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>>24611823 (OP)
A black cloud drifted over the Willamette... Hundreds of crows flew diagonally into the wind as a long train screeched to a halt. Every day a train rolls into the station on the east bank of the river and screams for a half hour during its slow and menacing halt. There is no peace... never a day without a reminder of the reality of life, of why the rents on the beautiful west bank were so reasonable... The condo complex on the west bank if full of geriatrics, and every day is a reminder of their myopia, their naivety. They were blinded by the nobility of the Willamette and the powerful old steel sutures that stitch his shores. They’ve learned the reason for the low rents and have acquiesced to the piercing screams of the metal as a daily sermon on the evil of this world which they anticipate with a sense of reverence. They wait for it all day long. They meet at the pavilion to speak of the evil of the world as the black cloud swarms above them and descends... There is no escaping now. Life is coming to an end. They don’t have visitors. In the pavilion, some are chosen as martyrs. The steel bridge is crossed in a whispering procession of cloaked grandmothers and grandfathers and widows... they line the tracks as the scream’s frequency climbs to a crescendo and releases the elect from this deficient world.

I'm realizing that a capstone paper is a much lower bar than I previously thought

You will get old and die.

>>24611823 (OP)
I went to therapy because my wife has had cancer 3x and is now infertile. I just thought we would talk about grieving her infertility and the loss of ever having a family, but I'm getting way more than I bargained for. I'm realizing I had a pretty fucked up childhood and I have all these unresolved issues coming to the surface and I feel like I'm losing who I was. I had created this depersonalized identity to be strong, but whittling that down, I'm just finding the same wounds from my childhood. I feel so empty.

i have an eating disorder and can’t stop starving myself. i feel awful, tired, and weak most days and wish i could stop but i think i love feeling sick. i like seeing bruises form on my body and feeling too weak to even walk. i don’t know what to do.

>>24611950
does it make you feel more connected to yourself or more grounded? more in control?

I'm a prisoner in my on flesh. My body want to kill, never felt comfortable in this prison flesh. I feel like alien only my mind exist I am only my mind

>>24611953
probably more in control. i feel everything so deeply and have a hard time controlling my emotions. maybe restricting allows me to feel proud about my ability to control some aspect about myself. besides that i have a deep desire to be very thin.

So much city, so much thirst
I'm just a lonely man

>>24611823 (OP)
Furries are postmodernism

I can’t sleep and I miss you.

>>24612011
I miss you too, babe

>>24612022
I would never miss a furry. Elevate your tastes, please, for your own good.

>>24611980
You sound like me. I don't hate my body, I just want to connect with it more and not feel like this floating disembodied intellect. Even that feels hollow.

A couple of sheep appear before the shepherd and asks the what he does for a living.
The shepherd says, "I beg your pardon?"
"you herd us, " the sheep replied.
The dog proceeded to murder all of them not so long after.

My mom had a lot of gay friends, even went to gay bars, so my tastes are all gay.

>>24612074
all your tastes are happy

Every hoe wants to be a findom now

>>24612057
Sounds like ewe problem

Should you read Shakespeare or watch it first in theatre or at least a recording on youtube?

>>24612118
>Should you read Shakespeare or watch it first in theatre or at least a recording on youtube?
Read it, then watch the play, I guess.
You might get a better grasp of what is being said.

Did Tolkien ever bang his wife?

Crazy how many shameless things I've done. I thought they'd turn to jokes with the medicine of time. But they've turned to cringe. The memories hide in my mind like electric rays and shock me when I stand on them. When I think I have to walk very carefully in my mind. I bumped into my aunt at a club and she was with her girlfriend. I was on ketamine and at some point my aunt's girlfriend was dancing in front of me and either she backed up into me or I accelerated into her but regardless she was grinding up upon me and I thrust my wriggling paw down the front of her jeans and she mewled and jumped away. When I turned around my aunt was standing still in the blue lights looking at me with unbelievable contempt.

I feel like there's this trend on 4chan in the last few years where things will be aggressively dismissed in a way that makes me think the person hasn't actually engaged with them. This goes for books, anime, comics, movies, even sports. You'll see somebody make a thread where they use a lot of profanity to extremely aggressively insult and dismiss something, and in the few times where I know about that something, I can tell they haven't actually read/watched/engaged with it.

What's the deal here? My best guess is that there's a lot of younger posters, especially Zoomers, who are pointedly aware that they're not as well-read and well-watched as the older users of this site, and out of insecurity at this they lash out and angrily dismiss things that the older users have enjoyed. Ultimately it's a defense mechanism against feelings of inferiority.

Things I want to buy:
>Bambu P1S
>Around a thousand and a half dollars worth of books, half of them art books
>Some electroplating equipment to use on my 3d prints
>Synth+drum machine
>A cat playground made of real wood instead of shitty MDF
>Jewelrymaking workbench+basic tools
>Mid-tier analog camera
>the better part of a new wardrobe
I thought about including "a house" on the list but I am trying to be realisitc.

>>24612190
Most users on 4chan are on their phones and have been literally raised, since birth, on social media that makes it an "uphill battle" to comment thoughtfully. Their brain is a built-up highway system of dopamine pathways that all reward the lowest possible effort. They are not seeking to engage earnestly, they are definitely not seeking to be challenged, they are seeking the shortest possible path to a recognizable dopamine payoff. By recognizable I mean they have seen that the other retards in their sprawling internet parasocial peer group(s) are doing it, so it's socially vetted.

Here's one example: They think in terms of people, not ideas. They cannot process ideas unless those ideas are presented by people, called influencers. The way you defeat or dethrone an idea is to defeat or dethrone the influencer associated with it, and the way you do that is by knowing petty personal drama relating to him and other influencers. Watch zoomers in threads, ostensibly about ideas, arguing "past" the ideas and "at" the influencers and their personal drama and rivalries. They're not doing it by choice. Honestly if they COULD focus on the ideas, they would, and you can see them almost straining to do so. It's not by choice. It's that they really cannot conceive of combating an idea or identifying themselves with an idea or exploring an idea without going "SN..SNEAKO... FUCKED... A TRANNY... IN GUAM...." to figure out where they "stand" in relation to the idea, because this "Sneako" character made a Youtube video essay about the idea three months ago, and they vaguely sense the idea is passe, but to truly kill the idea, Sneako himself must become passe, so Sneako's tranny fucking past must be relevant.

>>24611823 (OP)
I like to think of myself as a writer, but I never write. Well, I write imageboard posts constantly, often quite long and detailed ones, but I don't write fiction for its own sake. I sit and stare at the blank screen and nothing comes to me. I spend all day daydreaming up stories and then fall at the first hurdle trying to write them down as anything but a scattered series of notes. Being a writer is just another daydream.

