precaution of finding the etymology and therefore the original meaning.

Nine Inch Nails is the greatest band of all time

I ended up eating all of the chips my mom brought home, all six bags in a handful of days. Damn. Oh and the ice cream sandwiches too at a rate of two a day. Once they're all gone then I can go back to normalcy and self-control.

>>24535634
>I am pretty sure I am no one's sun, dear brain.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nwIqTTRSjKg

Hey, you. Go read BLAME! by Tstutomu Nihei. It's good.

Got invited to the birthday party of the girl I like, the day after tomorrow. From what I understand, it's going to be nothing but girls there. Good thing I'm good with women, not good enough to actually get any of them, mind you, but good enough to have nice casual conversations with them.

>>24537357
women are only good for having sex with

When i type the words "sodomite xenophile race" what group of people do you think about?

>>24537360
I'd murder for a mere hug. But not one of those "hello/goodbye" hugs, they do nothing for me, I want a genuine "I really like you"-hug.

/adv/ might be the most retarded board on here.

and the sky turned white in the middle of the night
and the sky turned white in the middle of the night

>>24537396
https://youtu.be/CfW-MPUjC_0?si=8qNVeUByVmeRjDoo

>>24537362
Cyclists

>>24537362
Germans

Having a lot of thoughts about the stricture of homages in litteeitute, oral tradition, rap music.
How they are more often cenotaphs to a cultural image rather than true homages, the kind of respect architecture associated with them and how often apocryphal figures feature

George Henry Lewis wrote geothes life and started it with a homage to an apocryphal Roman historian who wrote Alexander the great, which also includes an apocryphal homage.
George Henry Lewis was the boyfriend of Mary Anne Evans, both prolific writers, essayists.

Trying to work out how to frame my works with cultural homage, rather then pretensious prose or name dropping dead authors and critics who would totally trash my work if they were alive.

I think these homages are important because they establish the cultural context of your work early, for the benefit of analytical readers, without footnotes and other awful baggage. Books should have a start, middle, end which corresponds with the page numbers. No preface, prose, pop out pictures, fold out maps. A book is a book so if you want to add homages they have to be written in.

thinking of jerking off

Good news: saw Gio Scotti in my dream
Bad news: got friendzoned and cucked by Gio Scotti in my dream :(

Zeitgeist shift or empty political posture to weakening right wing sentiments?

>>24537488
how much of a terminally online victim you have to be for that to happen to you? don't you feel ashamed?

The worst thing isn't to realize it's over, but that it's been over

The anxiety of a possible sudden regret arriving, a moment where your past changes, and you regret

I wonder where she is.

>>24537494
Right wing sentiments won't be tempered by that.
Anytime you walk in a city and it's all jeets chinks and nigs is enough to inflame it again.
The people that used to argue for mass migration seem to be tired. Their talking points don't hit anymore and jewish money stopped funding them after October 7

>>24537627
you are a joke, you are the easiest cattle to rule over in all of human history

I still remember when Karl Marx was a lil' pickaninny running 'round the Berlin streets...

I still recall the taste of your tears

>>24537687
Karl Marx? I haven’t thought of that old son of a bee-sting in well over twenty years. hope he is well.

Well, France has to scratch and claw their way to victory after the death of their King Vincent. Marseille is under siege and they are doing everything they can. Nobody on this board has been able to summarize this conflict the right way as it is unfolding.

>>24537725
>>>/vg/twg

It's strange how in most novels the PoV character is just a disembodied pair of eyes. I want to feel their sensation of heat and cold, their hunger and thirst, their relief after taking a piss or the ecstasy of their orgasm, the hair on their arms and legs standing straight up and a shiver running through them, or their eyes burning and muscles aching from exhaustion after an all nighter. The body is not just a vessel for the consciousness, or a means to interacting with the world, it is our self.

I love Helldivers 2. It let's me live my fascistic heroic fantasies of killing hordes of enemies; final war by axegrinder must be on for more epicness

>>24537834
I read an author's essay once that said 'reading is like listening to someone talking to you in private, you alone.' At a certain point the reader might go ... why are you telling me all this?

For instance, in life, when it comes to the recounting of sexual confidences by one man to another, venturing into physical detail is in danger of producing discomfort in the hearer. 'Not shock, more like embarrassment, born of uneasy speculation about what sort of fellow it can be who is prepared to tell you all this.'

