>>507875078I was in your situation at one point in my life. I basically had no parents, I had to figure everything in life out on my own.
The only role models I had were teachers in school, ancient philosophers and pop culture guys like Carl Sagan and Robert E Howard.
I just want you say it's very easy to totally change your life if you're not satisfied, you could walk out the door and never come back at any time, the only caveat is that you've got a limited time to do it and that comfort and that momentum into nothing that stops you from doing those things in your youth only gets stronger the older you get.