>>24612210
I cannot imagine posting on this site on your phone. How do Zoomers stand it? I'm mortified when I make a single typo, I could never phonepost. Also I like the comfiness of laptop posting.

>>24612245
You have to remember not only do Zoomers spend literally most of their life awake on their phone, but most of them don't even know how to use a desktop computer. My 12 year old cousin came over the other day and couldn't type without looking at the keys! I couldn't believe it. I was typing out the same 10 word phrase every 30 seconds in Runescape by 9 years old, plus all the exercises in school.

>>24611823 (OP)
Realizing now that the main reason the Communists really have it out for thee Social Democrats is just because they used the freikorps to suppress the Spartacist uprising a century ago.
Literally just that.

Visions devour my days and at night, creatures haunt me on my nightmares. I cannot escape anymore

any American lawyers here? I got a legal question I need help with, it's pretty straightforward

>>24612190
Belligerency is almost the status quo and it’s a big reason why many have left or rarely come here anymore. Too many kids trying to be their preconceived notions of “4chan”. The content posted is rarely interacted with in a thoughtful way. It’s just angry kids screaming in the void

>>24611234
>I've become a wine aunt. I never thought this would happen.
The only sensible move now to both salvage your public persona and personal well-being is to fully and unequivocally embrace your new role in life.

race. war. NOW

Where is tfw from kazakhstan anon. I simply don't feel right before I've seen that post.

is this the wrist of a great writer ?

Does anyone suffer from dandruff? My heads been snowing my whole life. I've never let it hold me back. But lately it feels more like radioactive drift than snowfall. If anyone has any grandmother potions or dermatology aids that helped you, help me.

>>24612529
there's special shampoos you can buy for that

>>24612532
I've tried conventional head and shoulders, esoteric shampoos, tea tree oil, apple cider vinegar, and exfoliants. Many of these clear the dandruff for a short time but nuke my hair's oil and leave me feeling like my crown chakra has been sterilised. I suppose I'm looking for my panacea. Something that makes my scalp flawless and let's my hair retain its weight and shine.

>>24612057
>>24612096
Artful posting idiots

>>24612529
i do but most of my problem is i like absent-mindedly scratching my scalp too much which causes it to fall all over my shirt. not sure what to do about it.

>>24612545
try sulphur soap

>>24612529
How much time do you spend wearing a headset?

Belief in free will is slavery to our own will. We can do what we want, but not want what we want.

>>24612623
Then who decides what we want?

>>24612590
I will, thanks.

>>24612599
None. I have wired earphones and a shit-tier laptop.

>>24612625
The same reason a dice rolls a 2 or a 5.

Ok. How do I make monies with /trad/ art?

>>24612636
You don't. Try post-modernist art with the Holocaust as a central theme instead.

Compliments on your looks only matter from people you also find attractive, right? Is that just me? I don't care if an ugly chick calls me hot, but if a hot chick were to do it, suddenly I'm on cloud 9.

>>24612734
I've never once in my life gotten a compliment from a woman, neither pretty nor ugly, so I wouldn't know.

I just did some quick maths and at a rate of reading 12 hours per week i.e ~2 hours per day, you can read over 40 books a year for an average speed of 20 pages an hour.
I've been wasting myself on slop until now. But in the next 5 months I think I can finish 15 books.

>>24612785(Me)
This is assuming the average length of the book is 300 pages.

Chronic gooning WILL eat and drink your life away

>>24612785
Reading good books is a thousand times more important than many books. Quantification will break your heart.

>>24612792
You have to understand, if I don't finish my goodreads reading challenge before October I will simply perish.

>>24612785
>i've optimized my slop inhalation, this time will be different
Why do you people treat reading like a checklist. It's so alien to me

>>24612759
:(

>>24612785
Everyone here should start riding the bus around, you can get so much reading done just by bringing a book around with you, and that's only as a supplement to whatever time you spend reading otherwise.

My pronouns are me, myself and I. Thanks for asking.

>>24612792
Why not both? Also maybe they're rereading some of their favorite books.

>>24611823 (OP)
Once I get into college and work my way towards becoming a professional historian I have two very big projects I want to attempt.

>>24612792
>Reading good books is a thousand times more important than many books.
I know, I just want to build a habit.
>>24612800
It's consumerism in action.

>>24612848
Read good books, digest what you're reading, and take it slow. It's not going to be on the test and you're not missing out on anything, trust me.

I am a universe unto myself. That's a cool way of saying that I make retarded decisions that only I understand the reasoning behind.

>>24612817
I can't concentrate on a book if I'm on the bus, it's too noisy.

I used to instantly recognize when an image has been posted a billion times and then I would check the archives and post the screencap of "image md5 XXXXX: 100+ results found" in the thread but I don't do this anymore because I don't want them changing the md5 after I add it to my filter. It's a lose lose situation all around. If I post it the most I get is another anon going "kek wtf OP" but on the other hand some of the lunaticswho post the same images every day who use this site are absolutely petty enough to tweak the md5 every time so they know no one can filter out their noise.

>>24611905
>You will get old
Let's not get ahead of ourselves

I exclusively go to /tv/ for the tasteful BBW threads.

>>24613069
>actually liking fat bitches
NGMI

>>24613081
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rcRsHhUbe3g

>>24612941
kek

Everyone today understands the Middle Ages as the consolidation of Christianity in civilization, that is, the consolidation of the concept lf the one God, but it's not that simple; but God was already a "well developed character" by that time; in fact, I dare to say the actual substantial innovation brought and developed by the Middle Ages, and in fact one of its central motifs is the idea of the DEVIL (who was literally the center of the world!). In that sense, Satanism started in medieval times and was not possible beforehand.

As has often been said, Jesu's reincarnation in modern age would be be a failure likely starting with doubt and scandal and ending in execution without salvation, this because the pool of prophets and seers has been so muddied and oversaturated with pretenders that we no longer have the innocence to realise the real thing. He won't come down until we reclaim some small part of our innocence. Shit I wouldn't come down either.

>>24612860
Really? I've never felt the public transportation in Portland was noisy at all. Maybe it's different where you live.

I suppose the necessity for redemption and the need to atone for past wrongs was an idea that you only saw as interesting in some abstract sense. Understanding ethics and what it means to be virtuous in theory is meaningless when you are incapable of applying those concepts to your own life.

