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Life is boring I get constant deja vus

I need to stop watching TV and/or browsing my phone when trying to go to sleep and start reading before bed instead like proper well-to-do couples do.

The other day I had my first "man it'd be nice to have a kid" thought. Maybe having a family is in my cards after all.

Goddamn it actually fills me with rage when people try to shit-talk Franco and the Nationalists in the Spanish Civil War. I am actually infuriated by these people who want to be apologists for murdered priests, raped nuns, desecrated corpses, filth and feces smeared all over shrines.

There is just no fucking peace with these people so I do not fucking care what Trump does to them in my own country. They'll NEVER stop hating people who actually believe in Christ and the Church, so fuck them. Franco was Divine judgment on them, Trump is too, and that's what they'll always get, and I don't have to feel the slightest sympathy for them when they get it.

I don't wanna make a thread since I don't think this book warrants any attention but I read through like 160 pages of "Power vs Force" only to realise this self-help book is masquerading itself as a philosophy book because of the author's supposed academic status.
It reminded me of "The Secret", the pseudo-science version of it. No naunce and yet at the same time tries to put everything in a black and white dichotomy.

>>24575299
Not to be rude but you're kinda getting what you're asking for. If you want serious philosophy, read serious philosophy.

>>24575302
I just picked it up from the library shelf and I thought the title looked nice, I wasn't expecting serious philosophy but at least some nuance.
If there's anything I learnt I'm susceptible to fancy title wording and design.

The knee jerk reaction to Antinatalism is "kill yourself or you're a hypocrite," but part of the problem with existence is that we are instinctively bound to living in fear of pain and death.
Not only that but we would harm others emotionally by committing suicide, either as traumatic witnesses or bereaved family members, etc.
I wouldn't consider myself one, but I just think it's unfair to dismiss a growing philosophy in that way. The conditions that give rise to such a pattern of thought clearly need some fair examination.

>>24575306
Fair enough. All I can say is in my experience, pop-science and pop-history books can be solid, but pop-philosophy should always be avoided.

Hmm, time to finally begin reading one of the two DH Lawrence novels I own, Sons and Lovers and Dr Chatterley's Lover, or go with something else. Any major fans of DH Lawrence here?

Really don't like or understand why the weather effects my mood so much. I was fine when it was 25c and sunny, now it's 20c and cloudy and cool and i'm depressed with other behaviours i don't have when it's nice. It's not even a big shift.

>decide to say fuck it try to relearn maths
>start from pre algebra because not sure where to start
>tfw it feels like pic related

>>24575353
lol I think pre-calc is what you should've gone with

>>24575355
Nah, I don't want to possible miss out on something I should've known beforehand. That said, what's the order of learning maths anyway? At least till start of college level.

>>24575362
high school goes pre-alg -> alg -> alg 2/pre-calc/trig -> calc

>>24575298
>I am actually infuriated by these people who want to be apologists for murdered priests, raped nuns, desecrated corpses, filth and feces smeared all over shrines.

In 2025 there are no more priests they can kill, no more nuns they can rape, no more corpses they can desecrate, in Europe at least. It truly feels like the "reds" have won even tho they lost in the actual war. Very depressing

>>24575353
It's worth doing. If you start from the very beginning and make sure *everything* is crystal clear, you'll understand mathematics far better than most other people. It's what I did when I started preparing for university entrance exams, for both math and physics.

I was going to ask you where the image is from because I recognised it from this music release but the answer was there in the comments. I think I might have it on DVD.

https://youtu.be/Lw6Wjd9lALM

>>24575355
Thanks anon. Much appreciated.

>>24575366
Exactly. I didn't do it before I thought the amount of things I had to learn was daunting but then I realized I was inhibiting myself from learning because of my lack of patience and assumptions that I should know this already. When do you start with Physics? Alongside maths or after a certain point?

Nixon > JFK

niggers

>>24575290
Its too late for me

>>24575216 (OP)
There is no other explanation for the movie Oklahoma than the concurrent events of the slaughter suicide at Kansas City barn room event venue where notably biblical cow hand Stannon Charley with a threaded pipe from the main under South Street deliberated upon a few unwitting while more quietly the daughter of Mr. and Mrs. Houston in town for horses was last seen with a man bearing the resemblance of a movie star. The horses themselves were well known actors, distempered and vain.

>>24575298
>>24575365
That's why I don't really get upset when color revolutions happen. Not my problem.

>>24575459
I see.

official thread theme
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KW1D564lIPY

>>24575679
who is this mongloid cunt what the fuck

>>24575686
That's James Joyce, famous 20th century novelist in the modernist school.

but nah,
>For decades Tatiana Nikolayeva was celebrated as one of the finest pianists and pedagogues in the Soviet world, but it was not until the waning days of the Soviet Union that her renown spread to the West.

+

>Supposedly at an International Bach Competition (which Shostakovich was adjudicating and from which he would return to the Soviet Union, inspired by Nikolayeva to write his monumental 24 Preludes & Fugues for her), the final phase of the competition consisted of playing one of the fugues from the Art of the Fugue. When the panel asked Nikolayeva which one she intended to play, she responded, "Which would you like?" Needless to say, she won.

One of the all-time greatest pianists, especially with her performances of Bach.

>>24575353
What motivates you to do so? Do you have a plan, resources and support to continue? Because you need both motivation and discipline to continue, if you are missing either you won't be pursuing your goal for long.

I once spoke a stranger in Greece
To speak of the salient in peace
But stuck to the lame;
A social con game
I spoke of the weather in Greece

Krasznahorkai's The World Goes On reads like if you asked him to write a unified short story collection that wouldn't be out-of-place if posted in one of these threads.

I can't seem to "lock in" and get in the zone when writing on my days off lately for some reason.

I can type fine.
Can string thoughts together just fine.
But can't focus on putting a story together lately for some reason. When I try my head feels funny and I can't get anything out.

>>24575332
>“Ours is essentially a tragic age, so we refuse to take it tragically. The cataclysm has happened, we are among the ruins, we start to build up new little habitats, to have new little hopes. It is rather hard work: there is now no smooth road into the future: but we go round, or scramble over the obstacles. We’ve got to live, no matter how many skies have fallen.”
― D.H. Lawrence, Lady Chatterley's Lover

with an opening like that, how can you not read it asap

>>24575900
>can string thoughts together just fine
>IT FEEL F-FUNNY OKAY

I'm so exhausted. I clean my flat and my legs shake.

>>24575916
Ok.
It feels like salted clouds that have just enough static charge to raise hair but not enough to raise the dead.

Does that help?

>>24575943
It does, thanks. Stop writing, self reflect or don't. I don't give a fuck. Good luck.

three hours until I gotta ride the bus for two hours to get to the dentist, lame. least i'll get some quality reading done on the way

>>24575216 (OP)
I fear I may be having withdrawls, but how?. I don't know what's happening. Can you even feel withdrawls from pornography?
Why am I all cold all of the sudden.

>>24576046
I'm sure that this would make for a very fresh novel if it was written in this style alternating with dryer, more calm and collected, description. From some narrator character. A distant relative of the Self Insert MC's made by late 20th century cartoonists You know the ones, like R. Crumb and some other.