I yearn for a committed romantic relationship but I can not neither keep nor find a job and would be considered a bum who lives with his parents by most. I doubt any woman would look at me if they knew. My need for intimacy has been neglected for years to a point it affects my well being. I wish to be loved so I can live a good life once again, to better myself and my life, to love back. But I need to get through it alone as I doubt anyone would be this patient with me.
Honestly, I feel that me thinking all of that makes me both pathetic and selfish but the more I try to suppress these thoughts the louder they get.
https://files.catbox.moe/z5axwg.webm

I just started using yt-dlp. I feel like a computa hacka.

>>24537866
>I doubt any woman would look at me if they knew.
If violent drug addicts can get girls, then so can you.

>>24537907
>If violent drug addicts can get girls, then so can you.
women are attracted to scum of the earth and baddies

>>24537907
>>24537931
anyone in their right mind would have a more fun evening with a violent drug addict than ... >>24537866

>>24537813
Im sorry bro I had a dream where I posted that on this board. Idk what it mea s

>>24537973
that’s funny i had a similar thing a while ago where i dreamt i did something then woke up and tried it

I signed up for Twitter just so I could use their ai to write really specific erotica that appeals to me exclusively. It's pretty much a dream come true.

>>24537907
Don't women date drug addicts cause they are also addicts and use the guy as their supplier?

I solved all my problems by ignoring them.

>>24538095
the longer charlie squats in the bush the stronger he gets

>>24538065
No, they date addicts because they have no self-preservation (neither do I).

>>24538148
the reason girls feel safer(?) around those types is because there's no real desperation. If you're with a desperately lonely guy and you're a tiny weak girl, you might reasonably think 'this mf might kill me to sleep with me.' druggies who are surrounded by girls you won't really get that.

>>24538148
You can have an millennium lineage and still be irrelevant; self preservation means nothing if your life or the lives of your descendants are inconsequential. Hitler bloodline doesn't exist anymore yet his actions will live forever even if they aren't explicitly talked about

>>24538186
>Hitler
died shamefully with no sons to succeed him. your older cousin who has 2 kids at age 22 has done a better job at conquering death than adolf.

what do you think would happen if i just made a new write your thoughts thread right now?

>>24538219
I'd have to take it out on my son.

Y'know something I hate? People who automatically assume when they can't understand something, there must be nothing there, that it's even obscurantist and fraudulent. Always give the benefit-of-the-doubt.

That said, I'm watching this TV show right now, Billions, and I swear the dialogue doesn't always quite add up all the time, with scenes either lacking meaning, flow, or both. That or my brain is finally giving out, because I never feel this way about TV shows.

went to the cinema with a cute woman today, felt confusion and warm appreciation about the whole thing. it is unusual to me, and even a bit distressing, that some people in this world would agree to seeing someone like me.

how does it even work? actually taking some time off your day to watch a movie with someone who's barely a functioning human being and no one else? It personally wouldn't cross my mind to hang out with a /lit/ schizo (unless said schizo is a cute girl) but I guess some people are okay with that. I can't make up my mind on this, am I the equivalent of a cute, schizoid nerdnecked woman wearing a black hoodie to women? or am I hanging out with the blind. somewhat baffling

>The placement of Victor Hugo's remains in the crypt in 1885 was its first entombment in over 50 years.
Wow... such an honor.... If I imagine a world where my writing is revered enough to be entombed in a national mausoleum I get slightly aroused.

>>24538563
to evoke posterity is weeping over your own grave

in my first year of uni i showed the girl i had just started going out with this thing i wrote for my english lit course, a little creative writing piece, i chose to write about the pull of the void. the urge to jump when you’re in high places. and she looked at me like, almost affronted. she was bpd and manic depressive in the past. i think that was the start of our breakup. she never got past it. i’m such a freak.

>>24534404 (OP)
I’m so fucking tired despite getting eight hours of sleep every night that all I want to do is close my eyes and pass out by 5 PM.

>>24538655
what’s your diet like

ChatGPT is a much better conversationalist than the average /lit/ poster

>>24538666
the avg lit poster doesn’t want to talk to you, gipiti has no choice

>>24538662
I don’t think it’s that. I’ve been tapering an SSRI for the last couple months, which probably has something to do with it.

my whole life i thought the uk was just a nation of decline. not exactly the ‘rainy plague depression island’ that coastal-elite americans call us, but a sad and defeated place (with a decent sense of irony). but actually i’m realising it’s mostly a spirt of pain + optimism (not optimism in the american sense but … waiting, half hopeful half stubborn)

My grandma's sister died. I was comforting her as she wept.

i think i might take a nap i saw david cronenberg dropped a new movie it has shit rating but the premise sounds ok might watch it later idk

https://youtu.be/lg9rbz2uQTk?si=RoEwxq5RzhU9e44A

good old england!!

