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Writing is cool. Do it.

>>24608271
You sound like tabbaco advertisement.

Don’t bother.

>>24608266 (OP)
more anons should post cute anime girls. we have lost our soul.

>>24608278
Don’t bother doing what?

>>24608279
Post an anime girl who you look like. This is what I look like.

>>24608279
you’re on the literature board

>>24608291
we are on an anime website.

This board harbors a cold war between the fake-autistics and genuine autistics where irony becomes sincerity and joke becomes statement and post-irony yes swings back around to sincerity again. It's very confusing.

>>24608314
only because /lit/ happens to be here

>>24608291
moar evidence , and refresh has another 4chan anime banner. know your place.

>>24608337
what sort of books do you read

>>24608343
All sorts. The greeks, historians of their age (not interested in contemporaries, prefer primary sources or at least people of the era), philosophy, VN's, eroge, fiction, fanfiction. There's something interesting to learn or experience in all sorts of fields of interest.

Catch-22 was extremely boring

>>24608418
I was just remembering how great it was.

Went to a museum today. I think I was the only person there by himself. The exhibits were kinda interesting but walking past couples arm in arm to see them killed the mood.

I think you just liked the idea of me and then one you got a taste of the real thing you were unimpressed.

I started watching The X-Files. Think I may be downloading Fox Mulders personality.
Also, started reading Infinite Jest.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5UzFqzjA1no
what's ur take on the booker walker it's on sale for like 4 bucks

>>24608464
I feel like i know this poster lel

>>24608569
Why?

>>24608464
Taste of what specifically?

5AM—way too sleepi to wake, too wake to sleep. Eyes red as hellfire. Thank god I'm unemployed.

>>24608569
If you’re the fap2gether guy who got blocked, I’m not the one you’re looking for.

>>24608467
It's interesting how much this person understands about book covers and graphic design compared to most books published.

>>24608271
But I don't know how to write more than a few paragraphs. I could never write a full book because I just don't have that much in me.

>>24608700
It's simple to fill up a book when you've got an idea worth making into a book.

Why do people protest Israel Palestine? Like, do you guys really think that Netanyahu is going to see it and go "Wow, I should really stop fucking up Palestine." Or do they think that it's going to bring more eyes to a matter that everybody in the world outside of tribes that don't have internet know about? Is it just virtue signaling? Is it meant to show some kind of bullshit support for Palestine? It just seems so stupid and like a waste of time.

I can pick up my gf by her waist over my head and shoulder press her.

>>24608704
I've got lots of ideas, even some that have gotten a positive reception here, but I don't know how to write a full book, I can't think of a 300+ page story.

Sometimes I receive direct instructions from somewhere else. I don't know what else to call them. I'll just know that I should do something and feel a lingering sense of doom if I resist doing it. Kind of like being a kid and knowing that if you don't respond when your mom uses your full name something really bad will happen, it's that kind of feeling.
For example: I had no particular idea of what to do after graduating from school and no real prospects. One day I woke up and just ended up in the right place at the right time to get recruited for what became my career. I had never heard of the people I ended up working for before and had no way of finding out about them unless I happened to be there at that time, and the only reason I ended up there is because I got one of those instruction/command things and followed it.
Another time, I got asked if I wanted to work out of another office about 20 minutes from my usual one for a couple weeks due to some reorganizations that were happening. It was purely up to me and nothing bad would have happened to me either way, but I said yes because I got another command to. That ended up leading me to be in the position to work on a certain project and get promoted for it.
This sounds fucking nuts, it could all be coincidence or me seeing patterns where there aren't any, but it's happened too many times for me not to notice.

>>24608711
Maybe one day you'll come up with an idea worth making into a book.

>>24608722
OK, say I did, does 300+ pages worth of story suddenly pop into my head? Can I get it all out within a couple of days because it's all there? Didn't think so.

>>24608725
Did I say quick or easy? I think I just said simple.

>>24608730
If it's simple, then it has to be quick and easy.

>>24608734
Simple in the sense of not complex.

>>24608734
Also, easy and simple are synonyms.

>>24608745
Only in a certain sense.

>>24608617
My body, my personality, my irl mannerisms, I don’t know. All of it, I guess. Maybe I snore or something.

>>24608770
Try eating pineapple.

I don't know how or why to continue living after having done the worst thing possible.

>>24608790
You raped a child? I suppose you should turn youself in.

>>24608790
Share what you did for the sake of catharsis.

Can you be my mr. skin tonight??

when is the egyptian dance scene in boardwalk empire television show in the popular gif from 4channel /tv/ if you know episode number and also time in episode then thank you. I don't want to have to scan too much my hands hurt form arthritis. in the seasons

>>24608805
>>24608809
It was an incident with a girl nearly three years ago to the day.

>>24608835
If it was an accident, then you didn't do anything wrong. Like one time I dropped an egg on the floor, but my mom didn't yell at me because it was an accident and not on purpose.

>>24608835
What did you do specifically?

>>24608835
Are you the guy who broke into your ex girlfriend’s house in the midst of a psychotic break and got into bed with her?

>>24608787
It never got to the “consumption of bodily fluids” stage so I doubt that insufficient pineapple consumption was the issue. Unless you count saliva, I suppose, but I brush, floss, and use a tongue scraper religiously so I doubt that was the problem either.

>>24608849
Yes

Had pulled pork and mac and cheese last night. Just mixed them both together, just some grated cheese on top, and am now crisping up and browning the cheese in the oven. Mmm, yummy pulled pork mac and cheese.

>>24608862
You aren’t a bad person. You’re a very talented writer, and you’re intelligent, introspective, and capable of serious self-reflection. You have a lot to offer the world, and that one isolated incident doesn’t determine your value or define the course of your future. You’ve already expressed remorse and done all you can to make amends—please don’t continue to torture yourself over this. Things can and will get better. If you ever need a friend to talk to, I’m here.