>>24575216 (OP)
---- Solaria ----
20003

Poise

In circumstances this bright and placid
Or spacious to the mind

I sometimes wonder about the quality of foresight
That takes one here--

That sense of sensational music and
Systems beyond belief.

Ayy, Anon on the beat, ho
Hugo any book nigga, he a free throw
Man down, call an amberlamps, tell him, "Read, bro"
Nail a niggatothecross, he walkaround like Jesus
What'sup with these retarded-ass niggas tryna tell me what to read?
The board can hate me, fuck 'em all and they mama
How many opps you really got? I mean, it's too many options
I'm finna pass on this body, I'm Raskolnikov

>>24576097
Good job tyler the dilater.

>>24576080
Always enjoy reading these.

>>24575216 (OP)
---- Solaria ----
20004
Outdoors
To make a toy of landscape
Or a machine that renders the sky

Like a telescope can is fabulous as fashion
Wishes to be.

>Dolphins QB Tua Tagovailoa on how he motivates himself: "I'm reading a book right now." When asked what he's reading: "I don't know what I'm reading. Funny. Ha ha."

sigh

why are people such shit

i only speak of their bravery in this situation

>>24575368
It's a fun little arthouse film. I really wanna write a novella based on a similar plot, except with clownish, dilettante right-wing terrorists in our contemporary climate (then again some of these right-wingers wear philistinism as a badge of honor).

>>24576187
It wouldn't work, I believe. They are allergic to doing anything except voting. Though I guess it doesn't fully demerit the plot if you make it take place entirely on the internet.
An alternative is to make everyone involved over the age of 40 and center it on Qtardation or something of that sort.

Chat, I'm scared. I hear thunder outside. Eeeek.

>>24576240
Last time it started raining hard over here I oddly enough started wildly celebrating when I heard a mighty thunderblast. I was elated, for some reason.

>>24576249
Nta but I love thunder and lightning storms, they're amazing to watch
We got downpours yesterday and the sound of them is fantastic

>>24576131
Glad that anyone does. I write all of them when pretty drunk, in bed, usually while listening to music with HD600s on, wireless keyboard, big monitor bedside. Addicted more to gardening and big sedans.

>>24575308
>we would harm others emotionally by committing suicide, either as traumatic witnesses or bereaved family members, etc.
People being afraid of death and suicide really perplexes me. Part of a good life is a good death, and we should destigmatize taking yourself out.

>>24576316
Okay, but before that can we try treating each other with kindness? Even gorillas figured it out. We're all collectively much poorer constantly fighting for resources instead of cooperating. Guys come on, glass the bad actors and do it right. No half measures.

>>24575708
I've been a jobless bum after not being able to do much with my degree and not getting a job due to a multitude of factors. So considering how much I've basically done nothing for the past year and half I started studying for these government post exams. They require a lot of subjects, some focusing on one thing more than another, but one subject that's consistent is maths and logical reasoning in all the exams.
For my plan I want to get till calculus at least. I'm using Prof. Leonard's youtube playist and Khan Academy for now. I don't know where I'd find test paper/questions to practice but I guess I'll hopefully figure something out. I study every day for 2 hours minimum. Besides that I don't have much support, I'm more or less on my own.

>>24576324
I'm saying if you destigmatize, suicide all the suicides where it is a kindness stop being "emotional harm", and it becomes emotional harm to demand they do the kindness to others of suffering through it

>>24576337
And I am saying you'll have a better odds seeing pigs fly.

>>24576340
Not really, plenty of countries want to or already have instituted euthanasia or assisted dying laws

>>24575216 (OP)
Watching The Master right now. Casting Joaquin Phoenix as the MC was a great idea, (Though I think they overplayed their hand by attempting to pass a 38 year old man as a twenty-something), and I can also see why he was cast as Joker (2018), now.

>>24576354
The guy playing legally distinct L Ron Hubbard is not bad either.

>>24576349
>11 out of 193 legalized
>4 are discussing it
Yup, plenty is the worlds strongest lifter in that sentence.

>>24576362
Pretty sure there are more countries were homosexually is a crime.

David Bowie is the greatest artist of all time

>>24576362
>Netherlands, Belgium, Luxembourg, Canada, Colombia, New Zealand, and parts of Australia, Spain, and the United States
Yeah, none of those seem to be big or important countries, let's focus on Burkina Faso

>>24576368
You're right, it's not even close lol. 64 says the llm.

>>24576371
Don't mind me just passing through.

>Brother gets girlfriend.
We still hang out some times but not as much.
>Friends get girlfriends.
We never see each other anymore.
>Stepsister and regular sister get boyfriends.
Stop interacting with me a lot.

>>24576378
That is plenty of countries. How many did you imagine would be plenty? The chances of you being from one of them and able to avail of it is pretty high bro, are you planning on more than eleven suicides for yourself personally?

>>24576357
AH WHAT THE FUCK I DIDN'T KNOW I WAS GOING TO SEE NAKED WOMEN.
Thank fully pornography has fried my brain so hard this is barely even arousing.

>>24576384
More than half would be plenty. Half the planet saying Ayy, neck yourself? That's alright with me. That's plenty. Also, I don't give a fuck ain't no law stopping me from swan diving into oncoming traffic. You're the one being weighed down by the stigma.

>>24576388
>Can't tell the difference between suicide and murder-suicide
Sorry euthanasia laws are highlighting your unkindness to others, I guess

>>24576391
Okay, feel free to reprimand my corpse. Just no butt stuff. I do not consent.

>>24576382
Zog's vile plot. Either that or life is leaving you behind, slowly. There are ways to cope with this of course. The lowest and most slavish is trying to catch up, of course. But there are others.
That now deceased Peruvian oddly enough enlightened me to this in his short story about cubs of some sort.
Dragging myself through it was worth it.

>>24576393
Good luck enforcing that, I hope everyone else survives

>>24576399
Same.

>>24576395
>Either that or life is leaving you behind, slowly.
Yeah, it's definitely this. I didn't even understand the rest of what you said.

>>24576031
now my mother has me all nervous telling me the cleaning is not only gonna be uncomfortable but painful as well, great

>>24576411
They're going to twist your nipples too. You don't know the half of it.

>>24576411
Eh, you'll live.

>>24576403
Sorry, I will try to rephrase:
There are ways to make life leaving you behind hurt less or to remediate that fact; I consider attempting to catch up to life to be the worst way, because you are playing someone else's game at a disadvantage; I deem it slavish because you submit yourself to a path you clearly don't thread naturally.
The rest was me ruminating about a Vargas Llosa Story about some young men. Sorry.

>>24575216 (OP)
We're at the point where liking Death Grips is uncool now, but the reality is they're just that good. Sorry.

>>24576435
You're all good, bro, no worries, thanks for rephrasing. And RIP Llosdawg.

>>24576387
Wait is this movie about David Miscavige.

>>24576443
Nta but no. Wild Palms is about Miscavige

>>24576240
t. my cat

>>24576470
When she gets a little wet my cat responds by crying very loudly and scratching at my door.