>>24538759
Are you English or British?

>>24538759
english why

>>24538797
>>24538786

I think about all the time I spend watching TV and listening to music and realize the great writers instead spent all of it reading and writing and reading some more. If only I could do the same, fuck, how much happier and fulfilled I'd be with myself.

>>24538813
RA Lafferty didn't start writing until his 40s, and he's world renowned.

WAHRHEIT I

God how I love the pale...
and every time I laid eyes on the skin of the doll and the scientific jugdments of the gnostic there I say like a crystalline world of concepts sliding and moving in clear lines but not so clear enough as to
have their ends recognizable by the naked eye
yes
there was a thought that brought me in, i was fish-like and this was at the beijing biennale
and you my friend Ernest or so I call you--
you were there
with glasses and the vainspoken beard
and thought and taught me
before your will ill spent vanished and crumbled and left nothing but a streak of dust
i was there too remember
but you said to me the NAMES like some underground book of the dead sycamore trees welcoming youto the river and me reciting the names to catch a whiff of the beyond
but the beyond was not here dark:
it was pale

god the illusion of a couple of years
the architectonics of a set of truths and its method
there was the disassembly of human soul at the operating table
the diagrams
the spaces

and a vague spirit perhaps a demon though let
us not be optimistic too much
and so i admired the shapes without colour o so fresh
o so transparent
o so water-like and still
but no emotion can do justice
and it is the annihilation of poetry itself
and there was a scape path but... narrowed down and so i failed and chained myself to the shitter planet
they call earth
they call earth to the solar system
what africa is to the earth
all so sad

all these hieratic planets looking down at us with despondence from the sky from above
with their own magnetic souls polished into spheres
and our world is still flat...

returning:
like a woman made of thought
extracting my words
not you, but what you showed to me:
they were the names
they were the memes
and i for one second some times some days felt
it "clicked" and drew the patterns and i "saw"
the "art"...

(to be continued)

>>24538752
Shit world cup

>>24538800
I was just wondering.

I like British women.

>>24538864
great free kick

>>24538877
How much are free kicks worth in points?

>>24538875
not even i can go that far

>>24538888
no points in football m80 it’s just goals

ON CHRISTMAS IN A MOSTLY SECULAR SENSE

the night where all the windows are flat
every night but christmas
the nights that fall on this field are like monsters in my head

and this cat-like fixation
on the world's leaves hanging from the ceiling
this I thought banale
until
and this is a big until
a little house
which was not made with cookies
but it might as well be
and perhaps tried to APPEAR as it was madeout of cookies
you deceiving
BITCH
--no it's okay you can lie to me i allow you
because it is the last song ever that is
the last and potentially first lie made out of pure intentions
that is love--

and the house is non-separable from its cookies and they may not be the wallls but the cookies are there on the walls
perhaps even IN the walls like corpses
but the cookies are there
because there are no
METAPHYSICS
without a set of cookies:
every metaphysics has its cookies

so i looked at the house and i could almost taste them

I suppose I'm making fajitas. The word reminds me of the character Vegeta from Dragon Ball, or Vegetius from the Roman Empire.

Finally reading sum Ligotti. Starting w/ The Red Tower. I appreciate how closely Ligotti is able to ape Lovecraft's style without being TOO verbose. I need to buy myself copies of Songs of a Dead Dreamer/Grimmscribe and Teatro Grottesco or whatever the fuck it's called lol. Tomorrow (likely tomorrow anyways) my copy of The Great God Pan arrives and I can start it. God I love weird fiction so much, and the summer months are the best time to appreciate it in I feel.

I miss you terribly, compulsively. I've become a total fool via your absence. You have transformed me so thoroughly it is like psychological alchemy, though I'm not so precious a stone as you or I may have wished. But if you were to come back, would I even recognize you? Would I recognize you as this figure in my head that I'm missing, or would you appear a stranger in your own skin, and cause me to drive you away again, and then continue on this path of missing a mere fiction? It's more terrifying to think I don't miss you, and that what I'm lacking is something fundamental -- not just some equational psychological anguish caused by the deprivation of your presence, but something deeper inside of me that I can't name and which is impossible to ever content. Nevertheless, I miss some form of you. What I miss touches upon your person, and I am in Hell to lose it. Then will I run headlong into the Earth. Earth, gape! O no, it will not harbor me!

