>>508295195I have the suicide disease, you can say I am extremely cursed or lucky.
Mine is caused by a left cerebral artery compression causing atypical TN1 + 2 on the root entry to the brainstem.
Already had brain surgery and a cerebellum lift.
Pain killers don't work because its a brain stem compression, I take seizure medication for pain, oxcarbazpine.
It causes the most excruciating pain known to medical science.
I've wanted to die more times than I can count.
The only reason I am alive is because I prayed.
I prayed to Jesus for strength in my darkest moments.
He saved me.
Now I am here, on 4chan, with Luce, for some reason only God knows, trying to save others.
I've already talked others through suicide and tried to save others through Christ.
I have no clue why since I was never religious but here I am.
There is my story.
I hope you can find a path to God and find salvation for yourself.