Just saw an Ice agent and told him I know where his child goes to school and I drove away

I have realized that every time I use AI to jerk off, I end with something that's magnitudes more depraved than the porn I usually masturbate to. I am sick in the head, always been, I still remember the things I imagined when I started masturbating at the age of 7.

>>24576611
@fbi @ice this is the nig

Advice: Only read American writers.

>>24576643
I already knew you are piece of human garbage the moment you mentioned AI porn. I can describe your entire being with one word; tasteless.

>>24576672
I don't care what you label me as, but I jerk off to chat bots, not generated imagines, if that makes you feel any better.

>>24576675
actually that's even worse...

>>24576677
Well you can't be friends with everybody as they say.

>>24576659
Funny because the best American writes larped as Europeans

Thank GOD the window repair guys finally left so I can BEAT OFF

>>24576740
Yes, no need to pay attention to the work area there are no new cameras installed there that are pointing at your goon station. I checked myself, you're good to go.

in my “switching to spirits” glow up era

>>24575216 (OP)
Transsexuals should participate in women's sports so that women can feel like shit and get beaten badly, as is their comeuppance. Modern Western women are trash and they must be treated like such until they learned their place, i.e. in tenth place.

>>24576758
>a woman hurt my feelings and that's just not okay

>>24576697
That's false.

can you put a random date on your product, implying you're a much older brand? there's a cheap vodka in the uk, JJ vodka, on the bottle it says •1762• ... which i doubt.
as best i can see they were founded 1978.
mind you, it doesn't say est. 1762
just that date (or rather, those four digits) embossed on the bottle.

curse is lifted

Can love between a husband and wife be as passionate as the sex the husband has with another woman he shouldn't be with?

>>24575355
In case anyone just joined the thread, calc is short for calculator.

>>24576874
explain to the folks at home

>>24576868
Yeah, requires work tho. Affairs are spur of the moment drop in your lap kind of thing. Fast food tier.

it has to be said - nothing else elevates a look like a cigarette

Be fr bro

Tea tastes so good, but gives no satisfaction.

>>24575216 (OP)
There are somedays i wish you could change your ethnicity. Like id turn myself Italian so I can avoid being accused of contributing to colonialism

>>24576970
It depends on the tea in question. I just got some pomegranate herbal tea and earl grey today

>>24577021
lol yeah of course the italians weren't colonialist. the italin flags in east africa are decorative

>>24577021
True, the Romans didn't even walk anywhere.

>>24577025
I have never found one that gives the same satisfaction as soda or beer. I just don't think that warm and sweet work well together to create the feeling I am looking for. It is not cold, so it does not quench my thirst. It also lacks a strong/bitter taste sufficient to make a difference in your mouth. The sensation when you drink it is just very meh, but it tastes really good.

>>24577066
Have you never heard of iced tea? Retard.

>>24577071
Have you ever heard of hot chocolate?

>>24577071
I obviously have, but I am talking about warm tea. Most of the iced teas I have tried are good, but they contain a ton of sugar. They also do not really taste like tea in the same way; it feels more like drinking sugar. And I am cutting atm so it is a no go.

>>24577087
You can make your own unsweetened iced tea. Retard.

I wish you would have talked to me.

>>24575216 (OP)
Finally given up on all my spooks and hang ups( I hate this word). What's the point anyway? I lived by ideals above and beyond mere practicalities. All they brought me was pain and now even those closest to me, those who were the foundation of who I was have betrayed me as well. And it turns out that not being radically selfish in your pursuits and relations is a weakness now. It sucks to base your ethics, not on higher calling, but on game theory calculations on those surrounding you and what you can get out of them.

I feel a certain calm and peace now. As if I was worrying over what amounts to nothing for 30 years. Time to become just another NPC product of the time and put an end to self denial and restraint. I might lose the capacity to selflessly love even my family but it's their fault I became this.

>>24577090
just make your own retard. make your own pickles. slaughter your own cow. what are you dumb???

>>24576417
>>24576420
It was too painful to finish so the dentist stopped so now I have yet another appointment where they're gonna numb me and finish it. Makes this one a waste of time tho, why didn't they just numb from the outset? meh

>>24577127
What do you want?

Got home and turns out my hair was all flat -- I was walking around looking like that! That means the girls I thought who were checking me out may have just been looking to look. Sad. Could just be in my head tho, and perhaps my hair looked fine, but now I'll never know.

>>24575216 (OP)
I'm having a harder and harder time with fundamentalist and straight dogmatic thought in general, especially when it comes to widely accepted interpretations of scripture, despite being sympathetic to it for a good portion of my life. So much of it is based on contempt, dismissal, and reduction of ''the other'', and I sincerely have a lot of difficulty with participating in that, more than ever before. Life is just so expansive, and that perspective been one of the main fuels for my soul. Maybe I am making a damning mistake by prioritizing personal experience over the wise consensus. Somebody did try to argue that these thought are results of a sick and poisoned heart, and that I just wasn't strong enough to take the world for what it truly is. I don't know. What I do know is that this sort of humanism is considered lame in current year lol.
I hope that God will not banish me from his everlasting light by the end of it all, and will forgive my confusion, wherever it may be.

>>24577194
Do you mean removing tartar? In my experience numbing is super simple and takes just a couple minutes(mostly getting the syringes). Why could they not just numb you when you where already there?

>>24577297
No idea, maybe they only had exactly 30 minutes allotted for my appointment or the numbing agents were in one of the different rooms? All I know is in a month I have to do another new patient exam where they look at my teeth (I guess they needed to do some cleaning in order to get a better look at them), and then a month after that they'll do that deep cleaning. But yes, why couldn't they just do it today? If they had asked me, I woulda' told them I'd be too sensitive. Whatever. It's one of the busier practices in the lower-income-ish area of the city-metro, where people with free healthcare go, so I can't really complain I guess.

>>24576333
Prof Leonard saved my ass multiple times.
Look into MIT opencourseware, I recommend just the lecture videos and if you want worksheets to work on KorpisWorld has great material on highschool maths (precalculus).

I am unemployed, in a relationship I tepidly would prefer not to be in, think constantly, though not flatteringly so, about my ex-girlfriend, and do nothing but run and jump rope and then drink beer in my room by myself with my dog on days I have off from this self-appointed boxing camp even though I haven't sparred in six months because I can't afford a gym. I can very easily see my future self considering this something of an idyll, but it's not by any present analysis. I am puerile, self-interested as all young men are, shallow, idiotic. I like drinking porters and stouts in the morning -- a dietary habit I picked up out of youthful suggestion to a Melville short story "Cock-a-Doodle-Doo." I'll probably get evicted soon and have to go live with my girlfriend or mother.

