>>24615862
>I don't have a male model in my life nor anyone approaching masculinity in my close circle, except maybe 1 person but theyre more psychotic (and I do mean it) or outright dangerous than masculine
To be clear, this guy you’re describing is not masculine. If we consider that a traditional characteristic of masculinity is command and control, could a guy who cannot control his emotions and command himself to act responsibly be “masculine”?
It’s obviously going to be hard for you to filter through men because you are right that most “men” are absolutely pathetic, but let’s be even more honest, most *people* are. If you think you’re better, then live your life accordingly and embody your higher values.
The type of men you’re looking for, by definition, aren’t “performing”, so that means they’ll naturally be hidden in plain sight.
If you truly want emotional, animal-like, passionate sex in your life, you need to accept that you’re a woman and you may get pregnant from the act. It’s my personal litmus test to expose the bullshit that you type of women like to spew straight to my face irl without realizing that they’re acting like hardcore bullshitters. If you want a guy to fuck you like a dog fucking a bitch in heat, you need to embody that bitch in heat. No condoms, no pulling out, just experiencing life in a pure form. Of course I’m not advocating to be reckless, your job is, again, to discern. A masculine man is comfortable with the consequences of his actions, so you and your hypothetical child would be cared for by him. A masculine man would naturally be discerning *you* in terms of whether you’re a healthy woman that, if you got pregnant, would be a good mother to his children.
Anyways, it’s ultimately your choice how you want to live your life, so if you want to go the childless independent woman route, don’t be surprised to find your experience with “men” to be colored by contempt for their faggotry - you were asking for it.