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He ended up as a dragonpony- or dracony if you want to be dumb (we don't call them BATONIES, DO WE???), as somewhat of a literal interpretation of the sharp divide between the obsession I have for both dragons and ponies.
It started with dragons, in middle school, with the likes of my beloved Saphira and other book-bound dragons, and then in high school, ponies came along, and I fell in love with them just as much.
Now, my first OC, he was somewhat of a sona for a while, but it never really worked, it never fit, because he was too fantastical and unlike me to feel like a proper persona.
So, when it came time to make a true sona, I copied one of my best friends' homework, and a dragonpony was born. MLP:FiM is very convenient in the sense that it contains dragons already, so I am... safe, I guess, from really feeling much pull towards the uh, "furry fandom".
Sure, yeah, Cynder is hot, perhaps I'd love her more if I was a spyro kid instead of a crash bandicoot kid, but Ember? Smolder, even? DAAAAAAMN!
The decision was also strongly influenced by roleplay, which sadly matters little at this point. I didn't want to make a ponysona and then be annoyed about not being able to write sona-perspective dragon sexo, and vice versa, though I eventually wrote some magic into his lore where he can tweak forms between pony/dragon and male/female anyway, so, whatever.
But if I'm honest with you? Yeah, some of it really is just that desire to be unique, to be special, to be nonstandard. I got my ass bullied so hard in school that I decided to make it my life's mission to be as nonstandard as possible, and it seeps into fucking everything I do.
I drive obscure old cars, I burn CDs, I'm working on installing cassette decks into two of my cars with CD changers hooked up to them, I'm the guy doing that whole stupid Tamers-on-DVD thing, it's all just a big performative show, a show put on by a broken little kid somewhere deep inside that says "I'm not weird, I'm special!"
Using normal people things like spotify or a smartphone without a physical keyboard? Couldn't be me! Have I ever seen a single episode of the office? No, because I discovered MLP:FiM in 2013 and have only consumed content that has PONIES in it ever since!
I don't even know where I'm going with any of this, lol
It's just, when I was really into dragons in middle school, I had this hazy mental image of a blueish anthroish dragon (basically a furry but I didn't know what a furry was at the time) in my mind, and that's who I wished I was.
Then high school came, and it became a pony for a while, I wanted to be a pony instead.
And with a bit more time, those two desires just kinda blurred together, a perfect manifestation of just how much I despise my current self.
What do you even call dysphoria for the human form? I'm not trans, I don't want to be a girl, I want to be HIM.
I suppose having my moon plush will have to be good enough, eh? (Sorry about rant post)