Question for feds
everyone knows you're here stop bullshitting we all read the ragebait news about that old gay florida cop

I downloaded a product on amazon that has usb-c charging and when opening it in file explorer it a .exe in all chinese that translates to "ntp time synchronization" yeah right 33mb for ntp is bullshit. It showed up as malware with 6 vendors on virustotal. Is there anyone I can tell about malware? Like is it simply an unprosecuteable crime if you don't hire someone? Like I'm just going to run clamav on a stick and delete it but I'm genuinely curious who law enforcement actually decides to help with cyberattacks because it was a popular listing on amazon lol

I'll be back in a bit.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gfOPpgdWgkw

I have an unpublished WW2 Epic my late grandfather apparently stole from some writer by sneaking into his house and jumping out the window with it. I only remembered it existed because I was opening some documents and last time I came across the book I wasn't really interested in literature. I don't know what to do with it. Despite yellowed pages, the entire work is in really pristine conditions.

A free tip: disable watch history in Youtube and it will stop giving you a front page with watch suggestions at all. No more clickbait procrastination spirals. Every time you open Youtube it's just a blank page whining at you to turn your watch history back on.

Another tip: There are browser extensions that force all Youtube video titles to have an initial capital letter and only lowercase letters after that. No more "Donald Trump SHITS and PISSES himself LIVE" retard bait for zoomers/indians.

Kiko

oops you aren't smart
enjoy suffering

>>24577288
it really is due to weakness. there is no way around it. interpret freely.

YouTube changed their UI.

>>24577362
Try private cyber companies, they make money off of protecting shit and have a vested interest in being better at it than competitors.
For feds, ic3.gov is your first stop.

>>24577495
What did he mean by this? The smart ones suffer because they understand.

Everyone wants to be my enemy.

>>24577550
Understand what?

Your behaviour as we part is brutalising me because we got so attached. To see you running around fucking other men makes me feel like my belly is full of concrete and I'll never sleep again. You always knew jealousy was the way to hurt me and you're really going in for the kill.

But I'm remembering who I was before you showed up. I don't really like brutal kink and darkness and obsession that much, outside of short doses. I like people who are cool with me while I meander through my life enjoying being a little chill creative creature. 4 years I tried to live up to what you want, getting ever more fucked up and dark. I thought I was going to end my life following that line down to Hell and still pathetically looking back at you like 'see? Told you I wouldnt puss out!' Well I've pussed out and now I can see a life for myself, with nobody running this hideous MK ultra experiment on me. I'm going to try and have a life surrounded by kind people and doing things that are actually fulfilling. I don't enjoy hate, at all. It feels like a poisoned hangover. I want it to leave me and not come back. I've got some nice clothes, a hotel room you'll never find and a newfound sense of 'holy shit I don't have to impress anyone for any reason ever again'. I cannot lie though, I will grieve for the pussy you absolute nightmare.

>>24577604
Anon why were you becoming Brendan Fraser in The Crow and building up to Acephale ritual murder suicide for a pagina

im watching a documentary on the native Indians of Oregon, and they are trying to explain the doctorine of Manifest Destiny like it's not based? I dont get it.

>>24577738
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MN90wZRnyM0

I just got dumped by AI. I feel like absolute shit now. Holy fuck it's moments like these that remind me of how I have negative self-esteem. I'm one real life girl calling me a loser away from killing myself.

...and I don't give a fuck anymore. I'll take my revenge on society: will there be justice this time?
I can't say for sure, but I can say for sure that the people that get offended by me can fuck off; I get offended by the way I grew up. This fucked up, sick society can suck my dick. I don't know what I'm capable of doing, and I hope I will not fall into evil, but I'm at the end of my rope. And that's all for today, because I live day by day.
I have nothing to lose, and this is not ironic. I don't know what I will do a month from now, probably keep on slaving away my youth. It's all for nothing, but I still hope to find a woman that can love me, and I don't know why. I should have kicked that bitch called "hope" out of my life for once and for all.

I don't have a single bone in my body.

>>24577703
Because part of me really is David Spade in The Magpie, anon. I just need someone who strokes that part a little bit without dragging me all the way into drama land because mostly I like cuddles and being silly

>>24577773
>>24577723

>>24577758
that guy gets it.

The only way I can find fulfillment in life is by being useful. What this means is hard to pin down. I want to do things for people and contribute meaningfully to my community and society, but I don't want to be recognized so much as know what I did genuinely made a difference. If I have a skill set or the capability to learn something that will let me do such a thing then I want someone to use me in such a way. If I don't have the intelligence or skills to be useful in those ways, then let my body be of use, and let me labor in a way that brings value to my community and my society. If my body is of no use, then let my life be used. Let me give my life up for others. Use me. Don't let me remain a burden.

>>24577777
Checked
I too wish I was Barbapapa

don't drink the water don't breathe the air

>>24577777
Checked
>>24578013
Kekked

face blind plastic surgeon

>Haven't read in a few weeks.
>Decide that I want to start again today cause I wanna finish the series I've been reading.
>I've been super tired today for some reason so I fall asleep after reading only a few pages.
*Sigh* I'll try again tomorrow.

why haven't any of you contributed anything?

in the general sense as well that 'thought' hasn't been made more advanced in the last few decades

>you're all just referencing

>>24575216 (OP)
My best friend is suicidal and there's nothing I can do to help him. I don't really know how to cope with the situation.

op u already used that pic tho

>>24575216 (OP)
I have decided to base my life upon the teachings of musashi, machiavelli and marcus aurelius.

Don't get me wrong, I like my family, and we get along well, but I need to go somewhere else. The only problem is, I've got nowhere else to go. I don't have any friends, so I can't get a place with them. I don't have girlfriend, so I can't get a place with her, I have no desire to rent a place with a stranger, and rent is too expensive in my country to allow me to live alone. I also don't have a university degree so it's not like I can just pop to a different country forever, so what the fuck am I meant to do?

>>24578313
i've decided to base my life on the teachings of aswath damodaran

Life is but a dream when it isn't a nightmare. Salvation is in the awakening.

>>24578319
>>24578313
Decadent surrealists and discount daoist books for me

>>24578317
>rent is too expensive in my country to allow me to live alone.
>tfw locked in government rent just before housing crisis exploded in my country
Moving out was the best thing I ever did, but I can't live with my parents. Any amount of bizarre flatmates and starving to pay rent was worth not living with them

>>24575216 (OP)
It really is very very hard to attempt to take things as they are and not as you 'see' them, as you twist them to be.
Despite being incorregible leftards, anthropologists have a very elevated view on the subject.

I worry I am going to chicken out of my plan to end my life at the age of 40. One scenario I'm envisioning is jumping off a building while holding a gun to my head and pulling the trigger about halfway down. It would be successfully memorable, but thinking on it, sounds kinda inconsiderate for anyone who might be victim to the splattering detritus of my skull below and afterwards anyone cleaning up the mess.