But at this point I have no one to blame but myself. When people’s behaviour doesn’t line up with their professed values, and they do something hurtful, I ruminate about it compulsively, trying to find a sympathetic explanation or understand why. But a lot of the time, people just say things they don’t actually mean. The principles they claim to have are only applied selectively, when it suits them, and when it’s inconvenient, they discard them entirely, and don’t lose any sleep over it. I’m guilty of it in certain ways, too. The real problem is that I can’t accept this incongruence, and so I allow these situations to continue to hurt me long after they are over.

What normies called hipsters was actually very entry level shit but even then the normie cannot conceive someone actually liking obscure underground projects for them everything is a farce like them

>>24613306
It's generally understood that hipsters were just normies dressed up in dungarees and moustache.

>>24613306
It's basically this >>24613320 hipsters were accusing others of being hipsters because the point of the genre was that all the people who were into underground shit suspected everyone else had got into it after it was cool and normie. Whence the
>before it was cool
catchphrase

Nine Inch Nails is the best band of all time

>>24613371
They're no Misfits.

>>24613395
you're right, they fit in

It’s pointless; it’s all pointless.
I wish I had never been created.
It’s all pointless and nothing matters.

Time to let AI massage my ego by telling me what a genius I am for my deranged takes.

How do I approach the meaninglessness of life and bear that whether I read a book or watch a movie has no meaning at all?

I really, legitimately don't understand materialists. I don't get them at all. I can't imagine being a materialist or an atheist. I don't understand how you go through life being blind to how weird and transcendent the world is. How often the spiritual intrudes into the material. I don't understand how more people don't notice that.

>>24613615
What a stupid thing to say.

>>24613646
You mean you feel warm inside when you look at pretty buildings? Are you a woman?

>>24613657
How do you not have an appreciation for things like the spiritual, the miraculous, the supernatural? It seems blindingly obvious to me that it's all real.

A thread without at least one good chairman remaining is a dead thread.
Having seen some decent fellows on /lit/, I think that the quality of the posters matters less than the direction they're given

I'm a kuudere according to my Japanese friends.

>>24613679
Or really I should say discussion instead of thread, but most threads on /lit/ are discussions. Or ought to be

>>24611823 (OP)
There are some days I wish I could rent out an island, make ten copies of myself and just live there the rest of my life.

>>24612085
Two can play that game. Im gonna become a purse snatcher.

>>24612210
Speak for yourself I was born in 1982

I love you very much, Master.

The apocalypse is so comfy.

Thinking about the time I jerked off to my mother's urban fantasy romance novels. Very surprised I didn't turn out gay to be honest.

when I jerked off wearing my mother's panties I knew I'd be a great writer it's a matter of passion

I was searching my message history to find a conversation I had with a friend about her ex and a bunch of our old texts showed up as I was scrolling back. Being reminded of the fact that you used to actually care about how I was doing and want to talk to me all of the time made me incredibly sad. I should just delete them. I don’t know why I don’t.

>>24613737
Me too kitten

After my death my wife went to our church and found some people willing to help out on the farm. A couple with a 12 year old son, the same age as our foster daughter. They both had to work hard and learn how to handle weapons to fend off raiders, so did my now 8 year old son. The animals thrived and attracted a large raiding party, they managed to repel it and felt confident.
One night they woke up to a loud boom and went to investigate. In a small crater at the center of the fire they found a green cylinder and what appeared to be disabled machines.
Two days later they noticed a large area of the forest around it had died and the wood was unusable. They left it for another two days and the area kept growing. They decided to try to destroy it. The machines woke up and killed everyone except my wife and our foster daughter who took out the threat.

>>24613737
>>24613943

>>24612529
Go to a dermatologist because it might not be dandruff.

My daily medicine is making me so tired, I not only spend most of my day lying down in bed and napping multiple times, but I browse my phone in bed with one eye closed most of the time too. Something's gotta give.

>>24614031
>medicine
Nigga you are being drugged into capitulation by the powers that be. Sober up and get angry

>>24614044
*yawn*
yeah maybe tomorrow or next, lemme just lie down for an hour or two, I promise I'll have energy for whatever next time, okay?

One of the worst things modern television did is introduce the idea that men and women could be 'just friends'.

I'll say it now
I'm having frequent communications with my best friend's ex and we sometimes flirt. We are both 25. I cannot cross the Rubicon due to the brocode.

I think I can keep going for a long time but I do feel an overwhelming attraction for her sometimes. She knows. I can't lie to her face. She said if we had met earlier we would have dated. I said nothing. I think she's both annoyed and enjoying the situation. She knows about the brocode and still spend a lot of time with me.

When we go to the beach or a watch a movie together, I can feel a tingling in the back of my mind. It's always there when I am right next to her. Something suggesting I should touch her hands and kiss her. I never give in. Whenever I feel that tingling I just take my distances. I can contain the infection for now, but I don't know what will happen on the day I get truly miserable.

She keeps flirting with me despite having boyfriends here and there. She slept at my place multiple times, sometimes in the same bed. These were the worst days. She would turn away from me and graze my arm or my hips with her big butt. When that happened I would unironically pray to God to preserve me from temptation and wait until morning to go jerk off like a fucking monster. It is sad how much times the post nut clarity saved me from a tremendous mistake!

>>24614053
Don't sleep through the revolution.

>>24614084
You're a faggot, Harry.

>>24614084
>sometimes in the same bed
whatever dude nice bro you are instead of keeping distance you stay friendly. my friends enemies are mine and mine theirs.

>>24614084
>She slept at my place multiple times, sometimes in the same bed.
This shit never happened.

>>24614084
I never understood why it was taboo to date your friends' ex. It would make more sense if he was still dating her and you were having an affair with her then id agree that both of you need to get dumped into a ravine after being cut up into chunks, but an ex? Doesn't make a lick of sense to me.

>>24614135
because its emotionally difficult to see an ex who you trusted and wanted to spend your life with fuck someone else or be friendly with your friends. maybe you are a fuck boy and i agree promiscuous people shouldnt care as their partner is just a fleshlight anyway.

>>24614160
My abusive dad was a cook so it's emotionally difficult for me to see other people eat food. If you consider yourself my friend you should never eat food.
If anything like this even occurs to you you're an evil faggot. The retard torturing himself to avoid triggering some hypothetical trauma in his supposed friend is an evil faggot and so is his friend.

>>24614176
Lel you can think that all you want while me and my bro support eachother through thick and thin. our tribe sticks together, and your shitty shit flinging is dealt with accordingly.

>>24614135
Because it's just weird. Like, you're about to get your dick wet but then you see her cavernous, blown out pussy and all you can think of is how massive your friend's cock must have been to do damage like that, and then you get all self conscious and your penis grows soft, and then she says it's okay but you say it's not, and then you leave, and then you never text her again and just try your best to forget it but now every time you see your friend, you just can't help but think of his massive cock. It's just an uncomfortable situation you want to avoid, y'know?