Reply to this with one thing you're grateful for, it's never bad to be grateful. Me, I'm grateful that I don't have to wake up at 5:30 every day for work.

I sometimes think I may be the only person alive getting any value out of the current political situation in the United States. I'm getting exactly what I wanted but I may be literally the only one, because my long-term goals for the United States are so strange and esoteric.

>>24608900
go to bed peter thiel I have PLTR bags I need you to pump

>>24608885
Gonna eat it while watching The Transformers (1986) movie.

>>24608885
Why are you cannibalizing your cousin?

I said "baka" to my mom. I feel so embarrassed. She said "what?" I told her it means "dummy" in Japanese. She looked at me and said, "Why are you calling me that?" I said, "It's not serious, people say it all the time in anime." She said, "Well, you're not in anime," and kept stirring the pot on the stove. I didn't say anything after that. A minute later she said, "You're weird." I said, "You're the one who doesn't know what 'baka' means." She looked at me and said, "Baka mitai," and smirked. I just stared at her. She said, "I've seen that karaoke meme. You're not special." I walked away and closed the door to my room. I could still hear her laughing. I didn't know what she was even talking about. Apparently, "baka mitai" is from the Yakuza game.

>>24608266 (OP)
I am starting to think Christianity as a belief system is just naturally conducive to developing a fixation on the Jews as a people.

>>24608266 (OP)
did some mushrooms and walked around my neighborhood in NYC. randomly picked up a volume of whitman and two old gay guys struck up convos w/ me about him. There's a girl upstate I'm dying to have sex with. I'm starting to think there might actually be some kind of teleological order.

>>24609031
Are any of the clauses related to eachother? Or are they completely self contained?

hey pig

>>24609031
unsubscribe

>>24609033
I'm tired of misogynistic pigs and misandrist sows.

>>24609031
You exist on a lower plane of consciousness.

>>24609041
The terms "pigs" and "sows" just make me think of weight gain fiction.

My gf says she doesn't want me to buy her pies anymore because she wants to lose weight. Yet she keeps eating them. This cycle happens every time. I'm just going to keep buying pies.

>>24609047
Is that your fetish?

All my friends say I look like Anthony Hopkins. I don't know if that's good or bad.

>>24608266 (OP)
I made the mistake of entering a relationship with a slut. Although it was casual at first I ended up thinking I was special for her, right when we dropped the relationship because I wouldn't commit to her

After our last (sexual) meetup she would still respond to me even though she said she wouldn't, for about 2.5 weeks. Then she ghosted. Then I knew she had found another dick. Now almost 2 months later I confirmed that. Then we got to talking and I realized I really was just another one of her boys to her. I did love her and she did love me but she did have someone really special that she hinted at before. Some guy who gave her cocaine on the beach for like a month
Then her current guy ghosted her probably because she told him she talked to me again then the next two nights we're out and both nights she's getting hit on in front of me and the second night she actually gets a number (guy I know actually) then she goes on a date

and I've nothing. I even tried monkey-branching during the relationship to make me feel better and I didn't get far. One girl wanted to be christian and chaste (though she did let me make out and touch massive titties) and another just petered off. and my slut? instantly fucking another guy. His mommy procured her for him. Then as soon as he rids himself of her? infinite male attention. another option. she might've fucked him tonight. Can you imagine? in a few months she can do what took me 23 years to do. I've only ever had sex with two people. She was my second.

This has been painful, even though I knew it was either me winning, or her; why did I ever think I could out-sex a woman?

>>24609069
you old?

>>24609101
No. I'm only 55.

Heaviness that lives in the jaw for generations.

Today I am grateful you kept the vault safe through it all.

>>24609119
Explain.

>>24609087
I guess what also hurts is that I treated her so well, I really did find her sweet and cute and wanted to care for her so I even asked "You would say I treated you well right?" (she answered "sometimes I thought you weren't someone I could really share my thoughts about my day with") and now that I think about it, she never asked me if I thought she was treating me well. As if my hangups over her weren't worth being addressed. As if I had to chase her so hard. One time I actually did offer to be committed and official. I wanted her so bad in the moment, I really meant it. And she declined, but we kept seeing each other. Why? She said something like "I don't think you really mean it" and I didn't get it. I think she really wanted me to LOUDLY PROFESS MY UNCONDITIONAL LOVE FOR HER. Because she was too good to acknowledge my reservations about dating a slut

I got criticized for letting married women flirt and dance with me. Am I supposed to deny married women?

>>24609130
The will to not only survive, the indomitable human spirit is like a fire. I imagine it like those fires that were kept alive for hundreds of years, like the one in ancient rome or of brigid. The vault is where the embers are kept in times of very long, very cold nights of scarcity where it was impossible to have a big fire. Yet you cared enough to find ways to feed the warmth so it won't die completely, no matter what. And I will remember it, cherish your efforts and say thanks for the sacrifices that were necessary to do that.

I would have really liked to have a daughter.

>>24609179
Why a daughter over a son?

>>24609048
Feeder hahaha.
>>24609108
Holy shit my condolences.

I saw this as my father becomes seventy tomorrow.

>>24609185
I do have sons and I love them deeply. Just a little something missing to feel complete. Like things will be lost that could have been passed on.

Chew Nomnibus has 1488 pages.

>>24609108
I love that we have legitimate post-menopause archons here. Not many places on the internet.

Blameless
I wished to fly unbound
Say less
You wish for the sun
A cage I bequeath to you
Of affection

Joining in on the self-pityfests these threads often entertain for a moment, I think the biggest and fatal issue of my upbringing was the lack of proper role models, especially those of an intellectual variety. Sure, some of my mother's friends were successful, but they owned business or sold houses or worked at IT firms, all boring shit. I wish I had known someone who was involved in academia growing up, because I didn't even really know being an academic was a career path one could pursue until it was too late, and had I known, it would have not only motivated me, but influenced all manners of my being, like my dress, social circle, interests. Instead, in my mind, the only option for success was to end up working in an office for the rest of my life, and of course I opted to become a deadbeat and start hanging out with the wrong crowds instead, even though I was plenty integrated with the other smartest kids in school.