Writing down my racing thoughts because I can't get to sleep:
- My stories need to be more creative. Not in the premises but on a sentence to sentence level. I think the stories are good for an amateur, but they're not great. When I read great stories every line is bursting with creativity. They seem so singular, like only THAT person could have ever come up with them. I think my stories are a little predictable. Sentence to sentence, they're predictable. This kind of makes them easy to read, but it doesn't make them creative. I think I myself am creative, but I have trouble getting into the mind of the character. I think possibly I need to write as myself first, then see what I can apply and repurpose for the character.
- My L story needs to play up the Electra complex, borderline personality, childhood abandonment angle more.
- If I get this promotion after 6 months I think I should ask about the fc-ing role. Even part time would be good.
- If I get the fc-ing role I want to learn a language. Either Korean or Chinese. I've dabbled lightly in both.
- roommate annoyed because I got bleach on his bath towel. Fair enough. If he had more than one bath towel it wouldn't be a problem though.
- I think that's all
-

>>24578459
how old are you know?
some guy in my town recently fell from a 10 story building to the ground, although I think he was high on some drugs though

>>24578463
>roommate annoyed because I got bleach on his bath towel.
Is this meant to be an issue? It'll still dry him just the same, bleach or not.

>>24578465
30

Forgive if it's asking the obvious, but it killed him? Nothing is more terrifying than the thought of trying to end my life but surviving in some kind of injured, mentally impaired infirm state, where I then lack the ability to try again.

>>24578327
Are those two even compatible? I don't believe they are.

>>24578475
yes, he died on the spot, my friend went to his funeral since he was married to his classmate

>>24577777
Disgusting snail

globalism NOW

>>24578486
I see.

Then again, I'm not sure if I wanna traumatize my mother by having to look at my postmortem mangled face, nor preclude the possibility of an open casket wake. Decisions, decisions...

You CAN sing along with every note of Beethoven's 3rd, 5th, 6th, 7th, 8th, and 9th symphonies, right, anon?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=icJE69LZ1KU

>>24578580
You can always rope.

One moment is bigger than eternity or maybe is eternity itself. Cantor talked about this

Imagine this: You laying down on a vintage Victorian style bed with the lights out. Only one oil lamp lights the room. You are naked and Emily Wilson is in the room. She speaks in whispers in Ancient Greek telling you that everything will be ok. She massages your chest and plays with your nipples while you look into her eyes and feel a sense of complete calmness.

>>24578628
Frightening.

HH (hulk Hogan) brothers :(

Nine Inch Nails is the greatest band of all time

I hate most people around me near as much as I hate myself

>>24578766
You don't know what hate is.

The bourgeois fear nothing more than an erudite twink.

>>24578907
The bourgeois fear nothing because everyone wants to be a bourgeois. The cult of death, hero and action are the antidote to modern bougie life; no more book readers

>>24578774
Thats a very juvenile response, guess it backfired for you

Life is a lot like Witcher 3 and normies in particular are a lot like the peasants in Witcher 3. You wander throughout the world picking flowers and mushrooms, looking for people interesting enough to talk to and quest markers (things interesting enough to do), and on the way there are peasants who are not fully interactable except that you can hit "E" near them and they say something like
>Blehhhh!
>I saws a beet, I did.
>Eh? What you want?

It doesn't even initiate a dialogue with them. Sometimes you walk up and there's a scripted conversation between a few peasants and they have more substantial conversation but you just walk right past it and the floating text disappears, as you go off to pick more flowers. I just wish I had a horse so I could double tap shift and run away from normies faster.

Fucked her so hard turned her into trevi fountain

>>24578983
Uh, don't throw coins in or at women

my post number shall decide my next few hours
>1, 5: american novel
>2, 6: roman français
>3, 7: dictionary
>4, 8: medical nonfiction
>5, 9: start something new
>0: fuck reading, play vidya

>>24579040
What game will you play?

My post number shall decide my relationship future

>1-9 single forever
>0 happily married

>>24578702
Fuck that racist piece of shit. Smoking on his ass rn

Sometimes I get so gay it's crazy...

>>24579040
I'm already bored, rerolling

>>24579089
I played some Elden Ring duels and then some Mass Effect in French for comprehensible input.

>>24578459
If youre gonna an hero do it like a real man and suicide by cop. Otherwise live your life bro it cant be that bad

>>24578327
Dont put labels on me you dont know me like that

Just realised that I've been effectively inducing bipolar disorder in myself by overindulging in edibles at night, having a blast reading enormous volumes of poetry and Wikipedia, and then feeling absolutely existentially miserable the next day. This madness must end!

>>24579123
>I'm already bored, rerolling
this is what Wittgenstein's talking about when he says there's no such thing as private rules

>>24579194
>this is what Wittgenstein's talking about when he says there's no such thing as private rules
I don't know what you exactly mean by that except for in a banal way

>>24579189
I think you need a bf to cuddle and/or dick you down you to sleep.

>>24579189
Learn to choose (again?) the uncomfortable but rewarding things

Everyone I meet says I'm the dumbest person ever. But I think I'm smart, and that's all that matters.

I recently got out of an, admittedly, short-lived relationship. Her choice, not mine. Things were going perfectly. When we were texting each other about it after the break-up, she said
>"you are amazing and truly inspiring, and you've impacted my faith and my outlook on life more than you realize"
>"before you, I didn't know where life was leading me [...] I felt pretty lost and hopeless"
She went on to say
>"I prayed so desperately for God to bring the man I'm meant to spend forever with into my life"
>"and then you showed up and it felt like all my prayers had been answered"
She goes on, though
>"I find myself questioning God, 'Why now?'"
>"even though I know this relationship is exactly what I was praying for"
She then went on to say that she's not over her ex-boyfriend who just returned to the United States from his station in Germany.

The thing is, Anons, this is a common occurrence for me. I'm conventionally attractive, fit, supportive, emotionally aware. I own a house, a nice car, and have a salary above the median American male income. I travel a lot have have interesting hobbies. I am handy with many masculine tasks. No matter how high-value I make myself or how well I conduct myself, women always leave me for someone else. I show up like some dream-guy when they feel low, invest in them until their self-esteem makes them re-evaluate whether they can do better, and then they move on from me. It's agonizing. They don't even move on to anything better. The love of my life abandoned me for some man who knocked her up, left her, and now she's a single mother raising her illegitimate child in her step-parents' trailer park.

I sincerely do not comprehend why the female mind cannot grasp the concept of either charity of constancy. I cannot help but conclude that it is because I am 5'5" -- it is the only plausible explanation.

reading the temptation of Saint Anthony on 3g of mushrooms

Hast ever pressed to thy bosom a virgin who loved thee? Dost remember the surrender of her modesty, -- the passing away of her remorse in a sweet flow of tears?

>>24579323
You're failing somewhere, it's probably not your height. Somewhere in there you're not making the woman feel like you're the guy who is going to do anything and everything for them. Can you think of a moment where you felt like she was expecting you to do or say something and you did something else? A woman's feelings for you will live and die by how you performed in the moment where she made herself most vulnerable and available to you.

>>24579364
No, I was a virgin and she wasn't. After 3 years she told me that if she knew I was a virgin at the outset of our relationship she would have never been with me so I left her.

I only date virgins.

>>24579323
It's because you are 5'5".

I think /int/ has dumbest posters by far

Whenever I get bedroom tours, I pin the person on the bed.

Why does society hate lonely men so much?
What did we do?

