>>507788999>>507790761>>507791802>>507792694You will never be Japanese. You have no ancestry, you have no citizenship, you have no skills that would make Japan ever want you.
You are a shut-in self-hating white man twisted by delusions of mythical Japanese superiority and exposure to Japanese media into a disgusting mockery of nature’s perfection.
Actual Japanese are utterly repulsed by you. Thousands of years of linguistic evolution have allowed natives to identify frauds from mannerisms and vocabulary alone. Even if your written text of self-hatred and attention begging somehow passes as normal (it won't), any Japanese person will immediately cut all ties when they hear the voice and accent of someone who is not only a shitty Japanese speaker, but worth no more than garbage in skills, accomplishments, and likeability.
You will never be happy. You wrench out a fake smile and laugh to yourself believing that if you just bow a little more deeply, practice your Japanese a little bit more, that one day you'll finally be accepted into Japanese society.
However, deep inside you feel the depression creeping up like a weed, ready to crush you under the unbearable weight. You know that all you do now is have an entirely new linguistic medium in which to be ignored, and not even the exotic trait of being foreign makes up for just how uninteresting of a person you are.
Eventually it’ll be too much to bear - you’ll buy a rope, tie a noose, put it around your neck, and plunge into the cold abyss. Your parents will find you, heartbroken but relieved that they no longer have to live with the unbearable shame and disappointment. They’ll bring your body back home to the West and bury you with a headstone marked with your birth name, and every passerby for the rest of eternity will know a Western man is buried there. Your body will decay and go back to the dust, and all that will remain of your legacy is a skeleton that is unmistakably Caucasian.