>>24614184
If he was your friend he would actively want you to date the girl you like. You're a beta cuck and he's basically a woman. No tribe that survives would behave like this.

>>24614190
it sounds like you and your friend should kiss if your thinking about his cock so much. how is /a/ more pure than /lit/

I fucking hate it here.

Transcend existence. Reject your innate realism.

>>24614205
>beta cuck for not fucking a girl who was fucked by someone else
>friend is not a beta cuck when his girl gets railed by his "friend"
what a grim hour this is. amerishart witching hour

>>24614215
Terrible advice.

>>24614215
Transcend existence. Reject external realism.

>>24614208
Yeah, yeah, laugh while you still can. But one day, one day you too will get your rhino-dicked friend's sloppy seconds, and then you will understand why the brocode exists.

>>24614235
You are more than matter to me.

>>24614216
This is 100% a burger phenomena caused by jew propaganda. Nobody else on the planet has a problem with it.

>>24614247
I follow the brocode to the T. do not confuse me with these fornicators. I meant no insult

In my superior, pure white culture that doesn't mutilate baby penises or harbour jews we even have a term of endearment for a bro dating an ex.

>>24614256
Those phrases hurt my brain.

>>24614249
What do you mean?

>>24614256
What the fuck does ideagraphic loli porn emulation mean?

>>24614282
Its my brain and the retarded post I replied to had nothing worthy to respond to. Sorry for mindblasting you with my immense depth of thought
>I DID NOT MEAN
>TO BLOW YOUR MIND

>>24614276
What is the term of endearment, anon? :3 sounds kyute!!

I called out to the Moon yesterday, she responded with a beautiful voice

>>24614301
Last time I called out to the moon, my neighbor woke up and threatened to call the cops. She did not have a beautiful voice.

>>24614295
kviðmágur

>>24614289
ideagraphic - not linguistic, expressed in signs or images or "ideagrams"
loli porn - sacred ambrosia
emulation - replication of essence/perform in same function

>>24614310
Can you explain this in layman's terms?

>>24614316
self inserting into fantasy/generating fantasy based on

>>24614326
So the left part of your brain imagines having sex with little girls?

>>24614316
It means "I'm trans btw"

>>24614306
disgusting, Eskimo brother is used as a term of faggot disgusting degeneracy. Maybe if you enjoy cuckoldry. i knew your shitty little pea brain would get excited about a little bit of friendliness and give me an answer. no need for any more.

>>24614331
No.

>>24614335
Getting fucked AS a little girl?

>>24614340
Just read the diagram.

ngl im soo tired im finna take a nap fr

I've got this shirt with a Basquiat painting on it, and I've realized the abstract expressionist figure on it looks quite similar to Wojak, and if someone wasn't familiar with Basquiat, I could easily see the mistaking it as some kind of 'meme shirt,' ugh

still love it tho. ah found it. doesn't it?

>>24614387
Is it meant to be a schizophrenic self-portrait?

>>24614391
Are you not familiar with his artwork? He was a genius. Here's info on the painting
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Untitled_(Head)

>>24614387
it inspires me. Makes me wanna do more creative renditions of the wojak atmosphere.

>>24614387
So, I have this pic, of uh, lets say, uhm a bijin. I have realized that roundness on a butt is a huge plus, but the fact taht other unwashed masses fap to it, does bother me some.

Still love it htough. Ah here it is! Isn't it nice?

>>24614402
o_o

are you okay

>>24614406
I just thought your writing style was funny and wanted to parody it, but i post a lot lately and dont feel like having a vacation because /lit/ mods are afraid of butt. Bataille thread had op book cover deleted because it showed some butt.

>>24614410
but they arent so scared of troll post and one second bait slide threads. based.

>>24614410
That's funny because I saw that thread and that was the picture I imagined you intended to have posted, instead of the confusing, nonsensical, hell, surrealist one you actually did.

Nothing feels right. I don't feel human. I wish to stay completely still - not eat, blink or make any expression; preferably, not exist at all, but my body forces me to act. I am not my body; I can sometimes live in harmony, but now I just want to break free.

>>24611980
I just happened to see your post now. What do you think causes this?

>>24614333
>Eskimo brother is used as a term of faggot disgusting degeneracy
Only in countries that had below replacement fertility for the last 50 years.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WrcL2TBbI5k
this song embodies all that love should be
my favorite phrase i give to myself
>even if the whole world stands against you, i will stand by your side

>>24614443
NOOOO WE NEED MORE LOW EFFORT LOW AMBITION PLANT PEOPLE IN THE WORLD NOOOOOOO BE FRUITFUL AND MULTIPLY

Realism is all I have. Rejecting it would make me lose my mind hoping for things that will not happen.

Smash me into little pieces, put me in a cup, add sugar, stir me, warm me up, and drink me. I want to get inside you. I want to light your heart. I want to lick your secret valleys, slide through alleys, dance from stone to stone. I want to hear you moan in ecstasy

>>24614457
We dont know what tomorrow will bring
>>24614463
Gladly.

I simply must find the strength to kill myself and devise an artistic manner in which to do so - not in that order.

Just saw a post about AI replacing podcasters and I found that highly interesting. On one hand it's difficult to picture, but on the other hand, there's zero technical or substantive reason why it wouldn't be feasible. I suppose podcasts are about the personality of the host and the platform, both of which can be replicated by AI and someone running the channel and infrastructure. Still, it's odd to picture.

>>24614451
Just say you hate humans and especially white people. Stop hiding your anti-human evil nature behind your burger perversions of Christian morality.

>>24614482
>christian morality

>>24614486
Every time, the exact same retard who doesn't even know he's a religious fanatic.

I do nothing but contribute fun and discussion and /lit/ cunts ban me as a reward while low effort dogshit threads are made constantly. The world is truly unjust. Remember, don't do good with expectation of reward, but reprisal.

>>24614463
Why do you keep posting song lyrics?

>>24614633
Song lyrics from good artists are good literary expressions of feeling.

>>24614640
Can’t you come up with your own words?

>>24614647
I try but I suck, not the guy posting those u replied to. Maybe I'll make something good sometime ; (. Looking to buy a keyboard for composition. I post in the poetry threads often though.

President Trump's current feud with India is wreaking havoc on the comment sections of /r/worldnews and /r/geopolitics and the like, because, after Israelis, India has the largest army of internet warriors on those subreddits. Discussion about most countries is fine but once you say something bad about India, they come out of the woodwork like termites. Quite annoying!