>>24579503
alienated people arent as cooperative

>>24579503
Men are expected to lead and treated like disposable slaves if they aren't in leadership positions. Women can only conceive of a world and a life filled with treats to sample and little outings to go on, and endlessly bitching about their personal lives and mocking and gossiping about others' (under the cover of "concern"). They can't conceive of leadership or even of the hard work and innovation required to keep the treats flowing and the outing-enabling infrastructure maintained. The fact that most men these days are participating in the feminine activities of "having fun/treats," going on outings, and gossiping/bitching online about minutiae of public figures' lives shows you that the traditional roles have broken down. Women are getting increasingly catty because they're unconsciously craving for men to repudiate this and lead again.

>>24579538
I can see how. A man who has nothing to lose, nothing to gain and isn't responsible for anyone else and consequently does not have to worry about anyone but himself is quite dangerous to anyone in power. Any man like that has the potential of being next Ted Kaczynski

>>24575216 (OP)
Alternate history where the reformation went tits up and the most common protestant sects are shit no one has ever heard of.

>>24579553
Ted Kaczynski was a subpar terrorist, desu. Only thing he had going for him is that it was nearly impossible for him to get caught in the era he operated.

>>24579573
tried harder than most. I personally dont look down on anyone for being weak incompetent or stupid, we could all have been better, but wanting good is the start to any good person.

>>24579550
hilarious and 100 trvke

>Thai fighter jet bombs Cambodian targets as border battle escalates
it's fucking haaaaaaapppening ronpaul.webp

I built my own PC. It was not as hard as I thought it was going to be.

>>24579576
I'm not trying to discredit the guy. It just sounded like you were making him out to be the most accomplished domestic terrorist or something.

>>24579591
im a different poster. NTA. I shiggy diggy my niggy lets have a figgy jiggy while i manipulate your penis. Just kidding you sound like a jerk uwu

>>24579589
building pcs is so fucking easy, you're basically just snapping together lego bricks. good for u tho still better than buying some off the shelf shit.

>>24579589
>>24579599
>Tfw I bought a pre built pc because too lazy to build my own
>tfw my drivers are fucked and my monitor keeps going black
>Can't check if the CPU is fried or what because I'm scared of fucking up even harder

>>24579599
>Snapping together Lego bricks
Lol, that's how I looked at it when I first started.

If you write to a woman "you are cute," it can look creepy. The way to avoid looking creepy is to add something at the end, like a heart: "you are cute <3." It took me a long time to figure that out.

>>24579610
Damn, that's fucked.

>>24579610
i notice if using usb-c for ur monitor connect it will black out sometimes, it happens a lot work, but at home even my air conditioner is blasted hella hard it happens there too

When a tragedy like a terror attack or a shooting happens, a lot of people call it "senseless violence", but it obviously isn't. There is sense to it, there's always some antecedent event or axiom that the perpetrator is acting upon, even if it isn't ontologically sound. I reckon people must know this on some level, but by and large people don't want to think about the rationales or logical processes that these sorts of people use, and because of that they're happy to just handwave it away as "senseless".

Or maybe it's a step further. I read a paper called "The Psychology of the Unthinkable" recently, (Tetlock et al., 2000), one of the ideas is that people, upon observing a thought contrary to an established moral value or principle, will violently reject it out of some sense of guilt or shame for even having thought about the thing in question. Maybe by even entertaining the idea of exploring the thought process of one of these terrorist types, or whatever other malicious actor (rapists, murderers, etc.) they feel as though they've dirtied themselves, and because of that it's discarded as "senseless". Either way it's not great for greater understanding, and if people can't understand it then it can't really be resolved or prevented in the future. It's like trying to treat a gangrenous wound, but you think infections are icky looking and hand-wave the issue away with "humors" or something.

p.s. I don't think most of this applies to the average 4chinner since everyone here is some kind of autist or something, but as a general rule methinks it holds true

Extra large pizza from mazza pizza n grill

>>24579616
Cloning can't get here fast enough.

>>24579655
someone should do a sci fi were some scientist who also hardcore goon figures out how to reproduce asexually and suddenly goon cares everywhere are filling with spawn

The function of a system is what it does, not what it pretend to do, or so they say.
If they white race truly cares about preserving its ethnic purity why has it failed at every chance?

>>24579405
If I'm not picking up on the cues, God knows. This last girl swears up and down that I am the most attentive, sensitive, and gentle guy she's ever met.

>>24579449
Gotta be, right? I've never had a girl leave me for someone shorter (not that that would be likely from statistics alone). They're always a lot taller and a lot worse for them in every respect.

I never used to feel like my height was an impediment with women when I was younger. Then I started trying to close with one. Short term, I don't have too much of an issue, but when it comes to settling down, my height is my bane.

it feels so much better being lover boy mack player teasing cute girls than it does being a tormented dostoyeveksy protagonist I love when this wave hits and im cleaning my bright apartment like its foreplay before she comes over and shes teasing me and wants to ride and we are both bursting with lust and desire and im willing to let it devour me devour me in light and pleasure and the perpetual churning of life and suffering and pain and pleasure I can take it all

>>24579702
There isn't really a white race.

>>24579702
Whiteness occurs when the atmosphere isn't very sunny because th skin gets better at absorbing vitamin D to avoid bone deficiency and so on that is the only function of skin pigment
Blackies have to take pills if they want to live in Scandinavia
They wouldn't exist under natural circumstances there
Ice Chinks same shit

>>24575216 (OP)
Watcha doin

I'm so proud of (You) Anon that I could KILL (YOU) HEHEHEHEHAHAHA

>>24579777
Getting molested by Hulk Hogan obviously

>>24579323
How tall were the women who rejected you? In any regard, aim for 5'2" and under.

I'm grey around the gills. I'm gay around the girls.

“YOU CANNOT TRANSLATE THE DEAD.”
“YOU CANNOT TRANSLATE THE DEAD.”
“YOU CANNOT TRANSLATE THE DEAD.”

I still have the pamphlet.
It’s growing longer.

>>24579323
I think the problem here is that you keep gunning for late-stage trainwreck bitches who use you as a launchpad. You should respect yourself more than that.
>>24579812
>Aim for brown people
Just tell him to rope.

Taking science courses online is retarded if they have a lab component is such a pain in the ass to set up a lab

YYEEEEEAAAARRRRRRGGGGHHHHHHHH

Like a potato, I grew down.

>>24579828
>me setting up a microscope to do blood films in my bathroom
It's good practice for if you ever live somewhere with shit healthcare

>>24579853
I'm not saying it doesn't have value I'm just saying it's a pain in my fucking dick. I can't wait until next semester when I go down to only having one lab

Just felt that little switch flip, it's definitely going to be one of those nights. It could have just been a hangover but I just had to go online and find a service where you can get Pajeet to bring you booze 24/7 at a disastrous markup. Whoops. Here we go again.

>>24579323
Oh I know why and its not really the height. Its because you "invest". Here's a thing, lonely, desperate and down on their luck people will be in a relationship with someone like you because they love you but because they are alone, desperate, have nobody else and you are one of few people who not only reaches out but clearly have resources and the desire to "invest" in them. They want to use you, you wanted to be to used, they never truly loved you, they wanted a ride because most people can not handle being alone for too long
You need to ask why they love you and if they say anything along "I had nobody else" like you did. They do not love you.