>>24608266 (OP)
I think therefore I coom

>>24609311
Academia is overrated and pozzed. A jewish stamp of approval for being an industry-ready drone

>>24609108
>only
41 here, it's dreadful

>>24609323
Well, whatever it's small flaws, it'd still be a lifelong career I'd be happy with. Instead I'm an aspiring writer working as a waiter.

>>24608685
Most of the time it's the publisher who does the cover.

>>24609360
I guess that would explain why 99% of book covers are absolute slop these days, right?

>>24609366
Writing and graphics design are two very different talents. A lot of publisher also don't even try.

>>24609370
Why not just find an artist you like, strike up a deal with them, get them to design a cover, and have something that actually looks appealing on shelves? Is this retarded? I don't know much about business.

>>24609377
If I had to guess, a lot of authors just don't have an eye for aesthetics. It's a rare talent in general.

Do you think a tattoo artist would easily be able to tell if a tattoo I wanted was designed by AI, considering how good it is these days? I don't want to pay an artist to design something for me that I'll have to wait ages for.

>>24609379
Do you think that could be a profitable business? A freelance book cover designer?

>>24609385
Probably not. Being a freelance graphics designer is already hard enough.

>>24609390
Yeah, that's true. Damn.

Light bridges and burns the eyes. Two warriors meet, the collision is inevitable. A hollow sheen rings in the air. There are no spectators but fate ordains a victor. The sole survivor. The champion.

Reading this reddit comment section where people are arguing how the "barely legal" porn description and "teen" category are creepy and should be banned, even made illegal. I'd love to know what those who think this look like and what psychology is driving them to feel this way. Is it older women who are trying to eliminate some of the competition? Women who had previous negative and traumatic experiences when they were underage? Men overcorrecting trying to be on the putative right side of history? Crazy.

>>24609451
One user describes porn which uses descriptions/titles including "recently turned 18!" for the women involved as "pedo bait," what the fuck is going on...

>>24608711
So write something shorter than a full book

tfw author writes "poissant" big ick

>>24609454
I have, but I want to write a full book.

I'm just a stupid tired chopped chungus huzz.

I need to become a successful YouTuber or something similar, I don't want to work a 9-5 anymore. I need to get a bunch of money, open a business overseas, and disappear.

Many of our modern issues stem from people uncritically assuming that third worlders have the same predilection towards collective altruism and empathy as first worlders. How can they not see that there's nothing behind those pitch black eyes?

>>24609551
having to force a shit in the morning is giving me hemorrhoids as i get older, i can only imagine the state of my asshole when i finally retire in 15 years. do u think the figma ipo has the chances to 10x so i can retire early? looks like shit to me but maybe he can disrupt adobe's assss.

>>24609597
yeah have u read "why nations fail"? poor countries are poor because they're always ripping each other off so it's not worth it to try create value since some dickhead will just extract it from you. basically they're just zero sum hellscapes, which should be obviously i guess, but sometimes u need a professor from mit to write a book about for people to get it.

>>24609597
Blame Hitler for making anything remotely resembling the ideology of Nazism, particularly in regards to nationalism, race, xenophobia, cultural superiority, and the like, anathema to subsequent generations educated about WW2 and positioned as being fundamentally incompatible with Western liberalism and its universalism of liberal values and the liberal world order.

>>24609623
>having to force a shit in the morning is giving me hemorrhoids as i get older
I'm only 22 and I'm rhoided up. It is from forcing, but not from forcing shit.

>>24609597
just say you've never been seduced by a nubian queen lil bro. syrian and burmese and malawian people have the biggest hearts and souls in the world. they spirit mog white splinters like you a billion times over

>>24608266 (OP)
Any therapists or adjacent professionals here?

Been having terrible intrusive thoughts about my girlfriend's sexual past, and have been kept up at night dealing with this shit. Did some journaling, and I recently discovered that my issue probably lies with
a) how she and I might potentially value sex and love differently;
b) how the above might lead to our present relationship possibly being in danger (because my mind connects casual sex with higher chances of possible infidelity)

Need your input on how to handle this internal conflict. My goal is to not worry about this past shit and feel deep security and love in my relationship so we can just focus on the present and the future.

if anyone out there is feeling depressed feeling bad or sick or whatever i just want you to know that i feel pretty good

>>24608266 (OP)
How close are we to society finally realizing the reason why women were not allowed to vote for most of human history and adjusting the laws respectively? I need to know.

How do I stop myself from getting distracted while listening to audiobooks?

>>24608978
Kek based mom

Seeing how high I can get in ranked in MTGA by only using the premade decks they give you.

>>24608978
"Baka mitai" means "I look like an idiot".

>>24609670
open up a physical copy and follow along while you listen

>>24608708
most people are still unaware of the extent of Israel's total depravity. almost every single salient issue in modern politics is tied to the conflict. For example, Jeffrey Epstein had deep ties to Israeli intelligence services and was personal friend with the general who implemented lethal AI targeting software.

I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that nothing in my area will get better until this wretched cabal that's infiltrated our culture has been excised and banished, root, stalk, and leaf

>>24609727
This doesn't answer my question. Also has this:
>Jeffrey Epstein had deep ties to Israeli intelligence services
Ever been proven or is it still a theory?

>>24609730
yes, beyond a shadow of a doubt. Robert Maxwell, Ghislaine Maxwell's father, was infamous for being an Israeli agent and received a full state burial from them, despite not being a citizen or even Jewish himself. Epstein, who comes from relatively humble origins in NYC, just somehow becomes personal friends with multiple Israeli intelligence agents, generals, and prime ministers? ofc he's not going to be carrying around a ID card saying he's a spy, but the preponderance of evidence proves beyond a reasonable doubt that he has deep ties with Israeli intelligence

Gf has stupid moodswings again and raging against me.