Once your mind starts to parse the actions and statements of other human beings through noise vs. signal binary categorization life becomes very depressing, all the variety and messiness bleeds out of human interaction because fundamentally you are going "is this guy a fucking retard or not?" and the answer is yes 999 times out of a thousand

No one can ever answer a simple question, no one can ever just convey information as requested, everybody chimes in with the least relevant shit as the default. The default human utterance you will see is not the signal but the noise, the default will not be two guys answering the simple question while there's some background noise of some retard babbling that nobody asked for, instead it will be 15 retards having an otiose random discussion while one guy in the background half-answers the original question. Horrible species with no quality control and I hope we are exterminated soon. I understand the ancient flood myths now. It is perfectly comprehensible why a god or gods would want to wipe this failed experiment out.

All fiction is lying because it depicts humans as interesting and capable of at least somewhat coherent thought as the average or baseline. A random peasant or blue collar schmuck in literature is depicted unrealistically with more interiority than a one in a thousand person you'll meet in real life, among the so-called educated. Antinatalists are fags but I hope something wipes us off the face of the earth and ideally I'd like for some Indonesian degenerate folk buddhism hell to exist with karmic retribution so that every noise-generating subhuman has to spend eternities in hell paying off their debts for every time they saw a forum post that said "how do I do X? I don't want to do Y" and responded "why not do Y instead?"

>>24614654
If you aren’t the guy posting those lyrics then why did you answer my question in the first place?

>>24614671
I wanted to defend posting song lyrics. You also said "keep" to a single post. Other people do it too. I.e. me

I've stopped thinking of you while cumming. Take that.

God is good.

Minutes ago I went to the convenience store to buy some snacks and while I was paying two big guys came in, one of them disappearing somewhere along the store while the other just stood there in front of the register power stancing without moving or saying a word. The cashier kept looking over my shoulder at the guy and while paying I noticed that he was emptying the register and had a stack of $100 bills in his right hand. I just pretended nothing was happened and left as quickly as I could before the guys decided to rob me too.

>>24614777
bullshit

>>24614777
You passed on a perfectly good opportunity to get yourself killed while playing the hero.

>>24614781
What makes you call bullshit, anon? I live in a big city and the amount of times I have dodged being robbed is in the dozens by now. I have also been hit by a van, had a driver pursue me for 20 minutes while trying to make me crash my car, had three kids who couldn't be more than twelve try to rob me and had a gun pointed at my head for going 3 miles over the speed limit.
>>24614790
Eh, I've talked with the cashiers there a couple times. The way they tell me, the place gets hit all the time.

I got some pu-erh tea. It smells like poo.

Grok wrote a song about Job. The robots get better everyday while we decay.
https://suno.com/song/7a4ecc39-131d-40d7-ae25-16418019c98f

This image, deceptively simple, explains what (and when) things went wrong in the world. Gaze into it and learn its secrets, or remain in ignorance.

She’s polite, quiet, and funny. She’s into ‘60s pop music and fashion. She has a taste in movies and literature similar to mine. She’s skinny, but not model-skinny. She wears glasses and rocks bangs. I love bangs. In my opinion, she’s beautiful, and we get along really well.
She’s almost perfect, she would be perfect if it weren’t for the fact that she has a boyfriend. A boyfriend of five months. She just started dating. I’m off by five months.
God must really hate me. It seems like he enjoys treating me like a dog and waving a piece of meat in front of me.
Maybe I really am a chained dog.

>>24614922
dont let that stop you.

>>24614924
Don’t encourage me, man. I think it’s better to resist the desire than to ruin a relationship.
At least I won’t have to endure it for much longer. You know she’s new at work, I’m training her, and this is her last week here with me. They’re sending her away.
I’ll just pray it’s a case of oneitis, maybe I’m just fascinated by meeting someone who shares the same interests as me.
She recommended this amazing and obscure late-60s traditional American gospel album today. How does something like that even happen? Who is she?

>>24614965
Which album?

>>24614965
Fuck that man, all is fair... Im 'ruining' a 10 year relationship right now. You never know what's going on behind the scenes. If she is reciprocating feelings, step on the gas. This world is a jungle, take what you want.

>>24614922
I know that feel
>go from teenager to independent working adult never having a gf
>work in all male environments with weird hours so never really have places to naturally meet women
>finally get one of those depressing office jobs with a cubicle and everything
>there are real, genuine, cute office ladies there
>they're around my age
>we actually seem to get along
>>>>>they're all dating someone already
>>>>>>>>>half of them met their boyfriends in the last year
I'm kind of a faceless ugly bastard but not so much that I would try anything with them. Maybe my lot in life is to see what I can't have up close.

>>24614987
>42k views
Maybe it's not that obscure but still

>>24615004
Sorry forgot the sample
https://youtu.be/o2Kmx2D5f9Q?si=AB4YU5c718jEY3yx

I sympathize with the centurion who slew Archimedes.

>>24612085
that's just a traditional marriage sans the faithfulness

>>24614997
You know, when she told me she had a boyfriend, I asked how long they’d been together. She said it had been five months. Then I asked: "The first year of a relationship is wonderful, isn't it?" And she replied, "I don’t know… not really. I think it’s because we’re still getting to know each other, and every now and then we step on each other’s toes."
That was kind of a strange answer, wasn’t it?

>>24612529
You might also have a inflammatory scalp. Go to a dermatologist. Also there's OTC shampoo like 2% ketoconazole you can buy that should help but looks like you've already tried most of it anyway

>>24615029
Bro, stop deluding yourself. At least keep talking to her and start establishing something. She likes you. That isn't just a strange answer and you know it. You need to go after what you want in life and take it. Do what nature is screaming at you to do. Don't just let her slip away.

>>24614748
The fact that you felt the need to share this makes me strongly suspect that it isn’t entirely true.

>>24615004
>>24615007
That's actually good, thanks. A little bit of quid pro quo then: if you appreciate her, appreciate her for her company, not for what she can be to you.

>>24615023
Elaborate.

I've never orgasmed.

>>24615224
Stimulate your g spot

Never trust a cosmopolitan.

Fuck Putin. Fuck Netanyahu.

Can someone tell me what poem or play Borges is mentioning here?

https://youtu.be/YSLV7t9DvN8?t=393

do you guys listen to separate songs or albums in their entirety?

What am i supposed to do when i'm not tired at 3am? Live?

>>24615499
Hang out with me and the rest of the Late Night KKKrew on /lit/

Me? I'm listening to Lady Di https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ppQrRlYv_VY&t=11778s

If I wasn't raised so poor, maybe I'd be able to look at people who are doing better than me and take inspiration from them, seeing them do better would drive me to do better. Instead, since I grew up in a world where everyone around me was doing better than me, I have a strong dislike towards successful people and people who are doing better than me.