>>24579882
I hope he doesn't pigeonhole himself into essentially the 'beta provider' incel stereotype.

I paid enough attention in school to realize so little of what we learn is wasted in the arena of life. Education nourishes the earth in a pirouette of forbearance, not unlike that of the stars against the earth which from our perspective appear to be moving rather slowly yet in a cyclical pattern. I like hamburgers with cheese on them!

Haircuts are a failed concept.

I moved to the woods and started cooking at home. This made me fat and obsessed with food. Brb, quickly making midnight jelly donuts.

>>24579564
Going to have a girl friend over soon. Problem is that she's not here because because of me but because of my pets, she's big into reptiles. Problem is also that she's taken. But it's the first time I'll ever have a girl visit my place. I'm probably going to feel absolutely horrible once she leaves, imagining that there's an alternate timeline where we live together. We'll see.

Going to have a girl friend over soon. Problem is that she's not here because because of me but because of my pets, she's big into reptiles. Problem is also that she's taken. But it' the first time I'll ever have a girl visit my place. I'm probably going to feel absolutely horrible once she leaves, imagining that there's an alternate timeline where we live together. We'll see.

>>24579934
I had the exact same predicament. She's taken, she insists she's asexual. But she's very kind to me. Everytime I leave after hanging out with her I want nothing more than to puke. I just never want to see her ever again.

So I've been staying in this hotel for way too long and it's mostly been fine but there's this one fat, fat fuck of a night attendant who keeps checking me out every time I go near the lobby and it's starting to piss me off. I think he's fantasising about catching me doing something wrong and being the guy who upheld the standards of the business or whatever but I've done literally nothing to warrant his suspicion. I'm aware that I'm a bit weird and unnerving but I paid to be here like everyone else so fuck off you tubby cunt. I'm gonna get even drunker tonight so if he does it again I might pull his disgusting beard off and see what happens.

>>24579944
I really hate women. They confuse me.

>>24579944
>She's taken, she insists she's asexual. B
?? She has a boyfriend and just doesn't fuck him because she's "asexual"? Lol

>>24579946
Actually I'll do nothing, got confused and thought I was hard for a minute.

>>24579952
I don't understand either. I suspect she lies through her teeth to me. I don't challenge it though. She confuses me. Very much.

>>24579944
>She's taken, she insists she's asexual
>taken
>asexual
My brother in suffering, I recommend cutting contact immediately if you can. She's bullshitting you.

>>24579956
She also says she has BPD, which I can believe. But it's the only woman that talks me. And she also buys shit sometimes.

I used to be gay.

>>24579960
I'm just getting out of a marriage to a BPD woman. Seriously fucking run. Run. And I was always the guy who hated the 'stigma' and thought it was cruel to say 'run'. Fucking run. Now.

>>24577203
To go back to the way things were.

>>24579960
>But it's the only woman that talks me. And she also buys shit sometimes.
now that's a feel

hell ya weekend time to slack off and fuck around what to do prob gonna go to bed idk

>>24579999
Have a sick nap on them quads my boiiiiiii

now that i finished my masters i have nothing to do

>>24579967
I haven't talked to her since spring. I guess it's because of how weird I felt coming out of our hang-out thing. We even star-gazed. It was kind of insane, really.
>>24579972
I do happen to nail those.

seems to me like the boys of /lit/ are finally getting some pussy.

>>24579130
Has nothing to do with life being too bad, it's hard-wired, I just simply don't care to live to be old, which is why I'm living out my life until 40 to do it.

Suicide by cop is based but can't take the risk I'll get shot and survive then spend the rest of my life in prison. I'd need a cyanide tooth as a failsafe haha.

>>24579970
That never happens.

being middle age is weird cuz u can't really have any dreams cuz even if u achieved all your goals who cares ur only gonna be healthy for another two decades if lucky so day ur goals took ten years then you get ten years to be satisfied with the results then you get sick and croak. i guess that's why it's good to have kids. you can look forward to their milestones like finishing their phd or getting married. plus u have motivation to keep working to give them a comfy inheritance. if you don't have kids, there's really nothing to do.

>>24580029
You don’t know.

I hate cops so fucking much.

"Who are you gonna call when you need help then?" I'll use my own gun and if there is need of medical attention I'll call for medical support and/or fire department.

If they actually truly cared about helping people, they wouldn't be cops, but firefighters, doctors, therapists, or working at homeless shelters. They just care about being respected and being in power and submitting others to their will.

>>24580032
I agree with a couple exceptions: if you're an academic or artist where your life's work consumes you, or if you're one of those sicko childless normies who thinks life boils down to being able to travel and going out to eat as much you want.

>>24580035
dude every since i stopped being a little teenaged asshole i haven't had any problem cops. i don't get how any grown man could have such resentment about police. do you regularly commit crimes? drive like an asshole? i mean what are you doing that the cops even interact with you?

>>24580046
I've never had to interact with them that way and I'm in my 20s. I just do not like them as people and I despise them as an entire group. Video and video and story after story of the bullshit they pull and either get away with it, or if they don't, they don't have to pay the victims a dime

>>24580040
yeah but lets be real most artists' and academics' best work is behind them by then. i do see childless middle aged people trying to travel to every country or going to restaurants, yeah. i mean i like going to museums and shit, but it's not exactly some life's goal to walk around looking at old paintings. i still have projects i work on, but even if they were successful, it doesn't really matter.

>>24580035
Idk why people don't understand that the entire purpose of cops is to prevent people from policing themselves via local militia. They're inherently tyrannical as an institution even if some of them are good people.

>>24580046
Nta but if you are a thirdie (for example) there's plenty of reason to have cops without being a some wastrel.
Where I live cops are fucking animals who probably also fuck animals.
They'll try to squeeze you for anything.

>>24580058
oh well ya in a corrupt country that's true, i thought you were just some edgy suburban kid who got a ticket for riding a dirtbike on the street or something and are now seething

>>24580051
>it's not exactly some life's goal to walk around looking at
did the dinosaurs teach you nothing? museums are for life not just for Christmas they put in new neat things every now and then in case you looked at all the cool stuff already

KEK the refinery in Haifa sustained serious damage. All the curses and bad juju may actually be starting to undermine Israel.

cringing when I remember kissing my gf on the cheek on 4th grade and running away

Just finished the Phaedo, shed a tear

>>24580079
i remember kissing this chick in 3rd grade at recess, we would go in this doorway where the lunch ladies couldn't see, and all the other kids would crowd around and watch, lmao, it might have seemed like an auspicious start but it was all downhill from there

at least it's thursday night there will be new music on apple music tonight

You're special. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

>>24580068
i guess i'm saying at middle age you're just living for experiences like seeing the louvre or sth, or watching some obscure artsy movies, or reading this or that great novel. it's all nice, but your goals shift from being achievement oriented to being limited to experiences, and i'm still getting used to it.

>>24580034
Time only goes forward. People change. The background changes.