>>24609786
He was also a math professor without having any necessary credentials which I think is funny and interesting, cause, like, out of all the jobs he could've gotten, that's the one he went for.

>>24609791
>having a gf
ngmi

>>24609786
Robert Maxwell was Jewish

>>24609803
Just tell her she's acting like her mother and that she needs to calm down.

I don't think the people around me are even remotely capable of conceiving how lonely I am.

>>24609808
I don't know how the people around me get lonely, I've never been lonely before, I don't know what it feels like. And that's not because I'm always talking to someone or hanging out with someone, I'm not, I just love being alone.

I hate people so much thst I want to kill humans constantly, including myself and my own family. I hate humanity so much that I want to torture people constantly.

Anybody else seen the YouTube channel Horses? He makes, what I think, are super cool video essays. He's the only video essay creator who I think it worth anyone's time and who isn't cringe zoomerslop. I wish I could make stuff like him.

tfw from kazakhstan

>>24608997
Christianity is really just believing whatever you normally would have believed anyway if you weren't Christian, but pretending you have a moral high ground

>>24609807
Her mother is actually quite different from her

>>24609827
Well, damn. Still, tell her to calm down.

>>24609829
She doubles down on her a her instead. Always the same bs before her period.

>>24609835
On her anger*

>>24609835
Not much you can do except be on your best behaviour and stay out of her way as much as possible.

>>24609835
Had the same with my ex. Pain in the ass. 99% chance of her crying from something and making it my fault if I spent time with her in those two or so days. You just kind of had to tank it and try to either avoid her or just walk on eggshells.

>>24609623
your job doesnt allow bathroom breaks?

>>24609850
no

Every time I leave my house and walk my dog and start self-reflecting, I want to do the thing Nero does in DMC4. Punch the ground while screaming, shattering the asphalt.

Pop musik is so stupid. How many songs about the same subjects with the same musical structure do we need? It's pointless, pure consumption

>>24609915
You could say this about every single music genre.

>>24609915
pop music is great, music that is constantly blasted on the radio or videos that have billion views aren't good however

my rambling post on reddit calling someone out got 56 upvotes :3

>>24609915
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aaiNeZaGrH0

People that think being in a relationship is supposed to be about getting validation and attention non stop are the worst.

I can't stop drinking crude oil

I can't stop drinking belgian beer

I can't stop drinking italian dressing

Maybe if I chew the pistachio nuts and then spit them out I'll be fine, win-win...

>>24610004
>pistachio nuts
I watched Paul the other day, he really likes pistachios.

I can't stop thinking about that time I did coke infront of a baby

>>24609967
I mean, being in a relationship is supposed to make you happy and feel good. If those are the requirements to making them happy and feeling good, then yeah, for them, that is what it's about, at least partially. They just need to find the right partner to satisfy their needs.

>>24610007
One time I needed clean urine to pass a drug test. I told a friend, and what they did was put cotton balls into their baby's diaper, waited for them to pee, collected the urine into a container by squeezing out each of the cotton balls, then freezing it to hand to me later. Good friend she was. Hope she's doing well.

I'm excited to go blind. I'd make a good cripple. A wonderful paraplegic.

>>24609843
>>24609842
Dod they also threaten with breakups?

>>24610021
One serving of blinding stew for anon!

>>24610004
Yeah, that did not work out well. The nuts get chewed up into too many small pieces which makes it impractical and impossible to spit out everytime, you will always end up with some leftover in your mouth which you'll have to swallow. Damn.

First thoughts inside my head this morning after 3 hours of sleep:

>I wanted it and I’m a shameful person
>I deserve what happened to me
>It was my fault
>I can never ever be clean again
>I can never feel okay
>I can never be a man
>I’m just a fucked up worthless little boy
>Shame is all I’ve ever known
>I want to hurt myself
>I want to destroy myself

>>24609711
I think I should try this and see how it goes, if I retain better I think I'll do this for all books

>>24610037
Finally someone honest with themselves.

>>24610024
There's a good chance they will, and you'll want to try to stay together as much as possible and you will fight for it, that's only natural and there's nothing to be ashamed of, but eventually you'll have to put your foot down, take them at face value, and leave them.

I'm very malicious and I enjoy it too much to stop.

>>24610041
Gave me a chuckle. Thanks anon. I really needed that this morning.

>>24609967
Found the foid

>>24610007
did you at least knock him up one as well

There is something about awkwardness that is endearing. When you talk to someone and they stumble over their words, or they repeat a previous topic of conversation because they want to fill the silence. If I was a girl I would really like awkward guys. Is this how girls feel too?

>>24610069
No, girls want social competence. Back when I had more of a stutter, it was always, always a turnoff to girls, despite being good-looking. Sometimes it even turnoff'd girls who were into me prior.

>>24610072
Surely the awkwardness factor makes you more approachable, no? There's something about complete social competence that makes interactions feel fake. I can never feel comfortable with someone who always knows what to say.

>>24610042
Why the fuck fight at all if you're just planning on leaving them anyway?

>>24610096
I'm saying they should leave if it never changes.

I think I might become a Satanist
>Satanism is only for edgy 14 year olds
That’s true. But I’m a fucked up manchild with severe emotional problems. And any time I prayed to God, I was forsaken. I received no response, no sign at the most dire times in my life. I don’t think God exists anyway, so that puts The Devil and God on equal footing. I might as well see if I can placebo myself into believing the dark lord of this world has favoured me. Then I can take the darkness inside my head and use it as fuel.

>>24610072
it’s basically impossible to turn off a girl who’s already into you, you sort of get away with murder

I'm making a chocolate foam sponge, nobody move

>>24610111
>111
Resembles 666 written in Hebrew. Close enough.

>>24610042
But its only a few days per month...

