I have The Orange Box for Playstation. I played it once. Then me and my (at the time) girlfriend split up (my fault entirely). I never played it again. Even seeing it was a painful reminder of how badly I failed her. Yet I kept it and still have it. I don't play it. I just keep it. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.

Anytime I see it, I remember her. Anytime I see it, I feel nothing but pain and sorrow. I destroyed our beautiful life together.
How did I get to be so weak?

Now the /pol/ point...
If we, as men, are this fucked in the head, how do we have any right to expect women to ever rrspect us. Let's face it. Most of us are this broken by life or worse.

>>507081642 (OP)
What happened between you and your girl OP?

>>507081642 (OP)
No one cares about your gay blog post, you whiny faggot.

Why the fuck would you get valve games for playstation? Play it on PC like you're supposed to.
Also this is me with LA Noire so I feel for you OP

>>507081642 (OP)
funnily i bought the orange box on steam fully intending to play TF2 like a machine but because of my GF at the time i just never had time but i returned to it years later after we broke up and im reminded of what a boon it was leaving that sack of shit behind and how i could have enjoyed the game so much earlier has she not been an albatross around my neck for so many years

>>507081642 (OP)
It's just a learning strategy.
Things associated with catastrophic failure get inhibited in your brain.

It's up to you to brute force your way through inhibitions which you conclude are harming you

>>507081883
TF2 era circa 2010 has got to be the best game I've ever played online

>>507081642 (OP)
>If we, as men, are this fucked in the head
>we
You aren't a man, anon. It is that simple.

>>507082009
Agreed. Medic update, pyro update, heavy update, scout update, pure kino.
Then this piece of shit happened.

>>507081804
It was a combination of factors.
She kept talking to this mutual friend behind my back and I could have just put a stop to that without ending our relationship, but the fact that she hid it from me at all was just too much of a red flag for me to ignore.
Another woman who professed to be a diehard monogamist came into the picture. Said other woman was a beautiful, but evil individual full of manipulations, lies, and violent tendencies, but she initially hid it well.
I ended things with the first girl, then dated the next.
That second relationship was ended by me after she decided to take off her mask.

I blame myself for being young and very stupid.

>>507081642 (OP)
physical media is fun to smash

>>507082273
>She kept talking to this mutual friend behind my back and I could have just put a stop to that without ending our relationship, but the fact that she hid it from me at all was just too much of a red flag for me to ignore.
stop being a fucking faggot you did the right thing

>>507082273
>kept talking to this mutual friend behind my back
and you're sad about ending that? Sounds like both of them were shit. Why get bent out of shape over it

>>507082660
I know I did, but it doesn't stop me from being infected with pointless sentimentality.

>>507082808
My foolish sentimentality.

>>507081642 (OP)
bought it for ps3 off newegg for $43 new in 2007 or 08. played the half life games once and then became addicted to tf2. the console versions never got an update so it was basically beta tf2. amazing game 2fort and dustbowl only. hundreds and hundreds of hours on those two maps. demo and engineer only. i googled my username one time and somebody made a thread on a popular gaming site basically just glazing my demo skills on dustbowl wondering how i was so good. best moment of my life. then i became an alcohol and everything went downhill until i discovered nicholas j fuentes a few months ago

>>507081642 (OP)
kill yourself, faggot

>>507082938
heals only with time now stop being a pussy and do push ups

>>507082908
how long ago was this? if you answer more than six months, you have testosterone deficiency and need to start doing push ups

alternatively you can always download grindr

>>507081883
I ended a relationship around the time Company of Heroes did the western forces DLC. I played it with friends and we're still fairly connected after all these years. All I remember from the relationship was bitching and complaining. Looking back, playing that with friends was one of the happiest times of my life and I'm glad I just cut things off

>>507081642 (OP)
So fucking tired of faggots like you thinking this board is their blog

>>507082273
kek he thinks females are humans
Well lad you deserve that mental anguish till you accept reality
You fucked yourself up nobody else did
Not by changing holes but by thinking they matter at all in grand scheme of things
Stay pathetic wanker