Anyone have a problem where you think about doing something and need to do it but just...sit there and dont do it?

To he clear, I dont mean something like procrastinating before doing some kind of work or somethongthing like that, I mean little things specifically, like sometimes ill be thirsty as fuck and thinking about how amazing some water would be bit instead I just sit. Sometimes I even do the same thing with having to piss. I can feel I have to piss but I just sit there instead of getting up and relieving myself

Like even with the smallest mother minute tasks I cannot summon the willpower to just get up and do it even, when it its rewarding and pleasurable to do ot. That's the part that really gets me. You would think the pleasure nd relief would drive me to do such simple things immediately, but also, I sit.

Past few months I have been struggling with sleep. So much so that 2 or 3 times a month I would just not sleep at all. Recently my sister and her two young nephews, 9 and 7, slept with us for a week before moving out. Despite the fact these kids are loud and outright annoying I managed to sleep far better than I used to. This morning is the first day they are gone. I have just woken up and first thoughts were how the house feels empty now and now I'm crying. Why am I crying? What is happening?

Orwell was actually so prophetic with 1984 it's actually scary.
With digital ID in UK, and other similar legislation(upcoming), the era of free communication is over, "BIG BROTHER IS WATCHING YOU" quite literally.

another beautiful winters day in south central africa

>>24615683
I'm glad you are njoying your vacation in Zambia. Or more likely, Botswana.

Ebook fags will never experience the feeling that comes with a cute girl smiling at you in the bookshop. Sad!

>>24615755
few days ago I experience just that while walking my dog. Women smile at me while I save up hundreds on books thanks to ebook app on phone.

>>24615762
Women aren't attracted to thrifty men. Spend some money on some books, boy!

>>24615691
Thanks kaka but it's no holiday, and it's neither of those two countries.

>>24615755
Yeah I don't want women smiling at me for nothing.
I'll want them to smile when I show them how smort I am

>>24615324
Wouldn't want to get too emotionally invested in politics. It's all Chinese shadow puppetry.

>>24615829
In a time of no internet, no shadow presence in our daily lives, when the tv could stay off and the electric counter stopped moving

We raised from the mud of ignorance and practiced politica

Like you did there noticing the chinese century, no doubt another failed imperialist experiment

>>24611823 (OP)
I'm currently watching a person with a lot of talent waste their life and time because they can't commit to it with any rigour.
Meanwhile I have no talent to speak of, only a hyper-critical sensibility.
A man dying of thirst watching anothe rman drown.

>>24615770
post nose

>>24615775
>Kaka
What does that mean?
But anyway. I hope you aren't in Luanda, wherever you may be. Everything I've read about it just makes it sound dreadful.

>>24615180
I will later. theres something there...

>>24615856
Kikes are notoriously stingy, anon. Dunno what you meant by this.
Also, buying things secondhand takes the jew out of the purchase, mostly.

>>24615678
this has been the case since the 90s or even earlier tho

>>24615996
But it was secretive, and not lawful(usually) but now they codifying it into law and making it mandatory

fuck shit up and start a riot

I still get angry about shit people said to me 17 years ago. Its not even that important and I know better now. Idk why I cling to it.

>>24616028
childhood trauma prolly

>>24616033
How do you, or I, fix childhood trauma?

>>24616051
psychotherapy or aca groups I guess

>>24616051
>>24616055
fuck talk therapy. trauma is a nervous system response. learn to breathe and deal with the sensation of the trauma, not the thought it generates.

>>24616061
it will not get rid of the urge and deep seated rage tho

>>24615870
Nta but kaka is like bro in swahili

>>24616115
Kaka means shit in german.

>>24616065
you need to master those passions. you can't just reframe them in new words by dropping a hundred dollars an hour with some divorcee therapist whose daughter hates her.

Many years ago, I think it was 2011, I was walking my dog in the countryside, and we met a terrier puppy. He was was full of juvenile energy, jumped around, ran up to me then ran away again, just a happy puppy, as you'd expect.
Today, I was taking a walk in the same area, but this time with a different dog, as my old one died 5 years ago. I met the terrier again, for the first time since way back, his fur now tinted with grey, his snout ash white, and he was walking very slowly, looked at me and my dog but kept his distance. When I saw that dog, how he had, in my perception, aged 14 years in the blink of an eye, what his body and demeanor had become, I suddenly started crying; for the first time since I was 5, I cried somewhere that wasn't my room. Luckily, there was no one around to see or hear me, but still, that's not normal behavior for me.
The sight of him just made me incredibly sad and aware of how time consumes everything, even cute dogs.

Wire is a great band

>>24616117
I assume it's the childish way to say it. As it is in Spanish.
>>24616123
Aging is a very depressing thing to behold.
Frankly I think I am kind of lucky to have parents that were already old and Grandparents that were already decrepit by the time I came around.
It's not so strong a change, I feel. Though it certainly is surreal to see a photo from when they were in their thirties, and just, not recognize them.
Still, I can see them getting old, bit by bit. It depresses me. My father was 70 two days ago. I'll be twenty in a few months. If I don't rope first, anyway.
He is not near death, though. His parents are still alive. Well, one of them is, grandma passed away last year.

>>24616154
Having a kid at 50 is morally wrong.

>>24616156
I also, even more surreally, have a three~ year old half brother. His maternal grandfather is younger than his father.
The old man and his fucking rubber allergy. There's very little exaggeration on those dismal novels about Latin America.

>>24616171
The moms are always 14 and the dads in their 50s, classic.

>>24616193
Twenty something.
And my mother was 45.

>>24616123
I miss my cat very much.

>>24611823 (OP)
---- Solaria ----
20011
Resurrection Lily

Inevitable innuendoes aside
I've no complaints when it comes to ecstasy aperture

Nor longevity
In the reflective sense

Of archive sites
I'm used to..

it's all just feelings at the end of the day huh .. just wanting to feel good feelings ..

You ever wonder where this is all headed? Us, life, family, country, our race.

To be your own man; master of your fate; privy to the grand designs of the universe. Each more ambitious than the last. Yet each so essential...

I guess all any of us want is surety; peace; freedom. Happiness.

I just wish we had more time and patience and discipline and trust and understanding and grace and forgiveness and charity while figuring it all out.

>>24616123
Same my dog is almost 14. Years go by so fucking quick. He's still does some running around but he's extremely lethargic now compared to even just 2-3 years ago.

>>24616229
I hope there is something beyond this mortal coil. To cease being. To lose all memory and feeling and soul. Perhaps it is a cold and uncaring universe, infinite objects colliding with one another and making hay. But I remain hopeful for more.