I tried to do some sports and now I'm sick again.

I dreamt up a new carnivorous plant

head like hole

>>24610149
Look, if they threaten to break up, you can just ignore them every time, that's always an option. But also, I understand that women are like hair triggers when they're on their periods, but she can't always be like this, she can't always use her period as an excuse. Eventually, she'll have to learn to control it to the best of her ability (which I guarantee she isn't doing right now). You can't just get treated like absolute shit every month just because she's menstruating.

>>24610173
Such a dilemma...

i used to chart my course fr. now I'm becalmed at sea on god.

Is this lowkey the skinniest board on 4chan? Food is almost never discussed. That's how you know.

When a person’s sense of self is comprehensively violated and destroyed, they are forced to rebuild themselves entirely from the ground up. It’s a process of agony but it’s also freedom. That old self is gone or perhaps sequestered away, somewhere finally safe. What remains is a new design. A new architecture of self, free from limitation.

>>24610261
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gDOMtOFaCys

>>24608997
>There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither slave nor free person, there is not male and female; for you are all one in Christ Jesus.

>>24610217
I eat lots of pure chocolate

>>24610217
My sponge rolled up nicely, thanks for asking >>24610122

>>24610269
Did you post this to make fun of my sentences? Lmao you’re probably right. This song/recording is really cool. I had only heard the Johnny Cash version of this song before.

>>24608714
Tell me more about these magical feelings of yours. I think I have them but fail to detect them/recognize their importance most of the time.

gonna watch Fellini's La Dolce Vita later today

Nine Inch Nails is the worst band.

>>24610282
Nah it was just what i thought reading it: you're always you
That version most people these days heard though Moby in the 90s
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4UXpmvu35Fk
Moby has pretty good taste in US folk samples tbf
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F_rq5aiyFaA
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pVwDlkJoITU

>>24610308
wrong, they're the best

>>24609649
You are the early twenties guy I spent an entire thread replying to around a month back, right? The one with the tattoo neurosis. If so, nice to know that you ignored everything I said and became even more neurotic as a result.

>>24610069
I wish you were my girlfriend. You'd worship me.

>>24610320
What's up, man? You doing good?

If there were gods or aliens that could take human form, that is the only time I would consider procreating. I would like to have a child with dragon blood and that rises to destroy all of humanity.

>>24610261
The old self is the real one, your efforts should be on saving that rather than rebuilding. That is the God that made you.

>>24610186
it is the mercy

>>24610357
this may be the worst advice I've ever heard in my life kek

>>24610318
>>24610357
It’s both. I’m always me and I’m always changing. Nothing is ever fixed in place. The old self hasn’t been thrown away. But he’s a little kid though! No point in being that all over again. Tomorrow is a new day.

>>24610369
I can see how it stands in stark contrast to modern mainstream ideas about the self.
I read something in an English poet's personal letters once that struck me
>After all, nobody can possibly succeed in being you as well as yourself, and gradually you in that favourable position of being in your position can find out far better than anyone else what being you entails.

>>24610383
People should be very protective of their vision

Mine is 11cm.

>>24610338
not bad

>>24610394
fucking hell this guys hung like a horse

>>24610394
Cut or uncut

>>24610418
Circumcised.

>>24610418
well if he's using metric ..

>>24610408
Glad to hear.

>>24610419
disgusting

>>24610438
Fuck you. My penis is beautiful.

>>24610441
no mutilated cock is good looking

wait, President Trump actually fired the head of the Bureau of Labor Statistics the other day because he didn't like the reports they were putting out showing the disastrous effects his tariffs and policies are having on the economy? what the fuck. this guy has got to go, man. impeach NOW

>>24610451
>President Donald Trump and one of his top economic advisors on Monday stoked baseless conspiracies about federal jobs data, suggesting without evidence that Friday’s weaker-than-expected employment report had been “rigged” by federal workers bent on sabotaging the president.

>“All over the U.S. government, there have been people who have been resisting Trump everywhere they can,” National Economic Council Director Kevin Hassett said Monday on CNBC.

>Trump, meanwhile, claimed on social media that the report, which painted a dour picture of the economy, was “RIGGED” and the previous months’ revisions had been “CONCOCTED in order to make a great Republican Success look less stellar!!!”

>The only way to protect the integrity of economic data, said Hassett, is to replace the economists and statisticians who lead the agencies that collect data.

>“To make sure that the data are as transparent and as reliable as possible, we’re going to get highly qualified people in there that have a fresh star

sigh

sorry for the political post but this is what was on my mind after reading about it and I had to get it out somewhere, and no matter where you are on the political spectrum, you gotta find this pretty outrageous

>>24610451
based economy destroyer

>>24610451
Firing an agency head - however controversial - is not grounds for impeachment. Impeachment is for high crimes, not bad optics. Otherwise, you turn it into a political weapon, and that damages the republic far more than one dismissal

>>24610534
It's a totality of things, anon. Consider it under the umbrella of "gravely harming the interests of the United States without reasonable cause or public benefit"

honestly getting a kindle and a keurig were the biggest life improvements of the last 2 years.

>>24610464
This makes politburo officials in Beijing laugh and slap their knees

>>24610538
>gravely harming the interests of the United States
is a dangerously subjective standard without a clear legal threshold. The bar should remain high and concrete.

>>24610557
The tariff abuse is plenty

>>24610534
>>24610557
Also, while I of course agree the President has total hiring and firing prerogatives for what traditionally falls under the Executive Branch, taking political control of what are expressly the independent agencies is no small issue.

>>24610559
For impeachment? No, it isn't. Bad policy isn’t a high crime. If you start overturning elections over economic decisions you disagree with, then every administration becomes fair game - and that’s not how a stable republic functions.

>>24610574
not every breach of tradition is a breach of law.

>>24610576
There's bad policies and then there's abuse of power.

>>24610580
?

