I've got no one else to vent to so I'm posting it here because if i don't I'll probably go insane

I'm a passionate musician, have built myself up from literally nothing
>mother decided i wasn't worth the investment when an early teenager for music lessons
>my school cancelled formal music as a subject
>same with college
>went to a different college to persue music, ended up in the wrong course because of a mixup but thought fuck it, it's the closest I've got and it has its benefits
>had to leave college early because living with parents and I had to get a job to support the household
>my interest in music basically disappeared for years
>I get a gf who is exceptionally talented and whos parents are music teachers
>lucky me
>it goes great and we are very much in love
>among other things, it reignites my desire to persue music
>it goes to shit and I lose my mind and spend the next 7 years under psychiatric assessment
>spending literally countless hours and sleepless nights researching music and practing my instruments
>my neighbor constantly compares me negatively to his ex professional musician BIL and says that all my efforts are futile because "it's all been done before" and "the sort of music you want to make doesn't have an audience"
>one of my only remaining friends keeps telling me that I'm shit (I'm not, he's just extremely closed minded and refuses to listen to anything other than bluegrass folk music
>get told by my neighbor that I make "too much noise" (I don't) and "practicing every day is not normal"

idk guys. I felt myself almost losing control of my anger management earlier, literally all i want to do is grill.

Just play music people want. Simple as.

>>127053516 (OP)
I wish you the best

>>127053538
the sort of music I play regularly sells out arenas

>>127053516 (OP)
Get a job, make your music and play in your free time and get out of the hell you've created. You're following a faggot ass delusion that is going to continue to bring you nothing but pain if you let it. >>127053549
This is laughable. Get on a real track and kick the bullshit to the curb. You're not a "famous" musician- so fucking WHAT? Do you have any idea how much time, energy, and tact it takes to even get to a place where you can tour, let alone make ANY fucking money doing it? You're retarded man, I'm sorry to tell you. If you are at the point where you're posting to strangers on fucking 4chan expecting them to do anything but snap you back into reality, you are also at the point where you need to realize your "dream" is never going to happen. You will never sell out an arena (LOL!), you will never be making a "living" playing music, because in order to make a living doing music you need to have about 5 different jobs and be competent at all of them. I was on the same path as you OP, and I paid dearly for it. Stop being a faggot and do something "real," and make your stuff in your free time and play gigs when you want to.

>>127053597
yeah, fuck you.
>get a job goyim, become an expendible asset for a company that doesn't value you
you utter cuck.

>>127053597
>>127053643
i stopped reading after the first line by the way and all of your assumptions are false.
you total bellend

your truest art comes out of your darkest times. don't worry about what your dickhole neighbors say OP. Keep making your music, you might not get rich and famous but you will be heard and appreciated your stuff if the music really comes from your heart so don't give up OP!

>>127053516 (OP)
You sound completely insane. Stop touching kids.

>>127053643
Lmao, what do you think YOU will be doing if you are "lucky" enough to make music for a living? You are going to be teaching children the Songs of the Jew, producing music for Jewish companies and their products, writing Songs of the Jew that glorify their stranglehold on the planet (or else you go nowhere), and basically selling yourself in ways that don't readily compare to what I have chosen to do. To be a musician, to be an "entertainer," is to be a WHORE, to be nothing more than a spiritual HOLE that gets FUCKED in the same ways and WORSE than the dreaded "9-5er." You're a fucking loser- wanting that for yourself is more "cucked" than almost anything else on planet earth. You glorify the enemy with your faggotry and don't even know it.

>>127053516 (OP)
>one of my only remaining friends keeps telling me that I'm shit (I'm not
Sometimes they're right. I'm sorry, but very few people have what it takes to make anything decent, let alone successful.
>persue
>who's
You're likely not one of those people. Post a vocaroo of you playing or singing. A cover if you don't want to share your personal music here.

>>127053668
thanks fren, you're alright
>>127053689
take your meds you sad spastic. you know literally nothing about my methods or intentions, you assume I would bend over for a record company? are you mad?
also, I like how you assume that making a career of making music is somehow illusive, no wonder you failed as an artist.

>>127053643
What do you think you'll be if you "make it" as a musician? You fundamentally misunderstand how life works.

>>127053746
>>127053740
The only reason you made this post is because you're sad it didn't work out for you like you thought it should, which comes down to recognition or money. If you were fine making shit in your basement and getting tracks completed you wouldn't be posting shit like this. We all know what you're actually crying about. I have 100% percent had more "success" in music than you have, and probably ever will, and even that is meager. I've toured in a national act, been paid to travel to play gigs, appeared on recordings, written tons of music, and met some interesting people in high places. Guess what? It's mostly all a crock of utter SHIT. Making a career of this IS illusive, make no mistake, retard. Like >>127053740 pointed out, you are unable to properly spell. The chances of you being able to properly negotiate on behalf of yourself or your "art" are basically zero. And, you lack understanding of the process in general. It is not bending over for the record company that is the problem- it is a miracle to even get to that point. The real challenge is bending over for EVERYONE ELSE along the way. You are fucked, OP. GET A JOB.

>>127053516 (OP)
Don't listen to em OP. You keep fucking them kids.

>>127053946

>>127053746
The thing I hate most about you schizos is that you all assume you are the brightest, most interesting people on the planet when you are all incredibly dull and tedious and basically incapable of any kind of self-expression that people will understand or enjoy

>>127053516 (OP)
You don't play Bon Jovi songs, do you?

>>127053516 (OP)
Crazies make the best music. What instruments do you play? Doesn't matter who likes your music, someone is bound to like it someway or somehow. Blah blah music is subjective and all that bullshit.

Instead of being unhappy for what you don't have, why don't you try being grateful for what you do have? Also venting probably won't help you get what you want

>>127053516 (OP)
the issue is you're not cranking up the amp to max to filter those people out

>>127053516 (OP)

>>127053516 (OP)
You should grill

>>127053516 (OP)
What did you do to the ex-gf that got you institutionalized for 7 years?