Thread 24858085

The lockdowns (2020) combined with discovering /pol/ as well as other alternative outlets and learning the truth has crippled me.

Always was an outcast but when I finished high school and went down the self-improvement road I had a plan and hope for the future. I spent 2 days in college before the lockdowns began and both men and women swarmed to me.
Weight loss, strenuous exercise, grunt jobs, martial arts, cold showers and austerity beyond normal, all self-imposed for years combined with surrogate and academic education on all practical subjects was my path to becoming what can only be referred to as Nietzsche's Overman.

But my will has been exhausted. The veil has been lifted. Reached the conclusion that I am a tax-cattle serf in prison nation where everything human and masculine is either illegal or prohibitely expensive. I can't hunt, I can't own firearms, I can't drive a motorcycle at full speed. Can't be a man. My only options are to drink, smoke, do drugs and gamble. If you keep up on global events you can see everything and everyone has gradually become gayer and more retarded and insane. Consequently I have become more alienated and ostracized.

I'm fine with being alone. Fine with nobody remembering or caring about any important conversation. I'm fine with life being cruel and unfair. I'm fine with at 24 never having had a social circle, a woman, real friendship, or any other milestone. I said it'd get better. It's fine. Life doesn't guarantee "Happiness".

>>24858085 (OP)
What is the truth that you have learned

>>24858085 (OP)
demoralization is what the people you hate want

>>24858090
Silence like a cancer grows and echoes in wells of silence.

>>24858085 (OP)
>I can't drive a motorcycle at full speed
Why do you think using a vehicle (that you didn't even build yourself) is more masculine than running at full speed using your own body?

>>24858103
Gay. Have you considered becoming a worthless junkie? Seems like it would be an overall improvement on your current life.

>>24858085 (OP)
You burnt yourself out becoming a self-obsessed hateful dumbass. A sad, unenviable life. Get off /pol/, get a real life social circle, be normal about being a "man," and for the love of god stop reading Nietzsche until you develop a reading comprehension beyond that of an insecure 15 year old. You will reject this advice thinking it makes you cattle, thats fine, you can also just kill yourself.

Anon, you forgot to ask for books for thus feel.

>24
Of course you can't be a man. You're a child. You'll grow out of it.

>>24858131
24 years old is enough time to get a Master's degree in an advanced field of study. Enough time to learn how to send a rocket into space.

It's also the age at which women start to really shame you for being a virgin. Again, you've had enough time to MASTER any field of study. But OP is somehow incapable of having sex, which 13 year old boys can manage just fine.

The alarm bells should be ringing very loudly once you've reached such an advanced age with no GF or social circle.

>>24858085 (OP)
I'm not saying this wasn't a grim decade to be alive at any age. It is a strange time. Especially for your twenties. However, there is little in OP's blog that grants meaning in the long run. There's little bits of every hobby, trade, career, but no long-term goal. Ask yourself what am I doing in my twenties that will help me do the things I want to get good at in my thirties. Write it down on a single page. Go from there.

>>24858155
Getting a master's degree is no longer a particularly significant milestone. In most areas it's basically just an entry-level qualification nowadays. I agree that it's plenty of time to have had sex but that's hardly an important part of manhood. If you think otherwise you still have a juvenile psychology.

>>24858161
It's all money dude. Money will buy distractions, woman/wife, people to socialize with, hobbies, traveling, etc.
That's all it ever was.

>>24858085 (OP)
I feel you, man. It's so easy to just float these days. And with how incrementally things are getting worse out there, it's only a matter of time before we actually begin to feel like cattle. I was in your position back when I was your age, so here's my advice, for what it's worth: You've perceived the world for what it is, which makes you far more equipped to avoid the usual pitfalls. That's great. But you also need to learn to store that away at times so that you can actually enjoy the good things in life we still have. I've ruined relationships by being bitter and society-obsessed, and I've watched friends do the same. Don't be that guy. But on that note, do find someone to share your life with. It makes things exponentially more fun, and the love of a good woman will give you the motivation to turn things around for yourself. Make enough money to get out of dodge. Don't bother trying to buy property or anything retarded in the West. Mortgages are a scam. The first world is being plundered, and the money's being moved overseas. Go there, if you're willing. Continue to work on your fitness, and do some writing. Friends are fun, too, but not necessary. Going it alone as some sort of "he's just like me" Ryan Gosling type is a recipe for disaster these days. Your life doesn't become cinema or anything -- it just becomes painfully boring. I watched my uncle die without a friend to lean on, and he was estranged from the rest of the family. Had all the money he could want, but he had gone the loner route for so long that all he could do with his money was drink and watch Netflix near the end. Don't be that guy. Hell, I've spent years working my way out of your currently mentality, and it still has its grips on me. But it was worth it. I'll be your friend if you like. But all the same, godspeed, brother.

>>24858254
Sure, as an adult you have to take money into consideration when planning your career or field of work. However, what you will notice once you have enough to pay the bills, acquire savings, and something extra luxury money to spend, is that there is a tradeoff between making more money and life choices. how you make money, what for, becomes more important than how much. the threshold in the first world is about 2 to 3k $ a month. it's better to ask yourself these questions early than too late.

>>24858085 (OP)
You can make things. Happiness is literally gay but making things is the coolest, manliest thing ever.

>>24858085 (OP)
>I can't hunt, I can't own firearms
What country are you in?

>>24858085 (OP)
LOL

>>24858085 (OP)
Literature?

>>24858085 (OP)
Knowing I share this board with retards like u kinda lessens my desire to be here.

>>24858085 (OP)
Do a mass shooting.

>>24858085 (OP)
At least can/could girls look at you.

>>24858119
>You burnt yourself out becoming a self-obsessed hateful dumbass. A sad, unenviable life. Get off /pol/, get a real life social circle, be normal about being a "man,
To what benefit?

I believe /r9k/ figured out the entire human condition some time in 2012 and summarily killed themselves.

>>24858155
>or social circle
It's not hard to find yourself one. I'm sure retard-OP has had many and just ends up alone due to voluntarily distancing himself from them. Here comes the 9000th Schopenhauer quote about superior souls being alone, it's somewhat true.

>>24858085 (OP)
>Always was an outcast
there was nevery any hope. you have to go the Buddhist route