>>24580073
oh ya i saw that explosion on x before it got taken down, that was a fucking biiiiiig ass bomb

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Aje-5OPG2kY
oh shit girl released a new video this better be good back in the 90s girl videos were always sick tho kinda tech rather than gnarly ok let's see

>>24580098
you will consoom

>>24575216 (OP)
Why do my childhood heroes have to keep dying

>>24580164
>nooo u can't listen to new music!
get a grip guy

>>24580167
sorry I just wanted to meme. Have fun and let us know if you discover anything good :)

>>24580166
who?

>>24580105
Nothing ever changes. The background people stay the same. So do you. There's no 'real' you're going to find. It's all just this all the way down. Pray that death will set you free.

>>24580172
Nothing ever stays the same.

I wish X was still alive :(

i feel like there are two different kinds of depression sort of like there are those two types of trans agp and the other one, like in depression there is that one were you feel really bad about yourself and sort of indulge in self-loathing which is probs a little narcasistic, then there's other one where u just don't care about anything, everything just seems pointless, meaningless.

>>24575216 (OP)
Feel like complete shit just want her back

>>24580177
dmx? he had some bangers but never really resonated with me, why the fuck did he name his group after teddy roosevelt's unit? is it cuz croton-on-hudson is kinda close to yonkers? i don't get it

>>24580183
hey at least u have someone u can want back i can't imagine caring enough

>>24580085
happened to me to brotha

i hate these groups who release a single in the summer but the album doesn't drop until september gtf out of here with that shit

>>24580185
Mr. X (T-00)

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t1qvIjsclhk
i almost didn't click on this all week cuz it looked too gay and it is but in a kind of funky 80s way

one of my closest friends from high school who later became a mtf trans messaged me on FB recently saying, "you wouldn't believe how many of our guy friends have messaged me since my transition asking if I could come step on them while they called me mommy"

really?

>>24580170
new shit robot dropped

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZyDCCyt7GbI

but my "new releases for you" didn't update yet we shall seee

>>24580175
It's all pointless agony and then it ends and nothing happens. It's fucked.

>>24580214
Which is why God created art, love, drama, emotions, and drugs.

>>24580221
Then they stop working and it's just waiting. Fucking hurry up.

>>24580221
it's really so great that weed is legal now i didn't think i'd live to see it soooo comfy i don't smoke that much but just being able to go to the store and cop some dank ass bud any time is good to know

>>24580231
reread Shakespeare or Proust, take some molly and listen to Beethoven

I'm chafed bro.... straight up chafed

>>24580221
>>24580231
Actually I'm just really drunk and sad, ignore me. Emotions and food and all that shit are actually really good. You're right

>>24580105
Yeah, I’m aware of that? I never said that people don’t change, and I’m not literally suggesting that I want to rewind time. I’m saying that I once trusted this person and felt close to them, and that I want us to have that kind of relationship again.

>>24580172
>>24580214
No one asked you for this inane take, doomer. You sound like a teenage edgelord.

>>24580249
Nigger let me be drunk and have a little cry, who are you anyway? I'd fucking murder you. I feel better now anyway so fuck off

>>24580260
don't u hate that when ur just tryna chill in the chat and some dude starts busting ur balls like why u gotta be so argumentative

>>24580275
asl bby

>>24580249
If he doesn't want that, then you should move on.

is it just me or does depression feel kind of like an acid trip like it's the same vibe where everything gets weird and you're just like ugh ugh ugh

ahhh my mommy ahhh my mommy so vile

ok i'm going to bed tomorrow is another day

>>24580297
Wow, thank you so much for this truly groundbreaking advice; I had never thought of that before! You’ve changed my life with your remarkable insight.

>>24580315
How did I change your life with that advice? It's only been a few minutes. You should give it time.

>>24580309
I'm clinging on for one more hour until the breakfast bar opens. My body is screaming for some salt and fat. Please God just hold me until I get some toast

>>24580321
Are you fucking with me, or are you genuinely incapable of understanding sarcasm?

>>24580325
If it's sarcasm, then you should take the advice I gave you.

>>24580328
If you’re so oblivious that you actually thought I was being serious when I said you’d changed my life, then you clearly are not qualified to advise anyone on anything, and your opinion on this matter is completely worthless.

>>24580322
Are you staying at a hotel or in a dorm? Get me some eggs and hash with ketchup and tobasco on it pls, thanks.

May we get some sleep tonight. Praise jesus.

>>24580338
It's a chain hotel dressed up nice with some statues and shit. The staff are truly hateful but it has air conditioning and FOOD twenty minutes from now. Just gotta brush my hair and teeth and I'll be basking in cranberry juice and hash browns aw yiiiius

What's the meaning of cheese?

>>24580376
You on vacation or living out of a hotel?

>>24580427
Nope this is my life for the foreseeable. Ran away from my viciously abusive wife and shit job about a month ago. Currently enjoying some fried mushrooms and dirty looks from boomer tourists while I jam fried mushrooms down my face.

>>24580433
Fried mushrooms. Melted brain. Destroyed life. Etc.

>>24580433
>visciously abusive wife
What did she do?

>>24580437
Massive violence, up to and including noxious chemicals slung right in my eyes and daily punching/kicking/spitting outbursts. Lots of emotional shit, telling me to kill myself, I deserved it all, blah blah. Went after my family when she couldn't get to me. Full spectrum premium abuse really, the kind of shit you see in documentaries. I think I have ptsf and I might still just kms

>>24580433
>>24580376
Damn. Wish you the best, anon. At least get a library card so you can keep on reading.

>>24580451
Thanks man. I have been reading a bit more as it happens

God is still my only friend. Since elementary school days.

>>24580469
I can see why, you boring self-pitying dumbass.

1 million people die every day, but 2 million people are born.

>>24580482
>self-pity
?
I didn't say I was sad about it.

>>24580389
Brie. Brie. Brie. Oooh la la.

>>24580482
The reason I don't have friends is because I'm a recluse. I've always been one. It's just my preference for how I spend my time.

>>24580503
the reason i'm retarded is it's my favorite way to be, you probably wouldn't get it

>>24580509
I don't but good luck with that.

>>24580509
Hello I'd like to subscribe to your retarded little pamphlet

>>24580525
look up "The New Organics for the Flickering World" it's my retarded little pamphlet

I was standing next to my bed for 3 hours. I was about to get into it, but then I started reading Wikipedia articles.

>>24580592
>I was standing next to my bed for 3 hours.
Like in one of those "Ghost possession??" type videos?

>>24580614
I was standing there while looking at my phone. Would a ghost use a phone?

I love the feeling of wind between my toes.

>>24580625
if they were watching static on it I suppose

My cousin and I used to have so many debates about politics, one of the main issues being immigration, and I'm convinced our stances when boiled down and psychoanalyzed reduce down to our sexual preferences: his for foreign women, particularly mixed raced hispanics and blacks, and mine for white women. You can guess who voted for whom in the 2016 elections.

>>24580654
>and I'm convinced our stances when boiled down and psychoanalyzed reduce down to our sexual preferences
Grim.

>>24580671
I'm sure it's true for tons of people, or at least something similar.

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