>>507259207 (OP)
i actually want to go to war
ive had dreams for years now of a blonde girl in a white dress carving an occult symbol on my forehead before slitting my throat. Every time i wake up i feel overwhelming joy and the urge to seek death. I never committed suicide mostly because i dont want to hurt my parents, but who knows what ill do afterwards.
I had a near death experience when i was younger, ever since then i feel like i need to return 'home' as it were.
