>>24636007
Here’s the ultimate black pill - Posession. Not the simplistic Christian sense.
See my sexual side has literal to no interest in women and more broadly I dont want to fuck like most men want to do. Instead I like dick near, on, and inside of me. I don’t see this as a rejection of the masculine but rather a craving for it. It’s the phallic plus all the accoutrements - firm chest, smell of cologne, prickly face, logical mind, nice tight boxer briefs etc..
At the same time there are conflicting desires to lead a virtuous and civil life like most heterosexuals - be a dad, husband, volunteer etc..These are all non sexual desires but still important to the overall self.
The lbgt movement tries to reconcile all of this by mapping into the heterosexual dynamic and using surrogates which all comes across as artificial and non natural.
I kind of get the feeling this is one big prison planet and various entities/souls take over our body and drive our decision making (like Freud’s ego, id and super ego) but I’m not sure it’s not real entities.
I think this is the larger issue. We become slaves to our competing desires and it’s like there is no one central processor at the wheel. We try to explain with simplistic adjectives like gay or straight but they’re insufficient. Honestly I don’t even think I’m gay there’s just some mfer in my head that likes dick.