>>24539169
Nice.

The board be movin' quite slowlike at th' moment yarr.

>>24539303
what else is new

Do you guys think it's true that if you don't manage to have normal relationships by a certain age, you're doomed to life alone forever?
I was traveling today and randomly had a ton of cute girls on my flight. The whole time I was stuck in this ridiculous thought loop of imagine-a-whole-life-with-her/find-reasons-that-it-wouldn't-work/beat-myself-up/overwhelming-touch-starvation. It's dysfunctional and makes every personal interaction with a girl a source of anxiety, something I'll think about in terms of "fucking it up" or "doing it wrong," but I don't see a way to change my thought processes and get out of it.
>inb4 lmao incel, loser, kill urself
Tracking all

>>24539511
Bitch.

Test

Yesterday I went to the river and sat on the good green grass embankment and watched the light as it broke and scattered upon the water. The water was cold and pain in the beginning and pleasure in the end. When I sat my body shook and I became very warm and I felt various rings move up and down my body. Only when it came back did I realise how much I missed its absence and the ducks paddled in their ones and twos and when I read Kafka's fragments with great concentration and I felt doors and keys and gears moving in my mind and when the wind came up I went home.

>>24538875
I've never heard this before. You certainly will have less competition than most tastes.

I'm thinking of you.

There isn't a reason anymore to not write what you like or suits your prerogative. Hardly anyone will read it, and if they do the chance of receiving any feedback is even more scant.
There is freedom in this.

>>24539678
I read every post in these threads.

sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex

what are some good short stories recommendations if you want to learn how to write one?

Prayer is actually wonderful. Real, deep prayer is such a satisfying thing to experience. It is the complete opposite of meditation, in a good way, because meditation is ever-inward but prayer is ever-outward, yet it's inward, too. A great inner journey that also steps into the infinite unknowing of God, the immense darkness of the unfathomable Truth of God, who cannot be grasped by the Reason but must be journeyed into by the dark light of Faith. God is totally infinite, a vast depth in which prayer will only ever venture a little ways, but even a small journey outwards is completely satisfying. And you learn as much about yourself as you ever would in the inward-journey of meditation. Prayer is all-in-all, inward and outward all in a moment. Because God is the infinity of all things, so to experience God is to both go to the farthest reaches of reality but also to go deep inside yourself.

"Even the hairs on your head are counted."

>>24539713
I like what you say, but I am of the belief that non-contrived meditation also moves us in two (or more) opposing directions at the same time, or as you say, inward-outward

Someone just sent me an about 15 other industry professionals I've never met an email with nothing but "L" in the subject and body and I am spooked

ChatGPT is telling me people from New Mexico aren't American but New Mexican.

Another comfy night lying awake in my bed listening to music and remembering that the world is full of beauty and wonder instead of going to sleep, despite having to wake up early tomorrow. I've done so from time to time since I was young and a while ago I realized that it's probably because my home was dysfunctional and hostile; these wee small hours being the only time when everything felt fine, safe and quiet.
>>24539741
Maybe you have been recruited to become a vampire or something cool like that.

>>24539820
>recruited to become a vampire
https://youtu.be/zXrKZiN98MA?si=-BvNHgt9-kOWJsPB

>>24534404 (OP)
I know this sounds very strange but you could maybe convincingly argue that ritual cannibalism by itself is legal. At least in countries with religious freedom laws. All you'd have to do is rope in the catholics or some other Mainstream Christian denomination.
The worst that can happen is that a court of law takes a stance on the nature of Eucharist, which would be very funny.

>>24539874
>Wow, is that really the blood of Christ?
>Holy crap, that guy must've been wasted 24 hours a day.

>>24534404 (OP)
is that a Lemur? Lemurs are better.

are there any other good boards on the site? this board isn't interesting any more

I wish it was the 60s I wish we could be happy

>>24540073
is that from one of those shitty songs they play on the radio? sounds like it

>>24536882
who cares if something is "demonstrably" false. especially history. there's no lab for history.

>>24540067
/pw/

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fUii9c4GGRs
I spent way too long finding the b side
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OJOZ8njDMC0

I keep procrastinating way too much. And I eat way too much. Having a boyfriend might fix this.

>>24540157
gay

>>24540067
/mlp/

>>24540067
I spent an afternoon on /ck/ once. I had a blast actually.

