>>24637730 (OP)
In some ways the worst thing in the world is to be an individual who loves being a degenerate but who is also intelligent enough to see the big picture and understand historical trends.
If you're just a dumb degenerate life is fine, you pursue pleasure until you die.
But if you can also see and understand what is happening on a civilizational level...you're going to have a bad time.
Then to top it all off being born into the worst generation (the boomers) and living long enough to see the fall of the west. Awful, just awful.