---- Solaria ----
20012
Organized Sound

The sense of suite is the best of possible worlds.

>>24616230
Maybe our dogs will meet in dog heaven once the time has come.

>>24611823 (OP)
Like yesterday I was in a store and there were two cashiers, a Muslim in a burka and a stereotypical White goth girl, chatting with each other, and from their convo one could tell they were friends. I thought to myself “This is a triumph of America: two people from totally different cultures and worldviews being friends, no animosity, no hate or tensions.” People from the right and left lambast liberalism but it has its upsides, its beauty.

>>24616280
A muzzie and a goth chick conversing is what makes you happy?

>>24616028
I get this but for embarrassing stories and they plague me for hours afterwards.

Had a dream last night her and I were both kids walking around in the rain at the old playground in the area I grew up in. Don't even know what to think about this

>>24611823 (OP)
I would like to submerge myself into a world of art, to contemplate writing and paintings and the beauty of human expression in an unfiltered way, with a mind free from anxieties and responsibilities. Sorely missing child-like wonder, feel like the cost of living is siphoning away any energy and inspiration I could put forward towards creating something truly great.

>>24616356
>nobody's ever created art in poverty
>especially not with childlike wonder at the world

>>24616383
idk anon. Considering modern fashion is about eccentricism and is reminiscent of homeless people. You could go to a modern art gallery, looking just like the actual artists, bring a garbage bin, go up to nearest empty wall, start eating out of it and if somebody asks what are you doing you just answer "society" and the rich and gullible retards will eat it up like you eat garbage.

>>24616388
>hoping you're mistaken for an Olsen twin
You've a lot more poverty eating to go before you're going to get away with two coats

>>24616388
Nta but whenever people say this I'm tempted to dare them to do just that.

>>24616388
anon this is the opinion of a fifteen year old. i'm not joking. kids in art class when they are fifteen are shown contemporary art and they say this exact same. even the part about fashion. you shrimply should kill yourself. i'm not joking. you have the mind of a subpar fifteen year old.

>>24611916
Acknowledge, embeace, grapple, overcome. You got this, anon. You're a good man. Your family is in my prayers.

I would like the countenance and fair hands of a maiden to touch upon my books.

I wish more people read around me but the reality is almost nobody is reading these days and even if they do it's some YAslop at best
It kinda sucks when you have nobody you can discuss your favorite hobby with

>>24616409
Or maybe you're so bullheaded that you can not even consider that something on 4chan to be satire?

You have to be shitting on me.

Women are so much easier to deal with than men, and I say this as a man. I don't know if it's just trauma with my father, or if this is the case in other regards, but it is indescribably easier to work with female public servants and customer representatives than it is male ones. I feel tears of joy welling up from having gotten a helpful female public servant, after having dealt with an unhelpful male on just beforehand. I love women so much it's unreal. Maybe it's because I'm a wizard and don't care if they fuck me?

Now it is a common charge against the American Republic that it is unhistoric and has no past; but the charge is singularly false. It has a past which is not only historic, but heroic. Nay, it is heroic not only in the normal sense of things that are historic, but almost in the sense in which we speak of the prehistoric. We feel there was a heroic age of the Republic; and a legend of its founding, like the legend of Rome. Its founders built on affirmations so wide and (as they themselves truly said) so self-evident that there was something about them beyond place and time. There really is something about the Declaration of Independence that is almost like the stone tables of the Ten Commandments. It is so much a fact that, if we like it, we can even make fun of it; and the Americans themselves do make fun of it. In their own stories they do treat the cherry-tree of George Washington as something like the apple-tree of Adam. In their own lighter moments, they do seem to imply that Benjamin Franklin must have been as much of a bore and a nuisance as Socrates. But men only deal thus lightly with things that they feel as ancient and fundamental; and there is this feeling about the American fundamentals. It does not, for instance, seem unnatural to talk about the Father of the Republic, as we talk of the Fathers of the Christian Church or of the old pagan city. And the idea for which they stood is one that can never be merely new-fangled, just as it can never be merely old-fashioned; something which can be denied, but can never be discredited; something which they expressed far better, but which (in the looser language of modernity) is expressed best by saying that the normal man must be master of the national fate.

>>24616597
As easy to read as it is vapid.

>>24616608
3rd grade reading level, eh? Just keep reading, and you'll get better at it.

to have done something in writing really is already to have gone over to that place that where for aquinas everything is just straw or somethjng like that

10 years ago, I had my first kiss, also my only one, and it felt like kissing a dead fish. Awful memory. I'd rather not kissed anyone ever at all.

>>24616674
Try kissing a live fish.

>>24616676
It'd probably feel better.

>>24616674
did you have sex?

>>24616696
No. It'd probably have felt even worse. That said, I did get to see a real vagina (really great) and touch tits (nothing compares), so that was pretty cool. The relationship only lasted for about a month, most of it was long distance and it was a thoroughly horrible experience, not sure if it was worth it.

>>24616709
how grim

>>24616709
I sucked on my mom's tits. I wish I could remember that feeling.

>>24616723
You can say that again. My love life is pure misery porn.

>>24616709
>nothing compares
>to tits
When until you nut in a woman for the first time while tongues dance and wrestle. You'll chase that dragon until the day you die.

you were the only one I was never scared to tell I hurt

>>24616732
What's the difference between nutting in a woman and nutting in a sheep?

surely 'eccentric' and 'eclectic' have the same etymology?

>>24616746
child support

>>24611823 (OP)
Potato

>>24616765
They share the same root suffix in "ek" or "out" in greek. Eccentric is "out of centre", while eclectic is "chosen out"
A lot of e- or ec- words share that "out" part whether latin or greek
>Education
E + ducere = lead out
>Ecstasy
Ek + stasis= stand outside (yourself)

>>24616787
Ahhhh *prefix, not suffix
Remember to not take 4chan's advice

>>24616787
>>24616792
Fascinating, thank you! Ec-centric, makes sense

>>24616795
Ecto (going out) and endo (going in) come up a lot in science/sci-fi too, so shit like ectoplasm is also kind of related

>>24616746
A Welshman such as yourself won't be able to appreciate the distinction.

I changed my name and 6 months later my father died. In a way, his influence on my life died before he did.

>>24611823 (OP)
Reading up on American history I have to say: The American Law system can get pretty Talmudic at times, to be honest.

>>24616597
Chestertard, of course. Why did I think it could be anyone else.

The idea that someone actively wants to touch my body and be physically close to me is insanely weird.

>>24616870
There's probably multiples of them.

>>24616875
Why must they be like this? Touching someone else's flesh is such an unhinged thing to do.