They're not just nominally independent agencies, they're legally and distinctly. The head of, say, the Pentagon serves at the pleasure of the President -- the head of the Federal Reserve or in this case the Bureau of Labor Statistics, does not. So exercising direct control and installing a political lackey is more than just breaking tradition is my point.

No pump feeling today :( probably I haven't recovery fully from yesterday run

*Taps glass* hem hem. I had sex with my aunt in a beachside public bathroom and she licked the wall while I was screwing her.

>>24610588
Abuse of power has to be tied to actual legal overreach - not just violating norms people got used to under previous presidents. The BLS is not an independent regulatory agency like the Fed or the SEC; it’s part of the Department of Labor, which is squarely under executive control.

If firing someone you're legally allowed to fire is an impeachable abuse of power, then your real issue is with the Constitution.

>>24610600
Ever read Travels with my Aunt?

>>24610600
giwtwm

Actually no not the wall part ew

I wish I was trans.

Told myself I wouldn't write about my dissolving marriage in my new journal, so I'm doing it here instead.

I keep thinking that I'm over it and ready to move on with my life, but I keep having nightmares about being abandoned and hurt. In my waking life, I have no more desire for the marital relationship, or to ever remarry at all, yet I keep falling into depression at the thought of being left behind, and keep dreaming of being loved again. Don't know if I'm just repressing everything or what. The thing is, it took an act of God to rid me of my desire for the relationship to be repaired, so why do I keep dreaming of it? God took away the greatest pain of my life, the inability to let go, the all-consuming desire for someone who cast me aside in favor of another, and gave me the strength to continue with my life. But I'm starting to slip into despondency and hatred and resentment again, even though I don't want it back... I just feel weird about it all.

>>24610612
rings false

The problem with immigrants taking jobs and offshoring of manufacturing is those are blue-collar jobs, and the decisions are made by white-collar political staff, so not only do the negative consequences not affect them, but in their minds they're doing the country a favor because everyone should want to work white-collar jobs anyhow.

but now those problems, along with AI, are coming for white-collar jobs, so maybe we'll see some change within the political classes on these issues.

>>24610635
What do you mean by that?

>>24608266 (OP)
It doesn’t matter.
None of it matters. The soul is eternal and so I am locked in a perpetual nightmare.
Why do I have to exist; I never consented to that.

A girl told me she wanted to do something with me—a girl I care about very much. I said yes, obviously, and gave her two possible dates to choose from: Tuesday and Friday. She picked Tuesday. On Monday, she canceled our meeting, supposedly because she had forgotten she was going to get her nails done that day. I told her it was fine and we decided on Friday instead.

On Thursday, I messaged her to ask if Friday was still okay, not wanting a repeat of last time, and she replied that it was. But on Friday, she suddenly told me she was having a really hard time and had been stress drinking a lot with two of our mutual friends, which I found weird, usually people binge drink by themselves when they're stressed, but whatever. She said she wasn't sure if she'd even be able to make it all because of all the drinking, and not shortly after, she messaged me again and canceled our meeting completely. I asked her what was wrong (in a non-white-knight-non-orbiter way, I assure you), and she just said she'd tell me later.

A couple hours later she posted a picture of herself playing cards at a bar with aforementioned mutual friends in a group chat I'm in. At some point later she messaged me asking if I was angry now, and I just swiped away the pop up, without opening the message, so I've essentially ghosted her ever since.

Why would someone do this? Just to be cruel? My love life is pathetic enough as is, I don't need deliberate mistreatment like this.

>>24610645
not sure exactly, it was a knee-jerk response. maybe it’s the way it’s written or the tone.
I’ve been through something like this (not exactly but), and wouldn't dream of putting it on 4chan.

>>24610661
Well I only have one friend, who's a newlywed, I don't want to blather on about my failing marriage to them, and like I said I also don't want to shit up my new journal with this stuff. I intentionally put away my old one to "move on" and not write about it anymore so better to throw it out somewhere it at least won't stick around.

Maybe I was right about you lacking the self-awareness to take what I said to heart and feel genuine remorse. Or perhaps you didn’t even make it to that part, which is even more damning.

I have to remind myself every day that I am a valuable person even if I'm the furthest thing from a star nfl quarterback. I'm good, capable, and people like me. I will not kill myself.

>>24610667
when I was 15 and posted on /b/ (and /mu/), I thought about posting something about my first real girlfriend and got a sick feeling in my stomach. comes off as distasteful, a peculiar little breach of confidence, the sort of thing you really ought to keep to yourself rather than parading it in a place like this.

Friend been blanking me for a long time. I assumed our friendship was over, and was bitching about it to a couple mutual friends, not vindictively, but I was blowing off steam, and word has clearly gotten back to him as he's now offcially removed me from social media. Feels weird. I don't regret what I said, and even if he had an issue with me he could have been a man and said something rather than blanking me (previously he complained I didn't put in enough effort with our friendship, even though when I did ask him to hang out he'd decline to play Xbox). Just feels weird. We had quite a close friendship for some time and it's strange how it can just end like that.

>>24610687
There's no confidence left when you've been completely betrayed. I felt the same about posting about the relationship when things were good.

I hate Indians so fucking much. I got called by an Indian spoofing ICE number, and I had enough of all the scam calls from them. I confronted the Indian and demanded her to answer why they keep doing this? Don't Indians realize their PR is plummetting? I asked in a very sincere and authentic way how they can go from having a cultural legacy to being a bunch of scammers and ingrates, and don't they realize that anti-Indian sentiment is growing. Moron refused to acknowledge it any of it! Instead, she put my voice for others to hear, and I had enough of that.

I hope my ancestral country invades and genocides Indians. I don't give a shit about Israel or Palestine anymore. I am going to make Indians experience worlds of pain they cannot imagine. I will depopulate their entire lands, and I will make them experience pain that goes beyond this lifetime to future ones. Stupid fucking jeet scum. You are in dire need of genocides. Don't fuck with me.