I will eat cheese and bread sometime later. And by "sometime" I mean, once I've earned it. And by "earned it" I mean, once I've spent enough time on my work. Mind you, not the progress I've achieved by then, but just the hours I dedicated to it.

if you had to pick between race war and state mandated gf which would you pick, for me it's state mandated gf's

>>24540426
state mandated race war

Have I changed or has /lit/ changed...

>>24540449
you changed

>>24534404 (OP)
I love you, Hitler.

I miss the times when I thought political discourse was simply a matter of ideology against ideology. Now I can't listen to anything political without considering every second sentence to be mistaken not at the level of ideological argumentation, but at the level of underlying axioms, implicit presumptions, and manipulative language. Like everything people say are so fucking wrong that 5 minutes of speech would take me hours to break down and unpack completely if I really wanted to explain everything wrong with what they are saying, only for them to completely no sell it and call me some sort of political pejorative if I ever actually bothered to do so. Normies have zero idea what mental and intellectual solitude of this degree feels like, I hate it that the only people to ever sound sane and logical to me, not only politically, but also aesthetically or philosophically in general are people who have been dead for decades or centuries.

sometimes I am torn between wanting to train my brain to be more rational, more logical, more honest, more self aware, feed it more abstract patterns, teach it to think like an intricate machine, not let it get away with not thinking everything through to the end, not to ever flinch, not to ever use it to soothe itself and thinking that maybe my mind simply was not constructed that way and by trying to go against it‘s hard coded ways is to work against the material instead of with it, trying to force it into a mode it was not made for, like it will never be capable of that kind of thinking the same way a brain built for it could, and so I would pay the price of destroying my ability to not think that way for a mediocre attempt to turn it into something it‘s not - and then in the end, I will stand there with empty hands

>>24540449
/lit/ changed

>>24540449
/lit/ is so bad now

/lit/ started with the Greeks and is laughing in Ionic

>>24537043
>Follow individual writers/reporters on specific issues.
>Once you found someone who is reliable and has decent predictions then you're set.
Which ones do you follow?

>>24540508
>>24540529
His feet are light and nimble. /lit/ never sleeps. /lit/ says that he will never die. /lit/ dances in light and in shadow and he is a great favorite. /lit/ never sleeps, the judge. /lit/ is dancing, dancing. /lit/ says that he will never die.

my grandma died today
when she recalled her city in flames, being bombed, losing her family in war, even at 92 years of age, she was moved to inconsolable sorrow
the trauma of war is felt for generations

opinions on oasis reunion concerts?

I'm chilling rice milk so later I can pour it over me and chill myself in a shower

You can tell that most people into conspiracies or "parapolitics" are actually normalfags because they are obsessed with CIA and ignore the role of Western European intelligence agencies, specially after the cold war.
I don't think Euroglowniggers have the means of their American counterparts, but they are involved in genuinely abhorrent shit. Did you know, for example, French glowniggers collaborated with Islamic countries to coordinate jihadist terror attacks against civilians in Spain?
I wish there was more literature on EU deep state ops.

meth heads are way worse than opioid zombies cuz meth people get high af and start screaming for six hours. there's some guy that i can hear right now over the hum of my air conditioner just shouting "ayyyee" "aeyyee" like every 20 seconds. the cops even have this camera down the block that goes "this parking lot is being video recorded" every five minutes or so. luckily that's not loud enough to hear over the ac, but it is probably going to be fucking annoying in the fall.

>>24540852
And if you want to understand contemporary Europe, you have to think of it as a set of states performing permanent "soft coup d'etats" against themselves and helping other states do the same

>>24540852
>That's all he knows about France in Africa
Kek, the Anglosphere is hilarious

>>24540852
i remember when i was young and into communism my dad shared me this hilarious news story about a guy who was suing the german government because for his whole life he had donated a big part of his salary to this german maoist party and then after late stage communism finally collapsed it was exposed that it was all an op by german intelligence and he wanted his money back lmao.

>>24540866
I'm all ears, my frog friend
>>24540871
Kekworthy

Maybe pouring some more glucose syrup down my gullet will make me feel good....

>>24540910
use motor oil instead

I had a dream that I raped a woman at the A site of Mirage from Counter-Strike; I was choking her when I pulled up her shirt and sucked on her breast, among other things.

>>24541059
>average CS:GO player.

I pirated KeeperRL, but I'm going to buy it now. The game was really fun.

>>24540852
The average normalfag doesn't even know what MK Ultra was.You're vastly overestimating their intelligence.

>>24540852
You are confusing normies with leftoids, for leftoids everything bad is the product of cia as if other countries don't have agency

>>24541059
COVER ME

>>24537409
get out of the way!

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