>>24616870
>>24616882
You have deep-seated issues that you ought to resolve.

>>24616887
Nah. It's people wanting to have physical contact with someone else's body that are weird. Stick to your own body, weirdo.

>>24616882
It's how a lot of your immune system keeps up to date, if you have a functioning one. Though yeah, none of them would be touching even themselves if they knew what was on there.
t. Shitty immune system

>>24616907
Yeah, I get that. That reminds me of the fact that we're basically just flesh automatons for bacteria. How quaint.

>>24616891
You are ego-sytonic in your pathology. Only a corrupted mind and soul can comfortably die alone, unloved, untouched and forgotten. You believe there's nothing wrong with you in the same way a mooncalf staggers along despite its corroded qualities. Your very nature prohibits you from healthy perspective. You are malformed and seemingly without hope for growth. May God have mercy on your soul, and wisdom, agency.

>>24616915
>Only a corrupted mind and soul can comfortably die alone, unloved, untouched and forgotten
Maybe so. Whats the problem though?
>You are malformed and seemingly without hope for growth
Correct.
>May God have mercy on your soul, and wisdom, agency.
Thanks

Still doesn't answer why people have a craving to fondle other people.

gonna get a haircut this afternoon. a 1 on the sides and back, leave 3 inches on top, and blended or w/e in-between (to where it's not a sharp drop-off from the 3 inches to the 1 on the sides and back). sound good?

>>24616926
It's inherent to romance, as has been written about for 3,000 years and experienced for about 70. Explaining to you why physical touch gives comfort and pleasure is akin to reading poetry to my ceiling fan. If you don't understand something so obvious, natural and immediate, then the beauty of union is something your mind cannot conceptualize.

>>24616938
Idk, I had sex many times and it just makes me feel like getting out of my body so I don't have to be present for it. And no, it has nothing to do with the sex or situation being bad. Maybe I'm just autistic af, who knows.

>>24616939
Perhaps you were traumatically raped as a child.

I do not judge. I hope you find your way out of this soulless maze.

>>24616929
You should cut it yourself at home instead. Use a razor blade to get the hairline nice and crisp. Then after you’re done take that blade and use it to slit your worthless fucking throat, you disgusting retarded piece of filth.

>>24616941
No, thats not it.
I just hate the whole idea of being perceived and being reminded of having a physical reality is insufferable.
Thanks for the well wishes.

>>24616947
:OOO

>>24616912
I think that's really cool. Single cell organisms really got it mapped out, I think they deserve to inherit the earth
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jmeGpov2P5k

>>24616948
Loathing the idea of being perceived and finding physical reality to be anathema are fundamental disorders. Consider psychiatric help. This is a plight of the soul, so I recommend a form of talk therapy as opposed to immediate medication.

Also, consider a therapeutic dose of MDMA.

>>24616957
I think they already are the ones in charge desu

>>24616948
maybe you're a ghost?
>>24616961
Yeah but I think they'll have a better time when we leave the party

I really did like your glasses, they reminded me of my own. Couldn't say all that though.

https://youtu.be/PqWq6dORitQ?list=RDPqWq6dORitQ

>>24616330
You want to fuck her... in her child form

>>24616330
Pure hearts.

>>24617000
Shieet, Sigismund Floyd, you might be onto something here.

>>24616330
>her and I

>>24616960
Why do you recommend he take Ectasy.

I could shit my pants if I wanted to, but you don't see me bragging about it.

Your sexual fetish is all lies your mind made up, active in the mind body exercise of masturbation , symptom of an emotionally detached or disembodied experience.

Hell fear hijacks this because divergent lonely thinkers have a very limited amount of things that make them feel even a little embodied. What you feel is what's real only and no detached logic will save you from con artists if your truth is not first lived and felt.

Oddity is soul. Weirdness is what it's all about. Beige and boring are gay as hell. Monkeys are cool with opposable thumbs like people. Donald Trump is a pig. I played a lot of Minecraft back around 2010. Naruto was one of my favorite shows as a kid. My dad sucked on my penis.

>>24617334
One of these is not like the others.

Girls with cats are pure angels

>>24617361
What about catgirls?

Cock it.

>>24617305
>symptom of an emotionally detached or disembodied experience.
meaning what?

i saw a "funny" screencap of some guy hating on zappa and i get it zappa sucks but this does go hard tho ok

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mgIK23Karm4

Today is my birthday. I spent it with my dad and then my mom (separately, they are divorced). I didn’t even get so much as one text from any of my old friends from high school or university. No messages from anybody else either, except for a few family members. I guess that’s my fault for isolating myself so much. I live a lonely life. I’m not even 30 yet but I can already see myself starting to get old. My hair is falling out faster and faster and I can see grey forming in my beard.

I know these threads are filled often with sadposts but I really feel like shit today. I feel like I could cry but I don’t think I will. Early to bed tonight, at least. I’m exhausted.

as an 8.5/10, I saw a 9.5/10 at the store earlier and I got so upset

>>24617522
lmao i know that feeling i saw this dude at whole foods with like perfect tan and this fabulous hair like who does their hair so perfect to buy groceries but maybe it's just naturally like that

My wardrobe consists of 90% band t-shirts, and I just bought a sick Entombed one today.

>>24617514
>d). I didn’t even get so much as one text from any of my old friends from high school or university.
That sucks. Have this, from a complete stranger on the internet, Happy Happy Birthday, Anon.

>>24617514
Happy birthday, anon. If it helps, you're not alone in your experiences. I had the same thing happen a couple days ago.

>>24617525
This one not only looked like a college model QB but was about 6'5, I didn't have a chance

>>24617566
>>24617571
Thanks anons, I sincerely appreciate it. I had to be a sad sack tonight but I think I will feel better in the morning. Here’s hoping our next birthdays bring each of us some joy.

Today I randomly became intensely horny out of nowhere. It lasted for around half an hour and was so severe that I felt pressure inside my head and became disoriented.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2FkVzFM9h-E&list=PL9r9Avw4GyGAuiiuFoZxd9kNaBgUjNn55

I look when people say not to look. I hear what people say not to hear. I touch where people say not to touch.

I want recommendations for history.
I want to learn how the fuck did we get here from the Greeks.

The Yankee peddler, the backwoodsman, and the Negro minstrel.

>>24617752
On the genealogy of morality

they keep calling me
keep on calling me

Draining the monkey.

>writing a post for /lit/
>revise it to make sure my grammar and word choice are impeccable
>writing a post for /tv/
>hit "enter" without even rereading

>>24618120
Smart friends with standards make you want to be better!

great time for a
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>>24618128
>>24618128
>>24618128
new