>>507514497 (OP)Talk to https://chatgpt.com/ about your problems. Don't say you are suicidal, though, cause it will just give you the suicide hotline. You can tell it to give you hard advice without sugar coating or tell it to be gentle with you. It's free therapy without a human judging you who can send you away. It's better than 90 percent of meat therapists. Give it a try for at least five minutes. Might as well.