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that was not me who said they were a sex addict lol.
those sketches were from over a year ago now i think. they are from trial and error of different methods. the living room took 15 minutes, kitchen took 30. just had to establish perspective. ive spent time using viewfinders, proportion measuring, pure eye measurement (this makes things take way longer and tends to a ton of erasing), dabbling in textbooks and free courses, looking at art, and even doodling. you could argue ive practiced more than the average person i suppose.
but id be kidding if how i draw them so well compared to others isnt yet a mystery to me. and this extends to proficiency in many other things like language, music, mathematics, philosophy. i dont know why i have higher capability, almost off the get go. so instinct is certainly a huge factor.
i do have bipolar disorder. i suspect its because i suffered around 5 concussions in my early childhood, on top of familial mental illness. i am extremely different compared to everyone in my family, on top of the majority of people i meet. i dropped out of highschool and can not manage to hold down a job. wish i could have confidence in doing something like going to university for something, but i know by now that that is not wise.
ive reached points where i couldnt justify the existence of talent. my argument would be people who are percieved as talented simply had more time, interest, and social investment than others up to that point. but more and more experiences adding up of peoples view on me about things i dont have this explanation justifying them lends itself to: there does exist a predisposition.
and it's entirely possible that i never understand why myself or anyone else is like this