Indians are also stealing my jobs too as H1bs. A bunch of disgusting subhumans.

>>24610697
If there's one thing I've learned by having lots of friends, it's that friendships...don't really mean all that much.

>>24610701
feels less like a cry for help and more like you want the spotlight. I don't know. I’d rather believe someone's making this up than think there are men who act like this.

My big brother is drilling me.

>>24610713
Yeah, I used to be quite social and have a lot of "friends" but I realised a lot of them are just fodder who will act up or stop being around you over any little thing. The only consistent friends I've had are the 4 I've had my whole life. Like I said, I don't regret this friendship ending, it just feels weird, particuarly as it's one sided. It feels like I'm being percieved in a way I have no control over, therefore making me feel hyperaware of my actions and past relationship with the guy.

>>24610612
You have desire for another love, you are chasing yourself in your sleep. Listen to your soul, the pain is going to stay for some time, the despondency is going to stay with you for some time. The closer you get to it, the closer you listen the more clear the path forwards will be, open yourself up to God as you did before and the landscape of the earth itself will shift beneath your feet to place you on the road towards yourself. Consider your pain a gift and learn the lesson life has set out to teach you, don't swallow any part of yourself, love demands everything and wishes to experience all parts and all sensations capable of it's beloved object, love yourself now as best you can.

>>24610647
She's binge drinking bro, ignore the bitch she has no clue what she is doing. She'd put it together if she wanted to, my wife ended a relationship of 5 years and moved across the world to be with me. If she can't do it, do you really love her enough to push the cart she's in? Sounds like no.

>>24610714
kill your self

>>24610720
>kill your self
be fr bro

>>24610719
>She's binge drinking bro
Honestly I don't even know if that's true, maybe that was just an excuse and she was completely sober; either way, she's been dropped. I appreciate the support.

I'm always tempted to order new books even though I still haven't finished the ones I already have

Finally back in my apartment after a week in my hometown. What a weird experience it was, to help my dad and family, see my friends and be human again. I was gone for years yet it felt like I was gone for only a few days. We all aged a lot. I'm thankful for the experience. I could've stayed for another week but I needed to go back to the grind. I miss my ex, I think she probably still lives there. I wonder how she's been doing.

>>24610647
She sounds like she's using you for attention. She's probably going out on benders and using you to sponge up her hangover angst. I know many girls like this, and they're all to be avoided. Ideally you want a girl who will go bar crawling with you to blow off steam, not without you. Fuck her off, anon.

>>24610747
this is exactly (exactly!) how i treat girls

>>24608279
no fuckin anime here

>>24608266 (OP)
Hi, my name's Amba Singh, and I hate the family unit and wish to abolish it.

>>24608429
what museum did you went?

>>24610640
If you have a smaller workforce due to less migration you'll have increased wages which makes labour intensive industry less profitable which causes offshoring.
They are two different problems

>>24610779
why

i have a whole day tomorrow to think, what should i think about?

>>24610828
Undersea cables and artificial photosynthesis

>>24610828
Hedge fund basis trade arbitrage

>>24610747
Thank you for the encouragement.

>>24610838
this is what 17 year old students doing BTECs hoping for an apprenticeship in a £17/hr manual labour job think about.

>depressed wagecuck
>"alright I'll take a rest and do the travel thing, I'll invite my mom since we were extreme poorfags and we have never traveled in our life"
>she's very happy
>about to go
>place we were going to visit gets hit by a lot of rain and shit and weather there is literally the worst in 20 years there
It's things like this that makes me believe in God

chevy chase still funny to me

Say no
say yeah
so what
so what
so what

Netanyahu must be the most retarded politician ever, he really blew a massive support from the west over a stupid pointless war. Neither the left or the right wants to do anything with Jews anymore. Upcoming years gonna be fun for Israel

>>24610950
Hamas playing sixth dimensional chess by bribing Moloch with a million Palestinian souls to betray the Jew

doing something nice (actually nice, not just seeming nice, but by the internal universal law) has the same effect on you as alcohol or drugs. i know this by experience now

>>24610808
1) the family unit is subversive, because it is Liberalism taking the tropes of the Ancient Greek concept of oikos and using them to create a false paradigm that tricks people into disregarding, and dismantling, their ethnosphere.
2) the family unit is unsustainable, as marked by the growing failure and decline of Western parents, the rise of subpar children with all sorts of issues, and other problems which are beyond remedying via personal responsibility, but only through institutional change (removing the bad plumbers alone will not make a bad plumbing system good).
3) the family unit is intentionally corrosive, inherently chaotic as it destroys both human potential and cultural health for the sake of the household's stakes
4) the family unit is ultimately unfulfilling, as, for all the problems inherent to and emanating from it, the gifts it produces are paltry, and made only for quick consumption, not a serious inheritance.
— Amba Singh

>>24611013
And, if I may be so bold Amba Singh, how is your relationship with your parents ?

Whenever I am alone in my room, I like to sit in a corner, facing the wall. There, I can hear whispers coming from the shadows and they tell me horrible, horrible secrets about everyone.... Including me.

>>24611095
are you getting enough sleep?

This is me.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5eleLVZwos8

>>24611095
>t.

>>24608266 (OP)
General thoughts on my favorite quotes?

https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/list/90921786

tfw butchered camus' name infront of her and she corrected my pronunciation and laughed pitilingly.

I'm a 31 year old neet loser high school drop out from an uneducated family but now for the first time on my life I have some kind of career aspirations and direction in my life and fuck I'm overwhelmed by the idea of navigating the education system to get a bachelor's and a masters degree, all of this is so alien to me and I'm already so old.

I'm frustrated bros, fuck I wish i could have figured all of this out 10 years ago fuck fuck FUCK

>>24611200
Should've shot her 5 times and then blamed it on the sun.

>>24611200
I call him Camuss instead of Camu to irritate French speakers for no particular reason.

>>24611201
My aunt went back to school at like 43 and is now happily working at the major hospital in this decently-sized city, chill out, anon, it'll all be okay and worth it.

>>24611201
Im just entering college at 43

>>24611206
I do this with lots of popular authors, I especially love saying Proust with the same vowel sounds as roust instead of roost
Shout out the anon who once suggested swapping Yeats' and Keats' vowel sounds

Am honestly shocked that people still post here. I come here about once a month and it reminds me why I left.

>>24611212
>William Butler Yeets

just got back from jewbai my soul has been crushed and it's shard all blown away

I've become a wine aunt. I never thought this would happen.

>>24611213
>frognigger
feel free to leave again

>>24611206
congrats on just being an avg yank very well done

>>24611201
I have two years of experiences and a BS in Neuroscience, BS in Computer Science, and MS in Robotic Intelligence, and I can't get a job because jeets keep stealing them. I don't recommend going into the tech field. Maybe engineering is fine if you're really going to learn stuff (not just pass).
My last two jobs I only got through connections too.

>>24611206
You never interact with French speakers.

>>24611291
Are you gonna give me a blowjob as a trophy, Liam?

>>24611313
Nor would I want to. I admire their ideas but I find their culture repugnant, if you can even call it 'culture' at all.

>>24611323
You can't separate ideas from culture.

>>24611326
Probably. But its not like I haven't tried. Derrida would probably get a kick out of doing something like that or whatever

>>24611323
bit rich coming from an american isn’t it?
k amis wrote
>There is no distinctively American literature. They offer a vast number of books that in some ways resemble British literature and in other ways don't. Those other ways are likewise non-American, whether they come from other European cultures like German or French (the latter by direct borrowing) or from non-national cultures: Jewish, Negro. No coherent culture could emerge from all that.

>>24611336
Lots of words just to say "I can't carry a butter knife in public without getting arrested"
I accept your concession, Muhammad

Since America is largely manipulated by Freemasons, do you think joining a lodge for connections is good? Would I get raped?

>>24611351
Masons are old hat. Join AIPAC.

>>24611340
I'm afraid you got BTFO anon.

>>24608279
Based. Any true conisseur of the modern arts loves anime, too.

>>24611356
I did not. You just think so because your kind can't stop breeding.

I killed a guy in 2003.

>>24611353
They would dismember and eat me since I descend from their number one enemies (and ironically the fools that freed them).

>>24611365
I want to know what that's like

>>24611351
whenever i see a car (giant suv) with a mason thing it also has an army or navy bumper sticker, american flag, and is blasting 70s rnb, so i hope u like hanging out with veteran boomers of color.

check this out:
https://jerseydigs.com/masonic-temple-orange-history/
and then check the demographics of east orange today:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/East_Orange,_New_Jersey

>>24611367
Im not the guy you're arguing with.

Incest is kino as fuck exactly because the stakes of so catastrophically high if (and it will) the love begins to fail. It's like burning down your whole family tree all at once

>>24611371
I just need connections and a decent job. If I have to study some Kabbalah bs, I can do that.

Maybe I should go to a church. I haven't spoken to anyone in a conversational way irl (besides family) in 5+ years.

>>24610640
it will only result in increased downward pressure on blue collar wages. less white collar jobs + increased immigration (don't kid yourself, both parties are robustly in favor of it) equals lower wages and working conditions across the board.

the future is feudalism, and you, like everyone else here, will be a serf.

Things could have been different if the US hadn't de-metaled the dollar or at least had also not aligned with Israel (who would have thought that making the value of your currency reliant on oil trading, which is mostly produced by your allies' enemies would have ended poorly)

>>24611383
join the knights of columbus and give out dinner to homeless people on the holidays, eventually someone will hook you up with a job with the city.

>>24611389
America just sharply went downhill after 9/11 and the 2009-2011 recession. I miss the 90s. It wasn't perfect but better than now.

>>24611383
On that note I should go back to being a neocon.

>>24611393
I wrote and published a horror story where Jesus was cannibalized. Do you think this might turn into a problem? The story appears when you Google my name (after my professionally made LinkedIn ofc).

>>24611395
The 90s weren't that great either

>>24611396
Why?

>>24611399
Relatively speaking they the 90s was much better than now.

I can't sleep. When I close my eyes and evil white light burns me from behind my eyelids. It's probably a curse from my voodoo ex.

>>24611395
the 90s were just good cuz u were young and didn't know/care abt anything, like when there was that genocide in east timor no one but communist college kids noticed or cared, when all those cult guys got burned to a crisp at waco everyone was like well i guess they must've done sth to deserve it, and only people with subscriptions to wsj gave a shit about the asian financial crisis.

>>24611407
>tfw cared and knew about these because near commie levels socialist country
I was going to suggest the reason the 90s seem good was the ecstasy boom though
Nta btw

>>24611301
Thankfully I gave up my interests in tech long ago. I want a masters in library science and a bachelor either in literature or teaching so I can work in schools and thus increase my employment opportunities

>>24608266 (OP)
Boy oh boy! I can't wait for the toddler I live with to finish learning to speak fluidly and repeat the platitudes his parents torment him with to me as a form of venting like the other toddler does.
Considering how my father treats him, it will be especially fun getting the tone and atitude my father used when I was a toddler repeated back to me BY a toddler.

>TFW you dive so deep into Nick Land you come out the otherside a maoist

I love dialectics

>>24611383
Unironically, if you have a degree, look into commissioning in the armed forces.

new
>>24611823
>>24611823
>>24611823

>>24611123
I hope so, my head hurts all the day btw
>>24611149
Blade is LITERALLY ME

>>24611401
I dunno. Too much third worldist coming from the right these days.

A couple of sheep appear before the shepherd and asks the what he does for a living.
The shepherd says, "I beg your pardon?"
"you herd us, " the sheep replied.

>>24611234
Post tits, auntie.